“14” – The Art of Transmutation and Regulating Your Vibratory Frequency

The symbolic interpretation of the Tarot card 14 – Temperance by Dr. Linda Gadbois

In the occult sciences all “numbers” represent powers or potencies, laws or agencies, and conditions or effects. All double numbers exist as a formula of principles utilized in performing an operation, and are added together to form a single digit number as the primary law involved. All numbers are correlated with the 22 letters of the Hebrew alphabet, which also represent principles and powers of creation and transformation. When we look at the number 14, we have a process indicated by 1 and 4 in undergoing the operation indicated by 5. Our formula is represented by the equation of 1 + 4 = 5.  All of what we call “laws” is actually the processes that are at work in any situation as the basis for creating the material world. The laws themselves are what you can think of as the invisible forces that energize, organize, and animate the material world.  1 represents mental power of concentrated thought that forms the basis for all manifestation, represented by 4, and 5 is the basic principle of “mind over matter”.

We form a basic translation of the meaning of numbers by utilizing a system of correspondences as a chain of associated ideas (intuitively). All major systems of spiritual sciences (Qabalah, Tarot, Astrology, Sacred Geometry, Numerology, etc.) can be used as the means of translating each other in order to find their shared meaning. The number 14 represents the principle of Temperance and the Art of Transformation in the Tarot, and corresponds with Tiphereth (5th Sephiroth) in the Qabalah Tree of Life. The Hebrew word assigned to 14 is Samekh, which means support, foundation, or what holds something up. It’s what makes the house secure as its foundation. It’s that which sustains, preserves, and maintains our personal existence.

The literal meaning of the Hebrew noun is “quivering” or “vibration”. Vibration is the fundamental power of the fiery force (fire) that makes sight possible. Sight is the sense that observes what has manifest as a sensory experience and is the function represented by Key 4. The fire element is represented by the “lion”, which is associated with “strength” (Key 8), and the value of Geburah in the Tree of Life (Qabalah) as “severity”, which is the strength aspect of 5 (Tiphereth) . The quality associated with Temperance is wrath, which indicates a strong action that causes a quivering or trembling (vibration) movement, and is represented by the Hebrew word RVGZ, which is translated numerically through the Keys of the Tarot forming:  R=19 (value of 200), V=5 (value of 6), G=2 (value of 3), and Z=6 (value of 7). When added together they form 216, which equals 9. When translated using Astrology we get:  R = Sun, V = Taurus, G = Moon, Z = Gemini > 19 + 5 + 2 + 6 = 32 = 5, the reduction of 14. Five is symbolized by the Hierophant as the higher-self working to create on the lower plane through the 2 lower aspects of the self-conscious and subconscious mind. In Sacred Geometry it represents the Pentad as the 5th element of the ether that resides over the 4 Elements of the lower plane. It symbolizes “mind over matter” and our ability to change our physical constitution using the power of our mind to alter our vibration.

Vibration is the basis out of which all physical forms manifest. Vibration is essentially a sound (spoken word) that organizes light (matter) into the meaning as an image associated with the word. Sound as an inner voice is the mode of consciousness associated with the Hierophant as “hearing”. Our 5th chakra is associated with the throat, and “will” as calling forth (speaking) the reality of the vision formed in the 6th chakra of the imagination. Vibration is a fluctuating motion as an undulation, pulsation, and alternation that creates a “wave-form”. A wave is formed through the polarity of complementary forces that work together as a single entity. This indicates the combination of rhythm and cycles, represented by Key 10 as a completed cycle of formation and growth. 10 = 1, this represents concentration on an idea in a single-minded fashion and the attentive observation of experience.

The mode of consciousness associated with 14 is Tentative Intelligence as “probation” or “trial”, because experience is the true test of all ideas. All theory is put to the test of practical application. As we apply an idea to our life, we produce an experience. We can then modify it by working directly with the experience. As we set an idea into motion we set up a kind of “feedback loop” where we begin receiving direct feedback as to the effectiveness of our application. This feedback is recognized by paying close attention to what we’re experiencing as we apply an idea to our everyday life. Based on the feedback we receive, we modify our idea until it produces the experience of reality it claims to. All learning as the means of acquiring knowledge through experience comes through experimenting with an idea through trial and error.

Temperance means to temper and modify something through a process of “adaptation” (Key 5), which is the basis of all practical work. All things are birthed as the adaptation of a universal idea to produce a personal version of the same idea. As we draw on an archetypal idea, we adapt it to our mental paradigm and the life situation we plan on utilizing it in as a means of creating an experience, and modify it accordingly. To adapt is to make adjustments necessary in order for it to work within a special set of circumstances. As we adjust an idea we undergo a constant process of equalization in order to coordinate it harmoniously with all other existing ideas. “Equilibrium is the basis of the Great Work”. The art of transmutation comes by applying universal knowledge through experimentation in order to “grow” in a continuous manner.

The image most commonly associated with Key 14 is an angel standing with one foot on land and the other in water, holding a container in one hand filled with water being poured onto the earth, and a wand in the other hand that’s directing a flame downward, combining water and fire as the passive (form) and active (life-force) aspects that form the same thing. A rainbow connects both sides of the angel’s wings, and symbolizes a bridge that unites the two minds in a harmonious and balanced state. By changing the proportion of the qualities being combined, we alter the results. The colors of the rainbow (7) reveal the hidden nature of light as interwoven frequencies that blend together to form a unified whole. Vibratory qualities exist as complementary pairs of opposites that are extremes of each other, and are used to modify each other.

The pool of water represents the subconscious which is the seat of automatic consciousness as the “vital soul” of man (light body), which is regulated and directed by the higher-self, represented by Tiphereth (5) on the center of the Tree as an equilibrated state. Water is influenced by the Moon (as instinct) and symbolizes emotion and memory (which are always connected) that takes the shape of its container and “informs it”. This is the same pool shown in Key 18, called the Moon, which symbolizes the subconscious. The rolling hills in the background imitate the motion of a wave as peaks and valleys, which is the characteristic as a “range” of all forms of vibration. A path rises from the pool and undergoes many cycles of growth by adapting too many life situations and circumstances, which serve to modify and grow it accordingly.  

The angel is wearing a crown designed as a headband with a “Monad” directly over the forehead, representing the 3rd-eye where archetypal ideas are translated into visual images that become the creative instructions for the subconscious to produce as an experience of reality. The attainment of higher consciousness comes as self-mastery where we master our lower nature to create the kingdom of the Higher Soul. Key 1 symbolizes attainment through self-realization of perfect union with primal will. Wisdom and Understanding (Chokmah and Binah) are only attained through experience. All of our experiences are created by how we’re using complementary aspects of our mind to produce our reality. If we don’t like our experience of reality, then we need to change the thoughts and ideas we’re using as the means of creating it.

The number 7 (7 + 7 = 14) represents creative expression as a variation produced through the adaptation of an idea to a practical situation that modifies it. In Sacred Geometry, the Heptad (7) is comprised of 7 angles within a circle that have no precise measurement, and so each time it’s drawn or constructed, it’s a unique variation of the same shape. 7 is the number that represents “will” as our innate ability to select a new idea and apply it in order to create something new, or transform what already exists into a new variation. We take a new idea and start by forming it in our imagination as a possible reality that serves to provide us with a kind of template for applying it.

As we apply an idea to create an experience of it, we constantly modify it based on observation of what results, until we get it just the way we want. Over the heart center of the angel is a “7 pointed star” which has reference to “skill”, because the circle must be divided into 7 equal parts that can only be estimated through trial and error. Above it is written the Tetragrammaton as the 4-letter name of God (YHVH), which is actually a formula for creating as Will, Intellect, Sensation, and the manifestation of the intellect (idea). The 7 points represent the 7 aspects of God, the 7 colors of the spectrum, 7 notes of a musical scale, 7 planets of astrology, 7 alchemical metals, and the 7 energy centers of the subtle body. All of which form correspondences of each other.

One foot is in the pool of water = the cosmic mind-stuff of the astral plane (imagination), and the other on land = physical reality produced by the mind, and the body which bridges the two as the path we walk. The two instruments, the vessel and wand, represent the subconscious and self-conscious, and the body that holds them is the soul that utilizes them as the means of creating. They flow one into another. What’s below streams from above, and what’s above is reflected below (4/Tetrad). The inner and the outer are a single stream of consciousness where one is a continuation of the other in symbolic form. Opposites act on each other to temper each other. Thought and emotion always exist in union where one gives rise to the other as an intimate interaction.

The Holy Guardian Angel deciding and administering the whole process represents our Higher Divine Self-Soul, who makes all of our tests and trials that lead us along the path of attainment. We are always the “One” acting on ourselves within multiple planes of manifestation. We exist simultaneously on two primary planes that are comprised of 7 levels of consciousness. This arrangement (image composition) is the same as the Hierophant (5) and the Lovers (6), which both show a higher being (priest and guardian angel) overseeing a young couple (male and female), where three aspects of our selves operate as if they’re one on two levels of reality. This triangular configuration represents the 3-aspects of the mind as the Higher or Super conscious, the subconscious (feminine) and self-conscious (masculine), and the two levels of reality they exist in simultaneously.   

Some pictorial composites show an arrow shooting upward, representing that we have to shoot for a definite mark or goal in all of our practices. Never accept theories or statements of others as being true, no matter how plausible they may seem, until you’ve tried them for yourself by applying them practically to create an experience of them. Always test ideas through actual practice. We only “attain” knowledge through experience, and we only transform and grow ourselves through creating experiences of ourselves that bring self-realization. The whole purpose of ageless wisdom is to provide us with the theories as the basis for actual practice. It’s not designed to persuade you to accept ideas as being true through a form of blind faith. Truth can only be known through direct experience. The only true failure in life is the failure to try. Anyone who accepts an idea as being true without trying it is foolish in the most basic sense and unintelligent. All spiritual knowledge is meant to provide us with the means for growing ourselves to higher and higher levels of wisdom and understanding. It’s only by trial and experimenting with ideas that you realize truth and the power that makes the experiment into something higher than your personality.

It’s our experiments that alter us by equalizing and coordinating our vibratory (energetic) activities. We only truly “know” by becoming one with an idea as a reality that brings realization and deeper insights into our own higher nature. Everything in the manifest world is vibrating at a certain frequency, and all forms of vibration are modified by mental means and control. The entire cosmos is mental in nature. All reality is birthed through a concentration of the mind on an idea. This path (14) leads from the moon of Yesod to the Sun of Tiphereth as the higher soul working through the agency of the subconscious and self-conscious to form the etheric body (Yesod) of Light (7), which forms the vibration as an energetic blueprint for ordering and animating the material body.

This idea represents the consummation of the Royal Marriage (Lovers) where the feminine and masculine are united to form a single androgen. All transformation comes by using the self-conscious mind to seed the subconscious mind with an idea for creating as an outer experience. We change our vibration and transform our physical world through a counter-exchange of qualities that form equilibrium as the inner made the outer and the outer an extension and reflection of the inner. By forming new combinations of positive and negative qualities of the same idea, we adapt the inner to the outer and modify it into a new variation as a growth process based on experience that develops us in new ways. The robe of the angel is green, symbolizing Venus, the imagination, and the plant kingdom. All actual material objects are regarded as “dead” (fixed) by the symbolism of science. The problem with transmuting metals is that they don’t grow. Our first task in transforming ourselves is to return fixed ideas (minerals) back into a state of growing and evolving (vegetative). The best way to do this is by imitating the processes of Nature.

When fire and water are harmoniously mingled, will and sensation form thought as air, which becomes the astral seed for manifesting as a reality. Once manifest, the manifestation itself doesn’t have the ability to change itself, only the mind as thought has the ability to alter the light body that’s used to organize it. It’s only by changing the “qualities” as the formula being used that alters the manifestation that results. By changing the frequency an idea vibrates at, we change the energetic pattern organizing it. We use complementary opposites to reformulate it by mingling contradictory elements in order to modify it. We transform existing manifestations by modifying the qualities being used to form and animate it. The Alchemical Marriage comes by forming new combinations of fire and water that alter the astral body of light and vibration. The formula for continued life is death (13), traditionally symbolized by the raven on a skull. The Greenman of spiritual folklore is the “dreamer” and “redeemer”. It’s through dreaming that we continue to grow. When we quit growing we begin dying.

We only transform through growth that develops new qualities as a way of being and seeing. By using complementary opposites of the same frequency we embody new qualities as a state of mind. The internal process comes by using the hidden stone (Pineal) V.I.T.R.I.O.L., which is considered the universal solvent. This hidden stone, also called the Philosophers stone, is the Universal Medicine as a “tincture” that’s formulated by adding new properties that serve to transform the constitution of the whole. Purification comes by transforming weakness as passions into strength as intelligence. The only real difference between dead and living things is their behavior and activities.

The term “vitriol” represents the balance of 3 things, symbolized by the 3 alchemical principles of sulfur, mercury, and salt (Key 1,3, and 4). Ideas that we use to seed our imagination are gestated and developed to form our physical reality. All creation comes as speech (words) that are felt as an experience. Our vital body is formed by will, intellect, and sensation, and is what forms the energetic blueprint for producing our experiences of reality. Creating a new living substance is the path of the Higher Will which operates on the lower self by planting a seeded idea in the imagination where it gestates and grows into a manifestation as an equivalent outer experience. A talisman is commonly used to represent an idea that’s grown in the imagination and birthed as an outer experience of the same kind. It’s a vision introduced into our mind that forms our voice and directs all of our activities. It’s a combination of forces, realization, and action that form a feedback loop and provide us with the basis for making accurate calculations. We use an idea translated into an internal representation of a possible reality as the means of providing us with a template for transforming our self by producing new experiences. Whatever reality we formulate inwardly becomes the basis for experiencing outwardly.

