Karma, Life Design, and the Holographic Principle of Destiny

February 15, 2023March 1, 2023 Dr. Linda Gadbois

Destiny can be a difficult idea to explain or even express accurately, because like so many aspects of the human psyche, it appears to have a twofold nature. There’s one that’s conducted with a sense of awareness and even deliberation, and one that seems to play out in a subliminal and automatic way beyond our ability to control or direct it. We all have what we can call two aspects of the mind, which form our higher and lower nature, as our higher conscious, and lower subconscious mind. These are both different aspects of the same mind and play different roles and functions in creating the perception of a unified reality, in much the same way the right and left hemispheres of the brain operate in tandem with each other. Our conscious mind is related to our higher nature of pure mind which is divine and creative, and our subconscious is related to our physical, animal soul and lower nature, which is noncreative and functions almost exclusively through automated habitual processes. The idea of destiny is directly correlated with the universal principle of “will”, which brings into question whether we have a personal will, or if it’s solely a function of our higher mind.

Just as we have two aspects of the same mind, soul, self, and body that function as complementary (polar) opposites within the formative plane of the material world, we appear to also have both a higher divine will, and a lower personal will. The question then becomes whether these are different aspects of the same thing, where one functions on the higher plane as an “entire whole”, while the other operates on the lower plane, where we’re located “within” the greater whole as an essential part of it, in order to attain it as an “experience of ourselves”. Of course the answer is it’s both – our higher will creates the whole life-cycle out of what’s called our karmic seed, where our whole life plan is created in a latent “seed form”, which is then systematically activated and set in motion through a dynamic series of life events that form a synchronized growth process. At the personal level, our will usually comes as a vision we form for our life that seems to be ingrained in us and takes shape as we grow through our life experiences. Like most mysteries, it appears to be paradoxical in nature based on which plane and aspect of the mind we’re viewing it from, yet in the overall sense, they’re fundamentally different aspects of the same thing.

Sphere of multiple layers — Parts within the Greater Whole

One of the easiest ways to understand this concept as a universal principle, rather than a belief, is by correlating it harmoniously with the two aspects of the mind in which it unfolds systematically as being both the “whole”, and the “part located within the whole” at the same time. In order to do this, we have to view it from the same conceptual model we use for understanding how our own mind and soul operates simultaneously on two levels of the same plane, which are polarized aspects that are intermeshed in forming a single plane as a coherent whole. Where one aspect functions to form, hold together and maintain the whole while also orchestrating all the activity that takes place within it, while the other aspect is birthed fully “within it” as an intrinsic part of it in order to experience it. On one level we’re writing our own life story while also composing all the elements necessary to tell that story in a particular way, and on the other level we “enter into” and play the main character in our own story.

Life by Design

Every attribute that we are bestowed with while in our lower, subconscious, animal body, is derived from the higher, conscious, divine mind, which undergoes a conversion when it moves from creator to the character within its own creation. These two correlated planes of the mind function in polarity with each other, where one seems to be the “operator” and active component, while the other is the passive component that’s being “operated”. This makes them seem paradoxical in nature because while apart of the plane that works in a largely automatic and natural manner, we don’t realize that we’re the one who’s actually directing it from a higher state of consciousness. In order to form a clear understanding of how destiny works in determining and guiding the course of our life, we’ll look at it in terms of how each plane operates according to the laws that govern that plane while playing a complementary role in forming a greater whole. I’m going to use the model of the Kabbalah “Tree of Life” because it’s an ideal model for understanding how spirit, mind, and body are different aspects of the same thing and how our mind functions on three levels to manifest as a single reality on a fourth level as a coherent and cohesive matrix of highly organized light that forms, maintains, and animates what we experience as “reality”.

The highest aspect of the mind is called the supernal or superconscious, which contains the lower two aspects of the mind in their latent and potential state as a part of its essential nature. In order to create itself as a material being, it has to construct itself as a holographic, 3-dimensional light form. In order to do this it has to divide itself into polarized aspects that move rhythmically between two poles that are set apart from each other. All “movement”, which is the basis for “vibration”, occurs through the interaction of polarized aspects that are complementary parts of each other. Just as the superconscious contains the other aspects “within it” as a part of its essential nature, as it projects an image of itself into the lower, denser plane of light, each part is also a whole in itself, and comprised of three intrinsic parts that function as a single entity (each aspect has a triune nature). The superconscious projects itself into the lower plane of Formation (Astral plane) as the conscious (active) aspect of the mind, which is “pregnant” with the subconscious mind, which it then projects into the lower regions of the same plane as its counterpart. All “planes” are formed as a feature of the mind and like the mind are polarized, forming a higher and lower region of the same plane. Each aspect of the mind is formed as a triad that’s comprised of polarities that operate together in forming a third element as a coherent, equilibrated whole.

As the Superconscious projects itself into the lower plane as complementary aspects of itself, it forms originally as the higher conscious mind, which resides within the higher, more refined region of the formative plane, and never fully “enters into” or becomes an essential part of its own manifestation. It resides on the higher, outer plane that contains the entire material reality “within” it, and is what oversees, orchestrates, and acts to guide all the activity that unfolds systematically within the whole. The conscious mind is also polarized (a Triad) and contains the subconscious mind in its latent and potential state, which it then acts to project into the lower region of the same plane as a mirror (reverse) image of itself, forming the basis for the physical body and outer reality emanated through the body. The subconscious, birthed with the same image and likeness of the conscious mind, is also polarized and forms a Triad of “reversed polarity”. The conscious mind is the active, masculine aspect of the mind that contains the feminine aspect within it, which possesses all the attributes and properties necessary to generate a physical vehicle which it can then inhabit as a means of manifesting “within” and as an essential part of its own manifestation.

This idea is communicated in spiritual texts through the allegory of Adam and Eve, where Adam was created first as a hermaphrodite, and then Eve was “made” from one of Adams ribs to serve as his helpmate. She was fashioned from his body. This idea has further meaning when we take into consideration that the skeletal system of the body is the organ related to the “soul” and is what acts as the “structuring mechanism” of the body, making movement as activity possible, and bone marrow is what generates blood stem cells that can become red blood cells, white blood cells, or platelets, and forms what we call our soul’s “essence”. The higher conscious mind is the positive pole and the subconscious is the complementary negative pole that acts to conceive the creative seed of the conscious mind and build it into an outer reality on the lower plane. These are not only polar aspects of each other as an active-positive and a passive-negative pole, they also move between planes by reversing polarity, forming what can be conceptualized as a zigzag, spiraling, back and forth movement. So what’s considered active on the higher plane is passive on the lower, and what’s passive on the lower is active on the higher.

Will and Imagination

The active force of “will” on the higher plane forms a seed-image (thoughtform) in the faculty of the imagination that’s injected into the subconscious on the lower plane, providing it with a “life pattern” (memory) that it gestates and builds into an embryonic blueprint. This embryo formed in the womb of the subconscious is what’s commonly called the etheric double, astral body, or subtle body, which becomes the holographic blueprint for not only generating and giving life to the physical body, but the entire outer reality formed within the sphere of the mind that accompanies the body. This etheric blueprint remains in an embryonic, fluidic state and is continuously seeded by the conscious mind as a means of ushering in the life events that promote new stages of growth and development. It not only acts as the memory for generating and regenerating the physical body, but also for generating a correlated outer world constructed out of the same inner nature and memory as the body. While we can view the outer world as being projected by us through our perception of it, we can also view it as an extension of us, where it’s comprised of not only the known but also the unknown elements buried deep within our own psyche.

