Becoming Self-Aware: Learning to Observe Yourself

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The starting point of all forms of Self development begins by becoming ‘aware’ of how your mind functions on a normal basis while you’re not tending it, or realizing what’s happening internally, and why. In order to begin observing ourselves requires us to learn how to take on a dissociated position as a form of “second person perspective”. We move outside of the direct experience we’re always involved in with our own internal dialoguing and feelings, and we simply take a perspective of observing our natural thoughts, and the natural processes that are always taking place within us as the basis for creating our everyday, moment by moment experiences as a relationship and interaction with everyone and everything around us. We’re constantly creating our life experiences by how we feel, think, and what memories we use as templates for rerunning and reforming our present experiences to mean the same thing, and be about the same thing as our past experiences.

 
The first key to all forms of introspection, self-reflection, and self-observation, is to realize that at no point in the process do we judge ourselves for what we feel and think, nor do we ever get involved in the dialogue of judging, explaining or justifying what we think, why we’re thinking it, and what we do. Because strangely enough, what you’ll find is that just as we defend our perspectives and behaviors to others, there’s an aspect of our internal dialogue that even justifies to ourselves why we think and do what we do as a means of making it okay, which allows us to “keep it”. Our goal here, in self-reflecting, is taking an objective perspective to simply begin realizing what type of thoughts we think on a regular basis, for no particular reason, or as a part of redundant thoughts born out of a theme we’re always playing out in our mind as a way of interpreting our outer reality by way of our inner reality which comes largely from a completely unaware state of automatic feelings, modes of thinking, and dwelling in memories of some sort that we replay constantly when we’re not focused on anything in particular, as a form of random or entertaining type of thoughts, that are for the most part habitual in nature.

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To begin this practice, you have to simply make a commitment to it, and remind yourself periodically throughout your day, when it’s convenient, to simply stop what you’re doing, and become aware of what you’ve been thinking about. What type of story we’re you running through your mind, what type of description or explanation were you giving about something, or what memory were you rethinking about? Sometimes we run abstract ideas through our mind from a TV show we watched, a line in a movie, a song that we heard, something someone said to us, an article we read, something we’re curious about, wondering about, or as a form of anticipation of what’s going to happen in a situation much like a form of prophecy. Whatever it is, simply notice what it is, and become aware of it. Allow yourself to simply notice what it is that runs through your mind unattended.

 
As you begin becoming aware of the type of thoughts you tend to think without intention, allow yourself to also recognize what memories you’re always in the process of thinking about and running through your imagination in a variety of scenarios, and that you use to form predictions of the future by reliving them in the present. Stop and observe what ideas you run through your mind as a means of anticipating an event or activity. Then, allow yourself to notice how you “feel” based on what you tend to think about. What emotions and moods you tend to be in as a result of your thinking and imagining. Notice that all memories as a generalized idea that plays out a theme of some sort which have a distinct mood or emotional atmosphere to them. As you replay them, it causes you to feel the same way you felt when you were experiencing the memory. Just by thinking about them, makes you feel the same way. Allow yourself to notice how your thoughts are connected to your feelings. How thoughts and emotions are always connected. When you think about happy experiences, you feel happy. When you think about sad experiences, you feel sad. And how these emotions, feelings, and moods is either what cause you to think about whatever you’re thinking about, or they’re produced because you’re thinking about whatever you’re thinking about.

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As you go through your day and someone or something causes an emotional reaction in you, have the awareness to stop in the middle of it, refrain from reacting to it, and simply observe what’s happening inside your body. Notice the distinct sensations you’re feeling in certain parts of your body that have certain qualities to them, such as, a tingling, jolting, buzzy, sinking, butterflies, sharp, dull, painful, arousing, and so on. As you recognize how it makes you feel, also notice what memory you associate the feeling too, and what behavior its prompting you to do. How do you want to act in reaction to it? What natural behavior would it normally cause in you if you weren’t refraining from acting? Notice the connection between an emotional trigger, the memory you associate to it, and the behavior inherent in it. This is what forms “reactions” as unconscious behaviors that are formed from a memory of some sort. Again, don’t judge or try to justify what’s happening, simply notice it. Become aware of it.