Dr. Linda Gadbois   

 

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Our First Birth – How we become a Product of our Conditioning

This process is very important to understand in order to heal psychologically and in order to intentionally evolve our soul to higher levels of conscious empowerment by stepping into our true identity as higher creative beings. What we refer to as both our mind and soul is 3-fold in nature. What this means is that it’s a “whole unit” comprised of 3 aspects that perform different functions in creating the same thing. The mind and soul are synonymous terms and ideas that are ultimately referring to the same thing. The soul creates through the vehicle of the mind, just as the mind creates through the vehicle of the body. All three are actually extensions of the same being operating congruently on different levels of reality.

The soul can be thought of as a multiple-dimensional entity that’s comprised of information that’s organized into thematic, archetypal patterns that serves to give it all of its qualities, characteristics, and natural behaviors. It “draws on” higher dimensions of archetypal ideas as a means of creating itself within the lower dimension as a “unique individual” of its own making. The more complex and sophisticated the information used and more ordered it is, the more intelligent it is. The higher human soul differs from the lower, animal soul (which is a creation and extension of it) in the sense that it has the fully conscious aspect of the mind that allows it to become self-aware and learn through realizations obtained through its own self-created experiences. It also differs in status as a “sovereign being” that exists consciously on multiple planes, and forms an awareness of “itself” as a specific personality on two planes simultaneously.

What we refer to as the human soul originates on a plane that’s “higher” than this one and never fully manifests-descends into a physical body. While on the higher (spiritual) plane of its birth and origin the soul exists in an energetic state of polarity, which is referred to as “complementary opposites” of the same being. The soul is comprised of both a masculine (active) and passive (feminine) aspect that works together harmoniously to produce a unified reality as both an inner and outer experience of the same kind. Because the soul is energetic in nature and exists in a fundamental state of polarity, only the passive component is able to act as a “receiver” for information delivered through its active component, even as the means of communicating between parallel planes. As the feminine, subconscious aspect of the mind is impregnated with the seeded idea of the masculine, self-conscious aspect of the same mind, it gestates and grows the idea in the imagination as an inner reality that becomes the template as a theme for producing (organizing) an equivalent outer reality as an “experience”.

The two masculine-active (self-aware) aspects of the same mind can’t communicate directly with each other (even between planes), and so they have to communicate with each other through the feminine aspect they both share in common. All communication from our higher-self on a higher plane, comes through the subconscious mind as a thought, vision, or inner voice that seems to come to us out of the blue, and ultimately communicates an idea by forming it into a reality where the self-conscious (outer awareness) aspect of the mind can perceive it. As a thought pops into our mind and we begin thinking about it, we develop it into a detailed idea as an imagined reality that forms a “translucent image” that we “look through” in order to perceive that same idea as a natural part of our outer environment.

This is how what we call “guidance” from a higher source comes to us as a form of prophecy. The feminine aspect takes in the “idea” being projected into it by the masculine aspect of the higher mind that acts like a “seed”, and builds it into a living reality in the imagination, where it’s “magnetized” with our life-force and begins “vibrating” at the frequency of the form as a living pattern. All vibration has both a pattern as a thematic, metaphorical idea (archetype) in it, and a self-organizing mechanism that shapes the idea into a reality in our imagination. The more we think about it, the more we define it in sensory terms, shaping it into a detailed form where it automatically elicits a corresponding emotion.

This imagined reality as a well-developed (sensory) idea that’s been adapted to our life circumstances (mental model) and modified accordingly, begins vibrating at a certain frequency and resonates and connects us with the elements of that same idea in our outer environment. Just as our subconscious organizes the idea into an internal reality through adaptation that modifies it into a corresponding version of the same idea that can be applied naturally to our specific life situation, it simultaneously produces that same idea as a larger version that can be witnessed by the self-conscious mind as an outer reality. As we form an idea internally and magnetize it with sensation and feelings that cause it to vibrate (come alive), it produces a kind of gravitational field (resonates) that draws us into the same idea as an outer experience of the same kind.

Evolution – Adaptation and the Art of Becoming

As the higher soul divides and descends into a body on the lower, material plane of organized substance, it’s like a “seed” that grows and develops in order to become a unique version itself through an evolutionary process of adaptation and modification. As a higher soul we’re born into a material body where the same mind inherent in the entire animal, plant, and mineral kingdoms of the Earth’s plane is pregnant with the archetypal ideas of the masculine aspect of the higher mind. The self-conscious aspect of the mind, which is what most people think of as their “self” and their “mind”, is birthed through a natural growth process when the personality of the body is mature enough to become independent of its mother and family, and begins developing itself as an “individual”.

Our growth and development takes place predominately in four 7 year cycles, much like the seasons, which are comprised of two extremes and two gradual progressions between extremes. From birth until around 7 years of age, we’re fully in our subconscious mind and haven’t begun developing our self-conscious aspect, also commonly referred to as the “grey matter” of our brain, which is directly behind our forehead. Between 7 and 14 we begin forming our self-conscious where we begin separating from our parents, becoming more social, and begin thinking and problem solving for ourselves. Between 14 and 21, we consistently develop and strengthen our self-conscious mind and begin shaping our identity as an extension of our personality. We experiment with new ways of being that are different from our parents and family and try on new ideas to see how they make us feel about ourselves, and begin making conscious decisions as to who we’re going to be. Between 21 and 28, we’ve balanced both aspects of our subconscious-group mind and our self-conscious individual mind, and have become fully identified with our body and conditioning, and whatever life circumstances we grew up in.

From birth till around 8 years old, we exist in a fundamental state of hypnosis where we have no ability to screen and censor incoming information in order to make rational decisions about it, and we take in whatever we’re told and accept it as true and real, forming all of what becomes our “core beliefs”. We readily take on the emotions being expressed around us and are trained to the dynamics being acted out that we’re a natural part of. We don’t question anything or analyze it in any way, and haven’t developed the capacities of reason and logic. We’re literally programmed by our family and immediate environment to be of the same nature and lifestyle. We feel, experience, and act as a single unit with our family and social environment.

As we continue to grow and begin developing our self-conscious, self-aware mind and begin thinking for ourselves, we continue forming all of our perceptions out of our conditioned mental paradigm as an “extension” of it. We can only “perceive” in the outer world what “matches” and is of the same nature as our internal programming. We begin sensing ourselves as our body through our experiences and begin making small decisions for ourselves. As we continue to develop our ability to think for ourselves, our internal dialogue and basic thought-processes are formed as an extension or continuation of our formative conditioning. Our experience of our self and our life is formed out of the same mindset and “type of story” that we’ve been conditioned with.

As an adolescent, when we have experiences that are emotionally intense, we use our mind to try and make sense of them by what we tell ourselves about them. As we begin talking to ourselves as a means of reasoning and rationalizing, we interpret events in a way that gives them meaning. At this point, we’re still somewhat one with our parents and family unit as a fundamental mindset and haven’t begun forming clear ideas of ourselves as being separate from everyone else.

Due to the fact that we haven’t established boundaries or a true sense of ourselves as adults, capable of making decisions for ourselves based on our own values and perceptions, we continue to make everything out to be about us and we’re deeply affected by the attitude and behavior of others. If our parents are hurt or upset, we think we must have caused it or think we can fix it. It must have been our fault somehow, so we can change it by changing ourselves. If someone lashes out or calls us names, we believe it’s true and it becomes a part of our narrative. Whatever we hear being said about us by others, we believe to be true, and it becomes a form of self-fulfilling prophecy. Whatever we make something mean about others and the way things are also means that same thing about us. We don’t have the ability to separate ourselves from others because we’re still operating as a part of the group mind.

As we approach and enter into our teen-age years of adolescence, hormones and puberty come into play and we begin having new physical urges and mood swings. As we become more and more independent while also being socially active and engaged in constant outside activities, we still process everything through our conditioned mindset and the emotional states that have become natural as habits. As we begin exercising our ability to create our own experiences and try out new ways of being, they still come only as what’s an extension of the moods and dynamics that we’ve been trained to. Our relationships with our friends become an extension as a variation of the same relationship we had with our siblings. Whatever “type” of relationship was openly demonstrated for us by our parents becomes the same type of romantic relationships we form.

As we become adults, between 21 and 28 years old, we establish ourselves as independent of our parents and fully on our own. We form relationships as a tight network, enter into our careers, become parents ourselves, and so on, and we develop all of our tendencies that evolved out of our conditioning into routines, schedules, and methodical rituals that habituate them even further. Our identity has been fully established as the offspring of our personality and we’ve developed our “life-theme” as the model that we use to perceive and interpret all of our experiences as a congruent “type” of story. We’re always telling a certain kind of story about ourselves and everything else by how we think and form our perceptions of things. If you pay close attention you’ll notice that you’re always talking to yourself and explaining, describing, or telling a story about things as the means of creating how you experience them by fitting them congruently into your overall model, and how you then “sense yourself” through your own experiences.

Most people live their entire life out of their conditioning as being formed by others and their life conditions and circumstances without ever realizing that they can change it. Most are completely identified with their body and its personality and have no perception or awareness of themselves outside of their physical existence. They live their whole life in a hypnotic state and continue to create their experiences and tell the story born out of their mental and emotional programming. We often live out of a form of “auto-pilot” without ever realizing that as adults, with a fully developed mind, we can use the self-aware aspect of our mind to form new realizations that will allow us to make new decisions for our self and our life. We can intentionally employ ideas that we turn into vivid internal realities as the means of programming our own subconscious and begin creating ourselves and our life in a more conscious and intentional manner.

Once we begin to understand how our own mind operates to create our experiences of ourselves and our reality, we can resume the role of conditioning ourselves through a form of self-hypnosis. The subconscious is the powerhouse of the material plane and is the aspect of the mind that takes an idea (metaphor) in its seed form (potential state) and produces a physical equivalent as both our body and the outer reality of our body. We don’t have to transcend our conditioning or work through the “issues” of our childhood traumas, but simply assume the role of learning how to condition ourselves through the employment of our higher capacities as divine beings. We all have the ability to become self-aware and gain realizations about our true nature, and begin intentionally deciding who we are, what we want to create, and take deliberate action on our decisions in order to turn them into our reality.

Complementary Aspects of the Mind

The subconscious is the key and medium not only between the two material minds on the lower plane, but also between the higher (spiritual) and lower (material) plane. It’s our higher-self that possesses the higher creative capacity of “will” which acts to organize all of the events of the lower plane. Whatever we absorb into our mind as an idea and turn into an imagined thought that’s emotionally intense, acts as a “wish” or request for the higher aspect of the mind to orchestrate through a synchronized series of natural events. It doesn’t exercise will “over” us, but exists in union and harmony with all aspects of itself. We communicate wishes to our higher self through meditation, prayer, and internal visualization of the reality we want to experience.

Whenever we run a memory through our mind that was traumatic or emotionally intense in some way, we’re actually programming our subconscious with that idea as a theme saying “give me more of this”. As we think and imagine, whether about what we want or don’t want, we are requesting it from our higher-self as a desired experience of reality. Whatever we think about and picture in our mind with sensory intensity and emotion, serves as a command, directive and request for producing as an experience where every aspect of our mind cooperates in producing it. It’s through “imagined thoughts” that invoke strong emotions that we program our own mind in creating. We are always involved in a constant form of prayer as a request for creating as an experience through our normal, everyday thoughts. Our thoughts are literally “things” in their potential state.

None of us are victims of our conditioning or what happened to us, and we can all work in our own life to transform ourselves in whatever way we desire by learning how to operate the complementary aspects of our own mind. All creation in the material sense comes by impregnating your subconscious with the reality and type of experience you desire. By realizing you are not a product of your story about yourself, but the one telling the story “as” a reality. It’s only through the realization of what’s actually going on and our true identity as a higher creative being that we can let go of our attachment to our past, wake up in the midst of our creation and begin consciously directing the process in an intentional manner. As long as we continue to choose to remain unconscious and unaware of our true creative abilities, we remain a victim to our own conditioning and prone to the endless forms of brainwashing where we’re consistently being created by accepting and internalizing the ideas given to us by others. As in all forms of true healing, “awareness as realization” is what empowers us and produces a form of spontaneous transformation.

To say and continue to believe that you are the way you are because of what happened to you, how you were treated and taught to be by others, is choosing to remain hypnotized by an illusion of your own making. As you continue to live in a delusional state as a fundamental form of unconsciousness, you become like an animal that has no ability to be self-determined and create in a deliberate and precise manner. You are a victim to your own karma while continuing to create more karma of the same type. You simply repeat patterns over and over. By choosing to wake up and realize what’s really going on and why your life is the way it is, lays the foundation necessary for you to begin not only stepping into your creative power, but also deciding “who it is” you really want to be. Through conscious awareness we can form an “ideal” of our self that we use as the means of providing ourselves with a blueprint and step-by-step process of transformation.

Personal Transformation as our Second Birth

What we refer to as our “second birth” comes when we’re “born again” as a new and higher being while in the same body and life circumstances in a fully conscious and self-aware state. We’re no longer formed out of subliminal suggestions and emotional reactions given to us by others that we embody and make our own, but by our own volition and ability to consciously decide who we’re going to be in every moment and then use the conscious aspect of our mind to seed the subconscious aspect with the fully developed metaphorical idea that we want it to produce as an outer experience of ourselves as a reality. We create ourselves by creating how we experience reality. As we form our perception of reality we sense ourselves within that reality and identify with our own experience.

