Understanding the True Nature of Loving Yourself as the Prerequisite for Loving Another

The idea of self-love, like all truly profound ideas, exist in a basic state of paradox, and can be a bit difficult to understand in terms of how to actually apply them by “doing” or “becoming” them. The mind, like everything, exists in a basic state of polar opposites that perform different functions of a unified experience of reality. This polarity that’s inherent in everything is the masculine and feminine energies, which in this case corresponds to the idea of the left and right hemispheres of our brain, the conscious and subconscious minds, the brain and heart, the inner and outer, doing and being, thinking and feeling, embodying and outwardly expressing, and so on. This is the primary law of the triad or trinity, which embodies the most fundamental principle of all as the three-in-One concept. Every singular being or life form exists in a dual state of symmetry and harmonious balance. This demonstrates the in-flowing and out-flowing electromagnetic aspect of subtle energy that animates the material body it inhabits and operates through as a unified being.

All “doing” comes from “being”. How we are in terms of our inner feelings, thoughts, beliefs, memories, and imagining, forms all of our outward expression as “how we’re being” at any given moment, and how we behave and act as a result. Our inner state is always being projected outwards and forms the very basis of our “perceptual lens” and what we not only “see” and react to in our environment, but what we also act to stimulate, awaken, and produce biological chemistry as the equivalent of our inner state or feelings. How we’re feeling inwardly determines how we’re being and what we’re doing outwardly. We can only see, activate, interact with, and produce more of what we first cultivate in ourselves. In order to love another, we have to first love ourselves, because the experience of both are created out of the same mind.

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Most of us somewhat get the masculine aspect of loving ourselves as making yourself a priority in your own life, honoring how you feel, demanding respect and appreciation, or providing for yourself and taking good care of yourself in the material sense. But the feminine aspect can have a tendency to elude most because it’s not about an outward idea of “doing something”, but rather an inward state of being. The feminine is our inner self that pure feeling as a “state”, and is what creates and gives life to all outer experiences. To love yourself in this aspect means to “become love” as a quality of consciousness. It means to cultivate and build up feelings of love that form the “eyes we look through”, that sees and awakens only that which warrants love in everyone and everything around us.

By seeing only what warrants love in others, what it is about them that makes us feel more love, we stimulate and awaken those same feelings “in” them. We act to initiate and bring out in them the same loving state, we bring out in them more of the “qualities” produced by that state, which forms the basis for the nature of the interaction. By interacting “through” love as our mental and emotional state shared between us, we amplify, increase, and draw back into us more feelings of love. We create experiences that become memory of love as an outer reality. This is the significance behind the statement “you get back more of what you give off”. What we emanate as our state of being, we bring to life all around us through the relationship we form with it, and develop and strengthen it through the energetic interaction itself.

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So counterbalancing or forming the foundation out of which we outwardly act to love ourselves by taking good care of ourselves, is to become love itself by embodying it, and becoming the vessel through which love expresses in the world. To become impregnated with love, grow and nurture it from within you as your being, then express through that state, giving birth to it in every interaction, and reproducing it in others. By being love itself, we inspire love in others just through our presence and attention. A loving gaze awakens those same energies inwardly, calling them forth, and using them to create experiences of love for both people. While the masculine energy separates and contrasts something as the means of experiencing it from without, the feminine energy enters into and unites with it, experiencing itself from within it as it. This is literal not symbolic. Our inner state as our vibratory frequency is forming resonance with everything around us, attracting and absorbing some, while repelling and reflecting others. Whatever quality of consciousness we embody and become, forms our mental paradigm as a lens, that only sees, interacts with, and forms all activity out of that state.

To love ourselves is the same thing as loving another, because they’re both produced by the same state of mind. In this sense, all perception is self perception. We can only see in others and the outer world what exists in us as a quality of consciousness that only recognizes and produces outer realities of the same quality or nature. How we experience others is the same way we experience ourselves, either by being just like them, or by contrasting and opposing them. It comes about through both measures of entering into relationship with another, uniting in mind and relating to them, or separating from them and contrasting and comparing to define ourselves through our differences. We’re always measuring similarities and differences as a way of experiencing ourselves and others.

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All doing comes from being, you can’t love yourself unless you first have love in your heart, and possess it by being it. To become love itself as an internal state, is to express as love in all your perceptions, interpretations, and behaviors. You become the outward expression of love. Love flows into you, fills you, and overflows into the outer world. The masculine is the outward expression and activities produced out of the feminine. In order to truly love another we have to first love ourselves, because it’s the same mind perceiving both. When we exist as love, we can only enter into relationship with love in everything else. Love isn’t something we find in another, it’s something cultivate in ourselves and use to attract and see others. It’s what forms the foundation necessary to build loving relationships with another!

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Becoming Self-Aware – Mastering the Power of the Spoken Word

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One of the most powerful things you can do to become self-aware is to begin taking conscious control of what you say. By becoming aware of what we say or what we tend to talk about, we can become aware of our own style of thinking. Words that make up the sentences that we speak have the power to shape visual imagery associated with them, which acts to program our subconscious mind to produce them as a physical manifestation or outer experience. What we talk about, and the attitude and stories we form by how we talk, reveal in very specific terms what our “model of the world” is, and how we use our model to fashion our realities and shape ourselves by way of those realities. Words that are spoken, bring the words as internal thoughts outward in a form of communication that elicits the same type of realities in whomever we’re speaking to. Words form the very basis of our thinking and act to shapes ideas as sound into realities internally, that are then used to express and call forth those realities externally by actively speaking them.

 
While many people believe that what they think and talk about is an accurate depiction and expression of a factual reality, and that because of this they’re communicating truthfully, the fact is, nothing could be further from the truth. Our perception of life and reality outside of us is an interpretation that remolds it to be “like us”. Our mind as a paradigm or thematic pattern, takes in information from the outside world and translates it into a story-line as a personalization of it. We’re always “within” our mind’s paradigm looking out, and only “see” in the external world what matches our internal world and can be explained, described, and understood using our paradigm. We literally abstract or pull out of any situation the parts and aspects that resonate with our model, then recompose those aspects to tell a story out of them as a way of experiencing them. Because of this unique feature of the human mind, every single person that’s apart of the same outer reality or event, will form a unique and different experience of it. If five people participate in the same thing, you’ll get five distinct interpretations, all of which “noticed” different things, and created a story out of it by how they put those abstract aspects together in a cohesive way to experience them in a consistent manner so they make sense with all of their experiences. We never experience things or other people as they are, but as we remake them.

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The words we speak are formed into internal imagery that gives life to them as actual and real possibilities. Our thoughts, which come as an inner voice, utilizes our imagination which forms them into possible outer realities based on what memories or ideas we’ve associated to they words themselves. Thoughts are the seeds for producing whole realities, first internally as reliving and recombining memories, forming conceptualizations and internal representations as our creative style for expression. Not only do we think the same type of thoughts repeatedly, but we imagine the same type of scenarios over and over, different only as the modifications necessary to apply them to various outer circumstances. While they vary in application, they remain cohesive and consistent in the theme that’s used to shape them. As we think we create. Our thoughts as internal dialogue are the active use of our will. What we think about we’re simultaneously in the process of creating as our experiences. What you think and speak is not an accurate account of your life, but your life is a direct reflection of your thoughts. All reality as we know it is subject to the individual experiencing it. The inner exists in relationship to the outer, and turns universal and objective reality into a personal subjective reality as the experience of it.

 
As you speak you call forth the reality inherent in your words. As you talk to others, the words that you use and the attitude you speak them with, stimulate in them the same type of reality, and they become a co-creator in that reality. By telling them what life is like for us, we form an image of ourselves in their mind by how they think about what we’re saying. As they picture what we’re saying, they form a similar interpretation, and share in our beliefs about ourselves. This subjective reality as a personalization forms a belief system that’s projected and superimposed over our outer reality as a way of seeing, experiencing, and creating only what matches our belief about it. This is why beliefs are difficult to identify from truth, because they’re our own creation and form the very foundation for how we create our experiences as our basic outer perception.

 
One of the best ways to begin gaining an in-depth insight into your own mind, is to simply begin the practice of objectively listening or witnessing what you say to others. As you talk naturally, periodically hesitate, and move out of the associated position of being “in the experience” you’re talking about, and listen to what you just said, and notice what you see in it in terms of the belief system or paradigm you’re living out of. Listen to the reality it indicates. Notice how you’re presenting yourself to others. And simply reflect on it, allowing a chain of associated ideas to take place as a way of following them back to their roots. Notice that as you objectively listen to yourself as being outside of the experience you’re talking about, without emotional attachments, that a whole series of memories as associated ideas will flash through your mind. And again, just observe them, and allow yourself to realize where they come from and gain insight into them, as self-realization. Simultaneously you’ll begin recognizing how your outer expression as verbalizing thoughts reveals what and how you tend to think. What perspective you take to create your own experiences, what it says about you, and who you become by way of it. Don’t judge it or try to explain and justify it, simply witness it as if you were observing or listening to someone else.

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Once you gain the incredible insight listening to yourself brings, you can extend the practice by learning how to think about what you say before you say it. You can move from an unconscious position of automatic and spontaneous communication, to one of thoughtful and deliberate communication. You can begin asking yourself in any situation, what do I want to create by what I’m about to say, and how will what I say and the attitude I say it with, influence the person or situation I’m saying it too? What will they form in their mind based on what I’m saying? What mental impression or mood am I creating by how and what I talk about? What image am I conveying that will form their impression of me, and what type of ideas they automatically associate to me.

 
By viewing words as cause that produces an equal and predictable effect, we can begin using our words to strategically produce a specific affect in others. We can realize that we have the ability to call forth and create whatever we speak as an internal image. We can begin realizing that it’s through communication that we naturally direct the mind of others. Whatever ideas we’re giving life to inside of us by thinking about them, become the thoughts of others by how we express them. We can begin directing other people’s mind’s by learning to direct our own mind. By becoming conscious of this dynamic process of creating through mental influence, we are provided with the means to begin taking control of our own thoughts, and becoming responsible for how we influence people in a direct and indirect manner. We can begin seeing things about ourselves that eluded us before and remained hidden from our direct awareness. We can begin realizing in very clear terms what our mental model is, what attitudes and beliefs govern our life and act to create our experiences, and through this realization we can begin working with them consciously and intentionally through the creative power of choice and will.

