Realizing your True Self and Transcending the False Ego of your Past

One of the most fundamental spiritual errors we make in life is in believing that we are the personality of our body and conditioning. As a human soul born into an animal body, we acquire the physical characteristics and ancestral memory that’s inherent in our genes. Our genetic makeup bestows us with the basic tendencies that are then developed by our family dynamics (those who share the same tendencies) as our formative conditioning that serves to birth our initial identity (ego). Through our formative conditioning we form a story about our self that becomes our life theme. As we grow into adults we take over the process of continuing to condition ourselves by living out of the same story. We usually do this without ever realizing that the only reason it holds true for us is because we continue to live our life as though it’s true. Many people (actually most), firmly believe that they “are” their personality as they were shaped by others and society, and have no real ability to change themselves. They live their entire life without ever realizing that they’re actually the “story-teller” and one that’s producing the reality of their story, rather than a mere consequence of the story itself.

As we come into this life and our soul acquires the qualities of our genetic makeup, we’re initially shaped by others and outside forces to strengthen and develop certain qualities while others remain latent and underutilized. We exist as children in a predominately unconscious state (of hypnosis) where we readily take in and internalize whatever consciousness is actively being expressed and demonstrated all around us. Whatever dynamics we’re apart of as a family structure, we become programmed with, and they serve to form the foundation for the story we begin telling ourselves as a means of making sense of things as we begin developing our conscious mind (between 8 and 21 years).

Our personality is formed from an unconscious state as a form of hypnotic programming that lays the foundation as a life theme for our identity to spontaneously emerge through our conscious development. As we begin thinking for ourselves and forming our own ideas about things (somewhere around puberty) we take over our own unconscious programming as our internal dialogue and the perceptual filters that we use for producing all of our experiences. We take over where our family left off, and our parent’s voice becomes our own internal voice and the means through which we interpret things to give them meaning through the story we begin telling ourselves about them. Our conditioning forms the basis for all of our initial internal dialogue as our means of thinking and processing information to form a consistent experience of our self, others, and the world around us. Out of this initial story-line as a life theme we consciously begin developing our identity by the roles we naturally take on and play through the relationship we form with the outer world and our life circumstances.   

All of our primary memories are formed from significant emotional events in our life that had a strong impact of some kind that altered us in some way. The emotional impact came at a time when we couldn’t rationalize it in an objective manner, and so we processed the experience internally by making it all about us. As a child we perceive ourselves as being one with our family unit and haven’t yet developed the mental capacity to see ourselves as sovereign individuals. Whatever we hear being said about us by others around us we accept as being true without questioning it, and form beliefs about our self as a result. Through a basic form of hypnotic suggestion we’re given (subliminally programmed with) the same values, attitudes, perspectives, beliefs, emotional states, and behavioral dynamics as our family unit. We always shape ourselves to be just like our family, or what we imagine to be the opposite (relate or contrast), but either way, we still form ourselves by way of our family.

As we grow older we fall into a very specific and pronounced role within that dynamic and we begin developing ourselves based on what we’ve been taught to believe about ourselves and the way things are. Whatever other people say about us when we’re a child acts as a creative directive (hypnotic suggestion) for our subconscious to produce as a reality. The beliefs we form about ourselves as a child become our “core beliefs” out of which we form all of our other beliefs as a correlation, and ultimately becomes a form of “self-fulfilling prophecy”. What we call our soul’s “destiny” is usually the result of our conditioning as our “false identity”.

By the time our conscious and self-aware mind develops fully (around 21 to 28 years old), where we develop the powers of reasoning, discernment, and the ability to logically analyze things, and we separate emotionally from our parents and begin seeing our self as an individual, we’re already programmed and take over the process of conditioning (creating) ourselves by continuing to live out of our past. We continue to see ourselves and process our experiences as we’ve been taught to through our conditioning, and the voice of those who judged and criticized us becomes our own internal voice that we continue playing over and over in our mind.

How we Shape Ourselves

We all have a tendency to only live out of a handful of memories that we use as the means of constructing our story about ourselves and our life. These are the memories that had the greatest impact on us, and that we use in a continuous fashion to shape ourselves accordingly. There are many other memories that we could use that would contradict our story, or tell a different type of story altogether, but we choose to ignore and exclude those, and often, over time, forget them completely. This natural ability to select the memories that we use to build our life story out of is a demonstration of our soul’s true ability to create itself, but of course we usually fail completely to realize “how” our mind is operating to “create”, and focus instead on the conditioned content as what we’ve been taught to think and feel. We don’t know how to recognize the laws by which our mind works to create an image of ourselves “as” a certain type of person, and believe instead in the illusion of our own making.

My own experience of this as a realization came from a basic form of inner guidance that called me on my own story about things. One of the feelings I always had as a kid was that nobody knew me as I really am, and judged me instead to be the same as my family, which I was nothing like in the most basic sense. As a young adult I moved to a town where nobody knew me or my family, and as I was getting ready to walk through the doors of a restaurant I was working at, it seemed like a kind of metaphor for walking into a new reality, and a voice inside said . . . okay Linda, you’re always saying that people don’t know you for who you really are, so who are you? The only thing that people are going to know about you here is what you choose to tell them. No one knows anything about your past or what you’ve been through. And I decided at that point that I wasn’t going to talk about my past or my family.

What I immediately noticed is how people looked at me and how they treated me based on being myself. I felt a kind of heaviness had been lifted from me, and a strange, newfound freedom. Like I was standing in front of a blank canvas and deciding what I was going to create. I had a blank piece of paper where I could write whatever story I wanted to. As a result of never talking about my past and deciding I was going to create myself in a conscious manner, I began forgetting about the past and over time thought about it less and less. As I no longer chose to dwell in memories of the past, I began feeling different about myself and my life. My personal growth during this time was phenomenal and I slowly began transforming myself into a completely new type of person. The person I consciously decided to be.

Many years later, when I finally opened up and talked briefly about my childhood and what I went through growing up, people that knew me were shocked. They had no idea and thought I had come from a well-to-do family, had an extensive education, and was nurtured as a child by loving parents. As time went on, many years later, when I would talk about the crazy stuff we did as kids (I had 3 older brothers), instead of talking about it as abuse and tragedy, I decided I was going to embody the outlook and attitude of two of my favorite fictional characters, Tom Sawyer and Huckleberry Finn, and I re-told the stories of my past in a humorous and adventurous way. All of my stories about running away, hoping trains to who knows where, and living in forts on the streets became exciting adventures of exploration and freedom. I retold the exact same experiences from and entirely different perspective, and as a result changed the memories themselves in terms of how I “experienced” them and how I felt about myself as a result. I literally recreated myself using the same memories as life events while experiencing them in a whole new way. This was my first lesson in the art of self-transformation.

Now, as a fully mature person who has lived many lives in the course of this life and personality, I hardly ever talk about my past or myself in the general sense, and instead practice being present, talk about ideas and what my life is about currently. I’ve grown so much in terms of my ability to create myself intentionally that I don’t even relate to the little girl in my memories anymore. Many people see me as mysterious and a bit hard to get to know, without realizing that it’s because I no longer choose to live from my unconscious conditioning of the past, and instead identify with my true self as a universal being that’s the “storyteller” and the one creating the reality rather than the hypnotized personality still living out of the past and how I was shaped by others.

To wake-up in life isn’t to “heal from the past” by going through years of therapy where you “work through the issues of your past”, which usually only causes you to become even more identified with your past and the need to tell about “what happened to you” as a means of explaining why you’re the way you are. It comes instead through realizing who you really are as a soul and identifying instead with being the one who’s doing the creating by way of the story you keep telling yourself and others, often referred to as “your truth”. It’s detaching from your own past memories formed as a child when you had no real self-awareness and assuming the position of being the one who’s creating an image of yourself and producing the reality of your life “as” that story. You decide that you no longer need to keep telling that story as an expression of who you are, and you let go of it as a result. You no longer present yourself through the stories of your past and realize instead that you can create in the present whatever experience of yourself you want to by simply choosing to operate your own mind and imagination in an intentional manner.

What we think of as our “self” is formed out of memories. Our memories only remain alive if we continue to give them life in the present by constantly reliving them in our imagination. To change the self, you have to change the memories that serve to form it. All memories are actually something we create by how we interpret the events of our life out of whatever emotional state we were in at the time. By constantly reliving the memories over and over keeps us locked into the same emotional states. Whatever memory we play out and the emotion it keeps us infused with forms all of our natural perceptions, behaviors, and activities. You don’t change a memory by reinterpreting it to give it new meaning, but by “experiencing” the same event from a different perspective and attitude that causes you to “feel different” and elicits a different emotion in response to it. We evolve and transform ourselves by re-imagining our life experiences. All will to create lies in masterful use of your own imagination.

Dr. Linda Gadbois  

Exercising the Power of Choice to Create your Life

The most fundamental way we direct the events of our life and create our own experiences is through the decisions we make that we then use our will in fulfilling by taking action on them. Many think that the power of choice only matters in the big decisions we make regarding what seems like the important issues we’re faced with, yet the fact is we’re always making decisions in every moment, both unconsciously and consciously, as to who we’re going to be. The future is created in the present. The past no longer exists unless it’s kept alive by continuing to think about it. Major decisions come as a natural progression of many smaller decisions we make along the way. All decisions come as an expression of our character and as the basic means through which we create ourselves through the type of experiences they produce that we play a part in initiating and cooperatively participating in.

When we practice the art of staying present in our life, and keep our attention on what’s actually happening as a direct experience, we can realize that the only “real time” is the present moment and that all future events come as the result of the decisions we’re making as to who we’re going to be, what we’re going to do, and what type of things we’re going to participate in co-creating in the moment. No one is ever really making our decisions for us, but simply act to influence us by getting us to agree and cooperate with them, or causing us to doubt ourselves and what we know to be true in favor of their ideas about things instead.

Three Basic Types of Choices

There are three primary forms of decisions: conscious ones that we make with awareness and in an intentional manner; unconscious ones that we do without thinking or that are emotionally based; and natural selection, or ones that come as a form of perceptual default based on our mental paradigm. One of the most basic types of decisions that we make all the time without realizing it is in terms of what we focus on, give our attention to, and think about consistently. Whatever we think about in a repetitive manner, we literally program ourselves with as a reality, and ultimately become through the activity we generate out of it. We can use the self- aware aspect of our mind to decide what we focus on and think about. We can learn how to keep our attention focused in the present and only think about what actually matters.

We’re making an unconscious decisions anytime we focus on the past and continue running the stories of our conditioning through our mind over and over. As we continue to tell stories about what happened to us in the past, and what it means about us as a result, we simply repeat the past in the present and create ourselves out of an unconscious state. When we allow our mind to wander in a random and habitual manner our thoughts tend to control us instead of us controlling them. Unconscious decisions are often made purely out of emotional states as reactions. As we go through our day, current events form a chain of association to similar events of the past, and we constantly go off into whole thought processes as memories that we consistently replay and tell stories about in a redundant manner. When we allow our mind to operate on auto-pilot without being self-aware and directing it in an intentional manner, we continue to live out of a primarily unconscious state.

Birthing New Realities

Choice and will are intimately connected because we always use our will as the means of producing the reality of our choices. Likewise, self-realization is what forms our awareness around our ability to make moment by moment decisions and then realize the outcomes we produce through willful action. We apply realization through our ability to recognize several options available to us in any moment, then imagining the reality our decisions will produce as an experience. Choice and will work “as” the Law of Cause and Effect. All action causes an equal or greater reaction of the same nature. As we make a decision, then take action on it, we act to birth a whole new reality. As we create the reality of our decision, we form new realizations about our self and life and begin living in a much more intentional manner.

We’re always acting to consciously and unconsciously produce our own reality while simultaneously experiencing ourselves “within” that reality as a certain “kind and type” of person. Choices, like all things, stem from our mental paradigm formed out of our conditioning as our fundamental means of perceiving things. Most of our decisions come as a form of perceptual habit that’s applied consistently while in an unconscious state where we lack awareness of what we’re actually doing in the direct sense. While many believe that choice is a conscious act, the fact is most of our decisions come unconsciously as what we choose to focus on, think about, and play out in our mind as imaginary scenarios and the mood that results from it. 

 Realization is important as the means for being able to make intelligent decisions by playing out possible choices to see what type of consequences they’ll possibly render. By playing out a choice as the reality it’ll produce, we can learn how to make good decisions that will bring the best possible outcomes. We can’t ever blame our own decisions and creations on other people who we imagine made our decisions for us by giving us no choice, or that put us in a bind, or that we imagine led us astray somehow, because intuitively we’re always “sensing things” as our feelings about it, and know right away the character and intentions of the person and what type of drama as a relationship and way of interacting that will result from it. Emotions that are intense can act to override and take control of our intellect. When we begin making emotional decisions we use our will to engage in co-creating the illusion inherent in the emotion.

 In our modern society we entertain ideas like it’s “alright” to say no, as if you’re doing something wrong or that you’ll “make someone feel bad” by being true to yourself. We’re often taught to ignore red-flags that come as intuitive awareness in favor of the emotional illusion being unconsciously played out by others instead. Many stay in bad relationships for years because they feel they’re wrong somehow in making the decision to leave, and then become resentful, bitter, and depressed while imagining it’s the other person’s fault.

The Power of Intuition

Within the animal kingdom of instinct, there’s no such thing as illusions that replace objective reality. There’s no lying to yourself and others by presenting them with an illusion in place of truth, and there’s no manipulative and covert agendas being played out as a means of gaining control over others. As humans, we also possess an animal body and experience instinct as intuition and body consciousness. When we listen to our body (how we feel) and intuition (the awareness that comes from it) we always know the truth in any situation, and if we allow an idea to spontaneously arise out of our intuition as a mental impression, we can know the reality that will result from it.