 
Also, as you go through your day, allow yourself to notice how the emotional energy of others feels. Become aware that you’re constantly picking up on the emotions of others, and they’re affecting you in a somewhat indirect and subtle, if not very direct manner. Then, as in the previous lessons, allow yourself to notice how their emotions “affect” (or infect) you by entering into or moving through you, and stimulating in you those same emotions and feelings. Become aware of how your body is being stimulated by the emotions being displayed around you. Notice how you can sense the energy of a room just by walking into it from the outside. How the room holds the energy of the people and activities being conducted or experienced by the people within it. And again, simply notice how the emotional atmosphere forms the same type of feelings in you just by being “in it”.

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As you become more self-aware, you simultaneously become more aware of others and your environment. You can start becoming aware of what is normally happening inside of you and too you by your environment and your own thoughts. You can become aware of what memories you tend to hang onto and continue living out of that shaping your current perception of things, what you connect to first internally, then externally, and what mood or emotional state you tend to live out of as a result. You can begin becoming aware of how others directly affect and influence you just through the nature of the energy exchange that’s taking place as feelings, thoughts, emotions, and behaviors. You can begin shedding light on what’s normally operating in a habitual manner outside of your direct awareness. Just the awareness alone helps you to begin taking conscious control over your own thoughts, imagining, and emotional states.

 
We can only work with what we have a conscious awareness and basic understanding of. Becoming self-aware is the first step to moving into the practices that involve self-mastery by being able to not only control your own state of mind, but being able to direct your life by intentionally using your awareness of how feelings, thoughts, emotions, memories, and what we imagine as live scenarios directly affect how we first create our experiences, then use them as future memories to create more of the same type of experiences. We can obtain a new level of awareness around our relationships and how others act to influence us, what they activate and bring out in us, and how they serve to develop those tendencies in us. By becoming aware of what we were previously unaware of, we can see how it operates on us, through us, and because of us, and we can begin consciously controlling it and redirecting it in a more favorable manner. We can learn how to use positive memories and thoughts to automatically produce a positive state of mind. We learn how to stay present in our life instead of being caught up in endless distractions that keep us unconscious in the most basic sense. As with all things . . . awareness is the key! We can only work with what we’re aware of.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Transformational Coaching

Professional Development

Mind-Body Integration

 

About the author:
Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
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Internal Dialogue – “Natural Form of Self-hypnosis”

Scorpio_KayagaMany people believe that self-hypnosis is a technique or process that has to be studied and learned in order to be proficiently practiced. Yet, in reality, we are always engaged in self-hypnosis as the most fundamental behavior of the mind that we naturally engage in without realizing it. All operations of the mind are not foreign ideas that have to be sought after and learned in order to be able to do, but rather simply becoming fully aware of how we use our mind in an ordinary and ongoing manner.

We are constantly engaged in a form of thinking as internal dialogue that’s always telling us stories about people and things, wondering about something, describing something, explaining things, and creating an internal reality out of feeling emotions. All of this is the most basic and natural way that we act to program ourselves by use of our own mind-body system. The foundation of hypnosis is a relaxed and therefore receptive state (no resistance or challenging (your own) ideas), while being given suggestions as dialogue that you simultaneously picture in your mind as a image or object, scenario, or living reality as the conceptualization of what you’re telling yourself. This is the most natural way the conscious (thinking – talking) mind gives directives as commands or imaginary prompts to the subconscious (feeling – experiential) mind, which turns them into realities that appear real and create an internal experience of the thoughts, which become a form of virtual substitute memory that acts like a template for creating outer experiences that match the internal ones.

The conscious mind programs the subconscious mind by giving it instructions for what type of idea to make into a reality. The reality is a self-creation that not only provides a memory-template for the subconscious mind (which operates through memory) to create instant realities of the same nature, but also acts to hone our vibratory frequency to that reality, while simultaneously revealing our vibratory frequency as an expression, while also “asking” for more of the same thing.