Toroidal field of mind — 3-dimensional Monad – Electromagnetic Field

Likewise, many have been taught to think of our mind and body as being separate from each other, yet these can also be understood as being different aspects of the same thing, where our body is “located within” the center of a much larger sphere, forming a centralized perspective within a greater whole (Monad) as a means of “experiencing ourselves”. In order to properly understand this idea, we’d have to redefine what we mean when we use the term “self”. Most people relate to the idea of the “self” as being our body and personality, when, in reality, it may be referring to our entire material existence, because on the higher plane of the mind and soul, the lower plane of material reality exists in its “entirety” as a “memory”, and it’s through the relationship we form between the inner and outer aspects of ourselves that we “perceive ourselves as another” and form an experience of ourselves through our own perception. The outer world of reality and the inner world of feeling are extensions of each other and not separate entities. They exist as polarized aspects whose interaction serves to “stimulate each other” into existence, and together form a unified field as what appears to be an inner and outer reality.

This is why your outer world doesn’t change until your inner world does, and they change as an exact correspondence to each other. As we change our inner nature by developing our character, our experience of the outer world changes in the exact same degree and proportion. This is because they’re different aspects of the same thing, where the part contains the whole and the whole is comprised of the sum of its parts. The outer world is a metaphorical reflection of the inner world, and vice versa. Reality in the most basic sense is holographic in nature, produced by splitting a coherent, concentrated beam of light in two, forming polarized aspects, where one is directed by a “mirror” to be imprinted with an image (memory), forming a 2-dimensional form, and the other is reflected back onto the image as pure (scattered) light, blending into it, forming a 6-dimensional construct, that emanates from a central axis outward, forming a highly organized body of light.

We exist simultaneously as the central axis possessed of electromagnetic poles, and as the outer sphere or toroidal field produced by an electromagnetic pulsation, where the “same energy” projects (discharges) outward in an active state, electrifying everything in its path, and then upon reaching a peripheral boundary, reverses polarity, becoming magnetic, and is drawn back into its center, where it then reverses polarity again, forming another projection. While we can view this as two separate forms of energy that are complementary to each other, in reality they’re a “single force” that’s polarized and functions systematically through “two states”, one that’s projective and one that’s receptive, and together they act to conceive and materialize their own projection. This doesn’t happen as a circulating motion – it happens at once, forming a coherent field of light that appears stable and stationary in the most basic sense, while also housing a great deal of activity that takes place within it. The outer forms the stage and setting that’s a complimentary theme for the inner character to act out its life story in a completely natural and congruent manner. One of the ways to grasp this idea is to realize that we’re on a globe (Earth) that’s spinning a thousand miles an hour on its axis while moving through space orbiting the sun at thousands of (67,000) miles an hour, while also being a part of a greater solar system that’s moving billions of miles an hour (140 miles a second) through our galaxy, and we experience “reality” as a fairly stable, somewhat calm construct of light.

Karmic Seed of Destiny

On the plane of the Superconscious, the entire life cycle of the soul is formed as an intrinsic design in its latent, unformed state of pure potential. This design, comprised of a dynamic set of attributes, qualities, and characteristics in varying degrees of development and potency, is formed out of the essence of all our previous experiences combined into a single state and coherent memory. This same principle works within our current life where all our experiences are molded into a single memory, called our paradigm. At the end of each life cycle, when the higher soul separates from the body, it absorbs all the experiences attained in that lifetime, and assimilates them to form a particular nature as our character (archetype), coupled with the memory of our own life creation. This holographic memory forms the life theme of our character and of our souls essence (inner nature), which combine to become the seed for our next life cycle as a continuation of the same idea.

An easy way to understand this idea is by looking at any seed in nature where, a cherry seed, for example, only has the potential and capacity to grow into a cherry tree. It can’t grow into an apple or peach tree because it’s perfectly designed with all the properties and elements necessary to produce a cherry tree. So, we can say with accuracy that the cherry seeds destiny is to become a cherry tree. The state and health of the cherry tree, however, is determined by what climate and conditions it’s planted in and how it grows within those conditions. If planted in the appropriate conditions – climate, soil, water, sun, etc., it grows into a healthy, robust tree, if not, it becomes spindly and frail and never grows to its full height and potential. But either way, as it matures and bears fruit, the fruit contains the seeds for producing more of the same type of cherry trees. The same principles operate consistently through all life as we know it, and we can come to understand our own nature and processes of growth and development by observing the laws of Nature.

Our karmic seed, contains the entire life plan as a life cycle, along with all the attributes and qualities in exact proportion, for systematically playing out the life plan as a natural process of growth and development within the environment and life situation we were born into. As the karmic memory-program of our souls continued development is projected (planted) into the lower, Astral Plane of Formation, it’s constructed into the astral form of our souls memory by the life force energy of our higher will, where it continues to operate through the systematic movement formed by polar aspects of the mind that are complementary to each other. On the higher plane of pure mind, memory and will (life force) are complementary features of each other, where the light body (hologram) of memory is constructed outwardly as a projection and outer reflection, forming the seed and egg for birthing itself on the lower plane of the subconscious.

The Astral Plane of Memory – Will, Thought, and Emotion

This middle plane, called the astral plane, which connects the higher archetypal plane with the lower material plane, is also polarized, and exists as two levels that house complementary aspects of the mind while functioning in a harmonious manner. Each one performs a different operation in creating a single reality. As the conscious mind “births” and projects the subconscious into the complementary, lower region of the astral plane as a reflection of itself, a conversion takes place, and what functions as “will” on the higher plane becomes “emotion and desire” on the lower plane, and what functions as “memory” on the higher plane generates “thought” on the lower plane. All emotion is correlated with instinct (memory) to produce automatic reactions and behaviors, and thought is the basis for forming and recalling memories.

While they switch positions as they move from a refined state of consciousness to a denser one of unconsciousness, they still function in the same way and serve the same basic purpose. In an unconscious state they function as automated processes formed out of memory (instinct) driven by emotional impulses, and in a conscious state, they function as thoughtforms that serve to internally generate equivalent emotions. Will is the active-electric force on the higher plane and emotion is the motivating force on the lower plane, and likewise, memory is the passive force on the higher plane, while thought is a passive construct on the lower plane. On the lower plane memory and thought are formed the same way in the faculty of the imagination, and one can be used to transform the other one, and both serve to generate feelings and emotions while also possessing the ability to transform them. As we think by forming internal representations, we generate emotions in response to our own thoughts, and as we dwell in memories of the past, we keep ourselves tuned to the same emotions we were experiencing when we formed the memories, and act to “recreate” the same type of emotional dramas of the past, in the present. As we form thoughts given life by strong feelings and emotions, we set the vibratory frequency internally for organizing and assembling the same type of ideas outside of us as a means of experiencing our own mental creations.

The higher mind contains the entire lower plane within it as a form of “predestiny”, where if we remain in a primarily unconscious state and never realize that we have the ability to direct our own life using the power of imagination and will, our destiny plays out in a completely natural way that seems beyond our control. If however, we begin waking up to the fact that we have the ability to use our conscious mind to direct our subconscious in manifesting our life in a more intentional manner, we can participate in our own evolution by advancing ourselves along our souls path. Either way, we still follow a somewhat predestined path because it’s engrained in our very nature, and comes naturally through our vision for our life, what we desire and feel passionate about, what we naturally gravitate towards and have an interest in, preferences, character traits, and so on. The difference is we can impose a new direction on our life, heal ourselves of psychological issues, practice mastering our lower nature, and greatly advance our own evolution by simply learning how to operate our own mind-body system. Our physical world doesn’t matter in the ultimate sense, because its temporary and dissolves at death, it’s the “type of experiences” we create “through” our physical circumstances that are eternal and become imprinted as a permanent record in the Akashic field of Astral Light.