Intuition as feelings is based on the energies at play that systematically produce patterns as the reality inherent in it. As we steadily move into a situation we’re constantly being stimulated energetically forming an intimate awareness around it that’s always connecting us to the truth about it. When we form an intuitive awareness around something, but then either feel bad or doubt our awareness in favor of a story we begin telling ourselves that either explains it away or justifies it somehow, and we keep moving into it instead of away from it, we make a fundamental error in judgment, and act to co-create an illusion in place of the truth. Naturally, at some point along the way what we knew from the beginning starts becoming evident, then we feel “disillusioned”, lied to, let down, and somehow betrayed by the other person, when in fact it was us who lied to and betrayed ourselves because we didn’t listen to what we knew to be true right from the start.

The power to self-create in an aware fashion comes by realizing that we’re always making the decisions as to what direction our life takes, what relationships we maintain, what environments we place and keep ourselves in, and who we are in terms of our character and morality. As we make decisions in a moment by moment fashion as to who we’re going to be and what type of qualities we employ as the means of creating our experiences, we are simultaneously creating our “self” in relation to everything else. We can begin realizing that we always have a direct connection inwardly to the truth that exists outwardly. All we have to do is realize it and trust it as the means of making good decisions. Once we realize that all of our mental and emotional pain and suffering is caused by our own hand through the choices we make and the actions we take based on our decisions, and how we use our mind to experience the reality of our choices, we gain access to a very fundamental power as the true nature and creative ability of our higher soul.

Our Higher Self isn’t separate or different from our lower soul that’s confined to our personality and our unconscious conditioning, but is what acts to produce the entire material reality of our lower soul “through” how it operates as the consciousness of the body. When we “choose” to embody and utilize our higher consciousness as the means of creating, we learn how to tune into and skillfully use our intuition as the means of always knowing the truth in any situation and begin creating our life in a self-aware and intelligent manner. When we ignore and subdue our higher, subtle awareness as our intuition in favor of surface appearances, we use the power of our will to form illusions in place of truth. As unconscious beings that lack true awareness, we’re always deceiving ourselves. In the ultimate sense all deception is self-deception. We’re only deceived when we first disconnect from our self in favor of someone else’s truth, and act on ourselves to cooperate in creating an illusion in place of what we know deep down to be true.

All betrayal comes initially from betraying ourselves by choosing to ignore what we know to be true and therefore real, in favor of a lie. We can only be lied to by another when we first lie to ourselves by going against our inner feelings. When we lose touch with our true self, which is only known intimately as our feelings and the awareness that arises from them, we become an inherent part of a grand illusion created by surface appearances and facades designed to mask the truth and engage in a primary form of self-delusion.

Whenever we allow someone to persuade or convince us to go against what we feel to be right, we make an unconscious agreement to participate in a very basic form of self-deception where we deny our self in favor of another that we believe knows better than we do. The “truth” is never something we have to be persuaded to believe, it’s something that comes from within as a basic form of “self-awareness” as to how we feel in relationship with the outer forces we’re interacting with. We’re always choosing both unconsciously and consciously in any given moment to either make decisions based on what we know internally or what we’re being influenced by externally. We’re always either allowing our Higher Self to show us the way and create through us, or allowing others to make our decisions for us where we lend our will to creating our life according to the illusions they produce. Either way, the choice is always ours.

Dr. Linda Gadbois   

Meditation, Self-Realization, and Transcending the Illusion of Reality

While many people approach the idea of meditation as a method of some kind that’s designed to produce a predictable effect, and believe there are only certain ways to “truly meditate”, the fact may be that it’s a process through which we train our mind to step outside of our lower, conditioned nature and connect intimately with our higher Self. In our Western society, which has a tendency to focus almost exclusively on our physical nature, meditation is often seen as a means of calming the mind and inducing deepened states of relaxation, which is the beginning stage of most meditative processes.

Some people even go so far as to argue about what’s meditation and what’s not, indicating that there’s a right way of doing it and a wrong way. Yet meditation, like any spiritual practice, which means it involves how you use your own mind to achieve altered states of consciousness, is something that’s done in a unique way by everyone doing it. There are no rules of right and wrong ways, simply guidelines that provide us with a starting point as a means of producing the foundation out of which a natural process arises and becomes active beyond our ability or desire to control it. If you’re held to the idea of a right and wrong way, and go about it by obeying rules laid down for you by others, then it simply becomes a relaxation technique or produces whatever the structured process is designed to produce.

Meditation as a Spiritual Practice

Meditation as a spiritual practice provides us with a means of calming and subduing our habitual thoughts and impulses, while forming a place of inner peace and silence that ultimately connects us with our Higher Self. It also provides us with a process for being able to step outside of and detach from the conditioned “content” of our mind and view it instead from an objective and unemotional perspective. As we detach from our own thoughts and story about things and view them instead from a perspective of “witnessing” them, we begin realizing the “process” involved that acts to give rise to our thoughts. We can watch the impulses as they rise up, form into a whole synchronized series of interrelated thoughts that peak and express momentarily, then subside, die down, and fade away, while another impulse rises in its place.

By quieting the mind of outer awareness and habitual thoughts, we become present with our inner awareness. Our focal point becomes our own feelings and allowing our thoughts to freely flow by without grabbing onto them or penetrating them and going into a detailed story or narrative of some kind. As we simply sit on the shore and content ourselves with watching our thoughts flow by we can begin realizing that it’s merely the “content” of our mind produced by our conditioning, and we become aware instead of the process involved in “producing our thoughts” as our perception of reality, which is a form of delusion that we’ve mistaken for being “who we are”. By observing the content of our mind we can begin realizing that we’re not the story itself, but rather the mind that’s producing and acting to give rise to the story “about” our self. We’re the author and storyteller, and not the story itself. Our soul is our mind as the medium through which the story plays out as a reality.

Once we gain realization around how it is that we’re acting to “create our self” through the reality we create through the perspective of our conditioning and personality, we can begin questioning our own motives, and gaining even deeper realizations about the nature of our unconscious mind and how it acts to produce our perception of reality. As we move into the emotions that drive our thoughts and actions, while maintaining an awareness that’s detached from the need to somehow justify and validate our reality as being true, the illusion of it becomes more and more apparent, and our identification with our body and personality begins slowly fading away. We can gain an awareness of our “self” as the medium through which our thoughts take place, rather than being the thoughts themselves.

As we continue to become aware of the process our mind undergoes as a means of creating our perception of reality, we begin stepping into our true identity as the mind and soul that’s creating it as a mental projection. This awareness as a new and higher form of self-realization liberates us from the delusion of our conditioning and we no longer have a need to continue creating it. As our conditioned mind begins dissolving and fading away, we begin sensing our “self” and reality as it really is, apart from our story. We see with great clarity that we were creating our self out of a false identity through an unconscious state where we didn’t realize in the direct sense who we really are, what we were doing, and how it is that we were doing it.

As we gain a deeper awareness of our self as our higher consciousness, we shed the identity of our conditioning, neutralizing and purifying our body, and it becomes the temple as a vehicle for our higher self to create from a fully conscious state of “actual” self-awareness. We come fully into the realization that the material reality is not who we are, but something we create by formulating it inwardly as imagined thoughts that are then projected outwardly. All needs and desires for material possessions and status that used to provide us with the means for defining ourselves and feeling secure in our false identity begins to disappear. As we realize that we’re not “of this world” or dimension, and begin consciously residing in a higher awareness, we assume a natural position of serving others. Our karma that was incurred through unconscious conditioning resolves and we no longer continue to live and create out of it. Liberation comes as a “mental state of being”, not a physical one. The mental is what lays the foundation for the physical to naturally emerge out of.

Seeded Meditation

Another method of meditation comes by entering into an altered state of passivity, while setting an intention to acquire information about something as an answer to a question or problem. By fully relaxing our mind and body, calming all habitual thoughts while relinquishing the need to try and control or come up with the answer from our conditioned mind of personal memory, and impressing the question on the empty space within and around us, then letting go and residing patiently in silence, we connect with higher consciousness and act as a passive “receiver” for information that provides us with the answer to our inquiry. Questions and answers, like higher and lower planes of the same reality, exist in polarity to each other. They’re complementary aspects of the same idea as a holographic pattern.

By focusing our attention in a single minded fashion on the question, free from distractions, we tune ourselves energetically (spiritually) to the answer, and serve as a passive receiver for the answer to come “through us”. As long as we’re actively trying to “figure out the answers”, we exist in an active state and can’t receive an answer that’s not a part of the previous experiences of our conditioning. The “active aspect” (masculine) of the mind can’t communicate (seed) with another active aspect, it has to have a passive mind (feminine) that can “conceive it” and where it can “rise up” within the imagination of the passive mind (unconscious) and reveal itself (begin unfolding) as a thought-form.

The subconscious is the receptive aspect of the lower material mind and serves to “draw in” and gives life to the active aspect of either the higher mind, or lower self-conscious mind of outer awareness on the same lower plane of the subconscious. By silencing the active material mind of conditioned thought, we render ourselves passive and receptive, and become a fluent receiver for higher consciousness to “seed and impregnate us” with an idea that will serve as an answer to our question or solve a problem. If we begin to use our conditioned mind to evaluate and alter the answer through our beliefs and emotional filters, then we stay stuck in the reality of the problem. This is what Einstein was referring to when he said “a problem can’t be solved with the same mind that created it”, and why all great thinkers and inventors get their ideas as a form of “vision” that comes to them out of the blue bringing new awareness and realizations.

Goal of Meditation

While many “use” meditation to achieve certain states or as a means of relaxing, once you get into a regular practice and begin connecting with your higher consciousness within the silence of your material mind, it produces a feeling of euphoria and you begin “falling in love” with your higher self. You form a deep desire for the connection and begin identifying with it as a normal way of being. Once the illusion of our conditioned state begins falling away along with the identity we formed through it, and we begin “looking through the eyes of higher consciousness”, we begin training ourselves to maintain a passive mind as a normal way of being in order to stay connected with our higher awareness. We become fully “present” in our everyday life while maintaining a sense of inner peace. Meditation becomes our normal way of being and we train our body to be the vehicle and instrument for higher consciousness to inhabit, be, and express through.

When this happens you give up the need to be right, you no longer argue to prove your point, all pain and suffering born out of the illusion and lack of forgiveness fade, you lose your desire for material gratification and status, and you begin seeking solace in the silence and natural beauty of things. You begin tuning into the miraculous nature of life, and feel compassion for all other living beings. Every act becomes an expression of kindness because you’re no longer invested in the illusion and need to judge others who are still consumed with the illusion of their own making. Once we no longer get our identity from our conditioning, we liberate ourselves from our own story and tendency to delude ourselves. We realize with extreme clarity that we are “in this world, but not of it”, and that “of ourselves we’re nothing”. All true power comes from our higher self. We’re not the product of our own story; we’re the creator of it. Our story of reality takes place both “within us” and “outside of us” through the medium of our mind as a projection through the time-space continuum.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Becoming Self-Aware and Learning how to resolve your own Issues

One of the most primary ways we have of becoming aware of our own unconscious tendencies formed through our formative conditioning is by realizing that the outer world (and other people) exist in polarity with us and are always acting to show us parts of our self that can be difficult for us to see normally. The outer world is always acting to stimulate us internally and make certain parts of us active and expressive. As we’re stimulated by things, it provides us with a kind of mirror into the hidden aspects of our own psyche. Whatever we exist in polarity with as “shared aspects”, causes a natural reaction in us in response to them. As we react, we take on the same nature as whatever it is we’re reacting to. We take on the same qualities, emotions, and behaviors. As these qualities and ways of being are activated and brought out in us, it provides us with the opportunity to see what they are.

 The primary decision and attitude necessary to begin cultivating deeper forms of self-awareness, is the honest decision to do so, while simultaneously cultivating the ability to step outside of your own reactions and look at them from an objective and detached perspective. Once a reaction is triggered in us, we can remove our attention from what’s causing it and turn it inward instead. As we turn inward and begin observing the nature of our own reaction, we can clearly see “who we become” in relation with it. We can see what our own internal dialogue is and what type of script begins playing out in our mind. If we remain detached from it while simply observing it, we can see what lives inside of us that we’re often not fully aware of. We can see what it is we typically repress and deny about ourselves, while also recognizing that we become the “same as” as whatever it is we’re reacting to, and act to participate in playing out a certain type of dynamic. We become the same type of person and take on the same type of behaviors.

One of the fundamental principles of the universe is “cause and effect”. All cause as an action, stimulates and produces an equal or greater reaction of the same nature and kind. Like always serves to beget more of what’s like it. This idea can also be understood as the Law of Vibration, which basically demonstrates that whatever frequency something vibrates at, which transmits a form of signal, moves through and into physical forms and vibrates that same frequency in them. As it awakens and makes the same quality active by resonating with it, the two frequencies of a similar nature begin vibrating in harmony, ultimately forming coherence as an energetic unification. Once unified energetically, a coherent pattern is formed as an interactive dynamic that expresses to form a joint reality comprised of the qualities they share in common.

All of the unconscious content that exists in us without our direct awareness of it is simultaneously being projected onto the environment, allowing us to witness it with our conscious mind. But because we’ve repressed it and lost memory of it, we don’t realize it’s showing us unknown aspects of ourselves. The outer is always a projection as a mirror image of the inner that’s acting to produce it as our perception. A mirror image is an opposite reflection of an image. All of reality is composed of complementary opposites as masculine (outer) and feminine (inner) aspects of the same thing that act to stimulate each other. The inner acts to receive the stimulus of the outer, calling forth the same quality as a state of consciousness, and together produce an offspring as a reality. While we tend to think that “reality” is something that exists around and outside of us, it’s actually formed as a “field of information” that’s constantly being reformed into variations by the mind perceiving it. The inner and outer are extensions of each other as a polar and complementary relationship.

