Self-Creation and the Art of Modeling

One of the most fundamental ways we can develop certain qualities and ways of being in ourselves is by modeling others who actively demonstrate those qualities. We all know this as children where it comes naturally by pretending to be like our favorite characters and heroes, and as teenagers when we’re taking over the process of creating our identity by trying on new ways of being in order to see how they feel. As we grow older and get caught up in the hustle and bustle of our adult life, we start becoming fixed as a certain way of being and seem to somehow lose touch with knowing how to create ourselves. We can train our body to take on any characteristic we want to by practicing being that way in a diligent and consistent manner. We can train ourselves to be anyway we want to be by first deciding how we want to be, then practicing being that way over and over until it becomes natural.

Creating a Model for Transforming Ourselves

In order to begin creating ourselves in a deliberate manner we have to first form an idea in our mind of how we want to be. We have to look at what qualities and traits we don’t like in ourselves, and decide which ones we’re going to use in order to transform them. What kind of character traits do we want to possess and how we want to be as a person. Once we decide on the characteristic we want to acquire, we then find someone who naturally possesses that characteristic, and we study them to see “how” it is they “do” it. We notice all the little mannerisms in how they perform it. We then practice doing it the same way over and over until it starts becoming natural.

Anytime that we’re practicing being different than we normally are, it feels awkward at first. This is natural and will go away with continued practice. It can help to practice in front of a mirror so you can see what you look like and make sure you’re doing it the way you like. This is the same method used by dancers and actors who practice while watching themselves in a mirror to make sure their form is correct. As you watch yourself you can make any adjustments you like until you get it just the way you want it. Once you’re able to do it proficiently, practice it numerous times until you can do it without thought, discipline, or effort. You have to build it into your muscle as “body memory”.

The Magical Number of Manifestation

There’s what we can think of as a “magic number” for any type of manifestation or making something into a habit, and that number is “40”. If you repeat something 40 times, it starts becoming natural and automatic If you practice a new ritual or routine for 40 days (approx. 6 weeks) it becomes a new habit and you do it automatically without having to remember to do it. This is why all programs or processes designed to produce change or transformation of some kind are conducted in 6 week time frames. Other programs that run for “21 days” are just over the halfway mark, and become easier to maintain at the hallway point without a lot of effort. The law of the Tetrad, represented by the number 4, represents material manifestation (4 elements) as our mental and physical constitution, and provides us with the means as a process by which we can actively transform our constitution.  

Start by deciding what it is about you that you want to change, and what it is you want to change it to. Once you decide how you want to be, find a person you know or can watch who has that trait or way about them, and mentor them. Study their mannerisms and how it is exactly that they do it, and then imitate them in your own way. Practice being the same way over and over, until you begin doing it just the way you want. Once you have it down, practice it numerous more times until you can do it without any effort. Then set the intention to practice it throughout the day for several days until it starts coming naturally and you no longer have to try or remind yourself to do it.

Synchronizing your Mind with your Body

What you’ll notice is that just by changing your posture and “how you’re being” and acting, changes how you sense yourself and how you feel as a result. It’ll literally change your perspective as your perception to match it. Your physiology is always equated to your “state of mind”, and as you change what you’re doing with our body it changes how you feel about yourself. As you begin sensing yourself in a new and different way, it changes how you feel and how you experience yourself. As your experience of yourself changes, so does your experience of everything else. As you perceive yourself in new ways, the world around you begins changing in the same way. You influence others by stimulating those same qualities in them, changing the nature of your interaction.

All experience of the outer world is a direct reflection of how we experience ourselves inwardly. As we change our outward actions, our inward state changes forming a new perspective and way of seeing the outer world through a new perceptual lens. For example, by simply correcting your posture and standing up straight with your shoulders back, neck straight and head centered directly over your pelvic area (center of balance) with your chin up, you automatically feel more confident and naturally assert yourself more. Learning to utilize our body posture as a means of self-expression is one of the ways we can act on ourselves to change the way we feel about ourselves. Disciplined action only comes by way of an equally disciplined mind. We use our mind to intentionally direct our body as a means of creating ourselves to be a certain way.

Modeling is the number one way we intentionally develop ourselves to possess the character traits and style of self-expression that we desire. This process can be done to acquire (bring out and cultivate) or transform any physical characteristic (habit), including voice tone and quality, how you naturally breathe, and how you walk and hold yourself. Don’t ever make the mistake of taking the attitude that you’re somehow “copying others”, because this isn’t the case. As you practice a particular form it allows your own style to emerge where you can consciously begin developing it just like any art. It creates a pathway through which you can actively bring out latent potential and use it to cultivate yourself to greater levels of self-expression. Don’t take on too much at one time, and become completely intuitive with one thing before you move on to another.

Dr. Linda Gadbois  

“12” – The Initiate, the Great Work, and the True meaning of Self-Sacrifice

In the occult sciences all single numbers (0-9) represent laws, while all composite numbers represent formulas as processes and the laws that need to be skillfully utilized in order to do them. Numbers provide us with mathematical formulas as philosophical relationships necessary for creating, all we have to do is be able to accurately decode them by interpreting them intuitively in order to apply them at the practical level. Numbers are also analogous to letters and geometric symbols, and can be intuitively discerned through the dynamic series of correspondences they form with colors, sounds, ideas, objects, archetypes, states of mind, and so on. Most intuitive realizations around an idea take place as the internal unfolding of chain-of-associated ideas. Symbols are impressed in the subconscious, which speaks the language of symbols, where they gestate and grow into endless variations based on how they’re applied.

The number 12 represents the principle of initiation as the first stage of what results in “The Great Work” as a self-facilitated process of spiritual transformation. It’s represents the stage in our life where we shed the false ego formed out of our formative conditioning where we’re completely identified with our body and personality, and shaped by others and society, allowing for the rebirth of our true self (higher self) within our body. In the Tarot (Book of Thoth) it’s represented by the archetype of the “Hanged Man”, and shows a man hanging upside down between two pillars (Jakin and Boaz), with his hands tied behind his back forming an inverted triangle, and his legs positioned to form a cross. This forms the symbol of the cross surmounting a water triangle, representing the Law of the Tetrad and Triad (4 x 3 = 12). The cross is disproportional with an elongated vertical pole, representing the Calvary cross of crucifixion. This is the symbol of self-sacrifice by surrendering your lower self (conditioned mind) to a higher power.

In the “Book of Formation” 12 is one of three “Mothers Letters”, because it’s symbolic of a new birth. It’s governed by the Element of water, which is considered the “Mother substance of all creation”. Water is considered the first mirror and reflects images upside down, as a polar or reversed image. It’s symbolic of the “reflected life”, or life as an image or form that’s produced by the primordial life substance. The Element of water is represented by an inverted triangle (pointing down), symbolizing the Law of the Triad as the imagination that’s the vehicle of the Tetrad, that’s formed as a downward, reversed reflection of the Triad. Both are formed and exist as polar reflections of each other in the “Great Cosmic Womb” of the Vesica Piscis or Dyad. The overall symbol represents crucifixion of the lower self in order to liberate the “sacrificed god” of our Higher Self, which dwells within and is what gives life to the personality.

The element of water is magnetic in nature and represents turning inward to self-reflect. It’s what the Hindu’s referred to as “prakriti”, the “Great Womb of Cosmic Substance” that’s the generatrix of all forms. The principle of the triangle represents the inner imagination and the ability to shape the fluidic-light substance into forms as thoughts turned into living entities. The images formed in the faculty of the imagination are similar to reflections formed on glass, on a dark shiny surface (magic mirror), or on water. They start as neutral tones of grey that have a ghost-like appearance, then, as they’re shaped with sensory details and attributes are grown into full color images when fully magnetized with our life-force energy. We take any word, description, or idea, and shape it into a reality in our mind’s eye. This fluid, transparent light essence that we shape into living forms using our mind, is what’s referred to as “Astral Light” that becomes a kind of metaphorical template (hologram) as our “perceptual lens” that we use for shaping the outer reality to match the inner one as a correspondence.

12 is related to 13 as the “death” of the false ego and the simultaneous end of one life cycle and the beginning of a new one. 12 is considered solar, and represents the 12 months of the solar year, and 13 is lunar, representing that a solar year contains 13 lunation’s.  A circle divided into 12 equal parts is formed out of the 13th one at the center. 12 also represents a complete cycle of manifestation as a life-cycle, represented by the 12 archetypes of the zodiac. These primary cosmic archetypes form our psychological makeup as a formula for self-creation, and are what provide us with the means for transforming ourselves by making new combinations. All qualities exist as a “whole idea” based on complementary opposites that form extremes of each other with a gradient scale connecting them. For example, fear is the opposite of courage, and courage can be used to temper fear. As we step into courage as a response to fear, we create more and more experiences of being courageous in relation to fear, and as we begin accumulating memories born out of courage, we move from one end of the scale to its opposite, transforming fear and insecurity into courage and confidence.

3 is represented in the Tarot by Daleth (Empress), ruled by Venus, as the imagination or internal formation of images, and 4 is represented by Heh (Emperor), ruled by Mars, as the actions formed out of the imagination. Venus and Mars are married to each other, and symbolize the fact that all action is born out of the imagination. Fire and Water blend together to form Air, the Element of the intellect, which culminates in the Earth Element (Tetrad-4) as our “constitution”. Our constitution is formed out of our mind and imagination and determines all of our perceptions and actions. The Triad (imagination) and Tetrad (action) form the basis for all of reality.

While we tend to think that our lower self possesses a “will” to create, the fact is the Will of the Higher Soul is reflected in the incarnate life of the personality. All perceptions of the personality are produced out of our formative conditioning which serve to structure our mental paradigm as “created by others” and external factors. The first birth of our self as our personality is formed out of a primarily unconscious state where we’re given (taught) our values, beliefs, and trained to behavioral dynamics as a part of a family unit and community that functions together as a single entity. All interpretations are made through our paradigm and the dynamics we were trained to that produce all of our natural behaviors.

The process of transformation comes by shedding the ego of our formative conditioning (lower self) through self-realization, and taking on a new perspective where we assume the position of authority in our own life as being the one that has the ability to “act on ourselves” as the means of creating ourselves. We reverse the process of referencing an outer source of power as the means of creating ourselves, and turn inward instead referencing an internal source of power as our connection to our Higher Self. We become self-referencing instead of other-referencing. We begin identifying with our true self as our higher soul. We begin walking in the world contrary to others who are still locked into the illusion of their conditioning.

Our Higher Soul (our true self) seeds our imagination with ideas that serve to organize particles of light-essence into material forms as inner sight accompanied by an internal voice of a higher authority. The ideas used by a divine authority to impregnate the imagination are ones that are not formed out of our conditioned mindset or as a result of previous experiences, but originate instead as a more universal, non-personal idea. Inner light is the “word (Logos) made flesh”, represented by the Hebrew spelling of the name of Jesus – IHShVH – similar to the Tetragrammaton (IHVH), except the principle of “Sh” is inserted in the middle. “Sh” represents “Shin”, number 20, as the soul perfected in flesh that rises from the ashes of its own death as a Phoenix. Our rebirth to a higher realm of consciousness comes through an intimate connection and identification with our Higher Self, also commonly referred to as our “Holy Guardian Angel”.

Spirit is Law, and a reversal from outer to inner self-reference, is where we begin operating to create in our life through esoteric law, which exists contrary to normal ways of thinking, speaking, and doing. Most people try to create by working in opposition to cosmic law through a fundamental lack of self-awareness and understanding. This reversal of being as an internal reference to a higher source doesn’t cause an outward opposition or form of antagonism to those still caught up in their false ego’s, because outwardly opposing something merely aligns you with what you oppose. All direct opposition stimulates and makes active its opposite, giving life to the same idea.

This reversal of directed attention is undertaken in silence as private work that’s done inwardly as an unostentatious reversal of one’s own way of life that’s combined with perfect tolerance for other people’s way of life. Once we gain the realization necessary to step outside of the conditioned mindset of our lower self, it’s easy to recognize that most are still consumed with acting out the reality they were conditioned with, and you naturally lose all need or desire to judge them or try and “wake them up” to the reality of their true self. Martyrs are those who try to deliver higher knowledge to those who are not capable of or prepared to comprehend it, and were brutally crucified by the very people they sought to enlighten.

If we look around at the state of most people and society, what we realize is that most are sick, mentally depressed, spiritually troubled, can’t get along with their self or others, and become passive in their own life while struggling internally. They’ve never formed an internal connection to their Higher Self, and live out of a constant response to external stimulation and the will being projected by others. They’ve been taught to live in contradiction to law (spirit) instead of in harmony with them. Everything comes as an expression of the Law of Cause and Effect, and the miseries they inflict on themselves comes as the result of the negative use of law. We’re creating our self in every moment of our life as a specialized application of universal law whose outcome depends entirely on whether it’s applied negatively or positively.

Practical Psychology

All thoughts are the seeds of speech and actions. Interpretations form the patterns for experience. Whatever happens to us comes as a result of what we’ve selected, whether consciously and intentional, or unconsciously as a conditioned reaction. In this idea emphasis is placed on a changed point of view as a reversed perspective. As we change our perspective, what we see changes accordingly. How we see others and life is a direct reflection of how we see ourselves. As we begin seeing life in new ways, we transform our paradigm by integrating the new experiences it brings. Our entire life is formed out of how we actively employ esoteric laws as spirit. Spirit is what governs, organizes, and orchestrates material reality through active use of the 3 levels and aspects of the mind that exists simultaneously on 2 planes of existence.

Our human personality is completely dependent on the ALL as the higher power of universal consciousness (Will). As long as we live out of our conditioning and become fully identified with our personality, we remain in a primarily unconscious state, much like the lower intelligence of animals who function through instinct as a part of the group mind. By surrendering our lower self to the conscious direction of the Universal Mind, we draw all our power from above and become the vehicle for higher consciousness that brings true self-awareness. We begin creating ourselves by working in harmony with universal laws, and we begin shaping our identity through association with our higher universal self. By drawing down higher forms of consciousness that we use as the means of forming all our perceptions and activities, we become powerful creators in our own life, and engage in the process of self-creation from a fully conscious and self-aware state. By surrendering our lower self to our Higher Self, we move into a more harmonious way of being and begin creating our self to be “like god”.

The Divine Paradox

A strange paradox occurs through total submission of personal life to universal life where it makes us intensely positive in relation to others and the conditions of our environment. By transcending our conditioning and material ego, and taking on a universal and detached perspective in its place, we naturally form a very positive mental attitude. In order to have courage and perseverance in spite of seeming difficulties and disappointments, we must know ourselves to be vehicles of power to which nothing can be an insurmountable obstacle. When we no longer derive our identity out of material means, we approach every situation from a neutral stance where we can truly act as a universal force that works for the good of all involved. Our mental attitude becomes “not my will, but your will be done” through me, because we realize that they’re actually the same thing. We are the vehicle through which higher powers work in the world.

The reality created through our conditioning comes as false interpretations that form illusions in place of truth. As long as we continue to make false interpretations and delude ourselves, the inexorable laws of the cosmos work out those interpretations in ways that bring pain and suffering. Yet pain itself is friendly because it serves to educate us (Key 11 – karma). Suffering, poverty, disease, imbalance, and death, all have lessons inherent in them. These are often what lead us in our search for truth. It’s in the mysteries of death that we find the secrets to immortality. The only thing that dies with the physical body is our false ego as our soul’s identification with the personality of the body. Disciplined practice of mind control and directing our actions are necessary in order to become the vessel for higher power that ultimately transcends the lower plane of unconsciousness.

Transformative Process

Our conditioning is initially established out of our soul’s memory as our character and karma that forms all our perceptions as patterns of interpretation. These conditioned perceptions must be “reversed”. This principle is analogous to the choice of DNA, where realities are formed by whatever is made active and rendered passive, that together produce new patterns. Our souls constitution is part personality and part identity, it’s both unconscious and animalistic, and self-conscious, self-controlling, and self-determining. It’s merely a question of which perspective and aspect we employ as a means of self-creating. The mind-soul has the ability to direct the body, instead of the body-personality directing the mind. We have to decide to re-orientate ourselves to let go of karma as conditioned memory of the personality, and actively employ higher consciousness of divine law in its place.