Life Patterns

When we live out of a predominantly unconscious state, where we imagine ourselves to be separate and set apart from our own outer projection, we experience everything as happening to us and beyond our ability to control it or direct its course of activity. We don’t recognize our own karma as being the fruit and seed of previous incarnations and so we lack a sense of direction and responsibility. In this instance, our destiny comes as an automated process that takes place without our direct awareness, where we’re being pulled along in a life current, and we experience ourselves as being an alien within our own manifestation. We don’t realize that our world is being created by us on the higher level of our conscious, willful mind, and that we have the ability to wake up and become conscious of our own dream, and pull ourselves ashore, where we can view life as it flows by in an automated state. Once we’re able to realize what our karma is and how that forms the basis for the unconscious activity of our current life experience, we can step into our higher mind and begin actively participating in creating and evolving our own life pattern. We can impose a direction on our life instead of being swept along in a helpless fashion.

There’s really no such thing as a personal destiny or personal will because these are a primary function and operation conducted by our higher mind which exists as the greater whole, and not as a part that transitions blindly through synchronized phases of the whole. But this can be difficult to understand due to our limited awareness of our self and our life being contained within the greater whole, and therefore unable to comprehend or conceive of it in its entirety. When we remain unaware of the fact that our life is our own creation, and we don’t understand the true nature of karma, we don’t recognize how we’re creating all of it using both our conscious and unconscious mind, then our life is predestined and transpires in what seems like an automated process. While in a predominantly unconscious state, destiny is approached more as a vision for your life that lays the foundation for a series of goals. We’re taught to visualize the reality we want to create as a material object or situation, instead of focusing on the type of experience we want to attain as a “feeling”. We then approach will as though it’s about effort in making something happen that may not be happening naturally on its own, or by resisting our own tendencies and compulsions. In this case our life is predestined and pretty much takes place without our director awareness of what’s happening and the reason it’s happening.

Karma, Will, and Destiny

Karma, will, and destiny are the same thing in the most fundamental sense. There’s no meaningful way to separate these ideas in terms of how they work together in forming the same reality as a coherent state. We can only separate them by classifying them according to their native plane in order to gain an understanding of how they function as a universal (primary) law. The higher plane of the conscious mind is the active life force that constructs a living matrix of light out of the holographic model of memory, which is then translated on the lower plane of the subconscious as emotion, passions, and desire. Destiny is formed by habitual patterns of memory compelled into an active state by the life force energy of will and emotions. As long as we live out of habitual routines and reactive behaviors that form correlated thoughts and feelings, nothing changes and we remain locked into our own karmic patterns which repeat in a rhythmic fashion based on how they’re adapted to different situations that cause them to play out in a somewhat different way.

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Once we become aware of our own nature and dual aspects of our mind and how they function harmoniously in creating our reality and life out of karmic patterns, we can begin utilizing the different aspects of our being in a masterful way to self-create and determine what our life is going to be about. We can design and execute our own life experiences, which can be attained through a variety of material situations and circumstances. The faculty of the mind shared by both the conscious and unconscious, which serves as the medium of communication between them, is the imagination. Will on the lower plane functions as a kinetic force, whereas on the higher plane it’s a constructive force that designs a etheric template by translating thought into a picture or image that imitates an actual memory. This etheric holographic construct is used by the subconscious in the same way it uses memory, to build it into the existing outer reality as a means of experiencing it.

All memory, which exists as an internal mental construct formed out of astral light (subtle energy), is created by the higher mind through the faculty of the imagination, which is what the lower subconscious mind uses as “patterns of activity” (instinct) that are activated by emotion and play out in an automated fashion. We can take an existing memory and transform it in our imagination, producing an etheric template as a metaphor that provides our subconscious with a creative directive and command for what to build as an outer experience (our subconscious is obedient). We have to provide it with a seeded-idea as a thematic pattern that it can build into our existing mental model in a congruent and ecological way where it becomes a natural part of our outer world allowing us to form an “experience of it”. The experiences produced are then absorbed back into our mind and integrated into our current life memory base (model), growing and evolving it by way of any new variations acquired.

On the higher plane of creation, will acts to construct images that represent an idea in such a way that it’ll generate a natural emotional response. The subconscious uses this metaphorical idea as an actual memory and builds it into our existing mental paradigm where it becomes known through our ability to perceive it as a natural part of our outer world. This occurs naturally through different stages of growth, where ideas come to us through a form of inspiration, and as we take them in and begin thinking about them, we shape them into a sensory reality in our mind’s eye by adapting them to our mental model. Once they’ve integrated into our mental sphere, they’re birthed as a natural outgrowth.

Our mental paradigm, which is constructed out of synthesized memory, forms the “mental filters” and “lens” we “look through” to perceive and reconstruct our outer world to form a mirror image of it. It vibrates at a frequency that reforms the outer world to match it through resonance. Once we recognize the memory-patterns we’re playing out consistently in our life, we can work to alter them using the higher power of our will by reshaping them metaphorically in our imagination to form a new pattern that will bring a new type of activity and experience. This must be done in a gradual manner where the new pattern can be harmoniously integrated into the existing pattern, modifying and upgrading it. When we attempt to introduce an idea that’s too far apart or different from our existing paradigm, it can’t be logically integrated and is rejected instead. Change has to be produced in a gradual manner as a natural growth process that harmoniously moves from one state to an alternate state. The new idea being introduced has to be complementary to the existing idea and formed as an increment or phase of development. By utilizing the magical powers of our imagination we can act on our own memories to transform and morph them.

When we work in this manner to gradually transform our karmic patterns formed as memory, we begin taking control and directing our own destiny by systematically resolving our karma. As we become conscious and aware within our own life creation, we can learn how to operate our own mind in becoming self-determined, sovereign, and the author of our own life story. As we transform our inner archetypal nature the outer world changes as a direct reflection of it, and we combine the two as a means of experiencing ourselves in new ways, producing new types of memory that are accumulated and built-up overtime, reshaping our current life memory to tell a new type of story. As we act on ourselves to reshape our character and inner way of producing experiences, we simultaneously dissolve karmic patterns, replacing them with new upgraded ones, and we become the author of our own destiny, which ultimately forms the karmic seed for our next life cycle, and we progress consciously in becoming our own creator.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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How Karma Provides Us with the Basis for Learning Life Lessons, Healing, and Self-Administering Our own Spiritual Evolution

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While the Law of Karma can be interpreted several ways, based on who’s interpreting it and their level of spiritual knowledge regarding universal laws that all life faithfully operates according to, the most basic way of looking at it in the practical sense is as the Law of Cause and Effect. Every action, no matter how great or small, produces an equal or greater reaction as a direct correspondence. This means the effect produced is of a similar nature and idea as what caused it. You can determine the cause of something by studying the effect, because they’re of the same nature. All life functions through rudimentary patterns as whole ideas. An action of any kind is a form of expression that sets a whole pattern in motion, where whatever we ‘put out’, either immediately or eventually returns to us, where we experience it as ‘happening to us’ by another. It may not come in the form of a direct action by another in relation or direct response to us, but more as the ‘same type of experience’, which touches on and brings alive in us the same feelings and issues that motivated our initial actions.

One of the ways to understand this in the basic sense, is by realizing that thought and feelings/emotions are always coupled, where one acts to stimulate and bring forth the other, and ‘vibrate in harmony’ with each other as a ‘sensational idea’ that fills us with an urge to express it. We shape an idea in our imagination as a possible experience, and the way we present the idea to ourselves generates an equivalent emotion in response to it, which becomes the motivational force for expressing it. When we act based on an emotional impulse or triggered reaction, the ‘automatic reaction’ is formed out of an unconscious pattern as a memory of some kind that was formed initially out of the same emotion that’s being stimulated by our actions. Emotion, which is the ‘motivating force’ of the material world, is always directly associated to a memory of some kind that was formed while we were experiencing the ‘same emotion’. The emotion we’re being stimulated with is what serves as the activating mechanism for an automatic (unconscious) reaction. The emotion instantly ‘references’ an associated memory by saying “this is the same as that”, and whatever memory is attached to the emotion becomes the ‘pattern’ for producing an instantaneous experience of the same nature and type.