By consciously forming how we experience the events of our life, we can begin gaining direct insight into our own subconscious content and working with our mind in a deliberate manner in order to transform it. All reality is formed through our perception of it. All perception is the result of our mental paradigm which is structured out of correlated values, beliefs, preferences, attitudes, and memories, which form a vibratory frequency.  Out of our frequency as a mental model we form our perception of a reality that’s a projection of our mind. Our outer perception of reality contains both known and unknown aspects of ourselves. By becoming aware of our unconscious aspects through our perception of them as a natural part of our outer reality, we can act intentionally “on ourselves” to transform them.

While we think that reality exists independent of us and has nothing to do with us in the most basic sense, the fact is reality is formed as our “perception” and how we form our “experiences” based on our perception. The same outer reality, for example, can be experienced in entirely different ways based on what state of mind we’re in. When we’re happy and feeling inspired the same neutral set of circumstances is experienced in a completely different way than when we’re sad and depressed. What one person perceives as a tragedy is often a blessing in disguise. What one person sees as a limitation another sees as an opportunity. It’s not the outer environment itself that changes, but how we choose to experience it based on the mindset we consciously cultivate in perceiving it.

Dr. Linda Gadbois  

    

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Understanding Different Dimensions and how to Move into them

What we refer to as “parallel dimensions” are interlaced dimensions that are polar opposites of each other. Sound and light, for example, are frequencies that are complementary in nature, and sound as vibration serves to organize light into living forms as a perceivable reality. Vibration has both a pattern and self-organizing mechanism inherent in it. What we perceive with our physical senses as a “solid reality” is actually comprised of light as “essence” that’s organized and held in place as a dynamic mental construct. Our material reality is formed out of a very small portion of an even larger reality, and is known as the “visible” part of the light spectrum. The aspects of the light spectrum just beyond our ability to perceive with our physical senses can still be known intuitively as feelings (sensations) that form mental impressions in the imagination that connect us with the unknown (inner) aspects of the known (outer) world. The inner and outer constructs of the mind exist as parallel planes that are complementary to each other, and work together to form an even greater unified whole.

Our material senses only perceives a very small part of what coexists all around us on a much greater scale that’s mostly invisible to us. What we’re capable of perceiving through our physical senses are a minute part of what’s actually there as what we call the “ether” or “astral plane” of the universal mind (unified field of information). The term astral light of course refers to “star light” which is invisible in essence until it’s reflected off of dust particles of some kind. It exists in a primary state as “plasma”, which can be “charged” or electrified (infused with a pattern) through mental intention and organized into a living form that resembles a grey, ghost-like shape, as an astral body that acts as a host for consciousness to embody as a means of creating and self-expressing.

What’s referred to as the astral plane in esoteric sciences is the star (sun) light that produces the atmosphere of the Earth as a visible, holographic reality based on what’s absorbed and utilized to produce a mental construct, and what’s reflected and therefore left out of the equation. This process of energetic absorption and repulsion of cosmic frequencies is formed by the relationship that’s formed between the earth’s astral body (soul) as an electromagnetic frequency or light spectrum and the cosmic or universal soul of latent potential, and is only a fraction of what’s possible at the universal level. The Earth, like all heavenly bodies, is a living entity that vibrates at a certain frequency and is what determines what astral potencies it acts to naturally absorb (resonate with), metabolize (integrate), and assimilate (harmonize) as the means of producing a light-matrix that emanates or gives rise to the sensory reality we perceive as Nature. All matter is light (photons) that’s shaped by the mind as thought-forms. Reality only exists through our mental perception of it.

All planets vibrate at different frequencies as “attributes and qualities” that form a broader spectrum that’s imbued with different characteristics of a much larger spectrum. Anything that exists outside of our mental frequency can’t be “conceived of” from within the frequency of the Earth and the senses formed out of the material bodies of the Earth. In a like manner, our solar system exists as a unified system of harmonic resonance that make up multiple dimensions, only some of which are perceivable by us, that are interwoven psychically to form an even greater conscious entity or solar soul, that gives rise to and governs all life within our solar system. These parallel, complementary planes, now known in quantum physics as “String Theory”, can be navigated psychically using what’s referred to as our “higher senses” as a natural form of intuition or an “inner voice that forms a mental vision” (thought). When we utilize our mind to develop our higher capacities (spiritual senses) we can engage in soul awareness of the dimensions that underlie and transcend this one as parallel and complementary to it.

Our “inner voice” that comes to us telepathically as our own voice being used by a higher authority, simultaneously forms an inner vision of whatever the voice is saying. Words spoken, whether silently as our thoughts or outwardly as speech, act to organize essence into the inner reality of the words. As we think we simultaneously create the reality of our thoughts in our mind. All will to create lies in the faculty of the imagination, which turns words into reality as the meaning of the words. This comes as a completely natural and automatic process that can be consciously cultivated in a purposeful manner through self-realization. Not the “self” of the body, but the true self of the higher soul. The body merely acts in an automatic fashion to form the reality its being given to form by the soul commanding and directing it.

The Light Body of the Soul is our Interstellar Vehicle

What’s commonly referred to as the “Merkabah” (chariot of light), represented by interlaced triangles (minds) of the Hexad (6) is the means of inter-dimensional travel between parallel planes. Inter-dimensional travel is performed by willfully tuning yourself to the dimension you wish to move into as a mental frequency. The symbol of a chariot, driven by a “master” (soul) who commands the animal pulling it, represents the human will and the vehicle of the mind. The triangle or pyramid represents the mind and the reality (mind) it naturally projects into by becoming one with it in essence (vibration). The interlaced triangles are oriented in opposite directions of each other as complementary opposites of the same mind. This indicates that as we either raise our vibration or lower it, we systematically tune into and become a part of the reality produced by that frequency, and we “tune our mind” by working with the complementary aspects of our own mind.

Inter-dimensional travel is undertaken with the faculty of the mind-soul, and is not possible with a material vehicle or technology of this dimension produced out of the material substances of the Earth. Anything produced out of the material body of the Earth carries its frequency and can only be used to travel within that same frequency or material plane. The dimension of time and space is an aspect of the material plane where travel comes by moving from one location in space to another, which can require an absorbent amount of time. Higher dimensions of pure light don’t involve the interlaced dimension of time and space and movement within the unified field of the cosmic mind is achieved naturally through thought and intention. The lower dimensions of unconsciousness take us deeper into the lower vibrations of the material world where we inflict pain and suffering on ourselves through our own thoughts and actions without any direct awareness of what we’re doing and how it is we’re doing it. As long as we remain unconscious of our true nature as beings of a higher nature who possess the ability to create using our mind, we remain locked into the darkness of our own making.

Whichever way we choose to go as a form of inter-dimensional travel from one plane to another is determined solely by us and how we “use our mind” as our galactic vehicle. No one has the power to think our thoughts for us or control our behavior. This is something only we do for and to ourselves. We’re always choosing what to think and how to behave based on our thoughts. When we’re conditioned to the slave mentality of the material plane and enticed into its vulgarity, violence, and mindlessness, we act “on” ourselves to confine us to a prison of our own making. We use our will and our ability to choose what we focus on, think about and actively engage in to self-administer our own pain and suffering. The idea of achieving immortality while in a physical body is a death sentence to the soul. The modern idea of “merging human consciousness with technology” allows the soul and will of individual sovereignty to be controlled and utilized by the will of others, and removes all possibility of transcending to higher planes of consciousness.

What we refer to as “higher planes of consciousness”, where we assume our true identity as divine creative beings, is one of sovereignty and individuality and comes as our innate ability to create ourselves through deliberate and calculated use of choice and will. It comes as our ability to think for ourselves, regulate our body and emotions, and make clear decisions about what we focus on, give our attention and life energy to, dwell in continuously, and will to create as a result. Whatever we connect with in mind and soul, we become like in spirit. Whatever we allow into our mind and take hold, we give life to “through” and “as” us. As we become “one with” something, we become the same in nature and we “bond” ourselves to it energetically and act to cooperatively participate in co-creating as a joint-reality.

The Science of Transcendence

We transcend the material plane by first developing our intuition as our ability to see the internal and underlying nature of things, and by connecting with our higher-self that’s of a divine nature, and giving our full undivided attention to imagining the reality that comes as inner guidance from our higher source. We cultivate ourselves to embody virtues through active use of our will to overcome weaknesses and transform our character accordingly. We learn how to consistently tune into the plane of peace and harmony that’s universal in nature, where we realize fully that we are the creator of our own reality. We quit identifying with the personality of our conditioning, and begin identifying instead with our higher-self and divinity. It’s our responsibility as sovereign beings to choose and actively create ourselves and our reality to be of the plane we wish to traverse to and exist in as a natural part of the harmonious whole of that plane.

If we actively participate in pain and suffering that results from a selfish attitude that’s greedy and power hungry, then we condemn ourselves to ultimate forms of self-destruction where we repeat unconscious cycles of cause and effect where lifetime after lifetime we suffer the consequences of our preceding actions and lifetimes. If however, we wake up from our unconscious state and realize the true nature of things and the workings of universal laws, we can actively use the laws of the higher planes to transform ourselves while still in the lower planes. We can realize that our body and material existence is not “who we are” as a soul, but serves merely as a vehicle to create within the material world by providing us with the physical apparatus necessary to actively create as a part of the reality of this plane. By realizing the true creative ability of our soul and our mind as the vehicle of our soul, we can tune ourselves mentally and emotionally to the reality of a higher plane and transcend this dimension when we shed and depart from the body.

The Process of Soul-Ascension

The transmigration of the soul is a gradual process of moving between parallel planes of a larger spectrum, represented by the 7 heavenly spheres, the 7 steps to heaven, and the 7 energy centers of the subtle body. This process of transcendence follows the same principles of the musical scale of sound and the color spectrum of light as a progression that builds upon itself until it peaks as an octave that crosses over a threshold where the entire progression as an accumulation moves into the next higher octave where it becomes the lowest note of the next higher scale. The number 7 is represented by a chariot that’s driven by a priest-king and pulled by 2 sphinx’s or horses that are of an opposite and complementary nature, and symbolizes active use of the “will” to direct the forces of the material plane by working with the complementary aspects of the mind (subconscious and self-conscious).

It’s only by progressing to the highest level of this plane as harmonizing the 7 interlaced aspects of ourselves that we come within range of the next higher frequency range and can be spontaneously “drawn into it” through resonance. We have to use our will as the master of our body and passions to actively tune ourselves to a higher vibration of a virtuous, selfless and universal nature while still fully submerged within this plane in order to transcend it in mind and spirit. Developing our soul to a higher level of being is the only way out, because it’s what’s acting to create the reality that it exists in and uses to create itself out of as an essential part of its own creation. The material world as we know it (perceive it) is a mental construct of the universal mind being played out harmoniously on several different levels and scales at the same time. Our perception of reality is formed by how our individual mind (soul) enters into relationship with the collective unconscious of the world mind and creates a joint-experience of a shared-reality while in a predominately unconscious state.  

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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“13” – The Principle of Death, Regeneration, and Birth

There’s probably no number or idea that has been consistently misinterpreted to instill fear as a misunderstanding of the principle involved than this one. Yet by examining the occult meaning of this number we can gain a new understanding of the universal law it represents as the means of liberation for the human soul. The principle of death is called “Nun” and represents “motion” and its primary function is to walk, travel, depart, pass away, whirl, and to sail away or travel through water. The process of the soul’s transition at death is often depicted as traveling on a boat through water moving from one shore to another.

Movement produces life giving change and is the means for transformation as modifications that produce variations as a growth process. It’s represented by the symbol of the “fish” as the “Vesica Piscis” or “womb of the universe” out of which all things are born, and by the serpent, which is both the redeemer and the messiah. The fish and serpent (ligand and yoni) symbols are paramount to the doctrines of resurrection and reincarnation. Christ was represented by the symbol of the fish. Death is also symbolized by the sideways 8, the sign of infinity, and represents the “twin phases of life” as cyclical elastic movement between higher and lower planes. Only through death of the old can we be reborn in a higher form.

Sacred Geometry and the Principles of the Tarot

 All numbers provide us with a form of code as the laws involved in any process as a formula for how to work with it consciously. 1 + 3 = 4, as we withdraw attention (key 1) from an idea, it “frees up” the energy being used to give it life, making it available for directing into something else. As we direct the free energy as our attention into something else and develop it internally in our imagination (Key 3), we give life to the new idea and a form of transformation takes place. When we change our thoughts and what we give our energy to, we change what manifests as a result (Key 4). When we change the groundwork out of which we build our reality, the reality itself changes as a direct correspondence.

13 = “regenerative power” as fertility, fecundity, and productiveness that sprouts and grows new ideas as both internal and external realities. When we act to change a “cause” (mental awareness) we change the “effect” in exact proportion and equal measure. Whatever the nature of our most intimate thoughts always produce an equivalent outer reality. As we concentrate on an idea we bring it to life in our imagination and develop it into a detail scenario by shaping and defining it with specific attributes and qualities. As we develop ideas in our imagination by continuing to think about them we shape them into “internal representations” that serve as a metaphorical template that we look through in order to perceive the same type of ideas in our outer environment.

When we remove our attention from an idea and no longer act to give it life inside of us, it passes from our awareness freeing up our attention to be directed into something new. As we infuse a new idea with that same energy we adapt it to our current model to produce a new thought that gestates in our imagination until we eventually birth it as a new experience of reality. This principle is represented by a “swirling motion” (vibration) as a wheel or circular movement that symbolizes the life-cycle of an idea. Once an idea is manifest and its expression exhausted, a cycle is complete, and it lays the groundwork necessary for a new one to emerge in its place as a growth process of continuous transformation and regeneration.

