The Difference between the Personality of Our Lower Nature and Identity Formed by Our Higher Nature

April 5, 2022January 12, 2023 Dr. Linda Gadbois

All ideas have to be formed into a working concept in order to understand them in the practical sense, so in order to comprehend this idea we have to form a clear understanding of our Triune nature, and how the different aspects of our mind operate on different levels or planes to perform different functions in creating the same overall, unified reality. We all have what we call 3 aspects of our mind and self (soul) that manifest in the fourth element of our material body. This idea is what’s also called the “3 in 1 Law”, which is 3 aspects that form One Essence, also known as the Triad or Trinity, often represented as a person with 3 heads and faces on a single body. One person is comprised of three fundamental aspects that exist on higher and lower levels of the same continuum or Astral Sheath, which can be thought of as a “scale” (gradation) that moves between a high and low vibration, much like the musical scale and light spectrum. This idea is also represented by the 4 states of matter, which is a process of coagulating invisible forces to form a solid body. This is a fundamental process of formation that makes an invisible force visible through an outer image formed out of astral light, and is the same process we use internally to shape an invisible idea into an image within the faculty of our imagination. The 4 states of matter are different stages in the development of a solid form, which are electrified (charged) plasma, gaseous, liquid, and solid. Again, these aren’t 4 different things, but 4 “states” as phases in developing the same thing. This is how nothing becomes something.

These are different “states” of the same thing, which function as a “frequency”. These states also represent the 4 aspects of the self, known as the Superconscious, conscious, subconscious, and physical body. Our Superconscious can also be thought of as our universal self (archetypal matrix), our conscious mind our “evolving ego” or Higher Self, and our subconscious our “personal ego”, or lower self. The term “ego” is synonymous with “identity”, which is the “I” and “I Am”, which can be more accurately stated as “I am becoming”, because the soul is never fixed or finished but is in a constant state of self-development through natural growth cycles and is “self-creating” and eternal in nature. Our lower self, which is comparable to our subconscious and is also what’s called the consciousness of our body, is “non-creative” in terms of being able to “create itself”, and is governed by the natural processes associated with the animal kingdom, and is primarily driven by instinct which comes as emotional impulses that form reactive behaviors.

While we’re in our physical existence, we typically only work with the two lower aspects of ourselves in terms of our daily life, which are the conscious and subconscious aspects of our mind. This is because the range of vibration that flows in a descending and ascending motion between higher and lower planes requires a “medium” or middle point (range of vibration) to move through that serves as a “transducer” for stepping-down the higher vibration and translating into a lower frequency where it can be conceived by the lower aspect of the subconscious. The movement of conscious energy between higher and lower planes comes through “resonance” as “sympathetic induction”, and the middle mind vibrates at a “range” that can reach the lower vibration (level) of the higher plane in order to “draw in” the energy of that plane, assimilate and transmute it, and then project it into the highest level of the lower mind, where it can be conceived through a form of transmission or communication. While in our physical body, governed by our subconscious, we’re “unaware” of our higher mind and our ability to create ourselves using our higher mind, and we live primarily out of the story that emerges from our formative conditioning. While manifest in our physical body we lose all “memory” of who we truly are in terms of our eternal soul and higher, creative mind, and come to believe that we are our body and exist as a form of intelligent animal.

While in the plane of formation (incarnate in a body) our conscious and subconscious are polarized aspects of each other and work in unity to produce what we perceive as our outer world and reality. Our conscious mind is our masculine-positive aspect and our subconscious is our feminine-negative aspect of the “same mind”. These two operate in polarity with other as complementary opposites on both the same plane, as an “inner and outer”, and as an interaction between higher and lower planes. On the higher plane of the conscious mind, it draws in the archetypal ideas from the higher plane of the superconscious, assimilates them into its existing identity, while simultaneously projecting them into the lower plane as “pictures” that act to “seed” the subconscious with new ideas. The conscious mind forms an idea into an image comprised of astral light (primordial matter) and introduces it into the etheric body of the lower self, which is a more concentrated and denser form of astral light that takes on a more fluid-like form and motion. The Higher Self is what originally forms and projects the etheric double used to inform the lower self, and then uses it as the means of regulating its own evolution by introducing memory that serve as metaphorical themes that are injected into the lower mind where they function in the same way memory does.

The Two Aspects of Our Lower Nature

While many people have been taught and formed a belief that our “conscious mind” is the aspect of our material mind that’s self-aware and is what perceives the outer world being formed and maintained by our subconscious, this is merely an “aspect” of our true conscious mind that’s contained “within” our subconscious, where it’s birthed fully within the material plane through a natural process of growth and development. Our true conscious mind exists outside of the material plane on a higher or greater level, and just as the conscious aspect of our mind is contained within our subconscious, the entire lower plane of what we call “reality” is “contained within” our higher conscious mind, which is the aspect of us that’s creating and maintaining it. This idea is symbolized through the Yin-Yang symbol, where the masculine contains an aspect of the feminine within it, and the feminine contains an aspect of the masculine within it, and together they form a greater whole as a unification or coherent state. This idea is also represented in the concept of the “Madonna (Mother) who births a male child (Son)”, where the mother is also a virgin, which simply means that the child was conceived from a higher (spiritual) plane and level of consciousness, rather than a product of the material plane. This is giving us a clue to the fact that our conscious mind is not of this plane and is actually an aspect of our “higher self”, which is also called the “Lord” (Tiphareth of the Kabbalah) and is ultimately our “savior”.

The lower self of our subconscious is also referred to as our animal-nature, which is born into the world as a product of our genetic make-up where we’re naturally imbued with a “personality”. Our subconscious is also what’s referred to as the “group mind” of the “collective Unconscious” where we exist as a “species” where the only thing that sets us apart from each other and makes us unique is our personality. This is easy to understand when you simply look at dogs, for example, where all dogs are dog-like and display the same type of general behaviors and work through a “pack mentality” where they function as a single unit, yet each also has their own personality and unique way of doing the same behaviors. Our personality is something we’re born with and it comes in a completely natural fashion. Most of our natural behaviors and idiosyncrasies, like our physical appearance, stems from our genetic make-up where we inherent similar tendencies from our parents and ancestors as inherent or group memory. It’s not something we create intentionally but comes in an automatic and spontaneous way where we don’t have to think about it or make a decision about how we’re going to be.

We’re born exclusively into our subconscious mind with a pre-formed personality, and as we begin growing and maturing, our conscious mind begins slowly developing. It’s an aspect of us that starts off in a latent and potential state and gradually becomes more active and prominent as we develop and mature. Our conscious mind starts becoming active around the age of 6 or 7, which is when we begin “thinking”, developing ideas in our imagination, and problem solving. At around 12 to 14 years, our conscious mind starts becoming even more prominent where we begin thinking for ourselves, forming our own ideas about things that are different from our parents, and we start “coming into ourselves” in terms of forming our “identity”. We do this by trying on all kinds of styles, ideas, and ways of being to see how they feel. We begin forming an image ourselves as being different from our parents and siblings, and we begin making our own decisions for ourselves that lead us into all kinds of new situations and experiences. As we begin having new experiences that came from our own decisions, we sense ourselves through our experiences by how we identify with them and begin shaping ourselves accordingly. Our identity begins naturally taking shape out of our personality in a completely harmonious and congruent way.

In the energetic sense, our higher self is formed of astral light in its gaseous state, and our lower self is comprised of the same light in a more concentrated form of astral light that moves and morphs more like a fluid that’s very malleable. The Higher Self is what originally forms and projects the etheric-double of the lower self as a form of blueprint for constructing an equivalent material reality, and then acts to regulate and evolve it by creating “thought-forms” that represent metaphorical themes that work in the same way “memory” does. If you simply observe the nature of your thoughts compared to your actual memories, you’ll realize that on the inner planes of your mind they appear the same way. This is because they’re both created the same way in our imagination. Our memories don’t just come or form by themselves, we actually create our memories by how we think about the events of our life that were emotionally impacting to form them into a story that takes shape through the meaning we gave them. While the subconscious operates almost exclusively out of memory in the same way animals’ function through instinct, it doesn’t have the ability to “create” its own memory and has to be given memory as the means of creating new types of experiences. Memory is created as a function of the higher mind which uses it as the means for directing the subconscious in an automatic fashion. Our higher conscious creates itself by forming memories of itself that it gives to the subconscious as a means of experiencing itself.

The lower self absorbs the soul memory being projected into it by the higher self, which is “reflected within” as an “inner vision” or dream-like image, that’s then gestated by building it into its current mental model, which is formed out of synthesized memory, modifying it to be a natural and harmonious part of its outer perception of reality. Once it can be perceived as a natural part of our reality we can form an experience of it, and it becomes a catalyst for producing a whole series of correlated experiences which propagate naturally out of it, setting a new phase or stage of development into motion. The subconscious of our body is our lower, animal soul which is not creative in the sense of being able to generate a “new idea” as an imaginary thought process, yet is the aspect of our mind that builds the thought into a corresponding material formation through our ability to “perceive it” within the outer world of our environment. This is the aspect of our mind that’s a part of the “group mind” of mass consciousness where all our activities are emotionally driven through natural inclinations. It functions out of memory as instinct, prompted by emotional impulses, and maintains a consistent perception of reality out of memory formed into habits.