When we live out of our emotional states and emotional triggers as a normal way of being, where we allow our emotions to run freely and determine what we focus on, think about, and what memories we replay over and over in our mind as the scenarios and dramas produced by the emotions, we live in the ‘past’ by using the same group of memories as mental filters for producing more of the same type of experiences in the present. Whatever patterns from the past we continue to run in the present, form the basis for the future. All past events that had a ‘significant emotional impact on us’ formed the basis of our initial conditioning as our complexes and ‘issues’. These behavioral dynamics play out as life dramas that we continue to act out in a repetitious manner through semi-unconscious states. Once these patterns are formed and become habitual, we usually spend the rest of our life trying to get over them. This is how our karmic patterns become established and continue to operate in a self-perpetuating manner, becoming a kind of self-fulfilling prophecy.

When something happens that’s of an emotionally intense nature or that traumatizes us somehow, our mind literally fragments into what becomes disjointed parts. The traumatizing elements become disparate in terms of seeming foreign to us in the most basic sense, and as a result we don’t know how to integrate them back into mind in a healthy, meaningful way. As we refuse to express them, we eventually come to disown them completely and over time lose awareness of them altogether. When we hold back parts of ourselves by refusing to outwardly express them in our everyday life, they stay alive within us, and continue to play out subliminally. Whatever we can’t seem to express in a healthy way, we disassociate from the memory itself while maintaining the emotion connected to the memory. The emotional aspect being maintained remains active within us and continues to express in ways that are not directly associated with what caused them, making them even more difficult to recognize. The emotion then acts as a “trigger” for setting an unconscious pattern in motion as an automatic reaction or a dynamic we play out without a direct awareness of what we’re doing or why. It continues to play out internally through self-talk formed as a kind of continuous ‘story’ that we’re always in the process of telling ourselves as a means of creating how we experience things, and eventually becomes such a natural part of us that we lose our ability to “see it clearly”.

Karma – Beyond the Veil of Negative Existence

While the memory of the actual event isn’t always clear to us, the feeling and emotion we experienced at the time it occurred remains active and continues to run the ‘pattern inherent’ in the memory as a behavioral dynamic, while also acting as a mental filter for giving us an instant interpretation of any current events that are of a similar nature, connected of course, by the emotion those events stimulate in us, producing an ‘automated effect’ that resides just below the level of awareness. So, the unconscious emotional pattern continues to operate subliminally in our everyday life as a normal way of being and seeing the world, creating more of the same type of experiences over and over which develops over time into what becomes our ‘life story’. This occurs without us being aware of what we’re actually doing or the fact that we’re the one ‘doing it to ourselves’ by continuing to act out habitual patterns as emotional dramas. Because we remain pretty much unaware of what we’re doing in terms of the thematic patterns playing out and the natural behaviors involved, we form an experience of them as ‘being done to us’ by others, and over time begin forming generalized beliefs about the ‘way the world is’. Once we deny these memories to the point where they become beliefs formed into general categories that we apply across the board as a means of interpreting all our experiences to ‘mean’ the same thing, they form the basis for our ‘life theme’ as the ‘storyline’ that we continuously tell ourselves as a means of forming our ‘identity’. Our identity is formed by how we associate with our own self-produced experiences.

We’re always creating ‘how we experience’ the world around us from both conscious, self-aware aspects of ourselves, where we think and act intentionally, and unconscious, repressed aspects of ourselves playing out subliminally below the level of awareness, where they exist more as habitual feelings and emotions that run our thoughts and play out in an automatic, natural fashion, without a direct awareness of them or the fact that we can actually control and regulate them. We let our habitual emotions determine what we focus on, think about, and what thematic memories we play over and over in our mind, determining our mood in forming the same type of experiences throughout the day. We live primarily out of an unconscious state of reverie where we keep ourselves tuned to the same ideas as a vibratory frequency that we act to both transmit and receive from everything in our environment. We continue to create the same thematic patterns of our past in the present, setting the premise for future experiences of the same kind.

Resonance - torus of the human energy field

Karmic Patterns as Our Vibratory Signature

Naturally, all patterns are formed in our imagination as a ‘thoughtform’, shaped internally as a possible experience that brings it alive with sensations. As we form an idea in our mind as an internal experience, it acts to generate correlating emotions, forming what’s called our soul’s “signature frequency”. This frequency, formed by how we use our mind to shape our experiences, is constantly interacting with everything around us through a ‘mental signal’ we’re simultaneously transmitting and acting to receive. We ‘tune ourselves’ to a particular frequency through the patterns inherent in our own emotional thoughts. While we tend to say that all vibration has a pattern and a self-organizing mechanism inherent in it, we can think of this more accurately as forming an idea (pattern) on the inner planes of the mind as a ‘sensory reality’ that serves as a kind of archetype or ‘metaphorical theme’, which simultaneously generates correlating emotions in response to it, causing it to ‘vibrate’. We infuse it with our own lie-power. The imaginary thoughtform is the pattern, and the emotion generated is the active force that couples with it and interacts with the material world to ‘assemble it’ into a corresponding outer reality through sympathetic resonance, allowing us to ‘experience it’.

As we vibrate at a particular frequency formed by our own thoughts, both emitting and conceiving that frequency, we act to simultaneously attract those functioning through the same frequency as a life-theme, while repelling anyone of a particularly different pattern-frequency. This is generally experienced as having “chemistry” with some people and activities, while being virtually unaffected by other people. When you come into a new situation, certain people immediately stand out and you notice them above others, some people sort of stand out as a secondary thought, and others you look right past without really noticing them. You gravitate towards the people who really stand out, interacting with them further, and the more you interact with them, the more you either feel an affinity towards them, or you lose interest and feel like you don’t have much in common. Occasionally you really feel stimulated by someone and begin building a relationship with them, or you feel an intense connection with someone and become infatuated with them. All of this occurs in a completely natural way, because it’s all being conducted subliminally by the energetic make-up of everyone involved.

We naturally gravitate towards and end up in a relationship with those who vibrate at a similar frequency, and who have been engrained with corresponding life-patterns and live out of similar emotional states. When they come together, they feel like they already “know” each other because there’s a distinct sense of familiarity and they instantly relate to each other. This experience of vibrating in harmony with someone comes as a feeling of euphoria that fills us with a kind of instant love for them. This is what we often refer to as having chemistry with someone, or “love at first sight”, where an immediate connection is both felt and recognized as a strange kind of affinity with someone we hardly know.

This is the basis for karmic relationships, where we congruently act out the same life-patterns with each other, propelled into motion and maintained by the same group of emotions that correlate to the patterns. They become a co-star in our movie, where they play a complementary role in telling the same type of story, and we become one in theirs. This is easily recognized, especially as you get older and have more life experiences where patterns become self-evident, by becoming aware in all relationships that a dynamic immediately begins taking shape as the relationship steadily becomes established. The dynamic that naturally takes shape allows each person to “play out” their conditioned tendencies as all their repressed, disowned, unconscious issues. Each person immediately begins taking on a complementary role in playing out the same drama together.

A person who’s insecure, for example, will naturally attract and establish a relationship with someone who makes them feel insecure and accentuates their dominant insecurities. Likewise, someone who doesn’t “feel good enough” for some reason, will attract and enter into relationships with those who continue to feed and bring out their feelings of not being good enough, and so on. While, at the same time, switching roles in the same dynamic and giving the other person back the same treatment. For example, someone who’s sensitive to being criticized, will not only unknowingly display the attitude and behaviors that cause them to be criticized, but also criticizes others in the same way they’re criticized, or they act hurt and sulk, causing the other person to feel guilty. It all depends on what the actual dynamic is they share in common. While all dynamics follow universal themes, they all have their own unique twist based on the situations and the type of dynamics they were developed in.