13 is represented by the water element and is oriented in the south-west direction (of Metatron’s cube), and is often symbolized as a river and a boat sailing on the river as a means of crossing over from one side to the other. Water is symbolic of the “Mother substance” of life and is the ultimate symbol of transformation. It’s the Astral Light of the formative plane that’s elastic and fluid-like and is what shapes the etheric body as the blueprint for all living forms. Water rises from the sea (universal source) to become clouds that move across the landscape descending as rain, forming lakes and rivers that then flow back to the sea from whence it came. Life is a continuous process of transformation from one state to another, where we expand and express, then retract and process, then repeat the process indefinitely.

13 is associated with the zodiac sign of Scorpio, which is a water sign, and is exalted in Uranus (higher Soul), and governs the sex organs associated with reproduction and regeneration, and is connected with the 8th house of death. Scorpio is symbolic of transformation as 3 phases or states that form 1 evolutionary cycle. These 3 phases of development are represented by a scorpion while in its lowest phase of development, a serpent in its middle phase, and the eagle in its highest phase. 13 comes as the completion of 11 (karma), the fulfillment of 12 (self-sacrifice of initiation), and the undulation of 14 (creating a new vibration). The serpent represents the male energy, and the fish represents the yoni as the womb through which we give birth.

The mode of intelligence represented by 13 is “imaginative intelligence” (3) and reveals that all causation is mental in nature (1), and is birthed, transformed, and evolved into new forms through the faculty of the imagination (Key 3) to produce an equivalent physical manifestation (Key 4) as its offspring. All change comes by evolving ideas in the imagination to form new variations, or by birthing new ideas in place of old ones. We change ourselves by changing the thoughts and memories we use as the means of shaping ourselves. All personal change comes as a change in mental imagery. If you change the mental image the external form will change accordingly.

When the forces of change are misunderstood by the very mind that’s designed to direct them, they tend to cause fear. These forces of Nature are connected with reproduction and by right use of the imagination may be tamed and transformed so they can be utilized for the prolongation of life. Through understanding and correct use of the laws involved we can consciously direct the forces of change in overcoming death. In order for the correct understanding to be achieved, fear of death and dying must be overcome through right knowledge and the proper interpretation of physical dissolution. It’s not the soul that dies with the body, but only the identity formed in association with the personality of the body. The etheric body used to construct and operate the physical body of the personality dies with the body, while the soul ascends to a parallel plane. The human soul is in a constant state of growth and development as a means of self-creation and considers the confinement of a mundane life within an animal body to be true death. When the body dies the soul that inhabits it and gives it life is set free.

The skeleton is the image associated with 13 and is considered the physical organ of the soul’s essence (marrow). The skeleton of the body is necessary for movement and change from one place to another and transformation. It’s the framework that supports the whole body of physical existence. The soul’s essence, so to speak, resides in the bone marrow and is what produces the blood cells that nourish all other organs and systems of the body. Our blood chemistry is formed as an expression of our soul’s mental state, perceptions, and memory. As we create experiences and form reactions to our own thoughts, we’re constantly transforming the chemistry of our body to be of the same nature. What we consider the “veil” or mask that lies between life and death is perpetuated through change, transformation, and the soul’s passage from lower to higher planes as an continuous flow of consciousness.

The word “Nun” has growth and development for its basic meaning, symbolizing perpetuity as a continuous evolutionary process. In Biblical texts, Joshua was the son of Nun, and the great hero that Jesus was named after. Jesus was known as having 12 disciples (archetypes of zodiac) and was the 13th as the highest level of mastery that integrated them all in a harmonious state of self-perfection. In the 49th (4+9=13) chapter of Genesis (genes of Isis), Jacob is referred to as the “blessing” and described as the fruitful bough by the well whose branches run over the wall. It takes 49 days for the pineal gland (seat of the soul) to fully develop in the fetus, which governs the sexual organs of regeneration and is the means for accessing the “well of divine knowledge” of the higher dimensions from which the soul originates. It takes at least 49 days for the soul to be reborn in another body. In the Tibetan Book of the Dead, the transition through the “death phase” of life takes 49 days to complete.

The number 7 represents a complete unit of light as well as a complete cycle necessary (7 x 7 = 49 = 13 = 4) as the means of transmigrating into a new physical body. The entire cosmic order that’s written in the stars has liberation as its basis. It always tends towards freedom of the soul from the confinement of a single personality. The most common ideal shared by all humans as a basic motivation is freedom. As we adopt an “ideal” it becomes the object of our worship and we strive to become it. Jesus represented the “ideal man” and demonstrated the path of liberation as purifying and perfecting ourselves by employing virtuous qualities as the means of creating our self. All universal wisdom reveals that the entire cosmic order is designed as a dynamic process of creative freedom. Those who develop themselves to be virtuous in nature work to liberate their own soul while also serving the greater good of all mankind. As our soul ascends to higher dimensions by way of our deeds we blaze the pathway for others to follow.

There isn’t any force in the universe that’s hostile towards man or that acts to produce insurmountable obstacles to our freedom. All universal laws, when properly understood, provide the intelligence necessary for liberating ourselves from the ignorance of our own conditioning. Fear inhibits our ability to understand and causes us to imprison our soul in illusions of our own making. We only truly love what we understand, and understanding casts out all fear. It’s only through love that all higher knowledge is revealed to us. Through a deeper understanding of the law of death, comes freedom from the fear of death. Death is what allows the passing away of old ideas allowing new ones to be born in their place, and is the instrument of growth and development as a continuous evolutionary process of becoming our highest potential.

Psychological Application

Psychologically the emphasis is on the will and our ability to choose what we focus on and dwell in mentally and emotionally. Whatever we imagine in vivid sensory detail and concentrate on we impregnate ourselves with. As we change the ideas we use to shape and define ourselves, our old conception dies allowing us to form a new one in its place, and we grow ourselves accordingly. As our body constantly undergoes a natural process of death and regeneration, we’re programming our new cells with our thoughts and perceptions. Every few years we have a completely new body. Even our skeleton completely regenerates every 7 years. With the passing away of old cells a new generation of cells are formed to take their place. In the nucleus of every cell is implanted a subconscious response to your new patterns that provide the impulse to realize a new thought in the body’s structure and how it functions. Any cells that don’t die naturally and continue to grow and multiply instead, becomes a cancer that eventually kills the whole system. Death is a necessary part of life.

Through the realization of Key 12 (the Initiate) as surrendering your lower self to a higher ideal, your personality dies and a complete transformation takes place. In reality we die daily and are constantly deciding, although usually without awareness, what is born in its place. As we go to sleep every night we die to the day that’s ending and are resurrected every morning to begin a new day. Through the natural process of cell death, all of our old motives, petty ambitions, foolish opinions and prejudices gradually die out and their memory eliminated in the normal course of physical repair and rejuvenation. Little by little through a gradual process of transformation there’s a complete adjustment of one’s personal conceptions and the values we use to give life its meaning.

As we change our perspective (Key 12) from a personal one to a more universal one, the change can be so drastic that mystics the world over have come to refer to it as the “death of the self”. It’s by death and regeneration of the body cells that patterns created in the imagination become fixed in personal consciousness. Whatever consciousness we cultivate by way of imagined thoughts are literally embedded in our flesh. Our soul’s consciousness determines our health and nature of our physical existence. We know scientifically that our genes are programmed by our perceptions and our physical world is the manifestation of our soul’s consciousness. The key to creating within the material world lies in our ability to program our own subconscious mind.

Our subconscious is the unified mind that we share with all of humanity and the natural world. Our subconscious is constantly influencing the subconscious everyone and everything around us. As we telepathically influence the mind of everyone around us, they in turn act to program their own DNA so that everything forms a unified reality in a consistent and harmonious manner.  Memory as patterns of information imprinted in the astral light of the collective unconscious is what forms all physical structures and natural behaviors. By reforming our memory, we reform our mental and physical structure in a corresponding manner. Whatever we sow, we also reap. We experience every part and perspective of a much larger group dynamic. Every life time we play a different role in the same idea and develop ourselves accordingly. Death is the reaper where we turn the tables and experience life from a new perspective.

Interpreting the Numbers

In Sacred Geometry, which is the main mathematical system of the sacred sciences, all ideas formed as a well-defined sensory reality in the imagination produce an equivalent (and opposite) material manifestation. All numbers are a kind of code as a formula of the laws operating in a situation that provide us with the means for being able to work with it consciously. The formula is the intuitive basis for understanding the operation and process of creation that’s involved. We can only utilize intelligently what we understand practically. All conscious creation comes through practical use of universal laws.

1 + 3 = 4 – This code shows us the primary laws involved that are necessary for us to utilize in order to create in a conscious and intentional manner. 1 = Monad as the “mind” exists as a mental paradigm and has the ability to select an complementary idea that it then projects into the imagination of the subconscious where it’s concentrated on and developed into a coherent physical form. 3 = Triad as the imagination, which is the faculty of the mind used to develop an idea inwardly as a thought that becomes the etheric (shaped out of light-essence) template for projecting outwardly to form a corresponding physical manifestation. 4 = Tetrad, the number that represents material reality is produced as a “reflection” of the internal idea that becomes the “lens” through which we perceive that same idea as an outer reality. Both the inner and outer material world is the manifestation of the soul’s consciousness on multiple scales and planes simultaneously.

The same process that’s used to reshape reality as a correspondence to existing memory is also used to transform it. All memory is created by imagining a situation internally as a representation (personal interpretation) of an event, which becomes a kind of metaphorical theme that’s then replayed in the imagination over and over as a primary form of programming ourselves to consistently produce more realities of the same nature. All memory that’s continuously focused on and relived in the mind’s eye forms the perceptual lens that we use as the means of interpreting (organizing) all current events to be of the same nature and meaning as past events.

We use memory as the means of creating our self and our reality to be of the same metaphorical pattern. We transform our self and our life by working directly on our memories to adjust them by introducing new information that alters their pattern into a new configuration for producing a new version of reality as an experience. As we change our perspective our perception of reality changes accordingly. In order to grow and transform ourselves, we have to give up our story about things formed by continuing to live in the past and instead work creatively to form a new one. As we begin telling a new story we change our self as the author and main character of our own story and embody new qualities that form a new image of our self and a new way of life results. It’s only by mastering death that we learn how to truly live and create.

Death is a transformation of the soul that moves from one idea to another, as well as from one plane to another. If we fail to let ideas die in order to create something new in its place, we fail to grow. As we fail to grow we fail to thrive and it causes death for the soul. Change is necessary for growth, just as death of the cells is necessary for regeneration of new cells as a means of living. Death is the foundation of life which exists in a constant movement of birthing, maturing and transforming ideas as the means of creating new experiences of reality as a natural process of growth and development into higher states of being. Fear of death comes when we mistake our soul for being the temporary manifestation of the body instead of the consciousness that’s causing and producing it.

As we surrender the lower self and personality of the body to be a vehicle and instrument of the higher soul (12), we allow the old image of ourselves to die, and form a new one as an “ideal” in its place. We form an idea about ourselves that require us to strive and stretch in order to become it. As we transform our identity by reorienting ourselves to a new perspective of a higher nature, we alter the pattern being used and alter our vibratory frequency as a result (14). By changing the internal pattern and vibrating a new frequency, we change the outer world of appearances to become a correspondence to the new internal representation being used to experience it, and we reprogram the new cells of our body being generated to express in a new way. The mind always acts to shape the body to be a direct reflection and expression of it.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Realizing your True Self and Transcending the False Ego of your Past

One of the most fundamental spiritual errors we make in life is in believing that we are the personality of our body and conditioning. As a human soul born into an animal body, we acquire the physical characteristics and ancestral memory that’s inherent in our genes. Our genetic makeup bestows us with the basic tendencies that are then developed by our family dynamics (those who share the same tendencies) as our formative conditioning that serves to birth our initial identity (ego). Through our formative conditioning we form a story about our self that becomes our life theme. As we grow into adults we take over the process of continuing to condition ourselves by living out of the same story. We usually do this without ever realizing that the only reason it holds true for us is because we continue to live our life as though it’s true. Many people (actually most), firmly believe that they “are” their personality as they were shaped by others and society, and have no real ability to change themselves. They live their entire life without ever realizing that they’re actually the “story-teller” and one that’s producing the reality of their story, rather than a mere consequence of the story itself.

As we come into this life and our soul acquires the qualities of our genetic makeup, we’re initially shaped by others and outside forces to strengthen and develop certain qualities while others remain latent and underutilized. We exist as children in a predominately unconscious state (of hypnosis) where we readily take in and internalize whatever consciousness is actively being expressed and demonstrated all around us. Whatever dynamics we’re apart of as a family structure, we become programmed with, and they serve to form the foundation for the story we begin telling ourselves as a means of making sense of things as we begin developing our conscious mind (between 8 and 21 years).

Our personality is formed from an unconscious state as a form of hypnotic programming that lays the foundation as a life theme for our identity to spontaneously emerge through our conscious development. As we begin thinking for ourselves and forming our own ideas about things (somewhere around puberty) we take over our own unconscious programming as our internal dialogue and the perceptual filters that we use for producing all of our experiences. We take over where our family left off, and our parent’s voice becomes our own internal voice and the means through which we interpret things to give them meaning through the story we begin telling ourselves about them. Our conditioning forms the basis for all of our initial internal dialogue as our means of thinking and processing information to form a consistent experience of our self, others, and the world around us. Out of this initial story-line as a life theme we consciously begin developing our identity by the roles we naturally take on and play through the relationship we form with the outer world and our life circumstances.   

All of our primary memories are formed from significant emotional events in our life that had a strong impact of some kind that altered us in some way. The emotional impact came at a time when we couldn’t rationalize it in an objective manner, and so we processed the experience internally by making it all about us. As a child we perceive ourselves as being one with our family unit and haven’t yet developed the mental capacity to see ourselves as sovereign individuals. Whatever we hear being said about us by others around us we accept as being true without questioning it, and form beliefs about our self as a result. Through a basic form of hypnotic suggestion we’re given (subliminally programmed with) the same values, attitudes, perspectives, beliefs, emotional states, and behavioral dynamics as our family unit. We always shape ourselves to be just like our family, or what we imagine to be the opposite (relate or contrast), but either way, we still form ourselves by way of our family.

