“17” – The Star, Hope, and Rebuilding after the Destruction of Illusion

In the Hermetic Arcane of the Tarot, the archetypal idea of the “star”, which is Key 17, follows the “the Lightning Struck Tower” (Key 16) which represents the destruction of illusion (Key 15) and is what prompts the “the dark night of the soul” as an identity crisis that comes as the “dissolution of the false ego”. The tower represents the material illusion that’s destroyed by the Light of Truth in a shocking revelation that frees the soul that was imprisoned by its own delusions, providing a clean slate on which a new reality can be built that’s based on higher Truth. Key 17 is represented by the Hebrew letter “TZADDI”, and has a value of 90, and like all spelling and numeric values of archetypal ideas, provides those initiated in the Mysteries with a form of secret code that acts as a set of instructions for how to undergo the process involved in a fully conscious manner.

Each letter in the spelling of the word indicates the Key associated with that letter, and also forms a numeric equation out of the value of the individual letters. This code is designed to help us gain deeper insights into its true meaning. All archetypes and symbols of the Tarot provide us with Keys for interpreting all other systems of Spiritual Sciences through a dynamic series of correspondences. It’s through the intuitive interpretation of the symbolic language that all of the Mysteries are written in that we discover “hidden operations” that provide us with a form of “instruction” for undergoing the process of personal transformation as rising out of the darkness of illusion and into the light of Truth.

The word Tzaddi means “fish hook”, signifying that which draws the fish (Nun) out of the water (Mem). Fish is the symbol of Nun (Key 13) which represents “death” as the process of spiritual transformation, and Mem (Key 12), symbol of the Initiate, represents a complete change in perspective and attitude. Water represents personal existence of the higher Soul as the reflection cast within the subconscious mind. It’s the ocean of subconscious mentality (instinctual plane) that projects the whole of reality as a reflection of the etheric body fashioned on higher planes by the Human Soul. The symbol of a fish represents death as the transformative and regenerative powers of the spirit. This idea symbolizes the “activity” which lifts us up out of the material relations of personal existence by utilizing the reproductive forces of the soul’s regenerative agency.

The fish hook is a symbol of “angling”, which is related to the idea of experimentation, research into new ideas, and the quest undertaken as the means of growing into something more. It’s the quest after that which hasn’t been realized yet, and a form of searching that’s often called “fishing for ideas”. This represents the journey into your own subconscious mind (water) where you investigate what can’t be seen in order to solve enigmas, realize what lies hidden within you, and begin forming new realizations that lead you along a new path for solving a mystery. The value of “90” indicates a 90 degree turn in perspective and how you go about things, where you draw on a higher plane (vertical line) for original ideas instead of the material (horizontal) plane of human activity. 9 is the number of completion as a perfected state (Key 9), which comes by learning how to program your own subconscious mind using your higher mind, represented by Key 18, which proceeds out of Key 17.

The image used to represent this idea shows a beautiful naked woman with golden hair (solar energy), knelled down with one foot on land and the other in a pool of water, holding a vessel in each hand, one gold and one silver, with water pouring out of one into the pool and being drawn back up into the other, in a natural landscape with a tree in the background that has an ibis perched on a branch, and a snowy mountain peak in the background. Overhead is a central 8-pointed star (higher octave) with seven 8-pointed stars surrounding it in a circular pattern (Monad). The ibis in the tree is a scarlet ibis, which is the symbol of Hermes representing higher wisdom. As with all glyphs that serve to communicate higher wisdom, every aspect and detail represents an idea or aspect of the greater whole. Every number, color, symbol, geometric shape, and definition articulated within the arrangement is pertinent in understanding the whole idea as a “process” based on the “relationships” necessary for undergoing the operation indicated by its entire composition. The part is always a direct correspondence to the whole.

Function and Mode of Consciousness

The Function associated with this idea is “meditation” as the unbroken flow of higher knowledge into an “appropriate object”. We tune into and receive higher knowledge from within through the agency of the subconscious mind. All manifestation as perception is produced by the programming of our subconscious, which is the “passive and receptive aspect” of our mind that’s operated by our higher will. This represents the “conception” of ideas into the subconscious that are reflected in our mind and serve as a form of guidance for manifestation as our personal existence. The germinal process of both plants and animals takes place in darkness. This represents the mental unfoldment of ideas that are not already fully developed as the “genesis of ideas”. This is the process of all new inventions and creative manifestations that are unique and novel in nature and don’t come through the reformation of personal memory. This comes as ideas that are mentally “tuned into” and “drawn down” from the higher regions of the “astral plane” (starlight) of cosmic memory.

The Mode of Consciousness represented by 17 is “Natural Intelligence”, which comes as intuition. Natural intelligence comes as the awareness of the “hidden qualities” in all things and is arrived at through an ongoing state of meditation. This is not the type of meditation popularized in Western society, but is referring to a state that’s cultivated on an ongoing basis as a constant connection to our Higher Self as our natural way of being. It comes by quieting the random thoughts that are constantly playing out in your mind based on personal memory, rendering your “thinking” mind passive while connecting to your direct source of higher consciousness, and acting as a circuit for “streaming” higher consciousness to form all of your perceptions. This is the true secret to occult power. All powers can only be developed by intense concentration as a prolonged state of meditation.

Numeric Code of Principles

Like all numeric combinations, the numbers used represent principles that provide us with a code for gaining deeper insights into their meaning. 17 > 1 + 7 = 8. Some only look at the sum as being the meaning, but this is a mistake, because numbers represent relationships. The sum of an equation shows us what principle is represented through the full manifestation of all numbers that comprise it. There’s no such thing as an independent idea, and everything exists as a part of a greater whole and serves to show us its hidden aspects. 8 for example, is the full manifestation of the numbers 1 through 7. Key 8 represents using the higher agency of the human will (Key 7) to tame the lower animal-nature (etheric body) used for casting the shadow of personal existence.

 The number 8 represents the principle of “strength” as the soul’s ability to tame and direct its own animal nature through concentration of will. This represents the secret to transformation comes by using our higher mind to introduce new ideas into our etheric-body, which serves as the energetic matrix for manifestation. We only change our outer world by making the necessary changes to our inner world. All manifestation as personal existence comes “through us” and “by way of us” as our perception. In order to change our experiences we have to reprogram our own subconscious and upgrade our mental paradigm.

Number 1 (Magus) symbolizes directed attention as an undivided form of prolonged concentration. As we concentrate on an idea we connect with it internally and “enter into it” as a stream of consciousness, and lose all awareness of ourselves as being separate from it. As we become an idea in mind and spirit through the faculty of our imagination, it moves us deeper and deeper into its essential nature and we experience it from within it, as it. As we look at it from the inside out, we experience our self in new ways that bring a flow of new insights and realizations that transform our way of being and perceiving. All powers are only developed by “becoming them” in mind and body as a unified whole or singularity. 8 is the number of the octave that forms a greater whole that’s comprised of 7 aspects, which when harmonized form a progression as “steps to a higher level of consciousness” on a higher plane of existence.

The number 7 represents the human will exercised as speech and the spoken word that works to organize light-essence into the form indicated by the meaning of the words. We all call forth our reality by how we think and speak. Sound is comprised of 7 primary notes that make up a whole scale, and directly corresponds to the 7 colors of the spectrum, which together form our sensory reality. Sound is vibration that has both a pattern and an organizing agency in it that serves to shape light into the pattern as a reality. It operates first through the power of the imagination, forming a kind of “metaphorical lens” that we look through in order to reorder the outer reality to be of the same nature and idea as the inner one. As we think, we imagine the reality of our thoughts, and the imaginary reality serves as a form of instruction and command for the subconscious to produce as a corresponding outer experience of the same type and kind. We exercise our will to create our personal existence through our thoughts, which form the basis for our outer speech and all of our activities.

The 8-pointed star overhead is yellow, like the hair of the woman, and signifies cosmic energy, and forms the geometric shape that’s similar to the 8-spoked “wheel of fortune”, symbolic of personal destiny. All of our material creations come by mentally using an actual force which has a definite physical form of expression. 4 + 4 = 8, represents the fact that the same physical form (4) exists on both the upper planes of spirit and the lower plane of material manifestation as correspondences and mirror images of each other that are mediated through the mind. Meditation transmutes and modifies this cosmic energy into a personal expression (7) through “nerve-force”. 8 represents an octave as a whole unit comprised of 7 levels of sound and color as a progression that builds upon itself in order to culminate into a higher vibration. The summation of one octave forms the base note for the next higher octave. This represents the process necessary to raise our vibration to a higher level by reprogramming our subconscious through meditation and concentration on a higher ideal.

The 7 smaller stars that orbit the central one, are white, and refer to the “7 inner stars” of our subtle body (Key 8), which also correspond to the 7 notes of the musical scale, the 7 colors of the spectrum, the 7 planets of the zodiac, and 7 metals of alchemy. Each one represents a level and quality of consciousness. By focusing our attention upon the centers themselves, we stimulate them into an active state. Attention (1) is both a stimulating and organizing force of the will. By meditating on these centers we enter fully into them and gain realization around their hidden nature as aspects of our own subconscious mind. The higher will works through the etheric-double of the subtle organs of the subconscious to instruct, direct, and express through them.

This idea doesn’t represent meditating on things that are already created and fully manifest, but rather meditating on “modes of operation” as qualities of consciousness that also recognizes natural laws as interconnected to the larger whole. 8 symbolize the 7 aspects of God (mental states) that make up a greater whole which can be used as the means for evolving the greater whole to new levels of self-realization. In all Spiritual Sciences, such as the Kabbalah, each sphere represents a “type of experience” as a mental state that’s necessary in order to “enter into” and understand the knowledge it contains. We have to cultivate the proper state of mind in order to be able to vibrate at the frequency necessary to be able to conceive its inner knowledge. All knowledge of the higher planes of the mind is attained through sympathetic resonance. We have to work using our own mind to “become like” whatever it is that we desire to merge into and attain for ourselves.

We can also access higher knowledge as a form of intuitive conception by meditating on symbols and glyphs that arouse activity in corresponding spiritual centers without any danger of energetic congestion. We can concentrate on the archetypes symbolized in the Tarot, the Zodiac, or in Sacred Geometry, which will also act to arouse the energies associated with them in our imagination where they’ll unfold to reveal their hidden secrets to us. This method of accessing hidden knowledge is called “mental angling”, synonymous with “fishing”, where whatever we bait our hook with determines what we intend to attract and ultimately attain. This is the intended use of the Tarot and other universal sciences where symbolic ideas come to life by meditating on them as an operation performed naturally through a “quality of consciousness” as a mental state.

When we remove all attention from what’s already manifest in our life and instead embody the proper state, relinquishing all need to try and control it using preconceived ideas and needs, we’re able to conceive of brand new ideas and truly begin creating our experience of reality from a whole new level of awareness. The Tarot provides the Keys to the liberation of spiritual powers by the same method as the Patanjali Yoga Aphorisms. Beyond their symbolism are practical secrets of occultism which can’t be put into words and can only be known through direct experience (Gnosis).

The snowy mountain peak in the background is the symbol of the “Great Work” of Alchemy which comes through concentration on an ideal, constant striving as a means of self-development, and by cultivating virtues in a devoted manner. The scarlet ibis, symbol of Hermes, and its long bill is a fish hook used for fishing. The tree it’s perched on represents the human brain and nervous system, and symbolizes bringing intellectual activity as thought processes to rest by concentration. We have to stop thinking in order to meditate, and in the silence of our mind, Truth unveils herself to us as a stream of consciousness.

The woman symbolizes Hathor as Mother Nature and is the same woman symbolized in Key 8 (Strength) who tames the lion, symbol of our lower, animal-like nature, by opening its mouth. Meditation is largely the utilization and direction of the powers of deduction and imagination peculiar to the subconscious. Knowledge gained in meditation is gleaned through the imperishable record of the memory of Nature known as the Akashic Records. We render our body and mind as passive and inactive in order to act as a receiver of knowledge that’s currently unknown to us. We create the proper state of mind as the means of “tuning into” the sympathetic quality in the astral field of cosmic memory. We have to let go of our personal memory, which is what generates all of our experiences as the shaping mechanism for reality in order to tap into and absorb new memory that’s universal in nature and provides us with the basis for genesis. Genesis means the “genes of Isis”, which corresponds with Binah of the Kabbalah and the High Priestess of cosmic memory drawn down as the means of seeding the subconscious to produce personal experiences of the same type and kind. Meditation (Key 1) is how we work with our own mind to develop specific powers by directing the animal forces in human personality, symbolized by Key 8.

The pool of water symbolizes universal consciousness as the reservoir of cosmic mind-stuff stirred into vibration by the soul through concentrated attention, represented by the stream flowing from the pitcher in the right hand (projection) that feeds and sustains the pool. The stream blends into the pool of the subconscious where it’s turned into sensory experience and is then drawn back up into the pitcher in the left hand (magnetic) through 5 smaller streams (physical senses) that unite into one as they ascend, representing projection and contraction as a full cycle that flows infinitely, represented by the number 8. This represents the direct modification of the cosmic mindstuff (etheric substance) apart from sensory experience, which also modifies sensation and unfolds higher types of sensory experience.

The right knee is bent at the 90 degree angle of a square, positioned over the pool, and her foot rests on the surface of the water. While her left leg supports her on the ground, her right leg balances her by water. The sensations derived from physical forms are the main support for meditation (grounding) these are balanced by experiences gained directly from the subconscious. All sensory experience is formed out of the ideas that populate the subconscious as memory. The key to all material transmutation lies in utilizing the powers of the subconscious in conceiving new ideas and translating them into sensory realities through the imagination.

The Third Stage of Spiritual Unfoldment

This idea represents the 3rd stage of spiritual unfoldment as the “calm that follows the storm”, depicted by Key 16 as the destruction of ignorance that bind the soul to a prison of its own making, represented by Key 15 of the Devil. It’s the process of rebuilding on a foundation of Truth after the slate has been wiped clean. It sends us on a spiritual quest and search for a higher existence. While stars appear as dim lights when seen from the Earth, they’re actually distant suns whose light illuminates the cosmic soul. Stars are what “guide us” on our search to know ourselves through higher Truth. The angle of the stars in their constellations at the time of our birth charts our soul’s destiny through time.

The 5 rivulets as separate streams of consciousness that form into One represent the microcosm of the human soul and universal consciousness as it flows into and through the path of least resistance. Higher consciousness only flows through us when we vibrate at the same frequency and there’s no longer any resistance. This idea is expressed in the saying, “When we have found the beginning of the way, the star of our soul will shine its light to guide us”, and the Hermetic axiom, “as above so below, and as below so above, in the wondrous workings of the One Thing”.

When the veil of illusion falls away, what will provide the seed for a new reality built of Truth? What source do we draw on when we realize that the world we built out of society and what we were taught by others proves to be false? This symbolizes the idea of no longer taking in ideas from the will of others in the manifest world, and instead aligning your mind with your higher self and acting to draw down the Will of higher consciousness, using it to seed your subconscious in order to give birth to nobility as your souls chosen expression, and transform your outer experiences of life accordingly.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Transforming Fear and Isolation into Compassion and Community

What I have come to realize in my lifetime is that all true change only seems to come through extreme situations. The greater the intensity of the situation the more pronounced the emotion it elicits in me, the greater my ability to transform myself and my way of thinking as a result. It’s usually only through the full experience of one feeling that I’ve been able to honestly touch on the opposite one that will serve to transform it. All actual transformation comes by using opposites to move from one way of seeing something to a brand new way of seeing the same thing. We can only know ourselves as strong and courageous when encountering situations that scare and weaken us. In the moments of our greatest fear we’re able to see into the true nature of the fear and realize what we need to do in order to resolve and transcend it. Whatever quality as a way of being we choose to intentionally embody is what actually creates our experiences of our self, not the situation or event itself. While the outside definitely acts to stimulate an internal response of an equivalent nature, it also provides us with an opportunity for deciding who we’re going to be in relation with it. We can use our own reactions as the means to gain a sense of control over our own reactions.

 When times become extreme, they require us to remain calm while taking extreme measures in response to them. There’s no such thing as changing something by “fighting against it” or acting to try and oppose it somehow, because opposites always act to stimulate, promote, and sustain each other. You can’t fight tyranny by going to war with it or arguing to contest it, but rather by building community that removes it from having authority over people. When we step outside of the fear that’s driving our thoughts and the scenarios we’re running through our mind in an habitual fashion, and we tune into our conscience and what our inner voice is telling us, we can often see the solution in very clear terms, and then all we have to do is have faith in ourselves and commit to doing it. Courageous people experience the same fear everyone else does, they simply choose to move forward in spite of it, and as a result, the fear disappears. The only true purpose of fear is to stop us from taking the actions necessary to resolve it. As we step into our fear we realize that it’s an illusion because it immediately goes away and we focus single-mindedly instead on what we need to do in order to move forward.