Our personality is formed out of our genetic memory that’s not only comprised of a collective group of qualities that we share in common with all our family members that cause us to form the same natural behaviors, moods, and activities, but also contains the memory of our ancestors “experiences” that were emotionally charged and intense in some way. We can inherit memory of the traumas, obsessions, and emotional dynamics played out as the life experiences formed by our ancestral bloodline. This is the “automated” aspect of us that comes naturally without having to think, analyze, reason or make a decision. This is the part that’s “mortal” and dies with the body. Each time our higher soul incarnates into a new body it acquires a different personality and life situation that’s ideally suited for its identity to naturally take form out of through a natural process of growth and development. This is the part of us that serves as a vessel, vehicle, and house for our higher self to inhabit as a means of taking on a physical existence that’s necessary in order to “experience itself”, and then creates itself through how it associates with its own self-produced experiences.

Our subconscious is commonly associated with and represented as being our “heart”, and when we think using our heart (body consciousness) it comes as a lower form of intuition which is based on all of our experiences formed as feelings and memory, because all our experiences are permanently recorded within the etheric body as memory, and memory is the basis for instinct. When we’re living out of our lower nature from a semi-unconscious state, we live out of the story we formed about ourselves through our formative conditioning as memories of the past that are always playing out in our mind as habitual thoughts and internal processes that are driven primarily by feelings and emotions, where we simply repeat the patterns of the past as a way of creating the present to be of the same nature as a “type” of experience. We use the past as the basis for the ”story” we start telling ourselves, which was formed before our rational mind was fully developed, and out of our story we form our identity. This is how we form what’s commonly called our “ego” as an identification with our past, personality, material belongings and the social position we find ourselves in or work to achieve, that acts to “bond” our soul to its own material form. This idea can be more accurately called our “false ego” because it’s created through a form of false identity, and our higher soul isn’t a physical body or material reality of our body, it’s the essence that inhabits the body as a means of experiencing and evolving itself through it’s own mental creation.

When we fail to recognize that we also have a higher, conscious mind that’s willful in nature and able to create by directing our own thoughts and making decisions that break habitual patterns while forming new ones in their place, we begin identifying with our lower nature and how we’re trained and shaped by others and our life situation, and never learn how to step into our higher mind and ability to create ourselves in whatever way we choose. Shaping ourselves according to our unconscious conditioning forms what we can call our false identity, where we believe we’re our body and personality, and as a result we render ourselves “mortal” in the sense that “we” – who we are experientially – dies with our body and life situation. Our soul is our identity, which can also be thought of as our character, and when we don’t wake up and remember who we are in terms of being our higher mind bestowed with the ability to decide who we’re going to be and what kind of story we’re going to tell by how we live our life, we remain locked into our animal, physical, unconscious existence. Because we only know ourselves to be our body, when we die and our soul separates from our body, we don’t “exist” in the sense of knowing who we are without a body, and we immediately look to reincarnate as a means of “existing”. Only the part of us that we create using the higher capacity of self-realization, choice, and will, remains immortal and transcends the material plane after death of the body, because while in a conscious state we’re fully aware that we are the “creator”, rather than the “creation”, and it’s only the creation that dies.

Our conscious mind is the part of us that’s creative, and not only what “informs” the personality of its own material creation, but also has the ability to grow and evolve it by “seeding” its own lower self. This aspect of our soul exists on a higher or outer plane and is what’s not only producing the entire lower plane as a mental construct of itself, but also maintaining and orchestrating it, while never fully “entering” into it. It’s the aspect of our mind that’s projecting the lower plane as a reflection of “itself”, with the term “self” referring to pure mind and spirit, rather than a body with a personality. Once “we” leave our body, we exist outside of and apart from it as a “mental state” or energetic field of highly organized information (synthesized memory) that remains self-aware, self-conscious, and self-sustaining. The only purpose our body serves is in providing our true, higher soul with an “avatar” it can use as the means of experiencing itself through its own mental projection. It does this by impregnating its own subconscious with a conscious, self-aware aspect that’s slowly birthed within its own creation as a means of perceiving it from within it, and forms what we have come to call our conscious mind. The conscious mind of our body can be more accurately referred to as our “self-conscious mind” because it’s only “aware” of the material world and body in which its born. This is why we naturally “perceive” our “self” as being our body rather than the creator of our entire reality within which we live as a fundamental part and have our being.

Our higher, creative mind is the aspect of us that creates by “thinking”. On the higher level of our mind we create in the most basic sense by drawing on an “idea” from an even higher plane of universal archetypes, where we use that idea to form a corresponding reality within our imagination. The idea exists on the higher plane in a latent, unformed state of pure potential, and is turned into a possibility by how it’s “adapted and conformed” to the already existing paradigm being used to project and maintain the lower plane, where it’s transformed into a personalized version of the same idea. Ideas exist in their raw form as metaphors that produce reality as a theme that’s designed to give you a certain type of feeling. The conscious mind is what gives form to an invisible idea by imbuing it with sensory attributes that cause it to come alive with sensation, causing it to vibrate as an astral formation, clothing it with light that makes it perceivable internally as a sensory reality that acts to naturally invoke a correlated emotion in response to it when it’s viewed by the subconscious mind. The vibrating, sensationalized idea formed as an image that represents a particular type of experience is then projected into the subconscious, where it acts as a seed that begins growing within an ovum, and is systematically grown into a natural part of the existing outer reality.

This is what quantum physics is referring to when it states that all ideas exist as and within a greater waveform, and creation comes by “collapsing” the wave into a single possibility, where it becomes clothed in an outer garment of “light”. Reality exists in a fundamental state of “probability”. This is also the principle described in wave-particle duality, where an idea exists simultaneously as both a particle and wave. On the higher plane of the universal mind all ideas exist as a wave, comprised of infinite possibilities in their potential state, and the conscious mind of our Ego Soul, chooses an idea which exists as a “metaphorical theme” and draws it into the imagination where it’s modified to be a natural aspect of its existing formation. It’s shaped into a 3-dimentional material form through sensory attributes that bring it alive with “qualities”, forming its character, out of which natural behaviors and operations form through the activity it naturally takes on.

Our lower, material reality exists in what we can think of as an “embryonic state” that’s constantly being seeded with new information that facilitates how it naturally develops as it moves through different cycles. Our reality, like our body, is undergoing a constant state of evolution facilitated by forming new types of experiences that are translated into memory on the higher plane of the conscious mind. Our immortal soul is comprised of “memory” attained through its own experiences and maintained as a permanent record within the astral field of light, also called the Akasha field or “Book of Life”. Every aspect of our own creation is translated into a permanent record where it forms the basis for our karma, which becomes the “memory” for all proceeding incarnations. Our karmic seed is formed out of the memory formed through how we experienced our own creation, and is what forms our basic personality for all succeeding lifetimes as our inner nature, character, and predisposition. We’re born into a life situation where the same basic model is activated, established through our conditioning as our family dynamic, and set into motion as the basis for a continuous process of soul-evolution performed by how we use complementary aspects of our mind to grow ourselves through our own creation.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

The Physics of the Soul, the Nature of Our Character, and the Holographic Nature of Reality

December 29, 2021January 12, 2023 Dr. Linda Gadbois

The most prevalent misconception formed in trying to understand the nature of the soul, comes by viewing it as being the body and personality of the body. The soul isn’t the body as a “person”, located in a particular place and time, confined to live within a specific set of circumstances, it’s the “nature and character” of the “mind” that’s carried forth from one incarnation to another. We all have what you might think of as “two natures”. A lower, animal nature formed as our body, and a higher one that’s divine and creative in nature, both of which combine into one, forming our “character”. Our higher, conscious mind acts to project itself as an “archetypal being” into the lower plane of the material realm as a part of the subconscious mind, inherent in all of Nature, which is what we can think of as our “material mind” that acts to form what we perceive as a material reality. It then combines with its own lower mind as a means of expressing through the 3-dimensional material construct formed as a means of “experiencing” itself. As we form experiences of our “self” through the reality we act to create, we come to know ourselves through our own experiences, and we shape our character by how we associate with our own creation.

Our lower subconscious mind, formed as our physical (animal) body, is primarily emotionally driven and instinctual in nature, and acts on impulses to fulfill perceived needs of survival and generation, and forms “imaginary realities” out of its emotional states in place of what exists fundamentally as an objective and neutral reality. Our conscious mind is creative, rational, self-aware, and creates reality by turning thoughts into “material forms” in the imagination. This is the aspect of our mind that has the power to judge, evaluate, discriminate, reason, and make calculated decisions based on our own thought processes. Our conscious mind can internally generate its own emotions, which arise naturally in relation to how ideas are formed the imagination, while also having the tendency to be “run” by the very emotions it acts to generate. When the two minds combine, our higher abilities tend to be governed by the emotional delusions formed by our subconscious, and thought is used to not only construct the world of our emotions, but also as the means of validating them through reasoning.