Whatever pattern is shared between two people, becomes the nature of the emotional drama and dynamic played out by how they naturally interact, where each person plays a complementary role in acting out the same pattern. We attract and feel attracted to those who have been conditioned with the similar issues, beliefs, behavioral tendencies, and family dynamics, as a ‘thematic pattern’ that establishes and maintains the relationship. These are called ‘karmic relationships’, which involve any and all relationships that are maintained for any period of time. The problem usually stems from us not knowing that all our relationships provide us with the basis for acting out unconscious tendencies formed through our initial conditioning, which is providing us with the opportunity to begin realizing what they are and the role we’re playing in producing and keeping them alive.

If we fail to “wake up” in the midst of our own dream, where we gain insight into our own unconscious patterns being acted out through impulses, then we continue to act them out faithfully through our very nature, attitude, natural behaviors, habitual emotional states and the thought processes that result from them. We tend to stay locked into the thematic patterns formed out of the memories of our childhood conditioning, which become the themes we build our identity around, and as a result, we become prisoners of our own unconscious creation. If, however, we can gain insights into our own unconscious tendencies, where we become self-aware and momentarily realize what’s actually happening and what our part is in creating it, we can begin prying open the door to greater and more profound forms of self-awareness, where we can begin consciously employing our ability to create our own life in a more intentional and deliberate way. We can act within our own life to change our part in the habitual patterns we consistently play out unknowingly with others, breaking our own self-induced trance.

Karma as the Basis for Healing and Self-Development

Another way of understanding the value and power of karma, comes by realizing it’s only the people we love and care deeply for that have the ability to “drag us through the mud”, so to speak. It’s in caring enough about another that we are emotionally compelled and set an intention to help them through difficult times and bad situations, without getting discouraged or giving up. As we help them through a bad situation, we simultaneously work through the same issues ‘we have’ in relation to their problem and develop the character traits necessary for staying with the process long enough to help them make it through. It’s only when we care enough about someone that we’re willing to walk through the fire with them and do whatever it takes, that we also develop correlated aspects of our own character.

For example, when we don’t have a drug problem or addiction ourselves, yet someone we love does, helping them through their addiction and the relapses that commonly take place along the way, can require us to exercise extreme forms of patience, perseverance, moral strength of will, hope, mental endurance, understanding, and compassion. It’s only when we care enough that we stay with the process through all its ups and downs, long enough to accomplish it with the other person, while simultaneously going through our own issues in regard to it. Such as feeling scared, not knowing what to do, feeling disappointed, lied to, betrayed, let down, losing hope, feeling stressed, and disillusioned in the most basic sense. As we go through a gamut of unruly emotions and struggle through the process necessary to push through the low points, we develop certain parts of our character to a new level. The very issues and traits that arise in us while working to help them, are the same ones related to their weaknesses and that are needed to overcome their addiction.

As we relate to them in understanding the problem they’re facing, it automatically stimulates and calls forth the same traits in us. This allows us to consciously work on developing those traits within ourselves in relation to them, and as we develop them into strengths by embodying them, we simultaneously strengthen those same traits ‘in them’. Whatever we ‘demonstrate’ through our presence, mindset, and outward actions, is ‘causal’ in nature, and works energetically to stimulate, bring alive, and call forth the same traits and way of being in the other person. We’re always teaching whatever it is we consistently demonstrate through our presence and how we’re being. Our presence is an ‘energetic state’ formed out of our state of mind as our character, and acts ‘on’ everything around us to stimulate and call forth the same internal qualities. People learn in the most basic sense by ‘imitating’ what’s being modeled for them by another.

When we feel frustrated and want to give up because we feel what we’re doing isn’t working or is a waste of time, it’s the perfect opportunity to exercise new forms of patience, determination, and mental endurance. As soon as we feel hopeless in a situation, we’re able to not only tap into what causes feelings of hopelessness, but also their counterparts needed to reestablish a sense of hope. All character traits have a polar-opposite that can be used to develop them. These are commonly referred to as vices (weaknesses) and virtues (strengths), which are opposite of each other as ‘extremes’ of the same thing as a state of being. Being a coward, for example, is opposed to be courageous, both of which are a possible response to fear (fight or flight). When you feel afraid and want to give up, quit, or run away from what you’re afraid of, and you move into an objective (unemotional) perspective, you can ‘choose’ to be courageous instead, and confront or take action despite the fear, and in doing so, you strengthen and develop an internal sense of courage and mental fortitude. If you set an intention to do this every time you feel afraid, you’ll begin creating more and more experiences of yourself being brave and strong, and they’ll act to gradually transform your fears into feelings of moral strength and confidence. This also causes the tendency to feel easily overwhelmed and intimidated to go away, being replaced with the ability to get a handle on your life and resist cravings, impulses, and weakness that leads to relapsing.

Allow yourself to realize that when you relate to someone in terms of their problems and the issues their dealing with, and you gain rapport with them, that you’re ‘stimulated’ by correlating character traits. By turning inward and becoming aware of what’s becoming active within you, you’re able to realize what the deficiencies are that are facilitating the problem. By working on the internal traits being stimulated in you by another, changing your own vibratory nature in response to them, you simultaneously influence those same traits to become active in them. This is what rapport means. It’s a form of ‘energetic entrainment’ that forms the basis for hypnosis. By working with the same traits and issues in yourself that are being stimulated by another, you impose a direct influence on those same traits in the other person through ‘sympathetic resonance’. When two vibrations of a similar enough nature come in near proximity of each other, they gradually begin vibrating in harmony with each other. The key in this process is to maintain an awareness of what’s happening to you internally in relation with them, so you don’t get pulled into an unconscious state where you take on and begin expressing the same trait and issue, and instead, once rapport is achieved and briefly maintained, begin gradually transforming it in yourself to a more positive expression, and they’ll naturally follow.

All of your karmic interactions, which means the ones that we find particularly stimulating and call forth a reaction of some kind in us, provide us with a window into repressed aspects of our own nature, and the patterns playing out in us at an unconscious, or semi-unconscious level. When we’re aware of this, it also provides us with the ripe opportunity for healing our own conditioned patterns, and the basis for transforming them through a form of conscious self-development. Once we recognize the unconscious patterns activated and set in motion through feelings and emotional triggers, we can begin working with our conscious mind to resolve and transform them into new patterns we design intentionally.

If we realize that going through difficult situations with those we love and care about provides us with the means for also transforming the same traits and issues in ourselves, we become empowered creators in the most basic sense. It helps us understand that the way to help others is by helping ourselves in regard to the same issues and character traits involved in those issues. We can only see and work deliberately with what’s in an ’active state’ and expressing through a correlated life dynamic. As we go through life problems with others, it acts to develop us in the same way and through the same means, strengthening our bond with them and with humanity as a whole. We work to influence the world around us not by acting on it set apart from us, but by connecting with it as an equivalent internal state, recognizing what comes alive inside of us as a part of it, and then working to develop those qualities and character traits to a positive and more empowered level.