The Process of Dissolving Fearful Illusions

I can remember what I went through when I was a kid and I ran away from home for the first time because I was more afraid of what would happen to me if I stayed at home than I was of the thought of having to fend for myself on the streets alone. I was terrified at the realization of being alone with no one to protect me and take care of me. As I became slightly overwhelmed with a feeling of panic, trying to figure out what I was going to do, a voice inside of me kicked in and said, “okay, you can figure out what you’re going to do later, but for right now you need to find a place to sleep and build yourself a fort.” So I did that, then it said, now set up your bed and get everything ready for tonight. After I did that it said, now let’s find something to eat and drink. My inner voice kept directing me in a step-by-step manner as to what I needed to do at this moment in order to take care of myself and create as safe a situation as I could.

When I was going through a time when my whole life had just fallen apart and I was virtually homeless, I was laying down trying to relax and go to sleep, and I started running all the terrible thoughts through my mind about how I was suffering and amplified the feeling of grief, and suddenly my inner voice simply said, look at all the things you have that you can be grateful for, and it started listing them one by one, and my whole mental state changed and I started seeing where the hope was in my situation. I’m in the process of losing my eyesight and it feels as if I’m steadily losing all of what is most important to me, and as I found myself starting to dwell in all the things I can no longer do, I thought . . . wait a minute, what can I still do? Let me move my focus off of what I’m losing and onto what I have instead. As I think about things that happened in the past, my voice says “think only about what has meaning now”, and I began redirecting my attention onto only what’s present in my life and what it is that needs to be done in order to create the situation I want to be in. What kind of positive and meaningful action can I take?

Once we allow ourselves to realize that dwelling in constant fearful thoughts, regardless of what they are, is a downward spiral into an abyss where we act to create the very thing we’re afraid of, we can begin rising above it and pull ourselves out of a bottomless pit of our own making. In every situation we find ourselves in, no matter how intense it may be, we always come face-to-face with who we are and who we’re going to be based on the choices we make as to how we’re going to enter into relationship with it as a part of our story. Whatever decisions we make in regards to it determines how we develop ourselves by way of it as the means of realizing our weaknesses, and instead of succumbing to them by choosing to dwell in that reality, we choose instead to rise to the occasion in a new way by employing virtues in their stead.

The Human Dilemma

One of the problems humanity has as a whole is we often don’t have a well-developed philosophy for how we live and life, and rely on others and the government to lead us by telling us what to do instead. We willingly subject ourselves to whatever ruler ship takes precedence over us, and we become slaves of the establishment as a result. In every crisis is also an opportunity for change. In fact people seldom ever change unless there’s a crisis in their life of some sort. Change is usually forced on people, not chosen in a purposeful manner. The crisis we’re now facing is a global event, and so is the opportunity it brings for global change. It provides us with an opportunity to see our collective weaknesses and what it is that’s makes us scared and vulnerable. What is it that when employed in a tactful and persistent way, serves to ultimately control and determine who we are?

The opportunity doesn’t lie in trying to expose global conspiracies or uncover mass illusions being played out behind the scenes designed to shape our perception in a way that we participate in creating it from a passive state, it lies rather in our ability to transform our way of thinking and devote our attention to what will remedy it as a solution. When we engage people in the reality of the conspiracies themselves, where they can clearly imagine them and form an emotional response to them, we actually help to co-create it at the collective level. Whatever we dwell in with emotional intensity, we use our mind to create as our experience. Whatever illusion we expose at the corporate and government level will simply be replaced by another one because the illusion isn’t the problem, it’s our reliance on these agencies to lead us and provide basic necessities that’s the problem. Until we change this, new problems will be created to replace the old ones that have been resolved.

As natural and global crisis arise, we’re instructed to separate from each other even more than we currently are, and to be afraid of contact and even suspicious of others, and though this seems to be a good idea in terms of preventing it from spreading, the mental anxiety and depression created through isolation due to intense fear, becomes far worse than the virus itself. People are now being trained to “police each other”. It brings out the worst in people and promotes selfish and drastic behaviors of taking far more than you need while others go without because of it. It appeals to our poor character while isolating us even further from the only real hope we have, and that’s each other.

With the term “social distancing” becoming a buzz word and the paranoia it creates encouraged, the “real problem” is being promoted and proliferating. The only obvious opportunity in this whole situation for all of us is to use it instead to begin building community by cultivating our sense of compassion for others and extending ourselves to help each other in whatever way we can. Many of us live next door to people, sometimes for years, that we don’t even know and haven’t even met or talked to at any length. We go on walks through the park and barely make eye contact with anyone, or even extend a friendly “hi”. Many sit with their family and friends while completely ignoring them and choosing instead to surf their cellphones with a blank look on their face.

Many are spending their time in “quarantine” to mindlessly surf the internet reading every article or watching every video they can find on the coronavirus and the conspiracies obviously associated with it, sending themselves into an even deeper state of depression and mass hysteria by cultivating a sense of hopelessness. One of the interesting things about people is that you don’t have to actually put forth the effort to brainwash them, all you have to do is provide the means for them to brainwash themselves. Their suffering is self-inflicted, and all of their mental anguish is self-administered.

 What would happen if instead we decided to see this as a wake-up call and an opportunity for making the changes that are so drastically needed in the world? What if we decided instead to reach out to our neighbors and the very people present all around us in our community and ask them if they’re doing okay? Ask them if they need anything, and let them know that if they do, we’ll help them? Or just talk with them and become acquainted with them? If there’s an elderly person that we know lives alone, check on them to make sure they’re doing alright or to see if they need a friendly smile or to just talk. We don’t have to come into direct contact, we can stand a few feet away, talk to them from our yard or the sidewalk. We can put a note on their door or the windshield of their car letting them know who we are and that we’re here to help if they need anything, and give them our name and phone number. Let them know that if they’re just feeling lonely and want to talk, that’s ok too. If someone is ill in some way, prepare them a meal and leave it on their doorstep while ringing their doorbell.

Instead of pulling even further apart or becoming even more isolated because of this, why don’t we see it as the means for becoming even more connected and learning how to work together to build community? Get back to the old-fashioned idea of neighbors helping neighbors? It used to be that if someone in the community was sick the women got together and tended to them, and everyone chipped in to help them with their chores until they were recovered. In situations like this the effects produced are far greater than the disease itself. We tend to feed the problem instead of remedying it with a meaningful solution. There’s only power in numbers, and when we come together for a common cause we are powerful beyond measure. When a small group of people come together with a common purpose and form community by working together as a cohesive unit, great changes come about that nurture our soul and bring back a deep feeling of hope. Hope in the fact that we’re not alone. There’s nothing more gratifying than feeling a productive part of something greater than ourselves. In this way, we begin healing at the collective level through a single act, that’s then followed by another, and another, and another . . . .

Dr. Linda Gadbois

We Only Cultivate Spiritual Powers through Live Experiences

One of the greatest forms of self-delusion that we’re all prone to comes through our natural tendency to create a “false image” of ourselves as we’d “like to be seen” instead of as we truly are. This image starts in childhood and is set into place through our conditioning and how it is that we were judged and how we were taught to judge others in the same manner. While it can be easy for us to build up an idea about ourselves as being this way or that way, denying whatever it is about ourselves we deem unpleasant or unworthy of being loved and admired, we only truly know who we are when things fall apart and events that are somewhat shocking and intense begin playing out all around us, challenging us in the most basic sense by bringing us face-to-face with who we truly are. As the outer world that we built out of our false perceptions about ourselves and the way the world is begins to fall away, so does our ability to pretend. We can say whatever we like, and we can makeup stories about ourselves and how we are all day long, but it’s our actions and how we behave in the most critical moments that truly reveal our character.

All true spiritual knowledge is knowledge of ourselves that’s only attained through self-realization and direct awareness of universal laws and principles as they play out in every aspect of our daily life. Wisdom is cultivated through the practical application of spiritual knowledge as laws to a real life situation, where we actually “attain it” through the realizations it brings. It’s the realizations born out of experience that’s the “actual” knowledge. All knowledge as laws comes “through us” based on how we apply ourselves in those moments, however brief and fleeting, where the illusion fades to the background and we come into direct contact with the true reality of the subtle realm that’s being played out in secrecy and silence. When the “veil of illusion” that normally obscures our perception is raised, we momentarily get a glimpse of the truth that’s contained within it, and that same “truth” is awakened “within us” in response to it. This is because “like always begets and calls forth more of what’s like itself”.

Whatever we come into direct contact with in the outer world gives rise to its polar opposite in our internal world. This is what allows us to come into direct contact with that power so we can work with it deliberately and learn how to utilize it to develop that power into a moral strength as a natural part of our character. What we refer to as “integrating an idea in a way that modifies us” comes through and as “experience”. While the material world attempts to teach us that our souls purpose and means of developing ourselves comes through material ideas of various kinds, such as a house, job, relationship, car, role, position in society, possessions, and so on, in reality it comes as qualities we embody in a consistent fashion as the means of expressing our self. Whatever qualities we use on a regular basis as the means of creating our reality also serve to develop our character according to those qualities.

While we have a tendency to focus almost exclusively on the material reality involved, the outer world is simply a stage where ideas play out that brings us into direct contact with the qualities being expressed “through” that reality. This is because we can only work to develop our character through events and live situations that serve to awaken and bring out those same qualities in us as an experience of ourselves. It’s not the outer world of form that matters, but rather what it causes to come alive within us in response and relationship with it. The outer and the inner are a continuation of each other as an energy-field (greater mind) that takes the same information and organizes it to produce polar opposites of the same thing that serve to “arouse” each other into existence.

The Psychology of Polarity

While we have a tendency to see the world as a dynamic series of separate objects that often seem to exist independent of and unrelated to each other, it’s actually composed of a unified field that’s populated with complementary opposites necessary to create the illusion of both an inner and outer as the basis for creating “experience”. All experience comes as a “whole pattern” or idea comprised of varying degrees of intensity and opposing roles necessary to act it out. It’s only in moments of intense fear that we also come into direct contact with courage. It’s in situations that provoke a strong moral judgment that we also have access to compassion as understanding and relating. It’s in the moments when we feel the most insecure that we also gain access to our personal power in being able to remedy it.

A life that goes unchallenged goes unlived. We only grow in life when we’re being challenged in a way that causes us to willfully employ our higher capacities for transformation. Happiness is not something we attain outside of us through a situation, it’s something we cultivate within us by how we develop ourselves morally in relationship with life outside of us. The moments that bring us into contact with a weakness, allowing us to form realizations around it, is what also provides us with the basis as an opportunity to transform it into a strength by how we work “on ourselves” to change ourselves. All vibration as a state of mind is modified through employing the principle of Polarity, because the movement between opposite poles is what causes vibration.

Weakness and strength exist in polarity to each other as complementary opposites, and one is used as the means of working with the other, because proportionately they’re diametrically the same. When we’re feeling afraid due to something that happening outside of us or to us, we have a choice as to whether we’re going to be a coward and be overcome by it, or employ bravery in rising to meet it with a sense of confidence in our ability to overcome it. In every moment we exist in relationship with our self in everything else and make all of our decisions based on asking ourselves one fundamental question, and that is “who am I going to be in relationship with this”. Even when this doesn’t come as an actual question, it comes as a feeling inside of us that sets an entire conversation with ourselves into motion as a decision making process.

Life is a School that provides us with the Opportunity for facilitating our Own Growth

When we acquire knowledge in theoretical form, either by reading and contemplating, or through a teacher and instruction, it simply provides us with the basis for applying through experimentation. As we apply it in some manner, we produce reality as consequences that bring realizations around its true nature, which allow us to make constant adjustments until the inner and outer result in the same thing. If the inner can’t be demonstrated in the outer, then we need to reevaluate it in order to find where our errors are. Each time we make modifications based on realizations that come from practicing, we shape the theory that gave us the initial template into a personalized version that we can then develop as a form of self-mastery. Not mastery over others, but mastery over ourselves and our ability to self-regulate and create in an intentional manner.  

Once we really understand this, we can learn to not only perceive all things in a different light, but also see them as the true opportunity that they are for developing ourselves by way of them through the experience they afford us. Events and situations of an intense nature bring us face-to-face with our true nature, allowing us to see the aspects alive inside of us that we can’t readily see in normal circumstances. Many feelings remain latent within us until they’re awakened by outside activity. The outer world is always providing us with an absolute mirror into our inner world. Whatever we profess a belief in as a faint-hearted idea about ourselves and who we are, dissolves instantly in the light of truth. Life provides the stage necessary to play out the dramas needed to develop specific traits in us.

Transforming Weaknesses into Strengths

All ideas are whole and complete in nature and contain the potential for expression through polar opposites that are complementary in nature. The illusion of separation is necessary in order to create experience. What this means is that what we perceive as an outer and feel as an inner, act “on each other” to stimulate each other into existence as a joint reality. One aspect of a whole equation only exists in direct relationship with the opposite aspect of the same equation. They need each other as the means of defining themselves in relation and by contrast to each other. If we create a scale by drawing a horizontal line that’s a few inches long, and put fear on one side and courage on the other, with a series of gradual steps or degrees in the space between them, we can create a mental model of the process involved in transforming one into the other. In order to transform fear, which is a weakness, we have to choose to employ courage in its place in the moment when it’s happening.

In order to develop courage, we have to be in situations where we naturally feel afraid. As we feel the fear well-up inside of us with intensity, we can use our will as self-awareness to subdue and tame it, while evaluating it with a rational and non-reactive mind. Once we realize that it’s not a warning of an actual danger or immediate threat, we can decide to respond in a way that employs a sense of courage in its place. As we move into it with a sense of courage, the fearful feeling either immediately begins subsiding, or turns into a feeling of excitement and exhilaration, while also fostering and giving rise to a feeling of confidence. In this way, we dissolve the feeling of fear and transform it into one of power.

As we do this repeatedly we begin moving from one side of the scale towards the center of the scale. All transformation comes from “accumulating experiences” that are built-up through consistent steps. As we produce more and more experiences of being courageous we steadily move along the scale towards the opposite. We begin producing more and more memories of ourselves that change how we feel and naturally respond to things. The ideal isn’t one extreme or the other, but comes rather by balancing them in a harmonious state of equilibrium, where both come as a decision we make through a balanced state of mind, and then act out intentionally. The ultimate goal from a spiritual perspective is to be able to manage all of our emotions in order to be able to utilize them as tools for creating rather than allowing them to create us. It’s always a question of who’s in charge, you or your emotions, and acting to direct the situation.

When we learn how to see any situation or event that causes a strong emotional reaction as an opportunity for transforming ourselves by way of them, we learn how to value what is otherwise stressful and challenging situations that only serve to foster and give life to our weaknesses. When we allow our emotions to run away with us, we lend our will to our weaknesses and live a life of fantasy born out of hysteria as a result.  While we can picture ourselves as being brave in the midst of nerve-racking situations that normally freak us out, it’s only when we actually experience it that we have the opportunity to work with the fear and transform it in a deliberate manner. It’s only in the moments that we’re challenged to our depths that we not only get to see what we’re made of, but also have the ability to willfully create ourselves in a much more deliberate and precise manner by being able to take control of our innate ability to create our own experiences. We only transform the outer world by working first to transform the inner world that’s producing it as a mirror image.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

The Art of Introspection – Self-Knowledge, Awareness, and Tools for Transformation

The cornerstone of all spiritual growth and psychological healing comes through the motto “know thyself” as attaining deeper forms of self-awareness that brings realization and insights into your true nature and why your life is the way it is. The whole basis of healing in the psychological sense comes naturally when we bring what’s working to create in our lives at an unconscious level into the light of awareness and we “own it” instead of denying or attempting to somehow justify or glorify it. To be empowered in your own life only comes through gaining knowledge of yourself in terms of both your conscious and unconscious tendencies and the success or failing that result from them. The only thing we truly have the power to change in our life is ourselves. All transformation comes only by way of self-awareness that brings deeper realizations around how it is that we have created ourselves and our life to be the way it is.

Many of us spend our whole life focused primarily on other people and what it is we imagine they’re “doing to us”, instead of forming awareness around ourselves, our own characteristics, and what part it is we play in co-creating our own life experiences. Like all ideas this one exists as a form of paradox born and maintained out of a sense of separation and detachment from our own power to create in our life. We can spend the better part of our life trying to figure out how to “change others” or by forming the perception that others are the ones responsible for why we’re the way we are and why our life has formed the way it has without realizing that both our “self” and our “life” are virtually the same thing, and in order to change one we have to work by way of the other.