Summary

Our constitution (4) is transformed by way of the Law of the Triad (3) that’s seeded with ideas drawn into it by the higher mind (of cosmic good) that operates flawlessly through the cosmic law of creation. The process for transformation is formulated by the Tarot, which serves as a Key for interpreting the Kabbalah, which provides us with a precise formulated process for undergoing spiritual transformation. 12 is formulated as 1 + 2 = 3 > Triad. 1 = attention that’s directed into memory (either universal as archetypes or personal as conditioning) (2) form our paradigm as filters for interpretation through the imagination (3), which uses memory as patterns of interpretation that are applied to various situations, creating more of the same type of realities as a metaphorical theme.

To change our paradigm, we have to change the memories that construct it. This is done with the creative imagination which is seeded intentionally with new ideas and perspectives to grow into new realities that are experienced within as new memory that acts to reprogram us. Concentration on laws trains the mind to operate according to those laws through the understanding of them, and we begin naturally thinking and creating by way of laws. As we learn how to apply laws practically, we learn the skill for creating our self and our life in more accurate and precise manner. We don’t need years of therapy in order to transcend our conditioning, all we have to do is realize our true nature as the very “mind-soul” that’s “producing” the reality of our conditioning, and in doing so, begin to see ourselves in a whole new light and from an entirely different perspective.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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“11” – Universal Justice, the Law of Cause and Effect, and the Nature of Karma

In occult sciences the number 11 represents the principle of universal justice as the equilibrium of complementary opposites to establish balance and harmony. It’s symbolic of what’s commonly called “karma” as the absolute law of cause and consequence, also referred to traditionally as the “golden rule”. Its purpose is to teach and instruct us through our own actions which produce both immediate and long term consequences as our ability to create our reality. This is a double “1” (Monad) as the balancing scales that brings an equal or greater return on all our actions and deeds. It represents our ability to learn from our own actions and the inward capacity for self-direction and regulation. In the “Book of Formation”, the special action assigned to Justice is “work or action” that’s designed to teach and instruct.

Justice is represented by Libra, ruled by Venus, which governs the inner world of the imagination (Key 3), where our subconscious deductions from experience become the seeds of karma, and forms the basis for all of our actions. As we create through our own actions and deeds, we simultaneously learn and provide ourselves with a form of instruction. Through purely unconscious processes we form constant interpretations of experiences that produce all of our natural perceptions and automatic behaviors. How we perceive ourselves and the outer world comes through our personal style for processing and organizing information, which forms the basis for all of our actions. Our mental model as our perceptual lens is formed initially as the result of our formative conditioning as mental states, dynamic patterns, and tendencies that have become habitual.

Mode of Consciousness

The mode of consciousness associated with Justice (karma) is “faithful intelligence”. The subconscious is a faithful servant to the conscious mind and produces the realization of whatever idea it’s germinated with. The feminine aspect of the mind is impregnated with the seed (idea) of the masculine aspect and produces the reality of the idea as its offspring. This not only reveals to us that most creations result from habitual unconscious patterns, but also that whatever it is that we imagine as a reality with intensity, is actually a “request” for a personal creation. We act on ourselves to program our own subconscious through imagining ideas as an actual reality and experience, “instructing” it (our self) to produce more experiences of the same nature and kind. As we replay memories over and over in our mind, we’re instructing our subconscious to produce more of the same types of reality, usually without realizing (being aware) that that’s why we have the same type of experiences over and over again.

Vices or virtues are equally deposited in the faithful intelligence of the subconscious where they augment. As we interject an idea into our subconscious by vividly imagining it with sensory detail, it gestates until it becomes the foundation out which we perceive the same idea outwardly as its realization. The subconscious faithfully reproduces and multiplies whatever idea it’s given as an imagined reality that’s experienced in an emotionally intense way. It uses existing memory as a kind of metaphorical theme for creating more of the same type of realities. It takes a symbolic idea in its potential form and ripens it to become the motive for our actions. As we create ideas as an outer realization through a form of projection that produces a new variation through a process of adaptation, we then reabsorb them through the experience they provide and shape them into memories that act in turn to reprogram ourselves with more of the same type of experiences. All reality is subjective in nature and is formed as a self-perpetuating process of self-realization.

The Law of Cause and Effect

Cause is manifest by effects, and effects are proportioned to their causes. All action is a cause that produces an equivalent effect. Nothing is affirmed or made real until it appears outside of us as a realization. We apprehend the cause of our own actions by the effects contained in the energy of the cause, by means of the Universal Law of Correspondence and Analogy. Once an idea is established as an outer effect that brings realization, the effect then becomes a cause that produces an equivalent effect “in us” through the experience it provides. All of our deepest motives are revealed through the reality they create as the nature of our experiences. It’s not necessarily the idea itself that provides a creative template for the subconscious, but rather what internal force is “motivating” us in creating the idea. The conscious mind provides the material form as an idea, and the subconscious infuses and grows it with an equivalent emotional force, and together they form the “reason” for the creation.

The Law of the Monad (Mind and Soul) demonstrates the principle of how the inner center (nature) produces the outer sphere of reality to be of the same nature through an electromagnetic respiration as an outflow and inflow of consciousness that creates on multiple levels and scales simultaneously. Magnetic respiration is where the inner nature of motives that produce outer actions populates the atmosphere surrounding it, providing it with a reflection of itself through its own works. Through our own creative abilities, we create either heaven or hell for ourselves. There’s always an electromagnetic pulsation of the soul where it projects itself to formulate its outer reality, constructing it to be of the same nature (pattern) as it is. As it forms the realization of itself through its outer environment, it then draws the realization back into itself where it’s reformulated into a memory. Our core being is what forms our perception as interpretations that provide us with the means for experiencing our self. All of what we call curses or blessings are self-administered and produce their consequences invariably, and every action by its nature produces effects analogous to its motives, extent, and direction.

Thought, Word, and Deed

Thoughts that aren’t translated into speech don’t produce realization, and speech that’s not backed by action remains idle as imagined fantasy. Ideas are only made “real” when they are acted on to produce outer experiences as the realization of the idea. Many people form a false image of themselves that they never act on to make real, and it results in a form of delusion as a false front disguised to hide their true nature. Thought formulated into speech forms the basis for the action necessary to produce it as an outer realization. The realization gained from an action reveals what motivated it.

Many people hide their true motives (often even to themselves) out of fear of what it means about them, and try to cover them up with false proclamations that act to contradict their actions. What we say doesn’t reveal anything about us; it’s what we do that demonstrates our true character. What we act to create in life only comes through our actions, not idle thoughts as fantasies that only serve to delude us. Whether vice or virtue, destructive or constructive, we are fully responsible for anything we say or do, and the realities that result from them. There is no such thing as indifferent acts.

Justice signifies active administration of law as balance, poise, expectation, precision, impartiality, and equity. It’s not based on value judgments of right and wrong, or good and bad, but merely serves to reveal the inner constitution as what motivates actions. Every action has a motive as a subconscious formulated interpretation. As we think, speak, and act, we create the reality of our motives, which serves as a mirror into unconscious aspects of ourselves. Our subconscious is programmed initially through our formative conditioning, which forms the basis for all of our motives, interpretations, and natural behaviors. As we perceive something through our mental model we reformulate it by saying “this means that”, referencing and associating it to a memory of a previous experience of a similar nature, and we act accordingly. Through our conditioning we act on ourselves to repeat the same patterns as a habitual way of perceiving and create the same type of experiences over and over again.

Our Life Story as a Theme for Self-Creating

Our (self-produced) memories serve to form our natural way of perceiving the world and sets the stage for the story we begin telling ourselves as a means of using the past to interpret the present to mean the same thing. The meaning we give something determines how we experience it through the story we tell ourselves about it. Our story about something is how we explain, describe, and justify it as a means of attempting to understand it. As we create the outer realization of our thoughts and motives as an experience of our own making, we then become subject to them. We use our own self-produced experiences to shape ourselves by how we identify with our own creation as an ongoing story we’re always in the process of telling ourselves about things. In this manner, we’re always shaping everything else to be like us.

By realizing that our outer realizations are providing us with a mirror into our own unconscious mind, we can become more self-aware. Anytime we bring something that’s operating at the unconscious level in our life into conscious awareness, we provide ourselves with the opportunity to transform it in whatever way we desire. By staying unaware and repeating the thematic patterns of our conditioning, we live our life out of karma and remain unconscious of our true nature and our ability to self-create by way of our own realizations. We fail to realize that we’re not our personality or conditioning, but the “means” through which it becomes our reality. Our soul is the author and producer of our life story as the means of simultaneously creating and experiencing itself by way of its own creation. We are the soul that’s producing reality through our perception of it, not the result of an objective reality that’s somehow being done to us by an outside force or contrary power.

Summary

By becoming self-aware and using our outer realizations as a mirror into the hidden aspects of our mind, we can step into our true power to self-create by learning how to seed our subconscious with ideas we want to create as our outer experience of reality. We can realize our own undesirable traits and delusional interpretations and begin acting on ourselves to transform them into more beneficial and meaningful ones. Once we realize that things only mean what we make them mean by how we interpret them, we can detach from our inner narrative as our story about things, and begin forming new ones. Once we become aware of habitual dynamics that we’re drawn into unconsciously as a reaction of some kind, we can begin neutralizing them by re-framing them and making a conscious decision as to what we want to create in their place.

As we become aware of the patterns produced unconsciously through our conditioning, just the awareness alone dissolves them, and we’re left with a new awareness of our ability to make a decision as to how we’re going to create instead. As we begin making new decisions and actively directing our subconscious on what we want it to create, we begin taking full responsibility for our self and our life. Our inner core as our nature and character is what acts to produce our outer perception of reality and our “self” through that reality.

By changing ourselves as our inner character, we change the reality it naturally produces as a fundamental form of self-expression. We don’t change our life by working on others and the outer effects themselves, but by working on ourselves as the inner cause that’s producing the outer effect as a basic form of self-perception. As we begin working on ourselves to reshape our character and redirect underlying motives, our outer reality and perception of others changes as a direct correspondence. Justice as the harmonious balance of the inner with the outer is a self-administered form of creation. In every moment we are the sole creators of both our self and our perception of others, and our inner and outer reality, which exist in polarity as complementary to each other. The outer is an extension and continuation of the inner and contains both conscious and unconscious aspects of our self. We can come to know the unknown aspects of ourselves by how they exist in relation to the known aspects, both of which form the basis of our outer perception of reality.

Dr. Linda Gadbois    

Learning to Understand the Nature of Life, Death and the Soul

     Death is still one of the greatest mysteries there are. Some people feel terrified at the mere thought of it because they have no idea what to expect or what will actually happen and “where they’ll go”. Whatever we imagine is largely due to our beliefs and what we’ve been conditioned to in terms of our faith. In order to gain a practical understanding of this idea, we’d also have to define what it is we’re referring to as “death”, because like all words and ideas, it means something different to everyone contemplating it, and if we approach it as a generalized idea, we can be on completely different pages and not even know it.

       What most people are referring to when they talk about dying is when the physical body stops working for some reason and we cease to exist as that body, personality, and identity. Most consider themselves to be the identity they form while in a body “as” the body. This identification with the body and personality is what’s commonly referred to as the ego, which is portrayed as being a fundamental form of “false identity” and makes us “mortal” because our “sense of self” is obtained purely through our physical existence, which also dies with the body.

      What we refer to as our “soul” however, is universal and eternal in nature because it consists of pure energy. We know for a fact scientifically that energy can’t be destroyed in terms of being killed or disappearing and no longer “existing”, but is merely transformed from one state to another. This means that it transcends the body at physical death and continues to exist in a parallel dimension that’s invisible to the physical senses, just as the mind and soul are when inhabiting the body. So the first thing we have to really get clear on is that the soul-mind is not the body itself, but what constructs and maintains and operates the body, giving it “life”. When the soul leaves the body it no longer has life, is no longer “held together” and animated, and begins the process of disintegration and returning to the raw elements that were used to form it.

Mind and Soul

       Many people continue to perceive in dualistic terms even when they embrace the idea of reality being a unification of multiple planes or states of existence that combine to form a singularity as what we call “reality”. We know for a fact, scientifically speaking, that energy (invisible forces of consciousness) and matter are different aspects or densities of the same thing and are interchangeable at the fundamental level. We know that all material bodies are accompanied by an energy field (field of organized information), while many fields of energy exist without a physical counterpart. We also know that a form of electromagnetic field (phantom) accompanies DNA and is what performs the task we call “natural selection” that determines what sequences are formed in order to construct the body giving it specific characteristics and traits, and serves to “activate and conduct” the process of regeneration and cellular formation that ultimately organizes and structures the body using a form of etheric blueprint (energetic body) as a means of spatial organization.

      What we refer to as the etheric body (in esoteric science) is what science now refers to as the “phantom effect”, and is what has traditionally been called the “Holy Ghost” of the trinity, which is a symbolic idea describing the 3-fold nature of the mind and soul. This etheric double is the essence of the soul formed out of accumulated and integrated memory that’s used to construct the physical house or temple of the soul, and remains within the material plane with the body at the time of death as a form of remnant that disintegrates in a more gradual manner than the body over a longer period of time. This “echo” or lingering memory of the soul is what we occasionally experience as ghosts or apparitions of departed souls. Whenever someone claims to be in contact with people who are deceased, they’re actually referring to this lingering consciousness and not the soul itself, which sheds it as a form of garment that’s soiled and worn out.

        Many can have a tendency to think of the mind and soul as different ideas, with the mind typically being attributed to the brain, heart, and body, and the soul some other mysterious force we’re not quite sure of. In reality however, the mind “is” the soul and is the means through which all material matter is constructed and used as a vehicle for the soul to self-express and create experiences of itself, and is what “operates” the body to form it as a unique individual. The mind and the soul are synonymous ideas and can be used interchangeably to describe different aspects as functions of the same thing.

       The mind and soul have what we call a 3-fold nature, which means there are three distinct parts that perform different functions in creating the same unified reality. On the higher planes of pure energy and essence the mind is unified or androgynous, as is reality itself, and becomes “dual” as polar opposites when descending into the lower plane of “experience”. This is because in order to create experiences of itself, it needs to create the illusion of an inner and outer, and a self and another that all appear to be separate from each other. It’s not only the physical body that’s organized, constructed, and used by the soul as the means of expressing, but the outer reality in which the body lives and is an integral part of. All reality as we’re capable of “knowing it” through our “perception” of it is formed as a mental construct or larger pattern that’s of the same nature as the body and is what serves to set the stage necessary for the soul to live out a certain type of story as the means of creating itself “through” the experiences of itself it provides.

      What we commonly refer to as the higher mind or soul exists on the plane “above” the lower plane and is the aspect that organizes and orchestrates the entire lower plane of physical reality in order to produce specialized types of experience. When descending into the lower plane to “be in” the reality of its creation as a direct experience of it, it divides into feminine and masculine aspects as what we call the subconscious and self-conscious mind, also referred to as the “material mind”. These two aspects of the material mind are complementary opposites that work together through a form of dynamic paradox to produce an inner and outer self as an inner and outer awareness that are intimate aspects of each other.

       Matter, the subconscious, and the lower soul (etheric double) are considered feminine in nature because they act as a form of passive receptor for the active, masculine aspect which serves to impregnate it with an idea as a form of “seed” that it then formulates and births as a corresponding physical reality. Matter is passive and lifeless in its fundamental state and only acts as a form of “empty shell” that’s magnetic in nature for consciousness to enter into through “sympathetic resonance”, and is used as the means of expressing and creating on the material plane. The only way the soul can transform itself to new and more diverse states as a vibratory frequency (pattern as a story and character) is through its ability to create new experiences of itself. Once it leaves or sheds a body, whatever nature and character it created of itself while in the body remains eternally the same on the energetic level. All growth and transformation of the soul only takes place while in a body through an experience of itself “as” specific qualities and characteristics (all of which it creates).

        The subconscious is the aspect of the self that’s “unconscious” in nature, which means it operates constantly within the material plane to organize it and operate it as a “living body”, as well as produce the phenomenon of what we perceive as the reality “out there” that creates the appearance as a form of “illusion” of being outside of and separate from us. This entire mental construct takes place without our direct awareness of how it’s all being produced. All reality is experienced as being both “in here” and “out there” as a dynamic living matrix produced as a mental construct by the soul at different levels simultaneously. All of this takes place without our direct awareness of it as our own creation.