If you allow yourself to notice, you’ll realize that only certain people, attitudes, and behaviors cause a distinct reaction in you. Other people and activities are going on around you all the time that you don’t particularly even notice, let alone react to. When you do notice them for some reason, you view them in a neutral and detached manner that’s a kind of objective evaluation where you remain calm inside the whole time, and basically unaffected. This is because the attitude and traits they’re displaying are a part of our own awareness and not something that you’ve denied and repressed in yourself. They’re not a part of your conditioned and unresolved issues, so to speak. By realizing this, we’re provided with a powerful tool for self-healing and personal growth.

 The Practice of Self-Awareness

Begin by making the decision to unearth your own unconscious content, and set the intention to begin developing the means necessary to become self-aware. Anytime you get an emotional charge from someone or something, and you go into an instant reaction, realize what’s happening while refraining from reacting. As you refrain from reacting, remove your attention from whatever is causing the reaction, and turn it inward instead. Simply become aware of what’s happening inside of you. Notice what the reactive thoughts are, and what emotion is associated with it. Notice the dialogue that begins passionately playing out in your mind automatically. What story, script, or narrative starts running in relation to it. What behaviors are you prompted to go into seemingly without the ability to control them outright?

As you allow the unconscious content to surface and begin actively expressing, resist the tendency to justify your “right” to feel and act that way. Don’t fool yourself with the idea that you’re simply “giving them back their own medicine”, or “giving them what they deserve”. If you’re feeling hurt, just allow yourself to notice the urge to hurt them back in the same way, while continuing to allow the feelings to fully surface and play out in your mind while you “watch them”. Then allow yourself to notice who you become because of the story playing out in your mind. What memory as an imagined reality rises up within you that becomes the means for interpreting the current reality to mean the same thing as the past. What role do you take on in your own story about things?

If you have trouble doing this and keep going back to focusing on the other person, just catch yourself and return your attention inward. Focus exclusively on the internal processes the external stimulus set into motion within you. Don’t judge yourself in any way, or make yourself wrong, and remain as detached from it as possible. Remove yourself from “within the experience”, and reside in awareness outside where you’re watching it like a movie, where you’re not the main star, but simply one of the characters playing a role in a larger dynamic. Don’t try to control what’s happening within or change it somehow, just observe it as another person would.

Allow yourself to notice that anytime you’re reacting, you become like the person you’re reacting to. You take on the same emotions, attitude, and behaviors, and you begin cooperatively participating in creating the same type of reality as a joint experience. As you begin awakening to how it is that you’re always being shaped and determined by other people through the activation of your own unconscious content, and that every reaction is providing you with a mirror that’s reflecting back to you aspects of yourself that you’re unaware of, you can begin gaining awareness around the true nature of things.

Through the realization that’s obtained through the practice of observing your own mind and thoughts, you bring what’s operating to unconsciously in your life life into conscious awareness, where it’s resolved through the awareness itself and no longer acts to control you. The more and more you do this, the less reactive you become, and other people and events no longer act “on you” in an unconscious manner to control and determine you. As we become aware of what’s serving to create us through an unconscious state, we begin healing ourselves and cultivating a state of inner peace where we begin making conscious decisions in a calm and calculated manner as to “who we’re going to be” in any situation. As we let go of our tendency to create while in an unconscious state, we can choose what qualities we employ instead and begin creating our self and our life in an intentional and beneficial manner.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Alchemy, Soul Purification, and the Laws for Ascending from One Dimension to Another

     There are so many ideas being put out into the world right now regarding the idea of soul ascension, raising your vibratory frequency, and what it means to honestly create yourself. Naturally, all of these ideas are referring to the same basic idea as a fundamental change in “state”. This is not an idea that can be realized by simply theorizing and talking about it in what may appear to be a knowledgeable way, but rather something that’s only achieved through the application of knowledge as universal laws through an actual practice of some kind. We only truly acquire knowledge through direct experience, and only truly “know” what we actively demonstrate through our natural perception and behaviors. We only “become” through experience that provides us with the realizations that act naturally to transform us from the inside out. Our inner state and outer reality exist in equilibrium to each other, and together act to produce our “experiences” of reality.

       Another misconception that’s being played out by those claiming to know the secret to transformation, is that the work itself as a form of healing process can be done by another or through processes that involve objects, electronic devices and machines, or processes that only involve the physical component of what is already manifest, rather than focusing on the inner nature of the person, their mental model, emotional states, and the beliefs they hold. Some of these practices are done with crystals or stones of some kind, instruments and technological devices that introduce vibration as energetic qualities into the body or brain, or through some other therapeutic process performed by another “on or to us”. Yet, as those of you know who have tried these, very few of these processes produce truly permanent results, or work at the non-material, mental and unified level of the soul.

       Only the higher Soul is immortal in nature and ascends to higher levels when released from the physical body at death. The Soul, which is the same as the mind, has the ability to determine its own physical, emotional, and moral nature. No one or no thing can do it for us. We’re never “healed by another”, and no one has the ability to alter our frequency as our state of mind permanently, accept us. We are all responsible for our own Soul’s creation and the reality as a plane of consciousness or dimension that we exist in naturally. This is because “reality” as we personally know it, is formed through our “perception of it”, and doesn’t exist independent of us. All “self-creation” is an internal process that we do to ourselves.

      The only way we truly have of “knowing” something is by becoming “like it” in nature. We become one with an idea by embodying it mentally and physically, where we experience it as it. As we contemplate an idea, we momentarily take it on and become one with it in mind where we structure it as a reality in our imagination, forming a working concept of it or by turning it into a scenario of some kind as the means of seeing (witnessing) what the experience of it would be like. As we conceptualize it and play it out in our mind’s eye, we sense ourselves as being within it, having the experience of it “as it”, forming a kind of intimate relationship with it that provides us with new insights regarding it’s true nature that form the basis for making a decision about it. We’re always deciding what qualities as a state of mind and way of being we’re going to use by expressing them in order to “create ourselves” through the experience of ourselves they provide. Our body serves merely as the vehicle and means for energies to express through as a way of forming certain types of “experiences of our self” which eventually, through consistent expression, form our energetic essence, shape our character (morality), and establish our inner nature.

       When we’re operating primarily out of an unconscious state this all happens naturally and automatically, and we simply take on and become apart of whatever qualities are being openly expressed around us and the dynamics they form that we’ve been trained to be a part of. While we may not have a choice as to what we’re exposed to and played an active part in as kids, once we become adults and our self-conscious, self-aware mind begins developing and becoming dominant, we have the ability to see what’s going on in an objective manner, and make conscious decisions as to what relationships we foster and maintain, who and what we associate with, what activities we willingly engage in, and so on. Those who don’t “wake up” and become self-aware continue to live out of an unconscious, conditioned state where they feel they have no control or ability to change their life and continue instead to engage in the beliefs, character and emotional dramas of their upbringing. Those who readily conform to society and cultural conditioning without any real awareness of their ability to form realizations, make new choices, and become self-directed, vibrate at the lower frequencies of this plane and continue to live in the reality of that level of consciousness as the means of creating themselves to be “of it”.

       When we wake-up to the truth of things and become aware of who we really are in terms of our ability to discern the truth as to what’s really going on, and the illusive fact that we’re the only one creating our experiences and our “self” according to those experiences, and we detach from the emotional triggers that keep us in an unconscious and automatic state of being, we can begin fully exercising our ability to disengage from the illusion of mass consciousness. Once we’ve made this primary decision for ourselves we can begin making everyday decisions as to who we want to be and what kind of story we’re going to tell about our life by how we live it.

    Once we begin realizing that we were trained to a certain mindset and that it’s not actually “true and real” outside of our natural ability to perceive it and unknowingly cooperate in playing a role in the dynamics that lend themselves to telling a certain kind of story as the means of “co-creating” it, we are no longer drawn into them. We don’t have to go through years of therapy in an attempt to try and work through or resolve the illusion of our own making, because once we truly realize what we’re doing and how it is that we’re doing it, it becomes painfully obvious that it’s not real, and through the realization alone we no longer engage in it and begin making new choices for ourselves instead. As we dissolve illusions of ourselves through self-realizations, we no longer perceive them as real and can clearly see them as being fictitious when being acted out by others.

Challenges, Crisis and Hardship

       Another question that always comes up around the idea of ascending after death to a new and higher plane of existence, is whether or not a person who has somehow determined themselves to be a “good person”, living a good life (which is clearly a belief and an opinion) can ascend without ever being “tried and tested” or going through severe crisis and moral challenges of some kind. The answer to this is easy to understand by simply realizing that we only know what out true nature is or what we’re truly capable of when we’re challenged in serious ways, have some kind of major life crisis, or are devastated somehow where the very foundation we relied on for safety and security has been torn away or revealed as being false somehow.

       When experiencing severe loss, we tend to become grief-stricken and slightly deranged as we desperately scramble for security. When we can no longer reside in our comfort zone and all that gave us a feeling of safety and security and that we built our identity around is taken away or lost, we’re left not knowing who we are or what to do. At this point a form of panic tends to set in and we resort to what can be desperate means where we’re more unconscious and irrational than ever before. When someone is overcome by fear of some kind, we get to see firsthand what parts of their character have been completely undeveloped due to their “comfortable position” in life. We only truly know what we’re capable of when we’re being seriously challenged in life. Our vices as negative and destructive character traits can only be transformed while they’re active and expressing where we can see what they actually are and chose in a conscious manner to employ new qualities.

       How we feel, perceive life, and behave in a situation that’s easy, comfortable, and has no pressure involved that serves to bring us face-to-face with our greatest fears and insecurities, is quite different than what we experience when being challenged. When our world shatters and we’re left confused and distraught, overwhelmed with inner turmoil and the inability to make a firm decision as to how to proceed, we face the unknown, not only in the world at large, but more importantly, in ourselves, which can seem terrifying. We often only come to realize who and how we truly are when we no longer have anything else to rely on and have to draw on an inner source as the means of making our own decisions regarding every area of our being. A person with an easy life who’s never challenged with hardship of any kind, never gets to see what they’re actually made of or capable of. Many who excel under the right conditions completely fall apart and become vicious and morally destructive under bad and stressful conditions.

       In a similar manner, people tend to only be your friend when you’re engaged in the same reality they are, and as soon as you face challenges or experience a crisis of some sort, turn on you, try to tear you down, make you bad or wrong somehow, elevate themselves above you, and ultimately act to persecute and ostracize you. So those who seemed kind, gentle, and generous, and always eager to help and encourage you at one point, based on shared circumstances, are judgmental, ruthless, uncaring, scared, mean, and incredibly selfish in the next moment. It’s only when the foundation we’ve built our life around completely falls apart or is taken away and lost somehow that our ego as a form of disillusionment can no longer be sustained, and we “fall apart”, losing our identity. This process of transformation is often referred to as the “dark night of the soul” where we “hit bottom”, so to speak, and we truly step into the true reality of things where the only way out is to embrace and utilize our ability to completely rebuild our life in order to become who we’re really capable of becoming. At this point, we can no longer sustain ourselves through our life conditions and circumstances, and have to begin drawing on a purely internal source as the means of creating, developing, and sustaining ourselves.

       Many people who seem strong and as though they have it together in one situation, will show up as scared, weak, crumbing, and completely falling apart in another one. It’s only when we face a diverse array of different type of challenges and hardships that all of our false fronts dissolve and we gain access to our “core self”. Once everything we relied on previously begins going away we begin realizing that we have a choice as to who and how we’re going to be in relationship to what happens to us. In this moment we are provided with the opportunity to practice true self-mastery as our ability to create our self from a fully conscious state that’s free of illusions. If you can be pressured into being a certain way under the right circumstances, where you can somehow justify it, so to speak, then that’s providing you with a mirror into your soul showing you who and how you “really are”. Once you get a firsthand realization of your own poor character traits through the experience of being that way, you know exactly what it is you need to transform about yourself.

Resistance, Temptation, and Willpower

      Through active use of our will, we have the ability to resist our own conditioned tendencies and temptations to engage in unconscious and automatic behaviors developed in us as children that are bad or destructive somehow. The word “bad” in this context isn’t about a belief or opinion that we’ve been taught and willingly adopted, but rather the result of what will be created from practical use of the natural laws involved. Part of our moral development comes from our conscience and how we intuitively feel about what will result from certain activities. In all spiritual allegories that demonstrate spiritual laws, the soul is consistently tried and tested through emotions and temptations of various sorts to see if those feelings and qualities are still alive inside and an active part of their psyche.

      Temptation isn’t really a test between “good and bad”, as it’s generally thought of, but rather provides us with the means to examine our own inner nature and actively utilize our ability to choose and willfully act out our decisions, going against what might otherwise be thought of as impulsiveness or a part of our conditioned and unconscious nature. We’re typically tempted with situations that bring gratification and physical pleasure, that feed an insecurity of some kind, satisfy or remedy a fear, or cause us to go against a desire for change by relapsing and continuing to engage in the very behaviors we’ve decided to change. In order to be “tempted” by something we have to have that quality and desire still “alive” in us as a part of our moral character. The act and experience of feeling tempted to engage in something we don’t want or like, is giving us direct insight into our own unconscious nature and character, showing us what it is we still have to transform. It shows us where there’s a lack of alignment and harmony between our conscious and unconscious mind.

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       Those who can be tempted into exercising parts of their character that goes against their seemingly conscious decisions for themselves, are not of the same nature as the beings of a higher plane of consciousness who reside in a basic state of harmony with all aspects of themselves. We can only ascend to a plane that vibrates at a certain frequency, meaning the pattern being played out as the reality of that plane, when we are of the same nature, likeness, and character. The higher plane of consciousness is a “unified plane” where all aspects of the Soul are aligned in harmony with one another and therefore always act under any circumstances to create in a constructive and beneficial manner for the good of all involved. As long as we remain divided in spirit (mind) and act to sabotage our own ability to create, and create while predominately in an unconscious state that’s opposing our conscious decisions, we’ll remain in this plane of duality where the higher soul is being ran by the lower soul, which is driven by emotions and desires for physical things. The higher region of the astral plane is void of emotions that are designed to produce unconscious impulses as instinctual behaviors. Whatever type of reality we “create ourselves out of” we bond ourselves to energetically and remain within that plane.