As we grow older we fall into a very specific and pronounced role within that dynamic and we begin developing ourselves based on what we’ve been taught to believe about ourselves and the way things are. Whatever other people say about us when we’re a child acts as a creative directive (hypnotic suggestion) for our subconscious to produce as a reality. The beliefs we form about ourselves as a child become our “core beliefs” out of which we form all of our other beliefs as a correlation, and ultimately becomes a form of “self-fulfilling prophecy”. What we call our soul’s “destiny” is usually the result of our conditioning as our “false identity”.

By the time our conscious and self-aware mind develops fully (around 21 to 28 years old), where we develop the powers of reasoning, discernment, and the ability to logically analyze things, and we separate emotionally from our parents and begin seeing our self as an individual, we’re already programmed and take over the process of conditioning (creating) ourselves by continuing to live out of our past. We continue to see ourselves and process our experiences as we’ve been taught to through our conditioning, and the voice of those who judged and criticized us becomes our own internal voice that we continue playing over and over in our mind.

How we Shape Ourselves

We all have a tendency to only live out of a handful of memories that we use as the means of constructing our story about ourselves and our life. These are the memories that had the greatest impact on us, and that we use in a continuous fashion to shape ourselves accordingly. There are many other memories that we could use that would contradict our story, or tell a different type of story altogether, but we choose to ignore and exclude those, and often, over time, forget them completely. This natural ability to select the memories that we use to build our life story out of is a demonstration of our soul’s true ability to create itself, but of course we usually fail completely to realize “how” our mind is operating to “create”, and focus instead on the conditioned content as what we’ve been taught to think and feel. We don’t know how to recognize the laws by which our mind works to create an image of ourselves “as” a certain type of person, and believe instead in the illusion of our own making.

My own experience of this as a realization came from a basic form of inner guidance that called me on my own story about things. One of the feelings I always had as a kid was that nobody knew me as I really am, and judged me instead to be the same as my family, which I was nothing like in the most basic sense. As a young adult I moved to a town where nobody knew me or my family, and as I was getting ready to walk through the doors of a restaurant I was working at, it seemed like a kind of metaphor for walking into a new reality, and a voice inside said . . . okay Linda, you’re always saying that people don’t know you for who you really are, so who are you? The only thing that people are going to know about you here is what you choose to tell them. No one knows anything about your past or what you’ve been through. And I decided at that point that I wasn’t going to talk about my past or my family.

What I immediately noticed is how people looked at me and how they treated me based on being myself. I felt a kind of heaviness had been lifted from me, and a strange, newfound freedom. Like I was standing in front of a blank canvas and deciding what I was going to create. I had a blank piece of paper where I could write whatever story I wanted to. As a result of never talking about my past and deciding I was going to create myself in a conscious manner, I began forgetting about the past and over time thought about it less and less. As I no longer chose to dwell in memories of the past, I began feeling different about myself and my life. My personal growth during this time was phenomenal and I slowly began transforming myself into a completely new type of person. The person I consciously decided to be.

Many years later, when I finally opened up and talked briefly about my childhood and what I went through growing up, people that knew me were shocked. They had no idea and thought I had come from a well-to-do family, had an extensive education, and was nurtured as a child by loving parents. As time went on, many years later, when I would talk about the crazy stuff we did as kids (I had 3 older brothers), instead of talking about it as abuse and tragedy, I decided I was going to embody the outlook and attitude of two of my favorite fictional characters, Tom Sawyer and Huckleberry Finn, and I re-told the stories of my past in a humorous and adventurous way. All of my stories about running away, hoping trains to who knows where, and living in forts on the streets became exciting adventures of exploration and freedom. I retold the exact same experiences from and entirely different perspective, and as a result changed the memories themselves in terms of how I “experienced” them and how I felt about myself as a result. I literally recreated myself using the same memories as life events while experiencing them in a whole new way. This was my first lesson in the art of self-transformation.

Now, as a fully mature person who has lived many lives in the course of this life and personality, I hardly ever talk about my past or myself in the general sense, and instead practice being present, talk about ideas and what my life is about currently. I’ve grown so much in terms of my ability to create myself intentionally that I don’t even relate to the little girl in my memories anymore. Many people see me as mysterious and a bit hard to get to know, without realizing that it’s because I no longer choose to live from my unconscious conditioning of the past, and instead identify with my true self as a universal being that’s the “storyteller” and the one creating the reality rather than the hypnotized personality still living out of the past and how I was shaped by others.

To wake-up in life isn’t to “heal from the past” by going through years of therapy where you “work through the issues of your past”, which usually only causes you to become even more identified with your past and the need to tell about “what happened to you” as a means of explaining why you’re the way you are. It comes instead through realizing who you really are as a soul and identifying instead with being the one who’s doing the creating by way of the story you keep telling yourself and others, often referred to as “your truth”. It’s detaching from your own past memories formed as a child when you had no real self-awareness and assuming the position of being the one who’s creating an image of yourself and producing the reality of your life “as” that story. You decide that you no longer need to keep telling that story as an expression of who you are, and you let go of it as a result. You no longer present yourself through the stories of your past and realize instead that you can create in the present whatever experience of yourself you want to by simply choosing to operate your own mind and imagination in an intentional manner.

What we think of as our “self” is formed out of memories. Our memories only remain alive if we continue to give them life in the present by constantly reliving them in our imagination. To change the self, you have to change the memories that serve to form it. All memories are actually something we create by how we interpret the events of our life out of whatever emotional state we were in at the time. By constantly reliving the memories over and over keeps us locked into the same emotional states. Whatever memory we play out and the emotion it keeps us infused with forms all of our natural perceptions, behaviors, and activities. You don’t change a memory by reinterpreting it to give it new meaning, but by “experiencing” the same event from a different perspective and attitude that causes you to “feel different” and elicits a different emotion in response to it. We evolve and transform ourselves by re-imagining our life experiences. All will to create lies in masterful use of your own imagination.

Dr. Linda Gadbois  

“11” – Universal Justice, the Law of Cause and Effect, and the Nature of Karma

In occult sciences the number 11 represents the principle of universal justice as the equilibrium of complementary opposites to establish balance and harmony. It’s symbolic of what’s commonly called “karma” as the absolute law of cause and consequence, also referred to traditionally as the “golden rule”. Its purpose is to teach and instruct us through our own actions which produce both immediate and long term consequences as our ability to create our reality. This is a double “1” (Monad) as the balancing scales that brings an equal or greater return on all our actions and deeds. It represents our ability to learn from our own actions and the inward capacity for self-direction and regulation. In the “Book of Formation”, the special action assigned to Justice is “work or action” that’s designed to teach and instruct.

Justice is represented by Libra, ruled by Venus, which governs the inner world of the imagination (Key 3), where our subconscious deductions from experience become the seeds of karma, and forms the basis for all of our actions. As we create through our own actions and deeds, we simultaneously learn and provide ourselves with a form of instruction. Through purely unconscious processes we form constant interpretations of experiences that produce all of our natural perceptions and automatic behaviors. How we perceive ourselves and the outer world comes through our personal style for processing and organizing information, which forms the basis for all of our actions. Our mental model as our perceptual lens is formed initially as the result of our formative conditioning as mental states, dynamic patterns, and tendencies that have become habitual.

Mode of Consciousness

The mode of consciousness associated with Justice (karma) is “faithful intelligence”. The subconscious is a faithful servant to the conscious mind and produces the realization of whatever idea it’s germinated with. The feminine aspect of the mind is impregnated with the seed (idea) of the masculine aspect and produces the reality of the idea as its offspring. This not only reveals to us that most creations result from habitual unconscious patterns, but also that whatever it is that we imagine as a reality with intensity, is actually a “request” for a personal creation. We act on ourselves to program our own subconscious through imagining ideas as an actual reality and experience, “instructing” it (our self) to produce more experiences of the same nature and kind. As we replay memories over and over in our mind, we’re instructing our subconscious to produce more of the same types of reality, usually without realizing (being aware) that that’s why we have the same type of experiences over and over again.

Vices or virtues are equally deposited in the faithful intelligence of the subconscious where they augment. As we interject an idea into our subconscious by vividly imagining it with sensory detail, it gestates until it becomes the foundation out which we perceive the same idea outwardly as its realization. The subconscious faithfully reproduces and multiplies whatever idea it’s given as an imagined reality that’s experienced in an emotionally intense way. It uses existing memory as a kind of metaphorical theme for creating more of the same type of realities. It takes a symbolic idea in its potential form and ripens it to become the motive for our actions. As we create ideas as an outer realization through a form of projection that produces a new variation through a process of adaptation, we then reabsorb them through the experience they provide and shape them into memories that act in turn to reprogram ourselves with more of the same type of experiences. All reality is subjective in nature and is formed as a self-perpetuating process of self-realization.

The Law of Cause and Effect

Cause is manifest by effects, and effects are proportioned to their causes. All action is a cause that produces an equivalent effect. Nothing is affirmed or made real until it appears outside of us as a realization. We apprehend the cause of our own actions by the effects contained in the energy of the cause, by means of the Universal Law of Correspondence and Analogy. Once an idea is established as an outer effect that brings realization, the effect then becomes a cause that produces an equivalent effect “in us” through the experience it provides. All of our deepest motives are revealed through the reality they create as the nature of our experiences. It’s not necessarily the idea itself that provides a creative template for the subconscious, but rather what internal force is “motivating” us in creating the idea. The conscious mind provides the material form as an idea, and the subconscious infuses and grows it with an equivalent emotional force, and together they form the “reason” for the creation.

The Law of the Monad (Mind and Soul) demonstrates the principle of how the inner center (nature) produces the outer sphere of reality to be of the same nature through an electromagnetic respiration as an outflow and inflow of consciousness that creates on multiple levels and scales simultaneously. Magnetic respiration is where the inner nature of motives that produce outer actions populates the atmosphere surrounding it, providing it with a reflection of itself through its own works. Through our own creative abilities, we create either heaven or hell for ourselves. There’s always an electromagnetic pulsation of the soul where it projects itself to formulate its outer reality, constructing it to be of the same nature (pattern) as it is. As it forms the realization of itself through its outer environment, it then draws the realization back into itself where it’s reformulated into a memory. Our core being is what forms our perception as interpretations that provide us with the means for experiencing our self. All of what we call curses or blessings are self-administered and produce their consequences invariably, and every action by its nature produces effects analogous to its motives, extent, and direction.

Thought, Word, and Deed

Thoughts that aren’t translated into speech don’t produce realization, and speech that’s not backed by action remains idle as imagined fantasy. Ideas are only made “real” when they are acted on to produce outer experiences as the realization of the idea. Many people form a false image of themselves that they never act on to make real, and it results in a form of delusion as a false front disguised to hide their true nature. Thought formulated into speech forms the basis for the action necessary to produce it as an outer realization. The realization gained from an action reveals what motivated it.

Many people hide their true motives (often even to themselves) out of fear of what it means about them, and try to cover them up with false proclamations that act to contradict their actions. What we say doesn’t reveal anything about us; it’s what we do that demonstrates our true character. What we act to create in life only comes through our actions, not idle thoughts as fantasies that only serve to delude us. Whether vice or virtue, destructive or constructive, we are fully responsible for anything we say or do, and the realities that result from them. There is no such thing as indifferent acts.

Justice signifies active administration of law as balance, poise, expectation, precision, impartiality, and equity. It’s not based on value judgments of right and wrong, or good and bad, but merely serves to reveal the inner constitution as what motivates actions. Every action has a motive as a subconscious formulated interpretation. As we think, speak, and act, we create the reality of our motives, which serves as a mirror into unconscious aspects of ourselves. Our subconscious is programmed initially through our formative conditioning, which forms the basis for all of our motives, interpretations, and natural behaviors. As we perceive something through our mental model we reformulate it by saying “this means that”, referencing and associating it to a memory of a previous experience of a similar nature, and we act accordingly. Through our conditioning we act on ourselves to repeat the same patterns as a habitual way of perceiving and create the same type of experiences over and over again.

Our Life Story as a Theme for Self-Creating

Our (self-produced) memories serve to form our natural way of perceiving the world and sets the stage for the story we begin telling ourselves as a means of using the past to interpret the present to mean the same thing. The meaning we give something determines how we experience it through the story we tell ourselves about it. Our story about something is how we explain, describe, and justify it as a means of attempting to understand it. As we create the outer realization of our thoughts and motives as an experience of our own making, we then become subject to them. We use our own self-produced experiences to shape ourselves by how we identify with our own creation as an ongoing story we’re always in the process of telling ourselves about things. In this manner, we’re always shaping everything else to be like us.

By realizing that our outer realizations are providing us with a mirror into our own unconscious mind, we can become more self-aware. Anytime we bring something that’s operating at the unconscious level in our life into conscious awareness, we provide ourselves with the opportunity to transform it in whatever way we desire. By staying unaware and repeating the thematic patterns of our conditioning, we live our life out of karma and remain unconscious of our true nature and our ability to self-create by way of our own realizations. We fail to realize that we’re not our personality or conditioning, but the “means” through which it becomes our reality. Our soul is the author and producer of our life story as the means of simultaneously creating and experiencing itself by way of its own creation. We are the soul that’s producing reality through our perception of it, not the result of an objective reality that’s somehow being done to us by an outside force or contrary power.