This idea is compounded further by the idea of what it means to be “selfish” as opposed to “selfless”, and that our “faults” and “weaknesses” are something that’s usually pointed out by others, or is only known through the opinion of others. In our modern day society we’ve made the idea of “self-perfection” out to be a dirty word because we base it on a form of judgment that’s imposed on us by others as their perception of us, rather than on our own ability to observe and closely examine our own tendencies in any situation. One of the key practices in life comes through our ability to determine our own faults and destructive tendencies and then take the measures necessary to correct ourselves.

The idea of “self-perfection” comes by whatever we deem to be the best version of ourselves and then commit to achieving by transforming our weaknesses into strengths. It comes by consciously acting to develop ourselves to be the best we can be. We take responsibility for ourselves instead of blaming our self-destructive tendencies on others. We form an “ideal” for our own development then undergo the process of self-transformation from a semi-unconscious state of being to a primarily conscious and aware state of being. Perfection comes through consistent growth and by developing ourselves in an intentional way in order to create the type of experiences we want to have. It’s only by fully recognizing our own faults that we have the foundation necessary for using our higher powers of choice, will, and realization in order to transform them into our best traits.

All of what we call “higher knowledge” comes as comprehension of Universal Laws to the extent of being able to apply them at the practical level in order to heal and step into our power as our own creator. All Universal Laws (of mind and spirit) form a direct correspondence and work harmoniously to create within the material world through Natural Laws. When we work by way of law, we create in what seems like an effortless manner as a synchronized flow of correlated events, and when we fail to understand and work by way of law, we counteract ourselves and create a constant feeling of hardship and self-sabotage. The material world only serves as a “stage” for us to create ourselves by how we enter into relationship with it. It’s a form of school where we can practice our ability to create until we can do it in an accurate and consistent way.

Introspection and Objective Self-Observation

The most primary law there is, the one that everything else is based on and rises naturally out of as a growth process, is what’s called the “all in One” Law, or in Sacred Geometry the Law of the Monad. This law basically demonstrates that all of reality is a unified whole, and that the “self” and the “reality of the self” are actually the same thing. One systematically produces the other, and vice versa. What we perceive as a separation between our self and another is actually a very fundamental illusion that deceives us in the most basic sense of the idea. It’s “who we are” in terms of “how we’re being” that determines how we “perceive” ourselves in relation to and comparison with others. Our outer perception of others and the world and our perception of our self are complementary opposites of each other and provide us with a mirror into the hidden aspects of our soul. Our outer reality only changes as a direct reflection of our inner self. As we change internally, our life changes to the exact same degree.

One of the most valuable and fundamental spiritual practices there are is the practice of self-observation and the objective examination of our own characteristics and the tendencies that result from them. We have to cultivate the ability to look inward in all situations in order to see what our own characteristics and behaviors are, and how it is that they serve to influence and actively create in the situation. We take an attitude of observing any situation in a way that allows us to see and form realizations around our own negative and destructive characteristics.

As we gain realization into our own unconscious behaviors and what they cause, it’s important to record them in a diary or notebook, because like all realizations that come through a form of meditation and introspection, they’re fleeting and you may not be able to remember them later. Awareness is the key to transformation, and the more defined our awareness is around something, the more immediate and powerful the transformation is. As you write down realizations about yourself in the moment when they’re happening, you record them so you can continue to reflect on them later. As you begin writing and defining them with detailed descriptions the deeper you go and the more pronounced your realizations become. As you define your character flaws and weaknesses in order to gain clarity around them, you simultaneously transform them through the realizations they bring.

This diary or personal notebook is your own to use and you should never, under any circumstances show or discuss it with anyone else. This is your own private tool for developing yourself. The only thing that goes in it is your own ideas for yourself. All self-development and healing is something we do to and for ourselves. These observations about your own character provide you with the knowledge you need in order to begin healing your own unproductive tendencies and develop your weaknesses into strengths. The foundation for self-mastery comes through self-control and your intrinsic ability to discipline yourself in order to implement new ways of being and create in new ways as a result.

The art of objective self-observation requires you to be frank and honest with yourself in realizing your poor character traits, moral weaknesses, shortcomings, habits, failings, passions, and compulsive urges. You’re not engaging in “criticizing” yourself because of them, but simply opening your mind to honest self-evaluation and recognizing your part in creating the events of your own life. You have to resist the urge to justify your right to be that way, or to try and glorify your failings and shortcomings somehow by the story you tell yourself about them. You remove your focus completely from what other people are saying or doing that’s causing you to be the way you are, and place all of your attention on what’s happening inside of you, what characteristics are brought out in you, and how you behave as a result. You refrain from the natural tendency to build an illusion around whatever it is you don’t want to see about yourself, and witness your life without attachments of any kind.

Practice

To start this process, relax in a private environment and reflect back on yourself in different situations that didn’t go very well or that caused you pain and suffering somehow, and simply contemplate them. Replay what happened while focusing inward on how it made you feel and how you became as a result. How were you influenced by another person’s behavior towards you? Ask yourself what your part was in creating it? What role did you play in producing whatever resulted? What did the situation act to bring out in you that caused you to react the way you did? Analyze the experience by replaying how it happened in a step-by-step way while only focusing on “you” and what part you played in co-creating the outcome. Make detailed notes on all of your own errors, inappropriate behavior, and shortcomings, while continuously resisting the need to explain and justify your right to be that way by making it the other person’s fault. Make notes of even the smallest and most insignificant details in order to see yourself clearly.

As you make notes, meditate deeply on them as a means of penetrating deeply into your own soul. Realization is the most primary way we have of “transforming” things. All healing in the psychological sense comes through self-awareness that brings self-realization as to your own character. Constant self-observation and evaluation is the most important part of self-development. This is the most important step in preparing for initiation, achieving inner balance, and engaging willfully in the process of ascension. As we realize and resolve our own character flaws and destructive tendencies, we make a constant ascent towards a higher level of consciousness, and master our ability to create.

You can review any past event that had a strong impact on you or served as a turning point in your life, as well as how relationships were established and evolved through the course of time. You can also form a daily practice where at the end of every day, you sit quietly and reflect back on the main events of the day, and review how things transpired and turned out, and what your part was in co-creating them. You can examine your own attitude and behavior to see what was productive and went the way you wanted it to, and what didn’t. As you examine your own behavior, you can realize where your flaws were and actively choose what you would have liked to have done instead.

As you realize what you could have done differently to produce a more desirable outcome, you can replay the event in your mind while employing different qualities and behaviors. You can change the event in your mind by changing your own part in it. As you “correct yourself” and replay the same situation in a different way while behaving differently, you act to give yourself a “new pattern” to use in all future situations of a similar nature. This way, whenever the same type of situation occurs in the future, you have a well thought out idea on how to respond in a much more purposeful manner. Once you get good at this, you can practice it throughout the day when you have time to relax and reflect, and learn how to identify all your flaws and what it is that causes you to do them.

Identifying Severity of Destructive Tendencies

Another thing you can do is evaluate the extent of the problems these character flaws cause in your life. Some attitudes and behaviors are much more destructive and counterproductive than others, and these need to be identified for what they are and corrected as quickly as possible. One of the ways you can do this is to divide the character flaws into three categories in terms of the type of problems they cause. This will give you an idea of which ones cause the greatest problems and are outright destructive, and which ones are minor and somewhat irritating.

3 Levels of Bad Character Traits:

  • High – negative characteristics that influence you the most, happen frequently or are intense and super dramatic, and tend to cause the greatest problems.
  • Medium – ones that occur less frequently and have less influence and produce minor problems.
  • Low – ones that only occur occasionally and has minimal influence in our life.

This process will help you to become self-aware of your own character flaws and what it is about your behavior that causes you to fail in achieving what you desire to create, and in what ways it is that you act within your own life in a destructive and unconscious manner. You may want to practice it intensely for a couple of weeks, and then periodically as new realizations arise and become apparent.

In the same way you record all of your character flaws and shortcomings, you also want to record all of your positive characteristics and strong points. Reflect on and gain detailed awareness of your good character traits, high morality, and situations where you created just what you wanted to. In this way you can gain detailed information around what it is that you’re doing that both works and doesn’t work. You can realize your own faults and act on yourself to correct them in whatever way you want. You can acquire knowledge that will provide you with the basis for becoming a conscious creator in your own life and learn how to work by way of law in order to shape yourself in whatever way you choose to.

Soul Mirror

This practice will provide you with a form of mirror into your own soul where you can master self-control and create yourself and your life in whatever way you choose to instead of feeling as if you’re a victim to others and to the circumstances of your life. Our outer perception of reality is formed as a correspondence to our inner perception of our self. Our outer life is the result of the story we tell through our inner life. However we choose to intentionally develop our character determines the type of life we live and the story we tell about ourselves in living it. Every story has a main character that’s ideal for telling that type of story. If we don’t like the type of story we’re living, then the most natural way to change it is by developing our own character to be the main star in telling a different kind of story. This journal will help map out your character and provide you with greater insights into your own soul and why your life is the way it is.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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“15” – The Devil: Overcoming Weaknesses, Material Attachments, and Transcending Illusion

In all forms of Esoteric Sciences ideas are communicated in the universal language of Archetypes, numbers, and symbols. We’re given a grand formula as a composite image or idea that must be intuitively interpreted in order for its hidden knowledge to be apprehended. All actual learning takes place through our subconscious where we impregnate ourselves with a seeded idea that gestates and not only unfolds spontaneously in the imagination as a whole idea or process, but continues to unfold over an extended period of time, bringing us deeper and more relevant insights into the same idea. We know we’ve apprehended the knowledge inherent in an idea when we can relate to it in the activities of our everyday life, and when it becomes an inherent part of our outer reality as our “perception”. Once an idea becomes fully integrated into our mental paradigm, it becomes a fundamental part of our material matrix as the substrate that gives rise to it, holds it together in a cohesive manner, and animates it through a form of cosmic relationship.

All Archetypes represent principles that are a natural part of our cosmic consciousness. This archetypal principle, like the pentagram which is a key component of it, is probably one of the most misunderstood and misinterpreted ones there are. This is perhaps due to the fact that the image used to represent it tends to elicit a sense of fear, apprehension, and disgust. This reaction is usually due to how it’s been grossly misinterpreted through Christian allegory. Christians perverted the idea represented by the god “Pan” as being witches that worshiped Nature and stole, sacrificed and ate children. This interpretation was formulated as a means of using fear to control by creating “illusions” that caused “panic”. If we look at each aspect combined to produce this composite image, we can not only gain a better understanding of what it’s showing us about our own nature, but we can also attain the “process” necessary in order to work with it in an intelligent manner. As with all archetypal images we want to look at the general overall composition while also identifying the “Keys” that reveal the laws involved.

The number 15 is represented in the Tarot by the archetype of the “Devil”, which is also the mythological god “Pan”. The basic composition is similar to those of Key 5, 6, 7, 14, and 19, which show a larger figure, usually of a divine nature (angel or priest) overseeing and governing 2 smaller beings that are male and female as a couple. This composition forms a “triangle” and naturally represents the higher-self or mind, working directly through the two aspects of the subconscious (female) and self-conscious (male) that manifest within the lower plane of materialism. In this depiction the divine principle is the “devil” presiding over a couple who are chained to a treasure chest of gold coins. Their chains are loose and can be easily removed, but they either don’t realize they can remove them, or they don’t want to remove them.

Pan-devil, ruled by Capricorn, is shown as half goat and half man, representing our lower, animal nature which is instinctively driven through emotional impulses and primal urges. The goat aspect of this character is the “lower half” that’s below the belly button and governs the lower body of sexuality, union, and reproduction. Only humans have belly buttons, and it signifies man inhabiting an animal body. The devil is symbolized by the Hebrew letter “Ayin”, and the letter “O”. It’s ruled by Saturn in Capricorn, where Mars is exalted. This image is the “polar opposite” of the one shown in Key 14, which it proceeds out of as a natural progression of what’s necessary in order to “change our vibration” as the means of “ascending” in spirit to higher dimensions. 15 lays the foundation for 16 to naturally emerge as a consequence, which represents being liberated from our own self-imposed material bondage.

The “sense” associated with the devil is “sight”, the most important sense of all in perceiving reality, and the one we’re most easily “deceived” by. Through sight we see appearances alone. Forming a visual image produces sensation, and the “eye” is used to represent “sensation” just as the “lion” serves to represent all “subhuman modes of life expression”. When we see appearances only we reside in the limitations of the visible world as a form of ignorance that forms spiritual bondage. Ignorance comes when we accept these limitations as being all there is. The most predominant form of sexual seduction as enticement comes through visual stimulation that causes arousal as heightened sensation. The most basic form of ignorance comes from believing what’s being presented, which forms our limitations and bondage to the world of illusions. When we remain ignorant of our true self we gladly succumb to the limitations being imposed on us by our lower self.

This idea represents indulgences that cause incongruity as weaknesses, character flaws, and shortcomings. The mental state associated with Ayin is “mirth”, which indicates merriment, laughter, and celebrating. It represents that which beguiles us through a state of enchantment. Laughter is a prophylactic and acts to purify the subconscious by dissolving mental complexes and internal conflicts. Laughter is a form of medicine that clears tension from the body caused by repressed emotions.

In the Metatron Cube of Space, 15 is the line at the lowest level as “west-below”, and connects NW (Key 11) with SW (Key 13), and South-below (Key 18) with North-below (Key 9). This provides us with further insight as a formula for understanding the faculties involved and the processes necessary to employ in working intelligently with them. Key 11 = Karma (universal justice); Key 13 = death (transformation); Key 18 = Moon (subconscious); and Key 9 = Completion and perfection. Key 15 also corresponds to Key 2 “below”, and Key 10 “West” as the “center axis” of the cube, representing the soul’s memory (2) as a cycle of creation (10). We’re initially programmed (conditioned) through an unconscious state that lays the groundwork out of which we continue creating ourselves in an unconscious manner throughout our life.

The number “15” gives us a primary formula of the laws involved and is calculated as 1 + 5 = 6. 1 represents focused attention (will), 5 = mind over matter as our connection with our Higher Self, and 6 (Lovers) as the intimate union of the subconscious with the self-conscious orchestrated by our Higher Self (Guardian Angel). The devil is shown with an inverted pentagram over his forehead (third-eye), which symbolizes the higher mind being controlled by the 4 Elements of material reality where it resides on a level that’s subhuman and instinctual. We experience incongruity, a lack of integrity, and internal conflict whenever our self-conscious stands in opposition of our subconscious, and we create in an inconsistent manner controlled by our passions, impulses, and sexual desires (addictions).

Capricorn is a cardinal earthy sign that governs the knees, which we’re brought to in crisis and kneel on to pray. We’re brought to our knees through our sense of bondage and personal insufficiency, and become subservient to our material existence. When we become identified with our personal possessions they act to determine us. All bondage comes from our failure to realize that we are meant to “rule Nature”, rather than being “ruled by it”. This idea represents our attachments to materialism produced by weaknesses and addictive tendencies that shape our morality to be “animal-like” and easily deceived and led astray through pleasure of various kinds. Mars is exalted in Capricorn, symbolized by Key 16, which follows sequentially, represented by the “lightning struck tower”, which destroys the form that holds us captive under the guise of safety and security. It’s our castle, title, and possessions that form our prison and bonds us to the lower planes of spiritual degradation. Whatever we “identify with”, we become one with in spirit and use as the means of creating experiences of ourselves.

 The mode of consciousness assigned to it is “Renewing Intelligence” as regeneration necessary in order to birth ourselves anew from a fully conscious and purified state that results from stepping back into our “identity” as a “divine being”. It’s through incongruities in our character that we unconsciously destroy what we’ve built. An incongruity is something that doesn’t fit and can also bring forth new ideas as adaptations (5). When we find a fact that doesn’t fit with our beliefs, we’re required to revise them to include the new information, upgrading them as a result. Whenever we let go of our attachment to things, we go through a period where we need to make adjustments and develop ourselves in new ways.

