Self-Love: The Conditional, Unconditional, and Universal Love for Others

The idea of what it means to “love yourself” can often seem confusing, because the very concept of “self” is used in a vague manner without being accompanied by a description of the “principles” involved. What is typically called the “self”, is a creation as a concept or image produced by the mind and soul of itself, and like the mind, exists on 3 planes or levels of consciousness simultaneously, while still operating as “One”. As we create our perception and experiences of reality, we simultaneously associate with our experiences and get a “sense of our self” through our experiences, identifying with them as a result. Our concept of our “self” is shaped as our identity (the “I am”), which is formed on three levels simultaneously as our personality (identification with our body), our universal identity or ego, created through numerous incarnations (Higher Soul), and our true Higher Self, which is comprised of an archetypal matrix of universal qualities and ideas that we draw on in creating on the lower levels of manifestation. This is further complicated by what it is we refer to as “love”, due to the fact that most people perceive love to be an “emotion”, when in fact it’s a universal principle of “union”.

To love yourself doesn’t mean to love yourself as the personality of your body (lower self) and all of its tendencies and perhaps inappropriate or harmful behaviors established through your conditioning, but rather loving that part of you that actually warrants love because it’s pure in heart, and is what bestows the only true form of “unconditional love” upon you through all the phases and activities of your life. The idea of self-love is referring to the “Self” that’s also known as your “Higher Self” which resides on a higher plane of conscious awareness and is what’s actually conducting and administering the events and activities of the entire lower plane, used for exercising and developing your ability to create meaningful experiences. You’re not defined by the experiences themselves as objective and random events, but are in fact the one creating all of your experiences as a means of creating yourself. Love, in the higher sense of the idea is not an emotional state, it’s a “universal principle” of how we form “union” with different aspects of ourselves (notice this is always plural) in order to become whole and fully conscious on multiple planes simultaneously. Whatever we love, we desire, and whatever we desire we seek to become one with. It’s not an emotion we display as a pleasant form of attention, affection and encouragement, as many believe, it’s a principle that provides us with explicit instruction on how to create based on what it is we combine with and become the same as in mind and spirit.

To love our self is referring to our “true self” which is our Higher Self and what we call our eternal Soul. It’s not pampering yourself, sticking up for yourself, attending to petty needs, or accepting yourself in all your faults and self-induced dilemma’s, as many portray it to be. By connecting intimately with the part of us that we’re always in communication with that acts as a “parent” who guides us through things intuitively as a form of education administered with an all-pervading patience and understanding, is the “self” that’s being referred to, and not the lower self as the personality of your body, which resides in a predominantly unconscious state and unaware most of the time of the consequences of its actions. Our body and personality is simply what our Soul uses as a vehicle and instrument in being able to create experiences of itself as a reality, and is not our true Self. The most basic delusion of our material existence is that once we enter into an “unconscious-animal body”, we “forget” who we really are, and so come to believe that we are our body and the reality being projected through our body, rather than the one who’s creating and orchestrating it.

Love as a Universal Principle of Union

Love is a “principle” that operates as “desire” and is the means through which we enter into and become one with something. Whatever we form a union with in mind and spirit, we become one with in bodily form. The body itself doesn’t possess a “consciousness mind” (creative), it’s formed and operated out of the subconscious of the astral-body, which serves as a mediator and reservoir of the conscious mind, which resides on a higher plane and oversees and governs the lower plane of manifestation. The body is a passive receptor for consciousness, drawing it down and grounding it as an outer reality that brings experience of the “self” through the outer appearance of itself “as” another. Separation is an illusion produced by “being within” what actually exists as a greater, singular whole. We don’t use our body and the emotions produced by our body as primal instinct to “love ourselves”, but by forming a love for our “Higher Self” as a divine fully conscious and self-aware being, and as a result, cultivate the desire to “unite” with it in mind and spirit. As we unite with it mentally by cultivating deep feelings of reverence in relation with it, we act on our self to “draw down” the consciousness of our Higher Self, where it blends with us in and becomes our conscious awareness within our material body. Through mental union with our Self on a higher plane, we perceive ourselves from within a fully conscious state, and thereby create ourselves “as” we really are.

Due to the fact that our body works to generate emotion in response to our thoughts, which in turn motivate all of our activities, it will have a tendency to resist forming union with the Higher Self unless it’s represented to it in a way that inspires the emotion of admiration and adoration. We have to shape our thoughts as a representation and present it to our subconscious as an “image” that elicits an “emotional desire” for it. We’re always using “one aspect” of our mind to work with “another aspect” of our mind so they can work in cooperation with each other. We work on our subconscious by developing ideas as an “internal representation” within our imagination that naturally invokes the proper emotions necessary to motivate the behaviors necessary to manifest it. Within the lower plane all manifestation comes about as the harmonious union of thought as an idea that’s married to a corresponding emotion, which is the energy that determines how the idea expresses to become a whole reality as their offspring.

Due to the fact that the Higher Self is not manifest as the body within the lower plane of physical reality and exists only as a mental state as the “conscious aspect of our mind” that operates from a higher plane, a “representation” of it has to be formed and presented to the lower self that naturally invokes emotions of love and desire in regards to it. This “art” is demonstrated for us in how the “gods of mythology” were portrayed as being perfect, beautiful beings that inspired worship, with the idea of “worshiping an image of god” as a deity being formed in the imagination in order to inspire cooperation of the lower self. This is because it’s a part of the material plane and doesn’t have the ability to “perceive” what doesn’t exist as a material form. When working on any “plane” you always have to work from within the principles that govern that plane. The subconscious doesn’t possess the creative capacities of the higher mind and is “always present” within it’s immediate reality, and only responds to ideas that are “formed” in the imagination as physical entities. When we create an idea of our Higher Self that represents it in a way that inspires emotions of love and desire for it in our lower nature, it acts to “draw it in” while allowing it to take hold as a natural part of our normal awareness.

To love your Self is referring to loving yourself as a “god” who resides in a state of perfection on a higher plane which is only “drawn down” into the lower plane of unconsciousness through an overwhelming love for it and a desire to become one with it in mind and body. The lower self of the body is primarily instinctual and emotional in nature and it’s cooperation is only attained by shaping an idea as an internal representation in the imagination, which is the willful faculty of the higher mind, that elicits the emotions necessary to perform the joint operation. You only work effectively with your subconscious by first eliciting and working through its emotional state, which always comes as a natural response to our thoughts formed into an imaginary representation of an idea. As we think and picture an idea in our mind, we emote, and our idea ensouled by corresponding emotions produce all of our natural behaviors and the activities we engage in, manifesting the reality of our thoughts as an experience of our Self.

As long as we reside in a primarily unconscious state of our body and the material reality being produced by our mind in cooperation with our body, and we identify exclusively with being our personality, the principle being illustrated through the idea of “loving our self” eludes us, and can cause us to engage in what amounts to even more frivolous indulgences as a form of selfishness. All of what’s referred to as “vices”, which are ultimately destructive in nature, upon closer examination, comes as selfishness, whereas “virtues” are actions of selflessness. This doesn’t mean that there’s anything wrong with pampering yourself every once in a while, or setting and maintaining healthy boundaries with others, and not beating yourself up as a way of “loving yourself”, it simply means that we start off this idea from the correct foundation of who we really are as a Higher Soul, and we learn how to work with Universal Principles as a means of utilizing the creative ability of our Higher Mind in truly “creating our Self”. It’s only when we approach this idea from the right orientation that we also realize that we can only love another by first loving ourselves.

Loving Yourself as the Means of Loving Another

This idea can seem even more confusing because it’s perceived as taking place from the “same plane”, and with the same interpretation of love being an emotion that prompts a certain type of perception and behavior. When we form a love for our self on a higher plane of conscious awareness that resides outside of and above the lower plane of the subconscious, we become the embodiment of that consciousness and begin taking on a more “universal awareness” which sees the entire material plane in its “wholeness” where we’re no longer separate and apart from others. Due to the fact that we’re no longer getting our “sense of self” from our personality “located” within the material plane as a finite being, where we’re invested in and determined by the activities and conduct of others, we no longer have “needs” that are being fulfilled by and through others. All of our needs are being met from “within us” where we draw on our own conscious awareness as an intimate and all-pervading connection with our Higher Self.

When this shift in awareness occurs, we come into any situation or relationship without a need for something specific to happen or the need to try and control the perception of others and manipulate it to a specific means, and we only look to “give” and participate in a way that serves the greater good of everyone involved. We truly become an instrument for higher consciousness to work within the lower plane. Because our Higher Self is not “of this plane” but the guiding force and administrator of its activities, we begin always looking at the bigger pattern playing out in any situation, and we leave people to their own creations without needing to change or direct them by imposing an influence on them. The Higher Self is the administrator of karma as universal justice that allows people to experience the reality of their own making and the consequences their actions render and draw back to them as experience.

This form of universal justice is the only true form of unconditional love that breeds sovereignty as the realization that we are the “only one” who is always fully responsible for creating our own reality through the Law of Cause and Effect. People only learn through self produced experience that brings self-realization around the consequences of their own thoughts set into motion by their actions. Karma is only resolved through self-realization that provides the basis for us to exercise “will” in correcting our own errors. All pain and suffering comes by way of our own hand and how it is that we’re always “acting on ourselves” to create our experience of reality. When we try to interfere in someone elses life by trying to impose our will on them in making their decisions for them, or by trying to influence and control them, we cripple them morally and hinder their spiritual growth in becoming fully self-aware of and through their own creations.

As we form union with our higher consciousness we begin perceiving from a higher, unified level of the larger patterns and dynamics being played out in any situation, and we begin participating with life as it is instead of trying to contradict it or control it somehow. It’s only when we begin perceiving others in a selfless manner where we don’t have any needs to try and somehow fulfill through them, where we don’t give only as a means of trying to get something in return, that we “become” unconditional love itself as a state of being. When all of our power comes from within us and we begin creating ourselves as a sovereign being who’s truly self-reliant, we begin building our identity out of a more universal perspective. When this happens we no longer incur or play out karma as unconscious creations, but resolve it instead by transcending it all together.

When we no longer feel a need to try and control others by getting them to comply with us in a way that satisfies a need of some kind or that validates us as being right somehow, or need to fell loved and desired by others, and we begin expanding our awareness to the bigger picture being acted out by a group of people as a joint-reality, we also begin realizing that when we try to interfere in other people’s lives we’re only acting to take their power away from them in being responsible for creating their own experiences, harming their spiritual progress as a result. To love someone doesn’t mean to do everything for them in an imaginary attempt to help them, or to smother and impose your will on them as a means of trying to protect them by telling them what to do, it comes in honoring their spiritual journey and the karma they have incurred and are now acting out as a means of redeeming themselves by waking up in the midst of their own imaginary drama. To love another is to “empower them” in being able to create their life and themselves from a fully conscious and self-aware state of moral sovereignty. We can only do this for another when we first do it for ourselves.

In this way, and only in this way, do we become the demonstration of unconditional love that’s administered across the board in a just and unbiased manner. All judgment of others is formed through a judgment of the same unconscious aspects of ourselves that we share with them while continuing to remain unconscious of them. When we unite with our Higher Self and embody a higher form of self-awareness that no longer fosters our unconscious projections by administering self-criticism, we no longer see those traits in others through our reaction to them. As we no longer judge ourselves for our perceived imperfections and undesirable traits, and we embody the divine aspect of our Self, we begin connecting with and seeing the divine nature in others, and act to demonstrate it as a normal part of our presence.


This is what it means to have to first “love yourself” in order to “love another”, with love representing a principle as union with a higher consciousness, and your self being your Higher Self as a fully conscious, self-aware, and divine being. Love on the lower plane of manifestation comes about as an emotional state and is always “conditional” in nature based on an interaction of “give and take”, where people only really love through compliance. Whereas love on a higher plane of universal consciousness is a state of being as “Universal justice” that empowers others in becoming their “Higher Self” rather than remaining in their lower unconscious self. This idea is represented by sayings like “love comes as giving without a need for return”, and the only true form of love is to “love without judgment”, because on the higher plane of conscious awareness we’re cognoscente of the fact that we’re always creating others in our own image and with our likeness, and all of what we perceive to “be out there” is but a projection and mirror image of what’s “in here”. Reality is a product of our own making that’s being projected by our mind from within, and as we begin loving our self as a higher, more universal being of a divine and creative nature, we simultaneously begin realizing that we “are” the entire lower plane of manifestation.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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The Pineal, the Sexual Principle, the Fall of Humanity, and the Law of Polarity and Self-Regeneration

I gained profound insights into the idea of the true function of the Pineal and 3rd eye of the subtle body, and how it relates to our sexuality by concentrating in a meditative state on a dream I had just woken up from regarding the Principle of Polarity and the significance of how it functions, not only within the material body and the lower plane of manifestation, but as a “movement” between “planes” that only comes through “blending” in mind with the consciousness of that plane. So much confusion has been bred into our ideas about our spiritual nature through a fundamental misunderstanding of the principles involved, which was then “taught” as if it were fact, leading many astray and hopelessly caught up in an even deeper illusion of which there often seems no escaping. How our “paradigm” is initially formed and established through our “formative conditioning”, becomes the “seed of potential” as a basis that we can only grow out of and use as the means of filtering ideas through it in order to comprehend them so we can build them into our outer reality in a way that makes sense. Naturally, this is due to the fact that we are actually the one creating our perception of reality with our “mind”, which, while in the lower plane of material existence, is blended with our lower, instinctual body, which is operated primarily through emotions as an unconscious, habitual state of repetition that operates exclusively out of memory of the past.

While I have studied, explored with an awe-inspired mind, investigated through practices that became skills, and seriously contemplated both the true significance and operation associated with both our pineal and sexual organs, as well as universal laws that operate them, it wasn’t until I let go of both and only concentrated on the function of polarity itself with a passive mind that a very simple idea was shown to me. I began thinking about polarity as the process or activity for moving between planes of existence as levels of consciousness that vibrate in different, yet complementary states, when suddenly an image of a menorah appeared, and as I began thinking about it I related it to the seven chakras of the subtle body, with three on one side and three on the other joined by a single central one, representing the union of the higher triad with the lower one, and suddenly it was rotated at a 90 degree angle, producing more of a “mirror image” of the higher with the lower, where the top spheres were connected to the lower ones through the same line as an arc. This seemed to symbolize how they were polar opposites of each other (operated out of the same principle), and therefore “functioned” in polarity to each other. They represented the same principle as an operation that functioned in a similar way on different levels of reality. As I began forming realizations based on this configuration, the connection between the pineal and sexual organs stood out and was highlighted, and as I continued to concentrate on it more and more realizations about their significance began forming.

I realized that the pineal performed a similar function to our sexual organs, not only in terms of it’s receptivity, but also in terms of it’s ability to generate the living reality of whatever it acts to conceive. The symbol that’s commonly used to represent the pineal as our third eye is a yoni or vagina, also represented by the Dyad or “womb of the universe”, capable of connecting with and drawing down ideas from the higher plane as a fluent communication with our Higher Self. I then thought about the similar function of sexual union, which works through attraction where we not only take in the “seed” that generates a new human being as a “combination” of two people, but more importantly, where in spirit and mind we actually “fuse” our energy field, i.e., “essence as our mind” with another and become enmeshed with their consciousness. We begin vibrating in a coherent state with them.

The same process takes place on different levels as the mind on the higher, and the physical body on the lower, which are naturally being operated by the same soul-essence. The Higher Soul doesn’t exist as a finite being on the lower plane, but as more of an energetic “tincture” where qualities as influences are introduced from the environment, and act to change the vibration as a “state” that’s in a constant state of flux and influx based on what “properties” it absorbs as new qualities, that initially creates an imbalance as a new emphasis, which then begins vibrating in harmony to form a coherent state as a unique variable of the same mixture. Only the physical, outer form of the body creates the appearance of the soul being stationary and finite. The mind however, is in a constant state of change based on what it encounters and resonates with, blends into and becomes one with in mind, that constantly alters and modifies it to form a new energetic matrix. This process is almost identical to procreation in the physical sense, and both function by way of the same principle as a process of creation.

The Blending of Complementary Opposites to Form a New Whole

This is what the principle of “polar opposites” indicates as a creative process. Two complementary aspects of the same nature combine through sympathetic resonance and synthesize to generate reality as a new whole that’s of an expanded and evolved nature. Every new combination of energy brings a new and slightly different expression and experience of reality. The entire motivation and activity of the Higher Soul is to “evolve itself” through it’s own creations. It does this by constantly forming new combinations as a form of energetic uptake and synthesis with everything around it that’s of a similar vibration (pattern), to produce new offspring that brings a slightly different type of experience of itself. The Soul is in a constant state of dynamic movement as an evolutionary flow, while the body is stable and maintains the same basic appearance and personality throughout life, because it’s merely an instrument and means through which the spirit creates itself as experiences. The soul is of the higher mind and it creates itself through mental and emotional activity of thoughts formed in the imagination as a physical reality. The physical body is a passive receptor for the “mind”, which ensouls it in order to experience it’s thoughts as an outer reality.