Whatever we cultivate within as a fundamental part of our nature, tunes and determines our mental frequency, and when maintained intentionally, influences everything and everyone around us to match our vibration. But we have to be able to hold ourselves to a higher level of development without being pulled back down to a lower level through emotional or sentimental sympathy. The way to heal others is to heal those same issues and traits in ourselves. By doing our healing work diligently, we simultaneously act to heal others and the world at large. The internal world is what forms the vibration for ordering and organizing the outside world into the same pattern and qualities, but we have to be able to maintain a high vibration while being influenced by lower vibrations long enough to begin raising them. If we allow our vibration to drop or begin matching other people’s vibration, then we fall into the same mindset and begin participating in acting out the same dynamics as they are.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Mentoring / Coaching / Consultation for spiritual Growth, self-mastery, personal transformation

Realizing your True Self and Embodying your Power to Consciously Create Yourself

October 4, 2021January 18, 2023 Dr. Linda Gadbois

The process of personal transformation (Alchemy) as a form of spiritual regeneration comes as a process that has two basic stages. The first stage is what’s often referred to as our psychological healing, where we shed our false ego built through our formative conditioning, and the second comes by learning how to employ the principles necessary for developing our self to a higher level of self-awareness and creativity. The first stage is necessary as a means of laying the proper foundation for creating ourselves through our ability to develop our true character from a fully conscious and self-aware state. This stage of transformation comes by identifying and removing all the “false-images and ideas” we’ve taken on about ourselves that cover over or prevent our true light from shining through. Most of us start out in life by absorbing and taking on other people’s ideas about “who” and “how” we should be and by the time we’ve become young adults we’ve lost touch with who we are in terms of our essential nature, what our life purpose is, or what we came here to learn through experience as a means of evolving ourselves.

Each one of us is born into life as a “karmic seed” that’s comprised of an archetypal matrix of qualities and characteristics that form a distinct theme, which contains the entire “plan for our life” (Divine Providence) that unfolds through a natural growth process. We are perfectly “designed” to fulfill our life purpose which unfolds in a synchronized manner as a correlated series of events that set natural processes in motion. The events of our life unfold with perfect timing because one naturally arises and evolves out of the other as an expression of our consciousness. As we go through one life experience, we develop inherent parts of our character and our mental model, which is comprised of the memory attained through our experiences, which sets up the circumstances necessary for the next series of events to evolve out of in a completely natural way. Our character forms our essential nature as our personality out of which all our natural behaviors are formed and come in an automatic way. Our mental paradigm is what forms the “lens” we “look through” as a means of perceiving the outer world.

Nothing comes into our life until we are ready for it as a level and quality of consciousness because we’re the one projecting it and “calling it forth” through our vibratory frequency. A frequency has both a pattern and a self-assembling mechanism inherent in it that works at both the unconscious and conscious level simultaneously. We all have what we can call a “signature frequency” (formed as our mental paradigm) that works through the greater field of information surrounding us (outer reality) to only activate and bring forth in that field what “matches” our paradigm through “resonance”. What we perceive as an outer reality is a field of information that exists in a neutral state of “probability”. Each one of us vibrates at our own unique frequency, and we energetically “influence” the outer field into a configuration that correlates with the thematic pattern of our mental model. Each person “acts on” the same field of information (consciousness) by only vibrating the parts that are congruent with their paradigm and uses the selected parts to reform it in a way that brings a consistent version of reality as an experience of “themselves”. Our outer reality reflects our inner reality, because both created by the same “mind”. We tend to think of ourselves as a physical being within a neutral reality that’s objective in nature, but the fact is all reality as we’re capable of knowing and experiencing it, is subjective in nature, and formed in a way that’s unique to us as our own creation. Every single person who views that same reality as a material formation (tree, house, car, landscape, etc.), will experience it in a slightly different way, based on the structure of the “mind”.

The outer reality is formed through our perception of it as a mental construct. Our mind is constructed of information that’s highly organized and synthesized into a coherent model. It forms a dynamic series of correlated “filters” that are superimposed over our outer reality as a way of reorganizing it into a construct that reflects our paradigm. These filters are primarily formed by beliefs, values, preferences, temperament, perspective, and memories, which are all synthesized into a “single model”. These filters are interactive as different aspects of a greater whole in much the same way each of our character traits blend harmoniously in forming our personality and producing all our natural and unconscious behaviors. Beliefs can be very hard to recognize as such due to the fact that our mind acts naturally (at the unconscious level) to construct the reality of our beliefs, making them seem real.

The Dual Nature of our Mind

We’re always working in every moment to shape our physical existence using two primary aspects of our mind and self, called our subconscious and self-conscious, which make up what we refer to as our “lower self”. This aspect of our mind is comprised of both our instinctual, emotional, conditioned self, and our self-aware, rational, intellect, which builds whole realities out of thoughts. Our intellect is the aspect of our material mind that forms our outer awareness as our “waking mind” and is what forms our internal dialogue as thoughts that run constantly in a habitual manner. Our thinking mind of outer awareness is the aspect of our self that perceives the outer reality being projected by our subconscious and interprets the events of our life to make them “mean” something. Whatever meaning we give something forms the story we tell ourselves about it which forms the basis for how we “experience ourselves” through our own self-created story about things. As we tell ourselves a story about something, we “sense ourselves” through it and begin identifying with it as a result.

Meaning, like the mind that produces it, is also threefold in nature, and whatever meaning we give an event or situation, means something about us, about others, and about the way the world is in general. The world in general sets the stage necessary for playing out our story in a way that makes sense, where we’re the main star and others are the costars of our movie. We create on three levels to form a single idea where every element is a logical and cohesive part of the same overall story. This way we can play out smaller stories within greater stories of the same basic idea. We’re always creating in a cohesive manner out of a coherent model where the same idea plays out harmoniously on multiple levels and scales of increasing complexity.

If you pay close attention to your own thoughts, you’ll notice that there’s always “one part of you” talking to “another part of you”. You’re always talking to yourself inside your mind, explaining, describing, justifying, and forming a narrative around things that are also being “projected” by your own “mental model” as your perception, and then being interpreted through your model to form a story about them. The experience formed is then “reabsorbed and synthesized” back into your model as a variant that acts to upgrade it somehow. This process of inner dialogue as “storytelling” is the most primary and completely natural way you’re always in the process of using your self-conscious mind to “program” your subconscious to produce the “reality of your thoughts” as an “experience of yourself”. You’re always the one creating the reality that you then use as the means of experiencing yourself. What we’re referring to here as “yourself” isn’t your body and personality, its your mind and soul. Your soul exists as your “entire reality”, not just an aspect of it.

As we have emotionally intense experiences as a child, we try to make sense of them by telling ourselves a story about what they mean. Due to the fact that our rational, logical, reasoning mind hasn’t begun developing yet (starts developing at puberty), our interpretation stems from the emotion we’re experiencing because of the event. As we form emotional interpretations of why something is happening and what it means about us, we also start forming natural behaviors that we do in an automatic fashion anytime we’re experiencing that same emotion without direct awareness of what we’re doing or why. As we continue to play them out in a consistent and unconscious manner they become a major “creative factor” and we build “mental complexes” out of them.

A complex comes as an idea about ourselves, such as . . . I’m not loved, wanted, worthy, good enough, smart enough, and so on, and go on to become the “theme” of our “life story” and what we use as the means of experiencing ourselves and shaping our identity as we grow into young adults. A complex comes as a whole dynamic (pattern) that’s played out at both the unconscious and conscious level. We maintain the behavior that we associate with causing the activity at an unconscious level as a way of initiating the dynamic, and then live it out with awareness where we form the illusion that the other person is “doing it to us”. We fail to see our part in co-creating it because we remain unaware of what it is we’re doing that produces a consistent response. Our “life theme” is what forms our perception of the world outside of ourselves and what we use to not only bring alive and rearrange our reality to match our interpretation, but as the means of creating ourselves (our character and identity) through a consistent type of experience that we build up over time.