The icon of the Devil represents our “adversary” and that which refers to the ideas that relentlessly oppose our struggle for freedom. It’s our lower nature governing and utilizing the power of our higher nature in creating our soul and determining our destiny as a higher soul. It personifies the “serpent power” represented in Teth, Key 8, called “Strength”, which is the higher soul’s ability to tame the serpent power and use it for the motivating force of higher ideals. It’s the serpent of temptation that tempted Eve (subconscious), called Nachash (NchSh), whose letters translate into the numbers N = 50; Ch = 8, Sh = 300, for a total of 358 ( which equals 16 = 7), the same value as MShICh – 40 + 300 + 10 + 8 = 358, meaning the Messiah. This gives us a subtle correspondence of its meaning. It’s through temptation that we recognize our weaknesses, and are able to overcome them using Strength, and redeem ourselves as a result. The Devil is actually an aspect of God that’s usually greatly misunderstood by the ignorant and profane. Jesus, as the Messiah, was born in Capricorn, and both the devil and Christ were referred to as “the morning star”, and are polar opposites of each other.

If we break this formula down further and use the Keys of the Tarot to decipher their meaning, we get N = death, CH = Chariot, Sh = Judgment: and M = Hanged Man, Sh = Judgment, I = Hermit, Ch = Chariot, which equal 358. 3 = Empress, 5 = Hierophant, 8 = Strength. I’ll leave that for you to contemplate further on your own. 15 = 6 > represented by the “Lovers” as the sacred union of the two minds to form a harmonious whole. 15 is the summation of numbers 0 – 5 (1+2+3+4+5 = 15), the basic principles of the mind and its true relationship with matter. The word devil is “lived” spelled backwards and is ascribed to “wisdom” – we only learn by living and doing. All knowledge is obtained only through experience. Through self-realization and reason, we exercise our power of choice and will in transforming weaknesses into strengths.

The background of the scene is black, indicating the darkness of ignorance, limitation, and that which is hidden and resides within. Ignorance is the underlying cause of all bondage. The devil himself is a polar-image of the Angel in 14, which is also the caricature over the heads of the Lovers in Key 6. The man and woman are shown with horns and tail and represent the beast-like figures of the ones shown in the Lovers. The two horns represent a divided mind that’s set apart from and work to oppose each other. When human reasoning is based on surface appearances, we become like beasts, and reside in the darkness of illusion. The chain loops that yoke them (5) can be easily removed; their bondage is imaginary and self-maintained. The first stage of spiritual unfoldment comes as awareness of conscious bondage to material circumstances that personify the false conception that we’re bound by material conditions and the false notion that we’re a slave to necessity as chance.

The devil has bat wings, representing the powers of darkness. He has the face of a goat and ears of a donkey, representing obstinacy and the stubbornness of materialism. One side is masculine and the other feminine, he partakes in the characteristics of both sexes. The inverted pentagram, which is the sign of man, suggests a reversal of man’s understanding of his place in the cosmos. The Elements of materialism govern him. It’s only through a lack of using our divine abilities that we keep ourselves in bondage of ignorance and materialism.

The devils hand has all fingers opened with 2 fingers paired forming the sign of Saturn in the palm of the right hand. Saturn is the planet of limitation and inertia, and therefore ignorance. This symbolizes a failure to evolve to higher levels of self-awareness and keeping ourselves bound to the wheel of karma (10). In his left hand a torch burns downward, only lighting the ground. The torch is a phallic symbol and represents the transmission of life from generation to generation. The fiery quality refers to the active force of Mars. It’s the torch of revolution based on the material interpretation of experience. It’s symbolic of the torch of anarchy and terrorism which rule by fear and ignorance.

The devil has a naval (a human product) with the symbol of Mercury just below it. He is a product of faulty observation and superficial reasoning. His feet are the claws of an eagle, representing Scorpio as the misuse of reproductive power and it’s debasement in the service of sensuality. He sits on a half-cube (symbol of reality), and only sees half of reality, knowledge, and partial truth. He perceives only that which is visible and believes in disguises and false fronts.  

The fact that’s seldom realized is that the forces which appear to be our adversaries are always ready to serve us. It’s only through trial and temptation that we get to see into our own hidden nature. Once we realize our inner potential for freedom from being determined by our material conditions, we can begin taking control of our own urges and ability to create our experiences. When we bring higher spiritual knowledge into daily practice, we put forth the effort necessary to liberate ourselves from bondage that’s purely imaginary. The idea of the devil represents “sensation that’s divorced from true understanding”. He brings renewal, because we seldom make any real effort until we experience limitation. It’s only when limitations bother us that we put forth the effort it takes to overcome them through mental use of will, and we act to remove our own chains.

This represents the material elements that bind us to ignorance by controlling our mind to make us “like” them, and we become a beast instead of a divine being that’s wholesome and pure in character. When we live out of the ignorance of our lower, unconscious self, we indulge in physical pleasure without any regard for the consequences it brings, and we bring those consequences upon ourselves as a result, destroying our life, and becoming one with others that are of the same level of consciousness. In order to cultivate higher consciousness we have to overcome our addictions and the temptation to falter in favor of physical pleasures that destroy our virtuous character. This represents “vices” that directly oppose and prevent “virtues”.

Temperance (14), which precedes this one, represents the process of changing our conscious and chemical makeup by letting go of all behaviors born out of purely physical means that takes precedence over us and literally controls us by working through our lower nature. This represents learning how to use our ability to reason, make moral decisions, and use our will in order to neutralize physical impulses, passions, and cravings. As something appeals to our weaknesses and we indulge in them, we recombine our energies with them and they determine us as a result. Whatever we give into out of ignorance or moral weaknesses, we become one with in mind, body, and spirit. All actions require us to become one with an outside force or idea, and we become the “means through which” it expresses as a reality. As we become the expression of that consciousness by becoming one with it, we’re shaped by it accordingly. We have to let go of our weaknesses and transform our addictions in order to transform our lower self to become a clean vessel morally for our Higher Self to naturally inhabit.

This represents creative energy in its most material form. Capricorn occupies the zenith, the most exalted of the signs, and is symbolized by a goat leaping with lust upon the summits of the Earth. Saturn is symbolic of self-hood and perpetuity. It’s the divine madness of spring that has already been foreseen through the meditative madness of winter. His creative energy is veiled with the symbol of the Highest Initiate crowned with a winged globe and twin serpents of Horus and Osiris. Whatever we choose to become one with we use to shape ourselves and our destiny. By learning how to find ecstasy in every phenomenon, no matter how ordinary, we transcend all material limitations.

The devil represents the dumb animal of instinct and impulsiveness. It’s the blind force of instinct that destroys reason and poisons liberty from the lower planes. We alone are responsible for the evil it causes, because it only acts through us. In order to manifest the beast it has to first be allowed to enter into and take form within us, and then be projected outward. In order to create the beast we have to first destroy the man. In Black Magic the devil is the great magical agent employed for evil purposes by a perverted will. It’s the “old serpent” of legend that is the eternal fire of earthly life, the soul of the Earth, and the living center of hell. How we create ourselves by the energies we draw in and use to create ourselves either condemns us to a hell of our own making as the reality born out of our weaknesses and addictions, or it purifies us and promotes our ascension to higher levels of consciousness.

The blind agent of Life energy represented here can be used under different leadership as an instrument for good and evil alike. It’s the minister of angels and prophets and of fairies and sorcerers. It’s the Astral Light of the material plane that has strong magnetic properties, and when evoked and utilized by “reason” are produced harmoniously, but when evoked by madness appear chaotic, disordered, and hideous. It’s the Life force that can be commanded by will and used to create within the material plane in an intelligent and precise manner, and in the opposite manner, it can control us through passions, lust and desire, and utilize our will as the means of creating through and as us.

Dr. Linda Gadbois   

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“The Power of 7” – The Birth of Christ, the New Moon, and Annular Solar Eclipse

In our modern world of excessive materialism we’ve lost the essential meaning of life as a soul. Rituals and festivals of various kinds are designed to take us deeper into the hidden meaning of things where we can tap into the spiritual powers involved. Anytime we have a unique combination of numbers and correlated celestial events, we’re being given a formula whose interpretation according to the laws and principles they represent gives us deep insights into the energies that are actively expressing to produce global events as an evolutionary form of growth that develops all life in new ways.

Just as the full moon of December was marked by a numerical code, so is the new moon on Christmas day and the solar eclipse it forms. When we interpret the symbolism involved to find the deeper meaning, we realize we’re being given a message as a form of prophecy. These celestial messages formed by star systems and heavenly bodies that work together to regulate natural cycles, provide us with insights into the invisible energies at work that are bearing direct influences on the Earth’s plane right now.

These celestial messages also provide us with a “set of instructions” on how to manage our own mental state and activities by consciously embodying these energies and doing the “inner work” involved as a means of calibrating ourselves to the flow of energy. By synchronizing ourselves to cosmic energies through conscious awareness we cooperate in a meaningful way with the events that are being initiated by them. Through a lack of awareness we remain ignorant of them and may have a tendency to work in contradiction of them while missing out on the growth opportunity they provide us with.

When we look at the “date” and time of certain events as an “encoded formula” that symbolizes the laws at work through a dynamic orchestration of celestial events that serve as metaphors for initiating corresponding terrestrial events, we tune into (intuit) a form of prophecy as a “prediction” of future realities. All “realities” are formed out of the universal Law of Cause and Effect as a dynamic relationship between complementary opposites. When we learn how to realize the laws at work in any situation we can predict the outcome of events in a fairly accurate manner. All prophecy is produced by understanding the energies that are actively expressing in any situation as a series of interactive relationships, and playing them out to form the outcome that’s the equivalent of what’s causing it. This relationship is “dynamic” because the “cause” produces an “effect” of an “equal or pronounced nature”, then the cause “reverses polarity” and the “effect” becomes the “cause” that produces another “whole series of corresponding events”. All of reality is produced as a self-perpetuating flow of energy that acts on itself to create itself. This cycle repeats infinitely as the 8th principle of “realization”. 

Sacred Sciences are formed as a “symbolic system” of correspondences that are all correlated with one another and provide the means for decoding what presents itself as an encoded formula. The Sacred Science of Gematria, Sacred Geometry, and Astrology, form a dynamic system of correspondences with the Archetypes of the Tarot, which serves as a Key for discerning the principles of the Kabala. Because Christmas (25 = 7) is symbolized by an “Archetypal figure” as the “birth of a savior”, we’ll start the interpretation with the Archetype associated with the number “7”of the Tarot, formed out of all correlating systems of thought. Just as our birth number breaks down to a numerical formula of the energies actively expressing in this lifetime as our “deeds”, we’ll handle the idea of Christmas as the “birth number” of a savior, with the year being insignificant to the equation because it’s “0”.

The numeric formula of 25 breaks down to 7 (2 + 5 = 7). 7 is represented by the Hebrew letter “Cheth”, which is symbolized by the “Chariot” or more precisely by the “Charioteer” of the Tarot. Like all numbers that are designed to represent universal principles, 7 represents the intrinsic value of “8”, which issues forth naturally from it as a “self-perpetuating” cause and effect relationship that’s continuous. Cheth means a “field enclosed by a fence”, which represents a specific location, area that’s cultivated by us, and our “territory” as the owner of our own creations. Whatever we create, we protect and defend. We “own” them. They represent our personal creations as the basis for our life experiences. It’s symbolized as an area closed off and “cultivated” by the mind/soul. It also implies shielding, safeguard, refuge, and safety. It’s symbolic of the “house” (of Beth) where the soul/mind is located in an “empty shell” as a shelter that serves as a “vehicle” (Gimel-2) that allows for psychological “dominion” within our self-created “kingdom”. A field is closed off and cultivated through “work” as our everyday “deeds” and activities.  Whatever we “pay attention to” we cultivate as a reality in our imagination and serve as a vehicle for manifesting as a reality.

The Nature of Light and Sound

The sense associated with 7 is “speech”. Speech is the function by which we “introduce limitations” as the means necessary for “defining” an idea by shaping it with attributes that give it certain characteristics.  As we shape an idea in our mental sphere (3) we create it’s “constitution” (4) as an organized field of information by “reverberating” it. Sound as the “spoken word” organizes light into a distinct pattern, and then continues to develop it through a chain of associated thoughts that imbue it with specific attributes and characteristics. As we shape an idea with certain characteristics we “develop it” in terms of how it functions and behaves as a means of applying it to our everyday life in order to create with it. All material forms are defined by their active aspects and potential for producing certain types of experiences. Form and function are always the exact equivalent of each other. Our “character” as intrinsic values that we’ve cultivated forms the basis for “all” of our actions and natural behaviors. There are no exceptions to this rule.

The mental function associated with 7 is “will” as “the spoken word” that serves to shape reality in the “imagination”. As we think (silent speech) and speak we shape and define ourselves through our reality. Words are like fences that impose limitations and collapse a wave-form of infinite potential into a particular idea as the use of our will in creating our reality. As we speak, whether internally as thought or externally as speech, we shape the meaning of our words in our imagination as a material (light) form. This material form is magnetized energetically with “sensation” and begins vibrating at the frequency of the form as an archetype and metaphor that serves to organize the light of the outer reality to be of the same thematic pattern.

Ideas formed in the imagination as visual thoughts shaped with sensory details that define it in specific terms, form a vibratory frequency as the minds (souls) ability to order and structure reality as a personal creation and “request” for a corresponding outer reality. Words organize information as a “field of speech”. Words have a preservative and protective power. The “right use of language” is the means of accurately creating with archetypal energies in a safe and intentional manner. When we extend the power of speech from words spoken outwardly to the internally spoken words of thought, we can see the importance of “right speech” in creating our self and our reality. It’s our silent thoughts that form the basis for all of our outer speech.

The Intelligence associate with Cheth is the house of influence. Words form the etheric body as the abode of inflowing cosmic powers. Human personality (body consciousness) is like a fenced in area of consciousness in which universal forces are drawn in, focused, and concentrated to form personalized reality as a direct experience. These cosmic forces flow into the personality (physical form) from the greater atmosphere beyond its boundaries. What is formed initially in “silent speech” of thought concentrates the cosmic forces and flows outward through the personality as self-expression and manifestation. All physical entities are formed internally first through the imagination as the “light body” (etheric double) that serves as both a blueprint and self-assembling mechanism that re-organizes the outer to match the inner. Whatever we think about in an intense manner forms the basis for what we “see” as our outer reality of manifestation.

As with all two-digit numbers we’re provided with a “formula” that represents the basic principles involved in producing an outcome of a specific nature. 2 = Gimel (High Priestess) where “universal memory” is drawn into the personality, forming thoughts that shape the Astral Light of the 4 Elements into imaginary realities of the same kind and type. 5 = the Mind/Soul as the Etheric element of the Mind that projects a thought-form into the subconscious mind of the personality as the means for organizing the 4 Elements into a “field of organized information” that then becomes a natural part of its outer reality. Once an idea is formed into a fundamental part of our outer reality it sets the stage for producing an “experience” that we then associate and identify with as the means of shaping ourselves “through” it and “as” it. 

5 represents the principle of “mind over matter” as the “self-assembling principle” of the mind that shapes an idea into a sensory thought-form that forms an energetic blueprint for organizing the outer light of the Astral Plane (sunlight) into the same idea. We receive ideas as thoughts from a universal source (sun-stars) that form our inner light (Moon) as a reflection and projection of solar energies. 5 is the number of our Higher Self (cosmic mind) that exists on the unformed plane of consciousness (invisible thought) in its “potential state” and is what acts to organize it into thematic ideas on the lower plane of manifestation.

When archetypal ideas as cosmic memory (2) is injected into the lower material mind by the Higher Self (5), it comes as thoughts that are adapted to the personality of the body and shaped (modified) in the imagination to produce the “etheric shell” (form) that draws in the cosmic forces associated with that idea, forming a vibratory frequency that organizes the outer reality (4) as a reflection and projection of the inner reality (3). The Mind is the “organizing principle” that’s self-assembling, self-actualizing, and self-perpetuating. Ideas form thoughts that act as a “seed” that’s planted in the fertile ground of the imagination where they’re gestated and developed (adapted and modified) into a unique possibility for constructing as an outer experience of reality.

The Sacred Marriage of the Triad and Tetrad

7 is considered the “sacred number of creation” because it represents the divine union of the Triad (Mind/Soul) with the Tetrad (physical body), which provides the hierarchal means for creating ourselves as a physical being. The triangle is the geometric shape that symbolizes the 3-fold nature of the mind and soul, and the square or cube symbolizes the 4 Elements of the material world, and when the triangle is placed on top of the square, it forms a “house” as the living temple of the divine soul. It’s symbolic of the upper 3 chakras of the mind merging with the 4 lower chakras of the body to form a coherent unit of light and sound.