Our Personality and Identity

Our lower nature forms what we call our personality, which comes in a completely unconscious and natural way through the dynamics we were trained to as a part of our formative conditioning, and our higher nature forms our identity, which comes by how we “see” ourselves in relation to others and our life situation and what roles we naturally take on as a result. While these two are compatible in the sense that each one systematically evolves out of the other as an interdependent unit, when we allow our lower emotional nature to run us, we fail to recognize a higher part of ourselves nested deep within, and we mistakenly build our identity out of our material existence.

We develop our character by always playing out emotional dramas that are fantasies oriented towards acquiring material possessions and status of some kind, and develop our character primarily out of a selfish, self-absorbed mindset. We become like an animal and lower being consumed by our own emotional dramas, made heart-sick with fear and anxiety, and ultimately condemn our soul to a life where we unconsciously self-administer our own pain and suffering. We literally shape our character to be an unconscious being manipulated constantly by outside forces inherent in our life situation, rather than using it as the means for consciously creating ourselves by actively directing our own higher mind of thought in how we experience ourselves and the world around us.

A Prolonged Case of Mistaken Identity

Mankind suffers from a fundamental case of mistaken identity where we shape ourselves out of our lower nature. We don’t realize we are a dual, multidimensional being capable of directing our own lower, subconscious mind in using our body and physical circumstances to experience ourselves in whatever way we choose to. We “become” who we are through how we create experiences of ourselves. Many don’t even realize that they are the ones creating their own experiences through internal processes. When we create out of an unconscious state, we don’t comprehend how it is we’re shaping ourselves by what qualities and character traits we’re utilizing in a consistent manner to not only construct our reality through our perception of it, but also maintain and direct how it continues to unfold.

Once an illusion is built and set in motion, we exist in the center of it as a direct experience of ourselves “as” that reality, and don’t know to get out of it, because we don’t realize we’re the one creating it. We’re always acting “on ourselves” to shape ourselves through an interaction of outer forces set in motion by inner forces of the same kind and type. We imagine life as happening to us by outside forces beyond our ability to influence or direct them. Because we’re “experiencing it”, it seems real to us, and we don’t realize we’re the one forming it by how we’re thinking about it and perceiving it through a predominantly emotional state. We get caught up and hopelessly lost in our own unconscious delusion.

In many cases, everything becomes a doggy-dog world where you’re always struggling just to survive and try to somehow be alright with everything that’s happening around you. Surviving and maintaining some form of security and safety becomes your most basic concern and trying to maintain this becomes your constant life’s work. All the while, without directly realizing it, you’re using certain parts of your character and personality consistently, and as you use it to maneuver and experience reality, you develop it into a strength. When you’re driven in the most basic sense by “fear and stress” of some kind, you develop whatever parts of your character are correlated with it and brought out in response to it as a means of trying to work with it. Outside pressures act to stimulate and call forth corresponding inner qualities of the same nature, and together, form how we experience ourselves through the drama that naturally ensues out of them.

Because this is all happening at the subtle, semi-unconscious level of partial awareness, you start compromising yourself through a process of negotiating your character in whatever way you deem necessary to establish safety and control and be alright. The more difficult or intense the situation is, the more willing you become in compromising your own integrity. As you’re pressured in some way, you start moving past previous rules you set for yourself as standards, and you begin rehashing things. The thought of losing whatever it is you’ve built your identity out of, causes extreme grief and deep feelings of insecurity that consumes you with a deep and pervading feeling of anxiety that seems almost unbearable. Most people, when pushed to the end of their ability to cope, will collapse with mental fatigue, and sell their soul to whatever force is threatening to take them out. This is the adage of “selling your soul to the devil”. The devil is the archetype also known as the “tempter who tests us”.

When we build our “identity” out of our physical existence and personality, which is what the higher soul is, and the thought of losing the very thing we “made ourselves out of”, represents a form of “death” of our “self”. This phenomenon is what’s referred to as the death of the ego, which, like all things born out of and sustained through a purely physical existence, is a misnomer, because the identity we form of ourselves as our physical reality, always “dies” with the body it was designed to sustain. All things of a material nature, no matter how solid and stable they seem, are temporary in nature, which means they are subject to a life and death process. The only thing that remains intact after death, is the memory we form of ourselves attained through our experiences formed while in a physical existence. We “shape ourselves” as our character (archetypal nature) through how we experience ourselves through our own mental construct. It’s our character and “who we are” as a person, regardless of what our life conditions and circumstances are, that’s eternal, because it’s our “internal nature” as our own creation of ourselves, that’s eternal in nature, and transcends the body at death as “memory of ourselves”.

This idea is represented symbolically by the concept of “gold” as being “pure” in nature, free of contamination by other minerals, while also being malleable, and able to combine with “ordinary minerals” as an amalgamation. As gold is melted and combined with other metals, they’re fused together as the same thing, fixing and strengthening the gold making it hard and rigid, yet, when heated, the gold separates from the stone it was hewn to, and returns to a state of purity, free of the properties inherent in the minerals it was bonded with. Gold, in this case, symbolizes the higher soul of the conscious and creative mind, that’s comprised of “archetypes” that make up it’s constitution as its character. Whatever traits we actively develop by how we move through our life experiences, whether unconsciously without realizing what we’re doing while in the process of doing it, or consciously by realizing and choosing our actions, we shape and evolve ourselves accordingly.

When we shape our higher consciousness out of our lower, physical nature by building our identity out of it, we literally “bond ourselves” to it in mind and spirit. This means that we only “know who we are” when in physical manifestation of some kind, and when we die, which means our body and life situation dies, we (our soul) have to incarnate back into another body and similar life situation in order to “know” itself. Whatever we use to create ourselves as an ongoing and continuous experience of ourselves, we bond our soul (memory) and spirit (archetypal nature) to. Our higher, creative mind becomes a slave to our lower, instinctual nature, and we become like an animal, driven by the delusions formed out of emotional impulses and instinctual drives. Once we realize that we are the one creating how we experience the events of our life, and we begin identifying with our higher self as our conscious (self-aware) mind, and we shape our archetypal nature in a deliberate manner, we likewise form our “self” out of a higher, and much more dynamic way of being.

It’s only our archetypal nature as our character, and how we develop it through our life circumstances and situations by “who” and “how” we become, that’s eternal in nature and ultimately determines our soul’s destiny. However it is we develop ourselves through what we experience as “one life”, which is a cycle of growth and development, becomes the basis for the next life, because its only our character as our internal nature that survives the death of our body and remains intact as an invisible field of organized information (memory) that vibrates with our soul’s frequency. This field of living energy is organized as a formula of archetypal qualities that shape the characteristics of the material world as an “outer image of itself”. In the same way we develop our character through our life situations, we also shape our life situations according to our character. This is because one is acting to order and construct the other, and together, as an amalgamation, they act to set up the material circumstances that bring correlated experiences. The material world is always being structured by invisible forces, which also animates it with the activity it takes on. Attributes and qualities form characteristics which determine the shape something takes on and how it functions. Our higher soul makes our material reality as the means of using it as a vehicle and instrument for “knowing itself” through the direct experience of its own mental construct.

The Archetypal Nature of our Character

This idea appears very elusive because we tend to perceive ourselves as just being our physical body, rather than as we exist from a higher level of consciousness as the “whole reality” in which we live and experience ourselves as being a part of it. We don’t grasp the fact that our reality is being shaped by our mind as the equivalent correspondence of our character. Just as we shape ourselves through our outer world, we’re also shaping the world that reflects back to us our own mental nature, where they combine as an amalgamation to form a “singularity” as an “experience”. Our mind is an invisible field of intelligent forces combined in different degrees, measure, and potencies, forming a vibratory frequency. This frequency, which is unique to us as our state of being, is simultaneously shaping both our inner and outer reality to be a direct reflection of each other on smaller and larger scales. Our character determines the nature of the story we naturally act to tell, which can only be told congruently through the proper stage and setting. If we’ve shaped our character out of a consistent feeling of fear, we simultaneously project and perceive the reality of our fear, while developing all the traits called forth naturally in response to our fear. This way, we come to “know ourselves” through and as the reality formed out of expressing those traits.

Our higher soul of our conscious mind exists as a form of “archetypal matrix” or formula of qualities and character traits, which automatically form our reality as a construct of light, which we then “enter (project) into” as what we refer to as the “lower material plane” of the subconscious mind. The lower plane of physical reality is being projected downward as a unified construct, where once we enter into it as a part of it, we become “unconscious” of the fact that we’re actually the one creating it as a way of “experiencing ourselves” and coming to “know ourselves” through our experiences. While we’re “in it” as a fundamental part of it, having a direct experience of it through an unconscious state, we lose awareness of also being outside and above it, being the one who’s also orchestrating it as a means of knowing ourselves through our own creation. The material world of formation is also what’s referred to in Esoteric texts as the plane of “knowledge of good and evil”, and we only acquire “knowledge of ourselves” through “experience” that breeds understanding.