A person who feels they’re “not good enough”, for example, will only “see” in any situation what can be used to create an experience of it, and will interpret any situation and set of behaviors being displayed by others to “mean”, once again, they’re not good enough. They will unconsciously continue to display the same type of behaviors that led to them feeling as if they weren’t good enough, and that caused others to treat them that way as a result, while remaining unaware of what they’re doing that’s causing it. If someone compliments or admires them, they’ll simply interpret it in a way that makes it out to mean whatever they need it to in order to keep telling their story about themselves. Such as, you’re just being nice, you don’t mean it, you’re not sincere, or you just want something from me. They’ll somehow interpret even the most positive intentions and behaviors to match their belief about themselves. This is how we get “locked into” a false reality produced by our own beliefs and can live our whole life out of a delusion without ever realizing it’s something we’re making up.

By the time our rational intellect starts developing and coming into play in a dominant role where we can form new interpretations from a rational perspective (starts around 12 to 14 years old, and is fully active around 21 to 28 years of age), we’ve already built up our story as strong feelings and beliefs about ourselves, and we use our creative mind to build a narrative out of our story instead of as the means of transforming it. By the time our conscious mind comes into play as our individuality, we’ve already established our mental model out of our conditioning and how we interpreted things as a child, and we continue to “see” and “create” the same type of experiences. This is because what we call our conscious mind is an aspect of our subconscious that’s birthed completely within the reality formed by our subconscious. Instead of using our conscious mind to dissolve our emotional delusions and begin telling a new kind of story, we use it as a means of embellishing our story and forming our identity out of it.

The Archetypal Design of our Soul as our Karmic Seed

Our karmic seed comes as our “inner nature” and personality as a form of archetypal design (revealed through our astrological birth-chart) based on how we’ve developed and grown ourselves in previous lifetimes, and by how we’ve created out of a unconscious state. This comes as a completely natural part of ourselves as our character, which forms our predisposition, temperament, natural tendencies, talents, special abilities, and interests in life. Our karma is “set-up” and reestablished through our formative conditioning through a “cause and effect” process of “stimulus – response”. Our life situation and family dynamics are always acting to stimulate and call forth certain aspects of our character, where they’re expressed and developed into habitual patterns through the dynamics being played out. Other parts of our character remain dormant and unstimulated and form what becomes the basis for our “latent potential”. Potential that remains dormant and undeveloped within us can only be activated naturally through live situations that serve to stimulate, awaken, and call it forth as a natural response where it’s then utilized as a means of handling the situation. We can also develop ourselves in a conscious manner by recognizing what lies hidden within us, and deciding to bring it forth and begin utilizing it by intentionally employing it in our daily life.

All “properties” have behaviors inherent in them that are only brought out and expressed through an interaction of complementary opposites. Its’ only through “contrast” as the natural relationship between opposites of the same idea that aspects of ourselves are brought into creative expression where we can use them to experience ourselves in new ways. As we create new experiences of ourselves, we start building up those experiences as a way of defining ourselves with new qualities. We can only work to develop qualities in ourselves when they’re being stimulated from an outside, complementary source of some kind, and are in an active state. Even when we decide to start utilizing latent aspects of our nature in a willful manner through imaginary processes, where we play out various scenarios while designing a new response that replaces an old one, we only know if it worked when we’re in a live situation where we’re actually being stimulated, and it comes forth as a natural response.

We often think we’ve formed new patterns that resolve and transform issues born out of our conditioning because we’ve developed and replayed them in our mind over and over, giving our subconscious a new pattern as an automatic response. But we don’t ever really know if it took hold and is permanent until we’re involved in a live interaction where strong emotions associated with our issue as an “activating device” are being openly displayed and projected towards us and we employ the new response without having to think about. However, what we can do in a live situation is immediately recognize what’s being activated within us and why, and through this awareness gain control of ourselves where we can use the new pattern we’ve rehearsed mentally as an alternative that can be employed without having to design it on the spot. Often, what the imaginary process does is give you an alternative reaction you can employ as a well-thought-out idea in the heat of the moment when you’re being emotionally triggered. One of the problems we can have in forming new responses is that in the moment when we’re being triggered by an outside stimulus we can’t think clearly and don’t have an alternative we can use in its place as a means of consciously managing the situation and bringing our own reaction under our control. When we change our own reactions and the behaviors and activities that automatically issue forth out of them, we begin transforming our experiences and our “self” by way of those experiences.

Removing False Ideas about Yourself

The first stage of transformation comes by separating out what’s false from what’s true. You must recognize and then remove ideas that you’ve taken on about yourself that were given to you by others, formed out of how others judged you, established through guilt, shame, or obligation, as a means of controlling you, or that you developed in order to be accepted by a particular social group. The most basic way to do this is by learning to recognize your own “essence” as a form of “design”. Step outside of the image you’ve built up in your mind about yourself, let go of the attachments you’ve formed to this idea about yourself, and begin soul-searching by asking yourself some basic questions. You know when your answer is true and therefor relevant, because in answering it a whole series of correlated realizations will spontaneously arise out of it as a chain of associated ideas that act to expand it.

Start off with questions like . . .

What have you always had a natural interest in and always felt compelled towards?
What is it you’ve always felt an attraction towards as a kind of affinity?
What kind of activities do you enjoy doing and look forward to with a sense of excitement and anticipation?
What kind of ideas fill you with a sense of purpose in life?
When you were a kid, what type of ideas and roles did you naturally aspire towards? Who were your favorite characters and types of stories?
What is it that you consistently gravitate towards and see yourself doing?
What is it that when you engage in it energizes you and gives you a deepened sense of satisfaction and well-being?
What type of situations make you feel like you’re in your element?
When you think about your life, what is it that you consistently see yourself doing as a kind of vision for your life?
What special abilities and natural talents do you have?
What kind of things do you love?
What kind of ideas give you a sense of purpose out of which a whole vision of your life naturally emerges as a vivid possibility?
As an adult, what roles do you naturally play in life? (caretaker, parent, teacher, activist, leader, innovator, problem-solver, encouraging others, etc.)
What skills have you developed that came natural to you?

If you answer these types of questions by “journaling about them” (writing out answers in an in-depth manner where other ideas spontaneously emerge), it’ll open a gate that allows you to access and touch upon deeper parts of yourself that may have been dulled and covered over, skewed to a new form, or conditioned out of you. Again, all answers must be based on you and only you and not from an idea someone else gave you or told you was true about you, or what you “should do and be like” as a form of judgment. This is purely your own feelings and ideas about yourself and your life that exist “within in”.

The important thing to remember here is that we’re all born into this life with a “vision” for our life that comes natural as a form of “seed”. We are “designed” with all the qualities and traits necessary to fulfill that vision through natural processes and by learning to utilize all of our potential through the activity the vision naturally requires. You don’t have to “try” to be who you really are because it’s built into your nature, and you do it naturally. The only “effort” you put into “becoming” is when you’re taking on and attempting to become something you’re not. Spirit always works through Universal laws as natural processes, which proceed out of our core being in an effortless manner as a kind of “flow”. When that flow is impeded and we cut ourselves off from our true source, we begin struggling in life, and have to apply great effort in trying to create because we’re working against or contrary to the natural laws.

Everything you need to create your life as your soul’s purpose in coming here, you’re born with. It resides inside of you as a seed that grows and blossoms. We don’t ever “acquire” anything from outside us that we don’t already have. The only purpose the outside serves is to stimulate and call forth into active expression what exist within us in a latent state. What we experience as an outer world is actually a projection as an extension or continuation of our inner world and is being naturally formed by us. It doesn’t exist apart from our ability to perceive it. All stimulation comes as an interaction between complementary opposites (of the same thing), where we first act through “resonance” to form the structure of our outer world, and it then acts on us to stimulate us through the relationship formed by latent, repressed, and unknown aspects of our own internal nature. What we imagine to be outside of us as traits we don’t already possess is because they are dormant within us, or we’ve repressed them through some form of judgment, and have become hidden and unknown to us as a result.