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

 

Transformational Coaching

Spiritual Sciences

 

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Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
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Understanding your Sexual, Life-Force Energy and how to use it Creatively

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Unfortunately, the most magical part of our mind-body system has been ruthlessly slaughtered with unclean and raunchy ideas that impose a form of moral conflict and endless confusion around how to use them to significantly enhance our creativity and improve the quality of our existence, while stirring a deep fire within us required to ignite the internal combustion necessary to clean our system out and keep it running in a constant state of equilibrium and emotional harmony. Like so many things, the ideas and activities we associate to “states of being”, determine how we present them to ourselves, and how we create our experience of them when we engage in them in a completely spontaneous and natural way. In no other idea is this truer than when freely exploring our sexual nature. Not that this energy is actually “sexual” in nature, but in the sense that we can engage in it without having sex or masturbating, even though it’s the main ingredient for those activities also.

 
What we refer to as our Life-Force Energy that animates our body in the most ordinary sense, is also our sexual energy in the fact that it arises out of the sexual and grounding organs of the body, and has a distinct arousing, pleasurable feeling that alters our state of mind, releases tension and inhibitions, and taps into our wild, free, and expressive nature. It has an expanding, inflating, and quickening feeling fueled by beautiful and erotic sensations that drive us to a state of ecstasy and bliss. This is the energy of the spirit that moves in the body, activating it, stimulating and awakening it, that’s used to work directly with all the other energy centers of the body to bring them into balance by “blowing out” blocks, dissolving tension and energetic congestion. In order to work with the energy of the body, you have to use energy in it’s polarized state.

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This is the same energy that’s referred to as the kundalini or serpent energy, which can be intentionally used by drawing it up to activate the other energy centers of the body through the nervous system of the spine in order to unite it with the higher energy centers of the third-eye, or imagination, to produce an incredibly enhanced and heightened form of creativity. When this arousing sensation that expands, quickens, and forms intense pleasure is united with thought and inner vision, we connect to our higher self through an altered state that’s very dynamic and expressive. We turn the body into a creative vessel for the spirit, which is ultimately mental and creative in nature.

 
Like all energies and natural forces, the Life-Force energy exist in a dual state of masculine and feminine, passive and active, and work together in a complementary fashion by rendering the body (feminine) passive, so the active energy (masculine) can move into and through it with no resistance, as a unified, graceful, and excited gesture. And of course, the reverse can also be true, where the body can become the active force that renders the mental force passive, and acts to control the soul’s will for the pursuit of purely physical pleasures. Our physical passions of lust can control our will as thoughts and desire, and the spirit can become the servant of the body’s primal instincts and be used instead to engage in promiscuous sexual behaviors and erotic fantasizing. The very energetic system that creates the artistic genius and god, can also create the twisted pervert and evil, regulated and determined by the soul employing it, and whether or not it’s being used intentionally and with purpose, or unconsciously through compulsive tendencies.

 
This same energy, which ignites matter and the Astral Light of the imagination, if not directed and used properly, can cause overwhelming anxiety and drive people mad (literally). This is largely due to the fact that it’s experienced as an intense emotion that rapidly expands giving us a feeling of being overwhelm while trying to hold it in our body, and the feeling that we’re going to explode, which is the arousing, growth nature of this energy that expands matter to create active life forms. This active, animated, expanding quality is what grows cells by regenerating and multiplying them, and animates the dormant information contained in a seed, stimulating it to grow and develop into a living form.

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When activated in our body it has a rushing, building up, and exploding with intense pleasure sensation that’s also experienced as an orgasm. It’s the same principle of love that operates as the sexual union of the masculine with the feminine, force with form, which fuses them together through a state of erotic intensity and insurmountable ecstasy that drives them out of their mind with intense pleasure, achieved only through their union. At the moment of an orgasm, we lose all sense of ourselves as being separate from our lover and what’s “lighting us up”, and go temporarily insane with sheer pleasure that we can’t contain within us, and so we have to let it go, and allow it to move through us by surrendering control and letting it have its way with us. We give ourselves to it. By freeing it to move through us, we free ourselves from all the trapped energy we’ve held in our bodies. It literally blows our mind, clearing our head, while relaxing our heart. We remove all blocked energy as psychological tension that acted as an inhibition to our own freedom. The more we move and release, the better we feel. We become completely present and intimate with it inside of us, and we enter into it with complete abandon, and relish in its erotic movement that delight and enliven every cell in our body.

 
In much the same way, this energy can be used to heal the body by producing the pressure necessary to remove blocks and congestion caused by tension and emotional suppression. Whatever emotion (energy) we hold in and don’t allow to freely move through us by expressing it, creates tension in our body as the means of holding it back, and creates blocked energy that forms psychological problems as the internalization of the suppressed emotion. From a purely psychological perspective, all our “issues” stem from denial or suppression of strong emotions, that we form imaginary realities around that are a form of delusion. In this way, negative emotions that are experienced as pain are married to our thoughts, and we develop complexes where our thoughts deliver more of the same pain. We act on ourselves to produce our own suffering. Whatever emotion becomes associated to a thought as a way of trying to hold it inside by trying to express it internally instead of externally, creates a energetic block in our body which inhibits our ability to express freely, robs us of vitality by depleting our energy supply, reduces our ability to experience pleasure, and eventually manifests as a physical malady.

 
By igniting our Life-Force energy, and drawing it up, into, and through us, uniting it with our thoughts and imaginings, acts to grow those thoughts through the pleasurable quality that demands expression as a sense of enthusiasm and excitement. It produces passionate thinking that inspires a sense of wonder and awe. It creates a feeling of fascination and magic around what was previously ordinary things. Our thinking becomes the vehicle for expressing the feeling which increases and reproduces it. The thoughts that come from a feeling of bliss and ecstasy, render ordinary things beautiful, and give us more of the same feeling when we think about them. When we allow positive and euphoric energy to exist in us and animate our thoughts with the same quality, we become a channel for the outward expression of that feeling, and we stimulate the same feeling through how we express it in others. This energy creates a feeling of inner joy, happiness, and exuberance. Notice that when you feel really good, you want to sing and dance, yell and play. It makes you active and expressive. You want to move the feeling that’s swelling inside of you outside of you.

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This creative Life-Force that’s sexually arousing is the foundation of all creative genius. This quality of consciousness brings ideas to life within the imagination. It’s through this life giving excitable energy that ideas come alive in us, and begin growing and evolving into numerous variations and possibilities through a kind of dynamic unfolding process. We can hold an idea in our mind, concentrate our attention on it, and it’ll become animated, and begin growing, expanding, and joyously “becoming” on its own. This is the way we “receive” ideas from out of the ether as knowledge that didn’t come from memory, but rather unfolds, revealing itself to us, while we act as the passive receptor for it to show itself to us. When we are actively thinking on our own, we render the spiritual force passive, and we only “see” in an idea more of what we already know through the memory we’ve built around it. We can’t grow or “invent” knowledge, but simply run through a repetition of what’s already been done. By becoming passive, stilling our thoughts and releasing our attachments and beliefs around an idea, and simply choosing the idea to focus on while allowing the active force to come alive in us and begin animating the idea itself, we “receive” knowledge by witnessing it as it unfolds before us in our imagination, and we have the experience of being “given” knowledge or ideas instead of producing them. This is the very foundation and secret of all creativity and invention. They’re ideas that “come to us” out of nowhere, initiated by an intense focus and a desire to know about them. This desire to know is a form of curiosity and innocence, where we draw ideas into us with a sense of anticipation and discovery, and we simply observe them as they come alive in us.

 
Self expression as emotion (energy), thought (form), and activity are the key to health, happiness, and creativity. By intentionally stirring this energy in us through a desire for it, and mentally drawing it up into us, allowing it to fill, animate, and “run us”, we remove all energetic blocks, emotional tension, and psychological complexes by flushing them out while in an excited state. We surrender to it, give ourselves fully to it without any resistance and through a joyful cooperation allow it to dance us, move us, think us, and “be” us. In doing this, we enter into proper relationship with spirit through our body as the Divine marriage, consecrated only through love and sexual ecstasy as the energy that fuses them together in a state of eternal joy where they move as one. We use our body in a passive state to become the channel for spirit to express in a state of pure joy and uncontained excitement that’s innocent and spontaneous. Movement that’s natural, immediate, and fluent. An expression that’s graceful, passionate, and eloquently alive, whose touch makes our heart skip a beat and leaves us reaching for more!

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

 

Evolutionary Relationships & Sacred Sexuality

Transformational Coaching

Spiritual Sciences

Mind / Body Integration

 

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Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
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Sub-personalities – Internal Conflict and the Voices in your Head

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One of the most natural aspects of our everyday experience is this constant inner dialogue going on within our mind as a form of discussion, negotiation, or argument between different aspects or parts of ourselves. This natural phenomenon is evident in how we describe it when we say that “one part of me wants to do this, while another part of me wants to do that”. This split decision causes us to feel torn between ideas, and often leaves us never really making a firm decision while constantly going back and forth between extremes of the same idea. This same reality is often depicted as a devil on one shoulder, and an angel on the other, both whispering in our ear. Carl Jung recognized this basic process of consciousness always going on, and developed the idea of the psyche being composed of multiple archetypes or personalities that are always engaged in discussion and persuasion as part of our normal thinking. Of course this idea wasn’t unique to Jung, but is a basic part of ancient wisdom and the archetypes of mythology as aspects of consciousness that represent different personalities, and astrology based on the individual make-up being based on the archetypes and their main focus within a persons basic personality. These are not to be mistaken for “multiple personalities”, which is an entirely different condition, but rather as different aspects of one personality.

 
These inner voices, all with personalities of their own, each exerting themselves in various situations, competing for control of our will, are actually what in psychology we call “sub-personalities”, “inner aspects”, or “different parts”, all of which make the greater overall personality. We’re born with a cluster of archetypal personalities as part of our soul’s make-up, and we acquire them as we go through life from our conditioning, events of strong emotional impact, extreme fear, or trauma’s of some sort. Our parent’s voice, for example, becomes a natural part of our inner dialogue that continues to play out and talk to us from the same attitude, perspective, intention, and demeanor. Our belief system, likewise, comes as an inner discussion that’s always telling us about something from the perspective of the belief it represents. When we encounter shocking, fearful, or intense situations, we can draw into us and take on new aspects that are ideally suited for negotiating that situation “for us”, or as a means of coping with it. Whenever we’re devastated in some way, and fall apart, we let down our resistance to outside forces and influences, and become vulnerable to them through a form of magnetism.

