Recognizing how You’re Programming Yourself to Create and Maintain the Life You’re Living

Posted On March 23, 2023 / Written by Dr. Linda Gadbois

One of the things that makes it difficult to understand how our own mind works in creating our reality comes in the fact that we have two aspects that work harmoniously with each other at the subtle level. These two primary aspects of our mind, called the subconscious and conscious mind, perform different functions in forming what we experience as a coherent and consistent experience of reality. This idea becomes even more elusive due to the fact that what we tend to call our conscious, self-aware mind, while in our physical body and outer material projection, is actually an aspect of our subconscious that simply acts to witness and form an experience of our life from within and as an essential part of our own creation, while our true conscious mind, which resides on a higher outer plane, is what’s directing and orchestrating the whole process in a completely natural way.

We can gain a practical understanding of how our mind works in creating and maintaining our personal reality by breaking it down into polar aspects and examining how these twin aspects function in creating a greater whole that’s a mirror image of our inner mental model. These same principles and processes operate fluently throughout the natural world as being the generative power and seed of all living beings, each of which forms an intrinsic part and function in producing and maintaining a dynamic ecosystem that’s self-generating, self-perpetuating and self-sustaining. The same universal principles at work in all of nature and the cosmos, are also at work in our own mind and creation. The problem lies in the fact that the larger part of the process takes place at a primarily unconscious level, where we don’t realize what we’re doing in the most basic sense because it functions consistently in an automated fashion. This is further compounded by the fact that the very basis for the mind and the reality it projects appears to be paradoxical in nature, where one seems to contradict the other, while both are true in the fundamental sense.

The Whole and the Part

What appears paradoxical in nature comes as polar opposites that are complementary in nature and function as mirror images of each other, where what exists as a unified whole on one level, appears as a correlated array of dynamic parts on another level, making it difficult to realize they’re actually different locations and perspectives of and within the same thing. When we’re outside looking inward, everything appears as an aspect of our self and inner nature, yet when inside looking out those same aspects appear separate and often posed against each other. This natural illusion makes it difficult to comprehend in the basic sense of being produced and kept alive through the activity of our own mind in relation to everything else.

It poses the question . . . are our thoughts the summation and narrative formed out of all our life experiences or is our life experiences being systematically produced as an outer expression of our own thoughts? These appear to contradict each other in the most basic sense when we don’t realize that our mind and soul, like reality itself, exist through the activity and relationship of dual, polarized aspects that work together in forming both an inner and outer reality constructed of polarized light. Let’s look deeper into this universal law in terms of understanding how our own mind works in constructing our thoughts and feelings into an outer world as a means of allowing us to experience ourselves through our own mental creation.

We all have two aspects of our mind that work harmoniously at the subtle level to create an outer matrix of light that’s highly organized and dynamic. Our subconscious is the negative pole while the conscious is the positive pole of the same spherical shape (spinning vortex). the subconscious is passive and receptive while the conscious is active and projective, this means that at the physical level, the subconscious takes in the thought-seed of the conscious mind and gestates it by building it into our existing mental model (etheric matrix), where it then becomes perceivable as a natural part of our outer world. These two aspects then reverse polarity, and the self-organized outer world is drawn back in as self-awareness, where it’s translated into an experience by being integrated back into the very model that projected it initially, forming a memory of it. The experience and memory formed upgrades and further solidifies the mental, etheric model, forming the basis for habitual thought which forms a narrative as a constant form of internal dialogue.

Our mental paradigm, which is shaped initially through our souls inner nature and the dynamic patterns of our formative conditioning, becomes the basis of the story that we’re constantly telling ourselves through our thoughts about things. This can be easily understood by reflecting on your own internal processes and thoughts, where one part of you is always in the process of explaining, describing, justifying, and validating things by fitting them into an ongoing story that follows a distinct theme. We’re always in the process of telling ourselves a story about things that give them meaning. Through the meaning we give things, our story naturally emerges and plays out in a congruent fashion. Sometimes this story is direct in terms of pertaining to us, other times it defines others by fitting them into our story, and at other times they’re more generalized in terms of ‘the way the world is’ as an all-inclusive idea, all of which are an outgrowth of our main theme and storyline. All three levels of perception; our self, others, and the way the world is in general, are formed out of our mental model as a relationship we have with ourselves on different levels and scales at once.