      Whatever we participate in and act to willingly create as a reality, whether we’re just like it or stand in opposition of it, we’re “like in nature” and vibrate at the same frequency. Whatever causes a reaction in us is acting to awaken a quality that’s there to be awakened. Life events and external stimulus only have the ability to call forth traits in us that are already there. If we don’t possess a trait or tendency, then we’re not stimulated or affected by it outside of us. As long as we need to put forth a conscious decision to resist a desire for something, it’s showing us what it is we need to transform in order to actually “be” of a different state and nature where we’re not tempted by it in the least.

Purification of the Soul

       Whenever we’re talking about the Soul we’re talking about our “whole self”, especially as it pertains to the mind as our feelings, thoughts, and emotions that produce all of our behaviors. If we orientate ourselves from the perspective of the Soul coming into the material body and plane as its own creation, we realize that our perception of reality is produced by how we feel, what type of things we focus on and think about and form into sensory realities, and what emotions we generate and act to tune ourselves to as a response to our own thoughts. We’re always forming “internal representations” of reality that we use in place of what we can think of as “actual” or “objective reality”. These internal representations act as a form of map for navigating reality and forming coherent and consistent interpretations of the events of our life to give them a consistent meaning forming a congruent version of reality.

       Whatever meaning we give things determines what we tell ourselves about them as the means of understanding them, and forming an equal understanding of ourselves by way of them. These internal representations are really meant to create a metaphorical idea that we can use as a kind of filtering system for transforming a universal or mass reality into a personal one. The Soul is always acting to use metaphors and archetypes as a general idea that’s interpreted through the paradigm of the lower soul to form a new and unique version of the same basic idea. This personalized idea is perceived as real and true, and forms the relationship the higher soul forms with the lower soul as the means of creating itself.

       When we don’t realize that our internal representations are metaphorical in nature and mistake them for being objective, they become “illusions” that we live our life out of without direct awareness of the fact that we’re the ones creating it. This is self-evident by the fact that all spiritual scripture is written in symbolic, metaphorical language and allegories (stories that are symbolic) that require every person reading it to form their own interpretation as the means of understanding it. When it’s interpreted from an objective perspective as an “actual event or person”, an illusion takes the place of fact, and we become lost in a form of self-induced delusion.

       What we refer to as the higher planes of existence are planes of the mind which are “creative in nature”. We only truly act to create when forming our own realizations around things and by intuitively taking a universal idea and transforming it into a personalized version. If someone else is telling us what something means, then we’re accepting their creation as our own, and aren’t actually creating anything. The lower soul of the material mind is passive and receptive and acts only to “conceive of” ideas being given to it by the active aspect of the “will”. When we adopt another person’s interpretation of a symbolic idea and turn it into a reality in our mind, we are in fact being created by that person as the means for expressing and creating the outer reality of their will. We’re literally being led and determined by them. We’re accepting their interpretation as our own, and literally creating ourselves to be like them in nature. This is what the term “the blind leading the blind” is referring to. As beings of higher consciousness we have to learn how to interpret all of the events of our life intuitively in order to know their true meaning and exercise our ability to think and decide for ourselves. As long as we’re unable to do this, or are too afraid of making a mistake, we’ll remain in the lower plane of “unconscious beings” that need to be taught, led, and instructed on what to do.

      The most basic idea of what it means to “purify your soul” is to let go of all the illusions you created about yourself because of what you were trained to believe and taught by others that you unknowingly accepted as being “true”, and realize that everything within the material world is a form of symbolic idea that represents a universal truth that you can only realize by using your intuition to properly discern. Realize that your entire reality has been formed out of what you have been taught to believe and accepted without questioning its reason or validity. It’s to begin “tuning into” the inner nature (soul) of things in order to understand them as they really are rather than relying on their outer appearance.

        It’s only when we begin owning our own ability to truly create our life that we dissolve the illusions and truly tap into the underlying reality of things and begin a form of “soul to soul” communication. Where we allow the illusions about ourselves born out of our unconscious conditioning to completely fall away and quit allowing our mind to be impregnated by the will of others as the means of finding our “truth about things”. Once we realize how we’ve created our perception of reality and ourselves by way of that reality, and we begin going inward in order to find our true answers instead looking to others to tell us what to think, and we tune ourselves instead to the “feelings things give us” as a way of seeing them as they truly are, we begin simultaneously sensing our self as we truly are.

       Every time we are faced with making a true decision, we do it by asking ourselves “who am I?” Who am I going to be in relationship to this idea? What do I want to create right now? All thoughts that we form in relationship to everything else is how we act on ourselves to create ourselves in a moment by moment fashion. All true knowledge can only be apprehended intuitively. Our intuition is not an “aspect or faculty of the mind”, as many have been taught, but rather the awareness that’s formed through the mind in its higher, unified state. It’s formed from by utilizing the full capacity of both our unconscious (right hemisphere of brain) and self-conscious mind (left hemisphere) to form a single experience of reality as a unification of both seen and unseen aspects of the same thing. Instead of viewing physical form and outer appearances as being objective in nature, we realize that it’s a symbolic metaphor as the expression of the energy it acts to contain, and we can begin interpreting things to form a much more accurate perception of the creative energies that underlie and act to give rise to the material world.

       By tuning into the spiritual world that animates and gives life to the entire material world, we can begin orientating ourselves to a higher perspective where we gain full realization of our spiritual and creative abilities. Through this perspective and the realization it brings, we gain access to our own true nature and how we really are as a creative being that has the ability to use all aspects of our mind in a balanced and unified way in order to truly begin creating ourselves by way of our own mind and will. We have to step into and fully embrace the higher capacities of our mind and begin creating ourselves with a sense of purpose and intention in becoming who we’re truly meant to be.

       We purify ourselves by cleansing our mind of all the self-created illusions that we were previously programmed with and begin viewing life from a higher and more universal mindset where we can begin seeing life as it really is. What we think of as our “life” is produced by us through a stage and set of conditions as our life circumstances that are ideal for us to decide how we’re going to create ourselves. As we decide and actively act out our choices, making them a reality,  we then produce and “experience” as the means of taking back into ourselves where it becomes our soul’s memory. We’re always creating our reality through our mental perception and what we tell ourselves about it that then becomes the basis of our soul’s memory as our energetic constitution. There’s an infinite flow between the inner and outer as a self-perpetuating system that expresses outward as a projection, creating a reality that’s perceived as being separate, that’s then absorbed back into the self and used as the means of sustaining itself.    

Dr. Linda Gadbois  

Practicing Spiritual Knowledge as a means of Creating

       There always seem to be a fundamental disconnect between attaining spiritual knowledge in theoretical form and actually knowing how to bring it into practice in your everyday life not only as the means of creating with it, but also as the means of actually “learning it” through experience. We only actually “know” what we can do. We have to actually “earn” knowledge by living it. We acquire it by entering into an intimate relationship where we “become one with it” in mind and action. We only really know if something is true or not by applying it and seeing what the results are. When we study something as a theory, formed at best by our ability to conceptualize it as an internal experience, we create it in the same way we learned it, by memorizing someone else’s account and using it in place of our own.

      All spiritual growth and development only comes by way of intuitively applying principles in order to “create” in a personal and individual manner. When we move into higher forms of consciousness everything becomes about moving out of the group mind mentality of accepting truth as something you were taught rather than from the direct experience of it that brings deep insights and realizations. All higher knowledge exists as laws and principles which are processes and operations that can be interpreted any number of ways and applied effectively to any type of situation or circumstances to create in a predictable manner. Laws are what allow us to connect with and perceive the true nature of things regardless of what their outer appearance looks like or the specific elements involved.

       This individuality of higher knowledge is self-evident in the fact that nearly all spiritual texts are written in metaphors, analogies, symbolic ideas, and allegories that require intuition in order to interpret as a means of understanding the principles involved. However we interpret a symbolic idea is based on how we adapt it to our current collection of similar ideas, our level of scientific and philosophical knowledge, our level of maturity and experience, what stage of life we’re in, our cultural conditioning, and so on, so that every person forms a perception as their own creation that serves their growth in an ideal way.

       There are an infinite number of ways to perceive the same idea because it’s eternal in nature and not based on material elements or a specific location within space and time. The same principle can be applied to any situation in order to create in a unique yet consistent manner each time. So there’s no such thing as someone else knowing what’s true and right for you. Only you know truth through your ability to conceive of it and bring it into expression through actions of some kind. All allegories are simply describing situations where universal principles are playing out and all people and elements of the story are archetypal and metaphorical in nature.

      All “qualities of consciousness” have “planes of knowledge” associated with them that we only have access to by embodying and “becoming” that quality. All knowledge of a higher, conscious nature than the material plane of unconsciousness requires us to step fully into our individual, altruistic, sovereign nature and completely trust in our ability to “know” what’s true and therefore right for us through our own soul’s volition. We have to believe in ourselves and our ability to know through reason and self-realization. All principles playing out on the grand scale of the cosmos are also playing out and being reflected within us. Our soul is the “medium” and a kind of bridge or link that connects us to our higher self and requires us to choose our own ability to know without being taught or instructed by another. Anytime we’re looking for answers outside of ourselves, or wanting to somehow be told and guided on what to think or do, we’re making a very fundamental error and are only capable of acting as a receptacle for man-made knowledge of the lower, group mind.

Action is Required in Order to Know

       Some believe that you can simply imagine ideas and it’ll act the same as actually doing them. Yet they fail to recognize the basic principle involved in this idea, which is that our imagination is simply the way we communicate an idea to our subconscious by providing the pattern as a kind of template for producing as an actual reality that allows us to experience it. The subconscious understands the language of symbols and metaphors and is psychologically stimulated by symbolic ideas that we often don’t even recognize. We can only do what we can first imagine ourselves doing. We actually act to program our own subconscious with ideas we want it to create by developing them in detail by thinking about them in a concentrated manner.

       All knowledge that’s attained through experience as practice of some kind becomes a natural part of our mental paradigm which is constructed out of memory. It’s the experience that serves to integrate it forming an actual memory of it. Anything practiced consistently until it becomes habit and natural part of our nature and perception, is permanently retained as our “soul’s essence”. It becomes a natural part of our normal way of being and acting and becomes eternal in nature as a result. Knowledge that’s integrated as direct experience becomes our soul’s essence which transcends our physical death and identification with our body, forming our predisposition, temperament, and natural tendencies in all proceeding incarnations, whatever they may be.

       Only what has been practiced faithfully and made habitual as our “natural way of being” remains a permanent part of us, and whatever we only hold as an idea or theory as a form of memorization of someone else’s interpretation, that’s never actually brought into practice of some kind, dies with our body. Whatever was formed in us as a part of the group mind is “of” this plane and doesn’t transcend it after death. Only what’s created by us through our ability to reason, think for ourselves, and embody qualities that we use to produce our actions, is of a higher, more intelligent and creative plane, and acts to transcend the lower plane altogether. We only retain what we use to create ourselves through the habits we form.

       All spiritual knowledge is only attained by becoming one with the qualities associated to that plane and by bringing fundamental universal laws into practice within your daily life as the means of forming your lifestyle. We only acquire knowledge by forming the appropriate state of mind that makes us a channel for their expression, providing us with the means of creating ourselves to be like them. Whatever experiences we create by how we use our mind, shapes our identity, and our identity is our “I AM” of self-awareness. Our actions both reveal and define us. It’s how we’re being and what we do that demonstrates who we are in the true sense, not what we talk about or try to use as the means of creating an image of ourselves as being spiritual and therefore knowledgeable.

       We originally merge into ideas with our mind by imagining them as a working concept or type of reality. All true knowledge exists as universal principles that can be applied to any situation or set of circumstances to create in a predictable manner. Principles are universal because they exist as metaphors that are thematic in nature. It’s not the situation or story being used that’s the knowledge, but rather the principles that are forming and animating it as a creative process. Once we’re able to intuitively grasp the principles involved or that are being described in any body of knowledge, we have the means for being able to apply those principles in our daily life in a number of ways and through different types of processes. Principles aren’t specific to material conditions but are what acts to organize and produce those conditions and circumstances. They consist of archetypal ideas that form patterns that are living metaphors as symbolic ideas that can be applied indefinitely to any number of situations to create in a deliberate and fully conscious way.      

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Seeing Challenges as Opportunities for Personal Growth

       As a kid growing up, I was born into a very challenging life. My mom was a single mother with five kids, one of which was mentally retarded, and we were on welfare. We lived in a small two bedroom house in the worst neighborhood in town, and experienced many forms of abuse while being neglected and left unsupervised for days at a time. My older brothers ended up going to detention homes, my younger sister passed away at 9, and I ended up running away in order to avoid what would happen to me if I stayed home. I became quite accustomed to living on the streets and fending for myself by the time I was 12.

       Throughout my teenage years I was taken away from my mother due to abuse and put into the court system where I went in and out of foster care that was almost worse than living at home, so I ended up running away from those also. Though all of this I continued to go to school while living in a fort I built in the park. In spite of all of this I did very well in school where I was put into accelerated learning classes and graduated high school at 16 with a scholarship to college. I filed for emancipation at 16, got a job and started college, where I graduated at 18. I experienced unimaginable hardship while trying to survive and protect myself, and was hospitalized on two occasions for malnutrition. As I continued through life I seemed to be thrust from one challenging situation to another, enduring many hardships, traumas, tragedies, and crisis, which are still continuing to this day.

        When I was young I remember feeling as if I was always being punished for something, but I couldn’t figure out what I had done to deserve to be punished because I was a really good kid (seriously). I was the only “white sheep” in my family, always helped out, and never got in trouble (except for fighting and running away). As I got older I began to look at things from a much deeper perspective of wanting to penetrate the secrets of life, which I found to be very mysterious.