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Our internal dialogue as our most basic form of self-expression is also the most primary form of prayer that ‘asks’ for a certain type of experience through the universal language of sensory enhanced imagery formed in our imagination by us. We shape our own reality by how we use our imagination to first create it as on ongoing thematic story-line internally, tuning our vibration to that state-of-mind, which then acts as a mental filter or lens for restructuring our external reality to be ideal for telling the same type of story. We only ‘see’ and use the elements necessary for creating a story by how we interpret other people’s behaviors, situations or events. We reform our external reality to match our internal by how we interpret it to give it meaning. The meaning becomes the basis for the story that shapes the experience we create out of it. In any situation or event, we only notice and abstract what can be congruently used to tell the same type of story we hold as a life theme. Whatever doesn’t match or naturally lend itself to the telling of our thematic story, we don’t notice or react to.

Our subconscious mind, which is equivalent to our body-consciousness, produces behavior to act out whatever story as a reality it has been programmed with, through memory of some form. Whatever we think about that has strong feelings and emotions attached to it, which is why we keep thinking about it, while running it through our mind repeatedly and imagining it as different scenarios being played out in a variety of ways, is programming ourselves to naturally create those type of experiences as a general theme that’s congruent with our life’s story.

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We naturally engage in this process most of the time without direct awareness of what we’re actually doing. Naturally any experience that has a strong emotional impact anchors that memory in our body, making it compulsive. We tend to dwell in it, and think about it constantly throughout the day as normal random thinking and daydreaming. As we run thoughts through our mind repetitively we program ourselves to the frequency of those thoughts, not only seeing them readily and reacting to them in others and in our environment, but we also magnetize ourselves according to those thoughts (which are imprinted in our Astral (mind) field) and draw to ourselves people and situations ideal for creating more of those same type of experiences.

So the most basic form of self-mastery as self-realization and creation, is not only to master our own internal dialogue and what we focus on, think about and picture in our mind as a potential experience, but to use it intentionally and in a deliberate manner to program ourselves with positive ideas that strengthen virtuous qualities within our character that tell naturally express by telling beautiful, adventurous, and meaningful stories of your own choosing that enrich our sense of well-being and our ability to enjoy and relax into our own life. Whatever you tell yourself as an imaginary thought-process, you become. The trick to anchoring the thought is to imbue it with strong feelings and emotions that make it appealing and compelling. Feel the thought by shaping it with sensory definition (what are you seeing, hearing, feeling, telling yourself) creating it as a living experience in your mind’s eye, and begin programming yourself in a way that allows healing and a sense of empowerment within your own life. Take control of your life by consciously using your mind to self-create and become self-determined as a result.

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Hypnosis and Guided Meditation

Transformational Coaching

About the author:
Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
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Becoming Self-Aware: Spiritual Guidance is a Form of Hypnotic Suggestion

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By learning the principles of the mind involved in programming ourselves for certain types of experiences or as a form of ongoing storytelling that follows distinct themes, we can simultaneously realize that we exist in a primary state of hypnotic trance that connects us to multiple dimensions as inner and outer (parallel) and upper and lower (hierarchy). Through our self-conscious “thinking” mind, our subconscious “emotional-experiential” mind, and our higher “idea oriented” mind, when unified form holistic patterns that contain the full content of a living reality as a spontaneous unfolding that comes as a chain-of-association, where the subconscious exists as the passive and receptive medium between the other two aspects of the mind, where thoughts and ideas are readily taken in without editing or resistance and constructed into full imaginary realities.