Many people don’t have a direct realization around this process because it’s an interaction of the subconscious, and when we blend energetically with another through sexual union, it’s experienced more as feelings and attitudes that are like seeds planted that take hold and begin gestating within us, altering our perception of our self and reality accordingly. Sexual union is the process through which we become “one” with another in mind and soul and produce offspring as a “unique combination” of qualities and traits. Due to the fact that this is an “unconscious process”, the change comes gradually over the course of time, or in the case of marriage and consistent sexual intercourse and intimacy with the same soul, the change comes quite rapidly and tends to be intoxicating (love as an emotion is a drug). When this happens, our soul as our higher mind becomes enmeshed with the physical plane, and we use our mind to cooperate in creating our “self” as a physical being. We lose touch with our spiritual nature as our Higher Self, and begin identifying almost exclusively with being our body. This idea is commonly symbolized as “purity” of the soul that hasn’t been “contaminated” by blending with inferior substances that alter its core essence. Symbolically speaking, whenever a figure is shown with decorations on it’s “outer garments”, it represents a blended outer nature, and when shown in a pure white or solid color garment, it shows it’s unmixed, and therefore “pure nature”.

The Fallen Angels and the Myth of Prometheus

This same idea is communicated through the allegory of the “fallen angels”, where, if we move outside of the Biblical depiction and into the mythology of other historical accounts of the same thing, we find two ideas being symbolically presented using different terms; one of the angels, which represent pure beings of a higher mind that resided on a higher level of consciousness and in a sovereign state with God, assigned to “watch over and aid us in our evolutionary development”, who fell from grace, so to speak, when they “bred with the daughters of man” and became beast-like themselves and imprisoned in the material realm of the unconscious mind of instinct, losing memory of themselves as divine beings and clouding their conscious ability to use their mind in determining their reality and their true station within that reality. They entered the “realm of experience” where instead of residing above the world of illusion (maya), they were consumed within it and lost touch with who and what they actually were. Because they “forgot” who they were in mind and spirit, they continued to breed and blend even more with the lower realm of unconsciousness as a part of the group mind of animal instinct.

This same idea is told as the story of Prometheus who created man by “giving him a higher mind” (stealing the fire from heaven and giving it to man). Mankind was created originally through genetic modification that designed a human-like species that was devoid of a “conscious mind”, so they would take orders and could be trained to work without complaining or requiring more than their basic needs. But due to their “sexual instincts” that couldn’t be managed through the conscious realization of laws and principles (a function of the conscious mind), and the ability to control impulses, they began having sexual intercourse with a large variety of people, and this eventually developed into having sex anyway they could, whether it be with the same sex or with animals that they tended to. This led to hybrids of humans and animals and a “spiritual essence” that became grossly contaminated with vulgarities and lower aspects of unconsciousness, that bonded them even more with their animal nature.

The Nature of the Higher Self

In order to remedy this problem, Prometheus decided to give man a higher, conscious mind through which he could “think”, reason, and rationally contemplate ideas in order to “decide” on how to create himself as a higher, moral, and intelligent being. Prometheus, as the story goes, “stole the light from heaven” and gave it to man, with the term “light” referring to the higher capacity of the mind to form realizations, learn from experience, make intelligent decisions, and willfully act in creating himself through the reality of his decisions. This way, we could act to facilitate our own growth and development in an intelligent and calculated way, and return home by dis-integrating mentally and morally from attaining our “identity” with a lower material existence, and ascend willfully to higher planes of consciousness from whence we originally came. In order to “give us” a higher mind, the god-angels had to enter into a passive state on the higher plane, so their active mind could be drawn down into the body of man as his conscious awareness and ability to willfully self-create.

This is the relationship we have with our “self” on a higher plane, which we have the ability to connect with in mind and spirit, and with whom we’re always in communication with that serves to teach, guide, and instruct us in our return home. When we engage sexually with others and the material world, we blend with it energetically and over time become mentally and emotionally “fused with it”. We share our substance while acquiring the substance of another, blending them together in a coherent state as a frequency, and form our “sense of self” out of our identification with our lower animal body, which is driven instinctively through a desire for pleasure and emotional impulses that render us unconscious in order to fulfill and satisfy them. The angel-gods “fell into darkness” (unconsciousness), because they violated, or decided to sacrifice themselves in order to bring light to humanity by bestowing us with a higher, “conscious mind”. Through active use of our conscious mind while in the lower planes of unconsciousness, we’re able to develop ourselves in an aware and deliberate manner using our higher mind to subdue and bring our lower subconscious mind under our command. We’re able to form a practical understanding of the Universal Laws of the higher mind and apply them willfully in order to create ourselves and our reality.

When we move away from the idea of sex as being a physical function and view it instead as a “principle”, we can realize that this same “function” is performed by the pineal of the third-eye, which not only acts as an antennae and tuner for vibrating and drawing in correlated energies, but also shaping the ideas drawn in into whole realities as representations in the higher faculty of the imagination, which become the basis for manifesting as a material creation. What confuses many people is that the term “self” isn’t referring to our physical body or existence, it’s our mind and spirit that’s used in creating an “image of our self”, and we create our self by whatever it is we “become one with” in essence as an idea, thought, sensation, and emotion, all of which culminate harmoniously to produce our “perception”. Out of our perception all of our behaviors and activities are formed as what initiates and calls forth the reality of our thoughts.

Love, Desire, and Union with our Higher Self

When we form a desire for our higher existence over our lower one, we shift the energy from our sexual desire to procreate on the material plane to a desire for “union with our Higher Self” (God) on a higher plane. Through a desire for union with a higher power, we render our sexual desire passive, and activate our pineal, which acts as a “receptor” for ideas (as ideals) from the higher plane. As we connect in mind with the higher spiritual plane, ideas are drawn in that “impregnate our mind” with original ideas of a higher nature and those ideas manifest “within us” as our own creations. We take in the “seed” of a whole idea in it’s potential and latent form, and as we place our attention on it and begin thinking about it, we begin shaping it in sensory terms by imagining it as a physical form. Our imagination works through the principle of synthesis where we form an idea as our offspring by adapting it to match our mental model and current set of circumstances as a means of being able to express it in a logical and congruent manner. As ideas manifest on the inner planes by being developed into representations for reality in our imagination, they become the “perceptual lens” we look through (light is reflected on the outer crystalline structure of the pineal as a transparent image) in perceiving that same idea as an outer reality.

The lower soul is always described in feminine terms and the higher in masculine terms because the lower mind “conceives the seeded idea” of the higher plane, and through a process of gestation, forms it into a new possibility and births it within the material plane as an “outer reflection” of the higher plane. Whatever we associate with in mind and spirit, we become like in nature. When we identify with and build our essence out of our material existence, we bond ourselves as a higher soul to the lower plane of the subconscious, and create ourselves out of an unconscious state. When we identify with and build our essence from the higher plane of morality, we bond our soul to that plane, and begin identifying with it. Whatever it is we use as the means of shaping our “identity” by associating with it, we become one with energetically (in essence), and “reside” eternally on that plane and level in mind and spirit.

The reason all true adepts and spiritual masters reside in a state of celibacy, is because when we’re sexually active, our lower sexual center is active rendering it higher polar opposite of the pineal passive and inactive. We can’t have both active at the same time, because they’re complementary opposites of each other and operate according to the Law of Polarity. The entire relationship between the higher and lower plane is based on polarity, and this relationship is directly reflected in the higher triad of the mind and lower triad of the body, bound together at the heart center, which is the neutral bridge between the two, and is symbolic of the subconscious aspect of the mind. Whatever we “love”, we desire, and we seek union with whatever we desire. Desire is a magnetic force. The “purification of the heart” comes by shifting our desire from union with the material world to that of the spiritual world. We can’t have both, because in pursuing one, we render the other passive and inactive. The soul as the higher mind becomes “contaminated” with lustful thoughts that begin propagating in an uncontrollable manner, and we combine our spirit with the material world through emotional impulses that are very magnetic and compelling, yet animalistic in nature. As we draw in the energies of the material world and begin building our identity out of them as our offspring, we become a product of the unconscious mind.

The Mortal and Immortal

If we move away from belief that our sexual energy is only “about” sex, and we view it as it really is, a fundamental universal principle, we can see this as building an image of ourselves as a part of the material world, whether it be through a desire for pleasure, power, status, money, success, or anything that we use as the means of experiencing ourselves, and building an image of ourselves out of our experiences. Whatever it is we relate to, we become like. The soul isn’t the body itself, the body is the engraved image of itself that the soul forms in the astral light of the imagination. Whatever we lust after and seek to become one with as a means of creating our “sense of self” out of, we simultaneously shape our identity out of, and we bond ourselves mentally with that idea, becoming dependent on it. This is what forms what we call the “false ego” as a mistaken identity with our body and the physical world that’s projected by the body, both of which are “mortal and temporary”, and dies along with the physical body. Our “immortal” aspect is the “mind itself” as the creator of the material world which exists within the higher plane of pure consciousness, and therefore doesn’t suffer a physical death because it’s not physical in nature.

At death, through the same principle of polarity and resonance, our spirit separates from our body, and through a process of disintegration, what was formed out of the lower plane as an image of ourselves, stays within that plane, and continues to populate the Astral Plane of the Earth as “thought-forms”, also referred to as the “collective unconscious”, which means the creations native to that plane. Only the aspects of our “self” created through identification with our Higher Self as a divine, universal being, ascends in mind and spirit to that plane. This is why chastity as a “principle” that indicates not blending with lower energies in mind and spirit is considered a virtue and necessary for our spiritual advancement and ultimate ascension to higher planes of consciousness.

The sexual center, like all chakras, doesn’t indicate sex or sexual activities, but the “principle” of self-regeneration which comes by “combining with forces” through a desire and love for them, and using them as the means of creating yourself through the experiences they bring. Whatever we associate with we become like in spirit. Our spirit is the creative power that creates by combining with complementary elements to form a new, functional whole. It’s not acquiring physical substance that transforms us, it’s how we associate with and build our identity out of the “experience” it brings. All creation comes through how we experience ourselves. As long as we nurture and cultivate a desire for the physical world as attachments to it that are necessary in order to “know who we are”, we cut ourselves off from our spiritual development as a universal being. As long as our sexual energy is operating on the lower arc of the material world, our pineal is atrophied on the higher arc. The only way to “activate” our pineal is by shifting our desire away from the material world and concentrating it in the spiritual world. As long as we desire sexual union, power, money, the acquisition of material excess, and so on, we allow those ideas to occupy our mind, and we “become them” in spirit, shutting the doorway to the higher planes of a virtuous and universal identity, which is our “true nature” as a higher spiritual being who creates itself fully from within itself as a sovereign and self-sustaining being.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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The Path of Self-Mastery and the Process of Transformation to a Higher Level of Consciousness

The idea that life on Earth is a “school” for the soul that’s designed to teach us in some way can seem a bit confusing to many because we often associate this idea with our pain and suffering brought on by the constant challenges that cause us to struggle in life. Sometimes our life can almost seem like a bad joke that can cause us to lose faith in ourselves, or we feel as if we’re being punished somehow for something that we’re not even quite sure of. But if we learn how to work with our own mind to change our perspective and form new realizations around our soul’s essence and purpose in life we can begin seeing all things as an opportunity for growth instead of a means to an end that ultimately resides as an all-pervasive yet obscured form of chaos and uncertainty.

One of the most persistent illusions for the human soul is that our material existence and the reality we serve to project is all there is and represents the ultimate prize to be won by how we conform to society’s rules and work to serve the will of others. When we realize the temporal nature of life and our personal existence as a material, and therefore mortal being, we become overwhelmed with a sense of dread and intense fear at the thought of disappearing and no longer existing after the death of our body. With the death of our body also comes the death of our reality as a personal existence created while in our body. Even when we entertain the idea of our soul being eternal, and we’re faced with the realization that our soul merely resides in our body temporarily as the means of developing itself to a higher level of consciousness, we don’t always know what that means or how to comprehend it in a way that instills a sense of purpose for our life that inspires us towards a higher goal.

From as far back as we can remember most of us have been taught that our material existence and this lifetime is all there is, and that when it’s over and done with, we’ll be judged accordingly, and suffer eternal consequences as a result. Very few realize that our “mind” (soul) is comprised of three aspects that each perform different functions in creating a greater whole, and is the means through which we create all of our experiences in life. We’re taught that in order to be successful we need to go out into the world and work to accumulate material possessions and achieve a high status, while selling and bartering away whatever part of our soul’s essence necessary to do it. We’re taught that it’s not who you are as a conscious being that matters, it’s your position in life achieved through material accomplishments and your loyalty in serving what you perceive to be a higher authority in an obedient manner. We’re taught right from the start to strive to be a faithful worker of the establishment and a valuable part of the engine that makes things work.

We’re born into a reality of slavery where we’re mentally and emotionally trained, coerced and manipulated to perform our duty faithfully without questioning it, complaining or attempting to resist it in some way. Many work their whole life away while secretly dying inside emotionally and morally. They know what they really want to do but they’re too afraid to make the changes necessary in order to do it. On their death bed they look back on their life with a deep sense of disillusionment, regret over what they know they should have done but didn’t, and remorse over the fact that they sold their soul in order to live what amounted to a meaningless life. Even when we know deep inside that there’s more to life than meets the eye, we cling instead to quiet feeling of desperation for something we don’t even know for sure exists.

Self-Realization

When we, as a soul, form a belief around the idea that we “are” our body, and we live our life out of our formative conditioning as whatever we’ve been taught to think and do, our soul becomes lost in and subordinate to a realm that it was actually intended to rule. As we begin questioning the true meaning of life, we begin a form of soul searching to find out who we really are. This inquiry into the true meaning of things is what begins the initial process of realizing our true identity, and is the only part in the process that requires a “belief” in what is unknown or not yet realized. As we set out on our journey of self-discovery we’re required to employ “faith” in finding the path that will eventually lead us to the truth of who we really are. It’s only through the search for greater meaning that we find new answers that connect us with a higher Truth. Once we remove our steadfast belief in our bodily existence as being all there is and begin placing it in our soul instead, a whole new path and way of living opens up and becomes available to us as a result.

The first step in “spiritual awakening” comes when we recognize that as long as we’re aligned with and devoted to our physical existence as being all there is, our spiritual path remains latent and hidden behind the veil of illusion placed in front of it. The path doesn’t begin unfolding until we make a decision and commitment to follow it by taking the first step. It’s only when we take the first step as an inner awareness and commitment that the next one unfolds in our outer awareness. This is due to the fact that our reality as an “outer awareness” is actually being produced by us as our perception. All of what we experience as “reality” is a mental construct created within our own mind. Not by our brain, heart, or body, but by our mind, soul, and spirit. It’s the invisible aspects of us that are actively creating the visible world in which we live and create experiences of our self.

It’s only when we change our focus and what we’re investing in as the means of creating ourselves, and begin tuning into our inner awareness, which is what provides us with true guidance, and we willingly take that first step into the unknown, that the next step becomes apparent. We then have to be willing to take that step before the next one will appear. Our path doesn’t appear in front of us in complete form as a means of reassuring us as a guarantee of where it’ll ultimately lead, but requires us to “trust” in the process. This is because our mind is what’s forming our perception, and it’s through the repetition of already existing patterns that we can predict the future as a continuation of the past. When we commit to a truly new way of being, we step willingly into the unknown and have to trust that we’ll know what to do in brand new and unfamiliar situations. This initial process of spiritual exploration that brings us into contact with our true being requires trust, belief, and faith in the fact that it’s real and not just fantasy. This is because when you break away from conventional belief-systems of the group mindset and venture out on your own, the entire outer world and everything you’ve known up to that point will seem to oppose you. You begin walking contrary to the very life you initially acted to create.

Undertaking our spiritual development in a fully conscious manner is always difficult because it requires us to shift our center of gravity from a primary focus on the outer world and place it firmly on our inner feelings and awareness stemming from our “inner self”. As we begin tuning into our inner awareness around outer things, we begin forming a new relationship with ourselves as a kind of intimacy. The more familiar we become with ourselves internally, the more we naturally begin detaching from the image of our self we created using material ideas, and we can begin seeing the outer world for its true purpose in terms of what it serves to awaken and bring alive inside of us. Once we begin honestly realizing that we’re the one creating our experiences based on whatever energies are alive and active inside of us, we start touching on our true power as a soul and spirit. We can begin realizing that we create our reality based on how we manage and work with our own internal energy. We can only work with an “energy” (quality of consciousness) while it’s alive and actively expressing “within” us. We can sit for years contemplating ideas while telling ourselves that we “are” that way, meaning we know it, because it’s very easy to manage qualities while they’re in a passive and latent state. It’s only when we encounter something that activates that quality within us that we actually have the opportunity to work with it in whatever way we choose.

The Human Soul and the Nature of Reality

The human Soul is a sovereign being of greater intelligence that resides in its natural state on a higher plane of existence and acts to create an image of itself by first constructing a etheric blueprint for fashioning an animal body which it then inhabits as a means of creating within the lower, material plane. The Soul is formed out of memory that it acquires through the experiences it creates while in a physical body. It completely designs the life of its own physical existence from a higher plane, and then enters into the body as a means of “experiencing its own creation” from within it, having it. As it enters into the dense realm of the subconscious as an infant, it’s acclimated to the body through conditioning, and the higher, self-aware mind is birthed while fully in the body, where it becomes “identified” with its material form and life conditions. Because the conscious aspect of the lower mind is birthed within the body, it mistakes itself for being the body and can live its entire life out of its initial conditioning, often without ever realizing that it actually has the higher power in being able to direct and determine its own development, and it can becomes lost in its own delusions as a result.