       One thing that I recognized about myself at a fairly young age was that I was a very “strong” individual with a will that could push through what seemed like unbearable situations with a positive attitude, and I always seemed to have a clear perspective on what was happening forming realizations that led me to consistently make clear decisions about who I was and what I was going to do. I was never easily led, could care less about fitting in, and never had anyone to look to for guidance and help. Many of my decisions were quite difficult to make as I felt torn with a sense of love and loyalty to the very people I sought to get away from, and was terrified to leave and face being all alone and vulnerable to the unknowns of life. My first few years living on the street as a child were terrifying and very stressful, but after a while I got a system down that seemed to work pretty well.

       As a young adult, having gone through a problematic pregnancy my son was born with serious medical problems that required me to persist in trying to get him diagnosed to a point where they thought I was suffering from some kind of “postnatal depression and hysteria”. He was finally diagnosed in just enough time to save him, and I underwent a year of repeated hospitalization and several major surgeries, while also being told at one point that he was dying, where I decided to take him home, and administered the care that caused him to fully recover and begin thriving again.

       During this time my entire life fell apart and I think I may have had what seemed like several nervous breakdowns in trying to deal with it all at once. One of these breakdowns (completely distraught) came as the result of having to go against the system and everything I was being told in order to save my son’s life, that resulted in having a direct encounter with what I came to recognize as my Higher Self as what intuitively “showed me what to do”. Yet in spite of it all I walked away from the situation a year later with a healthy and happy little boy. I lost everything I owned through the process and had to file bankruptcy the next year due to the astronomical medical bills. During this time I accessed a part of myself I didn’t even know existed, and it transformed my way of thinking and being in a way that began taking on a life of its own. I felt like I became a different person because of this experience. I was no longer afraid or unsure of myself and could see things with a great sense of clarity and confidence in myself.

           I then went through the lingering process of trying to revitalize a dead marriage, pursued what became a demanding career in order to take care of my son, became very independent, came face to face with drug addiction and trying to somehow manage what deteriorated into an abusive situation. Though I found this period of my life extremely challenging at times, I also started feeling very strong, mature, and capable and eventually felt unaffected by the situation I found myself in. I was no longer afraid and vulnerable, and instead felt grounded, calm and calculating, and able to manage even the most difficult situations with relative ease and psychological skill.

       Another breaking point came several years later when my husband tried to strangle me in the midst of a jealous rage, and I was finally able to make him leave by being willing to face the consequences of what I thought he might do to me. A few months after our separation he was stabbed through the heart while in a bathroom stall of a restaurant, and died four days later. I left the hospital and went directly to the police department where I was interrogated for several hours and given an idea of what charges were being filed and given the details on the nature of what happened. This was followed by a murder trial in our small town of 2,400 people (so it was the biggest thing that happened there in years) that lasted for 14 months, and I won’t even try to convey the insane experience this brought and what I came to realize about how our justice system works.

       As I was sitting quietly one day and reflecting back on things and wondering why “bad things” were always happening to me, no longer feeling punished but more confused and mystified . . . a voice inside of me said “think of it as training. How can you teach and help others through things if you don’t know how to make it through them yourself? See this as your education so you can fulfill your life’s purpose as a teacher.” This was profound because at this point in my life I had no idea I was going to end up teaching. That experience set a transformation into motion and I began taking a whole different attitude towards the seemingly tragic events of my life, and looked back on them with a new awareness around the reason for things.

       I realized that even as a child who was conditioned to a very dysfunctional way of living and dependent on a bizarre set of circumstances, that I was always aware of what “I couldn’t bring myself to do.” I wasn’t making clear decisions at first, but rather ones that came from feelings inside of me that realized I couldn’t be “that kind of person” or let “those kinds of things happen to me.” In every crisis I face as a major event of some kind I noticed that it brought out the worst in everyone involved, including me, and I got to see myself in a different light. I saw myself as reflecting the traits of those around me, and I didn’t like who I became. I then realized that in my worst moments as a child I was making the most important decisions of my life in terms of who I was going to be, and those decisions served to shape me as an adult and set my destiny in motion.

       As I saw the traits in the people around me and how they made me feel by what they were doing and how they were treating each other and me, I thought there’s no way in hell I’m ever going to be like that or act to make someone feel the way I’m feeling right now. I felt disgusted and extremely disappointed. I lived every moment never knowing when someone was going to be “set off” by something and take it out on me, or what kind of mood they were going to be in from one moment to the next. I was actively choosing, even as a child, who and how I was going to be because it wasn’t “in me” to do that. It wasn’t in my nature to be that way. I couldn’t even imagine myself participating in the insane activities going on all around me, and started going off and being by myself as a result.

       One of the things I began telling myself at a young age was that I felt like no one knew who I was because they were always judging me to be like my family, and I was nothing like them. In schools teachers would recognize my last name and knew who my brothers were, and would make off remarks and treated me as though I was going to be a problem to deal with. Every time I encountered a cop for some reason, they would ask me how my mom, dad, and brothers were doing. I was perceived as being a juvenile delinquent and possible trouble-maker or bad influence (many of my friends parents wouldn’t allow them to hang out with me), even though I was living on my own in the park while continuing to go to school and never got into any serious trouble with the law. The only illegal activity I was engaged in was what I needed to do in order to survive and protect myself, which I did.

       When I finally moved out of my home town and to a brand new community where no one knew me, I was going to work one day and a voice said to me . . . “okay Linda, you’re always going on about how people don’t know you for who you really are, well no one knows you here, so who are you going to be?” And I realized in that moment that no one would know anything about my past unless I told them. So I made it a point from that moment forward to never talk about my family, where I came from, or what I had been through, and took an attitude instead of “creating myself” as I really am.

       This not only put me in touch with myself in a new way and “who I am” as a conscious choice, but taught me to quit talking about my past and telling stories about “what happened to me”. As a result, I not only got to the point where I hardly ever thought about it anymore, and eventually started forgetting about a lot of things, but I also learned how to stay present in my life and consciously create myself in every moment to be the person I truly was inside. When people I had known for years finally started finding out about my upbringing and where I came from they were shocked. Most thought that I had come from a fairly well-to-do family, had a formal education, and didn’t have a problem in the world because I “seemed” so “well-balanced and confident.” Of course this was also the community where my son was born and my husband was killed, so it set a whole new type of reality into motion that brought with it a whole new set of challenges and obstacles to be overcome and resolved to a favorable end.

       Every time I hit a point of mental and emotional collapse, where I felt like giving up because I didn’t think I had the strength or know-how to make it through my situation and I felt completely alone in life, I realized that I didn’t know how to give up. What would it mean to give up? How would I live with myself knowing I gave up? What do you actually do when you give up? And after a period of severe stress and not knowing what to do, literally falling apart, crying to the point of heaving, I would get pissed (at myself and God, even though I was an atheist at that time), and state firmly and repeatedly that I refused to give up – and in those moments of complete mental breakdown, feeling diminished and lost yet determined to persevere  – I connected with a higher power that seemed to consume me by “coming into me” and kind of taking over as my own consciousness.

       Its consciousness became one with mine and I felt more alive than ever before with a feeling of intense elation and self-awareness. An amazing feeling of calm came over me and I became very focused with a feeling of absolute power in what I was sensing. I seemed to know intuitively exactly what I needed to do, how I needed to do it, the reason for doing it, and what would result from it. All of my grief and despair vanished and I immediately proceeded to carry on with a renewed sense of moral strength that felt unstoppable. This was a profound awakening for me because I had always felt abandoned by a higher power and as if I was being made to suffer because I was a “good person.” I had felt betrayed and condemned by religion and always saw it as a form of mass delusion, even as a child.

       I then started experiencing what I came to realize were premonitions about the events that led up to my husband getting killed, where I literally tried to intervene and stop it from happening because I thought that was why it was being revealed to me. As I tried to change the course of events based on what I was seeing, they simply happened in a different way. Then, after he was stabbed and died on the spot, and was resuscitated several times while undergoing open-heart surgery, only to die as soon as he was taken out of ICU from a blood clot, it changed my perspective on everything. This set a whole new realm of investigation into motion that completely changed the course of my life by leading me down a path of deep inquiry into the true nature of destiny and the meaning of life. I became consumed with wanting to know what happens when we die? What do we experience? What’s it like? Where do we go? And I began reading everything I could find on the subject while talking to other psychics about their experiences with seeing people’s death and what happened when they tried to intervene by warning them.

       It was at this moment that I finally realized that if I didn’t believe in God, then who was I always talking to, and who was talking to me? I realized I was always engaged in a form of intimate conversation with another being that was inside of me. What was the voice inside of me that was always guiding, instructing, and comforting me? How was it that I could foresee events of the future while unconsciously engaging in behaviors as a part of what led up to them (I bought a black dress for an event a week before he died that I ended up wearing to his funeral). Was our life predetermined and we were just going through the motions as the experience of it, or were we truly creating our life moment by moment through the decisions we make?

      What I realized through all of it was that in every moment, through every life challenge and crisis, I was able to see different aspects of myself brought out by the shear panic and despair I was feeling, where I was making a decision, conscious or not, as to who I was going to be in relationship to that moment, and taking what often amounted to drastic actions that were terrifying in and of themselves as the means of fulfilling my decisions. These weren’t decisions made in an analytical way through reasoning as a debate, but rather ones that resulted from feelings, intuition, and a heightened awareness around the true nature of things.

       I became very clear on what was “in me to do and what wasn’t.” My choices came out of an awareness of who I am as a soul. Not from what I was “taught” was right or wrong or acceptable based on the circumstances. I couldn’t “imagine myself” being that way, and if I was, I would hate myself while knowing I had the ability to change it, but chose not to out of fear and self-doubt. All of my unconscious decisions resulted not from my conditioning and the values and behaviors being demonstrated all around me that I was an inherent part of, but from my inner sense of morality and what I knew deep inside to be right and wrong. It was my morality and intuition as a soul that was my compass and beacon shining through in even the darkest moments when all hope seemed lost and I was beside myself with fear. All the answers I sought weren’t outside of me, but within me, simply waiting to be acknowledged. I realized that questions and answers are opposite ends of the same thing, and the questions we ask in our most private moments with a deep sincerity to know bring the answers to us as life experiences.

       As I continue through life, I’m still experiencing one challenge after another, I’m currently in the process of going blind (have been for several years), but now I look at things from a completely different perspective where I see them as the ideal situation for showing me parts of myself that I still need to transform. I see them as opportunities administered by my Higher Self that serve to facilitate my moral and spiritual grow by teaching me the lessons they hold as a result. I’m completely clear on the fact that karma is administered in an unbiased and compassionate fashion by my Higher Self lovingly affording me the opportunity to redeem myself from past errors instead of blindly repeating them in new ways, and develop all of my weaknesses and bad traits into moral strength and mental skill. Realizing that problems are actually loving gestures designed to grow me in new ways, I feel a deep sense of appreciation for all of what I imagine to be tribulations.

       I’ve learned that every situation, no matter how challenging or difficult it seems, brings out in me all kinds of qualities and traits in response to it, many of which appeal to the mentality and emotional states of my conditioning where I can detach from them in order to see them in a different light and not let them consume me by making them personal. Through the challenges of my life I can see what weaknesses I still need to transform into strengths. I have developed a strong ability to look at myself as I truly am, and take an attitude of always rising to every challenge I’m faced with in order to develop myself in a fully conscious and deliberate way. I realize with complete certainty that this material life is not the prize to be won or story to be lived, but simply sets the stage necessary for me to decide in every moment who I’m going to be in relationship with it and as a co-creator with it.

       I realize that my true purpose in life is to grow my soul in ways that allow me to help other people grow. I consider myself a teacher and know that I can only teach others what I know from experience. I know that in blazing a path from the lowest level of despair to the highest level of optimism and confidence casts this into the astral light of mass consciousness where it can be accessed and utilized by all who are searching for their own answers. It has provided me with the knowledge and practical skills to be able to embrace and walk head on into any situation, no matter how bad, with a sense of compassion, reverence, and confidence in my ability to not only to endure it and know what to do in new situations, but use it to actively develop the parts of me it naturally acts to calls forth in response to it.

       I know that this life and these circumstances are simply a phase and step in my soul’s overall growth and are only meaningful in terms of setting the stage that’s ideal for my eternal process of self-creation. It’s not about what happens to us in life or why, but rather who we decide to become by way of what happens to us. In every moment we’re making decisions based on one question, and that is “who am I?” Who am I going to be in this moment? What am I going to create? We’re always the one determining our own creation and setting the course for our destiny. The only purpose to this life is to master our ability to not be controlled by the conditions and circumstances of life, but to engage at the point of actively directing the natural forces of the world through the power of self-realization, choice and will. How we live this life sets the karmic basis for the next as a continuation of our journey from an unconscious state to a fully conscious one.

Dr. Linda Gadbois        

Developing a Moral Code of Conduct as the Practical Application of Universal Law in Order to Regulate Yourself

  One of the most profound practices that have been largely abandoned in our modern era is the practice of developing a moral code of conduct as standards that we hold ourselves to as the means for governing ourselves through all kinds of situations. While many have been taught to adopt the moral values laid down for them by others as “rules for living their life” in order to be a “good person”, it’s actually something that we all do for ourselves based on how we want to be. This is because only we are truly responsible for how we live our life and who we become by way of our own actions. Only we can decide what’s right and wrong for us in terms of our perceptions and the behaviors that result from them, and how we act within our own life to create. As sovereign beings born with the ability to create ourselves, only we are responsible for whom we become as an individual.

       There’s currently a gross misconception being cultivated around all ideas of what it means to actually discriminate and use our ability to make accurate evaluations as somehow being prejudice, because these ideas are only being viewed from a negative context with a specific agenda in mind. One of the primary differences between what we call our lower and higher nature comes as our ability to think for ourselves and make our own decisions as to whom and how we’re going to be. This doesn’t come as making a decision as to what ideas formed by others we’re going to choose to accept as our own so we don’t have to figure stuff out for ourselves, but rather through our ability to reason, analyze, and evaluate ideas in order to see what their morality is in terms of the actions and outcomes they produce. The foundation used for creating our own moral values comes through our ability to both recognize and comprehend universal laws and apply them intelligently to our everyday life as the means of creating ourselves and determining the path our life takes.  