Once we recognize this, it allows us to see deeper into our own creation, where we not only form ourselves (mind and soul) as our body and personality, but also as the entire reality in which we live and actively express as a means of experiencing ourselves through a greater whole of our own making. The outer world is at once objective and set apart from us, while also subjective and being shaped by us through our perception of it. While we tend to build a hypothesis around the idea of there being a reality that exists apart from us, happening on its own and independent of us, upon closer examination we realize that what we experience as an outer world is actually being produced through our ability to perceive it, and our perception is formed out of our mental paradigm, which is fashioned through the interpretation of our own mental projection. This is a very fundamental paradox that makes understanding our own mind and the outer world being shaped by our mind difficult to understand as being the ‘same thing’.

This becomes even more complicated when we acknowledge that there truly is what we can call an objective, neutral reality that everyone shares in common (nature and created things), formed as a universal construct described in spiritual texts as the original creation, which laid the foundation for us to form our own personalized version as the means of experiencing ourselves, and coming to know ourselves as and through our own mental projection. This idea becomes even more dynamic and sophisticated when we also realize that all human and creative beings are comprised psychologically of the same cosmic archetypes, represented by the 12 primary archetypes of the Zodiac, whose attributes and qualities combine in varying degrees and proportions to form unique personalities that all play different roles in creating correlating cosmic themes together as a dynamic part of much larger patterns.

Every aspect of what we perceive as existing outside of us, is also an intrinsic part of us at the subtle level of the mind and spirit. This is why every aspect and element of our outer world serves to reflect back to us and aspect of ourselves, simply playing out in a novel or unique way. When we experience an attribute and characteristic being actively expressed by another, we immediately relate it to that same quality and characteristic in ourselves. In the same way, whatever quality is being actively expressed outside of us acts through ‘resonance’ to stimulate and bring forth that same quality in us. Our inner world is constantly being called into an active state by the outer world, and vice versa, because they’re polar opposites of each other, and everything comes into ‘existence’ through their activity and relationship. The entire phenomenal world is shaped, held together and brought alive with activity through the dynamic interaction of correlated frequencies. Reality itself is a matrix of ‘living light’ that’s a coherent sphere formed out of polarized light, where the whole is comprised of correlated parts, and the parts all play a specialized role in producing the whole.

Relationship of the Conscious and Subconscious Mind

Our subconscious and conscious, likewise, play different roles in co-creating a greater reality as a cohesive unit. Polar aspects can only be reconciled by forming a third element. In terms of each aspect of our mind, which form our inner nature, our conscious mind speaks the language of words and verbal thoughts, while our subconscious speaks the language of pictures and images that imitate memory. Our subconscious functions in an automated fashion using the patterns and themes of memory, which are activated and set in motion by emotional impulses. Our conscious mind forms our awareness and ability to discriminate and reason, which is the creative aspect of the storyteller. It creates by thinking, and forming ideas into conceptual images and scenarios that follow its own distinct storyline. Our conscious mind is the architect which designs the blueprint, and our subconscious is the builder, who takes the blueprint and builds it into an outer reality where it can be attained through experience. This is done in the same way a male provides the seed, which is comprised of everything needed to produce a living form in its latent state, and the female conceives the seed and builds it into a material being using her own physical essence, and then births it as a natural part of the existing outer world.

The conscious aspect of the mind forms an idea in its seed form as a thought turned into a picture, image, or scenario, that’s archetypal in nature as a generic prototype for producing a thematic form and reality. The subconscious, takes in the seed-thoughtform as a metaphorical template which it then constructs by molding it into the existing memory-base (mental model), modifying it so it can be perceived as a natural part of our own mental projection. As we build it into our mental paradigm in a congruent way, it becomes a mental filter and aspect of our perceptual lens that we look through to see our own mental creation as an outer world, which we then use as the means of experiencing ourselves and coming to know ourselves through and as contained within our own mental projection.