The higher Soul’s purpose in a material existence lies is in its ability to develop its own moral character through active use of its higher creative abilities. But in order to utilize higher capacities that exist initially in a latent state, it has to realize that it possesses them as a fundamental part of its being. These higher abilities come as realization around the power of our mind and the nature of our higher Soul in operating through it, the ability to reason, make calculated decisions based on rational evaluation, and exercise will in acting out those decisions. All realization, which comes through our own mind as an essential form of self-realization, only comes through experience. All knowledge, which is essentially knowledge the Self, is only attained through the realizations born out of experiences. We can think about something all day long while imagining what it would be like, but until we actually experience it, we don’t realize anything because of it. As the Soul creates experiences of itself through a physical existence, it acquires knowledge of itself as its own creator. As we create our own experiences, we then absorb those experiences and translate them into “memory” as the building blocks for producing more experiences of the same kind.

The outer world of material phenomenon exists in polarity with the inner world of thought and feelings, and serves the primary purpose of stimulating us internally bringing correlated qualities into an active state, providing us with the opportunity to see them as they truly are and work with them accordingly. When we don’t realize what’s happening as inner qualities come alive in us due to an outer stimulus, we allow them free reign over us and they act to shape our perception and experience without any real awareness on our part of the fact that we can change them by simply learning to manage them using our mind. We often form the perception that the outer world is separate from us and is experienced by us in an objective manner, yet nothing could be further from the truth. This is very evident by simply observing the fact that several people who are apart of the same event or situation will all perceive it in a different way, form a unique experience of it through the story they tell themselves about it, and conduct themselves in different ways as a result.

While we tend to think that there’s an “objective reality” that exists “out there” separate from us, and there is in the common sense of a material construct that we all share in common (called Nature), however reality in its most basic sense is always “subjective”, because each person perceives it in a different way that’s unique to them based on their mental paradigm. Our paradigm is the energetic structure of our mind formed out of personal memory. We filter the outer reality through our paradigm as a means of “interpreting” what it means, and we reshape it according to the meaning we give it. We naturally reshape everything outside of us to “be like us” through our very perception of it. This isn’t done as a conscious act that we’re aware of, but as a natural (unconscious) act that’s formed automatically. Reality is what’s created as our mind’s ability to perceive it. Perception is the most fundamental form of creation we naturally engage in.

All of what we call reality is based on an individual perception formed by our mind as it works through our brain and nervous system. Our higher Soul “is” our mind as an organized field of information comprised of memory that vibrates at a certain frequency and has a pattern inherent in it as a 3-D model (hologram), along with a self-organizing force. We organize the information available in the outer field of the group and cosmic mind to be of the same nature as our inner model. We organize reality through a dynamic filtering system that restructures it to match us. Our “true self” isn’t our body, brain and nervous system, it’s our mind as an invisible sphere of energy that not only permeates and inhabits our body, but extends quite some distance around us as an emanation and projection that serves to form our perception of reality as a continuation of the same idea (pattern). What we perceive as being “out there” is a direct reflection as an extension of what’s “in here”, because the same mind is creating both.

In order to develop our soul as our character we work through the agency of our mind, which are essentially the same thing. The mind is an aspect of the Soul that’s used as the means for structuring reality as a projection in order to “experience itself” as and through that reality. The reality itself is formed as an expression of the inner self that allows the Soul to gain knowledge of itself through its own self-created experiences. What lies hidden within us that we’re consciously unaware of, is revealed to us as a fundamental part of our outer environment because it plays a crucial role in stimulating us inwardly as a form of self-recognition. The agency of the Soul that forms the inner and the outer to be of the same nature and likeness, is our “character” which is shaped through our moral development.

How we develop ourselves morally forms the bridge between our mortality and immortality. If we live a life of poor morality by blending with inferior energies that are void of any real consciousness, then we create ourselves as a lower being driven by blind impulses and instincts. We allow ourselves to be shaped by our passions and emotional states. If we choose instead to only couple with equal or superior energies that are of a virtuous nature and fully conscious in terms of who we really are, then we ascend in mind and spirit to higher levels of sovereignty and true individuality. As long as we remain unconscious, we perceive others as separate from us and capable of determining us based on how they act to stimulate us inwardly, usually through emotions of some kind that we tend to readily take in and internalize to produce correlating experiences of ourselves as being the same way. Whatever we absorb and readily take on from others and our environment serves to adjust our mental state to be of the same nature, and we act to willingly participate in co-creating a joint-reality with them.

When we step into our true identity as the one creating both our Self and our outer experience of life, we realize that anytime we’re being stimulated by something outside of us that it provides us with the opportunity to work with that quality inwardly as a means of gaining the realizations necessary to transform and develop them in whatever way is necessary in order to not be controlled or overwhelmed by them. As we work on our inner mental state we transform our outer perception accordingly. The outer environment itself stays the same in terms of the same basic elements that compose it, but how it “appears to us” changes and what aspect of it we mentally interact with changes also. When we no longer take on the emotions and attitudes being projected by others towards or around us, we remain calm inside and able to control ourselves. As we control our own reactions by not taking on and internalizing the emotions of others, we neutralize them while remaining calm inside. We can bring forces that are causing an imbalance as an extreme of some kind back into a balanced and harmonious state by not giving them our attention.

We can exercise our true power to create by taking on the role and perspective of being the “creator” rather than being the “creation”. We move from allowing ourselves to be created by others and the events of our life, to being the one creating ourselves by way of them. Our most basic quest in life comes in how we form our identity. By what it is we identify with based on how we “sense ourselves” through our experiences of life. When we remain in a primarily unconscious state and lack true self-awareness, we create the experience of being “created” by our external world and others. As we begin waking up to our true higher nature and mental power, and we realize that we are in fact the one creating our own reality as the means of creating ourselves as that reality, we step into our true identity as a higher Soul and engage in the process of creating ourselves while in a fully awake and conscious state. We move from a perception of ourselves as having no self-control in being a product of our circumstances, to one of actively being the one doing the creating by managing our own internal state of mind. We no longer feel helpless in directing our own life experiences and begin working internally to create and determine “how” we experience ourselves within the conditions and circumstances of our daily life. It’s never about “what happens to us”, but how we use what happens to the best possible benefit in consciously facilitating our own growth.

Bringing Knowledge into Practice

What this tells us is that whatever feeling, quality, or emotion we’re being stimulated with from the outside world, is providing us with the live opportunity to work directly with that quality in a fully conscious and self-aware manner. We don’t need to argue as to whether or not the outer event is real and warrants whatever response it naturally provokes, but simply turn inward instead and place our full attention on what’s alive and actively expressing inside of us. As we focus on the inner feelings being propagated we can gain new awareness around it that spawns a whole series of new realizations. If we continue to close off the outer stimulus and relinquish the need to somehow validate its credibility, and focus purely on the inner quality it served to bring alive inside of us, we can choose to work with that energy in whatever way we desire. If we stay awake during emotional charges instead of going unconscious and forming a natural reaction based on past memory it also serves to activate, we can work at the level of cause instead of by trying to somehow change the outer effect.

When we’re stimulated with fear that’s overwhelming and causes extreme anxiety, we have the opportunity to work with it internally and learn how to manage it psychologically. We can utilize our “will” as the means of directing the internal forces of Nature that we experience as emotions. We begin this process through our rational awareness of what’s happening which is what allows us to subdue it to the point where it’s not overwhelming and intense. Just the act of learning how to subdue and calm it down within us, is the first step to managing and bringing it under the direction of our Will. Once we’ve brought it under control of our higher Will, and it begins subsiding accordingly, we can decide how it is we want to transform it as a means of utilizing it in a productive way as a means of creating in an intentional and deliberate manner.

We only learn through experience and all growth comes by learning how to take control of our own mind in creating our experiences. Every internal activation is an opportunity to work with the quality being activated. While we can only employ knowledge in theory as a means of preparing ourselves for using it, we only have the opportunity “acquire” the essence of the knowledge by how we apply and utilize it in a live situation where its active and expressing as an event of some kind. When we can learn how to work with the spiritual forces of Nature that are designed to drive instinct by employing our higher, rational Soul in balancing them, we acquire knowledge of them as knowledge of ourselves. This knowledge comes as self-realization and is utilized as the means of experiencing our self in relation to the outer world. The outer world or event itself doesn’t change, it’s only our experience of it that changes. It’s our perception that changes and how things appear to us, and it no longer acts to stimulate us in an unconscious manner, because we’ve transformed and equalized it within, neutralizing it as a result. We’re then able to be in the same type of situations while remaining calm and unaffected by them, and we perceive them in a whole different way as a result.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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Spiritual Guidance, the Higher Capacity of Intuition, and Moral Sovereignty

As a student and teacher of Spiritual Sciences I have encountered numerous attitudes and methods around the idea of intuition and what it means to receive “guidance” from higher, spiritual beings of some kind. I’ve seen many confuse intuition with psychic abilities, which they often boast about with a fair amount of pride, or present as being a “gift” that’s designed to lure people in with a sense of mystery and intrigue, and still others who appear to be working with what they present as being a “team” of spiritual guides as “spiritual masters” who are available to assist them in making decisions for their life and walking their spiritual path in the best way possible. I won’t attempt to speak about these type of ideas and approach to interacting with the “spiritual world”, due to the fact that I’ve never been prone to this way of thinking nor have I found it meaningful or useful in the personal sense, and in all my experiences I have never found this to be true. In this article I’m only going to speak about what I know from experience and working intuitively with the higher spiritual faculties of our mind and soul in relation with a “higher state of being” that we’re always in a form of intimate conversation with inwardly, and which resides “above” this one in a fundamental state of polarity with the material world, which it ultimately serves to project and govern from within.  

One of the primary laws that form the very foundation for all thought and perception, is that we are sovereign beings fully responsible for creating our own life experiences through active use of the higher capacities of realization, choice, and will. The number one rule that operates faithfully throughout every single aspect of the cosmos, is that no being of a higher nature will ever violate choice and will of the individual, and never guides by “telling you what to do” and making decisions for you. While the lower plane of animal consciousness encourages and often works out of pure instinct and the herd mentality of the group mind, higher states of being work to foster individuality and require us to exercise our ability to think for ourselves.

As higher, intelligent beings, we’re never, ever expected to “obey” commands of any kind, but rather develop our “selfhood” from an independent state and develop our ability to govern and regulate ourselves. If we’re connecting with some power or “entity” that seems to exist “outside of us”, and we act as the vehicle for their will to utilize in creating, then we become regulated and governed by them. We remain slaves who are instructed and led along by a master. We become the “creation” of someone else rather than the “creator” of our self. We become dependent on someone or something else to tell us what to do, and we cultivate a dependency on it. We exist as a lower intelligence on a plane where we detach from our own ability to self-create.

True spiritual guidance only comes when we connect intimately with our “self” on a higher plane. It doesn’t come as a board meeting to discuss and come to a conclusion about something, or as a means of receiving instructions on what decisions to make as to what to “believe” and therefore do, it comes by “becoming one” in mind and spirit with God as your higher self. As we become one in mind with our guardian spirit, we form a unified mental circuit as a stream of consciousness where we literally begin “looking through the same eyes”. When we connect intimately with our higher source “it” flows into us “as” our awareness around things. It never tells us what to do in the direct sense or attempts to make our decisions for us; it merely heightens our awareness around the “deeper nature” of things that bring new realizations which serve to equip us in being able to make better decisions for ourselves.

Higher powers never require us to form a subservient relationship with them; they teach us instead how to exercise our divine powers in creating our own life. This is one of the main deceptions people have to overcome in being able to step into and fully embrace as the means of learning how to exercise their higher capacities of cognition. If something appears in your mind as “instructing you on what to do” or talking to you in a way that scares you into making a particular decision or plays to embellish and strengthen your insecurities and psychological issues, then it’s a form of self-delusion as a fantasy that intimately plants the seed for fanaticism. Due to the fact that we all share the same unconscious group mind, thoughts and feelings are also being transmitted telepathically through the atmosphere and can enter into the “inner conversation” you’re always in the process of having with yourself that sways it to one direction or another.

Your true higher self never works on your frailties to persuade, convince, or somehow entice you with a decision or specific possibility, but works instead to only increase your awareness around whatever it is you’re wondering or asking about in the silence of your moment-by-moment thoughts. As you pray and ask for guidance around something pay close attention to what proceeds out of it as a synchronized series of events that serve to increase your awareness around related ideas allowing you to form “new realizations” that provide you with the basis for making more calculated decisions. It always acts by removing the veil of illusion that’s obscuring the truth and hindering your ability to see clearly. Your higher source gives you thoughts and notions around things that require you to follow-up and investigate them. As you follow your intuition around something, which usually comes as a form of notion, a greater idea begins unfolding through a series of interrelated correspondences and analogies. We’re given clues about something that forms a kind of “treasure hunt” where one clue fully investigated unveils several other clues which require further investigation, and we’re led along a path of self-realization.

Just as the higher powers never violate your ability to choose your destiny and decide which path you take, you’re never allowed to violate other people’s ability to do the same thing. This means you shouldn’t ever try and control someone else or make their decisions for them, releasing them from responsibility for their own life, because you won’t be assisted from a higher level and will struggle in your own delusion around things that will come as a result. In order to create in a meaningful way you have to always work by ways of universal laws of the Soul and Will. If you attempt to influence another person’s destiny by trying to make their decisions for them or convince them on what they should do, you remain locked into a delusion of your own making, and you only act to hinder and weaken the other person spiritually, while incurring karma around your actions.

On the higher planes of being we are a “creator” and not the one being “created” by another. In order to advance our soul we have to exercise sovereignty as our natural way of being and thinking. We have to master our own mind and learn how to create in an intelligent and harmonious manner. We have to cultivate selfhood as a permanent union with our higher mind (Self) and never look outside ourselves or to another to give us the answers we seek. The master / slave relationship or need to depend on someone else is the tendency of a lower being that hasn’t realized their true identity and, as a result, lacks any true individuality and the ability to be self-sustaining. All guidance comes “through you” as increased awareness that expands your consciousness through being in direct contact with a higher source and provides you with the realizations you need in order to make new decisions about things. It nearly always involves a teacher / pupil or parent / child relationship where you’re being shown things you didn’t realize before, and it serves to expand your awareness as a result.

Intuition

While many people associate intuition with psychic abilities, the most basic form of intuition, which we all have, comes in our ability to correlate all aspects of life and reality as being interconnected and a part of a greater whole. Intuition is the complementary aspect that counterbalances analysis. As our rational mind abstracts a part out of a whole in order to discover its secrets, usually by making it into a whole itself as somehow independent of the whole it played an active part in, intuition connects all seemingly independent parts back into a cohesive whole. Rather than breaking things apart and viewing them as separate, it forms a natural chain-of-association that connects all correlated ideas as correspondences of each other. It’s a holistic way of perceiving all of life as a unified whole or holo-movement. Change any aspect of a whole, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant, and the whole is adjusted accordingly through a ripple effect. Calculated decisions come as the result of carefully inspecting a whole system as it operates in unison, and determining what change will work to readjust the whole system so that it functions in a new and more beneficial way.

Intuition is the faculty of the mind that’s always tuned into the invisible energy that permeates, holds together, and animates material objects with specific personality traits as qualities. It “sees into” material forms and connects directly with the soul inhabiting and expressing through and “as” that form. It recognizes the character as qualities of consciousness being housed and hidden within the outer appearance of the form. Instead of perception being based on the outer appearance of things, it’s based on the inner feeling of things. When we tune into the energy and essence of an object or being we come into direct contact with the consciousness animating it as its soul (personal consciousness). We see it “as it is” rather than as it appears outwardly.

 Intuition is the highest form of intelligence not only due to its power to bring us into direct contact with the source and root cause of things, but also due to the fact that it operates according to the Law of Correspondences and Analogy. This process comes anytime we’re looking at an idea and we naturally form an immediate chain-of-association to that “same idea” being orchestrated through other material systems of the same “nature”. What we call laws are not about the material objects themselves that make up a system, they’re the energy expressing through numerous material forms as the same frequency, pattern and process, and quality of consciousness that expresses as an infinite number of variations.

Material objects themselves have no consciousness and life of their own and only possess what they act to “draw in” and serve as a vehicle for through resonance. Vibration has a pattern (set of instructions) and self-assembling mechanism (life-force) inherent in it that shapes light into the biological form that corresponds with the overall frequency being expressed as the environment it becomes a part of. The form something takes on always determines how it functions through a natural set of behaviors. Consciousness is the “organizing principle” that produces material form as movement between complementary poles of the same thing. It forms a ghost-like image as the bio-luminescence produced as an emanation, and magnetizes it with life-force as a personality that plays a harmonious part in the greater whole it’s born into.

We can always discern the unknown aspect of any system by how it exists in relationship with the larger whole (parent pattern) that’s it plays a direct role in as a co-creation. We can know if something is “true or not” by how it relates harmoniously to all other aspects of the same system. Truth and harmony are synonyms. When we use intuition as a primary means of perceiving things, we see everything in its spiritual form as it plays out and is connected to every other aspect of the same overall idea. It doesn’t come through how we think about things, but as a direct experience that forms ideas in our imagination as an internal vision that rises and plays out spontaneously through its own volition.