         Many people look to religion and the laws of society as the means of acquiring ready-made moral values, and we all acquire the moral values of our family through our formative conditioning as children. Many have been taught by religion that we’re not born moral beings, but rather born into a life of sin as our lower, animal nature of pure instinct. Where our greatest challenge is resisting our own impulses and being seduced into doing things we don’t really want to. Yet the idea of a moral code used to monitor your own behavior originated in a much more objective and intelligent form as guidelines that we created for ourselves through the recognition, understanding and conscious application of Universal Laws. Laws are what unify multiple dimensions of feelings, thoughts, emotions, and actions to produce a single reality in order to consciously create at the spiritual or energetic realm of pure consciousness. It’s a tool used for developing ourselves to a higher level of consciousness as the use of absolute truth inherent in the Laws and Principles themselves.

       If we look at the story of Moses and how he acquired the 10 Commandments, we’ll realize that he originally received the 10 primary universal laws that were engraved on sapphire tablets. But when he descended from the mountain to deliver the Universal Laws as a means of guiding the people, he saw that they we’re engaging in “pleasures of the flesh” and were not capable of receiving (comprehending or utilizing) the laws. This made him angry and broke the original tablets and went back up the mountain where he then translated the laws into commandments as “rules” engraved on ordinary stone that could be given and blindly followed by those who didn’t have the ability to understand higher laws and use them as the means of governing themselves. He then tried to lead them out of slavery (metaphor for ignorance) where they were being governed by others through the inability to comprehend higher knowledge, where they wandered aimlessly in the desert for 120 years, still unable to guide themselves.      

       What we think of as our spiritual nature is of a substantially higher level of consciousness that has the ability to create itself by way of the practical use and thorough understanding of higher laws of the mind, which are used to shape our morality. All spiritual development comes as moral development that’s produced through our ability to decide for ourselves what’s right and wrong, and based on our decision willfully direct our own actions as the means of creating ourselves. All universal laws provide us with the keys to operating our own mind-body system as the means of creating ourselves by way of our own hand. The higher soul is bestowed with the creative capacities necessary to govern and direct its own growth and development. Who we become is something that only we can determine through our own perceptions, decisions and actions.

       How we choose to live our life, what beliefs we buy into and how we conduct ourselves as a result, is constantly reforming us as a direct correspondence and determines “who” and “how” we become by way of our own actions. We’re not required to “believe” in higher knowledge in order for it to be true, because it’s always true in every situation in terms of how things operate, whether we’re aware of it or not. Our moral code is what we use to direct our behavior and use in order to remain fully conscious in situations that normally render us unconscious or tempt us in some way. Unconsciously we simply live out of whatever morality we we’re taught and trained to as children that comes more as feelings rather than a clear thought process. We engage in activities of various sorts without ever really questioning it in terms of “what type of person” we become due to our actions. Consciously, we form our moral code of conduct out of our understanding of Law that provides us with intuitive instructions for how to create ourselves at both the conscious and subconscious levels. We use the higher capacities of our mind to create ourselves from a fully conscious and self-aware state.

        As a higher soul bestowed with self-awareness, realization, the ability to choose for ourselves, and the will to actualize our choices, we are all fully responsible for our own conduct and who we become by way of our own actions. We can never rightfully blame someone else for our own misgivings and bad decisions, even when we were persuaded, seduced, or emotionally enticed in some way. Once we realize what universal law shows us in terms of how we act on ourselves to shape ourselves by producing the events of our life through our decisions as to what we cooperatively participate in and what we don’t, we’re provided with a powerful set of tools for shaping ourselves as a moral and intelligent being.

       The idea of stepping fully into our power as a sovereign being capable of guiding our own actions through intelligent decisions can become even more confusing through the misconception that after we die we’re going to be “judged” by some higher being and then eternally punished for all of the mistakes we made while unaware of what we were doing. Many people buy into this idea even though it defies reason and has no real purpose. The only being that’s going to judge us after we leave our lower nature (body consciousness) is our self (higher-self) on a higher plane that comes as more of a “life review” that allows us to see the results of what was in fact “cause and effect relationships”. We review our life in terms of the growth we incurred through active use of our higher capacities and the results we created while caught up in emotional illusions of some kind. Our life review brings awareness to the karma we created that sets the basis for the lessons to be learned in our next life. It shows us how we created ourselves out of fundamental errors in our thinking and being.

Primary Universal Laws of Creation

       To begin this journey into a fully conscious and self-aware state, we have to look at the most primary law of creation, often referred to as the “parent law” or the “sexual principle” that forms the very foundation for all life in the entire material world. This is the Law of the Dyad, also called the Vesica Pisces or “womb of the universe”. This is the point where all things come into being, and where all things of the spirit are transformed. Our spirit as our higher soul is eternal in nature and already exists in a self-created state that evolves itself based on whatever it enters into relationship with that’s of a similar nature. Naturally, when we’re talking about a higher plane and the aspect of ourselves that reside naturally on that plane, we’re referring to the mind and our energetic nature that’s void of a physical body, and is what incarnates into the body as the means of experiencing itself by how it expresses using the body. This is the aspect of ourselves that has no beginning or ending within the material world because it originates on a higher plane (dimension) that exists outside of time and space.

The Vesica Pisces birthing reality

          The Vesica Pisces is formed by the regeneration of the Monad that then separates from itself and projects outward in order to form a perception of itself as another. The Monad is represented by a sphere of energy as a field of information that’s polar (electromagnetic) in nature and both expands and contracts (principle of respiration) at the same time within the same space. It forms the experience of the self (within the body looking out) and the outer reality of the self, which are both produced simultaneously by the same mind and soul on different levels and scales. The same pattern (vibratory frequency) is used to create both (inner and outer) as a kind of metaphorical theme that’s sets the (outer) stage necessary to act out certain ideas allowing the opportunity to gain new realizations regarding who’s the one actually creating both. All reality as we’re capable of knowing it only comes through our perception of it. We perceive others and the entire outer world to be “like us” in nature because our mind is what’s creating it all as a projection of known and unknown aspects of ourselves.

        As multidimensional beings, once we enter into a body we have both a lower nature, which is unconscious and instinctively driven through emotional states, and a higher nature that’s intelligent and intuitively driven, and always utilized through various forms of self-control and our ability to regulate ourselves by harmonizing both of our natures as the means of self-creating. Energetically, we only resonate with what’s of a similar nature to us, and whatever we enter into and maintain a relationship with through shared qualities we become more like in terms of the qualities being actively expressed and how we’re being as a result. As we absorb the consciousness of another through the interaction that takes place, we blend with it and begin vibrating in harmony with them, conducting ourselves in a similar manner. They act to stimulate qualities in us that we then use to express and create through the activities that naturally ensue from them. Because this is all happening at the unconscious level, meaning naturally and automatically without our direct awareness, we don’t always realize what’s going on and how it is that we’re being transformed by the consciousness of another.

       As we participate in the same type of behavior, we produce experiences of our self that transform our identity to be more like that of the person influencing us. All actions produce a correlating reaction of the same nature. Through our conduct we draw specific and immediate consequences to ourselves through another fundamental Law of Cause and Effect. Like always acts to produce more of what’s like itself. Whatever we align ourselves with and become like in attitude and behavior, we use to shape ourselves by modifying our original vibration to form a new pattern as our mental paradigm (shaped out of experiences). Whenever we engage in the same activities of another, becoming more like them in nature, we simultaneously form a similar destiny. Whatever energy we take on as a perception that produces certain types of behavior, determines who we are and the path our life takes by how it serves to organize the events of our life as a dynamic, interrelated series of correspondences. The same act, undertaken for different reasons, still produces the same ripple effect as the consequences of our actions and what they mean about us.

       All of reality evolves out of the Parent Law of the Dyad as a new combination (relationship), and is what forms the Triad as its offspring. The Triad represents the reality of the new combination (inner and outer, self and another) formed within the mind and imagination that gives rise to the electromagnetic field as a vibratory frequency for forming an equivalent outer reality of the same nature. Our inner model forms our perceptual lens that we look through in order to perceive the outer world to be of the same nature as we are. All ideas formed in our imagination provide us with a preview of the reality they’ll create, and when played out as a whole experience or scenario, will give us insight into the reality they’ll produce as a series of consequences. Whatever we participate in creating through our actions create not only our outer reality and life situation, but also our inner reality and experience of our self. It’s not what we say that matters, but rather what we do. Our actions always reveal us as they serve to define us.

       Out of the Triad, birthed within the womb of the Dyad as a passionate conception, the Tetrad is formed as a “mirror image” or reflection of the Triad. Whatever we imagine with vivid sensory detail we create as a template for producing as an actual experience of reality. This is how we seed the subconscious with an idea that we want it to create as an outer reality of the same nature. On the spiritual plane of the mind and soul thought itself as an imagined experience of reality is the same as action on the lower, material plane. It’s how we produce something out of nothing. All ideas made into an internal reality within the mind are produced by the soul, and act to express the diverse matrix of ideas that make up the soul as a mental paradigm or vibratory frequency. This is why it’s not enough to simply refrain from taking action on ideas, but rather not forming them in the imagination to begin with, because we’re still actively creating ourselves spiritually by way of our own thoughts by becoming “one in spirit” with the idea. Any thought dwelled in passionately is being gestated and grown and will eventually be expressed outwardly through actions of some kind.

       The Law of Vibration shows us that all things that are of a similar nature vibrate in harmony with each other and are compatible in terms of co-creating. Whatever frequency we vibrate at, forms our internal nature as a specialized pattern or theme, and determines what we resonate with in the world around us. As we begin resonating with a similar frequency, we are drawn into it and it into us (sympathetic induction), where we mutually influence each other and form a new vibration as the combination of shared qualities. There’s no such thing as being influenced by someone who’s vastly different from us. When we’re stimulated by (form a natural reaction to) people and ideas that we perceive as being of a completely different nature than we are it’s because they’re appealing to unknown (denied and repressed) parts of us that we haven’t been able to successfully integrate and bring into expression in an appropriate and acceptable way.

       What we deny and repress, and eventually become unaware of having, still form a natural part of our outer environment and serves to mirror back to us our own hidden aspects. All denied and repressed (disowned) parts of us came by way of how we judged ourselves as being “bad or wrong” somehow, usually according to how we were taught to judge ourselves by others, and allow us to once again access those parts of ourselves and make new decisions as to how we’ll appropriately incorporate them into our natural behavior as the means of expanding our ability to self-express in new ways. All repressed parts of ourselves came by how we accepted the values and beliefs of others, rather than consciously deciding for ourselves. As we accept the morals of others as our own, we create ourselves by way of their decisions and perceptions, and shape ourselves to be like them. When we do this, we’re living out of our lower nature that lacks true self-awareness of the ability to think for ourselves and create ourselves based on our own conclusions, evaluations, and decisions about the morality of things.

       While most of us have been taught that certain actions and behaviors are always bad and should always be refrained from, the fact is that all behaviors are specialized in nature and appropriate within the right context. Our behavior is only inappropriate when used in the wrong way and for the wrong reason, or when it doesn’t produce the outcome we intended to produce in doing it. All actions create realities as consequences within the material plane and are undertaken for a specific reason. Whenever we react to someone else’s actions, we become the “effect” and create out of an unconscious state. Violence is considered good or bad based on the reason it’s being employed and situation it takes place in. If it’s initiated as the means of hurting someone or taking something from them that’s rightfully theirs, then it’s wrong, bad, and destructive. If it’s used to defend ourselves and our loved ones against the aggressive acts of another, then it’s appropriate, good, and the right thing to do.

Making up Your Own Rules for Creating Yourself

       As higher, sovereign and creative souls, we have the natural capacities of our higher mind to create ourselves in a willful and deliberate manner. By understanding the universal laws that govern the higher and lower planes simultaneously through natural processes, we can gain the means for developing our own moral code of conduct. We can design our own system of values that we use to regulate ourselves from a fully conscious perspective. We can become clear on what our standards are that we use to evaluate our relationships in terms of what we want to blend with and become like in nature. We can decide from a clear state of mind, unclouded by emotions and conditioned issues, what qualities and characteristics we want to embody and use to create ourselves and our experiences. We can realize that in every moment we’re making all our decisions by asking ourselves one primary question, “who am I?” How am I going to be in this moment and in relationship to this idea?

       Our moral values involve “qualities” as states of mind that we embody as a “way of being” and use as the means for self-expressing. They involve ideas like honesty, loyalty, integrity, compassion, kindness, generosity, courage, respect, devotion, justice, honor, and so on. Developing a moral code comes by thoroughly thinking about what you know to be right and wrong as your own conscience, and setting guidelines for yourself as standards that you don’t violate under any circumstances. They’re the rules you make up for yourself that prescribe to righteous behavior. They define the type of person you’re creating yourself to be and provide you with the means to do it. They’re what you use in situations where you’re being emotionally triggered into unconscious behaviors, or are being tempted in some way by something you know you don’t really want to do because of who you’ll become by doing it. They provide you with moral guidelines as standards for yourself that you use in making all your decisions as to what you’re going to participate in by becoming it. A moral code provides you with the means for regulating yourself and consistently evolving yourself to a higher level of understanding.

How to Create Moral Values as the means of Directing your Lower Nature

        What we refer to as our lower nature is our body consciousness as our subconscious mind. All perception and natural behaviors are produced by the subconscious, which is also the same mind as the collective unconscious that governs the entire material world of Nature. The subconscious acts as a passive receptor for the suggestions and commands of the higher, conscious mind, which acts to seed it with the reality it wants to use as the means of creating itself. The subconscious doesn’t know the difference between an actual reality and an imagined one, because they’re both actually created in the same way through the faculty of the imagination as described in the Law of the Dyad.