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Whatever emotional state we indulge in, we polarize ourselves to, become a magnet for the consciousness of that emotion, and draw into us thoughts that create realities out of the emotions as a possible expression of it. We “take on” the quality of consciousness equivalent to the emotional state, and think thoughts that form inner realities that express and produce more of that emotion. These emotional thoughts, seemingly generated by our mind as the expression of the emotions, take on a life of their own, become an aspect of our personality, and continue to operate in us through a voice that becomes a natural part of our thinking. It’s an aspect of the emotional state that produces it that perceives everything from that perspective, and has its role and intention “as” that perspective. It stays alive in us by thinking through us, and always talking to us in a convincing manner, negotiating the terms of its existence.

 
The sub-personality is always describing things, explaining them, and pointing them out while telling us about them. While they’re active “in us”, we are rendered passive, and allow them to exert themselves by giving them the stage to speak freely. Even when we recognize them, and willfully subdue them, as soon as our guard is down, they reassert themselves and begin controlling our thoughts without our direct awareness. They’re so automatic that they become a natural part of us. After awhile, we can’t separate ourselves from them, come to depend on them, and let them run us and use our mind and will to create by way of us. As long as we fail to integrate the parts, they continue to exert themselves without our direct awareness, through our subconscious nature. Whatever exists in us at the subconscious level, meaning without our direct awareness of it, we continue to act out in an automatic fashion, usually producing what ultimately becomes an internal conflict. They form opposing unconscious aspects of ourselves that go against conscious aspects. We make a decision consciously to do something, and then our subconscious mind brings into play everything that contradicts it and is acting to prevent it, sabotaging our willful efforts. Because these aspects were formed out of intense emotional states, whenever we begin reliving them, or they rise in us and begin playing out by controlling our thoughts, they’re accompanied by strong emotions, which tend to overpower us, and negate rational and reasonable thinking that’s devoid of a strong emotional component.

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When two ideas come into direct conflict, each represented by a different aspect of ourselves, the one which elicits the strongest emotion tends to win out. While our first approach may be to fight against the emotional aspect preventing us from consciously progressing in a more favorable direction through active choice and will, this can prove hopeless and at best a temporary gain through dominance and suppression, yet the real solution lies in negotiating terms with the sub-personality, by gaining realization around it, what its purpose and agenda is, what it’s meant to do, and thanking it for its service to you by helping you through the difficult situation in which you acquired it in, then telling it to leave, while mentally forming a pathway out of your body and sending it back out into the universe to be of service to someone else.

 
All energies and natural forces as qualities of consciousness only come into us through a vacancy or void that creates a vacuum as magnetism of some sort, which we could think of as a form of invitation that pulls or draws it into us through resonance, we can simultaneously realize that regardless of the role it takes on, the intention is beneficial because it was designed to help us through a situation we were in as a state of mind that attracted it, or awakened it in us. While we tend to think of the mind as a product of the brain or heart, and therefore “set” and comprised of fixed qualities, the fact of the matter is we are born with a constitution as a set of information and memories that form our initial personality, and we are engaged in a constant process of growth and development through a constant exchange of energy with everything around us. The mind is energetic and invisible in nature, and works through vibration, sympathetic induction, and synthesis, in much the same way we take in the molecules of the air around us by breathing it, which then become an essential part of our molecular structure, while discharging or exhaling molecules no longer needed as a form of recycling. Likewise, the food we eat becomes the building blocks that form our physical body, determining our health as a physical state or condition. Our mind is the electromagnetic energy system of our body that’s drawing into it energies as qualities the consciousness around it. Blending with and becoming the same as them, altering the vibration of the mind through the integration, while emanating or sending back out energies no longer magnetized to it.

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The energies of the mind as the invisible forces in the invisible space around us, are “qualities of consciousness” with a singular nature that form an aspect of a larger matrix of energies and become a sub-personality with a specific perspective and perception, that forms a part of our overall personality, modifying it by incorporating the singular perspective, altering the overall perspective. We experience it as a “voice in our head” as “thought” that enter into and become a part of our normal perspective of everyday reality. Because they come as thoughts and feelings, we often don’t realize that they’re not our own, and are something we “acquired” instead, and we give our will to them by letting them rise in us as our perception, thoughts, and interpretation of the meaning events take on. They begin discussing everything as a form of argument that clashes with and negates other aspects, always seeking to win over and resume control of our perception and thought processes.

 
Like all things of the mind and the invisible plane of pure energy that we are submerged in and an integral part of, the only way to extract unwanted aspects, or aspects whose part and role is no longer needed or beneficial, is through recognition and awareness of them and how they operate to influence and control you. Because we acquire these automatically while in an unconscious state of delirium (emotion, trauma, shock, intense fear, etc.), and they’re absorbed into our unconscious mind and arise in us automatically without our direct awareness of them, they continue with us until we become conscious and aware of them. Once we become aware of different aspects of ourselves, and how they exist in conflict with other aspects of our nature, and we realize how they’re serving us through protection and service of some sort, we can appreciate them, feel gratitude for their help, and let them know they’re no longer needed. They no longer serve a desirable or necessary purpose. We can then locate them in our body through the emotion they are a part of and the bodily sensations it produces, and direct them to leave while mentally escorting them out of our body and back into the universal soul of mass consciousness where they’ll become available to be drawn in by someone else in need of their services.

 
The interesting thing about qualities or aspects of consciousness is that they exists on the plane of the mind as consciousness, and can only be worked with from that same plane. The mind controls the mind, and our own conscious awareness and imagination is used to acquire, exchange, utilize, and discharge the consciousness available all around us. We work with our mind by way of our mind. We can realize that our will commands aspects of the mind not only as energies around us, but through the mind of others. We are constantly taking on and exchanging consciousness with everyone and everything around us. By becoming aware of this we can simultaneously learn how to exercise control over it.

 
Once we realize that our soul as our consciousness actually “jumps out of” and exits our body during events of fear, shock, and trauma, causing what you could think of as a vacancy and a form of vacuum as a magnetic pull that draws in energy equivalent to or of the same vibration and quality of our state of mind, or that’s inherent in the situation, we can begin realizing the powerful role emotions and fear play in governing us through acquisition of consciousness that increase and amplifies the state itself. Fear draws into us consciousness of the reality inherent in the fear, and makes us think fearful thoughts, or react with anger and rage, through an inner voice that begins dialoguing with us about the fear and from the perspective and attitude that sees the same type of fear in everything around us just through its perception of it. Looking through the lens of fear, we only see more fear or what warrants fear.

MindfieldBy learning how to manage our state of mind, we can recognize aspects we’ve acquired that aren’t “us”. We can begin distinguishing between our real self and our acquired self. We can begin realizing that certain aspects of our thinking are associated to specific events of our life where we “acquired them” and they became a normal part of our thinking. We can begin realizing how they play a part in sabotaging other aspects of our life, or argue against and negotiate through seduction to prevent willfully bringing about desired changes through conscious decisions to do so. By becoming aware of their strong emotional component we can not only resist their control, but learn how to identify them further, while simultaneously using compelling emotions to fuel and empower our conscious decisions. By gaining realization around them and what they act to prevent, protect us from, deal with, or cause, we can see their purpose and how they were intended to protect us, and how through that same attitude and behavior now act to sabotage our intentional efforts, we can thank it for its help, and tell it it’s no longer needed, then consciously and willfully release it, freeing it from the body and mind, and no longer be subject to it. Anytime we are “removing” one aspect creating a void or opening, we have to consciously draw into that space what we want to fill it, or it’ll do it automatically with whatever is available without our direction. As we create an opening or vacuum we have call or pull our soul back in to fill it, recovering it and becoming whole again. This is traditionally referred to as “Soul Retrieval” in Shamanic Arts.
All energy as spirits, entities, qualities, or emotions is subject to and commanded by the will of the human mind. We willfully acquire them through needing or wanting, or by vacating our body creating an opening for them to enter, take hold, and remain apart of us. While they occupy a part of us, our own soul can’t fully enter back into and operate through us, and remains on the outer boundaries of the mind where an opening has to be created in order to draw our own soul aspects back into our body. Only through awareness, realization, and willful control over them can we release or discharge them. The problem is, once they become a part of us, we build our identity around them as an essential part of ourselves, and form a kind of love for them, and hold them to us as a result. We don’t want to let them go because we’ve become accustomed to the story we began living out of them due to the traumatic circumstances we acquired them through, and feel as if we would lose an important part of ourselves by letting them go that would change tour very psychological make-up by making us encounter and experience in us what they were designed to protect us from. We only draw into us and acquire consciousness that’s of service somehow and therefore useful.

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Even when we perceive them as bad or destructive, they’re preventing us from coming face-to-face with other aspects of ourselves that we fear even more, even though they might be ultimately good and serve our growth. For example, anger and hostility may be acquired in response to something terrifying that was exactly what we needed to deal with that event, and so it helped us cope and be able to get through it, that once the terrifying event passed, we still maintain an aspect of us that approaches ordinary experiences with an attitude of anger and aggressiveness, or we see them in a way that makes us feel angry and aggressive that’s an inappropriate response. We can continue to look at ordinary things from a perspective that warrants anger and a hostel attitude. In this way, the very quality that protected us in one situation, now becomes our downfall because it becomes a primary part of our everyday life and we’re “angry a lot”, or it becomes an inappropriate response that we can’t seem to help, and we begin employing volatile reactive behavior in the ordinary sense.

 
While we may come to a conscious decision of no longer needing their diversion, and are willfully choosing to step into what we originally feared and resisted, they continue to play out preventing it by introducing contradicting thoughts and emotions that go against our active decisions and hold us to the same attitudes, identity, and behavioral tendencies they served to develop in the first place. Once they become apart of us, we mistake them for being us, and continue to let them control us by living out of them and never sticking with our decisions that would eradicate them by rendering them subjective to our will.