7 represent the principle of both light and sound which form a “coherent field of consciousness” that functions as a singularity. As we speak, we organize light into the images of the words.  Metaphors, archetypes, and symbolic ideas are malleable patterns that can be adapted and modified in an infinite number of ways to produce correlating patterns as equivocal variations that all still work harmoniously as a waveform or holo-movement. Patterns of light (matter) only serve as “empty shells” (phantoms) that are magnetic in nature and act to “draw in” the universal intelligence of the cosmic mind which vibrates, animates, and expresses through it. A form can only serve as the means for magnetizing the energies appropriate to that form.

Whatever thoughts we consistently form as our normal way of thinking is how we “tune ourselves” to the specific cosmic energies that can express as a reality “through” and “as” that form. When we dwell in negative thoughts that cause pain and suffering, we act as a magnet for acquiring more of those same types of experiences. All “experience” is experience of our “selves” as both an inner and outer reality of the same nature. Our “inner light” comes as the absorption and reflection of “solar light”. Our thoughts are the active use of our “will to create”. As we call forth and create our outer reality, we create an experience of ourselves within and as that reality, and we form it into the cosmic memory that then serves to shape us energetically (spiritually).

As human souls of a higher nature than the animal kingdom, we are “creative beings” who create our reality through our thoughts. Whatever ideas we connect with, draw in, and dwell in continuously we literally use as the means of creating. Cosmic energies serve our Higher Self and vibrate whatever idea we form in our mind as a sensory reality that invokes a corresponding emotion. The emotion that comes as a natural response to our thinking amplifies and intensifies the frequency of the thoughts while transmitting it telepathically through the Earth’s atmosphere (field of astral light), impregnating the space around us. As it’s radiated outward as a projection of our inner reality, it acts to organize the same type of reality on a larger and more inclusive scale, providing us with the “experience” we requested through our thoughts.

We don’t “pray” or request a certain type of experience in a momentary act of concentrating on an idea for 5 minutes that often contradicts or extends outside of our normal thoughts, but exist in a constant state of prayer as the intimate connection with our Higher Self. Our body is “tuned energetically” by our mind and acts as an antenna with a two-way transmission. As we think, feel, and emote, we form our “etheric body” (8) which serve as a spatial map for organizing our entire experience of reality. Thoughts are the seeds for producing things. Whatever seeds we sow, we also harvest. Our higher power isn’t something that’s outside of us that we ask for intervention from that that will transform our reality to a better one that’s in direct opposition to our ordinary thoughts. Our higher power is something we possess internally that’s both inside and outside of us as our “mind”. Our mind as our thoughts is how we use our higher abilities to create our own reality. As we think by picturing the reality of our thoughts in a concentrative manner we calibrate ourselves to the energetic frequency of those light-forms and act to draw in corresponding complementary cosmic energies. We tend to think that the higher powers exist outside of and beyond our grasp, when in fact we “are” the higher power creating the reality of our thoughts from a dissociated state.

The Charioteer – King/Priest/Warrior

The Chariot and Charioteer represent the principle of 7 as the king/priest/warrior (3-fold nature) that forms his kingdom, and his vehicle used for protecting his kingdom. The king is pictured on/in a chariot formed out of a cube (Tetrad), with 4 pillars holding a canopy of stars overhead. His crown is comprised of 3 stars (one large and two small), he has golden hair (solar) and is wearing a breast plate (protective shield) with the emblem of a square formed into a cross (quartered), holding a scepter in one hand and a globe in the other, pointing down at the 2 sphinxes pulling his chariot, forming a triangle. The 2 sphinxes are positioned with their bodies posed away from each other with their heads turned looking at each other. One sphinx is black and the other white, representing the two pillars of the temple known as Jakin and Boaz, which support and maintain the veil of illusion (separation).

This symbolizes that we all form and rule our own kingdom by organizing the cosmic forces of the 4 Elements through our will. In the Kabala 7 is represented in the sphere of “Hod” (the emanation of Chokmah on the lower plane), and is the complementary aspect of “Netzach” on the same plane. Hod represents the intellect or self-conscious aspect (masculine) of the lower material mind, and acts to “seed” the subconscious (feminine) with an idea as an “emotional thought” that the subconscious then produces as an outer reality of the same nature, allowing for “realization” (8) of our own creation. The power of the will lies in the imagination, which is what forms the inner etheric blueprint for creating as an outer reality. The mental activities represented by the principle of will are carried out on the subconscious level of constructing reality. 

Through simple self-study you’ll realize that your thoughts and speech are predominately subconscious in nature, which means they come naturally without intention or actual awareness. Our vocabulary and how we structure our thoughts come through an unconscious process of association. All of our sentences, our style for expressing ideas, and figures of speech all take place “below” the self-conscious level, which means without our direct awareness. Our subconscious, which is the same aspect of the mind shared by all of humanity, is seeded not only by our own words, but also by the words of others that we “take in automatically” (without awareness) and form in our imagination as an experience. As we continue to think about something we develop into a well-defined reality and it serves to adjust our vibration through the emotions associated with them.

Cheth is ruled by Cancer, a cardinal water sign, where we can see the hard outer shell (house) of the crab as an enclosed area that provides safety and protection. Cancer is ruled by the Moon (Key 2), and the planet Jupiter (Key 10 as “fortune”) is exalted therein. Our fortune or “destiny” is determined and called forth as our reality through our thoughts and speech. Cancer governs the chest (a fence of bones) and stomach as our “gut instinct”. The chest (heart center) connects the upper 3 energy centers of reception, imagination, and speech, to the lower 3 centers of emotion, instinct, and reproduction. Cancer is a psychic, receptive sign that’s said to be endowed with a tenacious memory (Key 2).

Speech is not only composed of “definitions” but also embodies mental imagery and gives form to a “stream of consciousness” formed out of memory. The 7th subtle energy center of the body is the “crown” and (represented by a lotus with a 1,000 petals) acts as a “receiver and transducer” for cosmic memory where a wave or field of archetypal information is “collapsed” around a “single possibility” as a form of “natural selection”. As the wave is collapsed into a single possibility for creating it’s transformed into 2 petals as the “winged sphere” of light and sound. As it’s drawn down into the various energy centers of the body it’s adapted to the mental paradigm of the individual and modified into a unique variation as a personal creation. As it’s drawn into the 3rd eye it’s divided into polar aspects as an inner voice that forms an equivalent inner vision.

As we conceive an image in our mind that’s a “reflection” of solar energy, we continue to modify it by thinking about it and defining it with words. The Moon is a symbol of our lower nature, and does not possess a light of its own, but acts to merely reflect the light of the sun, as the means of illuminating the dark. As The well-formed idea is projected into our heart center it connects us with that same idea in everything around us (heart center is the connector, transmitter, and receiver of the material plane). It acts to form an electromagnetic field that serves as the carrier wave for the emotional state of the idea. Ideas are transmitted fluently on the material plane as emotion, where we absorb them and “reproduce” the reality they’re programmed with as an internal thought-form. The holographic principle demonstrated in the Geometric symbol of the Dyad as the Vesica Pisces or “womb of creation” (2), carries through to all levels of creation as what merges cosmic forces with ideas (3) that form reality as their offspring (4). The 7th chakra is a “receiver” for the vertical transfer of information between the higher and lower plane, and the heart chakra (4th) is what connects us to that same idea on the material plane.

3 + 4 =7 > imagination seeded with cosmic memory forms our material reality as a projection or hologram. 4 is the number of order and measure of the 4 Elements. The starry canopy over the Charioteer’s head is held up by 4 pillars divided into 2 equal parts. This signifies the Hermetic axiom, “that which is above is like that which is below”. His chariot (mobile house) is pulled by 2 sphinxes of a complementary nature formed by a human head and chest on an animal body. The division between man and animal takes place at the solar plexus (navel). The overall shape formed by the king/charioteer standing upright directly above the 2 sphinxes of a lower plane, with each hand holding an instrument that’s pointed at each sphinx, forms a triangle as the Higher Self directing and utilizing the 2 lower aspects of the animal-elemental mind to form his kingdom within which he resides and rules.

This is the same triangular configuration as the Hierophant (Key 5) which shows the Pope administering over 2 children as the “keys” to the “self” within a material form. The starry canopy over his head represents the celestial forces and their descent into the physical plane through the activity of the 4 Elements, which is the essence and substance of all material manifestation. The energies of constellations as star-systems produce  influences that serve to transforms material manifestation through the injection of subtle energies. These “ideas” are received by the subconscious of those whose mind are properly tuned, and form a unique variation in each individual through a natural process of adaptation (5), forming specialized roles in acting out the same overall idea as a group forming a joint experience of reality. The mind as the Higher Self is the principle of conception and gestation that births reality out of organized fields of light. 7 is referred to in Sacred Geometry as the “enchanted virgin” because it has no exact measurement and each time its drawn or constructed forms a variation while still holding true to the same basic shape. For this reason, 7 is also associated with the principle of creativity and self-expression.

25 represent the relationship that exists between 2 and 5 in forming the outcome of 7. The principle represented by 2 is cosmic memory as archetypes that are conceived, formed, and birthed through the Vesica Pisces of the mind. The triad is formed internally as the etheric-elemental hologram that serves as a spatial blueprint for constructing a corresponding outer reality. As we receive an electrical impulse (vibration as a pattern) we form it in our mind as a gaseous light-form that acts to draw in and gives rise to sensation of a fluid-emotional nature, that’s concentrated and solidified into a material reality of an equivalent nature. Creation comes as an injection of cosmic energies into the subconscious plane of the Earth and acts to transform and evolve our reality as a global consciousness. It represents the “Higher Will” creating through the 2 lower aspects of the animal mind.

New Moon and Solar Eclipse

Just as we had the full moon marked by 12/12 twice, we have Christmas 14 (5) days later as the New Moon in Capricorn. During a new moon the astral forces of the Earth are at a minimal and we’re able to transcend or resist their magnetic attraction long enough to “conceive” of a higher, celestial force. The womb is empty and ripe for conception of a new seed. We “begin“ all new creations during a new moon. All new goals are set in place and initiated during the “darkest night” of the month and year. When the New Moon comes at the winter solstice it symbolizes the “darkest night of the year” when a “savior is born”. This idea is represented by the “dark night of the soul”, where the pattern of an old manifestation disintegrates and our life seems to completely fall apart, making us ripe for conceiving a whole new idea that will take its place.

This marks the moment of true transformation as a form of “rebirth” that’s undertaken through conscious use of will and in a decisive and deliberate manner. This signifies that the energies represented by 12/12 will act as a seed for the gestation and birth of new ideas. This New Moon is also going to be an annular solar eclipse, which means the Moon is the furthest away from the Earth, and will act to block out the light of the sun for a short period of time. The exact time of the New Moon will be 12:14 am on the 26th, which indicates both the dissolution of a whole cycle (12) and the initiation of a new one that will serve to change the vibration (14) of the collective unconscious of humanity. This eclipse and the New Moon happen in Capricorn, which has the energies of growth, abundance, and good luck that comes from detaching from the material addictions that keep us in chains. So it indicates a “blessing in disguise” that initially seems traumatic but will ultimately produce positive change.

The Magical Key of 7 – Putting it all Together

This indicates an ideal time to embody new qualities and set new goals for your life that will be infused with very positive energies. 7 represents the active use of our will to transform ourselves into a purified state of a higher nature. The cube of the chariot represents the Philosopher’s Stone as a throne and vehicle for creating by seeding our own mind with ideas that are turned into ideals. We can only act to draw in and integrate energies that resonate with our state of mind. The breastplate with the triangle engraved on it is the knowledge of Divine Things which renders the wearer invulnerable to human assaults. We’re given a formula for transformation from a lower state of unconscious creation to a higher one through what’s called the 7 deadly sins and 7 divine virtues, which are actually polar opposites of each other, and correspond to the 7 planets which are the archetypal energies that make up the human psyche. These 7 sins (errors) and virtues operate according to the Laws of Polarity (2) as opposite aspects of the same idea separated by a process of graduation from one extreme to another.

The 7 planetary aspects of complementary forces that can be used as the means of transformation from one state to another are represented as: Sun = faith > pride; Moon = hope > avarice; Venus = charity > luxury; Mars = Strength as superior to wrath; Mercury = prudence which is hostile to idleness; Saturn = temperance opposed to gluttony; Jupiter = justice opposed to envy. These are the prophetic keys of the 7 spirits where humanity subsists under the laws of growth and development that’s undertaken through active use of our higher capacities of self-realization, choice, and active use of will in order to manifest the reality of our decisions. The Kabalistic book of the Apocalypse is sealed with “7 seals” each of which represent a “church” as the “stars” of the etheric body which are regulated by the higher mind. These correlate with the keys of the ternary (3), quaternary (4), septenary (7), and duodenary (12), and are utilized through active application of the 7 Hermetic Principles. 7 is decisive in all things. If we haven’t been able to manifest a desired experience it’s because we haven’t really made the decision to do so, and are still negotiating it through conflicting desires and ideas.

7 represents the equal unity of the first and last principle as the alliance between the spoken word and manifestation of the reality indicated by the words. The alliance between the triad and tetrad is represented by the 4 letter name of God as the Tetragrammaton (4 pillars of the temple). 7 is the very nature of reality as the substance of the mind creating it through thought and speech. There are 7 colors of the prism, 7 notes in a musical scale, 7 planets, 7 chords of a lyre, 7 primary human emotions, 7 metals of alchemy, and 7 spirits of Cosmic Consciousness, all of which form a dynamic series of correspondences as a chain-of-association that connects them all in principle. 7 is the active use of will that brings realization as a personal creation. We’re being called upon to learn how to use our own will as the means for transforming ourselves from a lower to higher state of consciousness by managing our lower mind and determining what ideas we allow into our mind to gestate and form our soul’s destiny, and which ones we censor and keep out.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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Self-Mastery: Learning how to not be affected by others

Many of us spend our whole life a slave to the attitude, behaviors, and opinions of other people. We’re in a constant form of reaction from one moment to the next, beings jerked around like a puppet on strings, often crushed by a rude comment. If someone is hateful or sarcastic in some way towards us, it can throw us into a tailspin that can last for days, weeks, or even months. Someone with a bad attitude that’s also aggressive can outright terrify us, especially with all the mass shootings being staged and publicized around the world. Most people spend their entire life being shaped and determined by other people and the rules of society, usually without any direct awareness of how it’s happening or the reason why. Many people have completely lost touch with their soul and their real power to create in their life, and don’t even realize it.

One of the most basic forms of empowerment comes from a fundamental understanding of psychology and what it is that drives people’s behaviors. By coming to understand what drives other people’s behaviors, we can gain a better understanding of our own behavior in response to them. We’re all only capable of “bringing out in others” more of what’s “like us”. Whatever qualities we embody and express outwardly act to stimulate and bring out those same qualities in others as a natural response to us. Energetically, we’re always vibrating the same state of mind in everyone we interact with. We’re always in the process of mentally and emotionally influencing others to become more like us by how we perceive them and treat them accordingly.

Anyone who has been beat down and criticized as a child, either grows up to beat others down with the same type of criticism and mental attitude, or they remain super sensitive to anyone who has an attitude of criticizing them. The act of criticizing produces an equal and complementary reaction. The effect produced is always an expression of what caused it. There are no exceptions to this rule. The confusion tends to come when we only look at one side of the equation, instead of recognizing that everything operates as a whole pattern. All patterns form as a “dynamic” that’s holistic in nature and played out unconsciously through our basic perception, attitude, conditioned tendencies, and automatic behaviors.

Most people when being criticized or dealing with a sarcastic or mean person, focus almost exclusively on the person they perceive as doing it “to them”, rather than focusing on what’s happening inside of them as their own reaction. All energy, which is what emotional expression is, exists in a fundamental state of polarity as complementary opposites that move in-sync with each other. Anger, for example, provokes either and equal or greater response of anger, which escalates and intensifies it, or it causes a fearful response that backs down and becomes submissive. Any emotional response, whether sympathetic or antipathetic, nurtures and sustains the anger/emotion because both people are cooperating with each other in co-creating a joint reality out of the “active force” of anger. Any “reaction”, which comes in an immediate and automatic fashion that matches the energy being projected, is a basic form of control. Anytime we’re reacting, we’re being controlled by whatever it is we’re reacting to. The easiest way there is to control someone is through their emotions and the sensationalized realities they create internally.

 Every human being develops their own “mental paradigm” based on their formative conditioning. All of our initial conditioning takes place while we’re in a primarily unconscious state, and acts to literally “program” our subconscious as the “model” of reality we form from it. All of our values, beliefs, preferences, and initial (developmental) memories are instilled in us as kids through our family dynamics. As we become adults our basic personality and way of perceiving others and the world around us has been firmly established and we simply continue to live out of the same perceptions, tendencies, and relationship dynamics that we were a part of as kids. We continue to view the world and others the same way we were taught. In psychology we say that “we become one of our parents, and we marry the other one”. Whatever type of relationships was modeled for us as kids and that we played an active role in, becomes the same type of relationships we enter into and maintain romantically, socially, and professionally. We play out the same ideas over and over with different people and situations.