       This paradoxical fact is self-evident through the realization that even though we all seem to share what we call an “objective reality” that’s fundamentally the same for everyone (we all share the same subconscious mind), we all form unique perspectives and perceptions of the same reality that allow us to experience it in unique ways. Ten people who are a part of the same event, when separated and asked to give an account of their experience of it will all tell a different story about what happened. This is because all experience of reality is subjective in nature and is produced as a mental construct out of our paradigm. All of what we call reality is actually only evident through our perception of it. We’re always taking what we can think of as a universal idea (archetype) and using it as the means of creating a unique and personalized version. On the material plane we’re a part of the “group mind” of consensus where we’re given an idea and taught what to think in order to be like everyone else, whereas on the higher plane of the soul, we’re individuals who always create in a unique way as a form of self-expression based on our vibratory frequency as our energetic constitution.

      When our soul becomes fully identified with our material body, and creates an illusion of itself as a specific personality and identity (we fashion our ego), it fears death because its annihilation of the ego. When the soul realizes its true origins as the creator of the body and material reality that it uses to experience itself, it maintains a detachment to the body and cultivates its proper identity as a universal creative being. The soul takes on three perspectives simultaneously as the means of experiencing itself – it’s in the first person as being “in the experience” or from the inside looking out and having an experience; in the second person that’s dissociated and “witnessing the experience” as if another person; and in the third person watching itself watch the experience from a higher perspective of the “whole story” being played out in this lifetime. These three aspects and different perspectives are always engaged in a form of dialogue with each other as thoughts, self-reflecting on thoughts, and self-guidance through a subtle awareness of the greater story of our life.

The Accumulation and Absorption of Life Memory

       The idea of what’s commonly called a “life review” as key memories that “flash before our eyes” as we’re dying is what we can think of as the soul absorbing the experiences obtained while in the body from a dual perspective of “cause and effect”. We review key memories that were of an emotionally intense nature where whatever we did that hurt or caused another pain and suffering, we experience from the receiving end. We become the “effect” of whatever it is we caused. When we shed our body, which is what “locates us at a specific point within the material plane” in order to form a specific perspective, we then take on our universal nature and experience everything in a holistic manner that’s no longer separate in terms of cause and effect, as both the giving and receiving end of our own actions (creations).

       Anything that we perceive as “doing to another”, we’re actually doing to ourselves through the same act, because there’s actually only one of us that’s appearing as two. We are held accountable for our own actions in the most direct sense of the idea. All of what we call “judgment” isn’t conducted by an outside force that acting to evaluate our deeds, but is something we experience from a holistic plane as what we could think of as a “whole and fully integrated pattern”. In this way we experience all aspects of our own creation by how we actively used our will to create our experiences in relationship with others, which is really a relationship we form with “unknown aspects of ourselves” that we perceive in others.

       In the ultimate sense of the idea there’s really no such thing as “another” that we experience as being apart from us and either doing something to us, or we’re doing something to them, and once we leave and transcend this plane of duality, we realize that what we perceive as being another was actually the embodiment of aspects of ourselves that we were unconscious of. At death of the body and transcendence back into wholeness, we realize through direct experience that there was really only one of us creating our own experience of ourselves as someone specific having a certain “type of experience” from a specific location in time. All memories obtained while in a dual state on the material plane, are returned to their holistic state as a complete pattern on the higher, universal plane, and form what we call karma as living different lives where we’re on the receiving end of our actions from a previous life.

The Death Experience

       While many look for answers as to what to “expect” when they die as a kind of generalization or regimented, dogmatic idea that’s similar for everyone, it’s actually the mind and soul that produces all of our experiences in life as well as in death. The mind stays fully intact at death of the body and continues creating its own experiences in what we call the afterlife, which simply means without a physical body. Whatever belief system we form and maintain in life as the means of creating our self through creating our experiences, is the same one that produces our experience of dying and transcending to a different plane. This is why nearly all spiritual traditions emphasize the importance of our “beliefs and faith”. Whatever ideas we form as beliefs form our mental construct and associations, and not only tune us energetically to correlating planes of existence, but also shape how we experience things.

      The fact of the mind and soul always creating in a unique and diverse fashion has a tendency to drive science and religion crazy, because they both look for consistency and repetition as the means of attempting to determine and validate truth from fiction. The group mind of the material plane that creates based on what we’ve been taught to believe is always working to try and conform us to the same idea that’s “labeled” true because it’s experienced equally by numerous people. The group mind is formed through various forms of conditioning as “suggestions” that are given to a person who then turns it into a reality. When we embody someone else’s idea about something, imagining it as real, and therefore accept it as true, forming a belief out of it, we act naturally to create the reality of that belief, making it real as an actual experience.

       We can read numerous books and listen to the accounts of others who are reported to have had a “near death experience”, all of which can seem somewhat correlated, while further investigation with an open mind will nearly always reveal many different accounts of the same basic event. What we realize is that everyone who takes up a general study and investigation into the death experience starts off with their own mental paradigm and belief system, which acts as a “filtering system” for what they’re open to (can readily see) and can logically accept as being real, and therefore include, and what they reject as false and therefore leave out. Some even take an attitude of forming a “streamline idea” of what happens out of a kind of “majority rules” type of mentality (group mind) where we only look at the accounts that agree with our preliminary beliefs, only considering those that at least somewhat agree with us as being “true”. After carefully filtering out and actively selecting only what agrees with our belief-system and what we deem possible, we form them into what we consider a generalized idea that we then view as the most “accurate account” of what is in reality a diverse and unique experience. Whenever we view what originates and takes place on a higher plane from the perspective and mindset of the lower plane of material reality, we’re always working from the mentality of the group mind (that lacks creativity) rather than the “individual” mind, which is self-creative.

      Many people are controlled by an intense need to be right or to have the most accurate idea about something that they then use as the means of proving others wrong who disagree with them. Very few people truly comprehend the fact that we create reality out of our values and beliefs and so we’re convinced that they’re true, and make them real as a result. When we believe in something, which means we can readily experience it as our perception of reality, we don’t consider anything that contradicts them or what would act to show us that they’re a belief and not an objective fact, because we “literally can’t see them”. One of the most basic paradoxes we all face is that in order to change our reality we have to change our perception of it which is formed by our beliefs, yet we often can’t conceive of anything outside of our beliefs, because “reality” is subjective in nature and formed “out of our beliefs”.

The Experience of Past Life Regression

       I naturally drew most of my ideas about death through my experiences with people who had died, and became a bit obsessed with the idea when my husband was violently killed at a rather young age. As I went through the experience with him and listened to what he was trying to express, a shift took place in my awareness, and when he actually died I could almost sense what was happening through a form of gestalt (intuition) that changed the course of my life and marked the beginning of an intense investigation into the nature of the soul and what actually happens when we die.

       After his death I bought and read every book I could find on the subject, which allowed me to begin touching on deep seated memories within my own soul. When I began my education and training in Clinical Hypnotherapy and began forming a radically new awareness around myself from a detached and more universal perspective, I realized in very direct terms that there was a part of me that was directing and instructing other parts of me as the means of producing my experience of myself and my perception of reality. Through this various forms of communication between what I sensed as different parts of my “self”, I realized that all of what I considered “guidance” from a form of “higher power” came as the result of a part of me that was helping another part of me to maneuver reality as a greater story being acted out from a higher plane of self-awareness.

      Through my educational experience in Clinical Hypnotherapy I came upon the hypnotic process of what we call “past life regression”, which I entered into with a very skeptical attitude because I was conflicted as to how I felt about it. In doing a bit of soul searching around the idea I realized my skepticism was really a foreboding feeling of deep seated fear, so I decided to step into it with an open mind to see what it was about. Having practiced hypnosis for quite some time I was very good at it and went into deep trance states easily where I experienced myself through my subconscious without the “editing factor” of my self-conscious mind. This is where there’s no decision involved as to what I accept or don’t accept, and everything comes instead as a direct experience of a heightened and intensely real nature. No actual thinking or storytelling is involved, just pure experience.

       For those of you who aren’t aware of the process involved, all regressions are set into motion as an inquiry about a current life situation that you want more information around. You set an intention that acts to “tune you” to the life where you willfully created the same type of pattern as a life theme. This intention as a form of wondering about something determines what past life you access and experience. One of the interesting things about this type of experience is that I seemed to be aware of experiencing the life both from “within it” (in a body) as a direct experience within the personality, and as “witnessing it” by observing it from a distance simultaneously. I had a kind of expanded awareness of both the inner and outer experience at once. As I was experiencing the drama of that life through impactful experiences as they unfolded, I was simultaneously aware of the larger story playing out as the theme of that life. I was aware that I was both the participant in an unknown drama that was unfolding moment by moment, and the creator, much like being the author of a book written by imagining the experience of it.

       As it went along I immediately became aware of how the same idea as a pattern was influencing my feelings and awareness in this life. Tendencies I was experiencing in this life that created a kind of inner conflict as a constant debate, I suddenly became completely aware of what they were about and how I acquired them. I also realized my attraction as well as extreme dislike for certain ideas and people that formed my intuition around things in this lifetime. It was like a massive opening of self-awareness took place that showed me things I didn’t even know to ask, because they only existed in me as feelings and impulses that had no explanation in reference to this life. All of the sudden everything seemed to make perfect sense, and I not only knew the reason, but what I needed to do in order to resolve it.

      At the end of every regression you go through the “death experience” while completely detached from any kind of physical pain. What I experienced each time only had a few similarities with the popular accounts. A couple of times I realized I was dying and formed whole experiences around it that were similar to what I experienced after I was already dead. At the time of death, I suddenly found myself outside of and above my body looking down at the whole scene and realized I was dead. As I realized I was dead, I felt a kind of grief around leaving my body as a form of love for it. Along with this realization came a deep and profound sense of what the “meaning” that life experience was about. As certain scenes passed through my mind I realized how they were all a part of a bigger story playing out without my awareness. I experienced it as a form of single experience that was a kind of theme born out of a predominant state of mind. The single events themselves were only significant in terms of how they were being played out as a much larger story. This larger story, which produced a certain type of experience, played out in several lifetimes in different ways, drawing different conclusions each time around the same type of experience from different perspectives.

         In a couple of transitions I watched my own funeral, which also created different realizations as a kind of summary. In other lifetimes, I transcended without watching it. Not once did I have the experience of going through a tunnel, but I did experience the sensation of rising up into the sky as if I was being drawn up and eventually vanishing. On a couple of occasions I had an intense experience around the “blue” of the sky as I then merged into it and disappeared from the reality I had lived in and was an active part of. On one occasion, I was what I referred to as being a “great storyteller ”, or Shaman, and as I was drawn up into the deep blue, I had the experience of turning into a white dove and flying away. All duality as an inner or outer perception disappeared and I felt at one with a benevolent force that I perceived as being my Higher Self. I recognized it as being the part of me that always remained outside of reality acting as a kind of Choreographer for orchestrating the drama of my life and intuitively guiding me along the way. I was no longer separate from “myself”. At that point nothing seemed to exist outside of me and I felt an expansion that was very euphoric and all resistance vanished. I felt like I was everywhere at once. I had no awareness of time and I completely filled space as space itself.

      Through the years having done many past life regressions with numerous people, they all experienced dying in different and unique ways, with only a few common denominators. What I seemed to realize is that just as our mind and soul create all of our experiences of what we perceive as physical reality in a universal, yet unique way, also acts to create our experience of transitioning to other planes and as being on other planes as a different mental state. The only ones that seemed to create what I call the “text book version” had read about the experiences of others which may have served to form a belief about what happens as a preconceived idea. Others interpreted their experience according to their religious or spiritual beliefs, and still others described experiencing what we would probably think of as hell.

       Those who fear death tend to create a fearful experience, whereas those who have come to terms with it tend to produce a pleasant or even beautiful experience. Our mind continues on after shedding the body and seems to continue creating the same “type of experiences”, regardless of “where” they’re at or what plane they gravitate into. In my experience, what we tend to refer to as “heaven or hell” are not places or planes as we tend to think about them in the material sense, but are “states of mind” out of which we produce matching realities.

        The sensation of moving through a tunnel and into another plane of reality seemed to be more about the experience of departing from the body itself. The soul itself doesn’t seem to be moving into another plane as an actual transition, but rather what’s acting to create that plane as an experience of itself. The only real difference seems to be that instead of experiencing it from within a particular body and point in time, it seemed to be “all there is”. The soul is the entire reality rather than a minute part of a greater reality. I didn’t experience myself as playing a role in a “group reality”, but rather as being the reality itself in all its aspects simultaneously. There’s no sense whatsoever of time and space.

        So when you ask yourself or others what death is like, allow yourself to notice what your beliefs are about it, and in realizing this, know that it’s going to greatly influence how you (soul) create your experience of dying. If you perceive yourself as being a bad person who deserves to be punished, you’re probably going to create the experience of being punished. If you believe someone you know comes to meet you, that’s more than likely what you’ll experience. If you have a belief in God as a human-like figure or Jesus, that’s how you’ll interpret the events as the means of creating your experience. On the higher planes of the mind, soul, and spirit, we’re creative beings with the ability to choose and willfully produce whatever experience our paradigm (organized memory) naturally acts to create. In the invisible realm of pure spirit we blend back into wholeness where we realize we’re our only creator.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Seeing Challenges as Opportunities for Personal Growth

       As a kid growing up, I was born into a very challenging life. My mom was a single mother with five kids, one of which was mentally retarded, and we were on welfare. We lived in a small two bedroom house in the worst neighborhood in town, and experienced many forms of abuse while being neglected and left unsupervised for days at a time. My older brothers ended up going to detention homes, my younger sister passed away at 9, and I ended up running away in order to avoid what would happen to me if I stayed home. I became quite accustomed to living on the streets and fending for myself by the time I was 12.

       Throughout my teenage years I was taken away from my mother due to abuse and put into the court system where I went in and out of foster care that was almost worse than living at home, so I ended up running away from those also. Though all of this I continued to go to school while living in a fort I built in the park. In spite of all of this I did very well in school where I was put into accelerated learning classes and graduated high school at 16 with a scholarship to college. I filed for emancipation at 16, got a job and started college, where I graduated at 18. I experienced unimaginable hardship while trying to survive and protect myself, and was hospitalized on two occasions for malnutrition. As I continued through life I seemed to be thrust from one challenging situation to another, enduring many hardships, traumas, tragedies, and crisis, which are still continuing to this day.

        When I was young I remember feeling as if I was always being punished for something, but I couldn’t figure out what I had done to deserve to be punished because I was a really good kid (seriously). I was the only “white sheep” in my family, always helped out, and never got in trouble (except for fighting and running away). As I got older I began to look at things from a much deeper perspective of wanting to penetrate the secrets of life, which I found to be very mysterious.

       One thing that I recognized about myself at a fairly young age was that I was a very “strong” individual with a will that could push through what seemed like unbearable situations with a positive attitude, and I always seemed to have a clear perspective on what was happening forming realizations that led me to consistently make clear decisions about who I was and what I was going to do. I was never easily led, could care less about fitting in, and never had anyone to look to for guidance and help. Many of my decisions were quite difficult to make as I felt torn with a sense of love and loyalty to the very people I sought to get away from, and was terrified to leave and face being all alone and vulnerable to the unknowns of life. My first few years living on the street as a child were terrifying and very stressful, but after a while I got a system down that seemed to work pretty well.

       As a young adult, having gone through a problematic pregnancy my son was born with serious medical problems that required me to persist in trying to get him diagnosed to a point where they thought I was suffering from some kind of “postnatal depression and hysteria”. He was finally diagnosed in just enough time to save him, and I underwent a year of repeated hospitalization and several major surgeries, while also being told at one point that he was dying, where I decided to take him home, and administered the care that caused him to fully recover and begin thriving again.

       During this time my entire life fell apart and I think I may have had what seemed like several nervous breakdowns in trying to deal with it all at once. One of these breakdowns (completely distraught) came as the result of having to go against the system and everything I was being told in order to save my son’s life, that resulted in having a direct encounter with what I came to recognize as my Higher Self as what intuitively “showed me what to do”. Yet in spite of it all I walked away from the situation a year later with a healthy and happy little boy. I lost everything I owned through the process and had to file bankruptcy the next year due to the astronomical medical bills. During this time I accessed a part of myself I didn’t even know existed, and it transformed my way of thinking and being in a way that began taking on a life of its own. I felt like I became a different person because of this experience. I was no longer afraid or unsure of myself and could see things with a great sense of clarity and confidence in myself.