 
Like all things, the idea is never to fight against or resist something, but rather to remove it and its influences from the system altogether, modifying the mind, and removing all blocks to progressive growth through willful decision making. At the level of the mind and consciousness, awareness is the key! Anything we remain unaware of continues to play out in our life, without our consent. By becoming aware of unconscious or shadow aspects of ourselves, we can dissolve them through awareness itself. Not through hating them or judging them to be bad, weak, or wrong, but rather by recognizing how they were serving us at some level and were exactly what we needed to deal with the situation we were in when we attracted them. When they entered us they were helping us to cope with and negotiate some situation that was difficult for us, or that we didn’t feel equipped to deal with. It’s only through true recognition and love and gratitude, that we work with the very consciousness that makes up our own being and serves to create our life experiences and impose a distinct direction on our life’s path by playing a part in controlling our choice and will to bring about certain realities. Love, appreciation and gratitude elicit a natural state of cooperation necessary to direct energetic forces.

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

 

Personal Development

Transformational Coaching

Mind / Body Integration

 

About the author:
Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
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Subtle Energy and the Energetic Nature of the Mind

Our body has an energetic structure as well as a physical one. This energetic structure is often referred to as the subtle body or etheric body that’s a form of double our twin to the physical body. Energy can move into and through matter, and is not “formed” like matter as a solid and fixed structure, but rather as a field of energy that’s always vibrating and morphing and changing form based on a constant exchange of energy with everything around it. Subtle energy is comprised of light, as everything is, and so contains within it the properties of light that exist as an octave that’s a range of vibration as its frequency. A light body as the internal aspects of light, contain the full colors of the spectrum as its vibratory structure. Each color within the spectrum vibrates at a slightly different rate and undergoes a specialized “mode of consciousness” as an aspect of an overall vibratory patterning or frequency. The subtle body, like light itself, is invisible to the physical senses, and has an innate structure of seven colors as seven aspects that make up a whole. These subtle energy centers exist in the body as chakras that form the energy processing centers of the body as the “mind” or soul of the body.

The subtle energy centers of the body act as conductors, filtering energies so they can combine through resonance. The convergence of these energy fields along a central axis forms a chakra. These chakras are vortexes of moving and spinning energy, which exist in relationship to the endocrine glands, which produce and secret hormones into the blood stream of the body, which alters our state and controls our bodily functions. Hormones are regulatory chemicals that regulate our physical state to match our mental or energetic state. Our physical condition is always produced as the direct equivalent of our mental and emotional condition.

This subtle energy system of the body “is” the mind or soul of the body. The mind interacts with energy all around it through a natural metabolic and digestive process, and directly acts on the body to stimulate and regulate its biological functions as an expression or correlation of the minds energetic state. Our energetic state is the combination of feelings picked up around us, emotions as the bodily chemistry produced by the feelings, and the thoughts that form the internal reality as imagining that projects the inner state outward, through the mind’s field which extends quite some distance from the body, superimposing it over the outer reality as our perceptual lens, that determines what we see and interact with, and what we don’t.

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The chakras of the body process and filter energy through resonance, which draws in and mingles with what’s of the same nature as it is, while rejecting and repelling what’s not. We can only fully absorb into our system what is similar in nature to us, or what is within our same vibratory frequency as being of a “like-mind”. This can also be thought as only absorbing into our mind what can be perceived, explained, and understood using our mental paradigm. Through this fundamental process of resonance as a form of filtering mechanism, energies are sorted out according to their type and class as a category, sphere of consciousness, or kingdom. This filtering system acts to separate the gross energies as our animalistic primal instincts, from the refined energies as our spiritualized moral aspects.

The chakra system of the body is the internal structure of our subtle energy body as the mind itself, or soul that inhabits the body, and bonds to it through energetic sympathy. Because of this reason, the chakra system provides us with the process necessary to undergo healing through psychological development that promotes spiritual growth. All healing comes by bringing the mind and body into harmony through psychological health and conscious awareness of our true nature and our soul’s relationship to the body. It gives us a charted course for working directly with our minds ability to control and regulate the natural biological processes of the body by managing our state-of-mind and fostering in a deliberate manner our moral development. By understanding the intimate relationship of energy with matter, of our higher moral capacities and our lower primal nature, we can transform our ”self” by working with our own energy system, feeling state, and active imagination.

 The mind has the ability to direct energy into form by how and what we thinks about, coupled with strong emotions. Emotion is the chemistry of thought produced through imagined realities. As we think and form images in our mind, we stimulate our body to produce hormones of emotion, and vice versa. The emotions we’re stimulated with from outside sources, also act to control what we focus on and think about as the type of realities associated to the emotions. Thought and emotion are different aspects of the same reality, and are always complementary to each other, as one producing the other. Once acts to stimulate, awaken and give life to the other. Our emotional state always directly reflects the chemistry and biological functioning of the body in direct and immediate relationship with our thoughts and mental state. This is a scientific law, and is always true.

All transformation which involves healing by recognizing our own tendencies, habits, beliefs, and habitual emotional states, comes only through self-realization, knowledge and awareness about our true nature, and our ability to begin using our mind in a conscious and deliberate fashion to intentionally create ourselves. It’s through active use of our own mind, and our ability to choose what qualities we want to develop as a state, and our willingness to give up our current identity in favor of a more desirable one, that we can not only transform the patterning of our mind as our paradigm or interactive model, but in doing so, change our perception, how we interpret events to create our experience of them, and literally transform our physical condition to match our mental condition.

It’s no mystery to the medical world that all healing usually requires a behavioral change as a lifestyle modification, or by working directly with a person’s belief system and identity. All healing in fact, comes only by way of self-healing. We can change how we’re using our mind to direct our behavior and form our experience of reality, and how we identify with our own self-created experiences. We can only change the body, or transform an existing condition, through identifying and working with its emotional and psychological component. Healing our mind is the same as healing our energy, which heals the body to the exact equivalent.

Our attitude and the perception it forms creates how we act, and what kind of activities we engage in, that directly affect our health. The emotional states we dwell in and live out of come as the result of chemistry and regulation of our endocrine system, and what type of thoughts we engage in consistently. Our emotional states tend to run and control us, both in terms of how we think and form internal representations, and how we behave as a result, or what activities we consistently participate in. Thought, which creates a pattern as a reality, fueled by emotion as propulsion, produces all of our behavior and activities. To change one, you change the others simultaneously. They always exist in an intimate relationship with each other as being different components of the same vibration. The mental aspect is causal in nature, and can be used to produce or change the emotions we experience in response to our thoughts, and how we’re being, and what we’re doing as a result.

The body, as the vehicle for expression, can be (is being) operated by the mind which inhabits and animates it. Our mind shapes energy into realities by how we think and imagine, and the body brings our thoughts into physical manifestation as the outer expression of our inner thoughts. We first form inner realities through thinking, that alters the vibration of the body as an emotional response or equivalent to our thoughts that manifest our physical condition as our health, personality and identity, and our way of being in the world by the story we wrap ourselves around and act to naturally tell as the reality produced by our vibratory frequency.

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Integrative Medicine

Personal Transformation

 

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Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
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The Sexual Law of Energy – the Sacred Dance of the Masculine and the Feminine

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The most primal activity inherent in the entire living world, is sexual behavior. Not necessarily in terms of the physical act of propagating and sexually reproducing, but as the most basic law governing energy as resonance. This law is the very activity as a relationship with itself on multiple planes of existence, characterized by the basic law of vibration as resonance, sympathetic induction, and coherence. When two seemingly separate objects vibrate at the same frequency while polarized to each other, they are drawn into each other, blending and becoming one, forming a new vibration as the combination, where they function and create as a single unit.

 
The mind or spirit as invisible energy can readily move into and through matter as material substance. As energy vibrates, it attracts and blends into matter, affecting it by vibrating it with the same frequency or quality of consciousness. This invisible consciousness operates “in” matter, to animate it with a distinct way of being. Consciousness as the invisible energy and material substance that make up the individual mind that first structures, then inhabits its physical vehicle, has a form of personality in it that gives the material body certain characteristics with natural behaviors and biological functioning. This personality forms the character of the being, and in humans, who have a higher capacity for consciousness and the ability to self-create, forms the basis for our identity. Our identity comes through a form of storytelling that creates the experience that we then get a sense of ourselves through, and identify with. Just the act of identifying with something or someone, is our natural ability to move into the mind of another and become one with them because we possess the same qualities, that produce similar experiences of reality.

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The purely energetic and active component, is the masculine aspect that enters into – attracts and resonates with – its physical equivalent or match as its feminine component, and together, through a unified state, they vibrate as one, form coherence, and begin operating as a single unit with a single mind, and produce a new vibration of reality as a combination. A whole being or vibratory pattern exists in a fundamental state of polarity as opposites that are complementary in nature. They stimulate and arouse one another, and the feminine responds intimately to the masculine, and the masculine “moves” the feminine in a passive and receptive state of complete surrender. The masculine only knows itself through the feminine. The feminine becomes by way of the masculine. She provides the body for him to enter into and experience himself as “being” something specific. The masculine achieves it’s identity in service of the feminine. In purely energetic terms, this is the electro-magnetic energy that couples an energy field or spirit to a physical body. Matter is magnetic and draws the active force into it, which becomes one with it and animates it, and they function as a single being in perfect harmony and timing.

 
This is the mind and body which exist as intimate parts of each other as lovers, intertwined and infused. Love is the electromagnetic force that draws together desire with the object of desire. What we love we seek to become one with. Our union is born out of a desire for each other. It’s only through our union that we experience love as an inner feeling or state of being. Through union and an erotic and explicit intimacy, we come to know love as a reality, from within the experience of it as us. Inwardly, whatever we’re lacking that we sense as a part of our true nature, we become a magnet for. We draw to us, more of ourselves in another, as a means of completing ourselves. Whole, complete, and totally content, we experience a new kind of freedom that’s no longer seeking, but expanding into, relishing and having. It’s the freedom to open ourselves fully with complete abandon, and expand into the feeling of euphoria and intense sensuality with a delightful anticipation and innocent eagerness, that no longer holds back, afraid and timid, but rushes forward with complete confidence and trust in the experience itself.

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The sacred union of the masculine and feminine in holy matrimony, meaning true consecration as sexual union or energetic fusion, produces offspring that’s a combination of both in a new form. They no longer see themselves as separate, but as having the same experience as shared consciousness. It comes as a complete freedom of self-expression that’s always embraced, understood, honored, and shared in. It comes as having knowledge of someone that you experience as yourself. You no longer perceive a difference. This is the relationship the soul forms with the body. It’s a union of love, where the soul experiences itself “as” the body. It doesn’t perceive a difference. It experiences itself through the body, as one with the body.