Summary

By becoming self-aware and using our outer realizations as a mirror into the hidden aspects of our mind, we can step into our true power to self-create by learning how to seed our subconscious with ideas we want to create as our outer experience of reality. We can realize our own undesirable traits and delusional interpretations and begin acting on ourselves to transform them into more beneficial and meaningful ones. Once we realize that things only mean what we make them mean by how we interpret them, we can detach from our inner narrative as our story about things, and begin forming new ones. Once we become aware of habitual dynamics that we’re drawn into unconsciously as a reaction of some kind, we can begin neutralizing them by re-framing them and making a conscious decision as to what we want to create in their place.

As we become aware of the patterns produced unconsciously through our conditioning, just the awareness alone dissolves them, and we’re left with a new awareness of our ability to make a decision as to how we’re going to create instead. As we begin making new decisions and actively directing our subconscious on what we want it to create, we begin taking full responsibility for our self and our life. Our inner core as our nature and character is what acts to produce our outer perception of reality and our “self” through that reality.

By changing ourselves as our inner character, we change the reality it naturally produces as a fundamental form of self-expression. We don’t change our life by working on others and the outer effects themselves, but by working on ourselves as the inner cause that’s producing the outer effect as a basic form of self-perception. As we begin working on ourselves to reshape our character and redirect underlying motives, our outer reality and perception of others changes as a direct correspondence. Justice as the harmonious balance of the inner with the outer is a self-administered form of creation. In every moment we are the sole creators of both our self and our perception of others, and our inner and outer reality, which exist in polarity as complementary to each other. The outer is an extension and continuation of the inner and contains both conscious and unconscious aspects of our self. We can come to know the unknown aspects of ourselves by how they exist in relation to the known aspects, both of which form the basis of our outer perception of reality.

Dr. Linda Gadbois    

How we Progress as a Soul through Employing Higher Knowledge

Our true spiritual development can seem a bit elusive because we’re often not clear on the difference between acquiring knowledge in its theoretical form and bringing it into practice as a means of “creating ourselves” by way of it. Many people can discuss what we can think of as “spiritual ideas” in a fairly intelligent way based on what they’ve learned through studying other people’s ideas, yet have no idea how to “apply it” in terms of “becoming it” as a practice and developing themselves through the experience it brings. We only truly learn (live and earn) through experience, and we only truly know what we actively demonstrate.

In an attempt to understand what we deem higher knowledge, we can then haphazardly take the approach of denying or excluding some aspects of our self that we deem to be of our lower nature, while trying to more fully utilize what we consider to be of our “higher nature”. We take the “divide and conquer” approach, instead of the “unite and empower” approach to our own well-being. Some deny and shun their physical existence in favor of some form of idea they consider higher or superior in some way. Some believe all they have to do is be able to recite ideas as theory without ever having to actually employ them in the practical sense as a means of producing whatever it is it claims to produce. These various approaches result from a basic confusion as to the actual purpose of life and the creative power of the soul to create not only itself, but also its perception and experience of reality.

The soul is equivalent to the Self and utilizes a physical manifestation as the means of growing and transforming itself to different states and ways of being. The “self” is not developed in the most basic sense (energetic) by material possessions and status, but through the qualities we embody and become that forms our character as a way of being in the world. It’s only the qualities and ideas we embody and develop into a habit through consistent practice that becomes a natural part of us. By repeating a process or attitude enough times, we “build it into our muscle” (subconscious), so to speak, where it becomes intuitive. With enough daily practice it becomes a natural part of our awareness and being as an unconscious and automatic perception and behavior. We acquire it as a form of skill and instinct where we do it naturally without having to think about it.

Our soul isn’t formed out of intellectual concepts that we preach and profess but never actually bring into practice. It’s only what we embody and “become one with” as a channel of expression that we become like in essence. It becomes a natural part of us and we perceive it in everything around us while doing it as a natural part of our personality. This is expressed through the axiom “you know them by their deeds”. It’s not what we say that reveals who we are, but what we do. Being and doing are extensions of the same thing. Our actions reveal our consciousness as a coherent state of being.

When the soul leaves or discards the body, it absorbs all the experiences it produced and acquired through the body, and they’re integrated into the mental paradigm of the soul as qualities that form our disposition, temperament, moral character, and natural tendencies. Some believe that all you have to do is imagine ideas, going on the fact that the subconscious doesn’t know the difference between an actual event and an imagined one, while failing to realize that the imagination is the means through which we program the subconscious with ideas that we want it to produce as part of our perception and form natural behaviors out of.

Most imaginary scenarios aren’t effective because most don’t know how to actually imagine something as a full sensory experience that elicits a desirable emotional response. Some repeat affirmations as a verbal script or saying that they think is the means for programming their subconscious, yet the subconscious is “experiential” in nature and is only “programmed” by an idea that’s turned into a full sensory reality as a direct experience in the imagination. The subconscious is also “emotionally driven”, which means that it moves towards pleasure and away from pain. As we form the desired reality in our mind as a representation, we have to present it in a way that naturally invokes a very positive and compelling emotion. If we portray it with any form of stress, fear, or anxiety associated to it, our subconscious will receive it as an idea to avoid, prevent, or move away from.

The Soul and the Faculty of the Mind

The soul can be thought of as the “mind” which is structured as a paradigm or coherent model out of accumulated memory that’s been integrated through experience. As we experience something we form all kinds of realizations around it that we didn’t know when contemplating it theoretically, and the experience itself is what “integrates” it into our paradigm through a process of adaptation. Once the idea becomes an actual memory as part of our paradigm it becomes an inherent part of our reality. We can only conceive of what we know from direct experience. The only thing we’re capable of perceiving outside of us is what can be formed, explained, described, and validated through our mental paradigm. Until we have an actual experience of something, we can’t truly know it. To have true knowledge of something is to be intimate with it by “becoming one with it” in spirit, mind, and body, as the expression of it.

The true means the soul has for developing itself in an intentional manner is by “drawing down” and acting to absorb the archetypal ideals and qualities of the higher, spiritual plane. We do this either consciously through active choice as to whom we want to become, or unconsciously through reactive behavior born out of our formative conditioning. The process of personal transformation as a conscious act of self-creation comes by recognizing the qualities in you that you’ve developed as strengths that are of what you decide to be an undesirable nature, often called weaknesses and vices, and choosing to replace them instead with more positive qualities, referred to as virtues. Vices and virtues are the negative and positive aspect of any idea that serves to contrast each other as a means of comparing, defining, and stimulating each other into existence. We can only know “hot” by how it exists in relationship it to what we consider “cold”, both of which are “temperatures” of the same thing separated only by degrees that move along a sliding scale from one extreme to another. 

All qualities exist in a polar state as complementary opposites of the same idea. They exist as extremes of each other with a form of gradual movement along a scale that moves from one extreme to another. Fear and courage are qualities that oppose yet complement each other. When we’re experiencing fear of some kind, we have a choice to either respond with courage or cowardice. We can transform fear by choosing to embody courage in relation with it. When we’re scared and feel afraid, we polarize ourselves to the energetic state of fear and act naturally to attract and encounter situations that elicit more fear. Whatever “state” (mental and emotional) we exist in we act to multiply it through an accumulative process.

Fear causes us to stop, shut down and avoid what’s causing it, usually not taking any constructive action while being mentally controlled by the fear. This provides us with the ideal situation to “choose” to be either courageous or a coward. As we step into the fear with a sense of brave sense of conscious awareness, the fear begins steadily subsiding until it dissolves, and is replaced by a feeling of empowerment. The more we do this, the more courageous and confident we become and the less afraid and insecure. It’s not what happens to us in life that serves to shape us, but how we choose to respond to what happens through the relationship we form with it.

Our spiritual development comes by way of our soul’s recognition that it has the ability to self-create by way of acting on itself to transform vices as weaknesses into virtues as strengths. It comes through how we develop our character through our ability to actively choose what qualities as a state of consciousness we’re going to become and use as the means of experiencing ourselves. The soul creates itself through how it creates its own experiences of life. We are always the one creating our experiences, and naturally form them out of our perceptions. All intentional creation comes through our ability to become self-aware and form realizations around our true nature that provides us with the basis for making new decisions as to how we’re going to enter into relationship with life. As we make new decisions and begin willfully acting them out, we set a new pattern into motion that acts to transform an existing pattern as unconscious tendencies.

Conscious creation comes by developing our self through universal archetypes as qualities and ways of being that shape us to be a certain type of person who naturally lives a certain type of life as our “story”. Mythology of the gods is what provides us with the psychological tools necessary to be able to tell whatever type of story we have an inclination towards and true desire to tell. Once we realize how we want to be, we can recognize all the tendencies we have that are preventing or counteracting it, and can act on ourselves in a deliberate manner to transform them.

Only what becomes habit as a natural way of being is carried forward after the death of the body. Our material status and worldly success is meaningless outside of how we developed our character by way of them. In this way, having an easy life with no serious challenges can be a detriment to our spiritual growth and cause complacency. It’s not the circumstances of our life that matters, but only who we choose to become in relationship with and by way of them.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

How we unknowingly act as the means for Promoting Mass Propaganda

There’s always a very fundamental form of paradox playing out in terms of what we focus on and think about, and what we act to participate in co-creating as a result. In reality, there’s no such thing as “fighting against” something as a means of creating its opposite or what acts as a solution that’s designed to remedy it somehow. The “war against drugs” campaign only acted to produce more drug use. MADD – mother against drunk drivers – only produced more drunk drivers. Horror stories that saturated the media of “leaking breast implants” caused an enormous surge in women who opted for fake breasts.

Whenever we act to promote and distribute what we “oppose” and are trying to resolve or eliminate, we’re actually acting to co-create and expand. This is because we fail to understand the most basic principle of our own mind and how it operates to produce reality. As a general rule, whatever we focus on with emotional intensity of any kind, good or bad, we steadily move into, produce behaviors out of, and act to create more experiences of the same nature. Whatever we “think about” in a consistent manner we develop into a detailed reality in our mind, and it becomes a kind of “creative directive” for our subconscious to connect with in the outer environment and create more of.

While we can think we’re acting to “inform” and make people aware of the problems, what we may be actually doing is acting as a form of “distribution mechanism” that promotes and propagates the very idea we’re “against”. By looking at the laws governing our own mind, we can come to realize how it works and begin using it in a natural and productive way to create in a more conscious and deliberate manner.

Vesica Pisces – the Womb of Creation

The Relationship of Complementary Opposites

Our material mind has two basic components – the subconscious and self-conscious – that work in tandem with each other to produce what we experience as a unified reality. While many have very little actual awareness of their subconscious (commonly called the “unconscious” mind), it’s actually the powerhouse of the two, especially in terms of producing realities as an experience. The subconscious is what we can think of as the feminine aspect of the mind that’s seeded by the masculine aspect of the self-aware mind, and together produce a consistent experience of both self and the reality of the self.

The self-conscious mind is the aspect most are aware of and is what forms all of our perceptions as an awareness of the outer world (which is actually produced by the subconscious), and forms an “interpretation” of all outer events to give them meaning. The self-conscious is the aspect that possesses the power of choice and selects what we focus on, think about, and make conscious decisions about what to do and what not to do. It has the ability to reason and evaluate ideas and situations, and forms interpretations in terms of what’s good or bad, right or wrong, and plays out the scenarios produced by possible decisions to see what their consequences would be as the means of making intelligent decisions. This is what we call the active component that acts as the “gatekeeper” for the subconscious, which is the passive component, and acts to “seed” the subconscious with whatever it decides it “wants” to create.

The subconscious is the passive and receptive (feminine) aspect that lacks the ability to analyze and make decisions, or evaluate the moral nature of things. It doesn’t work out of ideas of right and wrong, and simply takes whatever idea the self-conscious (masculine) “gives it” by concentrating and dwelling in it repeatedly. The subconscious gives an idea life by magnetizing it (animal magnetism) and causing it to begin vibrating as a frequency that has the idea as a pattern inherent in it, along with a self-organizing mechanism that acts to organize all information available outside of us into the same metaphorical pattern. This forms what’s referred to as the “Law of Attraction”, which is more scientifically referred to as “resonance”.

The subconscious is “experiential” in nature (which means it doesn’t think in abstract terms), and is “impregnated with ideas” that are thought about in detail and turned into a direct experience as the reality of the idea. It operates in an automatic and repetitive fashion through “memory” as an experience of reality that provides it with a form of template as a metaphor for producing a consistent experience of reality. Because an actual memory and an imagined experience are both produced in the same way by “imagining them” (turning ideas into internal representations), it doesn’t know the difference (can’t discriminate and logically evaluate) between an actual memory and an imagined one, and uses them equally to produce corresponding realities of the same nature and kind.

The subconscious is emotionally driven and readily takes in any strong emotional charge being transmitted and projected and shapes it into a possible reality in the imagination by referencing memories of the same emotion. All of what we can think of as our “actual life memories”, the ones that can easily be recalled and are used in a continuous fashion to create more life experiences of the same nature, was all formed out of events that produced a strong emotion. They were the events that had a strong impact on us in some way.

Memories are used by the subconscious to produce instant perceptions, automatic behaviors as a reaction, and are referenced through association to emotional states. Whatever emotion is activated in us, determines what memories we access in reference to it, and what type of reaction we form. The way to produce a calculated behavior out of someone is by using the proper emotion that produces correlating and predictable behaviors. While the nature of the thought themselves are unique to each individual, emotions are universal and always produce the same “type” of behaviors.

 We work to influence any size group of people by choosing the idea we “want them to create” and attach a strong emotion to it in terms of how we “present it”, then amplifying it by sensationalizing it, talking about it (reporting) repeatedly, forming the idea as a reality in their mind. Whatever image we form in our imagination that’s attached to a strong emotion is the “seed” as a directive for the subconscious to produce “more of” as an experience. You can’t form an idea in the imagination of the subconscious, and then tell it “not to think about it”. It doesn’t have the ability to decide. The emotional image itself “is” the directive for creating as a reality. The “sensory reality” is the seed of creation.