       Our subconscious doesn’t have the ability to make decisions as the means of directing itself, and when not being willfully directed by the conscious mind, creates out of memory, instinct, and illusions formed through emotional states. It doesn’t know how to process a “negative”, or being told what “not to do”, and works to create whatever “picture it’s given” as the reality it’s being directed to create. For this reason all guidelines have to be stated in the positive as what “to do” and how to be, and not in terms of what not to do. As you’re forming an image in your mind of what you don’t want, it simply sees the image as a directive and acts to create it in an automatic fashion without a conscience. It’s only the conscious, self-aware mind that has the ability to decide what it wants to create and how wants to be outside of the conditioned and instinctual nature of the body.

       For this reason, all ideas given to it as an internal representation for creating, have to be formed as “what to do”, what quality to employ in place of automatic behaviors, and how it wants to be as an experience of itself. We shape our identity by how we exist in relationship to everything else. The relationship we form not only exchanges energy and ideas with another, but also gives us a sense of ourselves as a particular type of person. As we act either consciously or unconsciously to create our experiences, we simultaneously create ourselves by way of how we associate and identify with them. Whatever quality we’re embodying as a means of expressing and experiencing ourselves, determine who we become as a soul and what type of experiences we act to naturally create more of.

Understanding the Nature of Relationship and our ability to Discriminate

       Naturally, the type of person we become through our own conscious acts also determines the nature of our relationships and what we act (decide) to attract, repel, and transform. If we decide, for example, that we’re going to be a loyal person, it doesn’t mean that we stay loyal to those who aren’t loyal themselves, or remain loyal to those who turn their back on us during difficult moments, or outright betray us somehow, but rather maintain the ability to discern the difference, and end our relationship with them when we realize they don’t warrant our loyalty. When we realize that they are of a poor character, or have different values than we do, we also realize that our continued relationship with them will only stimulate and bring out in us the same type of attitudes and behaviors, creating more experiences of disloyalty. If you’re truly a loyal person, then you won’t willingly maintain a relationship with a disloyal person. If however, you’re creating an illusion of yourself as being loyal by contrasting and being hurt by a disloyal person, you’ll maintain the relationship in order to continue acting out the drama involved, which is what you’re really using to create yourself.  

        If honesty is a moral value for us, and we’re in relationship with someone who is dishonest and has values that justify lying, then we don’t argue to try and change them or make them see their faults (according to us), but simply acknowledge their tendency to be this way, and end our relationship with them as a result. Like always produces and acts to create more of what’s like itself. Whatever morals we set for ourselves, sets standards and guidelines for what type of relationships we naturally form and maintain with a sense of awareness. If we value honesty, yet tolerate lying, and are willing to stay in relationship with a dishonest person, then our value as a standard for ourselves becomes dishonesty. Whatever we tolerate and allow through the relationships that we maintain in a consistent fashion sets the standards as a type of experience and moral character that we use to create ourselves to be of a similar nature.

       If we realize we’re doing this without direct awareness of what we’re doing and why, then it provides the mirror for us to look at parts of ourselves that are operating in us unconsciously. It shows us where there’s conflict between the unknown and chosen parts of us. It shows us how we’re working against our self in being able to make conscious decisions for how we’re going to be and what kind of person we are. If we choose honesty as a moral value that we use to direct all of our own behavior, that means that even in the moments when we find ourselves tempted to lie for whatever reason, we make our self be honest instead. We use it to discipline ourselves and hold ourselves to our code of honor as an honest person. We use it as the means for guiding ourselves in moments when we’re triggered into an unconscious state as an emotional reaction or where we feel tempted because of the nature of the situation at hand that ultimately results in being dishonest.

         Even in the event that we find ourselves being dishonest for some reason, we can self-reflect on what caused it, and make the necessary corrections to our own actions. If you can justify your right to be dishonest (telling a white lie so you don’t hurt someone’s feelings) and therefore give yourself exceptions to your own rule, then it’s not an actual “moral value” or true standard. In this case you can either use it to correct your own perspective and perception of the situation or you can eliminate it as a moral value. This doesn’t make you wrong or a bad person for being dishonest, it’s simply how you’re choosing to conduct yourself as a certain type of person, and reveals your willingness to create an illusion in place of what you know to be true. As you make a decision to allow yourself to be dishonest, you’ll naturally attract people who are also dishonest (where it’ll be accepted as part of the relationship) and co-create situations that are based on lying. Either way, it’s how you’re using your own will to create yourself as the type of person who participates in creating whatever reality results from it.

The Unified Nature of Things

       Likewise, when we set a standard for ourselves as being honest, especially to ourselves, we use that anytime we find ourselves in a situation where we’re being tempted to lie, and force ourselves instead to be honest. All values exist as a “system of values” (rather than independent of each other) that all play off of and are interdependent with each other. One produces and acts as complementary to the others. In being honest we demonstrate integrity, which is honorable, warrants respect, and makes us trustworthy. Likewise all people who are honest and therefore have integrity also command our respect and we come to trust them. If we’re willing to lie in the right situation, then we lack integrity, are not trustworthy, and are seldom respected by others once they realize we’re lying. So our moral values and standards, like our beliefs, exist in a unified state as a dynamic system. One value produces, validates, and maintains all of the other ones through the relationship they form with each other. Just as our beliefs are formed out of a whole system of interrelated beliefs that together form all of our perceptions and how we interpret the events of our life to give them meaning.

       Whatever values we hold and the standards we set for ourselves as the means of governing our own conduct through our higher nature, becomes the most prominent means of creating our self from a fully conscious state. It’s how we step outside of our conditioning where we were created by others while in a predominantly unconscious state, and act on ourselves to transform ourselves to a higher idea. All spiritual development comes through our moral development and our ability to be self-determined through our own choices and actions. It comes through our ability to form correct perceptions of ourselves by the mirror others provide, and make actual decisions about how we’re going to be in relationship with everything else. It comes through realizing who we are and how we’re being in the most ordinary sense. We’re able to let go of the illusions we were conditioned with through our upbringing, and step into the realm of self-awareness where we realize we can direct our own mind and actions in a deliberate and precise manner by using our will to discipline ourselves in acting out our decisions. When we wake-up in the midst of the reality created from an unconscious state and begin seeing things in a new light, we become clear on the fact that in every moment we’re making the decisions as to who we’re going to be, and begin consistently imposing a direction on our life as the one who’s consciously creating our own destiny.     

Dr. Linda Gadbois   

Realizing your True Higher Purpose

       There are very few things that give our life more meaning and provide us with natural motivation as a kind of passion and devotion than realizing what our true purpose in life is. While we may have several purposes in the general sense of life responsibilities that are born out of love and devotion of some kind, we all possess what we can think of as our main purpose that involves what we have come here as a soul to learn, bring into higher forms of expression, and use to grow ourselves in some way. Our soul’s purpose is recognized as an all-prevalent idea that comes completely natural to us and is what acts to sustain us through our darkest and most fear-driven moments, as well as what brings us a true sense of fulfillment and contentment in the accomplishment of overcoming life challenges and expressing ourselves in terms of our gifts and talents.

       Our soul’s purpose as the main theme that serves to shape our life as a whole forms the basis for other purposes we form that help us navigate stages of our life or that are set as phases of personal growth that are met and undertaken in a fully conscious and willful manner. The fulfillment of our purpose comes only through realization and making decisions in the most important moments to really apply ourselves to the best of our ability and even beyond what we thought we were capable of. It also becomes apparent to us through the administration of what we call “karma” (unconscious use of will to create) and the necessary path as a process of transformation for redeeming ourselves from what was set into motion as a cause and effect relationship through our own perceptions and actions.

The Nature of our Soul and Mind

       What we commonly tend to think of as our soul, is threefold in nature just like our mind is, because they’re ultimately the same thing, and function in identical ways through the same principles on different levels or planes of existence that form a hierarchical structure based on vibratory frequency that move from a higher vibration to a lower one in the manifestation of the same thing (idea). In a similar manner, each level of our soul exists at a different level of consciousness with a different kind of purpose and reason, which are all correlated in a way that can be played out together in a harmonious fashion.

       What we refer to as the “lower soul” is directly associated with our bodily existence as a higher animal-like being and is the offspring (produced and maintained by) of our higher, human and immortal Soul. The main purpose of our lower soul is survival, self-protection, and propagation of the species. It’s primarily unconscious in nature, instinctively driven through emotional states, and lacks any real awareness of its higher, immortal existence. The purpose of our lower soul usually involves family, children and loved ones, and providing for them while keeping them healthy and safe. The means for doing this usually involves our profession and how we make a living and the lifestyle we create through purely material and natural means.

       Our higher or “medium” soul is a part of the human kingdom, which exists on the plane directly above the animal kingdom of the lower soul, and is both mortal (physical) and immortal (energetic) in nature. Our human soul acts as a medium between our Over Soul and is what forms the bridge as a step-down process between higher and lower worlds. The primary purpose of our higher soul is to redeem itself from patterns created while in the unconscious state of the lower soul, and fashion itself instead to be of the same nature as the Super Soul. The main function of our higher soul is transmutation through the conscious act of self-creation. We are created initially through our formative conditioning while in a purely unconscious state. Our higher soul takes over the process of creating itself by becoming self-aware and using its higher capacities of the mind to impregnate the subconscious of the lower soul with ideas that it then acts to produce as a reality that provides the higher soul with an “experience of itself”.

       The higher, human soul is the creative aspect of us that witnesses and forms realization of itself around the realities it acts to indirectly create. It shapes itself through the decisions it makes by always asking itself “who am I”, and then producing the reality of that decision that provides it with experiences of itself. Through various acts of self-realization it makes decisions that it then directs the body to act out as the means of creating itself in an intentional and fully aware manner. This is the aspect of us that creates itself through association and how it identifies with its own self-produced experiences. Its purpose always involves transforming itself to higher and more virtuous states of being that operates through more of a universal identity rather than a personal one. As it transforms itself through constant self-expression of selected attributes and qualities, it simultaneously seeds the collective unconscious of the animal-soul providing the pathway as a vibratory frequency or mental state that becomes available for all those seeking a similar path.

       The higher soul resides fully within the astral plane of Light which is constructed out of multiple planes of higher and lower regions as specialized rates and modes of vibration. The lower regions of the astral plane are instinctual and emotionally driven, and the higher regions are intelligent and willfully driven. It acts to marry thought as an archetypal idea to the feeling sensations and emotions of a complementary nature (the thought naturally gives rise to corresponding sensations and emotions) in order to manifest the idea as a reality of the same nature. For this reason its purpose always involves growth as transformation that dissolves karma as unconscious creation and creates itself in a fully conscious manner through use of its higher capacities of self-realization, free choice, and will.

       The Super Soul or Over Soul exists in an “unformed state of pure potential” as a unified field of infinite possibilities. Its only purpose is to provide the substance and means for the human soul to use in order to create itself and always “works”, so to speak, for the benefit of all involved in a universal manner. It’s not “personal or individual” in nature, but is what forms all individuals and personal realities. It contains all of the archetypes as “whole ideas” (ideals) that are willfully drawn down into the Astral plane by the higher soul and formed (transformed) into personalized versions of the same idea through a continuous process of adaptation and modification. This is where we obtain substance as universal archetypes that we use to fashion our human nature as “mass consciousness”.

       Just as instinct governs the lower soul, archetypes as gods and goddesses that make up the Zodiac and Mythology govern the higher planes of creativity. This plane provides the human soul with what it needs in order to self-create in a deliberate and precise manner by choosing, embodying, and becoming certain qualities that form characteristics. All higher, human souls are comprised of certain combinations of the same universal archetypes in different degrees and potency. Its purpose is always universal in nature and involves serving mankind and the entire natural world in the most beneficial way possible based on how they use their own powers to self-create. When in our highest purpose as universal beings we realize we are the “caretakers” of Nature (and our body-soul) and live in harmony with all of life which originates from the same ultimate source.

       Naturally, these three aspects of the same Soul share a common purpose that moves the same idea from a universal and unified state down into an individual and personal expression as our purpose for transforming ourselves. Our soul’s purpose in the ultimate sense is formed by a metaphorical idea that’s played out simultaneously on all three levels in a congruent and harmonious way where one forms the foundation for the next to spontaneously emerge out of it. The purpose of the lower soul sets the stage necessary for the higher soul to gain self-realization and actively shape itself by utilizing the archetypes, qualities, and characteristics of the Supernal plane. Our lower soul forms what we call our “personality” (natural to all animals), which is developed through our childhood, whereas our higher soul forms our “identity”. Our identity is something that we create while in an adolescent and mature state.

       While the purpose of our lower soul comes in an automatic fashion through instinct to survive, reproduce, and raise and protect our family, or achieve material success of some kind, our human soul’s purpose involves using its higher capacities in a skillful manner in order to create from a self-aware and intentional state. As humans, our ultimate purpose is to develop ourselves to a higher state by “becoming one with God” (embodying archetypal ideals), and form ourselves to be divine and self-determined as a sovereign being. Our personality lays the foundation out of which we can deliberately create “who we are” as an individual through use of our higher, creative capacities in a congruent and harmonious way.

       Our main purpose as a human soul is to wake-up in the unconscious state of our lower nature and realize that it only acts as a vehicle and means for us to create ourselves, not the other way around. Most people live their entire life being determined by others and their life conditions and circumstances, and are shaped almost exclusively in relationship and response to others while unaware of their true identity and creative abilities. As long as we have practical responsibilities as the fulfillment of our lower soul’s purpose, it can prevent us from making the true decisions about who we are and how we’re going to be because of what it would mean if we did and how it would affect everyone else. This is why our spiritual path usually isn’t taken up fully until our kids are grown and on their own, and we no longer have the responsibility to care for loved ones. It’s only at this point in our life that we can make decisions for ourselves that don’t violate the free will of everyone else involved.