The Illusion of Life and Death

Another fundamental illusion formed as a paradox we’re always engaged in is our perception of what we call life and death, and what it means to be both mortal and immortal. While we refer to our material reality as being “life”, upon closer examination formed from a different perspective, we come to realize that this is death, because as soon as we’re born into a physical existence, we are simultaneously destined to die. Life also assumes death as a “cycle” of growth and development. As we enter a material world formed as a cycle of time, or lifetime, where the time we spend here is temporary, and ends when our soul departs from our physical body, causing it to die. We experience our temporary reality in a fundamentally fixed and stationary manner, where change usually only comes over a long period of time as a limited movement based on “internal development”, which, when looked at in light of what’s actually happening, is “dead” and often void of actually living.

Our higher soul, which is our mind, is a living field of intelligence forces that not only shapes our body and outer world while also inhabiting it, but is what also congeals, regenerates, and holds our material essence together as a single unit. When our soul separates and departs from our body, it’s no longer alive and held together by energetic tensions, and begins disintegrating. It falls apart and returns to the mineral kingdom it was formed out of. The only “life” the body or any part of our natural world has, comes from the soul organizing and animating it. The molecular structure of our body in constantly being regenerated by our soul through “life and death processes” where it “recreates it” through “memory” of itself. This is because only the higher soul is “creative” and able to construct reality as an outer projection or mirror image of its mental paradigm.

It’s the natural forces operating as a field of organized information at work in shaping, vitalizing, holding together, and consistently reconstructing its own image of itself. It’s only this higher aspect of ourselves as our soul’s memory and constitution that transcends the physical world when the body dies that’s actually “alive”. Its what orders, assimilates, metabolizes, and animates its own material construct (which comes as a reflection of its own inner thoughts) as a way of knowing itself through a direct experience of itself. The soul is eternal as “life itself” and what “brings life” to all things. It lives eternally “outside” the “illusion of time”, because “time” is created through the “space” formed as a 3-dimensional material (light) construct. As we form dimension through the movement of conscious energy between polarized aspects of itself (vibration), we also create time as the time it takes to move from one place to another within that construct. As soon as the spatial form ceases to exist, so does “time”. Time is only relevant to the material world.

The Principle of Creation

All of what we call universal principles exist in every aspect of what we perceive as “reality”, and operate in a consistent manner as the fundamental process of creation. This means that the same processes that occur at the microscopic level are also taking place at the cosmic level. This isn’t referring to the “material formation” itself, but to the invisible forces that shape and animate the material formations. Just as our spirit constantly regenerates our body out of memory, causing us to go through a life cycle where we’re born a baby, then steadily grow to maturity until we hit a high point and then begin declining until we die, we’re simultaneously reshaping our material world in the same way through the same process of self-regeneration.

While we can have a tendency to believe that others and the world around us exist independent of us as a stationary idea that has nothing to do with us, upon closer examination of our own psychological processes, we may discover this isn’t at all true. We’re only capable of knowing reality through our perception of it. Our perception is formed out of the model of our mind, called our paradigm. Our paradigm can be thought of as a dynamic series of “mental filters” that all work together to form the “lens” we look through to perceive the outer world. Each filter is produced by our values, beliefs, preferences, attitude, and memories, which act to sift through and separate out (order) only certain parts of what exists as a greater whole, and reconstruct (organize) the selected parts so they reflect back to us our model of the world. As we perceive another person, we only “see in them” the same attributes and qualities that we ourselves possess, and we remake them to resemble us as a way of experiencing them. We experience everything by how we reshape it by building it into our own mental model as a natural part of our outer world. We only see outside of us what also exists inside of us, because our perception operates through a filtering system that’s only capable of experiencing the outer world as a reflection of ourselves.

Our outer world only changes and evolves to broader and more complex ideas as we also grow and incorporate new ideas into our mental model, evolving it, where our character is modified accordingly. As we grow and develop in new ways, our perception of others and reality itself grows in the same way as a regenerative process. It’s not just our body that’s being regenerated unconsciously on a moment by moment basis, it’s also our entire physical reality, because it’s all being formed by the “same mind” operating on different levels and scales simultaneously. This is what the term “projection” is referring to. We’re always reshaping our outer world as a reflection of our inner thoughts, allowing us to see and know ourselves as an experience of ourselves produced on different scales simultaneously. This idea is represented by the symbol of the equilateral triangle, where there are opposing points on the same level of the base line, which combine in equal proportions to form a single point on a higher level as a “coherent state”. Each line that connects them all into a single form is not only of the same measurement, but also of the same angle, which is 60 degrees, and together form the famous “666”, given the title of the “mark of the beast”, which when added together and formed into a single digit become “9”. Nine is the number of man, and represents a “complete cycle”, formed out of three Triads or levels of the same mind.

The Law of Vibration and Polarity

This idea operates as a “frequency” formed out of the invisible field of the mind as an “organized field of coherent information”, that reconstructs the same formation on greater and smaller scales simultaneously, forming a single reality as equilibrium of opposites. The term equilibrium doesn’t indicate balance in terms of how it’s normally perceived, but rather as interaction and relationship of polar opposites in forming a single reality as a cohesion. This functions to create through a rudimentary process of resonance. A real easy way to understand how resonance works as what we can call the “organizing principle” that reconstructs itself as a holographic model on different levels at the same time, is by looking at a model of two string instruments that are tuned to the same frequency. If you take two guitars, and tune them using the same tuning device, and you set one across the room from the other, as you pluck the “C” note of one, it will act to vibrate the same C note on the other.

As it vibrates it, the sound produced by two C notes in harmony with each other amplifies and multiplies it. If we also used equipment designed to measure the other phenomena produced by the same sound, we would see that it also generates light and the color associated with the note as a correspondence, along with a geometrical pattern or symbolic formation. This same operation, formed out of a frequency as a dynamic orchestration of harmonic sound is how the mind works in only activating and bringing alive in everything around us only what matches our frequency, and organizes it into the same 3-dimensional model on the outer, greater level of the mind. What we act to vibrate occurs through our perception of it, while all the rest of the information inherent as possibilities for constructing reality, like the remaining notes on the guitar, remain latent in an inactive state. We only “see” in everything else what matches us, and we reshape the selected bits of information to form a mirror image of ourselves on a larger scale. This is the process we use for constructing the “stage” through which we express ourselves through the “story” we’re always in the process of telling ourselves.

The Dyad as an Interference Pattern and the Holographic Nature of Reality

This same process is what’s described in quantum physics as an interference pattern, where a pattern as both a particle and a wave, interferes with itself as an interaction that amplifies some aspects while canceling out others, forming peaks and valleys as a “standing wave”. As we interact with the cosmic field of the greater whole, in which we exist as a unique formula of the same qualities and characteristics, we act on those same qualities in everything around us to bring them out in an active state, while everything that’s not a part of our mental paradigm, remains inactive and forms the background as a neutral state where the active parts express through the activity they take on. We create through a very fundamental process of “natural selection” formed out of an unconscious state, where we only abstract a very small amount of the information available to us, and use it to form a whole reality as a new possibility. What we call reality exists in a fundamental state of “probability” as latent potential, and is reformed by the individual mind through the very act of “perceiving it”.

All material substance exists simultaneously as both a particle and a wave. This idea is represented by the symbol of the Monad, which is also the symbol of the mind as an electromagnetic toroidal field of circulating energy, as a dot within a greater circle or 3-dimensional sphere. The dot is the center out of which the sphere is projected as an electric pulsation, which then reverses polarity, becoming magnetic, and absorbs its own energetic construct, assimilating and concentrating it back into the center from whence it was formed. Both the inner and outer are formed as a “coherent state” that regenerates itself to form a duplicate, much like the cells of our body do through the process of mitosis, and then separates from itself to produce the perception of itself as another. It then interferes with itself as another, where some aspects are matched while others are contradicted and canceled out, differentiating in ways that recombine the same information to perform unique functions as a part of a greater whole. The parts that are matched become amplified and multiply, while the ones that aren’t activated remain dormant and form the backdrop within which the activated ones express through activity.

While we can say that we have an individual mind, that makes us unique from others, at the greater level, we’re all apart of the same mind, which forms reality out of the same group of universal memory as archetypal attributes and qualities developed to different degrees, forming characteristics that determine how we form our unique version of the same overall reality. We’re the part and the whole simultaneously. You can only know the whole by how it exists in relationship with the part, and the part is always a reflection of the whole that forms and births it, and within which it has its life through correlated activities. This is how cells, which are always born as twins that are duplicates of each other in terms of containing the same fundamental information (DNA), switch some parts off while turning others on as a means of differentiating to play a specialized role and function in forming a greater whole. Every time we come into what seems like a new and novel situation, we only act to “turn on” what we resonate with, bringing out the same characteristic that we ourselves possess, while “turning off” everything else which then recedes to the background in an inactive state, and we reformulate the selected qualities into a new pattern that forms a natural part of an even greater reality, all of which are of the same “nature and likeness”.