The sensationalized idea forms filters as a perceptual lens that filters out everything that’s of a different nature, so that we only perceive around us what’s of the same reality as the one we gave it by imagining it with intensity. In this way it orders all information as possibilities in the outer world to match the inner one. While we have a tendency to think that the outer reality is separate from us and apart from our inner thoughts and imaginings, they’re actually an “extension” of each other. The outer world is produced as a projection of the inner world as our perception. Reality as we can know it only exists through our ability to perceive it. We reshape all matter to be of the same nature (inner) and likeness (metaphorical idea) as we are.

When news articles, scientific studies, videos, movies, songs, etc., are produced that induce a feeling of fear, hatred, or moral disgust, they act as a “hook” for our attention, and the more graphic and sensationalized they are, the more we obsess over them. Once we focus on them and think about them by building them into a sensory reality, we can’t seem to stop thinking about them. By continuing to think about them with emotional intensity we literally program ourselves with them where they become a natural part of our memories. We can recall them with vivid clarity, and think about them in a random fashion based on association. Once an idea is planted in our mind, it becomes a natural part of our memory base that forms our perception of reality. Once we clearly “see it” and experience it internally, it becomes a fundamental part of reality itself.

While we think this is a good thing because it promotes awareness as to what’s “really going on” so that we can avoid it, stop it, or act to contradict it, what’s actually happening is we’re being conditioned to participate in creating that reality as a form of “mass consciousness” while playing a role in how it functions. We vibrate at that frequency and attract to us more realities of the same nature, while being drawn into them as a relationship that’s connected by the same emotional state. Our mind shapes realities and brings them to life inside as a vibratory frequency. All vibration has an idea as a pattern inherent in it.

All ideas have an emotion married to them that not only becomes a fundamental part of our reality, but we also “behave” in a way that validates it and participates in co-creating it. We act “unconsciously” to initiate, promote, increase, intensify, and produce more of it. We talk about it, interjecting it into the mind of others, who likewise picture it in their mind as a reality, and they begin cooperating in co-creating it with us. We then act to “share information”, post it on social media repeatedly, and distribute it through whatever networks we’re a part of, and it becomes an inherent part of mass consciousness as a joint and mutually created reality that we all share in common. We become their method of distributing propaganda, and the means through which it becomes real.

As we play a role in co-creating certain types of reality by actively programming our own subconscious with them, we begin identify with them by sensing ourselves within that reality. Any event that seems to be happening on a mass scale usually gives us a feeling of having no power to “fight against” it or oppose it by resisting it, and tends to leave us feeling powerless and hopeless as a result. Once we feel hopeless to change things, we become a victim, and succumb to them by giving up and conforming. We comply and allow them to control and regulate us by lending them our will to create their desired reality. We readily absorb, adapt to, and become a part of the reality they present us with. We act to develop it into an actual reality as a belief that we then use to program our own subconscious by saying, here, give me more of this as an experience . . . and it does. The subconscious is a faithful servant of the willful mind, and gives birth to whatever it desires.

Learning to operate our own Mind and Will

When we learn how to use both aspects of our mind to skillfully create, we can act “on ourselves” to program ourselves with the reality we want to create. The analytical mind (self-conscious) can become aware of the “problem” and see the covert actions going on behind the scenes, and sense the true motivation behind them, without forming them into detailed emotional realities in the mind’s eye. We can detach from the emotion being used to present an idea, and tune instead to the “actual reality” as an objective and neutral event. It’s the “emotional content” that replaces objective reality with an illusion as a sensationalized idea that distorts it.

It’s the emotion that acts to control us and is the “formative” component that reshapes the actual event into an experience that acts to multiply, intensify, and produce more of the same type of emotion through the reality we create of it in our imagination. Fear paralyzes us, causes us to freeze and not take action, and we begin catering to the fear itself. Fear is one of the most powerful control mechanisms there are. Hatred causes us to form evil thoughts about each other that cause us to lash out, attack, and violently annihilate each other. It’s a very effective means of dividing and isolating whole sectors of the population, setting them against each other as enemies. It’s a strategic maneuver to “divide and conquer”, by getting us to kill each other.  

The self-conscious mind of outer awareness thinks and evaluates in objective terms that can conceptualize ideas in terms of what consequences they produce without distorting them with emotions. Once it “perceives” the objective reality in an idea, it uses that information to make a decision about it. Once it decides what action to take, or what reality would contradict and resolve the one it’s decided against, it then directs all attention to the reality it “wants” to create in its place.

It turns it into a vivid and detailed reality by imagining it as an actual reality that already exists. It embellishes it with intense sensory attributes that act to naturally invoke very positive and pleasure oriented emotions. It forms in the mind’s eye the solution to the problem, rather than the problem itself. Pleasure produces desire, and desire is a gravitational force that seeks to unite with the object of its desire. Pain, suffering, and stress cause us to repel, avoid, and move away from whatever is causing the pain. So solutions and whatever it is we want to create in an intentional manner must be presented in a way that’s pleasurable and enjoyable. Otherwise we avoid, push to the background, and don’t take action on the very thing we say we want.

As we focus on the desired reality we want to create while forming it in our imagination as a pleasurable and meaningful experience, we program ourselves unconsciously to produce an outer reality of the same type and kind. If we communicate that to others as an emotional expression, they form the same idea in their mind and embellish it with the same emotions and sensations, and begin serving to create it as a joint reality. If we share, re-post, write, describe, draw, and act as the means for transmitting the idea that counteracts and resolves the problem, at some point in time, the problem will no longer exist because we won’t be acting to create it. Mass reality is formed through a kind of “numbers game” as the “group mind”. All true power lies in numbers.

As we produce an idea as an imagined reality and embellish it with positive emotions, we begin taking steady action towards producing it. We begin gravitating towards it and move into it where it becomes a natural part of our outer experience. We use the complementary aspect of our own mind to produce the reality of our choice, rather than allowing ourselves to be used by others. We use the masculine aspect to protect and decide what’s allowed in and what’s kept out, as the means of impregnating the feminine aspect, which acts naturally to produce the physical reality of whatever it’s seeded with.

Just allow yourself to notice that whatever you focus on, think about with intensity, imagine as a sensory reality, talk about, communicate, and share as a post, you are acting as the means for transmitting and co-creating it. You become the channel through which an idea is made manifest. Whatever you align yourself with you become “like” in essence. Whatever emotions you cultivate by how you think and what you focus on becomes the nature of your experiences of reality that serve to give you more of the same emotion.

The rational, logical, reasoning, and analytical mind is the aspect that evaluates, measures, discriminates between right and wrong, and makes decisions that are void of emotion and sensation, and therefore not “based on an illusion”. Once it decides what to create, either through a calculated decision or through a process of natural selection, it then gives the idea to the subconscious as a full sensory reality that acts to naturally elicit the emotion that will determine the nature of the experience created. It will take the emotionally intense, imagined reality, project it outwards, and systematically produce it as a corresponding reality of the same nature, feeling, and emotion. Pay close attention to what you “allow” into your imagination and what emotions you give free reign to within you, because they will ultimately serve to determine you.

Dr. Linda Gadbois   

Human Will as Speech directs the Forces of the Subconscious Mind

What we symbolically refer to as the “serpent power” in esoteric sciences is the Astral Light of the Formative planes that’s governed by the subconscious. It’s the universal principle as a subhuman force that builds everything from the inside out and is controlled and directed through mental means. Serpent power is the source of all “illusions” created from emotional reactions as instinctual behaviors that are unconscious and automatic in nature. When this primal force is tamed, overcome, and directed by mental means, it becomes a primary instrument of transformation, and ultimately provides us with the secret to immortality.

 The symbol of the snake eating its own tail reveals how it feeds on itself as its own emotional reactions by absorbing the experiences they create, and digesting and assimilating them into its being. The universal consciousness is eternal, unchanging, and remains forever the same, while entering into various forms of expression that all feed on one another as emotional interactions. The icon of the serpent represents emotion, which is the motivating force of the subconscious that activates complementary thoughts to produce the reality of the emotions as an unconscious creation.

 Habitual realities as a life-theme are created when we live out of the same fixed perceptions and emotional states and the memories we create from them. All creation comes as patterns produced by the vibratory frequency that acts on itself to assemble itself as both an inner and outer reality of the same nature and kind. We bring the formative power of the serpent energy under control by employing the disintegrative forces of Mercury as the conscious direction of mental states. While it operates systematically from an unconscious state, we can use it to consciously create ourselves by selecting and assimilating the right “mental food”.

The serpent energy of arousal and passion is represented by Leo, which governs the spine and nervous currents of the body that can be directed upward through the energy centers of the body (chakras), activating, and transforming their energetic frequency into coherent patterns. Leo is exalted in Neptune, sign of water, which represents the principle of emotion and memory (self-assimilating patterns as a frequency) that work together to form life. It’s the inner essence and life giving energy that animates form as its soul and spirit. Spirit as life-force activates the memory (constitution) of the soul to produce reality as an experience of itself. The soul not only produces and inhabits its material body, but also the entire outer reality that emanates from the body as a projection of memory (perceptual lens) that it uses to create specific types of experiences of itself.

Our subconscious works through the creative imagination to generate mental imagery that serves as a symbolic idea that it lays over the outer reality and uses to develop detailed realities of the same essence and nature. It takes whatever thoughts (ideas) we feed it, matches it with a complementary emotion, and produces an experience of the meaning of our emotional-thoughts as an outer reality. Our soul uses the experience as a means of simultaneously creating itself by identifying with its own self-produced realities. It forms an interpretation of the experience that gives it meaning, then forms a memory of itself out of the meaning as a kind of metaphorical (universal) idea that can be used to create more experiences of the same nature by how it’s adapted to different situations.

As we direct our mental focus and concentrate on an idea, we build up forms by organizing them to create an inner reality as a representation that serves as a memory. The self-conscious aspect of the mind (active awareness) selects an idea that it them impresses in the imagination as a metaphor and mental state that’s developed into a detailed reality by thinking about it in a concentrative manner. Whatever we choose to focus on, and digest and integrate depends on our conscious selection of ideas that we then “become one with” in mind and body. Our self-conscious is what we can think of as the “gatekeeper” that actively chooses what to let in and serve to “seed” the subconscious with what it “wants” to create, then acts to witness the offspring of its own mental creation as a projection.

The mind, which is dual in nature on every level of existence, works by way of the holographic principle, where an image is illuminated with the same light source that remains unadulterated as what witnesses and absorbs its own creation as a material form. One light source as a concentrated beam is split in two, and one is impressed and programmed with an image that’s then projected and realized as a three-dimensional form by the other aspect of the same light source. As we speak, we simultaneously form the internal image of the meaning of our words in our imagination, which acts to instruct our subconscious to produce as a corresponding outer reality as the means for experiencing our own creation.

What’s referred to as the Akasha Field of memory (the Astral Field of Light), or The Book of Life, acts as a permanent record of all our soul’s creation. We use our will to direct our subconscious through language and how we construct sentences to form an idea. As we think about an idea we define it with detail as both energetic and material attributes. As we speak or think, we call forth the reality of our words in our mind’s eye, where they’re projected and turned into a reality as a kind of movie or living scenario. When we combine our intellect with the forces of Nature in order to create, we impress those forces with human consciousness, and they become available as memory for others to receive and assimilate.

We intelligently utilize the natural forces of the material world by taming the lion (energies of the body). We tame it by feeding it words as metaphors that it then uses to articulate and create realities out of. Words organize Astral Light into forms in the imagination, and are the intelligent medium that connects all of humanity through the same emotions and mental imagery. The electrical forces of the world are tamed and modified by humans through speech and mental imagery. Speech is the universal reverberation that acts systematically to produce the reality of its meaning. If you change the pattern as a mental image, you change the reality that results. By infusing an image with a positive (magnetic) feeling that elicits adoration, courage, and gallantry, we engage the lion (beast) and it becomes our servant, instead of us being its servant.

The Great Secret of Manifestation

What’s referred to as the great secret of esoteric sciences is that the subconscious is always in control of every subhuman manifestation of cosmic energy. Every force in Nature that governs all kingdoms can be directed and utilized by intelligently using the subconscious. We create in the material world by directing these forces into ideas. All new elements and creation have their origin in the mind of man. Ideas become “things” in the external world as a result of ideas conceived of and developed in the creative imagination that acts as a seed that’s gestated into a physical form by the subconscious.

Creation always comes as the harmonious union and balanced action of the self-conscious (masculine) and subconscious (feminine) to produce the reality (first internal then external) as its offspring. Patterns are selected and set by self-conscious interpretation of experiences as meaning that’s expressed as a story we tell by living it as an experience of our self. The subconscious creates the reality of our thoughts and emotions, which “is” our will to create. When we speak internally as thoughts that are unconscious in nature, our will becomes the means through which we employ destructive patterns and we become as animals that are ignorant of the very laws by which we create. By understanding this law as the secret to moral strength and accurate use of our will, we become our own master and begin creating in a more conscious, precise, and responsible manner.

Dr. Linda Gadbois      

Seeing Challenges as Opportunities for Personal Growth

       As a kid growing up, I was born into a very challenging life. My mom was a single mother with five kids, one of which was mentally retarded, and we were on welfare. We lived in a small two bedroom house in the worst neighborhood in town, and experienced many forms of abuse while being neglected and left unsupervised for days at a time. My older brothers ended up going to detention homes, my younger sister passed away at 9, and I ended up running away in order to avoid what would happen to me if I stayed home. I became quite accustomed to living on the streets and fending for myself by the time I was 12.