These dynamics become the themes that serve as a metaphor for our life. They usually involve ideas around our self-esteem (image of ourselves), such as not being good enough, not being worthy, not loved or wanted, being stupid, bad, ugly, and so on, which is why they ultimately serve as self-fulfilling prophecies that we wrap our identify around as adults. We “become” whatever we’ve been programmed psychologically to become by what we were told, heard being said about us, and how we were treated by those we cared about the most. These life themes become what we refer to psychologically as “core beliefs” that are like the nucleus of our mental model and spawn all of our other beliefs as being correlated to the same basic idea.

Dissecting Our Experience

In order to really grasp the significance of this idea, let’s take a moment and examine how it is that we create our experiences. While we tend to think that others are capable of doing something “to us”, when we examine the process closely, we can realize that we’re actually the one doing it to ourselves. We are in fact the sole creator of all our “experiences”. This idea is often confused as being our “reality” in the objective sense of what happens outside of us, when in fact how we experience what happens to us is an internal process that we perform and conduct “on” ourselves using our mind. Creating our experiences comes initially as an “unconscious process”, which means we do it naturally without any “direct awareness” of the fact that we’re actually the one doing it to ourselves. Due to the naturalness of the process, it usually completely eludes us. Yet in order to gain control over our own natural and unconscious processes, we have to form an understanding of them as a mental concept. So let’s turn our full attention inward and become aware of how we form our reactions to others.

When someone says or does something that’s offensive, hurtful, sarcastic, or mean, something that’s designed to get a rise out of us and place us in their control, we experience it as an intense internal stimulus that comes as an “emotional charge”. Once you experience the emotional stimulus, you instantly associate it to a memory where the same type of emotion and behavior was involved. Through association to a past event of the same kind, the same emotion and state are awakened and made active in you, bringing it out in you as a natural reaction. Your mind interprets “this” to mean the same thing as “that”, and you react in the present with the same emotional behavior as the past. We then act out the same behaviors and dynamics, and begin telling ourselves the same type of story about what it means about them and us in relation to them.

The story we tell ourselves as our thoughts and internal dialogue follow the same theme as our memory of the past. Emotions are always associated to memories we formed while in the same emotional state. Emotions are what drive and produce all of our natural and automatic behaviors. We’re most naturally and easily made to behave in certain ways through our emotions. Emotional memories give our subconscious the “pattern” it needs for producing automatic realities and behaviors that don’t require any thought, appraisal or decisions.

When we live out of our emotions we live out of the memories and conditioning of our past and continue to create more of the same type of experiences. We repeat the same patterns with the same type of people and relive the same type of experiences in new ways over and over. As we create our experiences, we simultaneously identify with them, and shape ourselves “through” our experiences. We once again replay the broken and worn out record that says we’re not good enough, worthless, stupid, not wanted, loved, blah, blah, blah, and due to the fact that we produce an “experience of ourselves” out of the emotional charge, it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.

From a purely psychological perspective, we only “react” to and feel hurt or threatened by those who are conditioned to the same type of dynamics as we are, and therefore naturally play the role necessary for acting it out. Whenever we’re triggered by someone’s behavior towards us, it’s actually providing us with a mirror to learn how to see things in ourselves that we’re normally not fully aware of. It’s showing us where we’re still living out of the illusions and pain of the past that we never came to terms with, identified accurately, or put to rest. It’s still alive and active within us because we haven’t gained any real awareness around it that brought self-realization. Due to the fact that we still maintain a belief around it as being true, we continue to faithfully act it out over and over with the right people.

A person’s attitude and behaviors stem from their mental paradigm and psychological complexes, and in reality, have nothing to do with us. When someone calls us stupid, it doesn’t mean that we are in fact stupid, but shows us that they were made to feel stupid as a kid growing up, and are now compensating by trying to make others feel stupid in order to somehow elevate themselves above them. The lower they make someone else, the higher they become in comparison. They’re unconscious beings who are used to verbally attacking others in the same way they were verbally abused. Their opinion, perception, attitude and conduct only serves to “reveal” who “they are” and says nothing meaningful about us . . . unless, of course, we let it.

When we take what others say and do personally by internalizing it, we actually believe what they’re saying and accept it as being true about us, especially if we grew up being called the same names. The reason we “react emotionally” is because we’re used to it and we’ve been treated that way in the past. When we react by being hurt or offended, we’re actually agreeing with them and may secretly feel it’s somehow true. That’s what a reaction is. We know how to play a role in the reality they’re creating, and so we cooperate by participating in making it real. For example, if you know you’re not stupid or dumb, and someone calls you that, it has no effect on you in the most basic sense; outside of the fact that you may think they’re being rude. Nothing gets stimulated internally and there are no memories of the same type that are necessary to produce and automatic and immediate reaction. Anytime we react to being called a name it’s because deep down inside we think it may be true.

Self-Observation and Realization

In order to understand this psychological process, simply observe your own reactions from a neutral and unbiased standpoint. Start by finding a place and time where you can have privacy, and sit calmly and fully relax. Then recall an event where you felt hurt or upset by something someone said or did to you, and reflect on it in slow motion. Slow it down and review it step by step. Recall what was said or done, how it was said or done, what attitude, emotions, and behaviors were involved, and what it was regarding. Then turn all of your attention inward and focus exclusively on your own internal process.

Recall the emotional charge as it entered your body, and notice where in your body it lodged and stimulated you. Notice the nature of the stimulus by describing it in sensory terms. Was it sharp and stabbing, did it give you a sinking feeling, or did it cause you to feel afraid or scared? Notice what emotion was activated in you, and while refraining from going into a reaction again or telling yourself a story about it that justifies your right to react the way you did, just notice and witness what you’re thought process was and what it seemed to be about.

Allow yourself to notice what it brought up for you. What memory of the past started playing out in the background of your mind. What is it that you begin telling yourself about what it “means”? Then allow a natural chain-of-association to form as any other related or similar memories or scenario’s that it acted to prompt. Notice and become aware of anything that arises in relation to this event. Resist the tendency to repress it in any way, explain it away, or justify your right to be hurt or upset, and just observe your own internal process from a neutral and unbiased perspective. Then allow yourself to realize that you’re actually the one “creating” the state of being hurt or upset. No one is thinking your thoughts or feeling your feelings for you. You’re actually the one “doing it” to yourself by how you’re using your mind and body. It may feel as if you can’t help it (which is what unconscious means), but just notice and watch what’s going on inside of you.

Once you gain true self-awareness around what’s happening and why, and you bring what’s happening unconsciously into conscious awareness, this awareness alone neutralizes its effect. At the same time, you can become aware of what it is in you or about you that you need to heal and transform. All true healing is psychological in nature, and comes only by shedding light on the hidden aspects of your own psyche. We naturally act to heal ourselves by becoming aware of the patterns as memories we incurred as children that are continuing to act out in our life by forming all of our natural perceptions and reactive behaviors. Through awareness of the fact that we’re the one creating the reality of our memories, we dissolve them, and they no longer play out in an automatic fashion. We can be around the same person doing the same thing, and it no longer bothers us. We perceive it in a matter of fact way and no longer engage with them in co-creating that reality for ourselves.

As a general practice, if you do this process of self-reflection anytime you’re being triggered into a reaction of some kind, it’ll help you to become self-aware and resume conscious control of yourself and what it is you’re acting to create. You can begin healing yourself and taking back your power to create in a more aware and responsible manner. As you begin neutralizing your emotional reactions to others and the events of your life, you take back control of your own life. As you start remaining calm and clear headed in relation to others, you can begin developing skill in using your mind and imagination in a more deliberate and purposeful way. As you begin creating from a conscious and self-aware state, you take over the process of facilitating your own growth and development. You take back and begin utilizing your soul’s ability to create yourself from a fully awake and aware state and in whatever way you want and decide to.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

“13” – The Principle of Death, Regeneration, and Birth

There’s probably no number or idea that has been consistently misinterpreted to instill fear as a misunderstanding of the principle involved than this one. Yet by examining the occult meaning of this number we can gain a new understanding of the universal law it represents as the means of liberation for the human soul. The principle of death is called “Nun” and represents “motion” and its primary function is to walk, travel, depart, pass away, whirl, and to sail away or travel through water. The process of the soul’s transition at death is often depicted as traveling on a boat through water moving from one shore to another.

Movement produces life giving change and is the means for transformation as modifications that produce variations as a growth process. It’s represented by the symbol of the “fish” as the “Vesica Piscis” or “womb of the universe” out of which all things are born, and by the serpent, which is both the redeemer and the messiah. The fish and serpent (ligand and yoni) symbols are paramount to the doctrines of resurrection and reincarnation. Christ was represented by the symbol of the fish. Death is also symbolized by the sideways 8, the sign of infinity, and represents the “twin phases of life” as cyclical elastic movement between higher and lower planes. Only through death of the old can we be reborn in a higher form.

Sacred Geometry and the Principles of the Tarot

 All numbers provide us with a form of code as the laws involved in any process as a formula for how to work with it consciously. 1 + 3 = 4, as we withdraw attention (key 1) from an idea, it “frees up” the energy being used to give it life, making it available for directing into something else. As we direct the free energy as our attention into something else and develop it internally in our imagination (Key 3), we give life to the new idea and a form of transformation takes place. When we change our thoughts and what we give our energy to, we change what manifests as a result (Key 4). When we change the groundwork out of which we build our reality, the reality itself changes as a direct correspondence.

13 = “regenerative power” as fertility, fecundity, and productiveness that sprouts and grows new ideas as both internal and external realities. When we act to change a “cause” (mental awareness) we change the “effect” in exact proportion and equal measure. Whatever the nature of our most intimate thoughts always produce an equivalent outer reality. As we concentrate on an idea we bring it to life in our imagination and develop it into a detail scenario by shaping and defining it with specific attributes and qualities. As we develop ideas in our imagination by continuing to think about them we shape them into “internal representations” that serve as a metaphorical template that we look through in order to perceive the same type of ideas in our outer environment.

When we remove our attention from an idea and no longer act to give it life inside of us, it passes from our awareness freeing up our attention to be directed into something new. As we infuse a new idea with that same energy we adapt it to our current model to produce a new thought that gestates in our imagination until we eventually birth it as a new experience of reality. This principle is represented by a “swirling motion” (vibration) as a wheel or circular movement that symbolizes the life-cycle of an idea. Once an idea is manifest and its expression exhausted, a cycle is complete, and it lays the groundwork necessary for a new one to emerge in its place as a growth process of continuous transformation and regeneration.

13 is represented by the water element and is oriented in the south-west direction (of Metatron’s cube), and is often symbolized as a river and a boat sailing on the river as a means of crossing over from one side to the other. Water is symbolic of the “Mother substance” of life and is the ultimate symbol of transformation. It’s the Astral Light of the formative plane that’s elastic and fluid-like and is what shapes the etheric body as the blueprint for all living forms. Water rises from the sea (universal source) to become clouds that move across the landscape descending as rain, forming lakes and rivers that then flow back to the sea from whence it came. Life is a continuous process of transformation from one state to another, where we expand and express, then retract and process, then repeat the process indefinitely.

13 is associated with the zodiac sign of Scorpio, which is a water sign, and is exalted in Uranus (higher Soul), and governs the sex organs associated with reproduction and regeneration, and is connected with the 8th house of death. Scorpio is symbolic of transformation as 3 phases or states that form 1 evolutionary cycle. These 3 phases of development are represented by a scorpion while in its lowest phase of development, a serpent in its middle phase, and the eagle in its highest phase. 13 comes as the completion of 11 (karma), the fulfillment of 12 (self-sacrifice of initiation), and the undulation of 14 (creating a new vibration). The serpent represents the male energy, and the fish represents the yoni as the womb through which we give birth.

The mode of intelligence represented by 13 is “imaginative intelligence” (3) and reveals that all causation is mental in nature (1), and is birthed, transformed, and evolved into new forms through the faculty of the imagination (Key 3) to produce an equivalent physical manifestation (Key 4) as its offspring. All change comes by evolving ideas in the imagination to form new variations, or by birthing new ideas in place of old ones. We change ourselves by changing the thoughts and memories we use as the means of shaping ourselves. All personal change comes as a change in mental imagery. If you change the mental image the external form will change accordingly.

When the forces of change are misunderstood by the very mind that’s designed to direct them, they tend to cause fear. These forces of Nature are connected with reproduction and by right use of the imagination may be tamed and transformed so they can be utilized for the prolongation of life. Through understanding and correct use of the laws involved we can consciously direct the forces of change in overcoming death. In order for the correct understanding to be achieved, fear of death and dying must be overcome through right knowledge and the proper interpretation of physical dissolution. It’s not the soul that dies with the body, but only the identity formed in association with the personality of the body. The etheric body used to construct and operate the physical body of the personality dies with the body, while the soul ascends to a parallel plane. The human soul is in a constant state of growth and development as a means of self-creation and considers the confinement of a mundane life within an animal body to be true death. When the body dies the soul that inhabits it and gives it life is set free.

The skeleton is the image associated with 13 and is considered the physical organ of the soul’s essence (marrow). The skeleton of the body is necessary for movement and change from one place to another and transformation. It’s the framework that supports the whole body of physical existence. The soul’s essence, so to speak, resides in the bone marrow and is what produces the blood cells that nourish all other organs and systems of the body. Our blood chemistry is formed as an expression of our soul’s mental state, perceptions, and memory. As we create experiences and form reactions to our own thoughts, we’re constantly transforming the chemistry of our body to be of the same nature. What we consider the “veil” or mask that lies between life and death is perpetuated through change, transformation, and the soul’s passage from lower to higher planes as an continuous flow of consciousness.

The word “Nun” has growth and development for its basic meaning, symbolizing perpetuity as a continuous evolutionary process. In Biblical texts, Joshua was the son of Nun, and the great hero that Jesus was named after. Jesus was known as having 12 disciples (archetypes of zodiac) and was the 13th as the highest level of mastery that integrated them all in a harmonious state of self-perfection. In the 49th (4+9=13) chapter of Genesis (genes of Isis), Jacob is referred to as the “blessing” and described as the fruitful bough by the well whose branches run over the wall. It takes 49 days for the pineal gland (seat of the soul) to fully develop in the fetus, which governs the sexual organs of regeneration and is the means for accessing the “well of divine knowledge” of the higher dimensions from which the soul originates. It takes at least 49 days for the soul to be reborn in another body. In the Tibetan Book of the Dead, the transition through the “death phase” of life takes 49 days to complete.

The number 7 represents a complete unit of light as well as a complete cycle necessary (7 x 7 = 49 = 13 = 4) as the means of transmigrating into a new physical body. The entire cosmic order that’s written in the stars has liberation as its basis. It always tends towards freedom of the soul from the confinement of a single personality. The most common ideal shared by all humans as a basic motivation is freedom. As we adopt an “ideal” it becomes the object of our worship and we strive to become it. Jesus represented the “ideal man” and demonstrated the path of liberation as purifying and perfecting ourselves by employing virtuous qualities as the means of creating our self. All universal wisdom reveals that the entire cosmic order is designed as a dynamic process of creative freedom. Those who develop themselves to be virtuous in nature work to liberate their own soul while also serving the greater good of all mankind. As our soul ascends to higher dimensions by way of our deeds we blaze the pathway for others to follow.

There isn’t any force in the universe that’s hostile towards man or that acts to produce insurmountable obstacles to our freedom. All universal laws, when properly understood, provide the intelligence necessary for liberating ourselves from the ignorance of our own conditioning. Fear inhibits our ability to understand and causes us to imprison our soul in illusions of our own making. We only truly love what we understand, and understanding casts out all fear. It’s only through love that all higher knowledge is revealed to us. Through a deeper understanding of the law of death, comes freedom from the fear of death. Death is what allows the passing away of old ideas allowing new ones to be born in their place, and is the instrument of growth and development as a continuous evolutionary process of becoming our highest potential.

Psychological Application

Psychologically the emphasis is on the will and our ability to choose what we focus on and dwell in mentally and emotionally. Whatever we imagine in vivid sensory detail and concentrate on we impregnate ourselves with. As we change the ideas we use to shape and define ourselves, our old conception dies allowing us to form a new one in its place, and we grow ourselves accordingly. As our body constantly undergoes a natural process of death and regeneration, we’re programming our new cells with our thoughts and perceptions. Every few years we have a completely new body. Even our skeleton completely regenerates every 7 years. With the passing away of old cells a new generation of cells are formed to take their place. In the nucleus of every cell is implanted a subconscious response to your new patterns that provide the impulse to realize a new thought in the body’s structure and how it functions. Any cells that don’t die naturally and continue to grow and multiply instead, becomes a cancer that eventually kills the whole system. Death is a necessary part of life.