 
This same relationship takes place between soul mates, which is a soul to soul relationship that forms union out of eternal love, and experiences itself for the first time as it really is, through another, who provides the mirror and the ability to awaken passion in them. Our soul mate is another soul that’s a part of the same overall soul as a vibratory frequency as a quality of consciousness, that possesses our opposite and equivalent qualities, which without, we’re always seeking inwardly, and serve as magnets for each other as a natural and immediate form of attraction. A feeling of deep seated emptiness creates a void as a vacuum that acts to draw into it what it needs to feel complete. What it naturally resonates with. We only “become” in the most basic sense by what we resonate with, form rapport with, relate to, and align ourselves with as a means of becoming the same as them. We unite with them in mind and body, and by taking on shared qualities, develop those same qualities in us. By entering into the consciousness of another, and taking on their energy by allowing it to move us in a flowing manner as an intimate dance, and experience ourselves through the nature of the movement itself. As we allow ourselves to be moved and animated by another, we know true freedom for the first time. Not as control or manipulation, but by an arousal that ignites a new kind of fire in us, that we gladly surrender ourselves to, and let it infuse us, filling us with ecstasy that fills and expands us to the point of explosion, and satisfied, we implode back into ourselves . . . changed forever!

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

 

Evolutionary Relationships

Sacred Sexuality

Mind / Body Integration

 

About the author:
Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
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How to Begin Taking Control of your Emotional State

Emotional Intelligence as an actual Practice

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There’s nothing that controls us more than the emotions we experience or act to produce through the nature of our thoughts. One of the first steps to working consciously with anything is by gaining awareness around it and coming to understand how it operates. By becoming aware of what it is, how it works, the natural relationship it forms as a creative process, and what affects they produce when uncontrolled and haphazard. Emotions exist at the subconscious level of the mind, which means we engage in them, experience them, transmit and receive them, without direct awareness of what’s happening. When we enter into them, they produce pronounced and intense state of mind and bodily sensations and cause us to go unconscious while producing reactive behaviors. Our reactive behaviors create in our life and draw to us immediate consequences.

 
People who experience intense emotions are usually highly reactive, easy to control through their emotions, and prone to delusions formed out of thinking that’s driven by emotions. While in a reactive state we’re completely unconscious of what we’re actually doing and running on autopilot. Many, when they come out of an outburst or temporary loss of control, only vaguely remember it in terms of what they said and did, and once the realize what they’ve done, feel ashamed, embarrassed, guilty, or regretful. But of course, it’s too late, what’s done is done, and can’t be undone. During reactions, many honestly experience a form of black-out where they’re completely unconscious, and it’s as if something has “taken them over”, and only start coming back into awareness somewhere in the middle of what they’re doing, and so in a strange sort of way, actually aren’t fully responsible for what they say and do, even though it was still extremely destructive and damaging and came as the result of a complete lack of control. This can make emotionally reactive people very stressful to be around and unpredictable. You have the feeling of walking on egg-shells because you never know how they’ll take something or what will set them off.

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So to begin the process of learning how to control your self and avoid being infected by emotions is to approach them with an attitude of understanding them. This can be done through simple self-observation and reflection. We don’t need a scientific explanation in order to understand it in terms of working with it. Emotions are something we experience everyday in an intimate fashion. We first want to look at how emotions are transmitted and received. Notice that you can sense and perceive emotions being put off by someone experiencing them. This is a kind of emanation, projection, or transmission. You sense them because you feel them. You pick up on them as internal sensations located at different spots or areas of your body. While you may not know what caused them, or what thoughts they’re actually having, you know what “kind” of emotions they are – angry, sad, happy, scared, in love, heartbroken, and so on – because they make you feel the same way. You simply want to notice this “transmission and reception” of emotions.

 
Emotions are shared by the entire natural world, and are the primary “language” or communicative activity of the subconscious mind. You want to begin forming an idea in your mind that the very atmosphere of the Earth that surrounds us and that we’re apart of, is like a field of energy that acts as a carrier wave for the transmission of vibration as emotion that stimulates us producing “states of mind”. These vibrations as emotions are experienced as “qualities of consciousness” that move freely through matter, and are transmitted by “entering us” and activating the same feeling in us. These emotions, in the animal kingdom are designed to create automatic behaviors and activities in the animals as instinct, who, of course, don’t “think about things”, but act and react as more of a “cause and effect” type of relationship, where the information of their environment is apart of them, and acts to direct their activities. This transmission of energy designed to produce automatic behaviors affects us also, causing reactions, but the problem is we also form our “thinking” out of them, and as a result, create whole realities as an illusion that’s mistaken for being real or actual. We create whole realities out of emotional states that render us unconscious and cause us to act in a knee-jerk fashion.

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Notice what happens inside of you when you pick up on a strong emotion, one that’s being projected directly at you, or you’re interacting with someone who communicating through the emotion, or is in a reactive state themselves and unloading on you. Notice the intensity while refraining completely from acting on it, while letting it completely rise in you, filling you. Concentrate on being present with it by giving it your full attention. Don’t try to shut it down or suppress it through a feeling of overwhelm. You can hold the emotion fully within you without expressing it. Stay with it in it’s intensity until it peaks and starts dying down. Allow yourself to notice the thoughts you reference and think about as a form of memory associated with it. This usually comes as a scene that starts playing out, of either an experience you had while in this same state, or as the kind of experience this emotion would produce or come from. Whether an actual memory or an imagined one, notice that they come in the same way, as what seems like a memory.

 
Emotion as a state of mind is always intimately associated with all our experiences, and determines what kind of thoughts we form in our mind, or what previous experiences we continue to play over and over. Emotions have a very active component to them, and tend to make us act in some way according to them. When emotions are intense, behavior is immediate and often explosive or extreme. While we may not experience a clear thought process, the emotion does cause an instant behavior as a reaction that’s produced as a pattern for the body through memory of some form. Emotions not only keep us behaving in the same way, but living out of the same past.

 
Once you begin practicing this in your daily life, starting with the common emotions that are easy to control, then working your way up, you can begin consciously controlling not only your actual emotions, but your behavior and what you do or who and how you’re being. Because they no longer take place in an unconscious fashion, you don’t go unconscious when experiencing them. As you begin staying conscious and aware of them, from a disassociated and detached perspective of witnessing or observing them, you can literally begin directing and controlling them. You can create an imaginary boundary a couple of feet from your body as a bubble like sphere surrounding your body, that’s a shield where the emotion is experienced on the surface of this sphere and never allowed to penetrate you or produce and affect “in you”. When you keep the emotion outside of you, yet allow it to fully reflect on the outer boundary, much like looking at it through a lens, you can still see (imagine) the reality or memory inherent in it, while keeping it outside of you. You can look through the lens of the emotion as a perception of it, while never actually feeling it in your body or allowing it to become a part of you. This forms the basis for developing compassion. You may feel the residual affect of the emotion more like an echo or subtle sensation produced by the perception of it, much like your own thoughts elicit emotions in response to them, but it’ll have a distant feeling, and be easy to control and direct out of your body at will.

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As you practice and get good at the process involved, you’ll naturally be able to use it in emotionally intense or volatile situations, with equal ease. By being able to still have or see the experience of the emotion outside of your body, you’ll stay conscious and fully awake in situations you’d normally go unconscious in, and you’ll be able to see the illusion of the emotion as a delusion or false representation of reality, without partaking in the same illusion yourself. You can begin realizing how emotions skew and distort perception and replace objective reality with a false interpretation of a subjective reality. You’ll be able to realize how emotions control people and keep them locked into illusions of their own making. You’ll be able to realize that their reaction and behavior is based on a lie that they perceive as real and factual.

 
Once you can keep emotions from penetrating and infecting you, you can dissociate and detach from them and stay centered in an objective and actual reality that’s not based on a shared emotional illusion. By being able to see clearly, you can understand and therefore feel a deepened sense of compassion for other people who simply haven’t learned how to step outside of their own made-up realities long enough to see the truth. By being able to witness this reality with other people, you’ll be able to see your own illusions in an objective and neutral fashion also. By understanding emotions, how they work to infect us causing a kind of mental illness, we can begin working with them while remaining fully conscious and centered in an undisturbed inner peace and equilibrium that allows for an neutral and objection perception that shows us the truth hidden in the surface appearance of things.

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Transformational Coaching

Mind / Body Integration

 

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The 4 Elements – The Etheric Body and the Nature of Memory

 

While there are many ways to look at what’s referred to as the 4 Elements, which represent the material realm, one of it’s most primary interpretations is as the very substance of what we think of as the material world as the experience produced by the mind that becomes the basis for memory. Memory, which comes from a reality, has the full building blocks or interactive components of an actual reality even when it exists in it potential or unformed state. The information it’s comprised of and the active force that brings it to life, are the basic “seed” necessary to produce a living reality. A seed as a series of encoded information contains strands of DNA that provide the material as a regenerative process and the spatial blueprints for creating a living form.

The 4 Elements as we’ve come to know them represent Fire, Water, Air, and Earth. These seemingly 4 components only signify 2 actual Elements of Fire and Water, which combined produces Air, and Earth represents the whole combination as a physical reality. In its original depiction, Water and Earth were considered one element, representing three Elements of the Triad or Triangle as the symbol of the 3 aspects of the mind that create an internal reality as the combination of Fire and Water, that was then reflected to produce the outward reality, symbolized by the number 4, or the Tetrad. Fire and Water are symbolic of the masculine and feminine polar aspects of Spirit as a unification. Spirit is traditionally represented as Air or breath. All of Life as we know it is comprised of the 2 Elements of “Yin and Yang”, and the 2 correspondences they form as their offspring which is the combination of them to produce material form.4 elementThe 4 Elements also form the Tetragrammaton, as the sacred name of God, commonly spelled “YHVH”, or YOD-HE-VAU-HE, where Yod represents Fire or Will, He represents Air as intellect, Vau represents Water as Feeling, and the second He represents Earth as the manifestation of will. This spelling, where only two letters are different or unique, though similar in structure to each other (Y V), and two are repeats (H H), is significant of the idea that only 2 true Elements exist as the single or unified constitution of the One- Spirit, and the other two are correspondences as the inner and outer reflection. These can also be seen as representing idea, thought, feeling, and action, which are always unified and create an experience of reality, both internally and externally. They are also always comprised to form a memory which either comes as the result of the manifested idea as the end result, or as the basis used for creating the outer experience as a material reality. Memory is both the beginning and the end, the creator, the outer experience as an event, and the one having the experience. We create our present experiences out of the accumulation of our past experiences as memory. Everything we learn, we acquire as a memory either as an imagined concept of an idea that forms it into an inner reality as a memory, or as an actual experience that contained a lesson and came about by experimenting. Notice that experiment and experience are almost the same word.