Recognizing and Integrating Your Shadow

The other part in the initial stages of self-realization and awareness of who you really are comes by learning to recognize fragmented aspects of yourself that you have disowned and denied having, even to yourself, due to how you were judged by others, and then began judging yourself in the same manner. The most primary part of our lower nature as our subconscious-instinctual self, is the desire to be accepted as a part of a group, with the most basic one being our family unit. When we’re judged as being bad, wrong, or deficient for natural character traits that we possess and openly express, it means we’re going to be rejected, ostracized, or alienated from our family or social group, and as a result, we refuse to “express” those parts of ourselves, and keep them buried deep inside instead. When we’re shamed and made to feel guilty about what exists as a natural part of us, we usually choose to deny and disown it, and we begin hiding it, often, even to ourselves.

As we form these fragmented hidden aspects of ourselves that we refuse to express, they stay “active” within us as a frequency and continue to create by remaining a natural part of our outer environment, which is being formed as a mirror image of our subconscious. Because we denied having them and buried them deep within our subconscious, we don’t recognize them as being ours, and in their active state they still motivate “unconscious behaviors” that we naturally display without a direct awareness of what we’re doing or why. Because we’re unaware of them while they’re still active at the unconscious level, they form the basis for our complexes as unconscious patterns we continue to play out with others, and form how we judge others through the reaction they naturally cause in us.

We all have a built-in mechanism for being able to recognize and accurately identify our own repressed character traits, so that we can begin working with them in a conscious manner. Once we realize that our entire outer environment, including our perception of others, is being projected (reshaped into a correlating construct) by our subconscious mind and includes the unknown aspects that lie hidden within us, we have the tools necessary to begin reevaluating them in a way that will allow us to integrate them in a healthy and productive manner. By realizing that these same traits and behaviors form a pronounced reaction in us and cause us to “judge others” in the same way we were judged and came to judge ourselves, we can bring them into the light of our conscious mind where we can examine them in a new and more productive way. We form a reaction outwardly to what exists inwardly that we’re unaware of. All accepted and known aspects of ourselves that also form a natural part of our outer perception don’t cause a reaction, seem completely normal and uneventful, or elicit a feeling of admiration and respect.

We’re also provided with an even deeper tool that allows us to become aware of why we repressed it, because our reaction is formed out of the same “judgment” that caused us to deny the same trait in ourselves. So, by examining the nature of our reaction and the story that naturally starts playing out in our mind as our internal dialogue with ourselves provides us with the whole equation we need in order to transform it in a way that we can incorporate it through a healthy and constructive expression that matches our image of ourselves and what “kind of person” we are. The reason we deny certain aspects of ourselves is because we don’t know how to express them in a way that fits or enhances the image we’ve built of ourselves, and we refuse to express them as a result.

We must start by realizing that every character trait, no exceptions, has an appropriate means of expression that’s constructive and beneficial in nature. When we assign ideas of “good and bad” or “right and wrong” to any aspect of ourselves, we judge ourselves as being wrong or bad for having those traits and decide instead to “deny” having them. As we form denial around certain parts of ourselves, we push them to the background where we lose awareness of them, yet they remain a fundamental part of our subconscious mind and continue to actively express as a natural part of our outer reality. Due to the fact that we’ve repressed and are no longer aware of them, we don’t recognize them as being ours when we see and react to them in others.

Our mind literally become fragmented, and we pose one part of ourselves against another part of ourselves. The disowned parts of us become what we call our “shadow” because they reside in darkness within us, and over time we lose our ability to “see them” in ourselves while continuing to judge others who openly express the same traits and activities. As we judge, we’re making something good or bad based on how we’re looking at it and the situation it’s actively expressing in. If we looked at that same idea from a different perspective and as expressing through a different situation, or in a different way, we might see it as good and perhaps beneficial or as providing us with the means for enhancing our ability to express ourselves in the right situation. If we judge something about ourselves as being bad or wrong it’s usually showing us that we’re simply not expressing it in an appropriate manner, and it’s destructive or harmful as a result, or it doesn’t suite the image we’ve built of ourselves as a specific type and kind of person.

There’s no such thing as a trait that’s all bad. Every trait serves a purpose and when utilized appropriately, creates in a beneficial manner. Anger for example, when formed as a reaction based on our conditioning nearly always tends to be destructive and harmful to ourselves and others, yet it can be an appropriate response to violence and injustice. Violence is an appropriate response when we’re protecting our family and loved ones from a threat of violence, and when protecting those who can’t protect themselves, or when it’s being used against us. So every aspect of ourselves becomes a beneficial tool for forming an appropriate response to correlating situations and the right circumstances. If it’s destructive and unwarranted, it’s showing us that we’re not using it appropriately, or that we’ve attached the wrong idea to it that’s limiting our ability to express it in a creative and beneficial way.

We only “fear” what we don’t understand, and out of fear comes hatred. The most natural way to overcome hatred is by looking to understand what it is we hate. We can only “love” what we understand. By taking an attitude of understanding, it allows us to look at something from an entirely different perspective and gain new awareness of it that allows us to transform hate into love. This is what the saying “love thy enemy” is trying to point out to us. All traits express through interactions and how it is we use them in relation with each other as a means of transforming them. This formula for transforming traits is laid out for us through what’s called the 7 vices and virtues, which exist as complementary opposites of each other. Each vice has its complementary virtue. If we set them apart where they’re opposing each other, and draw a line to connect them, we form a “gradient scale” between extremes of the same thing. We transform a vice by employing the complementary virtue in its place. By doing this consistently over a period of time, we build up experiences born out of virtues as an accumulative process where we steadily move from one end of the scale to the other. The object isn’t to swing from one extreme to the other, but rather find the middle point where they exist in balance and are being used as tools for creating by expanding our ability to express ourselves.

If we want to create peace in the world, we don’t do it by launching a campaign to protest war, we do it by cultivating peace in every area of our life and relationships. We become “peace” itself as a state of mind that produces a corresponding outer reality as an “experience of ourselves” as being peaceful. We embody peace as a quality of being and we exist in harmony with everyone and everything around us. If we live in fear, and are afraid of a lot of things, we act on ourselves to transform it by consciously choosing to employ “courage” instead and walk courageously into our fears. We can start with the smaller fears that are easier to manage, because what you’ll find with relatively little practice is that most of your fears aren’t real but are more a product of your imagination allowed to run wild. Fear is only designed to prevent us from taking action, and as soon as you take action to move forward in spite of fear, it immediately subsides and goes away. Once you begin realizing this and concentrate on creating experiences of being courageous and confident, you become empowered, and can easily transform the greatest of fears. This is because they all work by way of the same principles, which operate the same way in all areas of your life.

Returning to Wholeness

The main goal of our soul required for growing and evolving ourselves to higher levels of self-awareness and creativity, and ultimately ascension, is to learn how to integrate our shadow aspects so that we become fully self-aware and whole again, where we’re able to realize that we are the one creating our own reality. As we return to a state of wholeness by blending the inner with the outer as a harmonious continuation of each other, we become “coherent”. By becoming aware of the nature and relationship of our subconscious and self-conscious mind, we can learn how to operate each aspect using universal laws which provide us with explicit instructions on how to create from a fully conscious and self-aware state. As long as we remain unconscious and create our life from a semi-unconscious state where we fail to recognize the consequences we call upon ourselves through our own actions, we remain on the lower material plane as the victim of our own creation. We’re all here to wake up within our own life, realize our power to self-create, and learn how to operate our own mind as a means of creating in an intentional and responsible manner. Each one of us is the sole creator of our own life experiences, and out of those experiences we simultaneously create ourselves.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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