       Throughout my teenage years I was taken away from my mother due to abuse and put into the court system where I went in and out of foster care that was almost worse than living at home, so I ended up running away from those also. Though all of this I continued to go to school while living in a fort I built in the park. In spite of all of this I did very well in school where I was put into accelerated learning classes and graduated high school at 16 with a scholarship to college. I filed for emancipation at 16, got a job and started college, where I graduated at 18. I experienced unimaginable hardship while trying to survive and protect myself, and was hospitalized on two occasions for malnutrition. As I continued through life I seemed to be thrust from one challenging situation to another, enduring many hardships, traumas, tragedies, and crisis, which are still continuing to this day.

        When I was young I remember feeling as if I was always being punished for something, but I couldn’t figure out what I had done to deserve to be punished because I was a really good kid (seriously). I was the only “white sheep” in my family, always helped out, and never got in trouble (except for fighting and running away). As I got older I began to look at things from a much deeper perspective of wanting to penetrate the secrets of life, which I found to be very mysterious.

       One thing that I recognized about myself at a fairly young age was that I was a very “strong” individual with a will that could push through what seemed like unbearable situations with a positive attitude, and I always seemed to have a clear perspective on what was happening forming realizations that led me to consistently make clear decisions about who I was and what I was going to do. I was never easily led, could care less about fitting in, and never had anyone to look to for guidance and help. Many of my decisions were quite difficult to make as I felt torn with a sense of love and loyalty to the very people I sought to get away from, and was terrified to leave and face being all alone and vulnerable to the unknowns of life. My first few years living on the street as a child were terrifying and very stressful, but after a while I got a system down that seemed to work pretty well.

       As a young adult, having gone through a problematic pregnancy my son was born with serious medical problems that required me to persist in trying to get him diagnosed to a point where they thought I was suffering from some kind of “postnatal depression and hysteria”. He was finally diagnosed in just enough time to save him, and I underwent a year of repeated hospitalization and several major surgeries, while also being told at one point that he was dying, where I decided to take him home, and administered the care that caused him to fully recover and begin thriving again.

       During this time my entire life fell apart and I think I may have had what seemed like several nervous breakdowns in trying to deal with it all at once. One of these breakdowns (completely distraught) came as the result of having to go against the system and everything I was being told in order to save my son’s life, that resulted in having a direct encounter with what I came to recognize as my Higher Self as what intuitively “showed me what to do”. Yet in spite of it all I walked away from the situation a year later with a healthy and happy little boy. I lost everything I owned through the process and had to file bankruptcy the next year due to the astronomical medical bills. During this time I accessed a part of myself I didn’t even know existed, and it transformed my way of thinking and being in a way that began taking on a life of its own. I felt like I became a different person because of this experience. I was no longer afraid or unsure of myself and could see things with a great sense of clarity and confidence in myself.

           I then went through the lingering process of trying to revitalize a dead marriage, pursued what became a demanding career in order to take care of my son, became very independent, came face to face with drug addiction and trying to somehow manage what deteriorated into an abusive situation. Though I found this period of my life extremely challenging at times, I also started feeling very strong, mature, and capable and eventually felt unaffected by the situation I found myself in. I was no longer afraid and vulnerable, and instead felt grounded, calm and calculating, and able to manage even the most difficult situations with relative ease and psychological skill.

       Another breaking point came several years later when my husband tried to strangle me in the midst of a jealous rage, and I was finally able to make him leave by being willing to face the consequences of what I thought he might do to me. A few months after our separation he was stabbed through the heart while in a bathroom stall of a restaurant, and died four days later. I left the hospital and went directly to the police department where I was interrogated for several hours and given an idea of what charges were being filed and given the details on the nature of what happened. This was followed by a murder trial in our small town of 2,400 people (so it was the biggest thing that happened there in years) that lasted for 14 months, and I won’t even try to convey the insane experience this brought and what I came to realize about how our justice system works.

       As I was sitting quietly one day and reflecting back on things and wondering why “bad things” were always happening to me, no longer feeling punished but more confused and mystified . . . a voice inside of me said “think of it as training. How can you teach and help others through things if you don’t know how to make it through them yourself? See this as your education so you can fulfill your life’s purpose as a teacher.” This was profound because at this point in my life I had no idea I was going to end up teaching. That experience set a transformation into motion and I began taking a whole different attitude towards the seemingly tragic events of my life, and looked back on them with a new awareness around the reason for things.

       I realized that even as a child who was conditioned to a very dysfunctional way of living and dependent on a bizarre set of circumstances, that I was always aware of what “I couldn’t bring myself to do.” I wasn’t making clear decisions at first, but rather ones that came from feelings inside of me that realized I couldn’t be “that kind of person” or let “those kinds of things happen to me.” In every crisis I face as a major event of some kind I noticed that it brought out the worst in everyone involved, including me, and I got to see myself in a different light. I saw myself as reflecting the traits of those around me, and I didn’t like who I became. I then realized that in my worst moments as a child I was making the most important decisions of my life in terms of who I was going to be, and those decisions served to shape me as an adult and set my destiny in motion.

       As I saw the traits in the people around me and how they made me feel by what they were doing and how they were treating each other and me, I thought there’s no way in hell I’m ever going to be like that or act to make someone feel the way I’m feeling right now. I felt disgusted and extremely disappointed. I lived every moment never knowing when someone was going to be “set off” by something and take it out on me, or what kind of mood they were going to be in from one moment to the next. I was actively choosing, even as a child, who and how I was going to be because it wasn’t “in me” to do that. It wasn’t in my nature to be that way. I couldn’t even imagine myself participating in the insane activities going on all around me, and started going off and being by myself as a result.

       One of the things I began telling myself at a young age was that I felt like no one knew who I was because they were always judging me to be like my family, and I was nothing like them. In schools teachers would recognize my last name and knew who my brothers were, and would make off remarks and treated me as though I was going to be a problem to deal with. Every time I encountered a cop for some reason, they would ask me how my mom, dad, and brothers were doing. I was perceived as being a juvenile delinquent and possible trouble-maker or bad influence (many of my friends parents wouldn’t allow them to hang out with me), even though I was living on my own in the park while continuing to go to school and never got into any serious trouble with the law. The only illegal activity I was engaged in was what I needed to do in order to survive and protect myself, which I did.

       When I finally moved out of my home town and to a brand new community where no one knew me, I was going to work one day and a voice said to me . . . “okay Linda, you’re always going on about how people don’t know you for who you really are, well no one knows you here, so who are you going to be?” And I realized in that moment that no one would know anything about my past unless I told them. So I made it a point from that moment forward to never talk about my family, where I came from, or what I had been through, and took an attitude instead of “creating myself” as I really am.

       This not only put me in touch with myself in a new way and “who I am” as a conscious choice, but taught me to quit talking about my past and telling stories about “what happened to me”. As a result, I not only got to the point where I hardly ever thought about it anymore, and eventually started forgetting about a lot of things, but I also learned how to stay present in my life and consciously create myself in every moment to be the person I truly was inside. When people I had known for years finally started finding out about my upbringing and where I came from they were shocked. Most thought that I had come from a fairly well-to-do family, had a formal education, and didn’t have a problem in the world because I “seemed” so “well-balanced and confident.” Of course this was also the community where my son was born and my husband was killed, so it set a whole new type of reality into motion that brought with it a whole new set of challenges and obstacles to be overcome and resolved to a favorable end.

       Every time I hit a point of mental and emotional collapse, where I felt like giving up because I didn’t think I had the strength or know-how to make it through my situation and I felt completely alone in life, I realized that I didn’t know how to give up. What would it mean to give up? How would I live with myself knowing I gave up? What do you actually do when you give up? And after a period of severe stress and not knowing what to do, literally falling apart, crying to the point of heaving, I would get pissed (at myself and God, even though I was an atheist at that time), and state firmly and repeatedly that I refused to give up – and in those moments of complete mental breakdown, feeling diminished and lost yet determined to persevere  – I connected with a higher power that seemed to consume me by “coming into me” and kind of taking over as my own consciousness.

       Its consciousness became one with mine and I felt more alive than ever before with a feeling of intense elation and self-awareness. An amazing feeling of calm came over me and I became very focused with a feeling of absolute power in what I was sensing. I seemed to know intuitively exactly what I needed to do, how I needed to do it, the reason for doing it, and what would result from it. All of my grief and despair vanished and I immediately proceeded to carry on with a renewed sense of moral strength that felt unstoppable. This was a profound awakening for me because I had always felt abandoned by a higher power and as if I was being made to suffer because I was a “good person.” I had felt betrayed and condemned by religion and always saw it as a form of mass delusion, even as a child.

       I then started experiencing what I came to realize were premonitions about the events that led up to my husband getting killed, where I literally tried to intervene and stop it from happening because I thought that was why it was being revealed to me. As I tried to change the course of events based on what I was seeing, they simply happened in a different way. Then, after he was stabbed and died on the spot, and was resuscitated several times while undergoing open-heart surgery, only to die as soon as he was taken out of ICU from a blood clot, it changed my perspective on everything. This set a whole new realm of investigation into motion that completely changed the course of my life by leading me down a path of deep inquiry into the true nature of destiny and the meaning of life. I became consumed with wanting to know what happens when we die? What do we experience? What’s it like? Where do we go? And I began reading everything I could find on the subject while talking to other psychics about their experiences with seeing people’s death and what happened when they tried to intervene by warning them.

       It was at this moment that I finally realized that if I didn’t believe in God, then who was I always talking to, and who was talking to me? I realized I was always engaged in a form of intimate conversation with another being that was inside of me. What was the voice inside of me that was always guiding, instructing, and comforting me? How was it that I could foresee events of the future while unconsciously engaging in behaviors as a part of what led up to them (I bought a black dress for an event a week before he died that I ended up wearing to his funeral). Was our life predetermined and we were just going through the motions as the experience of it, or were we truly creating our life moment by moment through the decisions we make?

      What I realized through all of it was that in every moment, through every life challenge and crisis, I was able to see different aspects of myself brought out by the shear panic and despair I was feeling, where I was making a decision, conscious or not, as to who I was going to be in relationship to that moment, and taking what often amounted to drastic actions that were terrifying in and of themselves as the means of fulfilling my decisions. These weren’t decisions made in an analytical way through reasoning as a debate, but rather ones that resulted from feelings, intuition, and a heightened awareness around the true nature of things.

       I became very clear on what was “in me to do and what wasn’t.” My choices came out of an awareness of who I am as a soul. Not from what I was “taught” was right or wrong or acceptable based on the circumstances. I couldn’t “imagine myself” being that way, and if I was, I would hate myself while knowing I had the ability to change it, but chose not to out of fear and self-doubt. All of my unconscious decisions resulted not from my conditioning and the values and behaviors being demonstrated all around me that I was an inherent part of, but from my inner sense of morality and what I knew deep inside to be right and wrong. It was my morality and intuition as a soul that was my compass and beacon shining through in even the darkest moments when all hope seemed lost and I was beside myself with fear. All the answers I sought weren’t outside of me, but within me, simply waiting to be acknowledged. I realized that questions and answers are opposite ends of the same thing, and the questions we ask in our most private moments with a deep sincerity to know bring the answers to us as life experiences.

       As I continue through life, I’m still experiencing one challenge after another, I’m currently in the process of going blind (have been for several years), but now I look at things from a completely different perspective where I see them as the ideal situation for showing me parts of myself that I still need to transform. I see them as opportunities administered by my Higher Self that serve to facilitate my moral and spiritual grow by teaching me the lessons they hold as a result. I’m completely clear on the fact that karma is administered in an unbiased and compassionate fashion by my Higher Self lovingly affording me the opportunity to redeem myself from past errors instead of blindly repeating them in new ways, and develop all of my weaknesses and bad traits into moral strength and mental skill. Realizing that problems are actually loving gestures designed to grow me in new ways, I feel a deep sense of appreciation for all of what I imagine to be tribulations.

       I’ve learned that every situation, no matter how challenging or difficult it seems, brings out in me all kinds of qualities and traits in response to it, many of which appeal to the mentality and emotional states of my conditioning where I can detach from them in order to see them in a different light and not let them consume me by making them personal. Through the challenges of my life I can see what weaknesses I still need to transform into strengths. I have developed a strong ability to look at myself as I truly am, and take an attitude of always rising to every challenge I’m faced with in order to develop myself in a fully conscious and deliberate way. I realize with complete certainty that this material life is not the prize to be won or story to be lived, but simply sets the stage necessary for me to decide in every moment who I’m going to be in relationship with it and as a co-creator with it.

       I realize that my true purpose in life is to grow my soul in ways that allow me to help other people grow. I consider myself a teacher and know that I can only teach others what I know from experience. I know that in blazing a path from the lowest level of despair to the highest level of optimism and confidence casts this into the astral light of mass consciousness where it can be accessed and utilized by all who are searching for their own answers. It has provided me with the knowledge and practical skills to be able to embrace and walk head on into any situation, no matter how bad, with a sense of compassion, reverence, and confidence in my ability to not only to endure it and know what to do in new situations, but use it to actively develop the parts of me it naturally acts to calls forth in response to it.

       I know that this life and these circumstances are simply a phase and step in my soul’s overall growth and are only meaningful in terms of setting the stage that’s ideal for my eternal process of self-creation. It’s not about what happens to us in life or why, but rather who we decide to become by way of what happens to us. In every moment we’re making decisions based on one question, and that is “who am I?” Who am I going to be in this moment? What am I going to create? We’re always the one determining our own creation and setting the course for our destiny. The only purpose to this life is to master our ability to not be controlled by the conditions and circumstances of life, but to engage at the point of actively directing the natural forces of the world through the power of self-realization, choice and will. How we live this life sets the karmic basis for the next as a continuation of our journey from an unconscious state to a fully conscious one.

Dr. Linda Gadbois