We actively reshape things to be “like us” by how we interpret them to give them meaning and what it is we compare and relate it to as a means of reshaping it. To develop intuition to a high level we have to cultivate a neutral and passive mind while tuning into the inner nature of things and allow a movie to rise and play out within us in a free-flowing manner without needing to control it in some way. As we interpret something to give it meaning, we reshape it to resemble us. All meaning is personal in nature and doesn’t exist separate from us. Reality in itself has no meaning. The most fundamental way we create as a personification that result in a basic form of illusion, comes through our natural tendency to make things “mean something” by how we interpret them.  

When contemplating an idea this is one of the best ways we have for knowing what’s true and what’s not, and what’s normally referred to as “common sense”. If an idea goes against everything else that we know to be true, or violates fundamental universal laws, then we know it to be false or a misconception. When we have to work to intentionally shape something into an idea instead of letting it rise naturally then unfold in our mind as a dynamic chain-of-association, we know that we’re the one who actually creating it to match our beliefs and preconceived notions about it. We have to teach ourselves to perceive everything in an objective and rational manner in order to see things as they actually exist without making them mean something.

Sovereignty

The material and spiritual plane exists in polarity with each other as a mirror (reverse) image of each other. On the lower plane, where the soul experiences itself within an animal body driven by primal passions and instinct while in an unconscious and automated state, we create our self and our experiences of life through a form of chronic and habitual emotional reactions, and by replaying (constantly thinking about) memories that were painful or traumatic in some way. As a child we’re shaped initially by outside forces as our formative conditioning and remain in that primarily unconscious state throughout our adult life. As we’re trained to create ourselves unconsciously through a constant reaction and anxiety driven negotiation with others, we become a product of our environment and fail to recognize who we really are in terms of our higher soul. On the higher plane of the human soul and spirit, we are the “creator” and the “only one” doing the creating. We have to cultivate our higher powers in truly becoming a sovereign, responsible, and self-determined being that thinks for ourselves and make all decisions for our life in a conscious and well-thought out manner.

The material world of Nature is operated through instinct that comes as automatic behaviors conducted without thought or the need to make a decision, and functions as a cohesive part of a group of some kind. We exist in a lower form of consciousness that operates without awareness through a herd mentality. We’re always looking for ideas on what to think or do from others who we imagine know better than we do. We attain what we imagine to be higher knowledge from the opinion of others that we adopt as our own. We accept and believe whatever it is that we’re taught, usually without ever questioning it because we don’t doubt or question what we perceive as real. While operating from an unconscious state we can easily fall prey to those claiming to “know for us” or who act as “psychic channels” for higher knowledge by lending their will to some unknown source, and forfeit our rational mind in favor of engaging in fantasy and sensationalism instead that simply plays on our vulnerabilities and exploits our lack of true “self-awareness”.

While locked into a lower mentality of our animal body we’re always looking for someone or something else to tell us what to feel, think, believe, and do, instead of engaging in a form of personal study of “true higher knowledge” as laws and principles that provide us with instruction on how to use our own mental faculties. All spiritual or higher knowledge only comes to us through an understanding of universal principles and the realizations that come through our ability to apply them in real-life situations as the means of creating. We can only become conscious creators when we learn how to operate our own mind and connect intuitively with our higher self and source. When we remain in constant union with our higher intelligence, we connect with our true power as our Will, and what it is that not only oversees but also organizes, orchestrates, and coordinates all events within the lower, material world. It’s only through our own internal realizations that we connect directly to the truth of things and provide ourselves with the opportunity to intentionally exercise our higher capacities for self-creation.

The lower plane fosters and works out of the group mind, the higher plane promotes and works exclusively out of individuality as a sovereign and self-contained being. It requires us to educate ourselves with higher ideals and skillfully employ universal laws in operating our own mind as the means of creating ourselves and our experience of reality (which are the same thing). The lower plane of manifestation is being created and maintained by our Self on a higher parallel plane. They’re an extension, projection, and continuation of the same idea on different scales and levels.

As we look to others to tell us what to see, think, and do, we reside fully in an unconscious state of being created by others. As long as we maintain this mentality, we’ll never be able to ascend to the higher planes of being the creator of our reality. As long as we render ourselves subject to the opinions and ideas of the group mind we remain a servant to them. As long as we engage in educating ourselves with what is in fact the opinion of others or a personal interpretation of the laws themselves, we keep ourselves in a position of not knowing who we really are in the higher sense of the idea, and never act to develop our higher capacities as an individual.

Knowledge doesn’t come by trying to decide who has the best or most realistic ideas about something, but by studying universal laws and learning how to apply them in the practical sense until they become natural and intuitive. It comes by connecting and “becoming one with” our true spiritual power as our higher self and allowing it to “become” our consciousness. As we allow a higher intelligence to come through us we begin experiencing our self in a much more aware and expanded state. We have to practice pacifying our lower, habitual mind in order to actively draw down and embody the consciousness we’re apart of on the higher plane of individuality. All true knowledge is knowledge of the “self” which is only attained “through” the self.

All guidance and intelligence only comes to us through direct experience that birth realizations and promote our ability to make more calculated and precise decisions. As we think and develop ideas in our imagination by defining them with sensory details, we simultaneously communicate those ideas to our higher Will as a form of request for that type of experience. All thought and feelings, whether conscious and deliberate or unconscious and habitual, are a form of “prayer” where we’re literally using one aspect of our mind to direct and program another aspect in what to create. Anytime we’re feeling confused around an idea and uncertain of what’s true or not, and we ask for guidance around it, we begin forming notions around things that are designed to lead us on a path of self-discovery. When we penetrate and explore different ideas that stand out for some reason or we feel compelled towards, a whole new idea begins unfolding that reveals hidden secrets. We’re provided with a glimpse into our true nature and the power of our mind that brings us into contact with our ability to exercise our higher capacities as a sovereign being.

Dr. Linda Gadbois  

The Art of Interpreting Symbolic Imagery Designed to Communicate Higher Knowledge

Interpreting symbolic imagery is an art-form that only comes from an in-depth knowledge of the principles being illustrated. I wanted to use this famous Egyptian/Sumerian hieroglyph as the means of demonstrating how to translate symbolic imagery, because I have seen many instances where it was translated very poorly, or in a completely inaccurate way. We have a natural tendency to try and interpret ancient ideologies using our “modern paradigms” for understanding, instead of embracing the paradigm of those who wrote them. I’ve heard many say that the ancients just drew what they were seeing, and their writing should be taken literally as a result, and this imply isn’t true. Hieroglyphs were a universal language that illustrated ideas as principles in a way that could be conceptualized, which is the key factor to learning, and which could be interpreted equally by any race or culture. Due to the fact that they had to be interpreted, every single person formed a unique interpretation of the same idea.

One of the primary reasons for inaccurate interpretations is probably due to the fact that they don’t understand the imagery associated with occult sciences, which is the universal language of the ancient world. In ancient cultures around the world, the “soul” was a primary idea and what created the entire reality and life experiences of the human being. This particular piece is very rich in the symbolism that explains and describes how the Soul works on multiple levels simultaneously to create the illusion of reality as the means of gaining knowledge of itself through “experiences” of itself produced by both an inner and outer reality of the same nature. The only way we truly “know anything” is through experience, and in order to gain knowledge of our self we have to create experiences of our self.

I’m just going to give a basic interpretation of the symbolic concepts being illustrated, and allow you to fill in the blanks in whatever way makes sense to you. All symbolic imagery forms a “living language” that has to be interpreted in order to be understood, and every person forms a unique interpretation based on their level of knowledge and awareness. One of the things to always keep in mind is that in all symbolic compositions meant to represent a whole or greater idea, every single aspect used to compose it is a corresponding attribute and quality of the whole idea. This means that every shape, feature, number, color, quality, characteristic, and attribute has a specific purpose in communicating an important part of the greater idea. It’s this feature that gave us the saying that “a picture is worth a thousand words”. Symbolic imagery is the only language that’s universal in nature and can be equally understood by everyone while forming a unique variation of the same idea. From a spiritual perspective, we’re all meant to not only be individuals in our own right, but to create our experience of reality in a way that’s unique to us as a personalized version of a universal concept.

The first thing you always want to notice is the overall idea being illustrated through the composition of the whole piece. This image shows a large figure communicating with three smaller figures of the same nature (they all look alike) on a different level (dimension) and scale (size). The large figure sits on a square cube behind a wall or barrier that’s decorated with a motif that symbolizes polar opposites joined at the base, situated between two vertical pillars that are held together by a linear base and an overhead canopy or plane. The large figure rests on the upper plane of the cube and is a unification of the polar opposites which serve as its foundation and throne. A square or cube represents material reality as the organization of the four elements that make up the soul’s “constitution”, and are what forms the basis for the reality of the soul as its outer projection.

The larger figure represents the “higher self” as the human soul that forms and administers the entire material plane as a projection. Its headdress is shaped like a cone with five-waves of energy that symbolizes the third-eye and the transmission, reception, and transduction of energy through the ether (5), where it flows in waves through the hair, beard, and garment, and down through the base or linear foundation on which the whole idea rests, and up into the garment of the smaller figure that’s opposite of it on the other side of the barrier. There are seven primary waves or levels of energy flowing through the foundation and are what “inform” the reality of the three smaller figures on the other side of the barrier. The barrier appears as a wall that’s comprised of 33 layers or joints (spine has 33 vertebrae) whose foundation (base ornament) is polar (twin spiraling serpents), and whose capstone is triune. These 7 waves are adorned with 4 circles that enclose an 8 pointed star, and are spaced evenly in a way that represents the relationship of Phi (Golden Mean and the Law of Thirds) as the part being proportionately the same as the whole (halving and doubling) by how they’re positioned in relation with the upper plane that rises out of it.

In the right hand of the Soul is a circle and rod, which represents the yoni (womb) and the phallic (seed), which are made out of the same thing formed into complementary shapes (shape always indicates function). This is also the basis for the Monad, which is symbolized as a sphere with a rod or staff vertically emerging from the center. This is also commonly symbolized by an egg with a serpent wrapped around it, and a “solar disk” as the circular head dress of certain deities resting in a chalice formed by a serpent, with a tail coming out of the back side and a head coming out of the front.

The pineal gland of the brain looks like a serpents head and tail when viewed in its natural state within the brain. Above the head of the Soul and forming the foundation for the canopy overhead, is three symbols that represent the Moon (Mother), Solar Sun (son) and the Cosmic Sun (Father). The left hand holds the beard through which the signal is being transmitted, which resembles a pillar, through which cosmic energy is being translated by the Soul. Both arms are bent in such a way they form a right angle, and where the pillar (phallic) rests in the lap (womb), and the posture of the whole body also forms a right angle. The higher Soul is a hermaphrodite, where feminine and masculine aspects exist in a balanced and harmonious state.

The rod that rises out of the foundation forms a backdrop that extends up forming a right angle that hangs over the top of the barrier (resembles the corpus callosum of brain), and has a smaller version of the same figure as “dual aspects”, represented by 2 heads and set of arms and hands that are holding and controlling the 2 cords used to hang the “solar disc” on the other side of the wall. All three profiles of the higher self are of the left side of the face (associated with Chokmah), and all three of the smaller images are of the right side (polar opposite as a mirror image) of the same figure (associated with Binah). The cord is formed by two pieces wound in a spiraling motion and forms a triangle shape that also forms a right angle (Pythagorean Triangle). The disk rests on a holder or cradle on the table, which is formed out of the same motif as the cube throne and wall, representing polarity (two spirals orientated in opposite directions, resting on 2 horizontal (parallel) planes) and a base with 10 parts (universal laws). The table has 2 legs (pillars) bound together and strengthened by a cross-brace on the underside and top of the table on the upper side. A table top represents a “plane” of existence.

The solar disc, also called Shemesh, is associated with Tiphareth on the Tree of Life (Sun) as the Higher Self or true human soul that never incarnates into the physical realm because it’s what’s “creating and orchestrating” the “entire” physical plane from a higher dimension. The Solar Disc represents the Monad, the 4 elements and cardinal signs, 3 emanations that rise out of them (also at a right angle), and the archetypes of the zodiac, which form, govern, and operate the physical plane. The circle with a smaller (sometimes shown as invisible or empty) center, is divided into four solid points that resemble the 4 corners of the Earth on a compass, the 4 seasons of time as a transition between opposites, and the 3 waves that emanate from the combination (relationship) of pairs, which together form a “whole” as the expression of 12 archetypal energies that arise out of 4 cardinal signs or Elements. It’s comprised of 4 emanations that sit at a right angle to 4 material Elements, forming an 8 pointed star. There’s a distinct relationship between 3 and 4, one representing the mind, the other the material world which is formed by the mind as a mirror image and reflection into a parallel plane. 8 represents an octave which is formed out of 7 notes (3+4=7) as a “whole scale”. The cosmic disc is represented by 8 emanations, whereas the solar disc is 4 emanations at right angles to 4 solid triangles, representing the emanations of the Father made manifest through the son.

The disc is a “mirror image” and projection of the Higher Self on a parallel plane (the left side of the face is shown on the large image, and the right side of the same image on the parallel plane), and can only be “seen” or “known” through the “whole reality” of the individual within that plane. The lower soul can never look upon the “face of God” (its creator), because in order to do so you’d have to die and enter into the same plane. We can only know our Higher Self as God by looking within at the thoughts being transmitted and absorbed by our subconscious (wavelengths being transmitted and conceived), which produces the basis for our outer experience of reality. This is the same idea that’s conveyed through the image of a bearded god (ancient of days) that’s emerging out of a “winged disc” that has 4 layers of horizontal feathers and 3 layers of vertical tail feathers, with two legs and spiral feet, commonly thought to represent a UFO.

The 3 smaller figures of the same character and appearance of the Higher Self, represent the 3 aspects of the mind, self, and soul, commonly referred to as the subconscious, self-conscious, and etheric double, which is what forms the template or blueprint for producing the entire plane of material existence as a mirror image of itself. The subconscious is the aspect of our self that exists in direct contact with our higher self and receives instructions on what to create through mental imagery. The small image that’s the furthest away from the larger one is the one that’s receiving direct transmission through the underlying foundation on which the whole scene rises out of.

Both arms of the figure receiving the transmission from the Higher Self are raised to the higher self, and in the middle figure one arm is raised to the Higher Self, while the other holds a torch in the left hand that’s being held by the right hand of the third figure, showing a transmission of knowledge through the direct connection of complementary opposites (polarity). The third figure holds the table, representing the plane of material reality that the original projection serves to in-form. The cap on each of the succeeding figures gets smaller and more rounded, losing its cone shape. The Higher Self has a cap with 5 parts (ether) and the receiving aspect of the lower self has 4 parts (material manifestation). The transmission of knowledge takes place through a sequence of correlated stages that are all polar aspects of each other as an outgrowth of the same thing. The passive acts as a receiver for the active force of the same nature, and once it’s impregnated with the idea given to it by the active component, gestates and grows it into a reality as its offspring.

 The basic idea being illustrated here is the Law of 3 in 1, or the One that has 3 aspects that perform different functions in creating the same thing. This is what’s called the “3-fold nature of the mind and soul”, and the 3 dimensions that make up physical reality as a 4th (unified) whole. The stature of the higher soul is larger because it contains all three aspects of the lower soul. All of what we experience as reality is a projection of our higher mind and is designed to acquire knowledge of it “self” through the “experiences” it creates of itself. Our Soul doesn’t just create our physical body as a specialized design that it then inhabits as a means of experiencing itself in the physical world, it’s the One creating the appearance of reality as a mirror image and projection of itself as both an inner and outer, and as a self and other. We can only “know” our true self through our “whole reality” which is necessary in order to create experiences of our self. We are not a body as a single aspect within a greater whole, but the whole itself. We are the one creating reality as a mental projection (step down process) from a parallel plane through the universal principle of polarity.

The Soul creates itself as a reality through the principle of complementary opposites that form 3 planes simultaneously as an upper and lower that are brought together in a unified state by a “middle”, and forms an inner and outer reality that are unified as an “experience”. This idea is illustrating what’s referred to as the Tetragrammaton in Esoteric Sciences, and the Tetrad (4 as a cube) in Sacred Geometry, both of which illustrate the process of creation. This is the process through which we’re “seeded” with an idea from our Higher Self (will), which is translated into a physical form in our imagination and developed with attributes and sensations, to produce an outer reality of the same nature. Everything comes about as a polar movement between passive and active aspects of the same thing, where an invisible idea as a frequency (pattern) is transmitted through the ether and received by the third-eye of its complementary aspect, and forms an internal image that becomes active as a blueprint for creating on that plane. The Will of our Higher Self forms the basis for all of our thoughts which are developed through sensory detail and give rise to complementary emotions, which form the basis for all material activity.  