           I then went through the lingering process of trying to revitalize a dead marriage, pursued what became a demanding career in order to take care of my son, became very independent, came face to face with drug addiction and trying to somehow manage what deteriorated into an abusive situation. Though I found this period of my life extremely challenging at times, I also started feeling very strong, mature, and capable and eventually felt unaffected by the situation I found myself in. I was no longer afraid and vulnerable, and instead felt grounded, calm and calculating, and able to manage even the most difficult situations with relative ease and psychological skill.

       Another breaking point came several years later when my husband tried to strangle me in the midst of a jealous rage, and I was finally able to make him leave by being willing to face the consequences of what I thought he might do to me. A few months after our separation he was stabbed through the heart while in a bathroom stall of a restaurant, and died four days later. I left the hospital and went directly to the police department where I was interrogated for several hours and given an idea of what charges were being filed and given the details on the nature of what happened. This was followed by a murder trial in our small town of 2,400 people (so it was the biggest thing that happened there in years) that lasted for 14 months, and I won’t even try to convey the insane experience this brought and what I came to realize about how our justice system works.

       As I was sitting quietly one day and reflecting back on things and wondering why “bad things” were always happening to me, no longer feeling punished but more confused and mystified . . . a voice inside of me said “think of it as training. How can you teach and help others through things if you don’t know how to make it through them yourself? See this as your education so you can fulfill your life’s purpose as a teacher.” This was profound because at this point in my life I had no idea I was going to end up teaching. That experience set a transformation into motion and I began taking a whole different attitude towards the seemingly tragic events of my life, and looked back on them with a new awareness around the reason for things.

       I realized that even as a child who was conditioned to a very dysfunctional way of living and dependent on a bizarre set of circumstances, that I was always aware of what “I couldn’t bring myself to do.” I wasn’t making clear decisions at first, but rather ones that came from feelings inside of me that realized I couldn’t be “that kind of person” or let “those kinds of things happen to me.” In every crisis I face as a major event of some kind I noticed that it brought out the worst in everyone involved, including me, and I got to see myself in a different light. I saw myself as reflecting the traits of those around me, and I didn’t like who I became. I then realized that in my worst moments as a child I was making the most important decisions of my life in terms of who I was going to be, and those decisions served to shape me as an adult and set my destiny in motion.

       As I saw the traits in the people around me and how they made me feel by what they were doing and how they were treating each other and me, I thought there’s no way in hell I’m ever going to be like that or act to make someone feel the way I’m feeling right now. I felt disgusted and extremely disappointed. I lived every moment never knowing when someone was going to be “set off” by something and take it out on me, or what kind of mood they were going to be in from one moment to the next. I was actively choosing, even as a child, who and how I was going to be because it wasn’t “in me” to do that. It wasn’t in my nature to be that way. I couldn’t even imagine myself participating in the insane activities going on all around me, and started going off and being by myself as a result.

       One of the things I began telling myself at a young age was that I felt like no one knew who I was because they were always judging me to be like my family, and I was nothing like them. In schools teachers would recognize my last name and knew who my brothers were, and would make off remarks and treated me as though I was going to be a problem to deal with. Every time I encountered a cop for some reason, they would ask me how my mom, dad, and brothers were doing. I was perceived as being a juvenile delinquent and possible trouble-maker or bad influence (many of my friends parents wouldn’t allow them to hang out with me), even though I was living on my own in the park while continuing to go to school and never got into any serious trouble with the law. The only illegal activity I was engaged in was what I needed to do in order to survive and protect myself, which I did.

       When I finally moved out of my home town and to a brand new community where no one knew me, I was going to work one day and a voice said to me . . . “okay Linda, you’re always going on about how people don’t know you for who you really are, well no one knows you here, so who are you going to be?” And I realized in that moment that no one would know anything about my past unless I told them. So I made it a point from that moment forward to never talk about my family, where I came from, or what I had been through, and took an attitude instead of “creating myself” as I really am.

       This not only put me in touch with myself in a new way and “who I am” as a conscious choice, but taught me to quit talking about my past and telling stories about “what happened to me”. As a result, I not only got to the point where I hardly ever thought about it anymore, and eventually started forgetting about a lot of things, but I also learned how to stay present in my life and consciously create myself in every moment to be the person I truly was inside. When people I had known for years finally started finding out about my upbringing and where I came from they were shocked. Most thought that I had come from a fairly well-to-do family, had a formal education, and didn’t have a problem in the world because I “seemed” so “well-balanced and confident.” Of course this was also the community where my son was born and my husband was killed, so it set a whole new type of reality into motion that brought with it a whole new set of challenges and obstacles to be overcome and resolved to a favorable end.

       Every time I hit a point of mental and emotional collapse, where I felt like giving up because I didn’t think I had the strength or know-how to make it through my situation and I felt completely alone in life, I realized that I didn’t know how to give up. What would it mean to give up? How would I live with myself knowing I gave up? What do you actually do when you give up? And after a period of severe stress and not knowing what to do, literally falling apart, crying to the point of heaving, I would get pissed (at myself and God, even though I was an atheist at that time), and state firmly and repeatedly that I refused to give up – and in those moments of complete mental breakdown, feeling diminished and lost yet determined to persevere  – I connected with a higher power that seemed to consume me by “coming into me” and kind of taking over as my own consciousness.

       Its consciousness became one with mine and I felt more alive than ever before with a feeling of intense elation and self-awareness. An amazing feeling of calm came over me and I became very focused with a feeling of absolute power in what I was sensing. I seemed to know intuitively exactly what I needed to do, how I needed to do it, the reason for doing it, and what would result from it. All of my grief and despair vanished and I immediately proceeded to carry on with a renewed sense of moral strength that felt unstoppable. This was a profound awakening for me because I had always felt abandoned by a higher power and as if I was being made to suffer because I was a “good person.” I had felt betrayed and condemned by religion and always saw it as a form of mass delusion, even as a child.

       I then started experiencing what I came to realize were premonitions about the events that led up to my husband getting killed, where I literally tried to intervene and stop it from happening because I thought that was why it was being revealed to me. As I tried to change the course of events based on what I was seeing, they simply happened in a different way. Then, after he was stabbed and died on the spot, and was resuscitated several times while undergoing open-heart surgery, only to die as soon as he was taken out of ICU from a blood clot, it changed my perspective on everything. This set a whole new realm of investigation into motion that completely changed the course of my life by leading me down a path of deep inquiry into the true nature of destiny and the meaning of life. I became consumed with wanting to know what happens when we die? What do we experience? What’s it like? Where do we go? And I began reading everything I could find on the subject while talking to other psychics about their experiences with seeing people’s death and what happened when they tried to intervene by warning them.

       It was at this moment that I finally realized that if I didn’t believe in God, then who was I always talking to, and who was talking to me? I realized I was always engaged in a form of intimate conversation with another being that was inside of me. What was the voice inside of me that was always guiding, instructing, and comforting me? How was it that I could foresee events of the future while unconsciously engaging in behaviors as a part of what led up to them (I bought a black dress for an event a week before he died that I ended up wearing to his funeral). Was our life predetermined and we were just going through the motions as the experience of it, or were we truly creating our life moment by moment through the decisions we make?

      What I realized through all of it was that in every moment, through every life challenge and crisis, I was able to see different aspects of myself brought out by the shear panic and despair I was feeling, where I was making a decision, conscious or not, as to who I was going to be in relationship to that moment, and taking what often amounted to drastic actions that were terrifying in and of themselves as the means of fulfilling my decisions. These weren’t decisions made in an analytical way through reasoning as a debate, but rather ones that resulted from feelings, intuition, and a heightened awareness around the true nature of things.

       I became very clear on what was “in me to do and what wasn’t.” My choices came out of an awareness of who I am as a soul. Not from what I was “taught” was right or wrong or acceptable based on the circumstances. I couldn’t “imagine myself” being that way, and if I was, I would hate myself while knowing I had the ability to change it, but chose not to out of fear and self-doubt. All of my unconscious decisions resulted not from my conditioning and the values and behaviors being demonstrated all around me that I was an inherent part of, but from my inner sense of morality and what I knew deep inside to be right and wrong. It was my morality and intuition as a soul that was my compass and beacon shining through in even the darkest moments when all hope seemed lost and I was beside myself with fear. All the answers I sought weren’t outside of me, but within me, simply waiting to be acknowledged. I realized that questions and answers are opposite ends of the same thing, and the questions we ask in our most private moments with a deep sincerity to know bring the answers to us as life experiences.

       As I continue through life, I’m still experiencing one challenge after another, I’m currently in the process of going blind (have been for several years), but now I look at things from a completely different perspective where I see them as the ideal situation for showing me parts of myself that I still need to transform. I see them as opportunities administered by my Higher Self that serve to facilitate my moral and spiritual grow by teaching me the lessons they hold as a result. I’m completely clear on the fact that karma is administered in an unbiased and compassionate fashion by my Higher Self lovingly affording me the opportunity to redeem myself from past errors instead of blindly repeating them in new ways, and develop all of my weaknesses and bad traits into moral strength and mental skill. Realizing that problems are actually loving gestures designed to grow me in new ways, I feel a deep sense of appreciation for all of what I imagine to be tribulations.

       I’ve learned that every situation, no matter how challenging or difficult it seems, brings out in me all kinds of qualities and traits in response to it, many of which appeal to the mentality and emotional states of my conditioning where I can detach from them in order to see them in a different light and not let them consume me by making them personal. Through the challenges of my life I can see what weaknesses I still need to transform into strengths. I have developed a strong ability to look at myself as I truly am, and take an attitude of always rising to every challenge I’m faced with in order to develop myself in a fully conscious and deliberate way. I realize with complete certainty that this material life is not the prize to be won or story to be lived, but simply sets the stage necessary for me to decide in every moment who I’m going to be in relationship with it and as a co-creator with it.

       I realize that my true purpose in life is to grow my soul in ways that allow me to help other people grow. I consider myself a teacher and know that I can only teach others what I know from experience. I know that in blazing a path from the lowest level of despair to the highest level of optimism and confidence casts this into the astral light of mass consciousness where it can be accessed and utilized by all who are searching for their own answers. It has provided me with the knowledge and practical skills to be able to embrace and walk head on into any situation, no matter how bad, with a sense of compassion, reverence, and confidence in my ability to not only to endure it and know what to do in new situations, but use it to actively develop the parts of me it naturally acts to calls forth in response to it.

       I know that this life and these circumstances are simply a phase and step in my soul’s overall growth and are only meaningful in terms of setting the stage that’s ideal for my eternal process of self-creation. It’s not about what happens to us in life or why, but rather who we decide to become by way of what happens to us. In every moment we’re making decisions based on one question, and that is “who am I?” Who am I going to be in this moment? What am I going to create? We’re always the one determining our own creation and setting the course for our destiny. The only purpose to this life is to master our ability to not be controlled by the conditions and circumstances of life, but to engage at the point of actively directing the natural forces of the world through the power of self-realization, choice and will. How we live this life sets the karmic basis for the next as a continuation of our journey from an unconscious state to a fully conscious one.

Dr. Linda Gadbois        

Introspection, Self-Awareness, and Transforming Yourself by Learning how to Work through Your Own Tendencies

       One of the ways we keep ourselves locked into a dis-empowered position in our own life is through the tendency to believe that other people are the ones who “do things to us” beyond our control, and by always focusing on the other person in a situation while making what’s happening all about us somehow. We get emotionally triggered by something someone says or does and we instantly react by going unconscious and playing out the natural tendencies we’ve been conditioned with. We focus our attention on what we imagine the other person is “doing to us” by how they’re being and a whole preconditioned script begins playing out in our mind as our “perception” of the situation. We glaze over the object reality and what is in fact a neutral event and replace it with a subjective reality of our own making that we imagine to be real. The story we begin running through our mind forms our interpretation of it as an illusion born out of our past conditioning. Anytime we’re “reacting”, we’re instantly overcome with an emotional state that “takes over”, and we begin playing out our “issues” of the past in the present. We replace the current reality with a belief that shapes how we experience it through the story we tell ourselves about it that gives it meaning.

       There’s always a fundamental paradox playing out where we tend to focus all of our attention on the other person or external events and circumstances going on, while simultaneously telling ourselves a story that makes it all about us. Because of this natural tendency we form a belief around the idea that others are deliberately doing things to us that are beyond our control. They “make us” feel the way we do. Then, whatever they say about or to us we take personally and form a belief about ourselves out of the story we tell ourselves about it that explains, describes, and justifies it, and as a result, we use it as the means of shaping ourselves. This is the most natural way we’re shaped by other people without realizing it. We form a belief that others can attack, hurt, traumatize, betray, put us down, and basically control and determine us through their actions. We do this usually without ever realizing that this is actually something that we’re doing to ourselves in response to them.

Looking at the Nature of Reactive Behaviors

        All reactive behaviors come from an emotional trigger of some kind that instantly transforms us to an unconscious state where we begin acting out and creating the reality of our “issues”. It’s our conditioned behavior and model of the world that forms our perceptual lens and gives us an “instant reality” that we use in place of the current reality. As we’re being stimulated somehow, our mind immediately references all memories of the same feelings and emotions, and associates them to the current situation by saying “this is the same as that”. We give the present the same meaning as the past, which produces instant behavior through the story we tell ourselves about it, and act to produce the same type of reality as a result. This is how we continue to repeat the past in the present by playing out the same patterns as behavioral dynamics. Our past experiences give us a kind of preformed template as “instant interpretations” that don’t require us to think about them in order to form new patterns instead.

       We always frame any situation as a means of interpreting it in a way that allows us to continue telling a certain type of story. Our beliefs form perceptual filters that we use as a filtering system for abstracting and only utilizing small portions of information available in any situation, and organize it in whatever way we need to in order to continue playing out the reality of our beliefs. If someone points it out to us, we usually respond by explaining it in a way that justifies our right to feel that way. We’ll literally argue and defend our right to feel the way we do because we create it in a way that feels very real to us. We don’t realize that we’re actually making it up and creating it through our ability to perceive it.

How to Transform our Experiences

        All transformation and growth is something only we can do to ourselves and comes by way of self-awareness that allow us to see our own tendencies as a form of delusion and work through them to produce new types of experiences. We give our true power away to others by allowing them to control us, or we try to use our power inappropriately by trying to change the other person or situation instead of ourselves. We think that by changing the outer circumstances we’ll change our inner feelings about it. We imagine that in order to be alright we have to change the world around us that’s “making us” feel that way. We become heavily invested in trying to change other people’s perception, attitudes, and behaviors so that we don’t have to change our own, yet, in truth, we only have the power to change our own. So we approach and attempt to solve one delusion by creating another one designed to remedy it.

       We only step into our true power as a creative being when we begin turning our attention inward and self-reflect as the means of recognizing how it is that we’re always acting on ourselves to create all of our own experiences. We can realize that every situation that “triggers us” somehow is also providing us with an opportunity to become self-aware in the present moment where we can actually change it. We can begin this process by simply observing ourselves as the means of realizing how it is that we create our own internal state as our reaction to something. No one is causing us to react (unless we remain unconscious), but we’re the one that’s actually creating our reaction as an internal process. We can only work with what operates in our life at the unconscious level by forming awareness around it. It’s through the awareness that we can see the actual process taking place, realize how and why we’re doing it, and then act to modify it consciously.

Self-Reflection and Awareness

       It’s probably advisable to begin this process of transformation in situations where you’re only being mildly triggered so self-control is relatively easy, and practice faithfully until you get good at it and it starts becoming automatic. Then work your way up to more difficult ones. All change is produced in baby steps that are consistently taken. As you realize you’ve been triggered into what is normally a reactive state, refrain from reacting and instead turn your full attention inward. Notice where in your body you’re feeling the stimulus, what sensation it’s giving you, and what emotion it’s acting to invoke in you. As you concentrate on the feeling, relinquish all need to try and control what’s happening, and simply give yourself fully to the feeling inside of you allowing it to take on a life of its own. As it begins playing out, notice what it seems to be about, and what it’s showing you about yourself. What past experience are you naturally associating with it in order to give it meaning of some kind. The meaning you give it is what acts to shape your story about it which is what forms your experience of it.