This same process of passive and active components of the same thing function through the Law of Polarity. Vibration occurs as the spiraling movement of the same energy between two poles of an opposite and complementary nature that are set apart from each other, forming a “space-time continuum”. One pole is passive, the other active, and the energy that oscillates between them is the “same energy” as a “state of consciousness”. The active discharges and projects through space where it’s conceived by the passive component, making it active. It then reverses polarity because what was active is now passive and what was passive is now active, and the active aspect is discharged again towards the now passive pole, bringing it alive with activity. This movement between opposite poles that are complementary aspects of each other produce “heat” as friction, which generates light, making the pattern inherent in it perceivable as a 3-dimensional, holographic model. The “light matrix” formed “illuminates the idea” in the otherwise invisible space, in which its formed and held in place.

An electromagnetic pulsation doesn’t flow as a straight line from one point to another and then back again, but moves as a “standing wave” that functions at right angels with itself (90 degrees) in a manner that resembles butterfly wings, which also reverse as they propagate through space to form what resembles a cube-like formation as a 3-dimensional shape. In Esoteric texts, as well as modern science, the material world of matter is represented as a “cube”, in what science calls the “4 states of matter”, which is describing 4 phases or stages of development, initiated and set in motion by a 5^th, invisible and mysterious force, called the “ether”, which is also the element of the “mind”. All of what we perceive as reality is constructed and maintained through a relationship of complementary opposites that “stimulate each other” into “existence” as a larger dynamic whole. This larger whole is formed out of the relationship formed by the different aspects of our mind as our conscious and subconscious, which perform different functions in producing a greater whole as a relationship formed with ourselves on different levels and scales of existence.

Energetic Entanglement and Superposition

We’re always acting to construct and maintain our “self” as a whole reality, where we’re located within it at the center of it as a means of experiencing ourselves through it. What we perceive as an inner and outer are actually polar opposites of the same energetic construct that exists in a coherent state. Each aspect of the same greater whole acts on the other to stimulate it into existence as an active expression. We (as a higher soul) exist both as a particle and wave at the same time. We’re both local and nonlocal, where we’re located at the center of our greater self as a holographic matrix of vibrating light formed through a coherent state, where we exist simultaneously as both the part and the whole.

Time and space are an illusion formed by existing both inside and outside of our own mental construct. Everything comes into “existence” as “twins” that are mirror images of each other and are of the same state as a vibratory frequency. Every vibration has both a pattern inherent in it and a self-assembling mechanism that constructs a light-body as a holographic image. This means they are different parts and functions of the same pattern as a holographic model, and remain “energetically entangled” (as one state) no matter how far apart they “appear” to be in space and time. Space and time are interdependent, where time evolves out of space, and vice versa, because as we move through space, we experience it as time passing. One automatically forms the experience of the other.

No matter how far apart twin aspects appear to be, if you influence or change the state of “one” through an interaction of some kind, the other instantaneously changes in the exact same way as a reverse spin (mirror image). There’s no way to meaningfully distinguish them as being separate things. This is the same principle working between what we perceive as being an inner and outer world, where they’re actually the same thing as a mirror image of each other and act “on each other” to stimulate each other into existence as a fundamental part of the “same reality” out of which we form a “unified experience”. This interaction doesn’t come through a “material pathway” as a form of “communication” between two points in the space time continuum, but happens instantaneously at exactly the same moment.

This same principle of polar opposites existing as a single unit operates between what we also call higher and lower planes, marked by different levels of consciousness, where the higher forms a wave on the lower, and the particle exists within the wave as a part of it. The same holographic model as a frequency that constructs a light-body as what we can think of as “outer garments” that reveal the shape formed by its intrinsic characteristics through the relationship it forms with itself, takes place between parallel planes of the same overall dimension. All material formations are caused by an invisible field of energetic stresses that form a kind of “lattice of tensions” that act to generate light while also organizing it into a functioning coherent system. We are all multidimensional beings that exist simultaneously as an invisible field of intelligence forces and the material construct formed by that field. We exist as both our mind and body at the same time, joined together forming a “vehicle for expressing through as a means of attaining experiences of ourselves”. We exist in two places, so to speak, at the same time. Both as an inner self and a greater outer reality in which we use our physical body to express through as a life-experience, and as a spirit that’s invisible and visible at the same time. We’re located within our own space-time construct going through an experience, and non-local from outside of it witnessing it from a detached perspective while orchestrating the dynamic series of events that play out in what seems like a linear timeline from point A to point B.

When we complete one cycle of time, and die in terms of our physical existence, we absorb and assimilate all of our life experiences born out of how we developed and evolved our character, forming the memory as a holographic frequency that forms the basis for our next incarnation as a continuous process of growth and self-actualization. We move between different planes of existence produced out of our own archetypal make-up as a kind of “formula” comprised of qualities and attributes that give our world the characteristics and natural behaviors that spontaneously ensue from it as a natural form of self-expression. We both construct our reality as the stage necessary for us to express through an ongoing story we’re always in the process of telling by living it, and as a means of developing our character through our own self-generated experiences. As we form our experiences, we translate them into memory, which becomes the basis for generating more and more of the same type of experiences. We don’

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Mentoring / Coaching / Consultation for personal transformation and spiritual growth

Realizing your True Self and Embodying your Power to Consciously Create Yourself

October 4, 2021January 18, 2023 Dr. Linda Gadbois

The process of personal transformation (Alchemy) as a form of spiritual regeneration comes as a process that has two basic stages. The first stage is what’s often referred to as our psychological healing, where we shed our false ego built through our formative conditioning, and the second comes by learning how to employ the principles necessary for developing our self to a higher level of self-awareness and creativity. The first stage is necessary as a means of laying the proper foundation for creating ourselves through our ability to develop our true character from a fully conscious and self-aware state. This stage of transformation comes by identifying and removing all the “false-images and ideas” we’ve taken on about ourselves that cover over or prevent our true light from shining through. Most of us start out in life by absorbing and taking on other people’s ideas about “who” and “how” we should be and by the time we’ve become young adults we’ve lost touch with who we are in terms of our essential nature, what our life purpose is, or what we came here to learn through experience as a means of evolving ourselves.

Each one of us is born into life as a “karmic seed” that’s comprised of an archetypal matrix of qualities and characteristics that form a distinct theme, which contains the entire “plan for our life” (Divine Providence) that unfolds through a natural growth process. We are perfectly “designed” to fulfill our life purpose which unfolds in a synchronized manner as a correlated series of events that set natural processes in motion. The events of our life unfold with perfect timing because one naturally arises and evolves out of the other as an expression of our consciousness. As we go through one life experience, we develop inherent parts of our character and our mental model, which is comprised of the memory attained through our experiences, which sets up the circumstances necessary for the next series of events to evolve out of in a completely natural way. Our character forms our essential nature as our personality out of which all our natural behaviors are formed and come in an automatic way. Our mental paradigm is what forms the “lens” we “look through” as a means of perceiving the outer world.

Nothing comes into our life until we are ready for it as a level and quality of consciousness because we’re the one projecting it and “calling it forth” through our vibratory frequency. A frequency has both a pattern and a self-assembling mechanism inherent in it that works at both the unconscious and conscious level simultaneously. We all have what we can call a “signature frequency” (formed as our mental paradigm) that works through the greater field of information surrounding us (outer reality) to only activate and bring forth in that field what “matches” our paradigm through “resonance”. What we perceive as an outer reality is a field of information that exists in a neutral state of “probability”. Each one of us vibrates at our own unique frequency, and we energetically “influence” the outer field into a configuration that correlates with the thematic pattern of our mental model. Each person “acts on” the same field of information (consciousness) by only vibrating the parts that are congruent with their paradigm and uses the selected parts to reform it in a way that brings a consistent version of reality as an experience of “themselves”. Our outer reality reflects our inner reality, because both created by the same “mind”. We tend to think of ourselves as a physical being within a neutral reality that’s objective in nature, but the fact is all reality as we’re capable of knowing and experiencing it, is subjective in nature, and formed in a way that’s unique to us as our own creation. Every single person who views that same reality as a material formation (tree, house, car, landscape, etc.), will experience it in a slightly different way, based on the structure of the “mind”.

The outer reality is formed through our perception of it as a mental construct. Our mind is constructed of information that’s highly organized and synthesized into a coherent model. It forms a dynamic series of correlated “filters” that are superimposed over our outer reality as a way of reorganizing it into a construct that reflects our paradigm. These filters are primarily formed by beliefs, values, preferences, temperament, perspective, and memories, which are all synthesized into a “single model”. These filters are interactive as different aspects of a greater whole in much the same way each of our character traits blend harmoniously in forming our personality and producing all our natural and unconscious behaviors. Beliefs can be very hard to recognize as such due to the fact that our mind acts naturally (at the unconscious level) to construct the reality of our beliefs, making them seem real.

The Dual Nature of our Mind

We’re always working in every moment to shape our physical existence using two primary aspects of our mind and self, called our subconscious and self-conscious, which make up what we refer to as our “lower self”. This aspect of our mind is comprised of both our instinctual, emotional, conditioned self, and our self-aware, rational, intellect, which builds whole realities out of thoughts. Our intellect is the aspect of our material mind that forms our outer awareness as our “waking mind” and is what forms our internal dialogue as thoughts that run constantly in a habitual manner. Our thinking mind of outer awareness is the aspect of our self that perceives the outer reality being projected by our subconscious and interprets the events of our life to make them “mean” something. Whatever meaning we give something forms the story we tell ourselves about it which forms the basis for how we “experience ourselves” through our own self-created story about things. As we tell ourselves a story about something, we “sense ourselves” through it and begin identifying with it as a result.