We can’t experience our self while in a unified state, and so duality is necessary in order to create a 3-D reality that we use as the means of experiencing ourselves in relation with our self as another and a greater whole. The ancients were obsessed with the “soul” because in reality, the Soul is all there is. Our Soul, like our mind, has three inherent aspects that all perform different functions in creating the same thing. This idea is commonly represented by a divine being with 3 heads or faces, usually with a larger center one, and two smaller ones on each side, and in Sacred Geometry by the triangle or pyramid, which has 3 faces and points, one of which is exalted in the center, and two which are parallel to each other on the same plane as its foundation. The upper forms the basis for the lower and descends into the lower sphere of consciousness through a right angle. The upper is symbolized by a vertical line or column (phallic) and the lower is symbolized by a horizontal line that’s the reflection of the upper. An “L” or “V” shape is used to represent the same line formed as a reflection or shadow image of itself.

Dr. Linda Gadbois       

“15” – The Devil: Overcoming Weaknesses, Material Attachments, and Transcending Illusion

In all forms of Esoteric Sciences ideas are communicated in the universal language of Archetypes, numbers, and symbols. We’re given a grand formula as a composite image or idea that must be intuitively interpreted in order for its hidden knowledge to be apprehended. All actual learning takes place through our subconscious where we impregnate ourselves with a seeded idea that gestates and not only unfolds spontaneously in the imagination as a whole idea or process, but continues to unfold over an extended period of time, bringing us deeper and more relevant insights into the same idea. We know we’ve apprehended the knowledge inherent in an idea when we can relate to it in the activities of our everyday life, and when it becomes an inherent part of our outer reality as our “perception”. Once an idea becomes fully integrated into our mental paradigm, it becomes a fundamental part of our material matrix as the substrate that gives rise to it, holds it together in a cohesive manner, and animates it through a form of cosmic relationship.

All Archetypes represent principles that are a natural part of our cosmic consciousness. This archetypal principle, like the pentagram which is a key component of it, is probably one of the most misunderstood and misinterpreted ones there are. This is perhaps due to the fact that the image used to represent it tends to elicit a sense of fear, apprehension, and disgust. This reaction is usually due to how it’s been grossly misinterpreted through Christian allegory. Christians perverted the idea represented by the god “Pan” as being witches that worshiped Nature and stole, sacrificed and ate children. This interpretation was formulated as a means of using fear to control by creating “illusions” that caused “panic”. If we look at each aspect combined to produce this composite image, we can not only gain a better understanding of what it’s showing us about our own nature, but we can also attain the “process” necessary in order to work with it in an intelligent manner. As with all archetypal images we want to look at the general overall composition while also identifying the “Keys” that reveal the laws involved.

The number 15 is represented in the Tarot by the archetype of the “Devil”, which is also the mythological god “Pan”. The basic composition is similar to those of Key 5, 6, 7, 14, and 19, which show a larger figure, usually of a divine nature (angel or priest) overseeing and governing 2 smaller beings that are male and female as a couple. This composition forms a “triangle” and naturally represents the higher-self or mind, working directly through the two aspects of the subconscious (female) and self-conscious (male) that manifest within the lower plane of materialism. In this depiction the divine principle is the “devil” presiding over a couple who are chained to a treasure chest of gold coins. Their chains are loose and can be easily removed, but they either don’t realize they can remove them, or they don’t want to remove them.

Pan-devil, ruled by Capricorn, is shown as half goat and half man, representing our lower, animal nature which is instinctively driven through emotional impulses and primal urges. The goat aspect of this character is the “lower half” that’s below the belly button and governs the lower body of sexuality, union, and reproduction. Only humans have belly buttons, and it signifies man inhabiting an animal body. The devil is symbolized by the Hebrew letter “Ayin”, and the letter “O”. It’s ruled by Saturn in Capricorn, where Mars is exalted. This image is the “polar opposite” of the one shown in Key 14, which it proceeds out of as a natural progression of what’s necessary in order to “change our vibration” as the means of “ascending” in spirit to higher dimensions. 15 lays the foundation for 16 to naturally emerge as a consequence, which represents being liberated from our own self-imposed material bondage.

The “sense” associated with the devil is “sight”, the most important sense of all in perceiving reality, and the one we’re most easily “deceived” by. Through sight we see appearances alone. Forming a visual image produces sensation, and the “eye” is used to represent “sensation” just as the “lion” serves to represent all “subhuman modes of life expression”. When we see appearances only we reside in the limitations of the visible world as a form of ignorance that forms spiritual bondage. Ignorance comes when we accept these limitations as being all there is. The most predominant form of sexual seduction as enticement comes through visual stimulation that causes arousal as heightened sensation. The most basic form of ignorance comes from believing what’s being presented, which forms our limitations and bondage to the world of illusions. When we remain ignorant of our true self we gladly succumb to the limitations being imposed on us by our lower self.

This idea represents indulgences that cause incongruity as weaknesses, character flaws, and shortcomings. The mental state associated with Ayin is “mirth”, which indicates merriment, laughter, and celebrating. It represents that which beguiles us through a state of enchantment. Laughter is a prophylactic and acts to purify the subconscious by dissolving mental complexes and internal conflicts. Laughter is a form of medicine that clears tension from the body caused by repressed emotions.

In the Metatron Cube of Space, 15 is the line at the lowest level as “west-below”, and connects NW (Key 11) with SW (Key 13), and South-below (Key 18) with North-below (Key 9). This provides us with further insight as a formula for understanding the faculties involved and the processes necessary to employ in working intelligently with them. Key 11 = Karma (universal justice); Key 13 = death (transformation); Key 18 = Moon (subconscious); and Key 9 = Completion and perfection. Key 15 also corresponds to Key 2 “below”, and Key 10 “West” as the “center axis” of the cube, representing the soul’s memory (2) as a cycle of creation (10). We’re initially programmed (conditioned) through an unconscious state that lays the groundwork out of which we continue creating ourselves in an unconscious manner throughout our life.

The number “15” gives us a primary formula of the laws involved and is calculated as 1 + 5 = 6. 1 represents focused attention (will), 5 = mind over matter as our connection with our Higher Self, and 6 (Lovers) as the intimate union of the subconscious with the self-conscious orchestrated by our Higher Self (Guardian Angel). The devil is shown with an inverted pentagram over his forehead (third-eye), which symbolizes the higher mind being controlled by the 4 Elements of material reality where it resides on a level that’s subhuman and instinctual. We experience incongruity, a lack of integrity, and internal conflict whenever our self-conscious stands in opposition of our subconscious, and we create in an inconsistent manner controlled by our passions, impulses, and sexual desires (addictions).

Capricorn is a cardinal earthy sign that governs the knees, which we’re brought to in crisis and kneel on to pray. We’re brought to our knees through our sense of bondage and personal insufficiency, and become subservient to our material existence. When we become identified with our personal possessions they act to determine us. All bondage comes from our failure to realize that we are meant to “rule Nature”, rather than being “ruled by it”. This idea represents our attachments to materialism produced by weaknesses and addictive tendencies that shape our morality to be “animal-like” and easily deceived and led astray through pleasure of various kinds. Mars is exalted in Capricorn, symbolized by Key 16, which follows sequentially, represented by the “lightning struck tower”, which destroys the form that holds us captive under the guise of safety and security. It’s our castle, title, and possessions that form our prison and bonds us to the lower planes of spiritual degradation. Whatever we “identify with”, we become one with in spirit and use as the means of creating experiences of ourselves.

 The mode of consciousness assigned to it is “Renewing Intelligence” as regeneration necessary in order to birth ourselves anew from a fully conscious and purified state that results from stepping back into our “identity” as a “divine being”. It’s through incongruities in our character that we unconsciously destroy what we’ve built. An incongruity is something that doesn’t fit and can also bring forth new ideas as adaptations (5). When we find a fact that doesn’t fit with our beliefs, we’re required to revise them to include the new information, upgrading them as a result. Whenever we let go of our attachment to things, we go through a period where we need to make adjustments and develop ourselves in new ways.

The icon of the Devil represents our “adversary” and that which refers to the ideas that relentlessly oppose our struggle for freedom. It’s our lower nature governing and utilizing the power of our higher nature in creating our soul and determining our destiny as a higher soul. It personifies the “serpent power” represented in Teth, Key 8, called “Strength”, which is the higher soul’s ability to tame the serpent power and use it for the motivating force of higher ideals. It’s the serpent of temptation that tempted Eve (subconscious), called Nachash (NchSh), whose letters translate into the numbers N = 50; Ch = 8, Sh = 300, for a total of 358 ( which equals 16 = 7), the same value as MShICh – 40 + 300 + 10 + 8 = 358, meaning the Messiah. This gives us a subtle correspondence of its meaning. It’s through temptation that we recognize our weaknesses, and are able to overcome them using Strength, and redeem ourselves as a result. The Devil is actually an aspect of God that’s usually greatly misunderstood by the ignorant and profane. Jesus, as the Messiah, was born in Capricorn, and both the devil and Christ were referred to as “the morning star”, and are polar opposites of each other.

If we break this formula down further and use the Keys of the Tarot to decipher their meaning, we get N = death, CH = Chariot, Sh = Judgment: and M = Hanged Man, Sh = Judgment, I = Hermit, Ch = Chariot, which equal 358. 3 = Empress, 5 = Hierophant, 8 = Strength. I’ll leave that for you to contemplate further on your own. 15 = 6 > represented by the “Lovers” as the sacred union of the two minds to form a harmonious whole. 15 is the summation of numbers 0 – 5 (1+2+3+4+5 = 15), the basic principles of the mind and its true relationship with matter. The word devil is “lived” spelled backwards and is ascribed to “wisdom” – we only learn by living and doing. All knowledge is obtained only through experience. Through self-realization and reason, we exercise our power of choice and will in transforming weaknesses into strengths.

The background of the scene is black, indicating the darkness of ignorance, limitation, and that which is hidden and resides within. Ignorance is the underlying cause of all bondage. The devil himself is a polar-image of the Angel in 14, which is also the caricature over the heads of the Lovers in Key 6. The man and woman are shown with horns and tail and represent the beast-like figures of the ones shown in the Lovers. The two horns represent a divided mind that’s set apart from and work to oppose each other. When human reasoning is based on surface appearances, we become like beasts, and reside in the darkness of illusion. The chain loops that yoke them (5) can be easily removed; their bondage is imaginary and self-maintained. The first stage of spiritual unfoldment comes as awareness of conscious bondage to material circumstances that personify the false conception that we’re bound by material conditions and the false notion that we’re a slave to necessity as chance.

The devil has bat wings, representing the powers of darkness. He has the face of a goat and ears of a donkey, representing obstinacy and the stubbornness of materialism. One side is masculine and the other feminine, he partakes in the characteristics of both sexes. The inverted pentagram, which is the sign of man, suggests a reversal of man’s understanding of his place in the cosmos. The Elements of materialism govern him. It’s only through a lack of using our divine abilities that we keep ourselves in bondage of ignorance and materialism.

The devils hand has all fingers opened with 2 fingers paired forming the sign of Saturn in the palm of the right hand. Saturn is the planet of limitation and inertia, and therefore ignorance. This symbolizes a failure to evolve to higher levels of self-awareness and keeping ourselves bound to the wheel of karma (10). In his left hand a torch burns downward, only lighting the ground. The torch is a phallic symbol and represents the transmission of life from generation to generation. The fiery quality refers to the active force of Mars. It’s the torch of revolution based on the material interpretation of experience. It’s symbolic of the torch of anarchy and terrorism which rule by fear and ignorance.

The devil has a naval (a human product) with the symbol of Mercury just below it. He is a product of faulty observation and superficial reasoning. His feet are the claws of an eagle, representing Scorpio as the misuse of reproductive power and it’s debasement in the service of sensuality. He sits on a half-cube (symbol of reality), and only sees half of reality, knowledge, and partial truth. He perceives only that which is visible and believes in disguises and false fronts.  

The fact that’s seldom realized is that the forces which appear to be our adversaries are always ready to serve us. It’s only through trial and temptation that we get to see into our own hidden nature. Once we realize our inner potential for freedom from being determined by our material conditions, we can begin taking control of our own urges and ability to create our experiences. When we bring higher spiritual knowledge into daily practice, we put forth the effort necessary to liberate ourselves from bondage that’s purely imaginary. The idea of the devil represents “sensation that’s divorced from true understanding”. He brings renewal, because we seldom make any real effort until we experience limitation. It’s only when limitations bother us that we put forth the effort it takes to overcome them through mental use of will, and we act to remove our own chains.

This represents the material elements that bind us to ignorance by controlling our mind to make us “like” them, and we become a beast instead of a divine being that’s wholesome and pure in character. When we live out of the ignorance of our lower, unconscious self, we indulge in physical pleasure without any regard for the consequences it brings, and we bring those consequences upon ourselves as a result, destroying our life, and becoming one with others that are of the same level of consciousness. In order to cultivate higher consciousness we have to overcome our addictions and the temptation to falter in favor of physical pleasures that destroy our virtuous character. This represents “vices” that directly oppose and prevent “virtues”.

Temperance (14), which precedes this one, represents the process of changing our conscious and chemical makeup by letting go of all behaviors born out of purely physical means that takes precedence over us and literally controls us by working through our lower nature. This represents learning how to use our ability to reason, make moral decisions, and use our will in order to neutralize physical impulses, passions, and cravings. As something appeals to our weaknesses and we indulge in them, we recombine our energies with them and they determine us as a result. Whatever we give into out of ignorance or moral weaknesses, we become one with in mind, body, and spirit. All actions require us to become one with an outside force or idea, and we become the “means through which” it expresses as a reality. As we become the expression of that consciousness by becoming one with it, we’re shaped by it accordingly. We have to let go of our weaknesses and transform our addictions in order to transform our lower self to become a clean vessel morally for our Higher Self to naturally inhabit.

This represents creative energy in its most material form. Capricorn occupies the zenith, the most exalted of the signs, and is symbolized by a goat leaping with lust upon the summits of the Earth. Saturn is symbolic of self-hood and perpetuity. It’s the divine madness of spring that has already been foreseen through the meditative madness of winter. His creative energy is veiled with the symbol of the Highest Initiate crowned with a winged globe and twin serpents of Horus and Osiris. Whatever we choose to become one with we use to shape ourselves and our destiny. By learning how to find ecstasy in every phenomenon, no matter how ordinary, we transcend all material limitations.

The devil represents the dumb animal of instinct and impulsiveness. It’s the blind force of instinct that destroys reason and poisons liberty from the lower planes. We alone are responsible for the evil it causes, because it only acts through us. In order to manifest the beast it has to first be allowed to enter into and take form within us, and then be projected outward. In order to create the beast we have to first destroy the man. In Black Magic the devil is the great magical agent employed for evil purposes by a perverted will. It’s the “old serpent” of legend that is the eternal fire of earthly life, the soul of the Earth, and the living center of hell. How we create ourselves by the energies we draw in and use to create ourselves either condemns us to a hell of our own making as the reality born out of our weaknesses and addictions, or it purifies us and promotes our ascension to higher levels of consciousness.

The blind agent of Life energy represented here can be used under different leadership as an instrument for good and evil alike. It’s the minister of angels and prophets and of fairies and sorcerers. It’s the Astral Light of the material plane that has strong magnetic properties, and when evoked and utilized by “reason” are produced harmoniously, but when evoked by madness appear chaotic, disordered, and hideous. It’s the Life force that can be commanded by will and used to create within the material plane in an intelligent and precise manner, and in the opposite manner, it can control us through passions, lust and desire, and utilize our will as the means of creating through and as us.

Dr. Linda Gadbois   

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Self-Empowerment – The Relationship between Choice, Will, and Creation

This idea can seem confusing in terms of being able to actually employ it at the practical level because it involves different functions of different aspects of our own mind working in harmony with each other to produce the same outcome as an experience of reality. We have to understand the nature of our own mind in order to use it in a masterful way to create our reality. All of what we call our “higher capacities” of creation come through learning how our mind works at different stages of the same overall process, and how to not only use it in a deliberate and intentional manner, but also how to “troubleshoot” problems through a process of self-reflection that brings deeper forms of awareness.

All of life exists as a form of “feedback loop” between the inner and outer, and the upper and lower. We’re always working within and interacting with three planes of existence simultaneously as the means of both creating our reality, and then experiencing ourselves as that reality, shaping ourselves accordingly. Our mind is our soul and is not only the aspect of ourselves that’s multidimensional, but also the means and instrument through which we create intentionally to produce experiences of ourselves. When we remain unaware of our “true nature” as a higher, creative being, we experience life as happening “to us” instead of “by us”. We feel we have no real power over what happens and what path our life takes as a result. This is because while we’re associated into the subconscious, we lack the ability to create, just like animals lack the ability to determine their reality which serves to create them instead.

In order to create in an intentional manner, we need to form an understanding of the 3-fold nature of our mind, how each aspect functions in creating a greater whole, and the significance of parallel planes of a higher and lower nature. In order to form a working understanding of something we have to use a model in order to conceptualize it. The model we form in order to “observe something in action” is not the knowledge or idea itself, but rather a demonstration of how spiritual forces serve to create through material systems that are of a complementary and corresponding nature. We have to understand what aspect of our mind plays what role in creating a unified experience of reality. Many errors come from not assigning the proper roles to the different aspects and planes on which they operate.

One of the most basic mistakes we make comes from thinking that our lower, animal subconscious is what possesses “will” and that in order to make something happen we have to produce it through some form of determination and working against what comes as purely natural events. Anytime we’re struggling to try and make something happen contrary to the current conditions and circumstances, we’re working “against” or in contradiction of natural laws. All universal laws correspond to natural laws, and all creation comes through purely natural processes. When we work by way of universal laws to create, everything comes into fruition through a process of synchronized events that seem to come naturally through their own volition. This doesn’t mean that no action on our part is required, but instead reveals the “type” and “nature” of the action required.