When we contemplate an idea and begin thinking about it, we form it into an internal conceptualization as an actual experience of the idea as a reality, or we form an internal representation as a metaphor that serves as a symbolic correspondence. Both of these are formed in our mind in much the same way we construct an actual memory, or replay it as a way of reliving it. There’s no actual difference between a memory created in the imagination of an idea, or one created through an actual event, outside of the fact that the actual event had significantly intense feelings and emotions associated with them. The only memories we attain in a detailed manner from our life experiences, are ones that had a significant emotional impact. The emotion is what forms the structure of the memory in terms of how we interpret it to form a story that we tell ourselves about why it happened and what it means.

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Memories are formed out of a combination of feeling sensations, emotions, and thoughts that produced distinct actions based on them. The memory, which is in reality a personalized interpretation of an outer neutral event, is activated by the emotion associated with it, or the same sensory content, that then activates the behavioral pattern of the memory, setting into motion a whole automatic pattern that repeats the past in the present, creating more of the same type of memories. This is why 5, as the pentagram or Pentad, symbolic of the etheric Element as “mind over matter”, operates by the principle of “regeneration”, further symbolized by the Fibonacci Sequence of reproduction in which the most recent past brought into the present produces the future, and the holographic affect also called fractal patterns, where the mind simply reproduces more patterns that are of the same nature (memory) as it is.

A memory can be thought of as a state of mind or vibration that contains the pattern as a blueprint for producing a reality in a completely unconscious and automatic fashion. How we create our experiences is based on our state of mind or our soul mood. Memories are living thought-forms shaped by the mind out of the Elements that are viewed and replayed – kept alive – in the imagination as the invisible patterns we picture in our mind over top of actual reality as an invisible or translucent story that we use to restructure our current reality to be of the same nature. We use memory to make our current situation mean the same thing as our past situation did.

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This reality that we form in our imagination is shaped out of the Elements as the etheric substance, or Astral Light. Just as light in the material world is actually invisible and only illuminates the atmosphere because it’s being both absorbed and reflected by dust and water particles in the air, is used inwardly by the mind of the individual to form an internal reality, even though it has the “feeling” of an actual visible picture, it’s translucent and invisible and can be viewed by superimposing it over or in front of the outer reality as our perceptual lens that we look through that determines what we see (that matches it and is being absorbed) and what we don’t see (what’s not a part of the same idea and is being reflected. Ideas exist in us in exactly the same way actual memories do, and can be used by the mind to form internal realities by picturing, sensationalizing, and thinking about them.

A thought is an active memory. While thoughts seem to be generated by the mind, they’re actually “tuned into and received” out of the invisible space around us, which is actually light intermingling with water and matter. The light of the material world that’s basically invisible in the physical world, comes from a star (our sun), and is therefore called “Astral Light”. Stars are the only living entities that are a true source of light. Everything else gets its material existence as matter, which is also light as photons, in its condensed form, by either absorbing or reflecting certain aspects or rays of light, which appears to us as colors or solid objects. This Astral Light that forms the Etheric body of all living forms, exists in four primary states as a gradient condensation as; electrified plasma (same substance as stars), gas, liquid, and solid. It’s used by the mind as a gas that behaves like a liquid, and can be shaped instantly into form by thinking. The power of the spoken Word (vibration), spoken both in silence to ourselves as thoughts, and outwardly as talking, comes through it’s ability to form images out of the words as the shapes they represent. As our mind thinks about something, it creates a reality out of it. The inner realities become the basis for outer realities of the same nature. As we think, we become. All of our experiences are our sole creation, produced by how we use our mind to perceive, interpret and tell ourselves a story about things. We shape, grow, and develop ourselves by way of our own story-telling and thought-forms.

pentagramThe 5th Element, represented by the Star or Pentad, represents the quintessence as the Ether body produced by how the mind shapes the 4 Elements into imagined and therefore “willed” realities. The Etheric body exists as a form of memory, or etheric substance that’s an (invisible) double or twin to the material body. The masculine (active and invisible) and feminine (passive and visible) aspects inherent in any physical body as the unification of dual yet complementary opposites. The etheric body forms the memory of the body, evolved by the soul through thinking, emoting, and imagining. The soul is the Astral Body, represented by 6, as another “star” image. The Astral Body is similar to the Air Element, and is the correspondence produced by the combination of Spirit as archetypal memory, and the body as individual memory, or Fire and Water. The soul is composed of accumulated memory acquired by combining archetypal memory to produce a variation as personal memory. As it acquires experiences from the body, it transposes them into personalized memory as the essence of the body, and absorbs and synthesizes it, evolving itself through the memory it attains.

The soul is the medium or intermediary between the Mental or Causal body and the physical – etheric body. Between pure spirit as unadulterated memory and its denser aspect as coagulated, specialized, and concentrated light as matter. Spirit exists in pure essence as archetypes and principles that are drawn on by the soul to bring into the body as a modified interpretation to create a specific experience by way of it. When the universal idea comes into physical expression, it has to come as an introduction of thought as suggestion into the individual form that’s a specialized combination of both physical-genetic and soul memory, that modifies it to fit the container of the individual mind necessary in order to conceive it, where it’s turned into a personalized version of the original. A thought or idea is drawn into the individual soul as a seeded reality that the soul-mind grows and shapes into a possible reality by imagining it that provides the subconscious mind of the body with a pattern for creating a reality out of. Likewise, the human soul, which has the power to create through thinking, feeling, and imagining as the will, creates thought forms as imagined realities formed out of intense emotional states that it dwells in an thinks about over and over, developing it with more detail and variations each time it thinks about it, infusing them with the souls life-force, that creates a form of virtual memory that populates the Astral Plane of the Earth, as our atmosphere or instinctual field of the subconscious mind, and acts the same as universal memory and is “picked up on” by other humans in much the same way they attract and acquire archetypal thoughts and ideas.

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This ability to create artificial memory as illusions born out of emotional states and fantasizing about them, is what’s referred to as the collective unconscious, or mass consciousness of the group mind. We can literally tune into and draw into our mind the thoughts of others around us, which come to us in the same way as any thought or memory, out of the clear blue, as a feeling we get or something we just start thinking about as a part of our continuous stream of thoughts. Most of the time we have no idea that we’re thinking someone else’s thoughts, because we only resonate – attract and act as a receiver for – those who have similar thoughts or are vibrating at a similar frequency. Because they’re similar to ours, we mistake them for our own, and often allow them to take hold in us by continuing to think about them. This is also the basis for telepathy and clairvoyance, clairaudience, and clairsentience, all of which come as transmissions in the Astral Plane.

So simply allow yourself to start recognizing the role memory plays as the very foundation for your thinking and imagining. As you think, observe yourself in terms of what it means to think. What is thought? What activities are you engaging in as you form thoughts as imagined concepts and scenarios? How is this similar or different from how you think about actual memories? Allow yourself to realize that all knowledge learned comes through memory of some form, whether simply imagined, memorized through repetition, imagined or conceptualized, or as an actual experience.

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Allow yourself to notice that what you’re thinking about today is very similar if not exactly the same as what you thought about yesterday, last week, or last year. Notice, that all you’re ever really doing, for the most part, is thinking the same type of thoughts born out of the same attitude and temperament consistently throughout our lives, evolving and varying them only slightly through different applications of the same basic ideas. Notice, especially as you get older, that even though your outer circumstances may be quite different today than they were five years ago, that inside, as a person, your nature has remained consistent, and in some cases unchanged. That all we’re ever really doing is growing ourselves by expanding and acquiring new kinds of memory, that evolve us into new ways of thinking, perceiving, and experiencing ourselves and the world around us. That while we believe our thoughts and memories were acquired neutrally or objectively by the events of our life that happened to us beyond our control, and that we’re the “way we are” because of what happened to us along the way, the fact is our life is the way it is because it’s a direct reflection of how we think about it. That what we call our experiences and memories are actually our own creation, and are completely subjective in nature.

While we don’t control the outer events and circumstances of our life, especially as children, how we interpret them internally creating our experience of them, is something we do all by ourselves, to ourselves. It comes completely by how we use the elements to first create an internal experience as feelings, emotion, thoughts, and meaning that form a story about what happened, and why, that forms how we experience and remember it. Long after that events gone, and no longer exists as real, and we’ve grown more mature through years, we still live out of and replay in our mind the same basic group of memories, creating more of the same type of experiences, and living out of the same type of story which becomes a life theme. Stories we told ourselves as children, are still the realities we’re living out of as adults. We shaped our identity as our sense of self out of our own stories about things. We completely live and die by way of our own mind that thinks and feels through our body, producing our experience of reality.

All reality is a product of memory.

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Personal Transformation Coach and Integrative Mind-Body Health Consultant

 

About the author:
Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
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The Dual Nature of the Soul – The Material World Belongs to the Soul

We are so in tuned to our physical existence that it’s hard for us to form an idea about ourselves that’s outside or beyond our body. Many fail to recognize the fact that humans are composite beings, and unlike any other life form on Earth, has two souls which give us two distinctly different natures; a lower-animal nature, and a higher-divine nature. This is further complicated by the fact that many attribute the mind to being a product of the body (heart or brain), when in fact, it’s the other way around. The body is a product of the mind, just as all material reality is, and the mind is what provides the intelligence for it’s construction, and activates and regulates all the biological processes that make the body function, and is what holds it all together for a life-span of somewhere around eighty years or so. The mind is not associated to an organ of the body, but exists independent of the body, while permeating and enveloping the body in what we could call an etheric egg-shaped energy field. This energy field that surrounds and gives life to the body, is subtle and electromagnetic in nature, which means it functions according to the same universal laws as the biological world, and is always in the process of exchanging and integrating energy with everything else around it as a form of respiration and metabolic process.