       Let your story play out while simply witnessing it from as detached a perspective as you can. Don’t associate to the experience by “being in it, having it”, but rather view it from a dissociated position as if you were another person looking at it from the outside. This moves you from a subjective state to an objective one. We can only see the truth of a situation when we’re not directly experiencing the emotions involved. It’s the emotion that’s associated to the memory itself that acts to initiate the whole process and pulls up the memory in your mind’s eye as the filter used to look through in order to perceive the current situation to be the same as the past. Emotions produce illusions out of memories as a false reality that we use in place of the actual reality of the present moment in order to create the same type of experiences.

       As you begin forming a clear idea around what your reaction is all about, refrain from judging yourself in any way or going into some kind of dialogue that’s designed to explain and justify it. Whatever we argue to defend is ours to keep. This is how we stay locked into delusions of our own making. Then allow yourself to notice that they’re not doing anything “to you” and that you’re actually the one doing it through automatic processes of your own mind. Realize it has nothing to do with you unless you “make it” about you and your past. Allow yourself to realize that you’re creating a state of being upset, insulted, hurt, offended, not being worthy, betrayed, lied to, abandoned or not wanted, and so on. No one is “making you” feel that way, you’re actually the one doing it to yourself by the memories you’re using as the means of interpreting it to mean something. Nothing has meaning in and of itself outside of the one we give it.

       All you need to do in order to break a pattern as an unconscious tendency is to become intuitively aware of it. The only reason ideas of our past continue to be played out in the present as the means of creating our experiences is because they’re operating without our direct awareness. Reactive behaviors literally keep us in an unconscious state. By becoming aware of what you’re doing to actually produce the reaction, is all it takes to loosen its grip. The emotional trigger that produced the reaction begins subsiding and fading to the point where you can easily control it, and it eventually subsides altogether. Once you’re able to remain calm and stay fully conscious, and you’re no longer taking it personal or making it about you somehow, you form a different way of looking at it where you can intelligently choose how to respond and interact. In this way, you quit creating your life out of your past conditioning and can begin creating in a more deliberate and intentional manner. As you begin consciously creating your experiences through a calm inner state, you step into your true ability to transform yourself to a new level of being.

  Dr. Linda Gadbois

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The Art of Setting Goals and Manifesting your Dreams

Setting goals and “dreaming” is one of the most primary ways we use our mind to create realities. While “task oriented goals” are relatively easy, as they only require us to direct our attention and perform remedial acts, producing entirely new experiences as realities requires more skill because it’s done by how we use different aspects of our own mind to program other aspects. Our mind has what we can think of as three primary aspects that are always performing different functions while working together in unison to produce the same reality. What we refer to as “reality” is created both internally and externally as a unified experience that’s metaphorical in nature. We often feel confused around the idea of what we call the “same reality” being literal as an exact match, where it “shows up” just as we imagined it, when in fact it actually comes as a correspondence to our imagined idea as the same “type or kind” of reality that’s composed of different elements. The mind works out of patterns as themes that allow an idea to be applied and adapted to various situations to produce a modification of the same overall idea. So how the reality of an imagined goal formulates and shows up may be different, but it serves to create the same basic type of experience. The key word here is the idea of a “type of experience”, rather than an exact event. We have to formulate the goal as an experience of reality, focusing primarily on the “feeling” we’re striving to get from the reality of the goal, then let go of all control as to how it formulates within our given conditions and circumstances. We create an idea as a symbolic, metaphorical idea that we use as an “organizational mechanism” (vibratory frequency) for organizing the elements available in our present environment to be of the same nature, and be organized to create the same type of experience.

Designing Mental Programs All mental programming designed to produce an actual experience of reality, comes by way of the conscious mind programming the subconscious mind. The subconscious is different than the conscious mind in the sense that it’s always present in the moment, is experiential in nature, emotionally driven, and creates out of preexisting memory. What unifies all aspects of our mind into a cohesive singularity is “state”. Our state of mind is what also acts to adjust the chemistry of our body to “match” that state, as well as what acts to adjust and organize the events of the outer world. The “unified mind” that we all exist as a part of, commonly called the “collective unconscious” or “mass consciousness”, is the subconscious aspect of the mind that we share with all of Nature as the instinctually driven mind that governs the entire material world of both the body and its outer environment. What we refer to as our conscious mind, which can also be thought of as our self-aware mind that forms our outer awareness, is abstract in nature, always consumed in the illusion of time and hardly ever present, and is what forms our verbal thoughts and internal dialogue that’s always talking to ourselves about things. This is the aspect of the mind that gives things meaning then tells a story about them based on the meaning. The conscious mind of outer awareness has the ability to discriminate, analyze, and evaluate situations in order to make conscious decisions. It works in-sync with the subconscious by acting as the “gatekeeper” of the subconscious and decides what to “let in” and what to “keep out”. It also has the ability to “seed” the imagination of the subconscious with an idea it wants to create as an outer reality, but they speak different languages, and so it has to form an idea and directive for the subconscious as a “direct experience” of an idea that replicates a memory, coupled with a positive state and emotion.

The Power of State What acts as the “unifying field” or mechanism between all aspects of the mind is the “feeling state” we exist in as our perspective and basis for creating experience. This idea is probably the most confusing for people in understanding how to formulate the reality they desire to create and experience through what we imagine to be a form of prayer or be requesting and asking for it. If we exist in a state of “wanting” what we don’t have, we’re creating an “experience of not having”, and we’re actually “programming” our subconscious to create more experiences of wanting. It’s the experience we’re “in” as a state of mind forming a perception that acts as the directive for the subconscious mind. This is due to the fact that the subconscious is feeling and experience oriented, rather than abstract and time oriented. Whatever feeling we live out of and maintain as an inner experience and emotional state “is” what we’re connecting to all around us and acting in an organized manner to create more of. The subconscious has no concept of time and simply operates to create material reality based on using memory to create more experiences that are of the same nature as the memory. The subconscious doesn’t exist in time and doesn’t have the ability to focus on “being without something” that it needs to seek and try to get outside of itself in the outer world. This means that it’s “present in the experience of not having”, and acting on our behalf to create more of the same type of experiences, because this is the actual command we’re giving it. The outer world is always a direct correlation and reflection of the inner world, because they’re both created as an extension of each other within the same mind. We do not exist as separate from our environment, but rather as a coherent part of it. What we experience as reality is based on our own perception of it, which comes from our mental paradigm as our “model of the world”, used as a dynamic system for interpreting what we perceive to be outer events to give them meaning as the way of “experiencing” them. The experience of something comes as the feeling sensations that produce emotions and an “inner reality” that acts as a “representation” we use in place of actual events. We “reshape” the outer elements to produce the reality that matches the inner feelings and emotions, reforming them according to our model used for perceiving them.

       As we reform the elements of the outer events of life to match our ideas about them, we form them into an internal reality as a representation that becomes our “memory of them”. All memory is produced in the imagination as a personification of an outer, object reality, and then replayed in the imagination as a way of continuing to form reality as our perception, and create more realities of the same nature as our memories. This is because the subconscious, which is the “group mind” of mass consciousness, has to have a set-pattern as a kind of theme or metaphor for producing both an internal reality and corresponding external reality of the same nature. The subconscious needs a “memory of reality” in order to produce an “experience” of reality. The subconscious can’t tell the difference between an “actual memory” and an imagined one, because they’re both created the same way, in the faculty of the imagination. In order to give the subconscious a pattern and directive for creating, we have to form it into a virtual memory as an experience of it, as if it’s already real. What makes a “real memory” different from a made-up one, is that the one created from a real life situation came as an actual experience that had a strong feeling, vivid and intense sensations, and a strong emotion as the “self-organizing mechanism” that gave it meaning and shaped it into a story of some kind. Actual events, which are subliminally shaped through natural unconscious states, contain all the key components for shaping as a “mental record”, which, when recalled and replayed, contain all the emotional sensations and instant story-line for producing an immediate experience of the same nature and kind. Our entire experience of reality is based on an incredibly diverse and dynamic matrix of interwoven and integrated memory. Our mental paradigm as a dynamic (living) holographic pattern (frequency) is a “reality generating machine”, much like a computer simulation or video game where everything is being produced in a progressive manner moment by moment through our perception of it formed out of memory.

       The “connecting factor” that forms the basis for and that generates and maintains all reality, is “feelings”. Whatever reality as an experience we produce by imagining it, acts to express a feeling, amplifying and reproducing it, and serves to give us more of that same feeling. If we form a wish or goal from a feeling of lack and scarcity, from a state of “not having it”, while we think we’re giving the subconscious a verbal command to produce or find it, the real directive being received by the subconscious is to produce more of the same feeling as an experience of the outer reality. We’re actually forming a goal around the experience of “deprivation and lack” at the subconscious level. This is a very important factor to realize in using your own mind to create within the material world. Thought as we know it, as verbal words we speak to ourselves internally, is a product of the self-conscious mind of outer awareness. The thought and “intelligence” of higher planes of consciousness (regardless of what we call it), is what acts to organize and orchestrate the material plane of phenomena, and comes intuitively as feelings. Within feelings are whole realities as experiences that produce more of the same feelings. The governing force of the mind and the reality it creates and perceives, both internally and externally, comes as feelings that act to systematically produce matching thoughts and emotions.

Goals as Mental Programs In order to produce a goal as a means of creating reality, rather than performing a simple task, it has to be formed into an “experience of the goal” as an actual reality. We have to form it in our imagination in full sensory terms as being “within it” having the experience of it. We have to first produce the reality internally in order to connect with, match, and perceive the same type of reality externally. All perception of the outer world is formed as the correspondence to the internal representation formed in the imagination. The same pattern as a theme or metaphor is played out on different scales and levels simultaneously. The entire material world, which is constructed of light by the mind, is produced by the Higher Mind of the Soul, of which both the subconscious and self-conscious are functional aspects within the lower plane and are what is used to produce, experience, and maintain the entire phenomenal world. In order to work within the material plane in a truly creative fashion, we have to work by way of the laws that govern the mind that’s acting to create it. Two complementary aspects brought into harmony produce a functional third. We produce our goals as imaginary realities by developing them as actual scenarios in full sensory terms, while also creating our experience by what we’re telling ourselves about them that give them meaning and form a story-line about them. We picture it in our mind while asking ourselves . . . what am I seeing? Then imbue it with visual details that are rich in terms of colors, textures, and qualities. Then ask, what am I hearing? While filling in the experience with any sounds, activities, or other people talking. Then, what am I feeling or touching? Smelling? Tasting? While filling in details of sensations of touch, smell, and taste. What am I feeling as emotional sensation? What am I telling myself about it as internal dialogue and thoughts? And so on, until you develop a detailed sensory experience that acts to invoke a very positive emotional state.

Emotions Motivate Action and Behavior The subconscious is emotionally driven and motivated by the two primary emotions of either pleasure or pain. It moves towards and into anything it deems pleasurable or pleasant, and away from or avoids anything it perceives as painful or unpleasant. It’s very important that the visualization of our goals as an experience act to naturally produce positive, compelling emotions in us. If feelings of fear, apprehension or discomfort arise from our goals, we have to resolve them at the same time as a means of developing our vision, or they’ll act as a natural means of self-sabotage. Because fear is such a strong and compelling emotion, it can take on a life of its own, and sends the message to the subconscious that this type of situation (our desired goal) will cause fear as a result, and the subconscious will act to avoid, resist, and counteract it as a way of preventing it from happening. Spiritual Basis of Desire and Fear From a purely spiritual, soul-oriented perspective, which is always based on growth by realizing and overcoming limitations, all of our true desires as the dream for our life are directly associated to our greatest fears, and require us to step into and resolve our fears in order to willfully create. This factor can be confusing for many because there’s a general misconception that’s being widely taught as the belief that “what’s meant to be” comes with ease as a harmonious and synchronistic unfolding of congruent events. While this is true at the unconscious level of karmic patterns repeating in a systematic fashion, when we assume the position of “consciously creating” in a precise and deliberate manner by breaking habitual patterns of established realities, we have to operate according to a higher set of laws that are polar and causal in nature to the laws of the lower plane, which come in an automated fashion without our mental initiation. When we step outside of automated processes, which create out of fears as much as they do desires (whichever one is strongest), we encounter a kind of paradox that acts to keep our current life situation stable and maintains it in a consistent fashion. As we set goals to accomplish things that are outside of our normal reality, we encounter both the positive and negative aspects at play within the same reality. In order to create something new and alter the existing pattern of reality, we have to not only develop and embellish the positive aspects, but we have to also realize and dissolve the negative emotions that will serve to counteract and prevent it.

How we Sabotage Ourselves Whenever we act against our own desires as a means of destroying opportunities, ruining key relationships, or producing destructive behavior, we have fears and beliefs operating at the subconscious level that we haven’t identified that are stronger than our desires. We are often our own worst enemy and what acts in our own life to destroy our dreams and ultimately produce our own demise. When fear is stronger than desire, it becomes the dominant state that we create our experience out of. What we fear we simultaneously think about and imagine, programming our subconscious with the reality of our fear. All behaviors come in a completely natural fashion without our direct awareness, and whenever emotions and intellect clash, emotion nearly always wins because it’s what’s driving all subconscious activity to produce us and our reality. The Creative Power of Beliefs Because our mind is what produces our perception of reality and all of our natural behaviors based on our perception, we act in an unconscious manner to faithfully produce the reality of our beliefs. Whenever we have a belief that contradicts or counteracts our desire for something, we use the desire to produce the reality of our belief instead, which prevents us from being able to accomplish it. Our beliefs “appear real to us” because they’re an inherent part of our perception, so we usually don’t realize that they’re actually something that we made-up, or was given (taught) by someone else that we accepted as being real and therefore true. Because we don’t truly realize the power of our own mind to create our reality (perception), we don’t realize that our beliefs aren’t “real”.

       We form limiting beliefs around our desires and dreams that require dissolution through self-awareness and realization, and the deliberate use of our ability to willfully correct our own false illusions. Usually, even when evidence is provided that contradicts and therefore proves our beliefs to be false, we’ll deny it or argue against it in favor of our beliefs. This is because our beliefs are not singular in nature but are formed out of a “belief system” as our mental paradigm that all support and validate each other through a cohesive experience of reality. As we transform what seems like a single belief, we undergo a paradigm shift that systematically transforms all beliefs that relied on it in order to be “real”. This can and does act to turn our perception and experience of reality completely around. We all have a story built around our beliefs that shape us according to them, and when a core-belief (one formed through our formative (childhood) conditioning) is transformed, it transforms our identity by way of the reality it creates that we use to experience ourselves, that can often cause a form of identity crisis. This experience is what’s been traditionally referred to as “soul liberation”, because the beliefs used to structure our reality are a form of self-induced limitation. While limitations of various sorts are necessary to express something in a specific manner, and as the means of developing an idea by giving it detail, when they prevent us from becoming a certain “type of person”, or from producing a certain type of experience, they act to prevent self-expression as growth in the most basic sense of the idea. What kind of limitations we impose on ourselves determines what we are capable of creating using our soul, mind, and will.

Ecology Check – Creating Harmony Another potential problem we have is that we set goals for one area of our life that conflicts with, undermines, or causes problems in another area of our life. When this happens we form inner conflict around them, associating pain and suffering with them, or the experience of having to “give up or lose” something we value in order to have or achieve them. Because the subconscious is the aspect of the (unified) mind that creates reality, it avoids and sabotages our goals, or acts to keep us in a constant state of inner conflict. Again, it’s the “state” we’re in and the “experience” that acts as the “program as a reality” for the subconscious to create more of. For this reason, all goals should be developed in a way that’s congruent and harmonious with all other areas of our life, or if you’re acting to change behaviors, make sure you identify when and in what way the new behavior is appropriate and desired, and when it’s not. This requires moving an idea from a generalized state to a detailed and specific state by developing it in your imagination. Goals as standards exist in all areas of our life, and have to always be harmonious with each other in order to accomplish and maintain them. A financial or professional goal shouldn’t act to prevent or go against a health or relationship goal. Whenever intentional goals clash, it has a destructive nature and puts you in a constant state of inner turmoil and tearing you apart by having to let go of one area of your life in order to achieve in another area. All goals should be integrated harmoniously with all other goals and standards by adapting and modifying them accordingly, and should always produce a positive emotional state as the “imaginary experience of them”.