Meaning, like the mind that produces it, is also threefold in nature, and whatever meaning we give an event or situation, means something about us, about others, and about the way the world is in general. The world in general sets the stage necessary for playing out our story in a way that makes sense, where we’re the main star and others are the costars of our movie. We create on three levels to form a single idea where every element is a logical and cohesive part of the same overall story. This way we can play out smaller stories within greater stories of the same basic idea. We’re always creating in a cohesive manner out of a coherent model where the same idea plays out harmoniously on multiple levels and scales of increasing complexity.

If you pay close attention to your own thoughts, you’ll notice that there’s always “one part of you” talking to “another part of you”. You’re always talking to yourself inside your mind, explaining, describing, justifying, and forming a narrative around things that are also being “projected” by your own “mental model” as your perception, and then being interpreted through your model to form a story about them. The experience formed is then “reabsorbed and synthesized” back into your model as a variant that acts to upgrade it somehow. This process of inner dialogue as “storytelling” is the most primary and completely natural way you’re always in the process of using your self-conscious mind to “program” your subconscious to produce the “reality of your thoughts” as an “experience of yourself”. You’re always the one creating the reality that you then use as the means of experiencing yourself. What we’re referring to here as “yourself” isn’t your body and personality, its your mind and soul. Your soul exists as your “entire reality”, not just an aspect of it.

As we have emotionally intense experiences as a child, we try to make sense of them by telling ourselves a story about what they mean. Due to the fact that our rational, logical, reasoning mind hasn’t begun developing yet (starts developing at puberty), our interpretation stems from the emotion we’re experiencing because of the event. As we form emotional interpretations of why something is happening and what it means about us, we also start forming natural behaviors that we do in an automatic fashion anytime we’re experiencing that same emotion without direct awareness of what we’re doing or why. As we continue to play them out in a consistent and unconscious manner they become a major “creative factor” and we build “mental complexes” out of them.

A complex comes as an idea about ourselves, such as . . . I’m not loved, wanted, worthy, good enough, smart enough, and so on, and go on to become the “theme” of our “life story” and what we use as the means of experiencing ourselves and shaping our identity as we grow into young adults. A complex comes as a whole dynamic (pattern) that’s played out at both the unconscious and conscious level. We maintain the behavior that we associate with causing the activity at an unconscious level as a way of initiating the dynamic, and then live it out with awareness where we form the illusion that the other person is “doing it to us”. We fail to see our part in co-creating it because we remain unaware of what it is we’re doing that produces a consistent response. Our “life theme” is what forms our perception of the world outside of ourselves and what we use to not only bring alive and rearrange our reality to match our interpretation, but as the means of creating ourselves (our character and identity) through a consistent type of experience that we build up over time.

A person who feels they’re “not good enough”, for example, will only “see” in any situation what can be used to create an experience of it, and will interpret any situation and set of behaviors being displayed by others to “mean”, once again, they’re not good enough. They will unconsciously continue to display the same type of behaviors that led to them feeling as if they weren’t good enough, and that caused others to treat them that way as a result, while remaining unaware of what they’re doing that’s causing it. If someone compliments or admires them, they’ll simply interpret it in a way that makes it out to mean whatever they need it to in order to keep telling their story about themselves. Such as, you’re just being nice, you don’t mean it, you’re not sincere, or you just want something from me. They’ll somehow interpret even the most positive intentions and behaviors to match their belief about themselves. This is how we get “locked into” a false reality produced by our own beliefs and can live our whole life out of a delusion without ever realizing it’s something we’re making up.

By the time our rational intellect starts developing and coming into play in a dominant role where we can form new interpretations from a rational perspective (starts around 12 to 14 years old, and is fully active around 21 to 28 years of age), we’ve already built up our story as strong feelings and beliefs about ourselves, and we use our creative mind to build a narrative out of our story instead of as the means of transforming it. By the time our conscious mind comes into play as our individuality, we’ve already established our mental model out of our conditioning and how we interpreted things as a child, and we continue to “see” and “create” the same type of experiences. This is because what we call our conscious mind is an aspect of our subconscious that’s birthed completely within the reality formed by our subconscious. Instead of using our conscious mind to dissolve our emotional delusions and begin telling a new kind of story, we use it as a means of embellishing our story and forming our identity out of it.

The Archetypal Design of our Soul as our Karmic Seed

Our karmic seed comes as our “inner nature” and personality as a form of archetypal design (revealed through our astrological birth-chart) based on how we’ve developed and grown ourselves in previous lifetimes, and by how we’ve created out of a unconscious state. This comes as a completely natural part of ourselves as our character, which forms our predisposition, temperament, natural tendencies, talents, special abilities, and interests in life. Our karma is “set-up” and reestablished through our formative conditioning through a “cause and effect” process of “stimulus – response”. Our life situation and family dynamics are always acting to stimulate and call forth certain aspects of our character, where they’re expressed and developed into habitual patterns through the dynamics being played out. Other parts of our character remain dormant and unstimulated and form what becomes the basis for our “latent potential”. Potential that remains dormant and undeveloped within us can only be activated naturally through live situations that serve to stimulate, awaken, and call it forth as a natural response where it’s then utilized as a means of handling the situation. We can also develop ourselves in a conscious manner by recognizing what lies hidden within us, and deciding to bring it forth and begin utilizing it by intentionally employing it in our daily life.

All “properties” have behaviors inherent in them that are only brought out and expressed through an interaction of complementary opposites. Its’ only through “contrast” as the natural relationship between opposites of the same idea that aspects of ourselves are brought into creative expression where we can use them to experience ourselves in new ways. As we create new experiences of ourselves, we start building up those experiences as a way of defining ourselves with new qualities. We can only work to develop qualities in ourselves when they’re being stimulated from an outside, complementary source of some kind, and are in an active state. Even when we decide to start utilizing latent aspects of our nature in a willful manner through imaginary processes, where we play out various scenarios while designing a new response that replaces an old one, we only know if it worked when we’re in a live situation where we’re actually being stimulated, and it comes forth as a natural response.

We often think we’ve formed new patterns that resolve and transform issues born out of our conditioning because we’ve developed and replayed them in our mind over and over, giving our subconscious a new pattern as an automatic response. But we don’t ever really know if it took hold and is permanent until we’re involved in a live interaction where strong emotions associated with our issue as an “activating device” are being openly displayed and projected towards us and we employ the new response without having to think about. However, what we can do in a live situation is immediately recognize what’s being activated within us and why, and through this awareness gain control of ourselves where we can use the new pattern we’ve rehearsed mentally as an alternative that can be employed without having to design it on the spot. Often, what the imaginary process does is give you an alternative reaction you can employ as a well-thought-out idea in the heat of the moment when you’re being emotionally triggered. One of the problems we can have in forming new responses is that in the moment when we’re being triggered by an outside stimulus we can’t think clearly and don’t have an alternative we can use in its place as a means of consciously managing the situation and bringing our own reaction under our control. When we change our own reactions and the behaviors and activities that automatically issue forth out of them, we begin transforming our experiences and our “self” by way of those experiences.

Removing False Ideas about Yourself

The first stage of transformation comes by separating out what’s false from what’s true. You must recognize and then remove ideas that you’ve taken on about yourself that were given to you by others, formed out of how others judged you, established through guilt, shame, or obligation, as a means of controlling you, or that you developed in order to be accepted by a particular social group. The most basic way to do this is by learning to recognize your own “essence” as a form of “design”. Step outside of the image you’ve built up in your mind about yourself, let go of the attachments you’ve formed to this idea about yourself, and begin soul-searching by asking yourself some basic questions. You know when your answer is true and therefor relevant, because in answering it a whole series of correlated realizations will spontaneously arise out of it as a chain of associated ideas that act to expand it.

Start off with questions like . . .

What have you always had a natural interest in and always felt compelled towards?
What is it you’ve always felt an attraction towards as a kind of affinity?
What kind of activities do you enjoy doing and look forward to with a sense of excitement and anticipation?
What kind of ideas fill you with a sense of purpose in life?
When you were a kid, what type of ideas and roles did you naturally aspire towards? Who were your favorite characters and types of stories?
What is it that you consistently gravitate towards and see yourself doing?
What is it that when you engage in it energizes you and gives you a deepened sense of satisfaction and well-being?
What type of situations make you feel like you’re in your element?
When you think about your life, what is it that you consistently see yourself doing as a kind of vision for your life?
What special abilities and natural talents do you have?
What kind of things do you love?
What kind of ideas give you a sense of purpose out of which a whole vision of your life naturally emerges as a vivid possibility?
As an adult, what roles do you naturally play in life? (caretaker, parent, teacher, activist, leader, innovator, problem-solver, encouraging others, etc.)
What skills have you developed that came natural to you?