This evolutionary process of creation however, takes place on two levels at once, where the virtual memory-idea formed on the higher (inner) level of pure imagination, and projected outward to form a sensory experience, is then drawn back in as real (sensational), and again molded into the same model that projected it as an interpretation formed by building it back into our own storyline where it becomes a permanent record of our souls activity as a complete cycle of creation (represented by the infinity symbol). This translation takes place between the higher and lower, which becomes the basis for the inner and outer, and its only turned into both a structured memory as a life theme and our character as our essential nature, when the cycle is complete and the two become fused together forming a single unit. This principle is represented symbolically in its most basic form by the cross, and more precisely as the center point where the vertical and horizontal lines intersect, and by the infinity symbol of a figure 8, which functions as a complete cycle that repeats in an infinite, self-perpetuating manner.

What this shows us is that as we think through a form of self-talk, while picturing what we’re talking to ourselves about, we’re literally acting on ourselves to program our own subconscious in producing the outer reality of our thoughts. Most of our thoughts are formed out of our mental paradigm and memories of the past, which is the most basic way we continue to create more and more experiences of the past in the present, and how we stay stuck in repeating the same patterns over and over. As we dwell in a memory of some kind that had a strong emotion associated with it, we’re literally telling our subconscious to ‘give us more of the same type of experiences’ that give us more of the same type of feelings, and being the obedient servant it is, it does. This is how our mind works to form a congruent type of experience throughout our lifetime.

In this way, the theme and story formed out of our past experiences become the basis for our present experiences, while strengthening the foundation for future experiences of the same kind and type. This is easy to recognize as we mature and get older, and we begin realizing that the same group of patterns are consistently playing out in our life in different ways. Even when we come into new situations or environments with a new group of people, we create the same type of experiences in a new way. We adapt our carefully honed thematic idea to the new situation, modifying it to produce a variation where it plays out in a somewhat different way, while still holding truth to telling the same story and creating more of the same type of experiences.

As we think, we’re creating the reality of our thoughts, and experiencing ourselves through our thoughts. This gets confusing and seems elusive because our thoughts seem to be produced by our experiences, while also being what forms and determines our experiences. We tend to believe our thoughts form a narrative out of our experiences, where they’re explaining and describing reality as it exists independently of us and is happening all around us beyond our ability to influence or control it, and while this is true in one sense, in another sense, it’s our thoughts about reality that act to shape and determine how it appears to us. One is formed from the inside looking out, the other from the outside looking in, and they exist as complimentary aspects which work together in forming the same thing. In one we’re actively creating, and in the next we’re on the receiving end experiencing our own creation, and together they shape both our inner nature and character, and the outer world constructed out of memory. What we first project outward influencing everything to take on the appearance it does, is then absorbed upon its return, stimulating us with our own projection. As the return resonates with correlating aspects, maintaining them in an actively expressing state, we build momentum in maintaining a single state as an energetic frequency.

Once we become aware of how it is that we’re programming our own subconscious to first construct and then maintain a consistent reality of our own making, we can learn how to discipline our own habitual thoughts which usually run unchecked, and begin forming intentional ideas as sensory realities in our imagination that will provide our subconscious with a pattern for building into our existing reality. The idea has to be made using sensory attributes that bring it alive with sensation and which acts to naturally generate positive emotions in response to it. The sensory reality infused with positive emotions becomes the creative directive for our subconscious to use in place of an actual memory, to form more and more experiences of the same feeling and kind. By learning how to take control of our own imaginary thoughts we can direct our own creation and impose a direction on our life in an intentional and purposeful manner. 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Transpersonal Psychologist, Mind-Body Health Consultant, and Spiritual Teacher