       This change in purpose from our lower one to our higher one, often comes through what’s called a “mid-life crisis”, or where what we built our identity around our whole life through a role we played in a certain dynamic, suddenly ends or changes, and we find ourselves feeling lost and without a purpose anymore. We no longer know who we are or what it is we’re meant to do. This is one of the most natural forms of transformation that we go through as the fulfillment of one purpose, freeing us to take up another purpose of a higher nature that involves our individuality as a soul, and consciously exercising our ability to create in a concentrated fashion, instead of as part of a group mind.

       At this point we begin asking ourselves who we really are when not being defined by our relationships and life situation. We begin stepping into a more universal role and make decisions in terms of what it is we want to contribute to life before we die. We move from shaping ourselves based on others to shaping ourselves based on our own ideas about our self. We begin looking at our own issues and habits with new eyes and addressing our own unconscious tendencies in order to transform them into a fully conscious awareness where our actions become deliberate and well-thought out and nothing acts to bind or limit us. We move from being almost exclusively focused on others to going within and focusing on our own nature and developing ourselves by way of our own hand.

Our Soul’s Design

       As a human, immortal, and creative being, we are born into this world with everything we need to fulfill our ultimate purpose. We’re all designed as a specialized pattern of natural desires, interests, gifts, talents, special abilities, attitudes, disposition, and temperament that provides us with the tools and means necessary for doing what we came here to do. Our higher soul’s purpose comes natural to us and requires us to actively utilize our full potential in order to achieve it while also moving through whatever is acting to prevent or counteract it. Our lower soul’s purpose, which is materially based, sets the stage that’s ideal for doing this. Our true purpose always requires us to move through our fears, character flaws, and false beliefs in order to actualize latent qualities necessary in order to create in new ways by transforming them.

       Our higher soul’s purpose can’t be fulfilled while we’re still nurturing and protecting our weakness and fears formed through our formative (unconscious) conditioning. Fear must be transformed by choosing to employ courage in its place, allowing us to move ahead in spite of our fears, and dissolve them as a result. Fear, like all emotions, when brought into our thoughts is an illusion whose only purpose is to stop and prevent us from doing something we want and need to do. Our natural weaknesses and shortcomings are what act to prevent and counteract our soul’s true purpose and we have to actively employ and exercise our higher capacities of realization, reason, choice and will in order to turn them into strengths as creative tools. We transform them through awareness and the practical application of universal laws that provide us with the processes necessary for transformation.

       Our immortal soul’s purpose is to ultimately redeem itself from a prison of its own making produced out of past errors in perceiving and by facilitating its own process of growth and transformation. It requires us to step into our true identity as creative, conscious beings and shape ourselves by way of our own mind. This is a manifestation not built with the hands or by way of others, but by the soul that’s acting to direct the activities of the body and material world. This purpose and the process it presupposes are intimate and highly personal in nature and don’t ever require other people to accomplish. Its purpose is to become autonomous as a sovereign being that’s not being controlled and determined by others or the natural forces of the material world.

        The process of personal growth involves transforming vices into virtues in order to become more “god-like”. It seeks to transform itself through the vision it creates of itself that acts to heal the trauma and conditioning incurred by the lower soul by witnessing it from a higher, detached awareness. The awareness as self-realization is what acts as the means of transformation because it brings what’s operating in your life just below the level of awareness into the light where you can see it in a clear and more accurate way. Through awareness alone, which alters our perception, it loses its grip and we’re no longer caught up in the illusion of it. As you become aware of the false nature of it, you realize simultaneously that you actually have a choice as to “who you’re going to be and what reality you’re going to create” instead.

       The ultimate purpose of your higher soul is to step fully into the awareness of your ability to create from a fully self-aware state, and make new, intentional decisions that you then act out in a deliberate way as the true means of creating. We can only break patterns of the past that we were continuing to faithfully act out without direct awareness by forming an objective and non-personal awareness around them. By becoming aware of what previously eluded us, we step into a true position of actually being able to create in new and more beneficial ways. Once we’re able to clearly see an illusion that we played an active part in, we continue to see it any time it’s being played out around us and we recognize when we’re being triggered somehow in order to continue acting it out.

Higher Forms of Self-Awareness

       Our true purpose in life is to wake-up in the dream we’ve mistaken for being real and realize that it’s actually something we’re doing to ourselves. While in our higher nature as a sovereign soul we realize that nothing is ever being “done to us by another” in terms of how we experience things, and that we’re always the ones creating ourselves in relationship and response to others. Once we become aware of this and recognize how it is that we’re doing this, we can begin creating our experiences and ourselves by way of those experiences in a truly responsible manner, and act “on ourselves” (our lower nature) to redeem ourselves from past karma by making new decisions formed by our higher self from higher states of self-awareness. By making new decisions in the midst of what used to be automated patterns, we can replace them (transform them) with new patterns that are a product of our true identity and more accurately demonstrate our ability to create ourselves from a fully self-aware state.

       Our higher soul’s true purpose is to heal itself of past errors born out of an unconscious conditioned state by utilizing our power of self-awareness and realization, our ability to make new decisions for our self and our life, and employ willpower to act them out. By achieving a state of true self-awareness it automatically breaks the patterns that bound us to lower consciousness where we created in a predominately unconscious, emotionally driven manner, shaped by the group mind and the emotional states and behavioral dynamics we were trained to by others.

       Once we realize how we’ve been creating our experiences out of a conditioned mindset and automatic behaviors, their hold on us begins dissolving and we can see them clearly as the illusions they are from that moment forward. Once we’re in a position of creating in an aware and intentional manner, and we’ve acted to transform our weakness and character flaws into strengths, and dissolved the unconscious patterns that bound us to a life of delusion, our true purpose can be realized and fulfilled. We gain a true realization that the lower soul of the body is merely a vehicle and instrument for the higher soul to express and self-create rather than what acts to create and determine our higher soul.

Summary

       The lower soul of the body is what forms our “personality” as a member of the animal kingdom through genetics and formative conditioning. This part of us only “knows” what it’s taught and lacks the ability to create by “thinking for itself” (inventing in an original way). The higher soul of the human kingdom is the “I” in the equation and its purpose involves creating its own identity as an individual. When we remain in a primarily unconscious state, our identity comes as the offspring and natural evolution of our personality and is formed by whatever situation we find ourselves in and what roles we naturally take on and play as a result. In order to employ our higher consciousness and ability to be self-determined, we have to realize who we are in terms of how we’ve been created by others up to this point, and accurately identify what it is about ourselves that we need to transform in order to take over our own creation from a fully self-aware state. We do this by actively employing the archetypes and qualities of the Supernal plane, and by transforming vices as weakness and addictions into virtues as strengths that are of a higher morality and immortal in nature. The Higher soul isn’t concerned with material possessions and accomplishments, but only of “who we become” by way of our material body, possessions and creations. It’s only our identity as our self-created individuality that transcends the material plane at the death of the body.

 Dr. Linda Gadbois

Introspection, Self-Awareness, and Transforming Yourself by Learning how to Work through Your Own Tendencies

       One of the ways we keep ourselves locked into a dis-empowered position in our own life is through the tendency to believe that other people are the ones who “do things to us” beyond our control, and by always focusing on the other person in a situation while making what’s happening all about us somehow. We get emotionally triggered by something someone says or does and we instantly react by going unconscious and playing out the natural tendencies we’ve been conditioned with. We focus our attention on what we imagine the other person is “doing to us” by how they’re being and a whole preconditioned script begins playing out in our mind as our “perception” of the situation. We glaze over the object reality and what is in fact a neutral event and replace it with a subjective reality of our own making that we imagine to be real. The story we begin running through our mind forms our interpretation of it as an illusion born out of our past conditioning. Anytime we’re “reacting”, we’re instantly overcome with an emotional state that “takes over”, and we begin playing out our “issues” of the past in the present. We replace the current reality with a belief that shapes how we experience it through the story we tell ourselves about it that gives it meaning.

       There’s always a fundamental paradox playing out where we tend to focus all of our attention on the other person or external events and circumstances going on, while simultaneously telling ourselves a story that makes it all about us. Because of this natural tendency we form a belief around the idea that others are deliberately doing things to us that are beyond our control. They “make us” feel the way we do. Then, whatever they say about or to us we take personally and form a belief about ourselves out of the story we tell ourselves about it that explains, describes, and justifies it, and as a result, we use it as the means of shaping ourselves. This is the most natural way we’re shaped by other people without realizing it. We form a belief that others can attack, hurt, traumatize, betray, put us down, and basically control and determine us through their actions. We do this usually without ever realizing that this is actually something that we’re doing to ourselves in response to them.

Looking at the Nature of Reactive Behaviors

        All reactive behaviors come from an emotional trigger of some kind that instantly transforms us to an unconscious state where we begin acting out and creating the reality of our “issues”. It’s our conditioned behavior and model of the world that forms our perceptual lens and gives us an “instant reality” that we use in place of the current reality. As we’re being stimulated somehow, our mind immediately references all memories of the same feelings and emotions, and associates them to the current situation by saying “this is the same as that”. We give the present the same meaning as the past, which produces instant behavior through the story we tell ourselves about it, and act to produce the same type of reality as a result. This is how we continue to repeat the past in the present by playing out the same patterns as behavioral dynamics. Our past experiences give us a kind of preformed template as “instant interpretations” that don’t require us to think about them in order to form new patterns instead.

       We always frame any situation as a means of interpreting it in a way that allows us to continue telling a certain type of story. Our beliefs form perceptual filters that we use as a filtering system for abstracting and only utilizing small portions of information available in any situation, and organize it in whatever way we need to in order to continue playing out the reality of our beliefs. If someone points it out to us, we usually respond by explaining it in a way that justifies our right to feel that way. We’ll literally argue and defend our right to feel the way we do because we create it in a way that feels very real to us. We don’t realize that we’re actually making it up and creating it through our ability to perceive it.

How to Transform our Experiences

        All transformation and growth is something only we can do to ourselves and comes by way of self-awareness that allow us to see our own tendencies as a form of delusion and work through them to produce new types of experiences. We give our true power away to others by allowing them to control us, or we try to use our power inappropriately by trying to change the other person or situation instead of ourselves. We think that by changing the outer circumstances we’ll change our inner feelings about it. We imagine that in order to be alright we have to change the world around us that’s “making us” feel that way. We become heavily invested in trying to change other people’s perception, attitudes, and behaviors so that we don’t have to change our own, yet, in truth, we only have the power to change our own. So we approach and attempt to solve one delusion by creating another one designed to remedy it.

       We only step into our true power as a creative being when we begin turning our attention inward and self-reflect as the means of recognizing how it is that we’re always acting on ourselves to create all of our own experiences. We can realize that every situation that “triggers us” somehow is also providing us with an opportunity to become self-aware in the present moment where we can actually change it. We can begin this process by simply observing ourselves as the means of realizing how it is that we create our own internal state as our reaction to something. No one is causing us to react (unless we remain unconscious), but we’re the one that’s actually creating our reaction as an internal process. We can only work with what operates in our life at the unconscious level by forming awareness around it. It’s through the awareness that we can see the actual process taking place, realize how and why we’re doing it, and then act to modify it consciously.

Self-Reflection and Awareness

       It’s probably advisable to begin this process of transformation in situations where you’re only being mildly triggered so self-control is relatively easy, and practice faithfully until you get good at it and it starts becoming automatic. Then work your way up to more difficult ones. All change is produced in baby steps that are consistently taken. As you realize you’ve been triggered into what is normally a reactive state, refrain from reacting and instead turn your full attention inward. Notice where in your body you’re feeling the stimulus, what sensation it’s giving you, and what emotion it’s acting to invoke in you. As you concentrate on the feeling, relinquish all need to try and control what’s happening, and simply give yourself fully to the feeling inside of you allowing it to take on a life of its own. As it begins playing out, notice what it seems to be about, and what it’s showing you about yourself. What past experience are you naturally associating with it in order to give it meaning of some kind. The meaning you give it is what acts to shape your story about it which is what forms your experience of it.

       Let your story play out while simply witnessing it from as detached a perspective as you can. Don’t associate to the experience by “being in it, having it”, but rather view it from a dissociated position as if you were another person looking at it from the outside. This moves you from a subjective state to an objective one. We can only see the truth of a situation when we’re not directly experiencing the emotions involved. It’s the emotion that’s associated to the memory itself that acts to initiate the whole process and pulls up the memory in your mind’s eye as the filter used to look through in order to perceive the current situation to be the same as the past. Emotions produce illusions out of memories as a false reality that we use in place of the actual reality of the present moment in order to create the same type of experiences.

       As you begin forming a clear idea around what your reaction is all about, refrain from judging yourself in any way or going into some kind of dialogue that’s designed to explain and justify it. Whatever we argue to defend is ours to keep. This is how we stay locked into delusions of our own making. Then allow yourself to notice that they’re not doing anything “to you” and that you’re actually the one doing it through automatic processes of your own mind. Realize it has nothing to do with you unless you “make it” about you and your past. Allow yourself to realize that you’re creating a state of being upset, insulted, hurt, offended, not being worthy, betrayed, lied to, abandoned or not wanted, and so on. No one is “making you” feel that way, you’re actually the one doing it to yourself by the memories you’re using as the means of interpreting it to mean something. Nothing has meaning in and of itself outside of the one we give it.

       All you need to do in order to break a pattern as an unconscious tendency is to become intuitively aware of it. The only reason ideas of our past continue to be played out in the present as the means of creating our experiences is because they’re operating without our direct awareness. Reactive behaviors literally keep us in an unconscious state. By becoming aware of what you’re doing to actually produce the reaction, is all it takes to loosen its grip. The emotional trigger that produced the reaction begins subsiding and fading to the point where you can easily control it, and it eventually subsides altogether. Once you’re able to remain calm and stay fully conscious, and you’re no longer taking it personal or making it about you somehow, you form a different way of looking at it where you can intelligently choose how to respond and interact. In this way, you quit creating your life out of your past conditioning and can begin creating in a more deliberate and intentional manner. As you begin consciously creating your experiences through a calm inner state, you step into your true ability to transform yourself to a new level of being.

  Dr. Linda Gadbois