Three Aspects of the Mind Working on Two Parallel Planes

The 3-fold principle of the mind/soul is illustrated in Sacred Geometry by the Triad as a triangle or pyramid. This diagram illustrates how our mind operates harmoniously between two fundamental planes of existence, often referred to as the “higher and lower plane” of the same reality which acts to unify them into a single reality. If we draw a horizontal line about 3/4 of the way up the triangle, we form the “capstone” of the pyramid as the higher plane and the mind of that plane which exists in a unified (single) state. As the “one mind” descends into the lower plane, it separates from itself, dividing and regenerating itself to form two aspects of itself as polar opposites that are complementary in nature and necessary in order to create an “experience of itself” as another.

Duality is required in order to produce the “appearance” of a self and another, an inner and outer, and as the means of acquiring “knowledge” of yourself which only comes through experience. The Astral Plane represents the plane of “knowledge” that’s only acquired through experience. We descend into a body that’s located within time and in a specific set of conditions and circumstances, forming an inner self and outer world necessary in order to “experience” ourselves “as” certain qualities expressed through a specific personality. This law is represented by the primary Law of the Monad, which is represented as a dot within a sphere. The dot is concentrated energy that produces the appearance of an outer reality as a holographic projection or emanation.

All material manifestation is comprised of “light” as photons which exist simultaneously as “both” a particle and wave. Our entire outer reality is a projection of our own mind on a higher level, and is contained fully within our higher mind as a “mental construct”. What we refer to as the “mind” is the “organizing principle” that “charges” matter of the material plane with a “frequency” that has both a pattern and self-organizing mechanism inherent in it that acts to organize light into “coherent fields of consciousness” as a harmonious unification of polar energies.

The mind operates through a hierarchical structure as ordered planes of existence that vary in density as different frequencies that vibrate at different rates and modes, similar to a musical scale of octaves. The Human soul of the higher mind exists on a “higher” plane than the lower mind of the material body, and is the aspect that orders, organizes and animates the entire lower one, forming a “singularity”. It oversees and orchestrates all the activities of the “entire” lower plane, and is the aspect that causes new formations on the material plane through an act of “will”. All of what we call “willpower” as the ability to “create” is conducted by our self on a higher plane and comes by way of the “whole reality” through a natural sequence of correlated events. It brings change as a harmonious movement of the entire material reality by introducing new ideas into the subconscious of our own lower mind that’s also shared with all of humanity and the Natural world of the Earth’s plane. What we call “oneness” of the material world is due to the fact that we all share the same “group mind” of the subconscious.

Within the material plane of formation, the subconscious is the aspect that produces a material manifestation out of “ideas” that it’s given by the higher mind. The subconscious is the feminine aspect of the mind that conceives of the ideas projected into it by the masculine aspect, and gestates it through a process that adapts it harmoniously with the current conditions and circumstances and births it as a material manifestation. As an idea is formed internally and magnetized with sensation and emotion, it forms into a pattern used for organizing the outer sphere of reality to be of the same idea and produces a certain “type” of experience as a metaphorical correspondence of that idea.

As the unified mind of the upper, causal plane divides itself in order to regenerate in the lower plane, it still exists in a polar state of equilibrium, and comes into the material body as the subconscious pregnant with the self-conscious, which it births through a process of adaptation, growth, and development. The self-conscious aspect of the mind is latent within the subconscious as its potential for self-creation within the body. In our initial state as a child only our subconscious is active and creating and we develop naturally as a part of our family and immediate environment. We’re born into an unconscious state where we lack all awareness of our true self which is what’s creating our entire material reality as an experience of ourselves within a certain matrix of dynamic relationships. The self-conscious is birthed spontaneously as a growth process where we “come into ourselves” and begin forming our identity as we mature and become an adult.

It’s the feminine aspect of our subconscious that’s a part of the Earth’s Soul of material reality and is the aspect of ourselves that “manifests” an idea as an outer experience of reality. While the subconscious is the powerhouse of the material plane and organizes our outer reality to be metaphorically the same as our inner reality, it lacks the inherent ability to think rationally, make decisions, and intentionally “seed itself” with a “new idea” to create as a reality. It births the rational self-conscious aspect as its own masculine counterpart that has the ability to reason, analyze, and make decisions based on its own calculations. The masculine, self-conscious mind has the ability to “seed” its own feminine aspect with its decisions, but it’s often almost completely unaware of how to do it. The subconscious only “takes in” and manifests the ideas given to it by the self-conscious which it then communicates to the higher mind.

 Our self-conscious, which is the self-aware aspect that perceives the outer creation of our subconscious, draws all its ideas as thoughts from within the group mind of the collective unconscious and forms most all of our “thoughts” from whatever we’ve been taught, and acts out whatever “relationship dynamics” we’ve been conditioned to in an automatic fashion. Most of our thoughts come automatically and are formed out of memories of some kind. When we rely on this aspect of our conscious mind, we simply create by seeding our subconscious over and over with memories of the past, and we use our creative power to create more of the past in the present.

Our self-conscious perceives the outer world created by our own subconscious and creates experiences of ourselves through the reality of our own making. This aspect, which is birthed fully within the physical body and experiences itself as the “personality” of the body, doesn’t realize that it’s also an aspect of a higher mind and is bestowed with the ability to create itself and its reality in whatever way it wants, and instead usually lives out its entire life from within a primarily unconscious state. This aspect of the mind gains “realization” of its own creation as the outer correspondence to its own inner thoughts and has the ability to make “new decisions” about how it wants to experience itself. As we gain new realizations about ourselves through our self-created experiences, they serve the purpose of making us self-aware and we can learn how to modify them through the active decision to work with our own thoughts.

Both masculine aspects of the same mind require the feminine aspect they share in order to actively create in new ways. The active requires the equivalent passive component to act as a “receiver”. The subconscious is the “medium” through which the active components of the upper and lower mind communicate with one another. As we make a new decision for what we want to actively create and experience, we shape that idea into a possible reality in our imagination (womb), where it’s communicated to the higher mind of Will. As the higher mind receives the sensory image as a “metaphor” for creating, it then injects that idea into the subconscious of the Earth’s plane, where it’s organized into a sequence of correlated events that bring it about naturally as an inherent part of our outer reality. But when it begins formulating as a corresponding part of our outer reality we have to recognize it as such, and make more decisions to “act on it”. As the ideas that we “request” through decisions begin formulating we have to resist the habitual tendency to discount them or blow them off as not being what we wanted and enter into a metaphorical relationship with them by actively engaging in their continued creation.

In a similar fashion, our higher mind is always injecting archetypal ideas into our subconscious as a means of administering karma as universal justice. These come as mental impressions that form inner visions of a particular type of experience that don’t come from memories obtained in this lifetime. When visions come as an inner voice out of nowhere, where nothing externally served to produce it, we’re given insight into what’s coming so we can prepare for it. These events seem to come outside of or in spite of our conscious decisions sometimes, because they’re providing us with the flip-side of our own actions from a previous time and life. This allows us to realize that what we perceive as another is actually our “self” as an expanded version. Our perception of others and reality is actually an extension of our self as we exist on a higher level of unity. We’re always acting “on ourselves” through our perception of our self as another.

There’s only One of Us

As we begin realizing this, we start waking up to the true nature of things and begin creating in a more responsible and compassionate way. Whatever we “do to another” we’re actually doing to ourselves on a higher level. In a unified state all creation comes as “patterns” produced through a “cause and effect relationship” where we play every role in creating a “holistic experience of our Self”. Our entire outer reality is produced as a correspondence to our inner reality. Everything that we do in the outer world through activity of some kind, we first do inwardly by thinking about it and running the consequences it’ll produce through our mind, making a decision of some kind regarding it. When we act in a compulsive and automatic way without thinking, we’re then provided with the “realization” of what we created while in an unconscious state through the choices and actions we took. This provides us with feedback that allows us to modify our process until we produce the results we intended to.

By reflecting on our life and grasping the full ramifications of the “cause and effect relationship” between being and doing, we can begin making the adjustments necessary to create in a more conscious and purposeful way. Once we begin realizing that no one is actually doing anything “to us”, but are simply stimulating us in a way that causes us to do it to ourselves, first as our thoughts and emotions, and then as our outward actions, we can begin seeing and realizing that we are the ones who are in fact creating our life to be the way it is, and we can make new decisions for ourselves that we administer by how we seed our own imagination. We can begin learning how to create from a self-aware and awake state. As we begin realizing that our outer world is comprised of our own psychological aspects, most of which we’re unaware of, we can gain tremendous insights into our own psyche and unhealed aspects of ourselves, and act on ourselves in a precise and deliberate manner to correct our own errors.

 Once we understand the dynamic nature of our own mind and how we create experiences of ourselves, we’re provided with the tools as universal laws for turning an unconscious process into a conscious and fully self-aware process of creation. As we gain self-realization through the outer mirror of our own inner mind, we learn the lesson it provides, and we begin developing our ability to use our mind in a much more proficient and deliberate way. We can use all of our experiences to become aware of our unconscious tendencies, and bring them into a harmonious state as a result. Through self-realization of our outer awareness as a mirror of our inner self, we can become conscious creators of our own life journey. We can learn how to utilize every aspect of our mind to produce a unified whole as the harmonious synchronization of all aspects of ourselves. As we wake up to our true self and creative abilities, we enter into our higher consciousness and perceive reality as a whole conducted from a higher plane of “true” self-awareness and realization.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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Personal Existence and the Relationship between the Subconscious and Self-Conscious Mind

What we refer to as our personal (bodily) existence comes through our ability to perceive ourselves as a “whole reality”, rather than a fragmented part of an even greater reality that exists independent of us. Our perception of reality is formed as a manifestation of the relationship between the subconscious and self-conscious aspects of our mind. All things within the manifest world are produced and maintained through polar aspects of the same mind, both of which function as a “whole” in order to produce what we experience as both our body and the outer reality in which our body lives and grows. Both of these aspects of our mind exist as “modes” of universal consciousness necessary in order to create experience. We can only acquire “knowledge of our self” by way of our own self-created experiences.

Our material reality is produced by the even larger planetary mind of the Earth’s soul as Nature and the subconscious that’s inherent in all living things. What we refer to as the subconscious is a “field of universal intelligence”, also known as instinct, that all life on Earth draws on in order to function as a unified whole. We are born into the subconscious of the Earth’s plane as the means of manifesting in physical form in order to experience our self and create ourselves through the nature of our experiences. What we form as our “personality” on the material plane has no actual separate existence from all of humanity while in the material plane because we all share the same subconscious mind and act cooperatively to produce as a collaboration. What we refer to as the “mind” is an invisible field of encoded information that naturally acts to give rise to an entire Eco-system as a consistent and congruent version of reality.

Our subconscious is an aspect of the Earth’s “collective unconscious” and is what informs and gives life to all of Nature and what we traditionally call our “lower self” or “animal soul” of pure instinct. Our subconscious as our lower self is driven primarily by emotions, passions, and impulses, as a form of instinct. When we live out of a primarily unconscious state, we’re shaped by a constant form of emotional reactions that come in an automatic fashion and don’t require thought and reasoning as a decision making process that’s acted out in a self-aware fashion by active use of will. While we can tend to think that our “self-aware” mind “is” our higher, conscious mind, the fact is it’s a fundamental part of our subconscious that’s birthed fully within the physical body of the material plane. The entire lower plane of material manifestation is “of” the subconscious which acts to birth the self-conscious aspect of the same mind through a growth process that moves us from an experience of unity to one of perceived separation.

The self-conscious aspect of the material mind (the one most think of when using the term “mind”), forms our outer awareness of reality and of our “self” as an inherent part of that reality. This is the aspect of our mind that that only knows itself “as” (or through) our body. As we form an experience of our “self” as a “body and personality”, we “identify” with our own experiences. As we experience our self through our material existence and come to know ourselves as the personality of our body, we create a form of false identity, that’s commonly referred to as the ego. This is a false identity as an illusion or “false image” of ourselves, and is what causes us to perceive ourselves as a mortal being that “dies” with the body. Due to the fact that this temporary existence ends with the death of our body, we become fearful of dying.

While our soul is within the Earth’s plane all “self-awareness” comes as an awareness of our body and the outer reality produced by the collective unconscious of the Astral Plane (Earth’s atmosphere). We all exist within the consciousness of the Earth’s Soul (collective memory as a unified field of information that all life draws on in order to exist) of Astral (star) Light. What we refer to as the “mind” is synonymous with the soul, and is what acts to form a reality that functions as a “whole idea” with different aspects playing specialized roles in creating the same thing. What we experience as our “outer reality” is a hologram formed internally at the unconscious (collective) level that’s projected outward as a lens we look through that sorts and organizes all the information available in the astral field to form a reality that’s somewhat unique to us. While submerged in the collective unconscious we perceive the outer reality as being separate and independent of us, when the fact is it’s being created by us at the unconscious level. Material reality (made up of a matrix of organized light) is contained fully within the subconscious of the group mind as a self-perpetuating, self-regulating, and self-sustaining system.

Higher Consciousness

All reality exists through a dynamic interweaving of multiple planes and levels of vibratory densities that coalesce to form a unified experience of ourselves as a reality. All reality as we’re capable of knowing it exists within us as a mental construct produced, held in place, and orchestrated by our higher, creative mind. The higher plane of pure consciousness oversees this one and consists of ideas (archetypes) in their potential state. Our Soul is what acts as a medium that draws ideas down from the higher plane through a form of sympathetic resonance, and adapts them to the existing reality as a means of modifying and evolving it into a new stage of development. The Soul is the medium that exists between the upper, universal plane of potential, and the lower plane of manifestation. The process used for taking an idea in it’s potential state as a kind of prototype, and modifying it to produce a personalized version, is laid out for us through universal laws and principles that serve to provide us with a form of instruction for how to use our own mind in a much more empowering way.

In the most basic sense, the entire universe is mathematical in nature and acts to create and sustain all life through laws and principles that form a dynamic creative process. Our mind as our soul works by way of these same laws as the means for creating itself as a whole reality. All ideas originate from universal archetypes that contain everything that’s needed to produce that idea as a “whole reality” and lays the foundation necessary for creating as a certain “type” of experience. As we draw an idea into our mind we begin developing it in our imagination by how we define it using sensory details. We integrate that idea into our existing creation by reshaping it to be congruent and harmonious with our everyday life. Once adapted to our existing mental model, we create a series of mental filters that adjust our perceptual lens that we “look through” in order to perceive as a reality. Once an idea is incorporated in a logical and intuitive manner it becomes a natural part of our outer world.

We use our mental model as a holographic blueprint for interpreting the events of our life to give them meaning. The meaning we give things shapes how we experience them through the story we tell ourselves about them. Our story about things formed out of the meaning we give them, is what creates our reality in a consistent and intuitive way. What we refer to as our “Higher Self” is the creative aspect of our mind and soul as a mental paradigm or seed formed out of accumulated memory that projects into the lower plane forming our “lower self”. It remains fully present within the higher or middle plane, and as it descends into the material planes of manifestation, divides itself into polar aspects which are necessary to create itself as both a self and other, and as a inner self within an outer reality, both of which are formed out of the same essence and pattern. Duality is a necessary foundation for creating experience. We can only “know” something through an experience of it that brings realization. Knowledge of ourselves as something or someone specific only comes through how we “experience” ourselves within a certain type of story-line. We first produce our reality as an ongoing story we’re always in the process of telling ourselves, shaping the events of our life into a specific type of experience. We then absorb our self-made experiences and form them into “memories” of our self. Our soul is comprised of memory formed out of its own creations.

The personality of our body is formed out of the accumulated experiences produced by and then acquired through a subconscious existence on the lower plane of illusion. While in a manifest state of existence we naturally perceive ourselves as being our body, and believe our personality is “who we are” as a higher, cosmic soul. This “image” we form of ourselves is produced by a form of soul-amnesia as mistaken identity, commonly referred to as our ego or false self. Just as our self-conscious and subconscious are “extensions” of each other, they’re both an extension of our Higher Self and Mind. The self-conscious mind is formed as the culmination of mental activities originating in cosmic memory. Just as we draw on a field of intelligent powers within the material plane through intuition, which is similar to instinct, where our perceptions and behaviors are driven by emotional impulses that replace intentional decisions, we can also use our subconscious as a receptor for drawing on the higher plane of archetypal ideas that allow us to create outside of the group mind in an original and individual manner. Our subconscious is the means through which our Higher Self introduces ideas that are developed into visions for creating in our imagination.

As we change our perception from a personal perspective to a more universal one, our personal consciousness (ego) is obliterated through a higher realization. When we begin realizing that our entire reality is being created by our subconscious mind as a means of creating experiences of ourselves that can be utilized to facilitate our own conscious evolution, we begin seeing all of reality as a reflection of inner aspects of our own psyche that normally remain hidden and unknown to us. Transformation takes place in the phase of conscious awareness when the “pairs of opposites” that create the illusion of separation are blended harmoniously and thereby “neutralized” as a single awareness that’s comprised of all elements of both the inner and outer perception of reality. This principle is demonstrated by the fact that all complementary colors when mixed together are neutralized as various shades of grey.