If you answer these types of questions by “journaling about them” (writing out answers in an in-depth manner where other ideas spontaneously emerge), it’ll open a gate that allows you to access and touch upon deeper parts of yourself that may have been dulled and covered over, skewed to a new form, or conditioned out of you. Again, all answers must be based on you and only you and not from an idea someone else gave you or told you was true about you, or what you “should do and be like” as a form of judgment. This is purely your own feelings and ideas about yourself and your life that exist “within in”.

The important thing to remember here is that we’re all born into this life with a “vision” for our life that comes natural as a form of “seed”. We are “designed” with all the qualities and traits necessary to fulfill that vision through natural processes and by learning to utilize all of our potential through the activity the vision naturally requires. You don’t have to “try” to be who you really are because it’s built into your nature, and you do it naturally. The only “effort” you put into “becoming” is when you’re taking on and attempting to become something you’re not. Spirit always works through Universal laws as natural processes, which proceed out of our core being in an effortless manner as a kind of “flow”. When that flow is impeded and we cut ourselves off from our true source, we begin struggling in life, and have to apply great effort in trying to create because we’re working against or contrary to the natural laws.

Everything you need to create your life as your soul’s purpose in coming here, you’re born with. It resides inside of you as a seed that grows and blossoms. We don’t ever “acquire” anything from outside us that we don’t already have. The only purpose the outside serves is to stimulate and call forth into active expression what exist within us in a latent state. What we experience as an outer world is actually a projection as an extension or continuation of our inner world and is being naturally formed by us. It doesn’t exist apart from our ability to perceive it. All stimulation comes as an interaction between complementary opposites (of the same thing), where we first act through “resonance” to form the structure of our outer world, and it then acts on us to stimulate us through the relationship formed by latent, repressed, and unknown aspects of our own internal nature. What we imagine to be outside of us as traits we don’t already possess is because they are dormant within us, or we’ve repressed them through some form of judgment, and have become hidden and unknown to us as a result.

Recognizing and Integrating Your Shadow

The other part in the initial stages of self-realization and awareness of who you really are comes by learning to recognize fragmented aspects of yourself that you have disowned and denied having, even to yourself, due to how you were judged by others, and then began judging yourself in the same manner. The most primary part of our lower nature as our subconscious-instinctual self, is the desire to be accepted as a part of a group, with the most basic one being our family unit. When we’re judged as being bad, wrong, or deficient for natural character traits that we possess and openly express, it means we’re going to be rejected, ostracized, or alienated from our family or social group, and as a result, we refuse to “express” those parts of ourselves, and keep them buried deep inside instead. When we’re shamed and made to feel guilty about what exists as a natural part of us, we usually choose to deny and disown it, and we begin hiding it, often, even to ourselves.

As we form these fragmented hidden aspects of ourselves that we refuse to express, they stay “active” within us as a frequency and continue to create by remaining a natural part of our outer environment, which is being formed as a mirror image of our subconscious. Because we denied having them and buried them deep within our subconscious, we don’t recognize them as being ours, and in their active state they still motivate “unconscious behaviors” that we naturally display without a direct awareness of what we’re doing or why. Because we’re unaware of them while they’re still active at the unconscious level, they form the basis for our complexes as unconscious patterns we continue to play out with others, and form how we judge others through the reaction they naturally cause in us.

We all have a built-in mechanism for being able to recognize and accurately identify our own repressed character traits, so that we can begin working with them in a conscious manner. Once we realize that our entire outer environment, including our perception of others, is being projected (reshaped into a correlating construct) by our subconscious mind and includes the unknown aspects that lie hidden within us, we have the tools necessary to begin reevaluating them in a way that will allow us to integrate them in a healthy and productive manner. By realizing that these same traits and behaviors form a pronounced reaction in us and cause us to “judge others” in the same way we were judged and came to judge ourselves, we can bring them into the light of our conscious mind where we can examine them in a new and more productive way. We form a reaction outwardly to what exists inwardly that we’re unaware of. All accepted and known aspects of ourselves that also form a natural part of our outer perception don’t cause a reaction, seem completely normal and uneventful, or elicit a feeling of admiration and respect.

We’re also provided with an even deeper tool that allows us to become aware of why we repressed it, because our reaction is formed out of the same “judgment” that caused us to deny the same trait in ourselves. So, by examining the nature of our reaction and the story that naturally starts playing out in our mind as our internal dialogue with ourselves provides us with the whole equation we need in order to transform it in a way that we can incorporate it through a healthy and constructive expression that matches our image of ourselves and what “kind of person” we are. The reason we deny certain aspects of ourselves is because we don’t know how to express them in a way that fits or enhances the image we’ve built of ourselves, and we refuse to express them as a result.

We must start by realizing that every character trait, no exceptions, has an appropriate means of expression that’s constructive and beneficial in nature. When we assign ideas of “good and bad” or “right and wrong” to any aspect of ourselves, we judge ourselves as being wrong or bad for having those traits and decide instead to “deny” having them. As we form denial around certain parts of ourselves, we push them to the background where we lose awareness of them, yet they remain a fundamental part of our subconscious mind and continue to actively express as a natural part of our outer reality. Due to the fact that we’ve repressed and are no longer aware of them, we don’t recognize them as being ours when we see and react to them in others.

Our mind literally become fragmented, and we pose one part of ourselves against another part of ourselves. The disowned parts of us become what we call our “shadow” because they reside in darkness within us, and over time we lose our ability to “see them” in ourselves while continuing to judge others who openly express the same traits and activities. As we judge, we’re making something good or bad based on how we’re looking at it and the situation it’s actively expressing in. If we looked at that same idea from a different perspective and as expressing through a different situation, or in a different way, we might see it as good and perhaps beneficial or as providing us with the means for enhancing our ability to express ourselves in the right situation. If we judge something about ourselves as being bad or wrong it’s usually showing us that we’re simply not expressing it in an appropriate manner, and it’s destructive or harmful as a result, or it doesn’t suite the image we’ve built of ourselves as a specific type and kind of person.

There’s no such thing as a trait that’s all bad. Every trait serves a purpose and when utilized appropriately, creates in a beneficial manner. Anger for example, when formed as a reaction based on our conditioning nearly always tends to be destructive and harmful to ourselves and others, yet it can be an appropriate response to violence and injustice. Violence is an appropriate response when we’re protecting our family and loved ones from a threat of violence, and when protecting those who can’t protect themselves, or when it’s being used against us. So every aspect of ourselves becomes a beneficial tool for forming an appropriate response to correlating situations and the right circumstances. If it’s destructive and unwarranted, it’s showing us that we’re not using it appropriately, or that we’ve attached the wrong idea to it that’s limiting our ability to express it in a creative and beneficial way.

We only “fear” what we don’t understand, and out of fear comes hatred. The most natural way to overcome hatred is by looking to understand what it is we hate. We can only “love” what we understand. By taking an attitude of understanding, it allows us to look at something from an entirely different perspective and gain new awareness of it that allows us to transform hate into love. This is what the saying “love thy enemy” is trying to point out to us. All traits express through interactions and how it is we use them in relation with each other as a means of transforming them. This formula for transforming traits is laid out for us through what’s called the 7 vices and virtues, which exist as complementary opposites of each other. Each vice has its complementary virtue. If we set them apart where they’re opposing each other, and draw a line to connect them, we form a “gradient scale” between extremes of the same thing. We transform a vice by employing the complementary virtue in its place. By doing this consistently over a period of time, we build up experiences born out of virtues as an accumulative process where we steadily move from one end of the scale to the other. The object isn’t to swing from one extreme to the other, but rather find the middle point where they exist in balance and are being used as tools for creating by expanding our ability to express ourselves.

If we want to create peace in the world, we don’t do it by launching a campaign to protest war, we do it by cultivating peace in every area of our life and relationships. We become “peace” itself as a state of mind that produces a corresponding outer reality as an “experience of ourselves” as being peaceful. We embody peace as a quality of being and we exist in harmony with everyone and everything around us. If we live in fear, and are afraid of a lot of things, we act on ourselves to transform it by consciously choosing to employ “courage” instead and walk courageously into our fears. We can start with the smaller fears that are easier to manage, because what you’ll find with relatively little practice is that most of your fears aren’t real but are more a product of your imagination allowed to run wild. Fear is only designed to prevent us from taking action, and as soon as you take action to move forward in spite of fear, it immediately subsides and goes away. Once you begin realizing this and concentrate on creating experiences of being courageous and confident, you become empowered, and can easily transform the greatest of fears. This is because they all work by way of the same principles, which operate the same way in all areas of your life.