 
The mind is synonymous with the soul. The lower-animal soul is the subconscious and self-conscious mind, or concrete mind, and the higher divine soul is of the higher-mind or superconscious. The soul is not a physical entity, but an energetic “state”. The soul doesn’t experience itself as “having a feeling”, but rather “is” the feeling itself. The soul has “pure experience” without sensory concepts or descriptions. It’s not a mind in a body, but the mind itself that inhabits a body. The mind is not the body experiencing “joy” as a mood or feeling, but is joy itself as a mental state. There’s no physical medium separating it from experience or that it needs in order to experience, but comes as a direct “inner” experience that maintains a connection to the outer world. The mind is our vibratory state as a quality of consciousness that produces our experiences as translated through the physical senses of the body.

vesicaWhatever state of mind we are vibrating at any given moment determines our mood, attitude, perception, and how we form all our experiences. It’s experience that’s direct as an internal “feeling” experience rather than “through” a body or medium, that alters and separates you from the experience itself. You “are the experience” rather than having the experience. Nothing separates or buffers you from the outer world. The mind, which is pure invisible energy as consciousness, blends into everything around it, becoming one with it in order to experience it directly “as it”. The subtle energy of the mind freely moves through and into matter of the physical realm and experiences itself within the material body it inhabits. It experiences itself as the physical body or object from within it, as an “inner” experience.

 
The physical body (matter) is the “middle man or avatar” for the higher human soul. Without the body, the soul is the same as pure experience, not associated to a body and able to travel freely within the outer reality which is contained “within” the soul. The soul itself is a field of consciousness held together as a stress-pattern or torsion field (axion or spin field) as an energetic state or vibratory frequency that gives it individual qualities. The mind is an invisible force in the material realm and in order to create or be in the material world, it has to enter into (resonate with), and bond with a physical body of some form, otherwise it remains unseen and unknowable. The body exists in relationship to the outer world of the senses, and is how the soul experiences itself “as” a physical being, or located within time and space. Because the human soul is not of the same sensory nature as the physical body, it can’t be experienced or perceived through the physical senses, which can’t penetrate deeply enough into the purely conscious realm to experience it as it is, without a sensory interpretation. Because the divine soul is different from the body, we often fail to recognize the true nature of our soul.

 
When the human soul is in the body, the internal experiences are very different than the external ones. While the soul is in the body, we feel the body belongs to us. Yet outside of the body (astral travel), we feel connected to and an inherent part of the greater reality around us, in the sense that there’s no boundary or sense of separation. Outside the body you experience yourself as an innate part of the outer environment, and no longer experience yourself as separate from it, or as an object within it. The inner soul becomes a part of the whole outer world, and experiences being apart of it just as we experience our head or hands as being apart of our body. We blend into and become interwoven with the outer world. The whole surrounding environment belongs to the soul, just as the hands and feet belong to the body. There’s no boundary between the inner and outer world, the effects of the sensory world pass perceptually through your being. You experience it as being the same as it. Everything is experienced from within it. There’s no thought process, judgment, or sensory interpretation of object and subject, but a direct experience of being it. This is the true nature of compassion (the language of the soul), which is taking on the natural internal perception of the soul and having the inner experience of another person or being you’re either observing or contemplating. By developing compassion towards or with other beings, we develop our soul’s perception, and experience the world in a unified manner from the center of our being. We experience another being’s life in the same way that they experience their life.

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The surrounding environment of what we perceive as the outer world belongs to the soul and is a projection of the mind necessary in order to experience itself in the world. When we observe something, we direct our attention onto or into it, our mind penetrates and indirectly (subtlety) affects it. We’re always influencing and subtlety affecting everyone and everything around us through our very perception of it, which reformulates its active and passive components in response or interaction with our mental state. Subtle energy is a concentration (quality) expanded over a greater area and therefore diluted (in physical terms) that, while it doesn’t cause an intense or pronounced affect in the physical realm, it does produce a greater affect over and extended period of time in the energetic realm. We could get a good idea of the difference between physical energy and subtle energy by thinking of the physical as an emotional charge or high amplitude or strong dose, that causes a immediate and intense affect that’s short lived and dies down fairly quick, and the subtle energy as more of a mood or low frequency that can last for days, weeks, or even months, and while it seems lighter in its effect, it lasts for a far greater period of time. The soul is capable of experiencing outside of the physical body, because the outer environment, which is all connected to and a part of the subconscious mind or instinctual field, belongs to is an innate part of the soul. The greater mind, universal consciousness, or the collective unconscious is all a part of the planetary mind that governs all life on the planet, and is of the same nature (or kingdom) as the human soul. This field of energy, which is also called the astral plane of light or the morphogenetic field of archetypal memory is the domain of the soul. The soul is astral light as pure consciousness that creates memory out of acquired experiences that evolve it through various states and build up as an accumulative affect.

 
All reality as we know it exists in planes of interwoven dimensions as a hierarchy of consciousness, also referred to as “kingdoms”. Within our physical reality we have the mineral, plant, animal, and human kingdoms. Each level of life, contains the entire lower level within its being, is interdependent on it, and the entirety of the lower plane(s) forms the fundamental basis for the next plane of life to spontaneously and naturally arise out of it. Out of the mineral kingdom comes the plant kingdom, comprised of the very minerals themselves and dependent on them for life. Out of the plant kingdom comes the animal kingdom, whose body is formed out of the mineral and plant kingdom, and out of which the human kingdom emerges as the avatar body for the divine soul of mankind. The human soul takes on an animal body, which provides the vehicle for experiencing the material world “as a body or individual”, in order to consciously evolve it to a higher level of moral intelligence and biological functioning. The entirety of the lower planes forms the foundation necessary for the next plane to grow and develop out of or ny way of it. The higher plane therefore contains within its very nature and substance, the combination of all planes below it, which is necessary for it to emerge as a unique life form through a natural evolutionary growth process. Just as Universal Laws all emerge out of each other as a form of unfolding or growth process, where the Monad contains within it the full potential of the other laws that systematically issue forth from it. This hierarchical structure of one level of reality consisting of multiple dimensions all interwoven into one greater reality is consistent throughout all of life as we know it. The mind which is of “pure experience” within itself, needs the entire outer world in order to set the stage for experiencing itself in the world as a part of the world. It acquires experience by way of the whole reality and the memory of the collective unconscious, which governs the instinctual mind that all of nature share in common.

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Memory, which is inherent in the instinctual mind as its basic programming out of which all experience and behaviors are created, propagates and acts to create more of the same type of memories through the experiences formed out of them. The human soul has the creative capacity to willfully create new experiences of itself (in a body) that are not the unconscious reproduction of the memories produced by the lower mind through its formative conditioning, but it can only do so when it quits identifying with the past experiences of the body, and realizes that what it perceives as the outer world is actually a part of or the projection of itself as the means of directing the elements of the natural world in order to create experiences of itself. Through specialized use of our mind, we change our focus, perspective, and perception of reality, and form a different relationship with it that begin telling a different kind of story.

 
Because the soul enters into the body and becomes one with it, it experiences itself as the body, and shapes its identity as a sense of self to be the same as the body. The higher mind enters into relationship with the lower, animal mind, which is prone to instinctual tendencies and easily conditioned to automatic behaviors provoked through strong emotions and desires of some kind, and the human soul mistakes itself for being the same as the lower mind, and is shaped by the lower mind. Because the body creates in an unconscious fashion through compulsive tendencies without recognizing natural law or the consequences of it actions, the soul experiencing itself as the body, becomes the “errors” as a direct experience of itself. It is the reality of consciousness of the error. It’s inside the animal body experiencing a false reality. Because of this, the human soul begins identifying with the body, and forgets its true nature and ability to create by directing the natural forces of the material world. This is the religious idea that we’re all “born into sin”, with sin meaning error. It’s not that we’re born “bad”, but rather rendered unconscious without realizing our creative ability and our true identity as divine in nature.

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Because we fail to recognize the creative ability of our mind and live our life out of an unconscious state programmed by childhood memory as our formative conditioning, we fail to create at all in the real sense, often having no power in our own life, and become instead the product of our conditioning. In this sense the body, like the entire material world, belongs to the soul, and not the other way around. The soul has the ability to control and direct the body, but it has to first realize its true identity and power over the material realm. The soul needs to become aware of itself within the body, and begin actively and intentionally using its will to step outside of redundant conditioning and create itself with awareness by purifying the body to be an appropriate vehicle for acquiring certain type of experiences. Only by identifying with our true nature and learning to utilize the power of our mind to enter into and directly influence the elements that make up the material world, does the divine soul serve the purpose of evolving the consciousness of the lower animal-soul, instead of digressing or devolving itself by being controlled by its own lower nature.

 
The human soul is the higher mind, and exists as a “state-of-mind”, which forms a paradigm (pattern) as a vibratory frequency based on accumulated experiences that form its memory. How we use our mind, is our soul power as our ability to self-create and therefore develop the perceptual lens we look through to experience what we call the outer reality or life conditions and circumstances. We can only change our life experiences by changing our mind as our “inner state” or soul mood. By working with our ability to choose how we’re going to be and the will to direct our own behaviors and activities to turn our choices into reality as our experiences, we shift our center of power and begin using our soul to create in life. By changing the qualities that make up our character, we change our attitude and perception. When we begin working with our “being”, and develop ourselves from the inside out, we step into our true power to be self-determined. In order to create in our life, we have to work on changing ourselves so that we’re the channel through which that experience of reality is possible as a natural perception of the outer world. By learning to identify with our true spiritual nature as our mind which is pure consciousness, we begin developing our eternal aspect, which exists independently from the body and transcends the body (continues living) at the death of our physical body. All reality is formed out of our mind as a mental projection, perception and experience of it.

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Spiritual Sciences

Mind / Body Integration

 

 

About the author:
Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
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Life Crisis and the Nature of Personal Transformation

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Many people turn away from or choose to not undergo the process of personal transformation required as soul growth through the means of birthing your higher-self through the use of choice and will within the everyday life of their normal consciousness. This is because it can be very disruptive and completely change the way you live your life, and “who” you are in the most essential sense. It takes a great deal of courage and mortal fortitude to brave and endure the process of the life you’ve built your identity around completely falling apart, crumbling beyond repair, and leaving your life, often giving you a painfully deepened sense of isolation and abandonment. While being completely alone in life can be one of the most painful experiences there are, leaving us constantly searching for meaning and purpose, being devastated financially, raped of your dignity, and outcast by those you once loved and thought loved you, brings about a new kind of pain that can bring you to the brink of total destruction. Because of this tendency to resist it at all costs and not being willing to consciously choose it, many who have made a soul agreement to undergo the transformative process where you enter it consciously and are aware of it, think about it, have premonitions of it coming, experience it instead as happening “to you” without choice or control. We often even initiate it through unconscious behaviors and emotional turmoil that are sabotaging and actually work to set the inevitable into motion. What we deem self-sabotaging behaviors may not be a bad thing, but actually a necessary part of our evolution where we unconsciously act out in situations we’re not happy in and often feel tormented by in the essential sense, even though they might appear quite fortunate and comfortable on the surface.