All Goals should be Self-Oriented All true goals should only involve you in order to achieve and produce. They shouldn’t require the participation of anyone else specifically to achieve as a joint reality. If goals require the cooperation of others in order to create, they should be discussed, set as a joint experience, and developed as a group. Any goal as a reality that’s not already a part of your everyday life requires you to make an inward change in order to produce outwardly. It requires you to give your own subconscious mind a program as a virtual memory to create an outward reality of the same nature. All goals come as our ability to willfully create an experience of them both inwardly and outwardly as an actual scenario or event. The only people who can actively and naturally participate in a playing a part in them are those who have similar goals or who are already a natural part of the reality we’re acting on ourselves to create. There are many articles written on the nature of goal setting, most of which are the offspring of conventional thought that’s been made popular, which state that it’s only goals that are written down and remembered that tend to come true. And while this is certainly true, it’s actually only the initial steps to actually creating the reality of your goals. As we write them down, we further develop them by making them detailed and specific, which becomes the basis for setting the intention to create them by visualizing them. All true creation that produced a brand new situation and experience began as a dream in the imagination. As souls, we are all programmed with our destiny through the dreams we naturally hold for our life that we’re born with and come natural to us. We all form ideas in our mind as kids of the type of characters that we want to be like and we develop those same characteristics in ourselves by “pretending to be like them”. We act out the same stories as an identity that has specific qualities and characteristics, and we “program ourselves” with those imagined realities as a way of “becoming”.

Setting the Criteria for Evaluating the Accomplishment of a Goal As you visualize a goal that’s set as a “reality” (not as acquiring an object or performing a task) and begin moving into it, it can become easy to lose sight as to whether or not you’re making real progress, or at what point you have actually accomplished your goal as an outcome of reality. We have to form realization around what it is that will provide us with evidence of our goal becoming an actual reality. At what point will we realize we’ve accomplished it? What is it in our outer environment as an event or situation that will let us know? This is critical because all imagined realities that act as a template and program for creating, are symbolic and metaphorical in nature, and when they’re produced as an actual reality, may be quite a bit different than the way we imagined it. For this reason, we have to identify and become quite clear on the “feeling” the reality was designed to give us. All experience is only designed as the means of producing a feeling in us by way of that reality. It’s the feeling that gives us a sense of ourselves inwardly that forms the basis of the memory we create of it as a result. The events themselves, or the specific set of circumstances that take place as our outer situation are irrelevant in and of themselves, but merely set the stage necessary for us to create a specific type of experience out of them. It’s the experience we create from the material reality that shapes us in terms of our identity. The outer events themselves are neutral in nature and lack meaning outside of the one we give it as a means of experiencing it. As we create our experience, we relate and associate with it, forming a “sense of ourselves” within and “as” our experience, which serves to shape us as an individual. By identifying the feeling the goal is designed to give us, we can form a clear idea as to when we have accomplished our goal as an outer experience that provides us with a certain inner feeling.

Overview: We create our reality in an intentional manner by how we use our conscious mind to program our subconscious mind. Our subconscious is intuitive in nature, and requires an idea as a metaphorical pattern that it uses as a form of instinct to create a corresponding outer experience. Our subconscious is the material mind that we share with the entire natural world, that has no ability of its own to discriminate and evaluate, decide, or willfully (going against habitual tendencies) act out an idea that’s apart from its outer environment, and needs to be “seeded” with an idea in the form of a memory for creating as an outer reality of the same nature. It’s only by first producing the reality inwardly that we can then produce it outwardly. All goals for new creations have to be resistant free and harmonious with our mental paradigm in order to achieve, because it’s our paradigm that produces it. We have to identify all fear and negative emotions associated with it, and any other areas of our life it will conflict or act to undermine and ruin. We have to realize any core beliefs we have that will prevent it or act to sabotage it. We have to develop it as a reality from “within the experience of it” as an already existing reality. Form it from the position and perspective of already “having it”.

The Steps for Creating a Vision of Our Goal:
  • Decide on what you “want” and set the intention for creating it.
  • Integrate it with all other life goals and standards for living as a way of developing it into a specific and detailed reality that’s congruent and coherent with your existing model.
  • Recognize any fears, negative emotions, conflicts, and limiting beliefs associated with it that arise naturally in response to the thought of it, and set a series of smaller goals as the means for transforming them.
  • Develop the goal as an actual experience of reality by giving it full sensory detail – seeing, hearing, feeling, smelling, tasting, and what you’re telling yourself about it.
  • Develop your internal dialogue as your “story about things” and yourself in a way that’s congruent and forms positive emotions and feelings about yourself.
  • Form a strong desire for it by making it very compelling and associating only positive emotions to it.
  • Once developed the way you want it, replay it over and over several times until it becomes a natural thought that can be instantly recalled just like a memory.
  • Write it down or record it, then review and visualize it every morning before you start your day, throughout the day when you’re in a relaxed state, and every evening before you fall asleep.
  • Set the intention to take some form of action towards it that day as a smaller set of goals that form an “action plan”.
  • As you go along and your actions begin producing results, evaluate those results to see if they’re in alignment with your desired outcome, and make any adjustments necessary to your action plan. Keep doing this until you produce the results you desire as a certain type of experience.
  • Form a strong realization around how you will feel when you’ve accomplished your goal and use that as the means of measuring it’s completion as an outer series of events that become a natural part of your experience and identity.
Dr. Linda Gadbois Transpersonal Psychologist, Integrative Mind-Body Medicine Consultant, and Spiritual Mentor  

Soul Memory and the Journey of Self-Creation through the Space-Time Continuum

The true nature of what we call time and space as “material reality” is elusive in the ultimate sense, yet quite obvious when we really look at how we form an experience of it. The problem tends to come when we imagine that both time and reality is something that exists apart from us and not dependent on our perception of it. Yet, if we really look at what it is that creates the “experience” of time and space, we can realize in the most direct sense, that it’s formed exclusively out of “memory”. The entire material world is consistently constructed and reconstructed moment by moment out of memory of some kind relived in the imagination. Things only “exist” as they’re “perceived” in the imagination by remembering them. Without the memory of something, it can’t be thought about and relived in the mind’s eye as existing outside of the present moment.

DNA, which is what’s used to form the entire material world, carries memory as information that it uses for organizing matter into a specific formula for constructing and animating a physical form. The “organizing force” comes as an active life-force that enters into DNA as a single cell and activates a process of regeneration and specialization that systematically constructs a whole living being. This life-force energy organizes memory in such a way that it creates a specialized being of a certain species, while giving it a somewhat unique personality, that has its place in the natural order of a larger Eco-system, all of which is constructed out of the same primary group of information that’s organized into different formulas as variations of the same overall pattern. It creates the body with certain attributes, qualities, and characteristics that produce natural abilities, behaviors, and tendencies.

DNA, like the mind itself, is what forms the physical body and personality as an “ideal vehicle” for the soul to inhabit out of “shared memory” that’s of the same nature. The mind re-informs the memory of the DNA of the body by acquiring and integrating new types of information that it integrates as experiences as a reality that form new memory. How the body manifests and consistently regenerates itself throughout a lifespan, is based on its memory and how that memory is transformed and evolved by the mind and soul that inhabits it and uses it to express through by creating experiences. Memory is used as the means for creating all of our experiences as a regenerative process that produces more experiences and memory of the same nature and kind.

The higher soul of the human being, which has the ability to self-create, is formed as an “identity” that’s also formed out of accumulated memory as self-produced experiences of itself, and “matches” the memory of the personality and body, making it an ideal instrument for the identity of the soul to incarnate and create itself. An “artist” as a kind of person, is of the soul, whereas the dexterity, desire, and natural abilities are of the body and personality, and together they create a “coherent experience” of the “self” as being an artist of some kind. The soul can either choose a body (memory) that facilitates its identity in a harmonious way, or that produces challenges to creating that identity that must be overcome in order to achieve that identity as an experience of itself. The soul creates itself by telling a certain “type of story” that has a twist to it that alters the nature of the telling.

Our “story”, which is how we create ourselves, is completely based on and constructed out of memory. The “past” only exists in the present through our memory of it. We restructure the present out of memory of the past, producing a consistent experience of reality. If we lose our memory of the past we don’t “know who we are” because we can’t reconstruct it in our mind’s eye as the story about our self. The “self” is a creation of the soul as an “idea” that it plays out within our current life conditions. Who we “become” is based on how we create our experiences of the events of our life that form our memories of our self. Memory as a certain identity (archetype) couples with the memory of the body (ancestral) and personality to produce more memories of the “same nature” as a unique variation that’s formed by adapting and modifying it to a new set of circumstances, altering it to tell a somewhat different type of story about the same “kind of person”.

Universal and Personal

What we refer to as the human soul, which is bestowed with higher capacities of the mind to self-create, acts as the “medium” between the spiritual plane of universal memory (archetypes) and the material plane of personal (modified archetypes) memory. All personal memory is produced by using archetypal ideas of a universal theme and applying it to a specific set of circumstances and conditions to produce a new memory of the same “type of idea” as a personal creation. The creative (human) soul has the ability to choose what ideas it uses to create itself, and forms a “soul-matrix” as a dynamic structure formulated by a cluster of qualities used to create experiences that then form the memory of itself “as” something specific. A universal idea is drawn down from the higher plane of pure potential (as an unformed idea) into the mind of the soul, where it then undergoes a constant evolutionary process of transformation to be reformed as a personalized version of the same idea. It’s modified through the person’s mental paradigm and as it’s being applied to a specific set of circumstances to produce experiences of a unique and personal nature.

This is the same principle as a creative process that operates instinct as the universal memory and knowledge that drives and produces all activity of the natural world from an unconscious state that’s “intuitive and automatic” in nature. Humans possess higher capacities of self-creation as self-awareness, the ability to evaluate, choose and decide, and the will to act out our decisions. We can choose what ideas we focus on, give life to inside of us by imagining them as internal realities, using to shape our character by how we form them into a story that produces how we experience of our self. The human soul has the ability to create itself from a fully conscious state through the same type of process as natural selection that governs the natural world through an unconscious state. We act to produce our own experiences out of a larger shared reality, by actively deciding what memories of ourselves we use to first produce as an experience, and then absorb and integrate back into us in order to upgrade and evolve our “model of the world” to produce a consistent and congruent story about ourselves.

Universal memory is drawn down from a higher plane through resonance and used to create personal memory of the same nature. The higher soul, which is primarily of a universal nature, then acts to transform the experience back into a universal, non-personal memory as more of a “theme” upon the death of the body. The memory of a specific “type of experience” attained while in a body and located within time and space as a “specific entity”, is retained by the higher soul as a universal idea that can then be applied equally to any set of conditions and circumstances to produce the same type of experiences. Our memory of a specific cat, for example, isn’t retained by the soul as that specific cat, but returned to a somewhat universal status as our experience of “cats in general”. It becomes a generalized memory that forms our impression of all cats as a general idea, and whether or not we like, dislike, or feel a connection with them. As the soul incarnates into a new body and life conditions, it brings a general predisposition towards cats with it, and uses it to form similar relationships and experiences of cats within its new expression of itself.

The Nature of Time and Space

What we experience as “time and space” doesn’t exist outside of our memory of it. What we call “space” is formed out of “information” organized into a 3-D, holographic form as an energetic matrix that’s constructed out of memory. All reality is based on our perception of it and only exists in our mind as a mental construct. What we experience as the objective and neutral reality that appears to exist apart from us as Nature and mass consciousness is formed in exactly the same way out of universal memory constructed within the greater universal mind on a larger scale (commonly called a “plane of existence”). This greater reality of the “collective unconscious” is produced out of the same “thematic ideas” as Archetypes that we then use to create within the same overall mental construct to produce specialized versions as personal creations of the same nature. The entire natural world is holographic in nature and is formed out of the same group of information organized at the individual level into specialized (personal) versions (patterns as formulas) that perform different operations and functions of a larger overall idea in a unique way.

Quantum Physics, Time Travel and Timelines

Quantum physics, which is the area of modern day science that’s rediscovering Ancient Knowledge of Spiritual Sciences, has demonstrated the nature of the relationship that exists between consciousness and matter, and the (individual) minds ability to “influence” matter into different versions of an overall shared idea. Through this realization as an observation (not based on belief), we also know that “time doesn’t exist” in the ultimate sense of the idea, and is actually produced out of the mind itself as a mental construct of memory. Time travel therefore is based on “timelines” of the person or object being moved back and forth in time as the reconstruction of shared memory. Where we’re able to “go” in time and what location we can go to, is based on the memory of the individual or object being transported.

The soul, which is comprised solely of memory, can only go back or forward in time based on its memory of itself, and the places it formed those memories out of. It “can’t” access realities and experiences it has no memory of. This is the entire basis for “past life regression”, and why there is confusion around whether or not the soul of the individual is really accessing universal memory, the ancestral memory of its current genetic make-up, or actual memory created by the soul itself in what appears to be “previous” lifetimes. This is because they’re all ultimately the same thing, all formed out of the same thematic idea that lends themselves to endless applications to produce an infinite number of variations. The human soul creates itself as a “unique archetype” by borrowing universal memory to transform into a unique variation as personal memory. We are all “multidimensional” in nature, and are comprised of the same primary archetypes (gods of the zodiac) formulated in different ways to produce a unique variation as the means of creating ourselves to be “god-like”.

A key discovery that Nikola Tesla made years ago regarding time travel as teleportation from one location to another within the same dimension, and demonstrated through the “Philadelphia Experiment”, was the importance of “timelines as memory”, not only of the individuals involved, but of the object or ship itself. All material objects, whether organic or inorganic, “contains” the memory used to fabricate them, as well as the memory of all events and activities it went through and that were being played out around or in them. Memory isn’t just contained in a material object itself, but is also recorded as a mental imprint in the “space” as the invisible field around the object. Every material object, whether living or not, is accompanied by an electromagnetic field of organized information as memory that’s used to structure and generate it, hold it together in a unified manner, and animate it through a specific set of behaviors and functions. As Tesla proved, if people and an object are being moved back or forth in time together, they have to be of the same timeline as shared memory.

This energetic field that exists in the empty space around us that contains an infinite amount of both personal and universal memory is also commonly referred to as the Ether, Astral Plane of (star) Light, and the Akashic Field as the Book of Life or Hall of Records. The memory of every individual, being, or thing, is contained in the electromagnetic field (auric field) that surrounds, permeates, and inhabits it, and is what acts to “inform it” as its “life memory”. These accumulated memories act to form the “timeline” of the being or object and always accompanies it as long as it “exists” as a material form of some kind. This is because memory is what acts to produce the material form. When the soul leaves the body, it absorbs all memory of itself attained while in the body, while transforming it back into a somewhat universal state, and exists within the astral plane “as” memory in its potential state.

The Spiritual Nature of Material Form

The entire material world is created through a step-down process of soul memory forming the subconscious memory of both the soul and body, and the memory of the DNA used to construct the body, all of which form a unified being of the same nature and likeness. DNA contains information as a combination of memory that’s activated and organized by an animating energy (life-force) that ultimately produces something out of nothing. Matter itself is comprised of empty space as light (photons) that’s “neutral and dead” (passive) in nature and only organized into a living form by the soul as specialized memory that inhabits it. Matter as Astral (star) Light (essence) is formed into an “empty shell” that the soul can then inhabit as the means of creating itself. The soul, which is universal in nature, locates itself within the space-time continuum by constructing a light-body as the means of self-expressing and creating itself by way of its own self-produced experiences of reality. The soul is what first produces then gives life to the body. When the soul leaves the body, it’s no longer alive and dies and eventually disintegrates.