 
What ties the upper plane to the lower is the subconscious which accepts patterns as programming from the upper plane and develops them into a form of memory as an actual (imagined) reality. Likewise, the conscious mind which is the offspring of the subconscious mind and exists (lives and dies) fully within the physical plane, also has the ability to program the subconscious mind through “thoughts” that become the basis for imagined realities that create virtual memories as templates for producing outer experiences of the same nature. The problem is it often doesn’t realize that it has this power, and so its thoughts are usually controlled instead by the subconscious mind through emotional states, and replaces what has the potential to be “original thoughts” with thoughts that are based on a series of associated memories. So while the conscious mind has the ability to create by forming original thoughts that it gives to the subconscious to create new experiences out of, instead, it tends to spend its creative ability thinking about the past and creating variations of the same type of experiences.

 
The self-conscious mind, which is the “local” mind identified with the body, birthed within this life and the conditions and circumstances of the body, is primarily held to the laws of the physical realm, and so tends to be logical, rational, and analytical, while lacking intuition. The conscious mind is also time bound (located) and spends most of its time distracted “in time” as thinking about the past, reliving memories over and over by bringing them into the present, or using the past to try and anticipate the future. The conscious mind is hardly ever present and therefore dwells in the imaginary realities of its own making that it uses in place of actual reality as a form of illusion or dreamlike state that forms a veil that conceals the true nature inherent in the “present” reality as objective, neutral, and non-personal. The conscious mind is the story-teller that reshapes objective reality into subjective experiences out of conceptualized representations that it then mistake’s for objective reality. It’s so caught up in the illusions build out of of its own memories, that it lives most of its life in a primarily unconscious, unaware, and delusional state. A true paradox, resolved only through awareness that brings self-realization of what we’re actually doing.

Even though the subconscious mind works out of memory, it exists outside of time, is always present, and perceives objective outer reality through actual emotions and sensations as a basic form of sympathetic resonance. It’s always interacting with other conscious energy in its environment, and though its programmed by memory to produce automatic behavior and regulate bodily processes in response to the information its constantly receiving from its environment, it doesn’t make up stories or think verbal, language oriented thoughts that serve to mask reality, and is always experiencing things as they actually are, instead of by way of a personalized perception (judgment) that distorts fact by telling a story about it that makes it mean something that transform it into a personal creation.

 
The subconscious is therefore never the “creator” of memory that distorts outer reality, but is “one with” the outer reality and sensing it as it really is. The subconscious forms memory out of “actual” experiences that are then utilized for practical use by recalling them in the imagination giving it a response pattern as an instant perception that produces automatic behaviors as the most appropriate response (instinct). The subconscious doesn’t know the difference between a memory created from an actual experience, and one created by imagining an experience that elicits a strong sensory-emotional response. This is because actual memory is recalled in the imagination as a means of “playing or reading” it, just as an imagined experience is played in the imagination as an actual scenario or living reality.

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Likewise, just as the conscious mind can give the subconscious a thought that it will turn into a reality as an imagined experience that converts it from a series of words into the native tongue of the subconscious as an archetype or holistic pattern that’s a universal memory, which can be introduced into the subconscious as a way of giving it a prime directive that it’ll convert into a memory which is recalled in the imagination and becomes the basis for producing a corresponding outer reality as a personal experience of that idea. The subconscious, which doesn’t think in terms of “stories” as reliving memory, and doesn’t “make up” the memory out of it’s own conditioning that it then uses to produce physical realities and regulate biological processes designed to maintain equilibrium between the inner and the outer, and the upper and the lower, is the “medium” which “receives information” as ideas and patterns, from either the conscious-thinking mind, or the higher-feeling mind as vibration that shapes light into realities by imagining them, is being programmed from outside its present state and readily produces the physical equivalent of the thoughts and ideas its given.

 
When directives come from the conscious mind as thoughts attached to intense emotions, born out of recycled memories from the past, they are often fragmented, sporadic, and incoherent. They lack consistency because they’re not based on the actual conditions and circumstances of the present, but an illusion that’s replacing them that are no longer real or alive except in the imagination. When ideas come from the higher plane of our spiritual parent, they are holistic, have all the components for producing a harmonious reality and are directly connected to larger patterns currently being played out on a greater scale as a cohesive orchestration that brings about synchronistic connections and opportunities necessary to fulfill them, creating a new pattern as a natural form of evolution. By creating experiences that grow and expand us into new experiences, we create new memories of those experiences that program and upgrade our existing mental paradigm to produce more of the same type of experiences as an outgrowth.