Returning to Wholeness

The main goal of our soul required for growing and evolving ourselves to higher levels of self-awareness and creativity, and ultimately ascension, is to learn how to integrate our shadow aspects so that we become fully self-aware and whole again, where we’re able to realize that we are the one creating our own reality. As we return to a state of wholeness by blending the inner with the outer as a harmonious continuation of each other, we become “coherent”. By becoming aware of the nature and relationship of our subconscious and self-conscious mind, we can learn how to operate each aspect using universal laws which provide us with explicit instructions on how to create from a fully conscious and self-aware state. As long as we remain unconscious and create our life from a semi-unconscious state where we fail to recognize the consequences we call upon ourselves through our own actions, we remain on the lower material plane as the victim of our own creation. We’re all here to wake up within our own life, realize our power to self-create, and learn how to operate our own mind as a means of creating in an intentional and responsible manner. Each one of us is the sole creator of our own life experiences, and out of those experiences we simultaneously create ourselves.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Realizing your True Self and Transcending the False Ego of Your Past

August 7, 2019March 9, 2023 Dr. Linda Gadbois

One of the most fundamental spiritual errors we make in life is in believing that we are the personality of our body and conditioning. As a human soul born into an animal body, we acquire the physical characteristics and ancestral memory that’s inherent in our genes. Our genetic makeup bestows us with the basic tendencies that are then developed by our family dynamics (those who share the same tendencies) as our formative conditioning that serves to birth our initial identity (ego). Through our formative conditioning we form a story about our self that becomes our life theme. As we grow into adults we take over the process of continuing to condition ourselves by living out of the same story. We usually do this without ever realizing that the only reason it holds true for us is because we continue to live our life as though it’s true. Many people (actually most), firmly believe that they “are” their personality as they were shaped by others and society, and have no real ability to change themselves. They live their entire life without ever realizing that they’re actually the “story-teller” and one that’s producing the reality of their story, rather than a mere consequence of the story itself.

As we come into this life and our soul acquires the qualities of our genetic makeup, we’re initially shaped by others and outside forces to strengthen and develop certain qualities while others remain latent and underutilized. We exist as children in a predominately unconscious state (of hypnosis) where we readily take in and internalize whatever consciousness is actively being expressed and demonstrated all around us. Whatever dynamics we’re apart of as a family structure, we become programmed with, and they serve to form the foundation for the story we begin telling ourselves as a means of making sense of things as we begin developing our conscious mind (between 8 and 21 years).

Our personality is formed from an unconscious state as a form of hypnotic programming that lays the foundation as a life theme for our identity to spontaneously emerge through our conscious development. As we begin thinking for ourselves and forming our own ideas about things (somewhere around puberty) we take over our own unconscious programming as our internal dialogue and the perceptual filters that we use for producing all of our experiences. We take over where our family left off, and our parent’s voice becomes our own internal voice and the means through which we interpret things to give them meaning through the story we begin telling ourselves about them. Our conditioning forms the basis for all of our initial internal dialogue as our means of thinking and processing information to form a consistent experience of our self, others, and the world around us. Out of this initial story-line as a life theme we consciously begin developing our identity by the roles we naturally take on and play through the relationship we form with the outer world and our life circumstances.

All of our primary memories are formed from significant emotional events in our life that had a strong impact of some kind that altered us in some way. The emotional impact came at a time when we couldn’t rationalize it in an objective manner, and so we processed the experience internally by making it all about us. As a child we perceive ourselves as being one with our family unit and haven’t yet developed the mental capacity to see ourselves as sovereign individuals. Whatever we hear being said about us by others around us we accept as being true without questioning it, and form beliefs about our self as a result. Through a basic form of hypnotic suggestion we’re given (subliminally programmed with) the same values, attitudes, perspectives, beliefs, emotional states, and behavioral dynamics as our family unit. We always shape ourselves to be just like our family, or what we imagine to be the opposite (relate or contrast), but either way, we still form ourselves by way of our family.

As we grow older we fall into a very specific and pronounced role within that dynamic and we begin developing ourselves based on what we’ve been taught to believe about ourselves and the way things are. Whatever other people say about us when we’re a child acts as a creative directive (hypnotic suggestion) for our subconscious to produce as a reality. The beliefs we form about ourselves as a child become our “core beliefs” out of which we form all of our other beliefs as a correlation, and ultimately becomes a form of “self-fulfilling prophecy”. What we call our soul’s “destiny” is usually the result of our conditioning as our “false identity”.

By the time our conscious and self-aware mind develops fully (around 21 to 28 years old), where we develop the powers of reasoning, discernment, and the ability to logically analyze things, and we separate emotionally from our parents and begin seeing our self as an individual, we’re already programmed and take over the process of conditioning (creating) ourselves by continuing to live out of our past. We continue to see ourselves and process our experiences as we’ve been taught to through our conditioning, and the voice of those who judged and criticized us becomes our own internal voice that we continue playing over and over in our mind.

How we Shape Ourselves

We all have a tendency to only live out of a handful of memories that we use as the means of constructing our story about ourselves and our life. These are the memories that had the greatest impact on us, and that we use in a continuous fashion to shape ourselves accordingly. There are many other memories that we could use that would contradict our story, or tell a different type of story altogether, but we choose to ignore and exclude those, and often, over time, forget them completely. This natural ability to select the memories that we use to build our life story out of is a demonstration of our soul’s true ability to create itself, but of course we usually fail completely to realize “how” our mind is operating to “create”, and focus instead on the conditioned content as what we’ve been taught to think and feel. We don’t know how to recognize the laws by which our mind works to create an image of ourselves “as” a certain type of person, and believe instead in the illusion of our own making.

My own experience of this as a realization came from a basic form of inner guidance that called me on my own story about things. One of the feelings I always had as a kid was that nobody knew me as I really am, and judged me instead to be the same as my family, which I was nothing like in the most basic sense. As a young adult I moved to a town where nobody knew me or my family, and as I was getting ready to walk through the doors of a restaurant I was working at, it seemed like a kind of metaphor for walking into a new reality, and a voice inside said . . . okay Linda, you’re always saying that people don’t know you for who you really are, so who are you? The only thing that people are going to know about you here is what you choose to tell them. No one knows anything about your past or what you’ve been through. And I decided at that point that I wasn’t going to talk about my past or my family.

What I immediately noticed is how people looked at me and how they treated me based on being myself. I felt a kind of heaviness had been lifted from me, and a strange, newfound freedom. Like I was standing in front of a blank canvas and deciding what I was going to create. I had a blank piece of paper where I could write whatever story I wanted to. As a result of never talking about my past and deciding I was going to create myself in a conscious manner, I began forgetting about the past and over time thought about it less and less. As I no longer chose to dwell in memories of the past, I began feeling different about myself and my life. My personal growth during this time was phenomenal and I slowly began transforming myself into a completely new type of person. The person I consciously decided to be.

Many years later, when I finally opened up and talked briefly about my childhood and what I went through growing up, people that knew me were shocked. They had no idea and thought I had come from a well-to-do family, had an extensive education, and was nurtured as a child by loving parents. As time went on, many years later, when I would talk about the crazy stuff we did as kids (I had 3 older brothers), instead of talking about it as abuse and tragedy, I decided I was going to embody the outlook and attitude of two of my favorite fictional characters, Tom Sawyer and Huckleberry Finn, and I re-told the stories of my past in a humorous and adventurous way. All of my stories about running away, hoping trains to who knows where, and living in forts on the streets became exciting adventures of exploration and freedom. I retold the exact same experiences from and entirely different perspective, and as a result changed the memories themselves in terms of how I “experienced” them and how I felt about myself as a result. I literally recreated myself using the same memories as life events while experiencing them in a whole new way. This was my first lesson in the art of self-transformation.

Now, as a fully mature person who has lived many lives in the course of this life and personality, I hardly ever talk about my past or myself in the general sense, and instead practice being present, talk about ideas and what my life is about currently. I’ve grown so much in terms of my ability to create myself intentionally that I don’t even relate to the little girl in my memories anymore. Many people see me as mysterious and a bit hard to get to know, without realizing that it’s because I no longer choose to live from my unconscious conditioning of the past, and instead identify with my true self as a universal being that’s the “storyteller” and the one creating the reality rather than the hypnotized personality still living out of the past and how I was shaped by others.

To wake-up in life isn’t to “heal from the past” by going through years of therapy where you “work through the issues of your past”, which usually only causes you to become even more identified with your past and the need to tell about “what happened to you” as a means of explaining why you’re the way you are. It comes instead through realizing who you really are as a soul and identifying instead with being the one who’s doing the creating by way of the story you keep telling yourself and others, often referred to as “your truth”. It’s detaching from your own past memories formed as a child when you had no real self-awareness and assuming the position of being the one who’s creating an image of yourself and producing the reality of your life “as” that story. You decide that you no longer need to keep telling that story as an expression of who you are, and you let go of it as a result. You no longer present yourself through the stories of your past and realize instead that you can create in the present whatever experience of yourself you want to by simply choosing to operate your own mind and imagination in an intentional manner.

What we think of as our “self” is formed out of memories. Our memories only remain alive if we continue to give them life in the present by constantly reliving them in our imagination. To change the self, you have to change the memories that serve to form it. All memories are actually something we create by how we interpret the events of our life out of whatever emotional state we were in at the time. By constantly reliving the memories over and over keeps us locked into the same emotional states. Whatever memory we play out and the emotion it keeps us infused with forms all of our natural perceptions, behaviors, and activities. You don’t change a memory by reinterpreting it to give it new meaning, but by “experiencing” the same event from a different perspective and attitude that causes you to “feel different” and elicits a different emotion in response to it. We evolve and transform ourselves by re-imagining our life experiences. All will to create lies in masterful use of your own imagination.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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