Through the realization of Key 12 (the Initiate) as surrendering your lower self to a higher ideal, your personality dies and a complete transformation takes place. In reality we die daily and are constantly deciding, although usually without awareness, what is born in its place. As we go to sleep every night we die to the day that’s ending and are resurrected every morning to begin a new day. Through the natural process of cell death, all of our old motives, petty ambitions, foolish opinions and prejudices gradually die out and their memory eliminated in the normal course of physical repair and rejuvenation. Little by little through a gradual process of transformation there’s a complete adjustment of one’s personal conceptions and the values we use to give life its meaning.

As we change our perspective (Key 12) from a personal one to a more universal one, the change can be so drastic that mystics the world over have come to refer to it as the “death of the self”. It’s by death and regeneration of the body cells that patterns created in the imagination become fixed in personal consciousness. Whatever consciousness we cultivate by way of imagined thoughts are literally embedded in our flesh. Our soul’s consciousness determines our health and nature of our physical existence. We know scientifically that our genes are programmed by our perceptions and our physical world is the manifestation of our soul’s consciousness. The key to creating within the material world lies in our ability to program our own subconscious mind.

Our subconscious is the unified mind that we share with all of humanity and the natural world. Our subconscious is constantly influencing the subconscious everyone and everything around us. As we telepathically influence the mind of everyone around us, they in turn act to program their own DNA so that everything forms a unified reality in a consistent and harmonious manner.  Memory as patterns of information imprinted in the astral light of the collective unconscious is what forms all physical structures and natural behaviors. By reforming our memory, we reform our mental and physical structure in a corresponding manner. Whatever we sow, we also reap. We experience every part and perspective of a much larger group dynamic. Every life time we play a different role in the same idea and develop ourselves accordingly. Death is the reaper where we turn the tables and experience life from a new perspective.

Interpreting the Numbers

In Sacred Geometry, which is the main mathematical system of the sacred sciences, all ideas formed as a well-defined sensory reality in the imagination produce an equivalent (and opposite) material manifestation. All numbers are a kind of code as a formula of the laws operating in a situation that provide us with the means for being able to work with it consciously. The formula is the intuitive basis for understanding the operation and process of creation that’s involved. We can only utilize intelligently what we understand practically. All conscious creation comes through practical use of universal laws.

1 + 3 = 4 – This code shows us the primary laws involved that are necessary for us to utilize in order to create in a conscious and intentional manner. 1 = Monad as the “mind” exists as a mental paradigm and has the ability to select an complementary idea that it then projects into the imagination of the subconscious where it’s concentrated on and developed into a coherent physical form. 3 = Triad as the imagination, which is the faculty of the mind used to develop an idea inwardly as a thought that becomes the etheric (shaped out of light-essence) template for projecting outwardly to form a corresponding physical manifestation. 4 = Tetrad, the number that represents material reality is produced as a “reflection” of the internal idea that becomes the “lens” through which we perceive that same idea as an outer reality. Both the inner and outer material world is the manifestation of the soul’s consciousness on multiple scales and planes simultaneously.

The same process that’s used to reshape reality as a correspondence to existing memory is also used to transform it. All memory is created by imagining a situation internally as a representation (personal interpretation) of an event, which becomes a kind of metaphorical theme that’s then replayed in the imagination over and over as a primary form of programming ourselves to consistently produce more realities of the same nature. All memory that’s continuously focused on and relived in the mind’s eye forms the perceptual lens that we use as the means of interpreting (organizing) all current events to be of the same nature and meaning as past events.

We use memory as the means of creating our self and our reality to be of the same metaphorical pattern. We transform our self and our life by working directly on our memories to adjust them by introducing new information that alters their pattern into a new configuration for producing a new version of reality as an experience. As we change our perspective our perception of reality changes accordingly. In order to grow and transform ourselves, we have to give up our story about things formed by continuing to live in the past and instead work creatively to form a new one. As we begin telling a new story we change our self as the author and main character of our own story and embody new qualities that form a new image of our self and a new way of life results. It’s only by mastering death that we learn how to truly live and create.

Death is a transformation of the soul that moves from one idea to another, as well as from one plane to another. If we fail to let ideas die in order to create something new in its place, we fail to grow. As we fail to grow we fail to thrive and it causes death for the soul. Change is necessary for growth, just as death of the cells is necessary for regeneration of new cells as a means of living. Death is the foundation of life which exists in a constant movement of birthing, maturing and transforming ideas as the means of creating new experiences of reality as a natural process of growth and development into higher states of being. Fear of death comes when we mistake our soul for being the temporary manifestation of the body instead of the consciousness that’s causing and producing it.

As we surrender the lower self and personality of the body to be a vehicle and instrument of the higher soul (12), we allow the old image of ourselves to die, and form a new one as an “ideal” in its place. We form an idea about ourselves that require us to strive and stretch in order to become it. As we transform our identity by reorienting ourselves to a new perspective of a higher nature, we alter the pattern being used and alter our vibratory frequency as a result (14). By changing the internal pattern and vibrating a new frequency, we change the outer world of appearances to become a correspondence to the new internal representation being used to experience it, and we reprogram the new cells of our body being generated to express in a new way. The mind always acts to shape the body to be a direct reflection and expression of it.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Understanding the Psychological Basis of our Spiritual Quest

       One of the most fundamental truths that we need to honestly comprehend in order to learn how to consciously create our self and our life, is in realizing the true relationship between the mind and body. While there’s a fundamental misconception that the body somehow “gives rise to” the mind, partially due to the fact that there are three basic aspects of the mind and soul, one of which is oriented to what we call “body consciousness” as our subconscious, the fact is the mind is what produces and maintains the life of the body. The body, including the brain and heart, and all “matter” for that fact, is comprised of light (photons) that’s organized into a physical form producing a “house or temple” for the mind as the soul to inhabit and use in order to express, create, and evolve itself to higher and lower levels of consciousness. Matter as the body is passive and receptive in nature, and acts to draw in and bond with the energetic essence of the mind through resonance.

       The mind, like the soul (which is synonymous) isn’t a fixed form like the body it inhabits, but is a living, breathing field of energy that’s constantly evolving and reformulating itself by absorbing and integrating energy of a similar nature to it from the atmosphere around it and from parallel planes of both a higher and lower nature. The mind sets the vibratory frequency of the body, which acts as a tuner, receiver, transducer, and transmitter of energy as knowledge and ideas of various sorts. We’re designed to “receive knowledge” based on what quality as a state of mind we embody and become. We tune into and merge with planes of knowledge through resonance by becoming “like” the qualities as consciousness of that plane.

       Our state of mind is something that we have the ability to regulate and determine by learning how to use the different aspects of our mind to regulate other aspects. Our mind works “on itself” to produce the experience of itself as a whole reality. The subconscious of the body doesn’t have the ability to become self-aware and gain intuitive realizations about itself, then actively decide what state it’s going to produce in order to act as a conduit for specific and selected types of knowledge, but simply acts instead as a passive receiver and vehicle for the higher, conscious aspect of the mind. It will readily absorb, become one with, and actualize as a reality whatever “idea” is acting to “impregnate it”. This aspect of the mind acts as a womb for suggestion given to it by an active (willful) mind, and produces the reality of the suggestion as an “experience” of it. It creates the idea first as an inner representation or imaginary reality that then becomes the metaphorical template as an organizing mechanism for producing as an outer reality of the same nature.

      When we remain unaware of how we’re programming ourselves or allowing ourselves to be programmed by others, we create ourselves in a random and haphazard way, usually without any real awareness of what we’re doing and how we’re doing it. This is why this aspect of the mind is referred to as “unconscious”. It lacks awareness in the most basic sense of the idea, and most importantly and awareness of its true nature as a creative, self-determining being. This is the aspect of the mind we share with the animal kingdom that’s driven purely by instinct as emotionally motivated behavior born out of conditioning and whatever we’ve been “trained” to as children. When we live out of emotions and the imaginary dramas they produce, we use our creative power to create ourselves according to the will and illusions of others. As long as we remain unconscious of our own power to create, we live in a constant reactive state where we act to “absorb and assimilate” all the emotions of others being transmitted in near proximity of us without any resistance or apparent ability to redirect them.

The Relationship between Thought and Emotion

       All of life exists as a dynamic series of intimate relationships that work together to “create realities” as varying planes of existence unified into a coherent idea. Thought and emotions are complementary opposites that play off each other in order to produce an experience of reality as a coherent and cohesive idea. They both exist as a part of what we call the astral plane of formation, which, like all parallel planes operate through a form of hierarchy as an up and down, back and forth, in and out movement. In the astral plane (atmosphere of star (sun) light), which precedes the material plane and serves as a kind of spatial map for organizing the material matrix, we have upper and lower regions as a range of vibration. The upper can be viewed as thought which forms light into shapes and scenarios, and the lower is comprised of emotion which is the formative and motivational force of thought.

      Thought as “form” provides the empty shell as a kind of metaphor that spirit inhabits, and emotions determine the behaviors the thought-form takes on. When we’re oriented from the higher regions descending into the lower, thought is causal in nature and acts to naturally invoke its complementary emotion, using it to create in a precise and deliberate manner. When oriented from the lower region of emotion ascending upward, the emotion gives rise to and determines the nature of thoughts that are associated with it. One is always married to the other as a means of creating a singular experience of reality. When we allow emotions to dominate us, they control our thoughts and run our imagination, rendering our higher nature a servant to our lower, unconscious nature. When reversed, we control and determine our thoughts and regulate our emotional state, rendering it a servant to our higher, conscious, and creative nature.

       This is why cleansing ourselves of all negativity and purifying our mind and soul are a fundamental part of all spiritual and creative development. Whatever “state” we cultivate and maintain determines what plane of knowledge we tune ourselves to and experience as our perception of reality. A negative, lower vibration of pain and destruction (hate, anger, vindictiveness, jealousy, sadness, etc.) keeps us imprisoned in that reality, which we ourselves are acting to create. All qualities have whole planes of knowledge associated with them. Anger tunes us into the knowledge of that plane, where we act to propagate and multiply anger by creating consistent experiences that express and feed our anger.

       Whatever quality and emotional state we embody and allow to take hold within us (whether unconsciously or with awareness), we become in spirit (mind), and we “exist” on that level of reality while continuously acting “on ourselves” to produce more of those type of experiences. As we produce consistent types of experiences they become our memories and build up through an accumulative process, and become our soul’s constitution as the blueprint we use for creating ourselves and more realities of the same nature. We become the channel for expressing anger by becoming it in mind and body, condemning ourselves to a life of constant pain and suffering. When we do this to ourselves we live in our lower, unconscious, and unaware mind as we’re being created by others and our own reaction to imaginary illusions about ourselves and others.

      Anytime we’re reacting (emotionally) we’re lending our will to be created by whatever is causing the reaction, and creating ourselves “as” our lower nature. As we take on the emotions of others that act to awaken and feed those same emotions in us, we act on ourselves in an aware manner to tune our mind to produce realities that express the emotion and “give us more of it”. Whatever we become one with in mind and body we tune and bond ourselves too energetically. All “states of mind” are associated with spheres of knowledge that act naturally to produce the reality of that state. In order to change our reality and the nature of our experiences, we need to change our state of mind as a “quality of consciousness”. This requires self-awareness, consciously making new decisions, and using our will to discipline ourselves to a new way of being.

Observing our own Mind and Tendencies

         As human beings, we employ emotions as the means of creating without realizing the consequences we draw upon ourselves. Heaven and hell aren’t “places” in terms of how we tend to think about them; they’re “states of mind” as the reality we create out of that state. This is very easy to realize by simply observing the difference between your perception, how you feel, and how you interpret things to create your experience of them while in an angry or resentful state as opposed to an inspired or loving state. How we perceive and experience the same event or situation is completely different based on what mood we’re in at the time. Whatever mood you’re in determines what you focus on, think about, what memories run through your mind, how you see others, your attitude, and how you act.

       Emotions only exist in the lower planes of the unconscious as instinct designed to produce behaviors that are automatic and engaged in without awareness or the need to consciously evaluate them. They are projected and transmitted through the astral plane (atmosphere) as an energetic charge. They’re ‘infectious’ because we ‘absorb’ and take them on without directly realizing it and let them ‘run us’ by triggering memories that we use as a form of thematic template for forming our thoughts. As we unconsciously take on an emotion and form the inner reality of the emotion, we ‘tune ourselves’ energetically to the reality and actions of those emotions. Through our emotional states we become a predictable part of the ‘group mind’ which determines how we form our thoughts about ourselves and others as the reenactment of our “formative conditioning” as children and the ‘suggestions’ we’re constantly allowing into our mind that are given to us by others.

      Once we realize the true nature and purpose of emotions, we can resist taking them on while intentionally acting on ourselves to control and redirect our own thinking and cultivate a positive state and the reality instead. The most basic form of self-control comes from learning how to regulate our own emotional states. All “qualities” as a “way of being” have planes of knowledge associated to them that produce our perception of reality as the basis for creating our experiences. In order to access ‘higher planes’ of reality we must first act on ourselves to cultivate and consistently maintain an ‘exalted (virtuous) state’. In order to step into our divine nature as a self-aware creative being we have to become like the beings of that plane. We have to move out of a constant state of unconscious reaction to one where we’re conscious and proactive. We have to move from being unconsciously created by others to becoming consciously created by ourselves in an intentional and precise manner.

Vibratory Hierarchies as Perceptual Filters and Self-Organizing Processes

       States, planes, spheres, realms, worlds, kingdoms, and dimensions all exist in a hierarchical flow from higher to lower, and from lower to higher vibration. All vibration has patterns as informational structures that form and animate whole realities. Through the Law of Vibration, sympathetic induction (absorption), and coherence (integration to form a new vibration), a kind of filtering process takes place where different aspects of the same group of information are made passive and active (turned on and off), forming new combinations as an altered or modified configuration of the same thing (theme). The elements involved remain the same, but they’re arranged and reformulated to form a new version as a complementary pattern or living offspring. Everyone who is a part of the same event or situation experiences it in a unique way and tells a different account of it based on their state of mind at the time and what they noticed and emphasized and what they ignored and left out. We all take the same group of shared information and abstract only specific aspects that can be formed into the reality of our mental paradigm. We’re always taking what we can think of as a universal idea and re-organizing it to form a personalized version of the same basic nature.

        We can only move from ‘one plane to another’ (between planes) through resonance. By becoming of the same nature as the qualities (pattern of being) inherent in that plane, we’re spontaneously ‘absorbed’ into it as a form of energetic intake. When two frequencies are similar in nature and tuned to the same master key, they serve to activate each other where one enters into and blends with the other, influencing both to form an altered vibration through a form of synchronization. Once united as the same thing, the vibration of both is altered and they begin vibrating in harmony with each other as a new state. Lower levels can’t access higher levels directly because they’re not similar enough to each other, and therefore a medium is required as the equilibrating point between them that can act to absorb one, integrate and assimilate it to become close enough in proximity to the other that it can be drawn up into the lowest regions of the higher plane.

       All planes (dimensions) have a “range of vibration” as a graduation from lower regions of the same frequency to higher regions in the same way a musical scale of seven notes acts to form an octave as an accumulation or “whole scale”. The “accumulative affect” of the lower frequency (plane) in its higher range, becomes similar enough to the lower frequency of the next higher plane that it can be “drawn” into it. Our vibration as a frequency is produced by how we consistently create and accumulate experiences of a certain type that serve to form our memories, all of which are born out of our natural mental and emotional states.

      As we move from a lower vibration to a higher one a filtering process takes place as a kind of refinement. The destructive, negative, and delusional ideas of the lower, emotional and unconscious nature can’t naturally move into the reality of the higher, positive, and constructive plane of a fully awake and self-aware mind. As long as we remain unaware of our true creative power as conscious and divine beings, we condemn ourselves to the life of illusion created out of our emotional states. As long as our emotions run us and we use our will to create the reality of others through a reactive state, we keep ourselves confined to a mortal and unconscious existence as an intelligent animal that’s easy to train. We remain in the reality of pain and suffering that we’re acting on ourselves unknowingly to create.