The “spirit” provides the memory as complete patterns of information used by the soul to produce a unique and individual physical equivalent or prototype out of. The memory of the DNA in a single cell is activated and used to produce a greater physical form by reproducing itself in a continuous process of division, specialization, and differentiation. As the single cell divides and doubles, it produces numerous “aspects of itself” that all function in different ways to create a whole organism comprised of trillions of reproductions that act together in perfect unison to create what appears as a single reality. As the soul and body combine to form a unique variation of the same type of memory, they continue to regenerate forming new memory by how it’s applied to new circumstances, expressing the same idea in new ways to form new types of memory that are of the same basic nature. It “re-informs itself” through the integration and assimilation of memory that it first produces, then absorbs and uptakes to shape itself in new ways as an evolutionary process of growth and development.

Individuality of the Soul

The soul creates itself as an “individual” by how it associates and identifies with its own self-created experiences. The lower soul of the animal body, lives out of the memory of its formative conditioning and genetic constitution as a part of the group mind, and lacks any form of individuality that sets it apart from the group. When the higher, human soul lives out of its conditioning of the current body and personality that’s created from a primarily unconscious state, it simply creates a constant form of the same type of experiences over and over, while rejecting and arguing against the acceptance and incorporation of any new kinds of information that would serve to upgrade its “model of the world” to produce new perceptions that would bring new types of experiences and memories that would serve to “evolve itself” accordingly.

Anytime the soul exists as someone or something specific, it’s formed out of its own individual memory that it acted to create of itself while inhabiting a physical body of some form. When the soul leaves a body, all memory attained through that body as its “personal memory” is transformed back into its universal, archetypal state as a thematic or generalized idea. Then when the soul inhabits a new body and personality, that same memory as a form of theme, can be readily applied in a brand new way to create in a similar manner as a new variation of itself. At the death of the body, all memory is absorbed by the soul in a way that’s no longer based on how it identified with the body, but rather as it used the body to create itself by what story it served to tell by how it lived its life. The body, like the entire material realm, which is located in space and time, is produced by the mind of the soul as the reenactment of accumulated memory. Our soul memory and the reality it acts to produce is what forms the basis for what is commonly called “karma”.

The Eternal Nature of the Soul

The idea of immortality and mortality is all based on what aspect of ourselves we identify with and how we perceive ourselves as a result. The body is firmly located within “space and time” as a “created being” in a specific location as a specific personality, and is therefore mortal in nature. The soul, which inhabits and gives life to the body, exists as an “idea” that provides the “potential” as the basis for creating itself as a “physical form” that’s of a certain nature. The soul is comprised of pure memory that acts as the means for producing material form on different scales and magnitudes simultaneously. It doesn’t act to just create the body that it then inhabits as a means of expressing to create itself, but the entire physical world of the body as its reality or the “stage that sets the basis for creating as a life-drama”.

The soul doesn’t just exist outside of time and space, but is actually what “creates the illusion” of time and space. When it’s not “inform” as a body and personality, it doesn’t exist within the material dimension of time and space as a located being, but exists within the astral plane of formation as the memory (vibratory frequency) that provides the means for producing the entire physical world as we know it. It doesn’t just create the body that it then inhabits, but creates the entire outer reality that the body exists in as the landscape and setting of the same type of memory. Experiences all come as both an “internal formation of an idea” that then acts as the “perceptual lens and filtering system” for perceiving that same idea outside of ourselves on a larger scale, providing the means for acting it out as a drama of some kind in order to produce an “experience of it”.

The soul is of both a personal and universal nature, which means it’s both the smaller individual mind and the larger universal mind simultaneously. The inner (personal) and outer (universal) world are reflections and projections of each other, and just as universal memory is used to produce personal memory, the outer reality that the soul “lives in” is also produced by it through its universal nature. The entire material world as we perceive it is a product of our soul’s memory as the means of self-expression and self-creation. As we express outwardly creating an experience, we form a realization of ourselves through and as the experience. The human soul and mind exists within the astral plane of Formation and is what constructs the entire 4-dimensional world out of memory as the means of perceiving and experiencing itself in order to create and transform itself through a self-perpetuating process of growth and development.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

Transpersonal Psychologist, Integrative Mind-Body Health Consultant, and Spiritual Mentor

 

 

The Subconscious Mind as the Vehicle for the Soul and the Secret to the Manifestation of Cosmic Will

The aspect of the mind known as the subconscious mind is also what we can think of as our “body consciousness” and is symbolized in Esoteric Sciences by the Moon which acts as a “ship of the sky” that serves as the means for transportation and communication. The subconscious mind is of the astral plane and is “magnetic” in nature, which means it acts as a passive receiver for electric, willful transmission of information as archetypes; just as the moon has no light of its own, and merely acts to reflect the light of the sun, becoming a source of light in the dark. Light itself is clear and dark until it’s absorbed and reflects off of dust particles or matter of some form, which produces the illumination that we call light where we can see material forms based on their ability to simultaneously absorb and act as a mirror for light (forming holograms). The subconscious acts in much the same way and doesn’t generate or produce visual images and thoughts of its own, but merely acts to absorb and reflect them in the faculty of the imagination as a form of memory or as an idea that comes to it in complete form as a “field of information” with a ready-made pattern and set of instructions for producing a similar pattern as both an inner and outer reality of the same nature.

The subconscious mind is a dual aspect of the higher, human soul and is what forms the personality out of memories that are carried from one incarnation to another. Because it’s passive and receptive in nature, and takes in consciousness and information from everything around it without the ability to judge or discriminate (it doesn’t select or choose), it assimilates and is modified by whatever it comes into contact and communication with as an exchange of information being transmitted between two things. The subconscious is considered the feminine principle and “uniting intelligence” that’s connected to all other subconscious minds and personalities throughout the natural world, regardless of distance, as a natural form of telepathy we think of as “instinct”. It’s the agency of telepathy that exists not only between all living beings of the material plane, but also between higher and lower planes as “intuition”. It acts as a blind receiver of the masculine aspect of “will” as thought and ideas which are reflected in the imagination of the subconscious which acts like a womb that grows and develops the idea into a possible reality by how it applies and adapts it to the immediate environment and incorporates it into a field of information as memory, allowing it to connect to that same idea in everything else, forming a perception of it, and automatically producing the behaviors and activities that produce it in material form as an experience.

The subconscious carries the self-conscious mind within it in its potential state as a form of gestation, and births the self-conscious aspect of the same mind at puberty, symbolized esoterically by the Madonna (Mother) and Male child, which is the stage of development when we first begin to be able to think for ourselves and make our own decisions about what to do and who we become. Birth of the self-conscious mind marks the stage where we consciously begin creating ourselves as an individual. This is the aspect of the mind associated with “brain consciousness and thinking as internal dialogue”, that’s born exclusively within the body and forms our ego as the full identification with or as our body. This is the aspect of the mind that discriminates and makes decisions and gives us the ability to take over our own creation by using our thoughts to direct and inform our subconscious mind. All thoughts act as a form of suggestion that seed the subconscious with ideas for turning into experiences through our outer reality. The self-conscious mind is primarily based on outer awareness of the material world and forms our identity by how it senses itself in relationship with it. It first acts to give the inner, subconscious mind the suggestion for what to create outwardly, then witnesses its own creation in the outer world and fashions itself by identifying with the experience it brings.

        The subconscious is under the control of the self-conscious will as directed thought (of self or others) and is obedient and subject to being directed and commanded by the active, masculine aspect of the mind. The subconscious is the aspect of the mind we share with the animal kingdom and all of Nature, and is the agency through which we are both controlled and led in an obedient and mindless way by others, and are able to control and direct ourselves as the primary form of self-creation. The subconscious is subordinate to the Higher-Self and self-conscious and directly controlled and in-formed by suggestions that originate as the mental activities of both the Higher-Self the self-conscious aspects of the mind. It will take in the suggestions from any source outside the self as well and manifest the reality inherent in those suggestions. It acts as the receptive and regenerative aspect of the Life Power. The self-conscious mind, which also has the ability to analyze, evaluate, and discriminate, serves as the “gate keeper” to the subconscious and can actively decide what to let in and take hold, and what to reject and keep out as the means of “protecting” itself and only allowing or intentionally providing what it wants to become a part of its reality.

The subconscious as the feminine principle is the “root substance” as the invisible matrix and substratum beneath all objective planes of existence that acts to organize and compose and animate all material reality. It’s the connective medium between us and everything else. It’s the medium of instinct and intuition that operates within the Astral Plane of the Elements as a unified field of coherent information, and is also the means by which the Higher Mind controls the Elements as the means of creating, orchestrating, and animating material reality. Just as the subconscious is the telepathic and regenerative medium for the self-conscious will and the will of others, it’s also the medium through which the Higher-Will communicates and provides direction and instruction as a form of what we call “guidance” as well as objectively administering karma (past memory formed out of our deeds) as universal justice, providing us with the experiences on the receiving end of past deeds allowing us to realize and make new choices, and rectify and correct them by responding in a new way.

Communication comes to us from our Higher-Self or Soul through intuition, sudden insights, as thoughts reflected in our imagination, day dreams, and night time dreams, because the active will needs a passive receiver to “conceive of ideas” and move them from a purely latent potential state to and active state. These ideas, once conceived by the subconscious are reflected in our mind’s eye, allowing the self-conscious to witness them and they become a natural part of our outer experience through a form of synchronicity and free flowing chain of association that’s reorganized intuitively. Ideas of a higher nature come as archetypes which are universal and metaphorical in nature, and simply provide a symbolic prototype as a form of thematic template for producing as a personal creation. Once conceived by the subconscious and reflected in the mind for the self-conscious to see as a mental impression or internal voice, it evaluates it and decides whether it wants to use it to create. If the self-conscious likes it, it chooses to continue thinking about it, and as it thinks about it, it adapts and customizes it into a new variation that can be easily created as part of its outer reality. Once developed into a new variation by concentrating on it and defining it, it becomes a form of virtual memory as a seed or pattern for reproducing by the subconscious mind.

       Though the subconscious mind is the creative mind of the material plane, it only creates based on memory, which it simply repeats as a metaphor or theme and duplicates, transcribes, and copies in a repetitive fashion over and over until it’s given a new memory as a pattern for creating. It creates reality as an experience out of whatever suggestion it’s given by first imagining it, then connecting to the elements of the same nature all around it, producing the means for experiencing it. It creates lies and illusions in exactly the same fashion as it creates truth because it doesn’t know the difference. It relies on the self-conscious mind to filter the suggestions through reasoning, discrimination, and discernment. It doesn’t have the ability to perceive errors or formulate the necessary action to correct itself of errors in perceiving (sin). It simply takes in the mistaken results of faulty, superficial self-conscious observations and repeats and elaborates on them. While it lacks the ability to critically analyze suggestion, it’s also the channel for telepathic communication and acts to receive and metabolize suggestions from any active source when left unguarded by its own self-conscious aspect.

The subconscious mind only creates reality out of memory and forms habitual patterns and tendencies that are rooted in resistance to change and inertia, and only acts to maintain the status quo and repeat the same ideas of the past in the present. It operates out of the tendencies established in our formative conditioning, and simply repeats the same type of experiences over and over in different situations and circumstances. It operates naturally to resist the suggestions of change given to it by the self-conscious mind as its opposing, yet complementary opposite. It operates to create through the association of ideas and memories of a similar nature. If the suggestion given is in to sharp a contrast with its ecology of interwoven memories, it doesn’t know how to adapt it properly and can’t intuitively connect to it in everything else. For this reason, suggestion needs to be given as a gradual process undertaken in stages as a form of intuitive growth and development. Each aspect of the same mind is of itself non-functional in terms of creating, and they only become functional when operating in a unified manner as a whole.

The subconscious and self-conscious minds tend to speak different languages, which makes communication between them even more difficult. While the self-conscious mind is non-emotional, logical, time-oriented, and abstract in nature, the subconscious is emotional, intuitive, metaphorical, always present, and experiential in nature. In order for the self-conscious to give a proper, easily translated suggestion to the subconscious, it must be delivered in much the same way as a memory is formed as a sensory experience that’s emotional in nature and forms meaning as the basis for the reality created from it. Whatever we want the subconscious to produce, we have to imagine it as if we’re experiencing it, endow it with sensory intensity in terms of defining it through what we’re seeing, hearing, feeling, tasting, smelling, and what we’re telling ourselves about it that gives it meaning and forms the basis for the story we tell ourselves as the means of “experiencing it”. By making it intense in sensory terms we form a strong emotional response to it, and the emotions associated and related to it become what drives all our automatic behaviors and serves to produce it.

       The subconscious is intuitive which means it sees any idea as a metaphor or analogy that’s a form of theme or generalized idea, much like an archetype, and connects to whatever is of a similar nature in everything around it and produces a similar type of experience using whatever elements are available to it in the immediate environment. So the experience created won’t be exactly as we imagined it, but it’ll hold true to the same type of idea as a form of theme. This is why we often don’t recognize our own creations, is because they’re formed as analogies and correspondences to the ideas we formed in a specific way by how we imagined them. So all suggestion, in order to be effective needs to be created and planted in the subconscious as a form of virtual memory of an actual (imagined) experience. We recognize the fruition of our suggestion intuitively as a similar type of experience that holds true to the same type of idea as a kind of theme, though the elements used to orchestrate it may be of a very different nature than we imagined.

The subconscious also houses all memory of the soul that is latent and undeveloped powers in their virgin state that haven’t been stimulated into activity. Only a portion of our soul’s memory is activated and brought into expression as our development through our initial conditioning, while the larger portion of it usually remains dormant and underutilized. In this sense the subconscious is only “potentially reproductive” and has to be given a seed of an idea as a pattern or dynamic, which serves to activate the latent powers of our inner nature that are of a similar nature in response to it. This works in much the same way the male provides the seed as one strand of DNA or group of information as potential qualities and characteristics and the female then matches it with another strand as a form of natural selection of complimentary qualities that together form a new whole of a unique, yet similar nature. The outer acts to stimulate the complementary aspects inwardly, bringing them out in an active state where they’re developed through expression as an interactive dynamic of some sort.

Memory is produced as accumulated experience through the dynamic marriage of the subconscious and self-conscious mind as “that which was, that which is, and that which will be” as a continuation or evolutionary flow produced by whatever we couple and combine with. This interaction between the masculine and feminine, between the self-conscious and subconscious produces a “stream of consciousness” as automatic internal dialogue and habitual thoughts replaying memories over and over. While the self-conscious has the ability to seed and impregnate the subconscious with new ideas for creating, what usually ends up happening is the subconscious drives thoughts in a repetitive manner by replaying memories over and over in our mind in a habitual manner.

       It’s easy to realize through self-observation of our own thoughts that we tend to think the same type of thoughts over and over, and what we’re thinking about today is the same things we thought about yesterday, last week, and last month. Through memory that’s replayed repeatedly through internal dialogue, we’re actually using the creative power of our self-conscious mind to program and direct our subconscious mind with the same ideas of the past as memories and simply create more and more of the same type of experiences, usually without ever realizing that’s what we’re doing and why. In order to embrace and begin utilizing our true ability to create, we have to learn how to still our constant random thoughts and prevent the emotional states they create and keep us locked into, and learn how to be fully present instead and think in terms of what we do want to create, and begin artistically designing the suggestions as imagined experiences that will provide new direction for our subconscious to begin creating.

In the symbolic idea of the “Book of Life”, which is the Astral or Akashic Field of the imagination, all experiences as deeds and actions, whether actually performed or just thought about intensely are “recorded” or impressed upon the soul and subconscious as its constitution, which is comprised of memory. The subconscious incarnates into a material body with the soul memory of all past events, of the race, the planet, and of humanity, all of which share the same subconscious mind, much like smaller fields that are nested within and interwoven with greater fields. The cosmic subconscious record of the entire planet are contained in what we call the “collective unconscious” of Nature and humanity, and acts as a natural form of instinct and intuition as interwoven memories that are an integral part of the same overall reality as a larger ongoing story and interactive dynamic.

The soul uses universal memory as archetypes for self-expression that provides the means for producing personal memory that becomes a permanent part of our soul’s psychological make-up. We create memory as the personal expression of universal archetypes that shapes us as an archetype ourselves. As humans with creative ability, we use various combinations of qualities and characteristics to shape ourselves as a unique, composite nature. The gods create man “in their image and with their likeness” as archetypal forces and powers that we “draw into ourselves” and use as the means of self-creating by becoming “like them” in personality, identity, and behaviors. We acquire the same qualities and characteristics of whatever we “become one with” in mind and body. All of humanity draws off of the same field of archetypal powers as the means of self-creating. So in this sense we’re all of the same universal mind and nature, just in different combinations and potencies.