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Spiritual guidance, working by way of natural laws that govern the mind, work through the induction of ideas as feelings that produce strong emotional imagery as dream-like, virtual realities that act as “memory” for the subconscious, which connects to that same idea in the external environment through resonance, and directs (influences) the conscious mind which forms thoughts of the same idea, creating a unified affect. When the three minds are resonating to the same vibratory pattern for creating reality in a harmonious and coherent manner, a quickening takes place, and things can come by what feels like magical means. Things come as a spontaneous series of synchronistic coincidences that systematically unfold into a whole new experience, which comes easily because there’s no resistance counteracting it.

 
But what usually happens instead, because most people don’t understand the different aspects of their own mind or maintain an awareness of how they operate to produce their own life experiences, is spirit communicates thru feelings and mental impressions, that the conscious mind either ignores completely because it’s too caught up in its own illusion, or it resists by doubting it, arguing with it, or attempting to change it so it can keep telling the same story. If it doesn’t “fit into” our story, we change it so it does, distorting it. The subconscious mind is then caught in the conflict, one canceling out or contradicting the other, and so whatever one is more persistent or intense, wins out. Because the higher mind is not “of” the material plane and is “subtle” in nature and comes as intuitive notions or impressions around things, the conscious mind as the voice in our head usually wins out because its active on the material plane and is bound by the identity of its own creation, that determines what it can naturally align with and what it can’t. In order to tell a new story to create a new experience of ourselves requires surrender and self-sacrifice by the self-conscious mind of the identity and ego, which usually chooses to argue instead, and passionately defends its story while justifying its right to keep it. This self-made identity becomes the ego as the “false self” which creates itself purely by way of the physical realm and the story it tells itself about who it is and why.

 
The self-conscious mind, through self-realization and awareness, also has the ability to forfeit its illusion in favor of a new story that will evolve and grow it into new realities that offer brand new experiences that will transform and evolve the identity to a higher and new form of expression. But in order to accept the guidance of the Higher-self, we have to realize our story is a mere fabrication as a story we began telling ourselves in an attempt to make sense of things by making them “mean something”, that we then ultimately used as the basis for conditioning ourselves to that story. By giving up our story, we come face-to-face with our identity, and we realize that we don’t know how to tell another story. In opening ourselves to tell a new type of story we have to expose ourselves to being vulnerable and trusting that we’ll know what to do in a brand new situation, and embrace our creativity with a kind of enthusiastic anticipation of the possibilities.

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By embracing and standing in our creativity, while fully sensing the insecurity it brings as a lack of “knowing” and reassurance that everything’s going to be alright, and stepping wide-eyed into the unknown filled with a sense of anticipation, and a deep seated fear we struggle frantically to manage by containing it, we can return ourselves from a stationary redundant position of habitual routines, to one of fresh newness and intense stimulation, that courageously encounters and resolve our fears, and as a result evolving us into more and more expansive forms of growth that force us from our prison of fear by willfully transforming our limited beliefs. It’s our beliefs about ourselves that confine us to a mundane existence of struggling and suffering to desperately maintain boredom out of fear of change. Change brings growth and stimulates new qualities in us that transform us from the outside-in, and from the inside-out. The Spirit, which is pure potential as consciousness that shapes reality (astral light) out of ideas (vibratory patterns), exists in a fundamental state of creativity as an evolutionary flow that moves spontaneously from one idea into another. No resistance or containing, simply a joyful expansion into new parts of itself that it comes to know for the first time in a fleeting moment of unfolding and enfolding.