The Trinity and the Law of the Triad

There are several models that are commonly used to illustrate the law operating in the Triad as the threefold nature of the mind and soul, and the reality they produce. Most of these ideas are illustrated using the concept of a man (husband), woman (wife), and child (combination), a person with three heads or faces, and a guardian angel (divine being) governing and watching over a couple as a man and woman who are lovers. The male image represents the self-conscious aspect of outer-awareness, the female represents the subconscious aspect of the inner awareness, and the child as the regenerated personality that forms a new and unique whole as a combination of both. The symbol of a triangle and it’s points illustrate the orientation of the three aspects of the mind within two planes or levels of existence that are actually different parts of the same thing, with the higher mind forming the peak and the two lower minds the foundation as the rays of the higher. The Higher-Self is the Divine Breath or cosmic fire that directs the creation of the lower plane by “seeding” and impregnating the subconscious (of both the individual and group mind) with an idea as a metaphor that’s self-perpetuating.

What’s referred to as the 4 Elements of Esoteric Sciences represent “modes of consciousness” that all work together to produce the Astral Body as the spatial blueprint (hologram) of material reality. Light comes from the Sun as electrified plasma that enters into matter, which is magnetic and organizes it into a coherent field as a vapor or mist. The action of heat on water causes the water to evaporate and become air, the moist substance of breath. As water is heated it’s molecules become excited and it begins vibrating at a faster rate and transforms into an invisible mist. As it rises upward it forms humidity as oxygen, and accumulates into cloud formations on a higher region of the same plane. This symbolizes the higher will’s ability to organize the particles of matter into distinct patterns based on how its charged with a vibratory frequency as a pattern that’s self-assembling. Breath is specialized in sound as an inner voice that becomes the basis for outer speech, both of which issue forth from thought as an idea. Sound, like light, is 7-fold in nature as 7 tones that naturally vibrate the 7 colors of the rainbow, which “reveals” the hidden nature of light that normally remains invisible to us (to our physical senses). Sound as an instrument of creation (vibration) is commonly represented by an angel blowing a trumpet, which is an instrument that uses sound vibration to “construct” (assimilate), to “shatter” (destroy) and to “levitate” (transcend).

Sound as an inner voice is how our Higher Self communicates with us and is translated into sensory form as thought, which is turned into pictures within our imagination and lays the foundation for all of our actions.  As we “conceive” the message as an “idea in seed form” (archetype) from our Higher Self, which often comes as a form of inspiration or through dreams, it provides us with a new pattern as a pathway that ultimately liberates us from the illusion of separation. Not separation from others within our reality, but from the higher aspect of our mind that’s acting to produce the entire reality in which we’re submerged as an unconscious aspect of our own creation. In a like manner, our subconscious will also take in the verbal suggestions or thoughts from other people within the material plane and use them to construct a personal reality of the same kind. When we lose contact with our Higher Self or never establish an intimate connection with our true source of power, we simply use the ideas of other people as a form of hypnotic suggestion and lend our will to cooperatively participate in co-creating their reality while mistaking it for our own.

The 7 tones that comprise the musical scale are harmoniously organized into a composition that produces a corresponding effect in the 7 stars (chakras) of our etheric body by calibrating their vibration through sympathetic resonance. Sound “organizes light into patterns” as internal images that invoke an equivalent emotional response. Emotions are the motivating force of the subconscious and form the universal pattern into a unique variation by how it’s adapted to the current situation and conditions. It introduces a “new idea” that acts to influence our existing model into a new configuration as a variation. It forms first internally as a metaphorical image in the imagination, which provides the subconscious of not only the individual but also the group mind in which the individual is a part with a directive for creating externally as a correspondence where it can be “witnessed” by the self-conscious as an “experience” of itself. We first project our reality as an expansion of our inner thoughts and imaginings, and then we absorb it through the experience it creates. While we tend to view the masculine and feminine aspects of something as opposites that contradict each other through opposing natures and functions, they are actually the same thing that both expands and contracts simultaneously as a means of producing the outer as a shadow of the inner.

Material reality is symbolized by a square which has 4 lines composed of “right angles” to each other. When turned at a 90 degree angle, it forms a diamond shape, which represents the Tetrad (4) that is birthed as a reflection of the Triad (3) through the Vesica Pisces (Dyad), which is also called the “womb of the universe”.  The Triad represents the 3-fold nature of the mind, and the Tetrad represents material reality which comes as a direct reflection and downward projection of the mind. When the Dyad is orientated vertically from upper to lower instead of side-by-side in a horizontal movement, it represents the mind being given an idea as a mental impression from the higher plane in the form of a “seed”. As the seed gestates it’s developed through prolonged concentration into a modified version that can easily be incorporated congruently into the existing reality in a way that makes sense as a natural progression. This idea is represented by an equal armed cross formed by 2 diametrically opposing lines that form 2 pairs of right angles. A square can be divided into 9 equal squares (3 aspects each with a 3-fold nature) that form a cross in the center using 5 of the squares. 9 = completion of an ideal, and 5 = adaptation as a modification that produces a variable, and 4 = material reality that’s comprised of both visible and invisible parts of the same thing.

5th Dimension of the Astral Plane

On the Astral Plane of the 5th dimension, all things are the reverse or polar opposite of the physical conditions of the 4th plane. Polarity is used as the basis for communicating between planes. The subconscious of the lower plane can only be utilized by the conscious mind of the upper plane when the self-conscious of the same lower plane isn’t actively directing the subconscious with thoughts of a passionate nature. On the material plane the self-conscious is made passive in order for the subconscious to be free to receive the influences from the Higher Self. The Higher Self can’t communicate directly with the self-conscious mind of the material plane because it’s “active” and and therefore can’t act as a receiver. It’s only by reversing polarity and making the self-conscious “thinking” mind silent, and therefore passive, that we can receive thoughts from the active aspect of our Higher Self on the higher plane of the super-conscious. This is why most communication only takes place through dreams and while in meditative states.

This process of reversed polarity of the two material minds allows the subconscious to be impregnated with a “new idea” as a projection from our higher consciousness. All ideas from the 5th dimension exist in their “potential state” and are self-perpetuating. They work to form the reality that’s ideal for evolving the personality of the body in the most beneficial way possible. A new idea being birthed as a reality is represented by the “child” as the offspring produced by a new combination of qualities and complementary patterns. When we allow ourselves to be guided by our higher consciousness, which is universal in nature and acts to create our entire reality on the lower plane, we evolve ourselves to a higher state of true self-awareness as a higher, divine being. This is illustrated through the idea of returning to a child-like state of innocence, before we were conditioned by others and society, where our personality is regenerated through an injection of universal consciousness that comes from a higher plane that’s overseeing and creating the entire lower plane.

The Perpetual Intelligence of our Higher Self

Our Higher Self plants an archetypal idea as a metaphorical theme in our mind that’s self-organizing. Any idea translated into a sensory reality in the imagination vibrates at the frequency of the idea as a metaphorical pattern. A vibratory pattern, like all living systems, is 3-fold in nature, and not only has the pattern as a metaphorical template inherent in it, but also a self-assembling mechanism that organizes light into the “reality” of the idea. It undergoes a process of adaptation that specializes it into a unique variation by growing it “in” our personality in its current state and level of development. It introduces an idea that serves as the means for evolving us to a higher level of self-awareness through the experiences created as an expanded form of self-expression. We only evolve based on our ability to create in unique ways. All transformation comes as a process of growth and development that’s naturally facilitated through our ability to incorporate new ideas by building them into our perception of reality.  

A universal archetype as a metaphorical idea forms into a unique pattern through a growth and development process, much like a seed that’s planted in fertile soil grows by being nourished by the warmth and energy of the sun (symbol of our Higher Self). It works through resonance as sympathetic induction to organize the reality of the idea as a specialized variation that brings a new kind of experience that provides us with a new awareness of ourselves. We “create ourselves” by creating the reality we use as the means of experiencing ourselves.  As we receive instruction from our Higher Self as a unique pattern for creating as a reality, it grows us through the experiences it produces and the realizations that come as a natural outgrowth. We only “grow” through the incorporation of new ideas that become a part of our reality and form how we experience our self in relationship with that reality. They cause us to stretch and move beyond the normal limits set in place by our formative conditioning.

The Self-Perpetuating action of the Mind

There’s two basic ways we act to “draw in ideas” with our material mind. Our material mind consists of the two lower aspects of our bodily consciousness in which the self-conscious is an outgrowth or offspring of our subconscious mind and serves to “witness” the reality created by our subconscious. Our subconscious is the feminine aspect of our mind that’s passive, receptive, and acts to create our entire material reality, first by gestating an idea in the womb of the imagination as a holographic form that’s magnetized with sensation, causing it to vibrate at the frequency of the archetypal form. Then, once it’s formed into a detailed internal reality through a process of adaptation, it begins vibrating at the complementary frequency necessary for assembling the elements of the outer world of the group mind into the same thematic idea (holographic principle of creation) on a larger scale. Our thoughts are perceived as transparent scenarios projected onto an invisible screen or lens that we then “look through” as the means of seeing the same idea all around us as a coherent reality. The mind creates through fractal patterns that manifest on different scales and levels simultaneously.

We’re always either drawing ideas as information out of the atmosphere around us (horizontal plane) formed by the group mind of “created ideas”, or we absorb them from the higher plane of archetypal ideas and use them as the means of creating in a unique and innovative manner. We either run the same thoughts through our mind in a redundant and habitual manner, usually acquired through our conditioning and what we’ve been taught as the ideas of others, or we tune into the plane of our Higher Self, silence our habitual rambling thoughts, become fully present in direct experience, and allow thoughts to be spontaneously interjected into our mind from a neutral and universal perspective that are non-personal in nature. This means they aren’t generated by our habitual mind as a means of replaying memories of the past in order to use those same type of ideas to create in the present. All “ideas” are symbolic metaphors that are thematic in nature, which is what allows them to be used over and over to produce new variations based on how they’re adapted to new situations.

We have to silence our conditioned mind in order to become a vessel for our higher mind to consciously inhabit and create through. As we begin experiencing ourselves through the intelligence and awareness of our higher mind, we begin experiencing ourselves in new and more profound ways. As we create new experiences we identify with those experiences, and evolve ourselves accordingly. We only retain subconsciously what we become a part of as an experience that unites the inner with the outer, and ultimately the upper with the lower. Once we step into the reality of ourselves as our divine nature we become multidimensional beings that exist fully within a higher level of consciousness. We no longer perceive separation and realize through direct experience that there’s really only one of us. This experience of ourselves is expressed in the Hermetic axiom, “as above so below, and as within so without, in the wondrous workings of the One Thing.” And what Jesus was referring to when he said “when the outer becomes the same as the inner, and the inner becomes the same as the outer, you’ll have entered the kingdom of heaven”.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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Humility, Shedding the False Ego, and the True Path of Liberation

There always seems to be a strange kind of reality around ideas that exist as a form of paradox that breeds constant illusions as misunderstandings produced through incorrect interpretations. What’s commonly referred to as “shedding our ego”, or experiences that come as the “death” of the ego, can seem very misleading and often set us off on the wrong path, because they start off with an incorrect idea, and so all that comes from it is an expression of that same error. As higher spiritual beings with the power to self-create, we shape ourselves by whatever it is we “identify” with. Our identity, unlike our personality, is what gives us the potential for becoming “unique individuals” through conscious use of our higher capacities of self-realization, choice, and will.

The term ego and identity are synonymous and can be used interchangeably to describe the same principle. The only question becomes what it is that we use as the means for creating ourselves. When we shape our sense of self based on possessions, social standing, roles, relationships, physical appearance, job, and so on, we create ourselves out of a temporary, illusion oriented idea as what we call the “false ego” or false identity. When we create a false image of ourselves, we condemn ourselves to a mortal life that “dies” with the body and the social situation it was dependent on. If we use our material circumstances and the roles we play in order to know who we are, then we condemn our eternal soul to the confinement and limitations of the body and our soul becomes its servant.

Death of the False Ego

The “experience” of what we call the “death of the false ego” however, is a “life shattering” experience that’s very painful to endure and difficult to utilize for its liberating effects. When we not only lose our life-situation and social standing that we built our identity out of, but also our very means of security, it can cast us into a very dark place of unimaginable grief and hopelessness, often referred to as the “dark night of the soul”. As we fall into what seems like a bottomless pit of our own creation, a true transformation takes place, and it either does us in and we succumb to a new illusion of defeat that we build about ourselves in place of the old one, or we learn how to access a higher aspect of our self that we then use as the means for transforming ourselves. We either die in the flames of our own dissolution, never to rise again, or we rise from the ashes an entirely new being.

My Own Experience of Humility and Transformation

Even though I was born into a very impoverished situation as one of five children raised by a single mom on welfare, not having things was normal to me and I never used material things as the means of creating an image of myself. Instead I used my talents, intellect, special abilities, and willpower to succeed. Losing things never really affected me much because I didn’t have things to begin with. I was used to going without and only having what I barely needed in order to survive. I did however build an image of myself as being poor and impoverished and therefore inferior in some way, and knew I had to work extra hard in order to build a better life for myself than I was raised with.

As I went through life, I had constant life situations that required me to put everything I had at risk in order to “be there” for those I loved and who needed me. I incurred and dealt with many challenging situations where I lost everything I owned that was of any value, and I had to file bankruptcy on astronomical medical bills at a very young age. This only had a minimal effect on me at the time because I didn’t place much value on material things and knew I could make it without them. I had developed confidence in myself to be able to rebuild whatever was lost. When I was making decisions as to what I was going to do, I was very clear on what mattered and what didn’t, and so decisions came relatively easy for me.

As I went through life I was very successful in my career, became an Entrepreneur in my twenties, and built very prosperous businesses on several occasions. In my forties I helped build a business that became worth several million dollars, and was traveling the world as a consultant, workshop leader, and public speaker. I provided consulting services and professional training to other Entrepreneurs while deciding to return to college to earn my doctorate. As a result of my education, I then began providing professional training for applied psychology and Healing Arts. I was given an honorary award as a “world leader in integrative psychology and Mind-Body Medicine”, and published many scientific papers in several professional journals. I was also very far into my spiritual development, and when faced with the idea of whether or not I had an inflated ego, I honestly felt I didn’t because I had a fairly detached perspective on things and was able to see the true nature of things clearly from a highly objective perspective. I had no need to be in the limelight and often put out work without the need for any form of recognition.

As I built what became a very lucrative business (medical center), I was involved in a relationship that caused me to start feeling disillusioned with my life and the ethical nature of the business world. I was living an extremely stressful and face-paced life that resulted in adrenal exhaustion and anxiety attacks that made me feel like I was having heart problems. My partner was also extremely stressed out and his behavior started reflecting it with increased severity that became very destructive and demeaning. He threw what I referred to as “temper tantrums” that would frequently turn over several staff members in one episode. After a while I even had trouble hiring doctors because no one would work with him. I felt as though I was constantly caught up in a form of “damage control” and trying to fix whatever he destroyed. Once I fulfilled what I considered my professional obligation to the situation, I decided to leave. By leaving the relationship, I also left the business, and lost a large part of my livelihood. But I had established a fairly lucrative consulting practice so it didn’t seem to matter.

As I was adjusting to my new situation while still having a couple of years of school left, I started having a kind of foreboding feeling as though something heavy and dark was coming. I had a very strong desire to move to Kauai where I owned a vacation home, but felt tied down with far too many material possessions. I then started forming a desire to de-materialize by sorting out what was important and meaningful and what wasn’t. At the same time I was becoming spiritually aware of my “true goal” in life, which was to transcend this plane altogether at death. I knew that in order to do this I had to detach mentally and emotionally from the material world itself while also resolving all the karma I still had with others that bonded me to them energetically. It seemed as though every time I formed a realization around something that led to making a “sincere decision”, that decision began facilitating the events of my life as the means of fulfilling it. I didn’t have to make all the little decisions or figure out how to do it, all I had to do was form the decision as a spiritual commitment, and the process was set in motion that seemed to be happening automatically while beyond my ability to control it.

Shortly after this, the financial crisis of 2008 hit and within a relatively short period of time I lost nearly all of my investments, savings, and retirement. My most loyal consulting clients were also devastated financially, and my thriving practice began dwindling. I lost my home in the mountains and had to move back to the city and try to find work after being an Entrepreneur for over 25 years. I worked providing consulting services on a contract basis, and was engaged in a seven month project that I was never paid for because the company ended up filing bankruptcy. My consulting business continued to dissolve and as I tried to get a job nothing came through. No matter what I tried, nothing worked, and I began consistently selling off and losing most of my belongings. My vehicle was leased through my company, and it was eventually repossessed. As I was experiencing complete financial loss, I had 4 months of school left and I committed to making sure I completed what at that time was my PhD.

As I was writing the hypothesis for my thesis, I wanted to write about “Personal Transformation that came by Choice and not as a Crisis”. I wanted to write about it from within the “experience” of it rather than a clinical study. The very foundation of Spiritual Sciences is based on the fact that we only truly learn, and thereby “know” something through “experience”. It’s only through experience that knowledge is integrated into our paradigm, upgrading and evolving it as a result. But the peer review group wouldn’t allow me to do it that way and insisted that it be written as a form of “research” instead. It was so important to me to remain true to the “science” of acquiring the knowledge through direct experience that I decided to forfeit the PhD. program and simply complete my doctorate instead. But the “commitment and importance” of writing about it from “within the actual experience of it” in order to capture the human drama of it remained with me and continued to shape the events of my life accordingly as if it was beyond my control to change it.