       The subconscious works through intuition as a dynamic system of correspondences and is how things are connected and interrelated as a higher-form of instinct that’s always in-tune to the inner nature of things and how they relate to the outer nature of the whole. We perceive things intuitively through their natural connection and relationship to each other and as a congruent part of a larger reality or dynamic pattern. Intuitively we can perceive and recognize the same principle or idea playing out through various material forms and ecological systems as unique expressions and variations of the same nature and idea. The instinctual-intuitive mind exists as an inherent part of its environment, and is always present within that environment, unlike the self-conscious mind which exists “in time” and is usually thinking about the past or future and hardly ever present in the moment.

The two minds work together to create reality as both an inner and outer experience as a flow of concentration that’s immediate and “becomes one” with whatever idea it’s concentrating on and forming an internal representation of. Any idea that we concentrate on for an extended period of time literally becomes a part of us as a natural “thought process” or conceptual reality. As we “take in” and absorb an idea, allowing it to take hold and form into a detailed reality by thinking about it, is integrated into our mental paradigm and becomes a part of our perceptual lens and filtering system that we look through as a means of seeing the same idea as an inherent part of our outer environment. Once we form it into an internal representation of a possible reality, making it real and therefore believable, it acts just like an actual life event and memory and becomes a part of us and our ability to perceive and experience that same idea as it’s playing out all around us.

The inner and the outer, the feminine and the masculine, are dynamic aspects of the same thing, and one can’t be fully understood without the other. They act together to produce a “functioning third” aspect as their offspring. Just as the right and left hemispheres of the brain form a corresponding operation to produce a cohesive reality with contrasting aspects. The masculine is the concrete and analytical aspect, and the feminine the fluid and experiential aspect that together produce a corresponding inner and outer reality that’s used to create the memory that becomes a part of the soul’s constitution as a fundamental form of self-creation.

       What we refer to as a “genius”, use this method of single minded focus as entering into the “flow of consciousness” as deep states of concentration on an idea that allows access to the whole idea as a greater reality or corresponding idea, where intuitive insights spontaneously form. By tuning into an idea, we calibrate our mental field to the vibration of the idea as a kind of metaphor that begins resonating with that same idea as a vibration in everything else, forming sympathy with it. Through resonance, we “enter into” and become a part of that idea as a greater whole and can perceive its inner nature which appears to unfold within us, just as a memory does, revealing itself to us in its fullness. Through this process as entering into a stream of consciousness as a kind of magnetic current, we acquire knowledge intuitively as coming from an inner source as a passive vision that we simply “observe” with the self-aware mind by witnessing it. Whatever idea we “become one with” in mind and spirit, we synthesize and metabolize as a permanent part of our normal thought-processes.

The same laws of the human mind and soul are also operating in a complementary fashion on higher levels of which we’re an emanation, projection, or offspring of. Just as memory exists fluently on the material plane of instinct, it exists on the cosmic planes as archetypes, and we access both through the same method of intuition that concentrates by directing our full attention into an idea and in doing so accesses all information associated with it. We act as the vehicle for life as organized form and are able, by knowing how to use our mind to create, to evolve to higher states of organized form as a more complex and dynamic form of consciousness.

We impose limitation on an idea by confining it to a physical form located in time and space, because it’s necessary in order to self-express and create ourselves by way of being the vehicle for that idea. While involvement in a form is only temporarily binding and restricting for the Life-Force Power, being permanently incarcerated in form is extinction of the human soul and spirit. We’re always both growing and evolving ourselves to higher forms of consciousness by using our divine nature (higher mind) to self-create in an intentional manner, or degrading and devolving ourselves by creating out of the memories of our subconscious, emotional and animal-like nature.

Form disciplines force with a merciless severity (represented by the sphere of Mercy and Severity on the Tree of Life) by binding a free-moving force into a fixed idea, which represents death to the force. Incarnation of the soul and spirit into a body sets death into motion as the inevitable conclusion. Life in the body is death to the soul that gives it life, and death of the body is the birth of the soul that returns it to its natural state of liberation. The Higher-Soul acts within the etheric body of the lower soul to self-create through a constant state of evolving and “becoming” through self-perpetuated changes. The “self” shouldn’t be translated as “I am”, but rather as “I am becoming”, because it’s in a constant state of change as a continuous growth process through a basic state of self-expression. The soul becomes organized in form then constantly undergoes the process or re-organizing itself into new patterns by absorbing and taking on archetypal ideas that develop it by acquiring new qualities and characteristics. The soul and body are always transforming through constant life and death processes of regeneration. This process is carried out simultaneously on multiple planes and scales of existence.

Dr. Linda Gadbois

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Alchemy and the Process of Initiation – Transformation and Growth through Challenges and Ordeals

The ancient art known as “Alchemy” dealt with the idea of soul purification and self-creation through masterful use of the will. It works through Universal Laws that govern all of the material world as a primary form of mind-over-matter, or the mind’s ability to willfully direct the behaviors of the body (subconscious) and determine what type of energies as states of consciousness we take on, become one with, and bring into expression as a way of creating ourselves by way of them. It works through the same laws that govern the chemistry of the body, where, when two or more substances are combined, they form a chemical reaction as biological processes of transformation. All change and transmutation comes from new combinations of some kind that form new relationships as a unique variable that alters it from its original state. The alchemical process acts first to “purify” the substance (soul) to be transformed through various forms of changing the solution by filtering and separation, that identify and remove all impurities acquired through previous combinations and amalgamations, returning it to its virgin state. This process takes repeated steps of breaking down existing conditions and established patterns as active qualities, refining them through a process of distillation, and removing all corrupt aspects as weaknesses, vices, and vulnerabilities. Once returned to its original state, the true aspects of its character can then fully express and be developed into strengths as the means of true self-creation that comes from self-awareness, self-knowledge, and intentional actions and deeds. We can then act “on ourselves” to develop ourselves in very distinct ways by choosing what qualities we want to intentionally embody, become one with, and bring into expression as a way of apprehending those qualities and developing our character to include them.

       The Law of the Tetragrammaton or Tetrad (4), demonstrates this process and method of “becoming” through the Dyad (Vesica Pisces) as the blending together of two energy fields, joined at the center, where outside energies serve to stimulate and awaken those same energies in us, and together in the overlapping area, form an interference pattern as the reconfiguration of that pattern in both to form a new variation. This new variation of the same quality and idea, births the Triad as its offspring as an inner or imagined idea that provides the subconscious pattern for producing its outer equivalent as a projection or reflection, birthing its correspondence as an outer expression or experience of reality, represented by the Tetrad. This same principle is demonstrated in the most primary law of all, the Law of Vibration, which states that whenever we vibrate in harmony with something else, we act to magnetically draw it into us through sympathetic induction, blending with it, and both of our complementary, yet variable vibrations influence each other and begin vibrating in-sync, forming coherence as a new vibratory rate that together forms a new pattern. This law forms the very foundation as a guided process for not only realizing “how” we’re being shaped all the time by whatever we associate and interact with energetically, but for how to engage in and use that same process intentionally as a means of developing ourselves. The same process of returning a solid substance to a fluid state, purifying it by breaking down and dissolving all impurities and corruption, then reforming it through new combinations, occurs naturally in life anytime we’re faced with challenges, ordeals, major life crisis, and extreme forms of hardship and loss, where we’re forced to reevaluate our life and values, and embrace our identity with a full sense of awareness. It’s easy to see that the only time we change or grow in some way, is when we have to in order to overcome or negotiate a new situation that presents a problem or unfamiliar territory. It’s only when we’re taken out of our comfort zone, our ordinary conditions, circumstances, and situations that we’ve become accustomed to, and thrown into brand new, unexpected situations that we’re forced to respond by acting in a new and deliberate way. Where we go through the process in our mind of not knowing what to do, no previous experience or memory to draw off of or repeat, and we go through a decision process that requires us to willfully act it out, usually going against our own natural and habitual tendencies. Only in these moments are we truly self-creating in a fully aware manner. We’re initiating and producing our own reality that brings us into a new feeling and sense of ourselves. We embody qualities that we’ve never really expressed or developed before, and they transform us as a result. While in these moments, we’re back into a position, often for the first time as an adult, of having to make conscious decisions in every instance of what we’re going to do, how we’re going to be, and what we’re going to act intentionally to create.

        The process of initiation in the ancient mysteries, prepared the initiate by putting them in extremely challenging situations that were designed to invoke extreme fear and a deep sense of insecurity, which revealed their will to either give-up or give-in, or to persevere and push through difficulties, developing great mental fortitude through the process. The object was to not only become fearless, but to also be able to remain calm, highly focused, clear minded, and confident in extreme situations of all kinds. This came through the ability to not allow the energy challenging you to enter into your sphere of consciousness and alter your state of mind to match and be “like it”. This is what you might call a form of reverse engineering of the initial process of alteration through “combining and coupling” represented by the Dyad. In this process you deflect the energy, keeping it outside of you, refrain from reacting to it in any manner while staying centered and grounded internally, and in doing so, you neutralize the energy and act instead to influence and direct it through your mental projections and actions. All of life evolves out of various combinations as the relationships of complementary opposites that act on each other to transform each other to be more alike. Every person or being that we meet or interact with, is acting naturally just through the nature of the interaction to make us like them, and we act to make them like us. This is what all relationships are, a natural method of transformation through adaptation and modification that (re)forms a new whole as a variation. This process is always going on between us and everything around us all the time at the subconscious, unaware level of the mind. We are constantly absorbing, integrating, assimilating, and becoming “like” the energy around us as a basic form of evolution that keeps us in the same state and condition as the environment we exist in, function as a part of, and have to survive in. Once we fully understand this law and fact, we have the tools necessary to work by way of that same law to consciously direct and influence the operation. All energy is a form of consciousness that exists as “qualities” and feelings that naturally produce certain types of thoughts, emotions, and behaviors. The spiritual-energetic world exists in a parallel dimension to the physical as a hierarchical structure. Whatever exists on a “lower plane” is fully contained within the higher plane as its foundation. The higher plane, which contains the entire lower plane, is what acts to govern and sustain that plane. The invisible plane of energy, which is consciousness, is what shapes matter as essence into form through imagined thoughts. An idea introduced into the mind as a frequency or feeling, stimulates and initiates a thought process that forms it into an image of some kind as a reality in the mind’s eye (3rd eye), that’s further developed and evolved through a narration as internal dialogue. The entire physical, manifest world is produced and animated by consciousness as thought, intention, and imagination. And it’s through this same process, by working with the laws of the higher plane governing the lower plane that we direct and work with the energies of the lower plane.

       Once we return to a virgin state through the process of being broke down through constant challenges and crisis, where all illusions that prevented us from seeing ourselves and life as it really is dissolve, revealing only what’s real and eternal and unchangeable, we’re in the position to not only take over control of our own development, but can develop the necessary capacities of the mind that prevent us from being influenced, altered, and corrupted by others. All energy as states that produce emotional realities can be directed and brought into a submissive state by the will. We can control and regulate all energy within our own mental sphere (immediate surroundings) by exercising our will to direct it. This is not the same thing as “imposing our will on others” in an attempt to control and influence them to think, feel, and behave in a certain way, but rather to exercise full dominion over ourselves and our own mind and soul. Alchemy doesn’t concern itself with the idea or need to somehow change others, but only with the mastery necessary to become fully self-determined and self-controlled. The best way we have of influencing others is by controlling our own state and behaviors in how we interact with them, which influences them to “match us”. Once we realize that our mind exists as a spherical field of energy that not only permeates and surrounds our body, encapsulating it, but also extends out into the environment around us quite some distance, and is always mingling with and taking on the energy of everything else, we can begin acting deliberately to regulate our energy field by using our will and imagination to determine what we allow in to become a part of us, and what we keep out or deflect, so it doesn’t affect or alter us. If we learn how to tune into the energy in any situation and become aware of how it interacts with us to transform us through resonance, we can learn how to “sense it” by feeling it while imagining its quality, motives, and behavior, while keeping it “outside of us”. We can then realize that people who are willfully projecting through some form of intensity, and those who live out of and are always expressing and projecting strong emotions of some sort, can only “enter into us” and infect us, becoming a part of our mind, if we choose to let them. Energetic interactions take place naturally at the subconscious level, where, even though we realize how strongly we’re affected by them, we don’t realize what’s actually going on in the objective sense. We don’t realize that by becoming aware of what operates at the unconscious level, we can learn how to work with it consciously (with awareness). We can imagine an invisible barrier around us as the outer edge of our mental sphere where ideas and emotions being projected at us by others are allowed to reflect and “spread out” so we can see them as if “looking through a transparent image”, where we can “read them accurately” while preventing them from entering our mind and altering our state accordingly. By practicing this, we can remain calm, centered, and unaffected while in the midst of extremes and intensity of any kind. By remaining neutral in the presence of projected emotions we act to neutralize and diffuse them. But most importantly, we exercise the ability to regulate our own mind and body. This is a key ability of vital importance in terms of intentional self-creation.

        In this same manner we can consciously choose energy that we do want to blend with and become one with as a means of intentionally acquiring the same qualities. While we tend to use terms like “acquire”, “apprehend”, or” get”, to describe the energy and consciousness we embody as a means of developing qualities in ourselves, the fact is we don’t ever “get energy” as qualities “from” something else outside of us, but they act instead, through resonance, to “awaken” and bring into an active state those same qualities that are already “in” us. We then develop them through repetitive expression to become a prominent part of our character. Anything that we consistently develop through expression and interaction of some sort becomes a habit as second nature, which means we begin doing it naturally in an automatic fashion without direct awareness, having to think about it, or exerting intentional effort. This same process of union as combining and coupling with someone or something else as the natural means of transforming and growing, is represented in what’s called the “chemical marriage” of Alchemy, as the relationship between the active and passive forces of the same mind and soul, and the conscious minds ability to direct, guide, and create by way of the subconscious mind as a unified and harmonious act. It’s learning how to make an adjustment through an understanding of sympathy and antipathy, attraction and repulsion, magnetizing and projecting. By learning how to use our own personal will to seed and work to create through our subconscious, we create both ourselves and our reality in an intentional and purposeful manner.

       Likewise, the burning away of impurities as character flaws, unconscious complexes and tendencies, incorrect evaluations and calculations, or bad habits we developed as unconscious conditioning, we can resolve our bad (self-destructive) karma and create a more positive and beneficial form of karma. Redemption comes by first bringing what’s operating in our life unconsciously into conscious awareness where we can not only see what we’re doing and why, but we can also begin working with it consciously to resolve it. All manifestations produced by actions can be cancelled out and brought back into a balanced state through equilibration of opposites. It’s only by realizing and owning our own part in things that we see clearly what we’re doing in any situation that acting to co-create it, whether passively or actively, that we can willfully change our own perceptions and behaviors. It’s by counteracting an idea that we transform it by reformulating it, bringing what’s out of balance (emphasized) and being done unconsciously back into balance through awareness that brings realization. The realization alone is what acts to dissolve and transform the illusion. To redeem ourselves from an attitude and the actions that result from it, is to form and embody the opposite attitude and action, and repeat it consistently until it becomes automatic and something that we do without thinking about it. We can only be transformed and evolved by what becomes a habit as an essential part of our nature (through reprogramming our subconscious). Those of us who came into this life with many difficulties, challenges, and ordeals to overcome, are naturally walked through a process of initiation as soul purification, often without realizing it. Others intentionally choose a hard life because there’s a desire in them to meet and overcome difficulties. Still others refuse to compromise their dignity in a world that teaches conformity at the cost of morality, and in doing so, welcome the consequences of integrity, which can often seem brutal. All growth and development, in the sense of being the soul’s only true goal and purpose in life, is considered an act of love from a higher, spiritual perspective. It’s only when we’re challenged and overwhelmed and we reign as victor, that we’re exalted. The greater our fall, the more exalted our rising. It’s only when we push through tremendous odds, and when faced with devastation and wrought with unimaginable grief, in those darkest moments when we’re forced to reach down into our unknown depths of our self to find our true source of light and power that we ascend to the higher rungs by virtue of our own volition. Dr. Linda Gadbois Spiritual Life Coach and Integrative Mind-Body Medicine Mentor