 
Spirit is always urging us to continue growing and expanding by returning our story to an evolving state of continuous growth and development. When we get stuck in redundant patterns and refuse to willingly move out of them through fear of not knowing who we are or if we’ll be okay, spirit is always gently prompting us to resolve patterns and reform into new ones. We often receive (are aware of) guidance at certain points, but are unwilling to utilize it or cling to the need to know how it will turn out before we’re willing to try, encountering first hand the very fears that limit us to those patterns that we consistently back-down to, each time, dying a little more, securing our prison wall formed of imaginary fears that only exist because of the power we give them in determining us. After denouncing creative ideas and refusing to act on them as the pathway to our destiny, we shut down communication, and resort to praying only in moments of desperation or mental anguish, and because we have become indifferent to the messages we receive as the answers that will require us to act powerfully in our own lives, we feel “no messages” are coming through, experience a form of disconnect, then imagine we’ve been abandoned by God. Usually, without ever realizing that it was us that first abandoned God and ourselves, all in the same act of choosing to ignore all the answers we don’t like, or that seem to difficult, and then resort to asking the same questions over and over, until we get an answer we want.

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Guidance, both from above and self-directed, serve to program the subconscious by giving it a pattern as a potential reality to create out of that produces our life story and how we experience the events of our life. When our Higher Consciousness introduces a suggestion as a seeded reality into the subconscious, that’s realized by the self-conscious mind, which chooses to align itself to the idea of the Higher Will, forming a cohesive harmony by using it to tell new stories about things, wrapping our identity around it, dreams come true, life appears magical, and things naturally come about of their own volition. When we receive an idea that we feel is “in us”, engrained in us as a kind of imprint, the only thing that prevents it from coming to be, or makes it seem impossible or a struggle to do, is our own resistance to it. Our resistance comes by what we tell ourselves “about” it, about what it’ll mean, or about why we can’t do it, or because it conflicts with other areas of our life that we’d have to give up in order to move forward into it, and so on. By simply examining your own thoughts around an idea, you can see how or in what way you lack congruence and act in a roundabout way to counteract or sabotage the idea, and miss the opportunity to use it as a life-creation tool that its designed for.

 

 

All guidance is a form of self-guidance (Higher self), and all problems with utilizing our own guidance for ourselves is the struggle that takes place internally in response to our own thoughts being delivered from different perspectives. The Higher Self sees and is always working with the “big picture” and overall patterns that involve long-term outcomes produced by strategic intervention that benefit everyone involved; the subconscious mind is in the present moment and seeks only self-preservation; and the self-conscious mind is looking at the future from the perspective of the past and can only see what matches it, and is unwilling to consider anything that’s outside of its present scope and identity, and fears the idea of growth as having to encounter the unknown, requiring trust, faith, and believing that where you’re being led is where you really need to go and is what will provide you with the lessons you need to systematically overcome your perceived limitations as fear, insecurity, and uncertainty, and instead embrace your true potential as internal qualities still waiting to be born and actualized by way of the proper stimulation that only comes through real life events. The conscious mind sees itself “as” the body (ego), and changing its identity is perceived as a form a death. Spirit is always acting to facilitate our growth by overcoming our imagined limitations and habituated patterns of perception. It’s always urging us to break free from our own illusions that act to imprison us in a mundane reality of overwhelming self-imposed limitations born out of forgetting “who” we actually are. It urges us to step into a fearless state of self-propelled evolution, and create ourselves anew in every moment by tuning into the intuitive impressions constantly whispering to us, and merging with them becoming the means through which they express and using them to recreate ourselves by way of them.

 

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Transformational Coaching

Spiritual Sciences

Soul Sciences

 

About the author:
Dr. Linda is a Spiritual Scientist and scholar of Hermetic Sciences and Ancient Wisdom traditions. She’s a professional educator and trainer for all areas of personal transformation, self-creation, mind development, and soul/spiritual evolution. She practices Integrative Medicine with a special emphasis on Psychology and Creative therapies. She conducts ongoing classes, Playshops, and Adventure Seminars, and is available for private or group training, mentoring, and speaking engagements.
To inquire, click here