Self-Enslavement

       We’re all enslaved by our own mind and how we’ve been trained to use it. When we cultivate and consistently live out of fear and anxiety of some kind, we act on ourselves to condemn ourselves to a life of constant fearful thoughts and suggestions that only serve to produce more experiences of fear and anxiety. It’s up to us to work on intentionally changing our own mental state. No one else can do it for us. We keep ourselves tuned to the reality of our feelings, emotions, and unconscious (habitual) thoughts. Just as our higher soul acts as the medium between higher forms of consciousness and lower forms of unconsciousness (instinct), our body-soul acts as the medium for absorbing and expressing the emotions and consciousness within the material plane through a form of horizontal movement between the inner and outer as our self and another.

       What we now think of as the Human race was originally created as the combination of higher and lower beings in order to produce slaves as a workforce. We were bred in an experimental way in order to produce a being intelligent enough to do the work, yet easy to control and give direction, with no philosophy of our own. When we’re “in” our lower, animal nature (which is primarily an unconscious state) we lack self-awareness in the most basic sense, and the higher capacities of reason. We often lack the confidence and executive faculties necessary to make decisions for ourselves and exercise our will in order to consciously create. There’s a complete lack of awareness as to our higher nature as divine, god-like beings, and we simply live out of whatever emotional states and dynamics we’ve been conditioned with and continue to act as a magnet for.

       We become a servant to the will of what we imagine to be higher, supreme and authoritative beings. We’re taught to worship other human beings of a higher and more conscious nature as “Gods”. While in our normal and somewhat unconscious state, we simply absorb the suggestions (thoughts) and emotions given to us through the projections of others, and allow them to take control of our will where we cooperatively create the reality they want us to. While in our lower nature we lack any real sense of purpose in realizing our own ability to consciously create ourselves. Whatever state we exist in determines what plane and type of reality we use our mind to create.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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Learning to Discipline Your Emotions and Consciously Create your Experiences

       One of the most prevalent ways we’re controlled by others and the events of our life are through our emotions. As we’re triggered by the emotions being expressed by another, we take on those same emotions, and react in an automatic and unconscious manner. Anytime we’re reacting, we’re literally unconscious and operating on autopilot. Emotions are the natural force of the lower material plane that acts as the prompting mechanism for instinct. Being of an animal body, we actively share this with the rest of the animal kingdom where we’re directed and influenced to perform certain behaviors through the reception and production of emotional charges. Emotions can have a very intense and pronounced stimulation, which can make them hard to resist, especially when we’re unaware of what’s actually happening at the energetic level.

       Emotions are a form of instinctual force meant to regulate the behavior of unconscious beings (those without the ability to regulate themselves), and aren’t designed to be brought into our thought processes where we form whole realities out of them. These realities formed out of emotions are what is commonly referred to spiritually as “illusions” that ultimately become a primary form of self-deception that’s delusional in nature. This means that the realities we create out of our emotions aren’t real in the most basic sense, and are something we makeup and use in place of neutral and more objective or unemotional reality as the means of creating how we experience things.

      What we refer to as the subconscious mind, which is the same aspect of the mind we share with animals, plants, and all of Nature as the instinctual mind, is emotionally driven and forms automatic behaviors out of various forms of memory that provides the basis for forming habits of various sorts. As humans born into an animal body, we start off life in a primarily unconscious state where our subconscious is active and dominant and our self-conscious, thinking and discriminating mind hasn’t developed yet. We’re literally in a natural hypnotic state where we absorb and process whatever we’re being taught and is being demonstrated by our parents and family, authority figures, and through our formative education.

       The subconscious doesn’t have the ability to reason and think for itself, and is passive in nature, which means it only acts as a “receiver” of ideas and not what acts to generate them. This means it doesn’t have the innate ability to evaluate and judge incoming ideas in order to decide whether they seem valid or not. Due to this inability to “choose” what ideas we take on and actively create a reality out of by imagining them, we readily take in whatever ideas we’re exposed to and actively playing a part in as an experience. Our experiences as children are created exclusively by the will of others through shared emotional states and the dynamics that ensue from them which are accumulated to form our memory base that’s then used in an automatic and repetitive fashion as a form of “reference system” for producing more realities of the same nature.

      As we grow older there’s a dynamic network designed and set into place as a kind of instant referencing system of emotion-memory-behavior, referred to as our formative conditioning. As we receive a strong emotion of some kind being projected at us by another, it enters our body as an electrical charge producing a strong stimulation that’s immediately (unconsciously) associated to a memory created from that same emotional state. We then use this memory as a form of thematic template for interpreting the present to mean the same thing as the past, and react by forming the same type of perception, attitude and behavior. We go into an automated process fueled by an illusion of our own making undertaken without any conscious awareness of what we’re doing and why. This “automated mode” which we act to “create out of” is set in motion through an emotional trigger that literally renders us unconscious and we shape the present to be the same as the past.

      One of the basic processes needed in order to work with emotions in a conscious manner is to gain a practical understanding of what’s really happening when we find ourselves triggered by them, because refraining from reacting by internalizing and repressing them doesn’t work, and only makes us prone to emotional outbursts in other areas that may be indirectly related and inappropriate or extreme for the situation they become expressed in. It’s only through realization of the true nature of emotions and how it is that we create our own experiences that we can act (choose) to dissolve the charge before it’s allowed to enter us and take hold. Once we become aware of what’s happening we can work with emotions as natural forces that we deflect altogether by not allowing them enter our mind-energy field, and instead act to mirror them back to the sender, neutralizing them as a result.

Two Ways we Experience Emotion

       Emotion is basically experienced and produced in two fundamental ways: we either act as a passive receptor for them from an external source; or we generate them internally in response to our own thinking and imagining. Emotion is freely transmitted through the atmosphere (astral plane) through a form of telepathy, where they’re received unconsciously (automatically) by anyone in near proximity of us. Because the subconscious is “ran” by emotions and produces illusions of reality out of them as our perceptions, anytime someone around us is expressing emotions outwardly, meaning they’re projecting them, when we’re unaware of our ability to direct and control them, we act to naturally absorb them without resistance. As we absorb them they activate and bring alive in us the same emotion, forming a shared state that we then act together to form a joint reality out of. As we cooperate in acting out the delusion inherent in the shared emotional state by becoming “like” them, we simultaneously create ourselves through the experience we create. When this happens, we truly become a product of our conditioning and create our life out of a constant form of reaction, both to others and to unknown parts of ourselves.

      When we generate emotions within, they come as a natural response to whatever we’re thinking about and playing out in our imagination. The more detailed the imagining the more intense the emotion invoked by it. Most of our thoughts run through our mind in a habitual and repetitive fashion based on memory of some kind, and act to keep us tuned to the same emotional states of our conditioning. Because of the natural relationship between thought and emotion, one always acts to determine the other. Our thoughts, what we focus on, and our perception as the interpretation of the activities and events of our life that form how we create our experiences are all “habits” that operate in a repetitive and automatic fashion.

The Relationship between Thought and Emotion

       The relationship between thought and emotion is self-evident through simple self-observation. These two are always married to each other and together form an equivalent perception of reality. The ability to produce false realities out of emotional thoughts is a capacity of the higher, human mind that sets us apart from the animal kingdom as our ability to willfully create. Unlike the animal kingdom, we have the ability to “create ourselves” through our ability to create our perceptions as our “experience of ourselves”. Whichever one of these initiates the process as a “cause”, produces the other one automatically as an equivalent “effect”. This is easy to recognize through simple forms of self-reflection.

       When we unconsciously absorb and take in emotions without resistance, and allow emotional charges to take hold “in us”, they act to instantly alter our state and determines what memory we associate it with that was of the same emotional state and nature. Once we reference and pull it up in our imagination, it forms our “perceptual lens” as a form of transparent, thematic template for using to interpret the current event to mean the same thing as the past event. Long after the emotional charge has subsided, it continues to influence our thoughts and what stories as scenarios we run through our mind over and over. When this happens we’re literally being controlled and therefore determined by whatever it is we’re reacting to. They literally continue to run our mind as imagined thoughts, which act as a form of mental program for our subconscious. As we program our own subconscious with imaginary thoughts, it acts to produce that same type of reality over and over as a kind of life theme.  

      In a likewise manner, whatever we think about in a deliberate and controlled (willful) manner, acts to produce our emotional state as complementary to our thoughts, and together set our vibration that tunes us to the reality of our thoughts. When we think about positive, inspiring, and uplifting ideas, we act to generate corresponding emotions. Thought shapes ideas into material forms in our mind, which act as a magnet (vessel) for equivalent emotions as the natural forces that blend with them through a form of holy matrimony, and together produce corresponding realities as their offspring. By intentionally directing our own thoughts we simultaneously produce our own emotional states and tune ourselves to the outer reality that provides us with the same type of experience.

How we Create our Experience

       Anytime we’re in a predominantly unconscious state, we create the perception that our experiences are somehow independent of us and “caused” by outside forces of some kind. We feel as if we have no actual control over how we experience something, because as children living out of our subconscious, our experiences came in what seemed like an automatic fashion based on what emotions we were experiencing and what behavior was being demonstrated around us that we were an active part of. As we got older and our self-conscious mind began developing (frontal cortex), we started telling ourselves a story about things as a way of trying to make sense of them, and these imaginary stories acted to program our subconscious with the reality of the story as a kind of metaphorical theme. We’re always in the process of telling ourselves a story about things as a means of interpreting events to give them meaning. Whatever we make something mean by the story we tell ourselves about it, simultaneously means the same thing about us.

       We don’t have a direct awareness of the fact that we’re actually the one creating our own experiences because it happens as a natural process produced by our unconscious mind. However, when we really stop to examine it, we can come to realize how we do it by how we think about things, which is necessary in order to begin working with it in a fully aware and intentional manner. The whole basis for any form of self-mastery is self-awareness and the realization attained by bringing what’s operating just below the level of awareness into the light, and as a result, becoming aware of the creative ability of our own mind.

      This awareness comes through self-examination of what is normally automated processes and starts by realizing that you are the only one actually using your mind to create your own experiences. No one is ever doing anything “to you” in terms of how you experience something, they’re simply stimulating you emotionally then giving you a suggestion that causes you to create an inner experience that’s correlated to the outer event. The inner and outer are always in an intimate relationship with each other where one “enters into” and acts to “propagate” the other, forming a joint reality. As long as we remain unaware of this process, we simply act as a passive receptor and allow ourselves to be impregnated with the will of others where we then act to systematically birth and give life to that same type of reality as our creation.

Self-Observation and Awareness

       In order to gain awareness and realization around your own internal processes, create a calm, empty mind that’s void of all attachments formed out of the need to somehow make others responsible for how you feel, or to justify your right to feel and act the way you do. Then recall a situation where you were triggered by someone else’s attitude and actions around or towards you that caused you to become upset, and create a slow-motion type of spaciousness that turns it into a step-by-step process. Allow yourself to notice that the only “cause” involved was in how they were stimulating you internally. As you are stimulated, notice how it instantly alters your state and how you immediately associate it to another experience of a similar nature. You then use this past experience as the means to form the same type of experience again. Then notice what it is you begin telling yourself about it as your thoughts. Notice what story it prompts. Allow yourself to notice that you let the stimulus enter you (your mind and body) and take hold without consciously evaluating or resisting it, and begin using your mind in an unconscious manner to create the experience of “being” upset. Notice that it was your own thoughts that produced the state of being upset. You allowed the outer stimulus to enter you, take hold, and produce your perception. You are in fact the one that’s creating your own experience of being upset by it. You could just as easily choose to let it go and not be upset.

       Now, in a similar fashion, imagine that same situation and activity, except this time imagine your mind as a protective bubble or impenetrable sphere of energy that surrounds and envelops you, where the emotional force being projected is stopped and is reflected instead on the surface of the transparent sphere, outside of your body, where you can “see” the nature of the emotional charge and the idea associated with it from a detached perspective. Where you can consciously decide whether or not you want to let it in and allow it to take hold and become expressed within you. Instead of unconsciously absorbing it, decide to reject it, and act instead to reflect it back while remaining unaffected by it. Allow yourself to realize that just the awareness itself creates the realization of a choice. When we wake-up from an unconscious state of automated processes we begin realizing that in every moment we’re actually making a decision as to what we let in and what we keep out of our own mental sphere. It’s only the emotional charge associated with it that makes this difficult to do. As we begin making conscious decisions as to what we allow to stimulate us, and therefore use as the means of creating our experiences, and what we act to neutralize instead, we begin realizing the true power we have in creating our own experiences.

      Whenever we absorb an emotional stimulus coupled with an idea that acts as a suggestion, and act on ourselves to create an internal experience out of it, we not only create a joint-reality as an experience with whatever is impregnating us, but we simultaneously create a “sense of ourselves” through and as the experience by how we associate and identify with it. As long as we remain unconscious of our ability to create our own experiences and create them based on how we’re being stimulated at any given moment, we create ourselves by the will of others as a product of the group mind. We allow others to tell us who we are, and give us our feelings and thoughts, and as a result, willfully shape us to be like them.

The Nature of Emotional Pain and Suffering

       As long as we remain in a primarily unconscious state, we form the illusion that others are causing our pain, and that we suffer due to our life conditions and circumstances. Yet all pain and suffering in the most basic sense is created by how we choose to experience things, not by the people and things themselves. No one “makes us” sad or unhappy, we’re the one that creates the experience of being sad or unhappy in relationship with everything else. No one hurts us emotionally; we act on ourselves to create the illusion of being hurt by what we tell ourselves about things that gives them meaning, causing us to feel hurt by them. We are in fact the ones acting on ourselves to inflict our own pain and suffering by how we use our own mind to create how we perceive and experience reality.

       The same situation, approached with a different attitude and belief system, will produce very different types of experience. What causes pain and suffering for one person will cause a feeling of detachment or contentment for another. A situation that’s upsetting for one goes completely unnoticed by another. Anytime we’re experiencing emotional pain that’s causing us to suffer in some way, it’s providing us with a mirror into our own unconscious mind and habitual tendencies, showing us how it is that we “structure our thoughts” in order to produce our experience of reality.

      The most basic problem we have in creating is that we form habitual ways of thinking and perceiving based on our conditioning. The story we’re always in the process of telling ourselves about things is formed out of our belief-system and values. As we create a reality around things, we sense ourselves by way of that reality and build our identity around it, coming to love and depend on it as a result. We become who we are by way of our own stories about things, and when challenged, will argue to defend them. In order to create new types of experiences we have to literally become a different type of person. If we give up our story as a way of thinking and structuring our experience, we don’t know who we are or how to be, which can cause a deep feeling of insecurity and fear of the unknown.

Embracing our Power and Intentionally Creating Ourselves

       Another process of emotional discipline and self-realization that we can employ is to refrain from any form of emotional reaction, while turning our attention inward instead and self-reflecting. Resisting the reaction, which can come instantly, is the hardest part, and looking inward to observe our own process requires the ability to direct your own attention while being totally honest with yourself. It requires you to let go of your attachment to your need to justify your “right” to react, and simply observe what happens inside of you as a means of recognizing what’s operating in you that you’re normally unaware of in the most basic sense.

       As you refrain from reacting and turn your attention inward, allow yourself to notice what comes up for you in association with the emotional trigger. What memory rises up and runs through your mind in association with it, and how do you feel because of that memory? What story as your thoughts begins running through your imagination as a replay of that memory?  Gain any form of self-awareness you can by reflecting solely on your own part in that memory instead of focusing on the other people or circumstances involved. Again refrain from any form of story that you start telling yourself as a means of justifying your right to feel that way. Simply observe it from a detached perspective as if you were another person watching it. This process will show you what your psychological wounds are that you’re not ordinarily aware of.  

       Because most of the experiences that made up our formative conditioning were produced through emotional states while we lacked the ability to reason and think about them rationally as a child, when we revisit them as an adult with a fully developed conscious mind, we can see them in a different light, which allows us to experience them differently. The beauty of mental and emotional healing is that it’s the realization and awareness alone that dissolves the complex, allowing us to transform how we experience the same event. The transformation takes place by simply shedding light on what was previously obscure and vague, produced mostly from an emotional reaction while in an unconscious state.

       Once we become aware of what we were previously unaware of, it no longer happens in an unconscious and automatic way, and we form a new awareness around it instead. Through awareness obtained while in a calm and detached state, we realize that we have a choice as to the meaning we give things and how we create our experience as a result. All conscious decisions are based on one primary question we’re always asking ourselves as the means of creating, and that is “who am I”? Who am I going to be right now in relationship with this person, situation, or event? How am I going to use this situation or event to create an experience that’s empowering? And from a calm and fully aware state, we make that decision and begin creating ourselves with full awareness of who we’re becoming.

Dr. Linda Gadbois