As I concentrated in order to finish up the last few classes, I started getting a vision as a pervading thought of living in my van (I had bought for my mother). I’m very aware of the creative power of thought as visualizations, yet this was coming as an idea that I wasn’t generating consciously, but was being “given” to my subconscious as a form of prophecy. As I finished school and accomplished my doctorate and was “patting myself on the back”, relieved in my achievement, this solemn voice inside calmly said . . . “now that you have the theory down, let’s practice” . . . and I knew from that moment on that I was in for the ride of my life, and I tried to mentally prepare myself for what I knew was coming.

I continued to steadily lose my possessions, not being able to get work, and struggling in the most basic sense. Every time I tried to figure things out by attempting to grab onto and bring back to life the only security I had known by recreating my old situation in a new way, simply didn’t work. The people who knew me as my professional persona quit talking to me because I was no longer “successful”, and all opportunities seemed to fade away. My friends quit calling and inviting me places, and I slowly became alone and isolated. My family took an attitude of almost enjoying seeing me “fall from grace” because they were jealous of my achievements and saw me as “thinking I was somehow better than them”. They began making constant comments about how I finally got to see what it was like for the rest of them, not seeming to acknowledge that I had come from the same place they did. I was told that I was going to have to learn how to “stoop” and maybe get a job at Starbucks or Walmart. I didn’t have anyone to stay with and literally ended up all alone sleeping in my van along a dark deserted street.

The Realization that Brought an Awakening

I can’t even describe the pain I felt in realizing that everything I had built my life around was an illusion. When I saw the true nature of people I thought I knew, I felt overwhelmed with disgust at how selfish, small, and pathetic they seemed. They somehow made me out to be a lazy low-life that was expecting “hand-outs”. I was shocked and dismayed in light of all the things I had been able to accomplish in my life up to that point, and that’s when I finally realized the true meaning of what the “false ego” really is. The “image” I had built of myself based on worldly accomplishments that won me recognition and the admiration of others, and my ability to build wealth out of nothing and work my way into high positions with total confidence, was how I was “shaping” my perception of myself as the kind of person I was. This false idea I had built about myself only attracted those who were of the same false image. My life had been built around a total illusion of my own making that was so convincing that I even deceived myself, because in the experience of my own demise, I realized I didn’t even know for sure who I really was. My belief in the image I had built of myself became my own undoing.

As I went through a long period of total despair, I felt like I was a fool and had even been abandoned by God. This was extremely amplified by the fact that I was also in the process of going blind. I had been diagnosed with macular degeneration at the age of 40, and it was now reaching a point of crisis where functioning in the most normal sense was becoming increasingly difficult. This greatly accelerated my feelings of despair and being all alone in the world and not knowing why this was happening to me. What had I ever done to “deserve” this? My life didn’t seem to have any purpose, and as I lost my most basic resources, I felt as though I didn’t even matter anymore. After all the work I had been through to build a good life I was going to end up poor, blind, and all alone in life. Kicked to the curb and left to suffer as I slowly diminished. Every night as I laid down to sleep I prayed for death. All I wanted was to end my suffering and fade silently into the abyss. Without purpose my life had no meaning.

Realizing Who I Am

Throughout my life I’ve always been a compulsive writer and have always processed my life experiences and how I was feeling by writing about them. One of my most prevalent tendencies in life has always been to study subjects in-depth, forming a clear understanding of them, and then write about them. I’ve been creating books and journals for as long as I can remember. As an artist early in life, it wasn’t a love for painting or writing that compelled me to create, but the desire to capture a feeling as a realization and express it in a way that gave the viewer or reader the same feeling and realization. Once the overwhelming grief and intense feelings of loss and disillusionment began slowly subsiding, it suddenly dawned on me that what was happening in its wake was that I was starting to reconnect with my true self.

There was a part of me that remained alive all these years and I continued to do as what I considered my true life’s work. I came into the world with talents, natural desires, and tendencies that formed the basis for all my material accomplishments. Through everything that I had lost (which was a great deal) I had managed to keep what was not only important to me, but that was truly “mine”; my paintings, art supplies, and a good part of my writings and books. These were the same things I engaged in naturally as a child and young adult, and were the core of my being. These parts of me never went away and couldn’t be lost or taken away from me by an outside force. As I was all alone in life, I was still studying, writing, and painting.

As I began reorganizing my life from a new perspective and exhausted the feelings of grief and moral despair, I realized that I had got my wish. I realized from a strangely clear perspective that I had undergone the experience of transformation as a decision I had made for myself, that was then carried out and conducted by my higher-self. What I realized as a flaw in my hypothesis is that true transformation is experienced “as” a crisis. It comes as a crisis in identity where all of the illusions of my life either fell away, were taken away, or lost somehow through what appeared to be a course of natural events, and only what was true remained present.

As I lost everything that I used to create my life and identity, I realized that not only did my true self remain completely intact, but became amplified due to the fact that I had freed up a great deal of time and energy I was spending on other things. Due to the fact that I couldn’t seem to rebuild what was lost, I became clear on what was real and an essential part of me that couldn’t be taken away or lost, because it wasn’t based on material factors. It was my soul’s essence which equipped me with everything I needed to fulfill my soul’s purpose. As I abruptly disconnected from my own self-created delusions about myself and my purpose in the world, I began naturally reconnecting with my soul. In reconnecting with my soul’s essence, I began drawing all my power from an internal source.

I realized that most of what I thought I needed and was important, I didn’t need at all and it only had the importance I gave it. That my life only “meant” what I said it meant. I lost all desire for material wealth and status, and felt a newfound kind of freedom. I severed all relationships that were based on illusions while simultaneously maintaining my love for the people because I realized with absolute clarity that they were still caught up in the illusion of their own making and honestly didn’t know any better. I realized I wasn’t abandoned by God, but by my own illusions of God. That the process that had been unconsciously facilitated by my Higher-Self based on my decision to dedicate my life to the truth and transcend this plane of illusion, was a loving act designed to bring me home and reconnect me to the absolute truth of who I am as a spiritual and universal being.

As I detached from the need to somehow control and determine the events and outcomes of my life, I felt completely unaffected by it all. I realized that other people’s opinion of me was shaped as a reflection of their own character as making me into the same type of person they are, and I detached from their projections as a result. I quit looking outward for approval and acceptance, or in an attempt to somehow acquire power from an outside source, and began always residing inward and drawing my strength from an internal source that never dwindled or subsided, but grew in strength as I began depending on it.

I began identifying almost exclusively with my spiritual self instead of my physical self, and all selfish motives and material desires left me. I began cultivating the ability to see the truth in everyone and everything by remaining tuned to the inner nature of things and what was motivating all their perceptions and actions, instead of basing it on the outer appearance of things. I became detached from the emotions being projected at me by others, and remained calm and unaffected by them, and as a result, stayed present with the truth without needing to somehow change it. I realized that my own emotions were the result of what I focused on and how I thought about things, and I began thinking in more universal and meaningful ways.

As I became more and more identified with my Higher-Self and quit building a life of illusion, I began sensing myself as “being in this world but not of it”. I quit looking to “get something” from my interactions with others, and looked instead to give to others in whatever way served their higher good and the good of everyone involved. I began empathizing with their soul’s journey as a dynamic means of learning and growing instead of seeing them only for their unconscious shortcomings and outward faults born out of confusion. I realized that now, and only now am I truly qualified to teach others the knowledge of higher wisdom by having apprehended it through experience . . . which is what my soul’s purpose is in this life.

Only those who are humble can conceive of higher truth without distorting it through the interpretations of their ego. As long as we maintain and live out of a false image and idea about ourselves and the world, we only resonate and act to receive more knowledge of the same kind. When we’re motivated by selfish needs and in love with our own opinions that we mistake for truth, we distort and corrupt true knowledge as a means of serving our own agendas or in order to somehow justify whatever it is we need to in order to maintain it as being true. When we form beliefs out of illusions, we bond ourselves to the world of illusions. When we form our identity around material things and mistake ourselves for being the personality of our body, we become mortal beings who die with our body. When we reside in a state of true detachment from false ideas and selfish motives, we’re able to receive knowledge from higher planes and witness it “as it is” without distorting it by forming personal interpretations. Only what we acquire by “being it” and “living it” as a direct experience becomes the basis for true wisdom. We only truly know what we become and do.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Realizing your True Self and Transcending the False Ego of your Past

One of the most fundamental spiritual errors we make in life is in believing that we are the personality of our body and conditioning. As a human soul born into an animal body, we acquire the physical characteristics and ancestral memory that’s inherent in our genes. Our genetic makeup bestows us with the basic tendencies that are then developed by our family dynamics (those who share the same tendencies) as our formative conditioning that serves to birth our initial identity (ego). Through our formative conditioning we form a story about our self that becomes our life theme. As we grow into adults we take over the process of continuing to condition ourselves by living out of the same story. We usually do this without ever realizing that the only reason it holds true for us is because we continue to live our life as though it’s true. Many people (actually most), firmly believe that they “are” their personality as they were shaped by others and society, and have no real ability to change themselves. They live their entire life without ever realizing that they’re actually the “story-teller” and one that’s producing the reality of their story, rather than a mere consequence of the story itself.

As we come into this life and our soul acquires the qualities of our genetic makeup, we’re initially shaped by others and outside forces to strengthen and develop certain qualities while others remain latent and underutilized. We exist as children in a predominately unconscious state (of hypnosis) where we readily take in and internalize whatever consciousness is actively being expressed and demonstrated all around us. Whatever dynamics we’re apart of as a family structure, we become programmed with, and they serve to form the foundation for the story we begin telling ourselves as a means of making sense of things as we begin developing our conscious mind (between 8 and 21 years).

Our personality is formed from an unconscious state as a form of hypnotic programming that lays the foundation as a life theme for our identity to spontaneously emerge through our conscious development. As we begin thinking for ourselves and forming our own ideas about things (somewhere around puberty) we take over our own unconscious programming as our internal dialogue and the perceptual filters that we use for producing all of our experiences. We take over where our family left off, and our parent’s voice becomes our own internal voice and the means through which we interpret things to give them meaning through the story we begin telling ourselves about them. Our conditioning forms the basis for all of our initial internal dialogue as our means of thinking and processing information to form a consistent experience of our self, others, and the world around us. Out of this initial story-line as a life theme we consciously begin developing our identity by the roles we naturally take on and play through the relationship we form with the outer world and our life circumstances.   

All of our primary memories are formed from significant emotional events in our life that had a strong impact of some kind that altered us in some way. The emotional impact came at a time when we couldn’t rationalize it in an objective manner, and so we processed the experience internally by making it all about us. As a child we perceive ourselves as being one with our family unit and haven’t yet developed the mental capacity to see ourselves as sovereign individuals. Whatever we hear being said about us by others around us we accept as being true without questioning it, and form beliefs about our self as a result. Through a basic form of hypnotic suggestion we’re given (subliminally programmed with) the same values, attitudes, perspectives, beliefs, emotional states, and behavioral dynamics as our family unit. We always shape ourselves to be just like our family, or what we imagine to be the opposite (relate or contrast), but either way, we still form ourselves by way of our family.

As we grow older we fall into a very specific and pronounced role within that dynamic and we begin developing ourselves based on what we’ve been taught to believe about ourselves and the way things are. Whatever other people say about us when we’re a child acts as a creative directive (hypnotic suggestion) for our subconscious to produce as a reality. The beliefs we form about ourselves as a child become our “core beliefs” out of which we form all of our other beliefs as a correlation, and ultimately becomes a form of “self-fulfilling prophecy”. What we call our soul’s “destiny” is usually the result of our conditioning as our “false identity”.

By the time our conscious and self-aware mind develops fully (around 21 to 28 years old), where we develop the powers of reasoning, discernment, and the ability to logically analyze things, and we separate emotionally from our parents and begin seeing our self as an individual, we’re already programmed and take over the process of conditioning (creating) ourselves by continuing to live out of our past. We continue to see ourselves and process our experiences as we’ve been taught to through our conditioning, and the voice of those who judged and criticized us becomes our own internal voice that we continue playing over and over in our mind.

How we Shape Ourselves

We all have a tendency to only live out of a handful of memories that we use as the means of constructing our story about ourselves and our life. These are the memories that had the greatest impact on us, and that we use in a continuous fashion to shape ourselves accordingly. There are many other memories that we could use that would contradict our story, or tell a different type of story altogether, but we choose to ignore and exclude those, and often, over time, forget them completely. This natural ability to select the memories that we use to build our life story out of is a demonstration of our soul’s true ability to create itself, but of course we usually fail completely to realize “how” our mind is operating to “create”, and focus instead on the conditioned content as what we’ve been taught to think and feel. We don’t know how to recognize the laws by which our mind works to create an image of ourselves “as” a certain type of person, and believe instead in the illusion of our own making.

My own experience of this as a realization came from a basic form of inner guidance that called me on my own story about things. One of the feelings I always had as a kid was that nobody knew me as I really am, and judged me instead to be the same as my family, which I was nothing like in the most basic sense. As a young adult I moved to a town where nobody knew me or my family, and as I was getting ready to walk through the doors of a restaurant I was working at, it seemed like a kind of metaphor for walking into a new reality, and a voice inside said . . . okay Linda, you’re always saying that people don’t know you for who you really are, so who are you? The only thing that people are going to know about you here is what you choose to tell them. No one knows anything about your past or what you’ve been through. And I decided at that point that I wasn’t going to talk about my past or my family.

What I immediately noticed is how people looked at me and how they treated me based on being myself. I felt a kind of heaviness had been lifted from me, and a strange, newfound freedom. Like I was standing in front of a blank canvas and deciding what I was going to create. I had a blank piece of paper where I could write whatever story I wanted to. As a result of never talking about my past and deciding I was going to create myself in a conscious manner, I began forgetting about the past and over time thought about it less and less. As I no longer chose to dwell in memories of the past, I began feeling different about myself and my life. My personal growth during this time was phenomenal and I slowly began transforming myself into a completely new type of person. The person I consciously decided to be.

Many years later, when I finally opened up and talked briefly about my childhood and what I went through growing up, people that knew me were shocked. They had no idea and thought I had come from a well-to-do family, had an extensive education, and was nurtured as a child by loving parents. As time went on, many years later, when I would talk about the crazy stuff we did as kids (I had 3 older brothers), instead of talking about it as abuse and tragedy, I decided I was going to embody the outlook and attitude of two of my favorite fictional characters, Tom Sawyer and Huckleberry Finn, and I re-told the stories of my past in a humorous and adventurous way. All of my stories about running away, hoping trains to who knows where, and living in forts on the streets became exciting adventures of exploration and freedom. I retold the exact same experiences from and entirely different perspective, and as a result changed the memories themselves in terms of how I “experienced” them and how I felt about myself as a result. I literally recreated myself using the same memories as life events while experiencing them in a whole new way. This was my first lesson in the art of self-transformation.

Now, as a fully mature person who has lived many lives in the course of this life and personality, I hardly ever talk about my past or myself in the general sense, and instead practice being present, talk about ideas and what my life is about currently. I’ve grown so much in terms of my ability to create myself intentionally that I don’t even relate to the little girl in my memories anymore. Many people see me as mysterious and a bit hard to get to know, without realizing that it’s because I no longer choose to live from my unconscious conditioning of the past, and instead identify with my true self as a universal being that’s the “storyteller” and the one creating the reality rather than the hypnotized personality still living out of the past and how I was shaped by others.

To wake-up in life isn’t to “heal from the past” by going through years of therapy where you “work through the issues of your past”, which usually only causes you to become even more identified with your past and the need to tell about “what happened to you” as a means of explaining why you’re the way you are. It comes instead through realizing who you really are as a soul and identifying instead with being the one who’s doing the creating by way of the story you keep telling yourself and others, often referred to as “your truth”. It’s detaching from your own past memories formed as a child when you had no real self-awareness and assuming the position of being the one who’s creating an image of yourself and producing the reality of your life “as” that story. You decide that you no longer need to keep telling that story as an expression of who you are, and you let go of it as a result. You no longer present yourself through the stories of your past and realize instead that you can create in the present whatever experience of yourself you want to by simply choosing to operate your own mind and imagination in an intentional manner.

What we think of as our “self” is formed out of memories. Our memories only remain alive if we continue to give them life in the present by constantly reliving them in our imagination. To change the self, you have to change the memories that serve to form it. All memories are actually something we create by how we interpret the events of our life out of whatever emotional state we were in at the time. By constantly reliving the memories over and over keeps us locked into the same emotional states. Whatever memory we play out and the emotion it keeps us infused with forms all of our natural perceptions, behaviors, and activities. You don’t change a memory by reinterpreting it to give it new meaning, but by “experiencing” the same event from a different perspective and attitude that causes you to “feel different” and elicits a different emotion in response to it. We evolve and transform ourselves by re-imagining our life experiences. All will to create lies in masterful use of your own imagination.

Dr. Linda Gadbois