 
For those destined for complete transformation of the body and souls as a form of spiritual mission or dedication that comes as a turbulent inner struggle and decisions, chances are we undergo many forms of transformation as challenges and hardships that seem to be cast upon us without choice or desire, that we find the strength to manage in some way, that ends up growing and developing us, while perhaps drastically changing the direction of our life because of them, that seem to be preparing us through practice for the larger transformations that to come at a mature age where their effects are more drastic and prominent and the patterns of our life more set and fixed. Yet, even in these smaller, life-altering events, we may find, looking back on them, that we participated in bringing them about through some form of inner struggle that they seemed to resolve, or lead us into because we knew we had no choice morally.

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These experiences started for me early in life, and so I became accustomed to them in a strange sort of way where drastic and constant changes became the norm. My childhood was very unstable, and I ended up running away and living on the streets, not because I was abandoned, but because I chose to. I wasn’t willing to compromise myself or allow the events to take place that were inevitable if I continued living at home, so I left because I felt safer on the streets than I did at home. At least on the streets I had some control, and could, through my own decisions and actions keep myself safe. Though this led into a traumatic time in my life of tremendous hardship and uncertainty, I also grew in strength and confidence, and was able to set up a life where I not only took care of myself, but continued to go to school, be placed in advanced learning, and graduated high school two years early with a college scholarship. All without nobody realizing I wasn’t living at home.

 
Later, when my son was born, he had health problems that I had to go through extreme lengths to get diagnosed, because even though I was intuitively picking up on it, the symptoms were common and subtle, and no one believed me. When I finally got help with a diagnosis, it was within hours of saving his life, and brought on a year long process of multiple surgeries, living in the hospital and out of my car, being ruined financially and devastated emotionally. I had to draw on a part of myself I didn’t know was there, and came into the full realization of a higher consciousness that I could access at will, and use to make calculated decisions and perform operations that would later be seen as miraculous. I came to know the meaning of unconditional love, total surrender to the creative process of life, and the incredibly powerful sense of myself that came from realizing that I would die for my son. This experience changed me at the deepest level of my sense of self, matured me exponentially, and gave me incredible moral strength and complete confidence in my intuition and my ability to handle anything. Through this experience I built a working relationship with the higher power that’s active in my life and available as willpower.

 
Years later, after going through financial bankruptcy, and struggling to keep a failed marriage together, flirting with drug addiction and encountering the darker side of seemingly normal things, after a series of premonitions, my husband was abruptly killed by being stabbed through the heart while in the stall of a bathroom, set my life into a tailspin prolonged by a year long trial in our home town of 2,400 people. Needless to say, it was the event of the decade, and got constant media attention. His death brought me face to face with the reality of what happens when and after we die. I developed an insatiable sense of wonder about our true spiritual nature, the meaning of life, and how all things serve a purpose in terms of the experiences and life lessons they set in motion, in which we are lured and drawn deeply into as the “point of no return”. This event and everything that ensued from it completely changed the direct of my life, set into motion a whole new set of questions and a deep desire to know the true nature that underlies and orchestrates things. At 30 years of age, my true spiritual quest into the unknown fully kicked into motion and changed the course of my life and how I looked at things.

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Even though I continued to experience other events that continued morphing and changing the direction of my life, most seemed rather easy and void of real pain after this. As my path steadily led into a serious and devoted study of spiritual sciences, a decision to return to college, and when approaching my thesis for my Ph.D. in Spiritual Sciences, both of which centered around personal transformation, I began realizing what I called my “soul agreement” in regards to mastering this process, not by having it seemingly thrust upon me through what seemed like tragedy and trauma in which I had no control or conscious say so in, but as a willed experience that I cooperatively engaged in.

 
My true dedication became apparent when my college insisted I write about it as a clinical study or form of research project, that used and cited other professionals work as a means of proving or validating my ideas, which of course would have been a spin-off of what’s already been done, instead of writing about it from experience, which is what I was proposing. I wanted to undergo it in a completely conscious manner so I could capture the experience of it, and know through the experience what we have to access as a means of “making it”. And not letting it overcome us or do us in . . . which of course, it can. I felt so strongly about this, that when I couldn’t get it approved, I declined the Ph.D. program, and went for my Doctorate instead. Upon graduation, after I got over the tremendous feeling of relief and congratulating myself (it’s a lot of work), a voice inside of me calmly said . . . “now its time to practice what you’ve learned theoretically”. A serious feeling came over me as a form of dread, and I knew the real work had only just begun and that my life up to this point served only as a preview for what was to come. And from that point forward my life as I knew and built it, began systematically falling apart and leaving. And even in the moments when I desperately tried to grab onto some form of security and stability long enough to get my bearings, I couldn’t. Nothing worked. And all I seemed to see and encounter was the incredibly false nature of things; of people, relationships, communities, companies, government . . . everything around me seemed to be revealing a hidden nature that while I knew and suspected it was there before, didn’t really know for sure. Then I began realizing that everything else was changing because I was changing, and as what I thought was my true nature began falling away and I was no longer able to use it to create my reality, the equally false nature of everybody and everything began dissolving and all I could see and sense was who they really were at their deepest, most essential parts. And it all but devastated me. Even though I thought that I knew the true reality of things through my extreme intellect and well developed intuition, I quickly came to realize in very abrupt terms, that this was not the case!

 
As I lost just about everything and who I was by way of what I owned, the job I had, the amount of money I made, and the image I presented and experienced myself through, my relationship with everything else changed also, and the ones based on the false image I had so successfully created and the confident dynamic persona I had perfected, changed, revealing an entirely different side to things, and everything I had become accustomed to and dependent on “left” my life. I came to know extreme forms of humility, abandonment, surrender, sacrifice, unbearable insecurity, and the depths of anguish encountered at the bottom of what seems like the bottomless pit of the dark night of the soul, when we find ourselves in a place the eye does not see, where we can no longer grab onto things, ideas, roles, people, situations, relationships, or jobs to pull ourselves up with and provide us with some form of hope and relief, we come into another realization, one that at first is foreign to us and even awkward to contemplate, we begin noticing and sensing a feeling deep within us that seems to be reaching out to us, longing for our desolate gaze, which the moment we become truly aware of it, begins taking hold and growing in us, while everything else fades away. As it grows inside of us it begins fortifying us with a new sense of life and energy. As we begin drawing on it out of the depths of despair, we’re filled with a renewed sense of hope and moral comfort. The more attention we give it, the more it swells inside of us, softly seducing us with its soft penetrating glow.

 
In this final moment of drawing on our inner strength, free from the confines and affects of the material world, we begin realizing our true identity as being in this world, but not of it. We surrender and give ourselves over, not to an external force, but to an internal one. One that can’t be lost or taken away. One that resides in us eternally and unconditionally. One that’s always been there and never leaves us, but requires our recognition and invitation. Once this happens, and we begin settling into a new kind of spiritual wealth, where simply lose interest in material wealth, no longer crave excess or nonessential ideas and things, and begin experiencing a newfound freedom born out of a lack of attachment to material things, and we begin working consciously to simplify and streamline our life. We lose selfish interests and turn our attention instead to helping others by contributing in a more meaningful way to benefit others on their own spiritual journeys into self-healing through self-recognition and realization.

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We come to realize that forgiveness itself is an illusion, because those we imagine have betrayed or forsaken us, honestly don’t know what they do because they’re caught up in the illusion of their life and feel warranted and justified in their actions. No one can attack or hurt us unless we’re invested in the same illusion and therefore deem ourselves hurtable or attackable. When we separate ourselves from the illusion we normally share with others as a primordial form of ignorance, we no longer react to them. They can no longer cause a reaction in us in response to them. They exercise no control over us. They no longer affect us. We no longer share the same reality that’s producing their behavior towards us. We realize with great clarity and absolution, that their perception and behavior has nothing to do with us, and is simply an expression of who they are and the reality they live in as a projection of their own mind. Through this realization we come to realize there’s nothing to forgive, because they don’t have the ability to harm us. They have inflicted no pain on us, and we have not suffered at their mercy. We no longer share the error of their thinking, and so it doesn’t become a part of our experience.

 
When we shift our very perception of life, what things mean, how they appear to us, the true nature of reality and what’s happening in the true underlying sense, we move to a higher vibration and cultivate a different kind of awareness that no longer relates or partakes in the lower levels of consciousness still shrouded with the veil of unconsciousness. Once you know, you can’t not know. Once you see and realize the true reality of the material realm that disguises ideas with outer appearances, you don’t even notice the outer appearance anymore, but experience directly their inner nature instead. You begin seeing people as they are being distinctly separate from you, and therefore unable to affect you because you’ve changed how you enter into relationship with them, and everything else changes accordingly. People who used to upset you, cause you to feel anger and hatred or disgust, you now view with compassion because you realize fully that they are consumed with ignorance and basically unaware of what they’re actually doing, and more importantly, because their consciousness no longer resonates with yours, and therefore doesn’t enter into you and produce an effect in you . . . so they can’t hurt you or even disturb your internal peace of mind, because they exist outside of and apart from you.

 
When we’re no longer affected by the emotions and mental projections of others, not prone to addictions and cravings that command our will, and we become passionless in terms of worldly pleasures and success, we detach from material possessions as the means of providing us with our identity and sense of self. We detach from external outcomes, and maintain our sense of self from an internal source that’s eternally peaceful and only affected by the consciousness that inhabits the internal plane, which is benevolent and selfless. Our journey into our true nature is a transformation that moves us from being determined by the material world which is built out of a shared illusion, to being determined by the power of our own soul’s consciousness and true connection to the spiritual realm of immortality, eternal strength, and all pervading peace and compassion for those still lost in the illusions of their own making, without ever even realizing it.

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Transformational Coaching

 

About the author:
Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
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